#its anakin there - exposed like a vulnerable nerve - but hes there at the forefront and you can see his hesitation to ahsoka's offer

[di-kutla]

The RotS novel is really out to crush my heart and emotions before I even get 100 pages in, isn't it

#carif.txt #im finally trying to make time in my busy work schedule to read the sw books i bought #and GOD #just. just FUCK the amount of love and trust shared between obi wan and anakin KILLS ME #whether you view them as romantic or platonic they just. #theres so much pure and whole hearted love between and it HURTS knowing whats going to happen #and thinking that -for obi wan- that love he has for anakin has never once wavered #even after the siege on the temple and after mustafar #obi wan still has so much love for anakin #and okay god the kenobi series is gonna kill me and i cant wait for it bc like #i keep thinking to how anakin keeps getting all these chances to turn back to the light #these opportunities keep coming to him and he HAS been shown that the people who once loved him do still love him #theyre still willing - WANTING - to give him a chance and they refuse to give up on him #and thinking about that scene from rebels where ahsoka fights him at that sith temple #and when his mask breaks its clearly no longer both the physical and metaphorical mask that anakin hides behind #its anakin there - exposed like a vulnerable nerve - but hes there at the forefront and you can see his hesitation to ahsoka's offer #there has to be a part of him that truly wants to walk the path of the light again but staying in the dark is his own punishment to himself #and I just realy hope theres going to be a scene like that in the kenobi series #where they meet and obi wan shows that he still loves anakin despite of everything #and he gives anakin the offer that its not too late there is still good in you. i can see it - so can padme #im just. sobs #im emotional over them this morning apparently help