#its 4 am and i really need to sleep

[skitskatdacat63]

I drew all of my historical AU Sebs!!!!

In order they are(with relevant links to lore info if you are curious!!): Napoleonic Hussar Seb(x), Renaissance Muse Seb(x) and Boy King/Emperor Seb(x)

Let me know which you like best!!!

#oh my fucking god this was truly the endurance race of drawing sessions #i just drew for four hours straight or so......FUN! #and it is now almost 5 am on a school night so pls wish me luck in school haha #basically this spawned from me seeing if i could sketch all 3 of my Sebs easily and then whoops 4 hours later they are finished! #i think now i can draw the hussar uniform with my eyes closed. it was so comforting to draw honestly ;;;; #this is actually the first time ive drawn boy king seb with colors!! so i think it turned out pretty well? #hey guys do you notice what all of the Sebs have in common...? they all have a gold motif...GOLDEN BOY CODED!!! #anyways i think the most developed of these AUs is boy king seb which is funny bcs its the one ive created most recently #but gaahhhhhh ive done so much research and im literally brainrotting over it constantly #now i need to draw fernando in his 3 AUs hahaha but drwing Seb is sooooo much more easy/comfy for me #did you guys also notice i have a fondness for a specific seb hairstyle? malaysia 2010 my truly beloved youve served me so well #i mentioned this already but like i dont get how drawing these kinds of clothing is far more preferable to me than drawing racesuits #well anyways i have so much fun researching into these different eras!! and then very fun to mix it with the drivers #im very surprised i was able to draw this. im not usually able to draw good chibi anatomy #but like seriously i think i was posessed by my thoughts of boy king seb and i just couldnt stop drawing #in didnt really have any mental roadblocks which is surprising #but then again these drawings are me mixing my two major interests atm so ofc it'll come to me easily and make me passionate!! #anyways time to go sleep pwease dont let this flop my hands literally are overheated from drawing LMFAO #catie.art. #sebastian vettel #f1 #formula 1 #f1 fanart #formula 1 art #formula 1 fanart #f1 art #boy king au #renaissance muse au #hussar au

[desertpirate77]

Cyberpunk 2077 - Tie Dye Collection

Here's the link

4 Items each for both Masc and Fem framed Vs. 18 color options Vanilla frames only for now, cuz I still need to learn how to refit

First big mod I've done and posted on the Nexus. It was sort of an accident cause it started as me learning how to do something, that accidentally went better than I thought it would.

Big thanks to everyone who took those beautiful pics: Ace, Altar, Beanie, Halkuonn, Kharonion, Lar Rackell, Lucky38, Nippie, PinkyDude, Quelatoni, Wilxfyre and Winks And a huge huge big thank you to the big brain mod experts on the Cyberpunks Discord server for the help and advice! 💖

#sorry for the brief description I am very tired #cyberpunk 2077 #cyberpunk mods #i made this #also its 4am here and I really need to sleep #set myself a deadline of getting it out by 4/20 and I did it #cp2077 #cyberpunk mod

[icewindandboringhorror]

sneeping with his legs up over his head for some reason... weird boye

#cats #love the second picture... skrungly sleepy well rested boye face... #since he's an elderly boy now sometimes when he wakes up from a nap he looks a bit scruffy and squinty eyed #Hard to beleive he's like 15 though.. he still looks like a kitten to me.. due to his giant round creature eyes and childlike demeanor #I think it's interesting that like... baby cats are babies. kittens are kittens. and you can tell a cat is like 'young adult' phase #looking from like a few months to maybe 1yr or 2yrs.. but after that they just always look the same to me #a 5 yr old cat is a 10 yr old cat is a 15 year old cat. unless the cat in question is particulalry aged or youthful #I still have so so little energy... it's been icy here this week. like not even FUN but just scary icy even thoguh i lOOOVE the cold #and its my favorite weather. I think it'd be okay actually if I had a woodburning stove/fireplace/hearth thing. literally thats my only #concern with the power going out. I genuinely don't mind stuff like having to go to the bathroom in buckets or cook over a fire or do other #less conveninet things. Its just that if eveyrhtng is electric then you have no way to cook and all of that. well.. and I literally need #background noise to go to sleep lest my ocd sprials become so loud I am slowly driven into maddness.. but a few battery packs or something #and a phone with one downloaded video I could play on repeat is fine for that. I dont need internet. ANYWAY.. so so sad that my fav #orite season ever (winter) is here. and the first cold of the winter is like... just an ice storm that you cant even walk in. I #love like 4 feet of snow where you can play in it and stuff. But just a thin flat sheet of a few inches of ice over every imaginable surfac #is not really playable. the wind speeds are so high and so many trees fall it's actually not that safe to go hang out outside anyway unless #you were in a totally clear open field. which is SAD also because i love ice and high winds. i love to stand out there and get whipped in t #he face with ice crystals and feel like I'm in some dramatic movie or something. but alas.. the threat of being attacked by a falling tree. #I did go out some but again it's like. literallyyou cant walk on it. so I just squatted and dragged myself along the ground lol #One of my stories has a whole section where the main characters are trapped in a deadly cold environment for a week and have to use magic #to survive and etc. etc. so I'm always like.. ouuu.. I should go in the ice.. it's Writing Research actually.. *foolishly gets frostbite* #THOUGH yesterday I went on a harrowing evil journey down a bunch of icy hilly roads to go check on some person's cat because the cat #had been left in the house for like 5 days at that point with nobody to check on them and nobody else seemed to want to do anything #about it (like call all of the neighbors or try to get someone out there) so I just went myself with a roommate who agreed to drive me. #It seemed acting totally normal and I gave it more food and water but.. I am still worried about it.. Apparently the person will be able #to get back to their house tomorrow but.. I dont trust them. But I couldnt take the cat with me because it's like.. a stranger's cat #basically and also no carrier + very skittish.. so I feared if I just tried to carry them bare handed they'd definitely leap from my grasp #and then it'd be like.. sliding on a sheet of ice chasing a cat and so on.. I still think they need to be watched for health issues tho >:| #ANYWAY.... many cat adventures lately... and strange weather... I wish for a normal week without always so many Things Happening.. augh

[cuppa-chai-chatter]

yknow how hannibal says he smelled his teacher's cancer?

#idk its 4:45 am flavor of funny #i really need to sleep #hannibal #hannigram #will graham #hannibal lecter #hannibal nbc #nbc hannibal #my posts

[yellowyarn]

my sleep disorder is disordering again

#how shocking #disability #nuero punk #nueropunk #madpunk #mad punk #sleep disorder #sleep disturbances #sleep deprivation #insomia #periodic limb movement Disorder #restless keg syndrome #delayed sleep phase disorder #i need sleep #i really need sleep omg #its almost 4 am please PLMD let me sleep omg #i have to wake up for school in like 3 hours

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#yesterday i was wandering around the campus where ive resided these last 4 years bc ive banned myself from running until my leg heals #and i was thinking like. what am i gonna miss about this place when i leave? bc im always thinking abt the things i cant wait to get away #from. and its a real short list. ill miss the palm trees bc i never get sick of seeing thrm. theyre so weird #ill miss the yucca. again bc theyre so weird looking. ill miss the way u can see where all the ants r bc in the non human populated areas #there isnt grass everywhere bc desert. ill miss that there r so many birds of prey hanging around. and the road runners and all the lil #lizards. and maybe in an abstract way ill miss being so close to the boarder bc when u live near a boarder boarders feel like bullshit #like staring down the road into another country. idk theres something i like abt that. ill probably also miss being able to run outside #all year long bc in the winter during the day all u need is a light jacket lol. where im going it gets real cold 🥶 #maybe ill even miss the constant blue skies. but idk ive always liked a cloudy sky better. makes me think of home haha #ill def miss how convenient my apartment rn is. the loft bed. the low cost. the 5min walk to campus. sigh. but thats pretty much it. i #dont think ill miss anything else. im not really close with anyone. my boss was the reason i came here and she left this school in January #so thats it i guess. i think i stayed a year too long and was not well for a lot of my time here but so it goes #just gotta move to the next place. just gotta pray pray pray that i find an apartment soon. i dont even wanna say anything abt it bc im #afraid to jinx things. even tho thats irrational. like. i just gotta somehow project how good a tenant i am. im so quiet u will never see #me and i never complain abt anything bc i have brain problems. sigh. i cant wait for this transition to b over #im so so so ready to be in a new place doing new things. but at least my energy is back. im back to high energy on little sleep lol #i dont understand how my body functions lmao. somehow when i get a normal amount of sleep it's a sign that i feel awful #unrelated

[selenealwayscries]

no energy for regular art so goodtimes be upon ye 

#mcyt #hermitcraft #hermitblr #goodtimeswithscar #gtwscar #i love him but im also just rotating him in my brain most of the time #cuz i still havent started watching his pov and im really busy lately so its not gonna happen soon :( #elf boy our beloved amirite #goodtimes be upon ye #i still don't know how to do digital art btw im just bullshitting #fucking around and finding out one might say #literally any good looking effects i end up with are accidental #also at this point i might as well consider strawberry as my main diet #like . dinner . occasional breakfast and lunch . and strawberries #my 4 meals #terrible for anyone whos malnourished #and thats exactly what i am aha #*trips down a flight of stairs and stays in the fallen over position* #anyways i need sleep lol bye

[teddy-feathers]

the thing about me is like. i know im ace. but theres a part of me that thinks maybe if it keep trying or try new things with it ill like it because i feel like i should like it.

its like. its like a food where you like everything that goes into it but not the thing itself.

i should like this. maybe if i try it again or change it up i will like it. i ahould like it theres so much about it that i do like - but i dont like it.

hell its like tea. theres 100s of varieties surely i can find one i like? no?

#i am so fucking tired #im going to sleep #i just needed to ramble #idk if this makes sense #but its annoying #i want to like it but i dont #1) too much like work/sports #2) as soon as my body has done its thing it loses intrest #and its gross annoying and tiresome #and boring #3) it really is like a sport and im just not entertained though i tried #4) while the idea of it is cool people looking at me that way #gives me the heebies #eh relationships actually are cloying too which is ehy im aro too #5) i have yet to meet see or be entertained by a person #in way that made my body sit up and take notice #i do not look at someone and go yes must fuck #unless i am already ready to go #and even then they're just a warm body #6) i look back at my experiences and think #dont fucking touch me #so yeah #i might think of more later but im ace #but the idea and sub cultures of sex are cool

[arcaneyouth]

oh god ive returned to "i dont have time to take breaks i need to be working constantly" even tho i have specifically designed my schedule to allow myself to take breaks

#vent post #negative #my everything is on fire #i feel like a little pussy bitch for having to take breaks #cause i know everything i need to do isnt that hard #but it IS that hard and i dont know why its getting to be this hard #it didnt used to be...? #why am i so slow again. hello #why is everything hard again #my schedule is not overwhelming but it is but its not but it really is #i have to rearrange my entire schedule to figure out all the new responsibilities im about to have and thats awful and is going to hurt me #but also none of this should be fucking hard #im on medication. do i need a better dose? did something change? #things to talk with my therapist about but my appointments not for a week and i dont have time to add one this week #i am not going to survive the adult world if i am acting like this man. what the fuck am i supposed to do tho #everything really does feel like it fell apart all at once and i should know how to fix it but its weird and wrong #......ive been sleeping more and being more tired lately too??? #maybe my ass needs to stay up til 3-4 am. for my mental health #i dont know. i feel lost and i have a map but im still ?????

[frostbite-the-bat]

hey so um aside from like, art posts i want to take another break from this site a bit. ive been fucking rotting my brain with it and wasting my time there constantly checking in and yeah thats fucking unhealthy im wasting my time and making my already horrid attention span even worse. if anything im on discord most of the time even if i dont respond right away. if you notice me like, late night posting when im tired feel free to send me a friendly ask to remind me and nudge me off but ill try to not let that happen.

ive also been slipping into bad thoughts on occasion again and i barely caught myself impulsively oversharing abt it again - even if i did mention it briefly at some parts i could've been rambling abt it elsewhere or to myself only making me feel worse which...is not good. i gotta get better and before school starts again i wanna get at least the tiniest bit better. this isn't anyone else's fault, just me placing priorities in the wrong places. but um yeah. im still around ofc!!! and i love talking i want to talk about stuff i like a lot!! im very happy to have ppl to talk about club penguin with... but ya ! ill try to not. check in here every 5 fucking seconds on god damn impulse

#like im even more shut in and unfocused on the real world now #which. im almost always im constantly trying to escape reality usually but now its kinda like. bad bad. #and also bc i dont sleep well i constantly feel dazy. #i forget to drink or eat properly sometimes and i feel just horrible and dismissive but #theres other issues here abt that i wont discuss. too personal #you dont need to know that. not like its some dark secret like you dont need to know shit i have going on with my family or whatever #a short break and i already feel like every day is possibly a day wasted...like today #today i promise to myself to go to sleep around 1 am and not 3-4 am #and progress slowly with that #and not beat myself over not being productive/doing what i wanted #today ALL DAY i REALLY wanted to play skyrim but now its too late for it... #i wasted 2 hrs in the morning waiting bc i desperately wanted to avoid talking to a visitor... #its a mess!!! #a lot of it i blame to unmedicated adhd but also me just. not regulating shit well. wrong priorities. and addictive website design lmfao.

[skitskatdacat63]

Oh boy I can't wait to get 5 hours of sleep before this gp 🌚

#fernando. im gonna need you to pull out a banger performance today #to make me waking up worth it #hes gonna win the race guys....... #forgot to draw him with a crown but tnats fine because hes gonna win #if not im gonna need to draw myself au comfort art 😭😭😭😭😭 #but god i really hope its noy a boring race(for me) cause ill just be morose and pass out for 4 hours #I WANNA BE HAPPY AGAIN 🥺 LIKE ZANDVOORT #hey guys remember that 15 years ago he won from starting 15 place- dont worry about the circumstances behind that #but ugh i guess i try to think about how good his starts are #like p5 wasnt that promising 2 race ago but hey look where we go #*got #sorry but i am kinda just manifesting a ferr//ari fuck-up and me//rc of course #nothing else matters as long as nandos on top 👏👏👏👏👏👏 #my mclaren boy isnt even up there either so :(((( #MANIFESTING PLEASE #sorry i am tiresd and delusional and am resigning myself to so little sleep 😭😭😭😭 #i gotta be positive in some form! #im tired enough that i really am considering praying to my fernando poster HAHAHAHAH 😭😭😭😭 #about to kneel down i swear to god #catie.rambling.txt

[boomerang109]

one thing that sucks about theatre is that it literally is built around people coming to see it so no matter how good a production is, if there wasn’t good advertisement beforehand, it isn’t nearly as satisfying

#also it extra sucks that i had like 3-4 irls who said they were gonna come and they just didnt #and im not mad or anything. its spring break and also life happens and everything #but it just sucks to work so fucking hard on a production and barely have any audience #and even the audience thats here like. isnt people i know/care about #shout out to my one friend who DID come though and after giving me a tiny gift was like ‘okay i have to run my flight is like in four hours #I need to sleep’ THAT is more dedication than I would’ve given personally #but yeah to my irl who follows me if you see this I promise this isnt @ you #i just use tumblr like a diary #(but I gotta say I reaaaaally hope you don’t see this lmao) #but also i kept being like ‘okay i just need to hold out i KNOW this one specific irl is coming’ and they didnt :(( #and i cant even be upset cause theyre chronically ill and they were doing big things the rest of the weekend so I bet they were having #a flare today. AND they’re gonna take me to get blood drawn tmrw which is like. the biggest favor in the world #so like expecting them to come see a two and a half war play on top of that is excessive #but I just. I was really proud of this show and I am sad i didnt get to share it with any of my friends yknow? #(AND i wanted to be able to talk to people and then to the actors be like yeah this is my friend—- AND I COULDNT) #also my roommate literally told me last night she was coming and i don’t think she’s here #but im pretty sure she’s hungover so im not too surprised lmao #anywayyyy im just complaining its fine im excited to get HIGH and play viddy games tonight

[andromedasummer]

want u 2 all know that after a month of procrastinating i have 28 hours to write a 1,800 word essay, a 1,500 word essay and a 3,000 word essay

#the good news is i am 1.400 words into the first after only an hour (my talent is writing and i can do it fast) #the bad news is i have work tomorrow so thats about 4-5 hours i will lose plus the 6 hrs of sleep i will need tonight #so really its 18 hours #wish me luck final essay hand in for the tri is 11.59 tmrw night #im gonna have a drink break and finish this assignment then head home #at least i KNOW i'll be passing english #edit: i realize you guys dont know me. i can do this. trust me. i will hate every minute of it but i can do this #i need 1.5-2 hrs minimum to write a 2.000 word essay and 30 minutes to edit it #little more for 3000 but this is a 100 level essay so we'll see #and i will at least get a B- #im telling you its my one talent in life and it makes not procrastinating really difficukt

[occult-roommates]

Lügner, Lügnerin

Back at Audrey’s place, Dawud brushed his teeth, as he was getting ready to go to bed. However, upon hearing his best friend cry in her bedroom, he had to make sure everything’s ok in there.

Audrey: I’m so scared, what if aliens literally don’t like me...Oh my god, what if aliens are racist? Dawud: Hey, don’t worry. One of my roommates is an alien and they’re very much in love with black Earthling women. Audrey: ...Dav...What are you even talking about?  Dawud: Look, Audrey, in theory I’m supposed to keep it a secret, but that’s the truth, and I’ve been wanting to tell you for months. One of my roommates is an alien, I am not joking. Their name is Kino Gurafee and- Audrey: Kino? Dawud, you’re making this up. It’s literally the German word for movie theater. Like, I remember back in high school we did a project for German class where had to talk about, and I still remember this sentence verbatim years later from how hard we memorized this project; der letzte Film den wir im Kino gesehen haben. In fact, Kino Gurafee sounds like a play on cinematography. Dawud: Why would I make a play on cinematography out of all the words on the planet? Audrey, if I was messing with you, I would have name the alien something like Diese Nawtz or Uar Mome. Audrey: I also remember while we were doing that project back that you got fixated on the word Kinematographie and would repeat it on loop for months on end.

Dawud had no memory of this category 5 echolalia event, but now that she mentions it, yeah, it did happen. Damn, that girl memory might actually be way too efficient for her own good. Anyway, he started arguing with her that no, he’s not lying, he does indeed live with an alien and then...she slapped him, out of nowhere.

Dawud: What the fuck Audrey! Audrey: Look, I might be an autistic girly girly girl, I might love pink and have an actual unicorn decal on my wall and be obsessed with aliens, but I’m still a grown ass woman. Don’t start telling me very obvious lie in order to make me feel better like you’d do to a child! Dawud: Alright! Yes, I’m lying! You’re happy now!

Well, he did not sound convincing at all. But instead of pissing off Audrey even more, it just made her regret slapping him, it was obvious enough he was hurt, not just physically but emotionally. 

Audrey: D-Dav I’m so sorry. Dawud: I’m so tired of lies. Like, earlier this month, I freaked out at Daniele and my pilot friend from work cause Dan told me he made out with him. And in hindsight I feel so stupid for not realizing it right away. It was so obviously fake. I hate lying actually, make me feel bad. Audrey: Wow, go tell that to your mother, who you pretended you were still in school for more than a year when in actuality for most of that time you were a depressed NEET sleeping on my couch. Dawud: Ok, yes that was messed up, but you thought I was happy and comfortable living a lie? In fact, while she knows the truth now, I’m pretty sure it strained our relationship by a lot, which really fucking hurt. She might never trust me ever again after that. Ever since, I try to be as honest as possible. Audrey: Thank god cause that whole alien roommate thing shows you’re a pretty bad liar actually when you’re in front of the person. At least you got away with lying to your mom by avoiding her for a whole 18 months. Dawud: I’m not even good in telling when people are lying. Like that whole body language thing sounds like bullshit honestly...That or I might be autistic too, I don’t know. I feel like I don’t have enough traits to qualify, but I wonder pretty often. Audrey: I mean, I’ve been suspecting it too...And so does my mom...Your mom knows but she doesn’t believe it. Dawud: What?? Audrey: Yeah, back in 5th grade when I got diagnosed, my mom noticed you also fit a lot of the criteria, so she told your mom and she kinda denied it cause admitting it would “put your future in jeopardy”. Also it was around the time your father’s died so you were under a lot of stress already, and you were being bullied a lot to begin with. That would just have put even more weight on your shoulders. Dawud: I don’t even understand why I was being bullied so much back in elementary school! I mean, I don’t think it was that obvious I would grow up to be queer and I only got fat during puberty. Audrey: Well, you are from an Iraqi family and it was the 2000s...

Oh, ok that was a lot to take in on a Saturday morning at 4 am. Well, assuming he indeed is, that would...explain a lot. Yeah, getting diagnosed in 5th grade would have put a lot of weight on his shoulders, but so is being an undiagnosed adult who is trying to make it into this world as if nothing is wrong. Also, funny his mom didn’t want to get him diagnosed cause it would put his future in jeopardy, but in the end Audrey ended up a fine mostly functional adult and he’s just been all over the place in recent years...Sometime he wasn’t even all over the place, he was just straight up in a dark place.

Audrey: Though, let’s say, considering we’ve been the best of friends since kindergarten, I know it’s because we were next door neighbours and our parents were friends, but like...Ok, it’s ironic cause I’m about to use an idiom, but you know, birds of a feather fuck together. Dawud: ...Don’t you mean flock together??? Audrey: I mean...they can fuck too...If you know what I mean. Dawud: No, in fact I don’t.

Whelp, Audrey don’t know what she expected.

It all started because Audrey wanted to see a flying saucer, and now he’s finding out something new about himself. I mean, it’s not 100% confirmed, but it seems pretty likely. Much to process and think about as he’s trying to fall asleep at 4:30 in the morning.

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#ts4 #sims 4 #the sims 4 #simblr #ts4 simblr #sims community #sims 4 community #occult roommates #audrey newberry #dawud sahan #long post #no its actually 4 am where i live too i really need to go to sleep #OcRo s1

[scrambled-eggsed]

Unfortunately discovering that 70% of having a job is stressing about doing everything wrong even though its probably okay, and just. Being Worried 24/7

#personal #im hoping itll wear out eventually #optimistically by the next thursday #how the fuck do u spell pasimisticaly #anyway if itll be bad itll take like. a month? #at least i now generally know What To Do #fucking hate counting tho #also fucking hate how HARD it is to push stuff at 23:00 on not enough sleep food or water #which reminds me i also need to worry about food tomorrow #👹 #yeah by this point im making notes for the mental list of stuff for tomorrow #bc thing is. i have work until 4pm (so probably 4:30 bc im still bad at timing everything) #and when i get home i need to already have eaten #and then vacuum the house #(which i guess i could ask to not do if im REALLY tired? we'll see) #and i am hoping to god i could get some sleep in the afternoon bc that evening theres a birthday party for my friend #and tbh of all the parties that couldve been its the optimal one bc she lives super close to me #so ill come late after sabbath dinner bc i dont need a bus to get there #so to summarize i have 7~ hours of work on not enough sleep‚ cleaning the house‚ SLEEPING FOR THE LOVE PF GOD‚ going to a party #well. i say party. my friends are more silly than 'party' makes them sound #also probably gonna sleep like shit tonight bc my mom and brother demanded the ac stays on and its always fucking freezing in my room #well. *tries to scream but it comes out as sort of a sad gurgle*. congrats if u read this far ily

[darksouls2yuri]

😐😐😐😐😐 SHOULDNT HAVE LOOKED AT THE SYLLABUS IT SAYS WEEKLY ZOOM MEETINGS TO CHECK PROFICIENCY

#txt #sorry sorry sorry. i hate talking i hate talking i hate talking. #like ik ik im taking online courses so i shouldve expected but i hate zoom i hate zoom i hate zoom!!!!!!!!!! #my other professors that wanted to do zoom always wanted to see my face too and i have really really bad anxiety abt being watched #and at people looking at me i hate being looked at. i freakrd out last semester ehen i had to record myself giving a poetry analysis #idk idk idk. anne needs to go to sleep challenge. #but also ive only ever been good at writing in french im so fucking bad at talking im self conscious esp bc of my accent bc its hard to #make a lot of the sounds in french bc i cant make those sounds ehen i talk bc of my accent. i cant say Rs barely at all. my vowels are #fucked up. idk im so self conscious abt my language skills but its important and i want to push myself. but i am full of self doubt. #and constantly comparing myself to my wife bc shes multilingual and grew up being multilingual (english russian n hebrew). she can speak #like 8 different languages ik 4 at a native level n i know i can never do that. but i beat myself up abt it bc idk #goodnigjt