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miya-rin · 1 year

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"i can't believe you got in a fight.”

“he hit me first, you just expect me to stand there and take that?"

a small chuckle leaves his mouth at your choice of words, standing between you parted legs osamu has been patching you up after a ‘small mishap’ with one of your classmates.

"obviously not, its just…" his voice trails off as he rummages around in the first aid kit until he finds an alcohol wipe, gently tearing it open before swiping it across your cheek, you wince in discomfort and he gives you an apologetic look. "sorry — its just, you're not really the type to hit someone, like i know you can defend yourself but cmon, you knocked him out."

"deserved."

"you really are something else." he laughs as he starts to dig around to find something else to slather over your face.

"thankyou."

"not a compliment."

“i'm gonna take it as one."

"i knew you would."

"yeah yeah whatever, you would have done the same.”

“oh yeah totally.” he picks up a tube of antibacterial cream and gently starts to apply it to the cut on your cheek, making sure to be extra careful as to not put too much.

“thankyou by the way.” he tilts his head up to look you in the eye for a split second before focusing back on the cream in his hand.

"hm?"

"for cleaning me up and that, thankyou."

"yeah well you probably wouldn't have, the blood would just be dried up all over your hands and face.”

"oh shut up," you let out a light laugh and by god you sound amazing "i'm not that bad."

"sure, whatever you say.”

the room elopes in silence — comfortable silence, the kind where you're not too worried if someone speaks or not, and yet you do.

"say, how long have you been dying your hair?"

"oh, i'm not sure, wh-" his words are cut short as he feels your hands snake up his undercut and into the dyed strands atop his head. shit he thinks, he so badly wants to look up at you, but he knows that if he does he won't be able to look away.

"it's really soft, what conditioner do you use? it must be good for it to not be completely dead."

"yeah." he stutters slightly, but just enough that you might not have been able to hear it. god he hopes you didn't hear it.

he still doesn't answer your question, staying quiet for a good minute or so before you decide to take action. gently tugging at his hair, an indication for him to look at you, he puts down whatever he was fiddling with and his eyes meet yours. they're a lot wider than normal, he almost looks scared, but from the dusting of pink spread across his cheeks you can tell it's something different. hes nervous.

“osamu, did you hear me?” the way you’re lightly scratching at his scalp turns him to putty in your hands. “i asked you a question.”

“uhm..i started dying it when i was like 13? so about 5 years now. and whatever conditioner my ma brings home.” you hum in approval as you continue to mess around with his hair.

“you know…i should probably finish bandaging you up.” he makes a start at grabbing some plasters to put over your bruised and bloody knuckles, avoiding eye contact even harder than before.

“wow, you wanna get rid of me that quickly? youre cold osamu.”

thats gets him to look at you.

“i never said that.”

“dont act dumb now, i heard you loud and clear.”

“youre putting words in my mouth.”

“oh so you’re accusing me now? this isnt the osamu i know and love.” as soon as that last word falls from your lips osamu burns a crimson red from his face to his neck and probably lower, choking on his spit and trying to catch his breath. if only you had your phone on you.

“you what?” he can finally speak by the looks of it.

“i love you. dont act like you didnt know.”

“yn, tell me youre joking.”

“are you rejecting me right now? thats a mean way to do it dont you think?”

“are you kidding me? ive had a crush on you since we were 15.”

“i know, why dont you do something about it?” you say with a sly smirk. he still looks on edge at the whole interaction, but theres no time like the present.

he lifts up his large and calloused hands to grab both sides of your face before bringing you into a sweet but passionate kiss, it doesnt last long as you are both conscious of the fact that anyone could walk into the schools medical room, but it is just enough to leave you both satisfied after years of pining. pulling away you are met with that boyish smile you fell in love with all those years ago.

“now that i think about it, im kinda glad you got into that fight…”

“so am i.”

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forlorn-crows · 5 months

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Crow!

I have a question...questions? Request? Maybe a little bit of both...?

I am a (relative) newcomer to the fandom, I've been hyper-focused on Ghost for the last year and my heart's completely, irreparably and quite blissfully gone on all of the Era IV Ghouls (Phantom and Aurora included), but, in particular, on our beloved Earth Ghoul Mountain (Mmmmmountain...💕)

HOWEVER, recently, I've begun trying to learn more about the previous era's Ghouls, and although I already have a growing appreciation for Omega, there's another that I find myself circling back to again and again and again...

...Zephyr.

Unfortunately, there seems to be a distressingly small amount of information on him in terms of HC's and fandom lore which really does make it harder to get a feel for his character and personality, so, I was wondering if you could help with that.

How do you see him in your head?

What is he like?

Who is he to you?

Please help me add a tenth Ghoul to the nine I already love...

hi, welcome!

ive got lots of headcanons about them so i'd love to go through some of those for you. i'll drop some great zephyr photos first and then we'll continue under the cut :3

firstly, i cant tell you where the name zephyr originated. maybe fanfiction or other fan circles. zephyr is more commonly known as "chAir", because they were almost always sitting down to play. sort of like cowbell is named after the instrument he appeared for two seconds to play lmao

you'll notice i use they/them pronouns for zeph. thats something i picked up from @gayrickgrimes when i first started interacting more with ghost fanfic. but lots of people also use he/him. not sure why nonbinary zeph has really stuck with me since then, but i quite enjoy it!

i would say the most commonly shared headcanons about zephyr are as follows:

older in age, like omega or alpha often are portrayed

has chronic back and/or joint pain (there's lots of clips of them walking off stage holding their back, thus the headcanon)

has light or white hair, commonly portrayed as longish and wavy.

reserved. maybe a little "old mannish" at times. less spontaneous than other ghouls.

however! they like groovin' on stage. can be seen doing some wiggles during their keytar solo or jamming out on their stool.

some artistic portrayals i love are @endopyre's, @turbodrawn's, and @kamonart's :3 also for a portrayal that doesnt necessarily fit those 'common' appearance hc's above is @joeynihil's zeph, whom i LOVEEE.

i also love @divine-misfortune's depictions of them, but i have indeed given void the zephyr brainrot soooo....oopsies sorry not sorry.

so, now onto the things i specifically headcanon about zephyr. i dont know if youve read any of my ficlets with them yet, but i do have a few! generally, i hc pretty similar to the above bullet points. some other thoughts i have are as follows:

i think zeph has a more antiquated way of speaking. doesnt use a lot of slang or 'modern' words. is very precise, refined in the way that they speak.

very amicable with and well-loved by their pack (aether, ifrit, dew, mountain).

has an 'air' about them, if you will (pardon the pun haha). some may say its too much like they're looking down their nose at you, but i think they're clever, smooth, and teasing in equal measure. has a way with words, in more ways than one.

they really do like to have fun on stage, and i think they like to 'let loose' a little bit that way. that ghoul can groove and move when they want to! and i do enjoy watching ritual footage of them, would recommend <3

not sure if you're interested in unglamoured hc's, but i think they turn very gangly, resembling something like a vulture or other long-legged birds. taloned feet and hands. hocked legs. feathers sticking out behind their ears and tattered, crooked wings. bright eyes that glow in the dark and can see for miles. razor sharp teeth. literally terrifying if you catch them peering at you from high in the trees.

likes when the others offer to help with their back pains. ifrit with his warm hands. aether with his quintessence. maybe mountain with weed or dew taking them to the lake to take some weight of their joints. always very kind, thankful in return.

i think the abbey has a chapel with an organ that zeph likes to play. i think that's what they learned on originally, and transferred that knowledge to the keyboard. when they retired from the band they still enjoyed playing for midnight mass or special occasions.

lastly, i think zeph is a quiet dom. very controlled of a ghoul in normal situations, but very good at controlling and directing others. has a silver tongue and can absolutely take mountain down to studs with just words. i have many feelings about mountzeph in general, and how their dynamic works, which ive explored a little bit. but in general, i think zeph likes to have that control, either because they have pain that doesnt allow them the freedom to explore certain pleasures, and/or because thats what they like. its natural and fun for them. and its certainly fun for everyone else involved lmao. i just think of them as a very elegant ghoul in all aspects of their life.

all in all, im very fond of zephyr as a character, at least how i see them in my head and how i've seen them portrayed by others thus far! hopefully that can serve as some inspiration for you in 'getting to know' this air ghoul :3

#ask #anon #zephyr ghoul #ghoul headcanons #please check out the tagged creators as well!!

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altermay · 5 months

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Tw/ transphobia, discussions of dysphoria, brief mention of suicide, descriptions of child abuse

Getting unbearable. Feeling sick. Started working to afford hormones only to find out the service that is most accessible to me (plume) doesnt offer T in alabama anymore due to changing laws. Fuck all these stupid politicians putting their noses in others lives.

Thought people at work wouldnt make a super huge deal, as I was selective with who I told, so i thought maybe I could hold out a bit longer and at least i wouldnt have to feel so dysphoric all the time, since all my coworkers knew me as Monte. But then instead of my name, people who would usually call anyone else by their name started calling me “Miss” and “maam”

Even the ones I had come out to, and even the ones who told me they were accepting.

Whatever, im from a small rural area, so transphobia is not new to me, what is new to me, however, is being openly trans in an unfamilliar environment. I thought I could start T quickly and maybe people would ever forget that im trans in the first place, but now its been so long.

Some people call me He, and use the right pronouns, but increasingly lately Ive received a myriad of transphobia.

Being called tranny loudly while my coworker kicks my broom as I try to sweep (kicking hard enough for the broom to almost leave my hands and hit another person behind me) , Getting called “it” behind my back. Stuff like this is becoming more common.

The two coworkers who called me it, have been spreading lies about my work performance these past five days, Ive been told my three different people that every time I leave to go do something they start talking badly of me. So I got to my breaking point, at this point it had nothing to do with the pronouns, I was just upset that two forty+ year old adults were purposefully making my job harder to do while I was also struggling with a ton of other stuff (ptsd, seasonal depression, a family members recent suicide) and so I couldnt stop crying.

Despite this situation having nothing to do with me being trans, they are now trying to spread the narrative that Im just being sensitive because they were misgendering me while they were borderline bullying me.

If I was not trans, people would take me seriously on these issues. But now, because I am upset, suddenly Im just a stereotype. A sensitive trans person who is offended because someone used the wrong pronouns a few times.

I will be one to say, I do not give a SHIT about my pronouns. Ive been called the wrong ones my whole life by a majority of people. That was never the issue. But because Im trans, that is the only issue people can perceive for me to have. The ONE issue I had with them regarding my pronouns was them calling me “it” and thats not because its the wrong pronoun, thats because its DEHUMANIZING.

But now I have other coworkers who know NOTHING about the situation saying shit like “well if she claims shes a man maybe she should suck it up” “well if she wants to be seen as a man maybe she shpuld cut her hair”

Fuck you. How about YOU get beaten for 17 years, YOU watch your siblings get beaten near to death for 17 years. YOU have flashbacks of things you dont understand all day every day and we will see how fucking well youre able to “suck it up” you are WEAK. YOU ARE ALL WEAK. And you dont know what its like to be me. My mother tried to kill me. My mother almost killed my sister, I was neglected, never went to a doctor, and I STILL dont know how to take care of myself. And I still havent recovered all of the memories.

Ive had SHORT HAIR ive had LONG HAIR Ive had a MOHAWK, ive had a BUZZCUT ive been BALD. And people STILL fucking saw me as a woman. Im tired of conforming to this bullshit just so people can treat me the same as they always do

Fun fact though, since Ive had long hair Ive been gendered correctly by strangers MORE than I have with ANY OTHER HAIR STYLE.

These stupid fucking transphobes and their stupid fucking stereotypes im so fucking sick of it all. And corporate wont do anything about it, Im sure of this.

Why is it so hard for me to just live my fucking life.

Im so sick of it all

#vent #tw vent #tw transphobes #transphobes #transphobia #tw suicide mention #suicide mention #abuse #child abuse #neglect #tw abuse

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depressedhouseplant · 4 days

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🔞 In Darkness I Found You 🔞

Chapter 14

Tags: He’s having a baby, y’all

A/N: At the end this time because it contains a spoiler for the chapter

Yoongi’s water broke in the best possible place. The toilet. However, that meant he was about to go into labor. It was 2 days before Halloween. The first contraction came and felt like he’d been kicked in the gut.

Oh fuck.

He managed to clean himself up and hobble down the hall to the living room. He hadn’t hurt this much since he had the litter. This pup wasn’t waiting around for anyone.

“You need to call Tae and Yuna,” Yoongi huffed.

“What? Why?” Hobi looked up from his laptop.

“This pup is on its way,” Yoongi said. “Like now.”

“Okay, ummm, I’ll call Tae now. Do you need anything?” Hobi hopped up. Kookie came bounding down the stairs.

“What’s going on?” He asked.

“Your niece or nephew is on its way right now,” Yoongi put his hand on the wall to steady himself. He looked at Hobi.

“Call them soon,” he said.

Tae and Yuna might not even make it before it was born. Kookie helped Yoongi make his way to the bedroom and sat on the edge of the bed.

“Can I help?” Kookie asked.

“There’s a plastic sheet, like a tarp, in the dresser. Put it on the bed,” Yoongi breathed through the contractions.

“Okay,” Kookie scrambled to get the sheet on the bed.

Yoongi kept breathing and trying not to panic. He wasn’t there. He wasn’t strapped to a bed with an IV in his arm. He wasn’t alone. When this pup came out they’d hand it to him, not whisk it away.

“They’re coming,” Hobi said as he came back in the bedroom. “Honey you look really pale.”

“I’m okay. I’ll be okay,” it was more for himself than Hobi. Hobi pulled Yoongi up on the bed with him. He held him like he’d always held him for the procedures up to this point, between his legs with Yoongi’s back resting on his chest. He had one arm looped under Yoongi’s arms and was grooming him with the other hand. Kookie was wringing his hands and trying not to get too anxious.

“You’re gonna do great. Our pup is almost here. We’re finally gonna meet him or her. You’re not alone, my love. I’m right here,” Hobi told him.

“I know, but I’ve had to do this alone 5 times,” he was trying not to cry.

“Not this time. You couldn’t get rid of me even if you wanted to,” Hobi scented him.

“I don’t want to,” Yoongi replied.

“Good,” Hobi smiled.

“We’re here!” Tae called.

“You better suit up quick. This pup is ready to make its entrance,” Hobi replied. Yuna and Tae put on gloves and disposable gowns over their clothes. Kookie knew enough to get out of the way.

“Shit, you weren’t kidding. I can already see the head,” Yuna said. “Push!”

Yoongi held his breath and pushed.

“One more,” Yuna instructed.

He pushed again as Hobi brushed his sweaty hair off his forehead. This was it. They were seconds away from being a family of 3. Then their daughter came howling into the world. Yuna gave her a quick wipe down as Tae cut the cord.

“Meet your little girl,” she said as she handed her to Yoongi.

“Hi,” was all Yoongi could get out before he started to cry. It had taken 8 years and 9 lost pups in one form or another, but he was finally holding his daughter. The one who hung on. The one who fought. The one Hobi fought for. He didn’t have words for what it felt like, only tears.

“Promise me those are happy tears,” Hobi said. Yoongi nodded. Hobi looked over his mate’s shoulder at the baby. She was pink and plump with the squished look of having just come out of a vagina.

“She’s beautiful,” Hobi kissed the the side of Yoongi’s head. She nosed at Yoongi’s chest and he helped her latch. “Already got an appetite.”

“Does my niece have a name?” Tae asked.

“Jina. After the one who helped me bring her to you,” Yoongi said. It was the feminine form of Jin. “What was your mother’s name?”

“Jane,” Hobi replied.

“Jina Jane Min-Jung,” Yoongi said.

“JJ,” Hobi said.

“Or that,” Yoongi said.

“Maybe Alpha Daddy will call her JJ and Omega Daddy can call her Jina,” Hobi scented Yoongi as the baby nursed.

“Omega Daddy wants to sleep,” Yoongi said. “They never let us sleep before. We had to get all kinds of shots and meds to…”

“Sleep all you want Omega Daddy. You just gave birth,” Hobi said. “Like a champ, I might add.”

“Can Alpha Daddy stay?” Yoongi asked.

“Of course,” Hobi replied. “Let’s get this dirty sheet off first.”

He looked over at Tae, Kookie, and Yuna when he got up and saw they were all crying.

“I thought it was unprofessional to cry,” Hobi teased.

“That’s my niece who I also doted on, please and thank you,” Tae said.

“I’ve never had a successful Breeder birth before and you’re just so...in love,” Yuna replied, wiping her eyes.

“Pup,” was all Kookie could choke out.

“I appreciate you all, but the new daddy wants to sleep and I’m not going to stop him,” Hobi said, extracting the sheet from under them with Kookie’s help.

“I’ll stay for a bit just in case he needs any aftercare. Not that anything went wrong, but if he wants any pain meds or something,” Yuna said.

“Sure, he might decide he wants something later,” Hobi said.

In an uncharacteristic show of affection, Tae hugged his older brother. Hobi hugged him back.

“Congratulations,” he said.

“Thank you,” Hobi replied. Yoongi had already rolled on his side, with Jina still nursing. Hobi got in front of them so Jina was between them, just like when Yoongi had been pregnant. Yoongi was struggling to keep his eyes open.

“Go to sleep, Omega daddy. I’m here. I’ve got you. Both of you,” he gently stroked Jina’s head.

“I love you,” Yoongi whispered.

“I love you, more,” Hobi replied. “I love you too, JJ.”

Yoongi woke up when Jina started to fidget. Hobi also stirred awake.

“What does our little princess want?” he yawned.

“She might be cold. The onesies Jin gave us are in the nursery,” Yoongi replied.

“I’ll get one and a diaper,” Hobi rolled over and went to the nursery. Yoongi sat up and held the baby on his chest.

“Sorry little miss. Omega Daddy was too sleepy to remember to put you in some jammies,” he said. “Omega Daddy isn’t used to taking care of pups.”

The baby was still fussy when Hobi came back with a diaper and a onesie.

“I picked this one,” he held up a white one that said “Daddy’s Girl” on it.

“I like it,” Yoongi laughed a little.

“Okay, little one. Come see Alpha Daddy and I’ll get you in some jammies,” Hobi took the baby from Yoongi. She wouldn’t stop wiggling as Hobi tried to get her dressed.

“I think she might end up looking like you,” he said once he finally succeeded and passed her back to Yoongi so he could get back on the bed.

“You think?” He asked.

“I think. Are you gonna look like your Omega Daddy, JJ?” Hobi cooed at her. Yoongi smiled & tried not to cry again.

“Eight years,” he said quietly. Hobi gently took Jina back and rested her on his shoulder. He tucked Yoongi under his other arm.

“And you have a family now. Not just me and JJ, but Tae and Kookie, too. You know Tae and Kookie want pups. Did you see Kookie with Jisoo? I was convinced he was going to force Tae upstairs the second everyone was gone,” Hobi smiled.

“I’m happy, I promise. I’ve just got so much to process…” Yoongi said.

“I know. I mean, I don’t know, but I understand this is a lot for you. We’ll help you get through it. If you’re able to pump, I can take some of the late night feedings. I don’t know if that’s something that might be hard for you. Tae says there’s really good formula these days and I trust him,” Hobi said.

“Can we just sit here and not think for a bit?” Yoongi asked.

“Sure. I think our little princess is sacked out. She must have just been chilly,” Hobi observed.

“From what I understand, it’s pretty warm in there,” Yoongi said.

“I’d ask her, but I don’t think she’s giving up the goods just yet,” Hobi grinned. Yoongi burrowed closer into his mate’s side.

“Are you happy?” he asked.

“I’m stupid happy,” Hobi kissed the top of his head. “I might not be when she’s a teenager, but for right now I am.”

“But it doesn’t matter how she presents?” Yoongi questioned.

“Of course not. Though if she does completely take after you then she’s gonna be one hell of a tough Omega. I know you said they turned you into what you are, but you wouldn’t have survived if you weren’t tough to start with. If you weren’t as strong as you are then you would’ve died in that pen or let them kill you. You escaped, you ran, and you brought her with you. You might be an Omega, Yoongi, but don’t confuse that with weakness,” Hobi told him.

“You’re a really shitty Alpha, you know that, right?” Yoongi wiped the tears off his cheeks.

“Yup and I’m secure enough in my Alphahood say it,” Hobi gave him a squeeze. “Think you’re up for seeing visitors because I think I hear a certain pair of uncles lurking at the door,” Hobi said louder, but not loud enough to wake the baby. Tae and Kookie guiltily stuck their heads in.

“It’s been hours,” Kookie said.

“And when you’ve just given birth we’ll be sure to bother you,” Hobi said. “We might even let JJ jump on the bed.”

“You think we’ll hold out that long?” Tae laughed.

“I mean, we might be able to squeeze 2 cribs in there,” Hobi replied.

“We’ll do our best to wait for her to get past crib age, but no promises,” Tae said. Kookie was standing on the other side of the bed looking at Jina on Hobi’s shoulder.

“Are they always that tiny?” he asked.

“She’s on the small side, but if you feed them they get bigger,” Hobi replied.

“When can I hold her?” He asked.

“When her Omega Daddy says it’s okay,” Hobi replied.

“Come sit up here and you can hold her,” Yoongi said. Kookie clambered on the bed next to Hobi and Tae sat on the opposite side of Yoongi. Hobi carefully handed her over and miraculously she didn’t wake up. The four of them sat there well into the night passing the newborn pup back & forth when she wasn’t nursing. They had all taken different paths to get there and this pup united all of them.

Author’s Note

I know y’all might ask why I chose for Yoongi to have a girl when IRL I have a boy. I lost my dad to cancer 7 years ago in July. The thing that hit me the hardest when he died was he’d never get to see our kids. He was the one who wanted grandkids, not my mom (who is still alive). I desperately wanted him to have a granddaughter to dote on and traumatize (my bedtime stories were him plagiarizing Stephen King novels). He was one of my best friends and I miss him every day. He got to see me get married, but we weren’t ready to have kids by the time he passed. I chose for all of them to have daughters because my dad never got the chance to be a grandfather. I can create the relationship here that I believe all fathers and daughters deserve to have here.

Part of why I decided to post this fic here is I do have bonus content for Jina, Jisoo, & the twins as teenagers but I couldn’t very well post it without the source material.

#minors dni #bts fanfic #bts sope #omegaverse

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our-t4t-experience · 3 months

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WE ARE :D

okayokay and also a lot of it has to do w transness

i am a t4t gayboy and i met this other guy whos the coolest ever and hes also a gayboy (i dont think hes t4t but !!)

ESSENTIALLY, as is in true gay fashion, i became friends w him at the beginning of the school year, and weve gotten more and more close ever since.

i have my seminar with him, and every day during seminar we sit under the table and talk about life, and his favorite bands (which are now mine, because i like to steal the interests of the people i love) and its awesome. i love being around him, his presence is comforting.

on A days, i sit with him and a few friends at lunch, and the cafeteria is quite loud (and i have major overstimulation issues,) so sometimes ill get overwhelmed and he always notices and makes sure im okay, and sometimes when i don’t feel like i can do it, hell sit with me in the stairwell and let me talk about whats bothering me and he’ll just listen and give advice. On B days, during lunch, we just sit in a corner somewhere and talk. he’ll always listen and help me and ill so the same for him. if its not him comforting me, i get to talk to him and hear him ramble about his bands and his favorite things and i love the way he sounds when hes happy - i love the way his smile is so bright, and i love the way he looks when he gets embarrassed and realizes hes loud (i dont mind it - its not aggressive.)

every day after school, we hang out for anywhere from 30 minutes to an hour, just. coexisting. its awesome. i love him. and we spend this time working on hw together, and talking about the things we love.

i have a very all-over-the-place tumblr blog, which comes with a lot of yearning, because im lonely and in love. but this boy, my boy, my crush, follows me and we like constantly support each others blogs. so sometimes, ill post yearning posts and HE’LL REBLOG THEM 💞. maybe im overthinking it but like if were looking for the same things in a relationship.. i mean !! it cant mean nothing!! like the other day i reblogged a post that was like “all i need in life is a boy to lay on my lap and let me play with his hair” and he reblogged it with the tags “#all i need in life is a boy to let me lay on his lap and play with my hair” AND OMG??? LIKE MARRY ME UGH gosh this is so exhilirating.

also the other day i wrote him a long paragraph about how much i love him (we say “i love you” to each other consistently, presumably in a platonic way, but its never been specified or indicated, sadly :() and it was like (ill include a little excerpt)

“[…]nothing can come close to [describing] the feeling i get when im with you, not by a long shot. its so much stronger in a way that youd think it would have its own word, like how "a lot" has "a myriad," and ones stronger, more intentful, more meaningful. if there was a word that was as to love as myriad is to lot, my love for you would still be stronger. i am more than eternally grateful for your presence and where you have brought me since ive met you. talking to you has been the actual light of my life lately.” AND SO SO MUCH MORE IT WAS LIKE 700 WORDS LONG - AND IT WAS ALL LIKE THAT YK

and the next day i get this:

“I love you a alot (name). […] I love you so so much. […] I want to give you all that you deserve. Because people don't remind you of your actual worth. And if I can be a start to help you to that path, I'd be so fucking happy. I, more than anything need you to know just how much of an amazing person you are. […] I promise to always listen to you. Always. It's the least I could do. You're an amazing person <3” WITH A LOT MORE BUT I CUT A LOT OF IT FOR WORDS SSKE BUT AAAAAA HE WROTE ME A PARAGRAPH!!!!!!

ALSO we call almost every night and i always text him good morning and hes the awesomest and i love spending time with him.

sometimes i also get text exchanges where i say “text me when you get home” and he says “im not home but i just couldnt wait <3” AAAAAAAAAAA

and “wish i had a boy to hold me n warm me up <//3” and he said “i volunteer as tribute!” AAAAAA

i think the point of this is i dont feel like he likes me back but im in love w the man dude like the other day he let me lay on his shoulder and he played w my hair and i nuzzled into his neck a bit and he giggled and i was like “hm?” and he said “youre adorable” AAAAAAAAAA SOBBFIANDBSJ and i just buried my red ass face in his neck and he giggled at me again and i said fuck you and UGH i love him so much and all i wanna do is just be his i just wanna be his boy and he can be mine and we can be boyfriends!!!

and also hes also so awesome because he makes me feel so validated and sometimes when i like my outfit ill send him pics of it and he’ll say “you look very boy / very cis” and ill be like “no” and sometimes hell tell me how i look cis and sometimes hell say he wishes i could see myself the way he sees me. i wish i could understand how he sees me. i wanna know how he thinks of me, i wanna know if hed ever love me the way i love him!! i love him. so much. id do anything for him.

thank u for letting me ramble, i needed to get it out of my system because i cant tell anyone else cause theyd tell him but god i love him. so much.

p.s. if you see this, i love you dude. youll know its you. if you dont love me back, just . idk . act like u never saw it ty <3

-🧷

send me an updated ask when u two get together

#gayboys and being oblivious smh 🙄 /lh #t4t #t4t mlm #gay t4t #tm4tm

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silverstonesainz · 4 months

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spare some details about your carlos wip (knockout) please. bc it’s giving boxer!carlos and it’s making me weak in the knees 😫😫

-> from this

well, you would be correct. knockout is my baby, and it is a project ive been working on for the better part of the year. i've kept it a secret for the most part (aka my faves have known about this since it's early days) and its really slow moving. im hoping to start releasing chapters by next year though!! i feel like im kind of getting back into the groove of writing (slowly but surely), so if i can pre-write half the fic, then ill gladly start releasing.

but its boxer!carlos-- but with so much more lore. think of dogs of war by my beloved spirit, level lore. there are so many moving parts, so many people involved so. ya.

i half debated if i wanted to share a snippet or not, but myeh, who knows when ill ever post this so. enjoy :-)

sneak peek below the cut // tw: descriptions of fighting & injury

Nyck lunges, Yuki ducks and swings at his opponent’s torso. His left hand lands on the boy’s ribs with a loud thump. It gets the crowd riled up, people begin to rise from their chairs, beer and liquor sloshing carelessly out of plastic cups and onto the sticky floor. Another swing, another splat, and soon more punches are being thrown and landed than she can keep track of. She clocks a brutal left hook to Yuki’s cheek and an uppercut against the other’s jaw. Blood splatters out of pursed lips, loud grunts echo throughout the room, over the rambunctious crowd. Another slam against Yuki’s jaw, and he falls onto his bottom. But the Japanese fighter refuses to quit, pushing himself up almost instantly. Yuki sucks in his cheeks, eyes squinted in a sort of rage that makes him even more intimidating than his stature would normally allow. The boy spits pink– a mix of saliva and blood– onto the platform, the back of his wrist swiping against his mouth.

“Yuki’s pissed,” Lando mumbles, singing out the i with a knowing smile splayed on his lips. The boy flicks through the wad of cash in his hand, splitting bets for the end of the round.

Her gaze moves from paper money to the ring, in time to see Nyck stumble backwards and fall against the ropes. She can’t make out the screams anymore, they all melt into the other, profanity crumpled into the mess of cheers. Pierre is throwing his fist in the air, leaning over the ropes damn near toppling into the fight. Yuki smirks– the corner of his lip quirks upwards as he shakes his sweaty hair away from his eyes. Nyck is rubbing his eyes, finding his footing as he uses the black velvet to push his body upwards. His opponent grins, flicks his wrapped hands as he beckons the injured boy to come get him. The perfect form is now relaxed, no longer guarded– cocky.

No one expects the sudden surge of energy that climbs up Nyck’s spine, that tingles in his legs and brings him across the ring, least of all Yuki. It happens so quickly, the jabs and the hooks, covered knuckles splitting skin, more blood spewed on the ground. She doesn’t catch the moment it all goes wrong for Yuki, just sees him fall onto the ground and hears the pained oohs from the men on either side of her. Dingy white cotton wrapped hands lay flat against the platform, damn near curling up before they give. Yuki lifts one hand before dropping it back down on the ground. Tap… tap tap.

#a-nonnie #this sneak peek is nothing carlos related but im very proud of this fight #yuki tsunoda #<- this is more yuki than nyck imo but idk you tell me #wip talk #wip snip

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thevampiresoc · 20 days

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ramble. under read more. also fixed pacing.

starting off with the ogs diego/gumball and doug those two. god. depressed jester to silly neighborhood old man pipeline. in canon he works at a library now where he sometimes puts on puppet shows. doug is no longer pathetic scared man he teaches geology for fun and as clean-up crew for crime scenes for normal. old probably 58? now? men living with peace and letting their past not get to them. and then matthew and sasha. god . their beef went from like "that purple doesnt match your pants" & "your hairs a mess" to geniune death threats and "YOU WERE MARRIED TO A DRUG SMUGGLER WHO'S SKIN WAS WHITER THAN SNOW" & "I'M NOT LISTENING TO A MAN UNDER 5'5" WHO CAN'T COUNT HIGHER THAN 8 IN ENGLISH WITHOUT USING HIS FINGERS". potato knows whos who. matthew 'ohh good lord what the fuck' to 'i'm PROBABLY traumitized but my boss wants me to go clean the Scary Hallway so I can't think about that right now' domino effect. is it affect? idfc. im in here saying bullshit. speaking of bullshit sasha went from "... please try and get better" to "*grabs you by your eye sockets* You Are Going To Stop Eating Twice A Day. Full Meals Are Not Just Seven Ritz Crackers™️©️ And Sour Cream."

and its great.

she still does taxidermy and murder. taxidermy's her side-job since she works as a welder now. shes in there with blowtorches welding shit. your car needs repairs? shes got it boss. oh yeah matthew working as a knight in rp-1 is funny if you consider how his main job went from freddy fazbears janitor to comfortably retired lighthouse keeper. OHHHHH CHARLES I ALMOST FORGOT CHARLES he died in canon. not really. you ever get zombied. yeah jhe got zombied. i should start breaking this up but i cant

snapshot at the start of the rp was just. fucked up guy with a dead wife and platoon with a pet mouse droid. he went into a coma so he didnt participate in order 66 and misses his wife. alot. but NOW? NOW???

okay so imagine walking out of a hospital room, disorented as shit and you go to find your wife jedi and fellow clones and when you DO find them shes just cut one in half with her light saber. Turning to you with fear, she almost chops your head off but you stumbling back and showing that your unarmed gets her to stop. "It was self defense," the jedi pleads for you to understand as your blood flows into your mouth, preventing you from screaming but you want to scream, need to scream.

You both are uneasy and fearful, trying to calm down. Order 66, something you just thought of as a far off nightmare to enact, had happened a mere few minutes ago.

years later, probably a decade, the tragedity now only becoming stale on your mind- a healing wound to your already mangled brain- you had been cut off from the "empire", hiding on fucking HOTH of all planets. You managed, sure, but it was still hoth… "Your" Jedi, surviving by faking her own death with you saying you had killed her, picking you up randomly only to tell you that your being relocated to a terrestrial planet. So called 'Retirement' in some barely populated town, living on a farm. Great.

nottt much really changed except for TMCs status. just that they upgraded from living in a shitty one room apartment to a still shitty apartment where the bedroom, living room, dining room and bathroom were seperate rooms. also parents. good for it.

neeed to traumitize that war machine

anyways my ocs going from eueueueuuuu to Can You Shut Up im going to Kill You With My Bare Hands is funny

conffession sometimes i watered downn my oc when using them. im shouting into the void but do you guys think you could handle he/him sasha. i feel like if i ever rp again with any of you itd be hell because ive just done so much stupid ass writing with my little sillies. like andreas' kingdom got slightly more fucked but id keep it silly for yall

#snapshot 76 #the metalcoffin #sasha ba #matthew #potato sometimes i feel like if i rp'ed with not watered down matthew where hes comfortable being feminine and masculine #shit would be bitching #like. imagine i start using matthew where he cannot give a shit and try and do emotions. or sasha where she willingly doesn't change her-#-expressions or tone.

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i hope you don’t mind me sending this to you, i genuinely appreciate your presence on my dash and seeing the work you put into informing people. i guess it just feels so alienating sometimes as a DID system, like trying to connect with other DIDOSDD systems. i haven’t had this experience on tumblr really but there was a period of time i tried to join the very few (at the time) anti-endo discord servers to try and connect and it was honestly just..uncomfortable? like, all of them forced us to have a system name, which the majority of my system doesn’t really like at all. weirdest thing ive ever experienced in them though is that i’m 99% sure one of them like, copied my alter who was active in them? right after she joined and made an intro post, like within a few hours, someone made an intro post with an alter with the same exact hair color (unnatural color so it was less common), similar facial appearance in general, very very similar personality at a surface level, name started with the same letter, which again maybe i’m overthinking it but it just felt so strange and left a bad taste in our mouth. i’ve just felt very alienated as a system sometimes because i don’t relate to the tik tok image of like, very obvious switches with full blown cosplays every time a certain alter is out, and it makes me doubt myself a lot because we don’t like having a system name, we don’t do wigs or makeup when we switch, we don’t have typing quirks or any fictives at all, we don’t sign posts or have pluralkit bios, and some of my alters are honestly just similar to each other in personality and/or appearance. not fakeclaiming anyone who does do that at all, its just all been so different from what i’ve experienced and it’s made connecting to other systems really difficult. thank you for reading though and your posts, you definitely don’t have to reply if you don’t want to.

i relate a lot to your experiences, so i'm going to be very blunt about my opinions here. full warning, this is a bit long because i rambled, but i have a lot of thoughts on your experiences here.

i came into the community around 2018, and it's been an experience watching everything unfold the way it has. i went from people not really knowing what my disorder is to it being incredibly hypervisible, but like, only one particular aspect of it; alters, and even moreso, fictives.

i don't like being in a lot of system spaces, because they put so much emphasis on things like syscourse when i genuinely don't care that much. and then almost no matter what i do, either side is always throwing horrific misinformation in my face and when i try to correct it, they call me ableist, say i'm fakeclaiming, or get upset because i'm "invalidating" someone, even when i'm saying "that's not how it works, here's what you could be describing". most of the time i'm even afraid to use parts language in these spaces because i'm afraid they'll blow up on me for using the preferred language of my system, lol.

they put so much emphasis on syscourse, having a system name, using pluralkit, who's fronting, alter age? oh if you're a 5 year old part you can't talk here even though you're the part that handles most of day-to-day life, and if youre a fictive of [x character] then you should apologize for existing because you did horrible things in source, except if you criticize my hyperfixation, actually fictives aren't source and i'm literally neurodivergent and a minor.

for the record, we don't really have a system name either, we just have a kind of collective name. we don't experience super clear-cut switches. we don't always tell people who's fronting. we just kind of live our life like normal, lol.

i have a very fast-paced job. one that's fast-paced enough that i can't pay attention to myself internally all the time, or always know who's fronting. it took me around two months since starting this job to realize just how much i was switching at work because i simply couldn't pay attention to how i felt internally, and most of the switches between my co-host and i are more internal.

i've had to pay a *lot* of attention to figure out who's fronting at work between my cohost and i. i'm starting to get into the rhythm of it, but the switches are *far* from noticeable to most other people, and often times slip under our own noses quite a bit as well.

i've also seen and experienced a lot of fakers, people clearly being mistaken about having DID, and things like you described; stealing alters. all of which happening to be in anti-endo communities particularly populated by minors/teens.

ive known a bunch of people that claimed to have DID and clearly did not have it, either by faking or by being mistaken about their experiences, and most of them were anti-endo minors. i don't mean that there's really a connection between faking/being mistaken about having DID and being anti-endo, because my experience is incredibly limited and i choose not to interact with the system community at large at this point, but rather that i see a connection between misinformation and people that want to spread misinformation that fits their narrative, as well as the stigmatization of being wrong about having a mental illness. many of these people hate endos and don't even have an argument as to *why* endos are bad outside of a vague "they're ableist".

all of these people had incredibly poor understandings of how DID works, from being close to final fusing while still living in an incredibly abusive home, (not possible), to "malicitors", to claiming trauma that they could not claim because they had "source memories" of said trauma, thinking "fusion is murder", or even worse, "integration is murder", thinking being polyfragmented is just having 100+ alters and that's it, etc. all of these things obviously being based in not having access to reliable resources relating to DID and filling in the blanks with poor understandings of what they've read online and always taking what other people say at face value without sources or critical thinking.

i kind of want to get a bit into why this might be happening, because it helps me to understand what's going on, how it's not normal, and how i can ignore it when i see it happening.

a lot of the younger DID community especially has incredibly misinformed ideas about how DID works, and turn it into "fictives disorder" or "alters disorder" and have a shockingly narrow idea of how your system should work, and if it doesn't fit like that, you're weird. when in actuality, the way their systems are working is actually not at all the norm for DID. not that they're all outright faking or mistaken, but putting this highly specific presentation of DID on a pedestal does no good for anyone, especially for people who mistake kinning and normal teen experiences for DID, which i suspect is the case for many.

i've known too many people that copied other people's alters, used fictive pseudomemories as a way to keep other people in relationships with them, spread misinformation about DID and how it works, rolled over and accepted someone clearly misinformed about their experiences and validated them as totally completely normal for DID when they're not, and overall creating this toxic bubble of misinformed ideas on how DID works to be okay with people acting like fakers or misinformation on the side of anti-endos does not exist.

having DID does not make you an expert on the disorder. doing the research and putting in the actual work to understand DID makes you someone who can speak on it as a whole. you are only able to speak on your own experiences with DID until you've actually looked into clinical sources.

if you haven't done the hard research on DID, you can't actually speak to how it "really" works. you need to do the research on the disorder to start fully understanding how it works, because DID *does* have a structure, it *does* have rules, it *does* have specific functions, even if you can't see these things. it *does* have a specific way that it works. read the research and you will see it.

god, shout out to that one server that used akinator as a "resource" for new alters in a new alters help channel, or all of the servers that use lists of media you "could be from" to "help" new alters, lol. or all of those carrds that explain you're on earth to new alters, when amnesiac barriers that high are not even remotely normal.

that's part of the reason i dislike when people say "DID isn't a trend!"

#systemsfordream was a tag that was trending for, what, a couple days? maybe a week? systems are unbelievably hypervisible online right now, and the community is primarily populated with teenagers that are constantly helping their friends "realize" that they're systems. i'm not going to fakeclaim any one person to their face, but if you think that there isn't a not-insignificant portion of the community that is either faking deliberately, or mistaken about having DID, you're fooling yourself, and i'm tired of pretending like it's not a thing just because someone will get upset at me because they feel i personally attacked them for it.

they don't realize that having the disorder does not make you an expert on it, and it's going to take more than a week of "questioning" and some twitter threads to figure out if you actually have DID or not.

as much as i hate to say it and plenty of people would hate to hear it, DID is a trend right now. because the "quirkiness" of mental illness is a trend right now. because a portion of the youngest generation is getting to their edgy teen years and is deciding to rebel, to figure out who they are, etc, and are growing up differently, where everything is hyper-marketed, everything is algorithmic, they are fed whatever content they like the most by all social medias, and are not even remotely anonymous anymore, and if anything, it's less entirely on them and more on, well, (gestures vaguely at the state of the world right now).

if anything, i see this as an incredibly abysmal symptom of a larger problem, but that's a post for another day, lol. or maybe just a long rant for my journal.

TLDR;

the way tiktok and #systwt portray DID is not a normal experience for how DID actually works, and you should not feel bad for not fitting into it. tiktok and #systwt spread massive amounts of misinformation on how DID works, are hostile to people that correct them even nicely, and only uplift information that fits their narrative because it's what they want to hear, because many of these people *want* to be systems for one reason or another, so they cherry-pick misunderstood information. that's why they only use unsourced carrds created by other 15 year olds as their sources on DID instead of anything reputable.

this isn't to say that this presentation of DID is *never* real, because i can think of plenty of ways it can be. but it's not the only way DID is, and it's not the most common way DID is.

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chikkou · 1 year

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how have u been. anytging new happen/any new or revisited interests

umm ive definitely been! lots of new stuff has happened in the last year, but frankly almost all of it has been bad so we'll just put a tight seal on that! the current thing is that i have a cold and its annoying LMAO

one good thing is ive been growing my hair out!! i havent had long hair since i was a kid, i was always super bad at taking care of it so id eventually get to a point where i had no choice but to cut it shoulder length or shorter to make it manageable. my mom straightened it for me while i was visiting home and it was down to my hips which was SUPER fucking cool

as for revisited interests, i just rewatched derry girls (really adore this show btw), and im also getting back into a small handful of twitch streamers (primarily manlybadasshero, baaulp, and gir whenever i manage to catch him)

my primary focus rn is to getting my apartment together; my roommate and i have lived in our current place for just under a year now, and if u saw it u would definitely think we'd just moved in a month ago lmao. but i found out theres a furniture reseller SUPER close to where we live, like barely 20 minutes away, and i saw some absolutely gorgeous furniture in the style i love for dirt cheap the last time i was there. so my roommate and i are talking abt heading over there to start gathering stuff once we get paid, which im really excited about

#anya's anons #and i am still addicted to homestar runner rewatching #but thats never gonna stop at this point my brain has been rewired to my 2006 era LMAO

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bitter-bloodbank · 2 years

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Since ur not in bbq's server anymore, I wanted to ask u one thing. How were u so comfortable around dia knowing that it was stealing ur appearance? That made me uncomfortable and it was so aggravating to me to see it suddenly claim so much after u talked about urself in I think it was the confessions channel or general questions channel. I felt so bad for u but I couldn't say anything. I am glad ur out of there now.

what? what are you on about?

more under cut, since i didnt realize how long this post would be -kas

look, i dont know what shit youve heard, who told you what, who lied about what, but i was never uncomfortable with dia and its appearance. pink hair is not tied directly to me, anyone can have pink hair. horns are not tied directly to me, anyone can have horns. elf ears are not tied directly to me, anyone can have elf ears. just because i have a certain appearance, and someone has a similar appearance, does not mean that theyre “copying” me, or theyre pretending to be me, or whatever youre trying to imply here.

im really upset that you guys keep assuming shit, or get spoon-fed lies, or something, after i left. it doesnt help that the constant asks ive been getting are permanently attempting to pit me against people who are just kids, and in all honesty, im so sick and tired of it. this is honestly getting to the point to where im about to turn anon asks off again, because i cannot handle the constant bullshit and attempts to get me to fight and argue with KIDS. its almost every day now that i have to delete an ask because it says something about so-and-so from bbq’s server, how theyre trying to copy me, or they said this, or they said that, blah blah blah. at some point, you guys need to realize that YOU are being the problem. i dont want to answer these asks. i fucking hate answering these asks. im so sick of seeing these asks in my inbox on a goddamn daily.

i said i wasnt going to talk about it. i really dont want to talk about it. i want you guys to stop bringing this up so i can get my mental back together, and possibly have the opportunity to rejoin.

if i cant rejoin? thats fine, ill just say “no biggie” and forget about it. simple. if i can rejoin? thats fine too, ill just have to make sure my mental is in check.

at the end of the day, all of this should just be something that should roll off my shoulder, but this is so incredibly annoying to deal with. inbox ping, “maybe its another infinity symbol”, nope its an ask trying to pit me against someone who is 6 years younger than me, again. please just read that last sentence.

if i get another anon ask like this, im turning anon asks off for both this blog and my syscourse blog. i cannot handle borderline slander anymore.

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mostlymalena · 2 months

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February 26th 2024 11:05pm

Just cut clark's hair!! looks much better - I cut all the dead blonde out.

Just finished uploading all my digital journals that I have been writing in my notes app since oct or nov. I decided against transferring my physical journal onto my blog but might later on in the year. I started my new corporate job today an let me tell you I hate it. It's really just not for me. I'm planning on quitting after two weeks bc I do want to give it a shot.

I guess here is a rundown update:

I started my soccer coaching and its wonderful

Going to Italy in May with Jo and also going to Argentina in April with O.

I guess thats it hahaha

I'm glad I'm journalling. It settles my thoughts and my heart.

OH!! oh my fucking god almost forgot. So my family and I have been talking about how I can get myself out there and not just keep doing things im comfortable with. So like going to new bars and taking some classes (signed up for a stained glass class btw). Well last saturday I do go to a new bar with my friends called ponysauras and it's so cool and fun in there! Well a bouncer slash employee is coming up to our table a lot and making convo and he is really cute but clearly older. As I am leaving he asks me on a date!! I ask how old he is and he tells me he is 45! 20 years older than me eek! SO we exchange numbers and I go about my merry way. We are texting a little and I straight up ask him "sorry for being so candid, but why are you the age you’re at and not married?" THIS MOTHER FUCKER SENDs THIS:

LMAOOOOO so yeah my first time trying to give an older guy a chance did not go well at all.

I should sign off and write more tommorww bc I need to do a load of laundry and dishes (ew kms kms kms) before I tuck in for the night. I already fucking read my book I got from the library yesterday so im shit out of luck for that. Anyways glad ive finally caught up and so happy im writing again ugh love this.

#february 2024 #life

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imy2 · 4 months

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2-2 oooo hi hector , didnt realize he'd be so soon •

oh damn goodbye mack. should've expected that was this ep w vasquez comin in... ughh the way murphy looks when addy's staring at him :/// •

2-3 "woahh don't be so negative; worry is poison - that's why you don't crap right." lmao random dude, too real •

"you are not the boss of me -.- she is." one of my fav murphy lines •

ok i regret not taking notes last eps so recap of what i rmbr then onward.. rc2-4 z weed lol • rc2-5 nvr noticed b4 that they call this ep aka lucy zombaby - makes sensee , but s1 zombaby is true zombaby in my heart. lucy's lucy :p ... ugh serena was so pretty this ep.. even looked cool as a zombie • rc2-6 gb4n lucy.. also cassandra :(( </3 • rc2-7 sketchy n skeezy were here again .. • rc2-8 i thiiink it was this ep that this happened but if not close enuff.. warren said to murphy, "the time is coming where you're gonna have to decide what side you're on - and when that time comes, remember which is trying to help u survive n which wants to eat ur brains." ooo i never noticed how good of a line that is bc well warren which side is which! half the zombies dont care abt murphy atp and yall r takin him to be experimented on .. hmmm • rc2-9 this is always a fun ep • rc2-10 idt docs cool aop in this ep... • rc2-11 addys hotelwoman moment :') • rc2-12 oo the zeroes.. warrens sooo pretty •

2-13 murphy savin warren, hell yeah. murphy listening to warren, helll yeahh. again warrens gorg.. hector n doc n murphy all also look cool .. el camino B) 10k w slingshot - also cool •

2-14 lmfao doc pre-z(beginning of z actually) "oh jeez, sorry, didn't mean to intrude! -- what a minute, what did i just see.. larry and his gay lover? it's funny he never mentioned him.. 2 patients wrestling on the couch? .. it's a damn zombie! hang on larry!" lol him pullin a joint from his beard .. • •interlude ... i used to say i wish i had a beard all the time as a kid 9-like12, love that for me..idt id want one now, i do wish i had more body hair tho man my arms n legs look hairless basically -.- my brother used to always comb his hand thru his thick ass leg -.- #jealous .. also hairy stomachs r so hot -.- anyways.. i also need to do smth diff w my headhair like sooo bad. its been like 6yrs since ive had a haircut its badd. i wish i cld do a cool haircut but my hairs thin n straight so.. no cool cuts look how i'd want them to w/o stylin n i cannot put stylin effort into my hair everyday.. i need a genius to tell me wtd w my hair basically! but im scared of goin anywhere..

also on subject of gender(re my feelings abt my hair) i've been kind of (aka when i rmbr to lol n when it dsnt feel awk) tryin to speak in a deeper pitch .. i hate when my voice sounds as high as it does smtimes :/ also.. well nvm 4now •

"why me? i don't want to be shit. this is all some terrible mistake. i just want to crawl off and die like everybody else. why me? what did i do? where is my mercy?" murphy n mercy (n me) i said it! •

omg pre-z murphy looks so different n cool. & postal fraud man.. he shld be pissed •

"if you were really my friend, you'd help me." "but i'm not your friend." ... "they're gonna hurt me. you know that, right?" "i won't let that happen." •

2-15 "i did not spend three years fighting my way across 10,000miles of zombie-crazed america just so i can be a blood bag for a few billionaires." hell yeah •

bye vasquez .. hey hector.. hey(almost) kaya n dr. sun :-) aww lucy.. •

•s2 done.. overall rating.. 3.5/5 .. i didnt rate s1 brb.. 3/5 .. huh kinda surprised s2 came out on top •

3-1 hi red.. hi the man... •

ooo i nvr noticed the red details -right b4 walking up there's red cloth in a basket, then - redofc, 5ks keychains, warrens bandana, 10ks socks n bandana n shirt stripes, docs suspenders n sunglasses, cassandra's jacket, addy's shirt n jacket tassels .. very obvious, cool .. then just blue murphy. interesting. enuff red down the line tho •

"got a name?" "10,000. but everyone calls me 10k." "10,000? that's a number, not a name." ... ''so what's ur name?" "red." "that's not a name, that's a color." - wait lol, "you asked me my name, that's my name" red u did it to him first •

3-2 • intros.. s1 was 3bullets, s2 was 2bullets-chomp, s3 was 3bullets+spin .. fun stuff •

now murphy got red pants this ep.. after they first reinforced blue by only showing shirt/skin/hat.. interesting •

ahh murphy wanted warren to go w him so bad :/ "seriously roberta?" .. "ttfn" •

3-3 got a fun screenshot from this ep .. terrible quality ofc.. •

3-4 10k off the bridge n merch khs .. fair enuff•

3-5 tbh the way reds been here so far(aka e1 n now) is so weird.. •

#h-vom

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lunargrapejuice · 7 months

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Lunaaaa ahhhh

Thank you for taking the time to answer my questions!!!!!

I love love love your nails!!! I have never gotten my nails done (I have small and stubby fingers + short nails) and I am considering to get them done! I love all of the designs so far!!! The first one reminds me of Sukuna, the second one is very spooky season - goes so well with your current theme and the last one is so dreamy ✨ I love the little details on them 🩷🥰

I am going to see my boyfriend at the end of November! I booked my tickets already and will be spending a month in my home country. I am so jealous of my boyfriend because he gets to eat all this delicious food and hang out with all our close friends. But slowly but surely, November is coming closer. Dec 1st is like our anniversary together so I am surprising him by visiting him before our anniversary because he was upset that this was going to be 3 years in a row (out of 4) that we wouldn’t be celebrating it in person.

And Ireland!!! I would love to visit Ireland too. I only know one river in Ireland and I am assuming that is your name for now (hehe). I have seen so many instagram travel videos of Ireland and I have them bookmarked/saved. I want to visit the Cliffs of Moher and Ring of Kerry. It looks so dreamy 🤩

And I love Japchae! I don’t know how to make it but every time we go to an all you can eat Korean place, you can bet on me ordering it! I also relate to the cooking part as well. I do most of the cooking. Sometimes my boyfriend cooks but his luck in the kitchen is so bad that I almost always forbid him to destroy my kitchen lol! So I cook, he cleans up after.

Fruit baskets is also one of my favourite anime. I used to be a Hatsuharu girl but now that I’ve grown up, Shigure and Hatori have this strong grip on me 🫠 like the two of them make my heart flutter lol.

And I am sorry for the question 😭 I just wanted to see how you would respond to it and I expected it to be the same. I will check with you again in a few months once Neuvillette’s personality is more fleshed out 👀 #plsdonthateme

Are you ready for more questions? You don’t have to answer them if it gets too much.

1. A gift you would give each of your favs.

2. Your comfort nation in Genshin? (For me it’s Sumeru because it reminds me of home. The music, the names, the vibes etc)

3. A Genshin confession that you haven’t told anyone yet. (Mine is super embarrassing. I haven’t crowned a single character in Genshin yet. I decided that until Diluc is ready, I am not going to crown any of my characters. Diluc will be the first one to receive the crown 😭)

wahhh NO THANK YOU FOR EVEN TAKING THE TIME TO ASK THEM NATS😭🩷🩷 im all mushy that you’d even want to get to know little weird me & im really enjoying hearing about you too 🥺🩷

im gonna put my replies to everything but the questions under the cut since this got quite long lol

1. oh my gosh this is so cute & sweet🥺🩷

diluc: something practical but meaningful & if i can help it sentimental too, like an embroidered ribbon for his hair that i personally embroidered the design into & maybe even one that’s matching to my own🥰

kaeya: something that’s a reminder that i love him & that he can take with him wherever he is, thats proof that he has my heart but something still a little flashy, like a thin chain necklace with a small crystal pendent 🩵 probably rose quartz even though pink isn’t apart of his outfit at all but it’s my favorite & he loves it

zhongli: something for us to enjoy together & has a value beyond any mora, something that reminds us of the past & how long we’ve been forged together & are together once more to never part again, like an old tea set a passing merchant was selling with two cups & a story to tell

kaveh: something that displays my love and attention to his heart in all its little details & beauty, something he can keep forever & remind him of us, a beautifully bound notebook where ive left little notes & doodles of my own on each page but left plenty of room for him to pour his own passion & love 🩷

alhaitham: something practical but that also conveys my devotion & adoration for him & his heart, something i put pieces of myself into that he could enjoy repeatedly like a set of books ive notated with my thoughts & questions, with how the passages made me feel, no matter how silly, & how they reminded me of him or of us💚

neuvillette: something so sticky sweet sentimental, a representation of my very heart so there is no way he could mistake just how much he means to me when i gift it to him like the necklace ive had with me for so long that he’s seen me wear everyday we’ve been together. when he confessed his feelings, he had gifted me a new necklace that i wanted to wear everyday & in my confession back, i wanted to give him what had been closest to my heart until he had taken it 🩵

okay im super sick in love after writing these ahhhh!!

2. for me it’s liyue💛 whenever im feeling weird or having a panic attack ive always found a lot of comfort in the liyue sound track & liyue is what really got me hooked into genshin, i was on & off playing at first but when liyue was released i was totally in love & couldn’t get enough! im still hoping we’ll get more liyue map & in almost all of my self ships im from liyue🥰

sumeru is GORGEOUS & i love to hear that it reminds you of home 🥺💚

3. jdkfkfkf mine is probably that ive easily spent $2k+ on the game😅 im too ashamed to actually count it up lmaoo but i know it’s a least that

not crowning anyone isn’t embarrassing at all! I i totally get it wanting to save it for diluc hehe i crowned kaeya first!🩵

hehe i LOVE getting my nails done. it’s just one of those things that it’s small but it really boosts my confidence so im always sure to have them done🩷 you’ll have you to show me if you do gets yours done! which im all for you should totally try it out!😍 it’s fun & nice for the head scratches too hehe

awhhh im SO glad you get to go see him & for your anniversary!! ahh! im so excited for you & wishing that november will come faster! 🥰🩷 i can totally feel that too! my husband is getting to see my best friend & eat her delicious cooking while he’s on his trip BUT NOT ME😭 we just wanna see our friends & eat good food too 😭🩷

heheh i bet you have it right 😉 i want to see the cliffs of moher so much too! the whole country looks so gorgeous🩷 i hope we’ll both get to go someday 🥰

mhmm all you can eat korean food is the best places to go but i always feel so fucking full omg hahah my hubby & i are totally the same! he could cook if needed but omg watching him cook is painful im always like you know what baby i got this 😂 but he’s happy to do the dishes & it’s something i hate so i don’t mind either

i love fruits basket so much 😭 AMAZING choice in men hehe for me, so underrated & not nearly enough screen time but my most favorite man in that whole anime, could get it anyday, need him to marry me & id have as many kids as he wants, kazuma *melts into a giant pink puddle* though hatori & shigure are serious next runner ups THEY ARE SO FINE! & it doesn’t help that shigure is a bastard man it just makes me want him more

heh it was fun! (& i will get you back *kisses your forhead menacingly*) but it was SO hard to pick to kill neuvillette, i just pictured kaveh being like “baby you’d kill me?!” with big red pouty eyes & kissable lips & my heart just couldn’t bare it & i refused to even think about neuvi even though my heart was like ‘don’t you dare you know you love him so much’ but it could never have been diluc! he is ultimate #1 husband that no one but satoru has dared to rival lol & i could never hate you🩷

#🌙asks #lovely moots <3

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okayyso i dont Know what the name for most body parts are on english Uhh uhh almost. a little below my ears. ITS JUST THAT SHORT GAAAAAA FJWRJJWMRNFNF i had the biggest jumpscare ever because she did it on the morning and i was like half asleep so i didnt even notice how odd it was that she was cutting so much of my hair (i kinda just assumed she was cutting extra bits??? ignoring how much of my hair was falling out???) and then i looked at my reflection on the window on the car when i was leaving for school and DEAR GOD ITS SO MUCH SHORTER NOW RJSJGNWNGN aaa my hair also gets curly as hell JDKANFNSN part of the reason my grandma and my mom like it so much and insist on not cutting it ever So Yeaj actually i think i should feel grateful about the hair cut because now i don't have to ask for a hair cut again in like. a lot of time. hooray ? FJSJGJWN

OHHH MAN i haven't gotten out of school yet so my grandma hasnt been as annoying about cleaning stuff these days but i fear she might be once i get out of school and im SO SCARED GAh actually i also got my phone taken away for like a bit because i did bad on my grades (i got two 60's and that was really it) so nowadays i have to put in extra effort into school aaa LUCKILY FOR LIL OL ME MY TESTS HAVE BEEN GOING VERY WELL!!! i just have like two kinda annoying ones on the way and im done!!! with the tests that is. im still going to school. for some reason. Man. ALSO GOOD LUCK ON FINISHING YOUR GAME kiss that guy a lot you can do this 🎉

WOAH that's pretty short :O !? i too wld be pretty surprised if i saw that happening to me first thing in the mornign WNSKDFJSJ also i suppose thats a good part abt getting ur hair cut question mark i think i need a haircut soon actually bc ive noticed i have a ton of split ends el oh el

ALSO GOOD LUCK ON THE REST OF UR TESTS !!! getting out of school is always exciting but then the Horrors of doing cleaning that was ignored during the school year comes up . . . so sad :[ hopefully uu dont have too much to clean tho if ur grandma does ask uu to clean !! alsoaslo yippee thank uu !!! im not even on takerus route ( since i alr finished it ) but he's super relevant in the route im currently in so like. everytime he talks im just like holy shit can we kiss right now man. please

#☆ msgs !#☆ prin !#i cld talk abt tak.eru nd c.xm for hours im so insane abt that game HWNKSJDS

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