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puppyeared · 26 days

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id fumble him so bad

#really really rushed but ill probably go back and clean these up tmrw anyway #i havent played stardew valley but ive been meaning to because i have a little crush on this guy ^_^ hes cute #idk why but smth about him is really endearing. like between him and sunburst i feel like theres a pattern here but idk what #i guess my type is boys that whimper #the last two images are based on a real conversation i had with my doctor a few years ago lol. deadass stared at me for a good 2 minutes #i wanna make a farmersona too...... if my minecraft gameplay is anything to go by id probably play with animals all day instead of #actually farming........ can i just do livestock in stardew.. i dont have a green thumb i managed to kill a succulent once......#actually idk if my computer is even strong enough to run steam but i dont wanna get it on my phone. maybe ill get the microsoft download #unless stardew has its own website like minecraft. i really dont know anything abt it so im going in blind from the start #my art #myart #doodles #puppysona #sona #sdv #sdv harvey #stardew valley #whats funny about this is i have a classmate who kinda looks like if brian david gilbert and harvey had a baby. i havent told him this

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sapphicsnzs · 1 month

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im so grateful for this corner of the internet where i can just get my frustrations out

#self obs #i will delete this later but i just need to get it out #i told my two best friends about how i got rejected and they both were just like move on lol #like i don’t think they realize how awful i feel right now like literally that was my dream and im scared im never gonna be able to do it #i also somehow have to tell my parents and that’s a whole different problem #my parents are already up my ass about me quitinh my job for no reason #well basically i think they’re trying to get me to move home for the summer which doesn’t make sense to quit my job i’ve been working at #for almost a year to come back and get a job for a month #but like i can’t think of another reason that my parents would randomly want me to quit my job #so i’m stressed about that and now i also have to tell them i got rejected and now i can’t start the part of my degree that i need for my #fucking job and fuck i’m so stressed and don’t know what to do #and im just like so embarrassed and everyone is acting like its not a big deal even tho like if i apply again i probably won’t even get it #because i didn’t even make it past the interview phase and anyways im just so upset with myself and everything #i like actually thought my life was turning around and i was gonna be happy finally but nope #anyways this is just me sobbing and trying to let out my frustrations because no one will actually listen or validate that i’m upset #whatever im gonna go drink some wine and probably pass out on the floor of my room

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rox-of-iu · 9 months

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me + mayhem going on a stupid silly hike for my stupid silly mental health

touched grass and i am normal again (lying)

#i will get back to drawing soon let me just sleep for a few years shdjhkfds #anyway photo credit to mayhem again i cant take pictures to save my life lol #btw the caption is obvs reference to that one hike video tiktok i think so credit to that also its not my joke #anywqay it was nice did help me a little bit #been feeling a bit down due to some personal problems ykno #and also due to not being accepted into a med uni I rly wanted to (but didn't put enough effort I'll confess) and that almost no one getsin #but i was only missing one point o(-( i was the first in line outside the capacity limit hasjkdhsahd #even tho my brain is rly small for it lets be real hfjsdfhksd but like hhsdjhshdjkhd those biches at physiotherapy baited me hdsjd #mqf i have failed you lol #also i have accidentaly gotten back into one piece as I do for like two weeks periodically every few months or so dhjsdhk #so im revisiting my olde blorbo trafalgar which is just reminding me of a fact that this was one of the fuckers my itty bitty young self -#- wanted to pursue medicine beacause of lmaoooo #bad timing one piece fixation!! bad bad!! sdhhdjshdjakshd #whatevrrr whatevr whatevr io dotn care! enough of that hahhskj #but hey as some of u may remeber im czech so haa whats up with the mountains right since we are very cute and 'down to earth' state hahaha #its cuz its actually from austria :))#we went hiking there since theyre co by kamenem dohodil as they say #fuck english has the exactly same saying im moron that ruins my whole thing hjdsk 'a stone's throw away' whatever ignore that ig hahhah #so yeah very beautiful very powerful go touch some grass lads #also they are not stones throw away i was lying but close enough-#also random czechs stop jumpscaring me in other countries challenge why was there so many of us horrible horrible horrible

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cyanidas · 4 months

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Hope yall are having a good holiday season!

I'm excited for the new year ;w; small update in tags

#ive been taking a mental break from things #i kinda freaked myself out about getting those designs out #could you tell? haha- /shot #anyway. i have a big piece im working on for the new year for cookie run #this year i wanna get back into yogs stuff #since they released that fun murder mystery gameshow im kinda eh about continuing midnight manor but. we will see #its different enough lol but i wanna re-focus in on reversion #it was my magnum opus at the time dlkfjgfk i was most excited for that and i got a lot of work done on it #and some new-yog work (as i promised kirsty kfjgfk >w<;;#probably not a comic #but i will be adding back onto my fanlore document on ao3 #so once i get my designs moving (hopefully by sometime within the next week or two. i know i said a week last time but i didnt expect #to be pushing myself so hard)#i will gladly start those projects back up #im trying to finish the things i started because im notorious for not completing things and its a demon of mine ive been working to conquer #for like. a decade gfkgjg #ive made incredible progress... but ive still a long way to go #thank u guys for following me and interacting #i hope you like what you see whenver you get to see it!#intercom

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silleye · 2 days

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waow... miku expo...........

#got back from it and its soooooo....#didnt get a lightstick but the person next to me had two and offered one for the concert ;__;#the setlist this year isnt my favorite im more familiar with older songs but im glad utsu p got a song in :) two if you count vivid #idk why ppl r too mad abt the screen bc thats how previous miku expos have been? u dont literally have ahologram or anything #just bummed it didnt have multiple screens like when i went in 2018 #live band was so insane too like omg one of my favorite parts of miku expo is doing the individual introductions hehehe #honestly the lightstick makes all the difference LOL even tho idrc abt most of the setlist waving the lightstick was SOOO fun #like to the point where i didnt really care if the song was good or not if it was fun with the lightstick #my arms sore from this LOL #also i lost my fucking headphones on the way out ghjdfhgk #egg talks

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mainfaggot · 28 days

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guys i think I found something that makes me want to kill myself LESS oh my god

#im acting like this is some grand revelation but get this: literature #i used to read/write/analyze/study various languages so intensely in hs but by the time i hit 17 i was so mentally ill i couldn't do #anything but stay in my bed and house in general i was like so horribly suicidal until march 2022 ..#anyway enough back story like last year was rough too i was suicidal during most of winter and spring too..#but.#two semesters of advanced spanish. a lot of forcing myself out of my comfort zone later. still reeling from feeling idiotic and undeserving #of opportunities and praise. i have realised. i quite like this in comparison to everything else #am i still dealing with major depression? yeah. and the anxiety and the other thing too but its more bearable for the 80 minutes #im in Spanish class dissecting sentence structure and analyzing literary devices #so yeah. i had a good class today! highlight of my day was the morning lol #i fear for the rest of the day going to shit but its okay. at least i had a good hour so far today. a whole hour and thirty minutes!!!!#my spanksh professors have been so nice and cool i really wish them all the best #*spanish #¡Viva Latinoamérica! fr fr #z.post

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marsbotz · 5 months

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omg forgot to post this.

kind of lame bc it didnt count my more recent Refined Listening lol… so no csh on there. SAD. so pleased abt my Playlist Creator status being validated LOL….. and i do like all those artists and songs 👍

kind of surprised how low my minutes is compared to other ppl…? did i literally not listen to music at some point this year LOL? also “pov: indie” what the hell r you talking abt man.

this is what my sister said btw vvv

#im a competitive listener idgaf.#didnt get crazy top percents this year… i think bc i listened to more of a variety but thats ok #i alwayssss get ld and tsj in my top 5 LOL bc theyre like evergreen to me.#i have phases where i stop listening for a while but i always come back #ALSO I LITERLLY DIDNT EVEN LISTEN TO ALIEN BLUES MORE THAN ONCE BY CHOICE. its all the ai playlists that give it to me 100x a day 😭#not that i dont like it its just a little innacurate #superrrrr surprised bodys didnt make it on considering how much i listened to it. BUT i think it was late enought hat it want counted #whatvwrr……..#2024 will be the year of csh for me. manifesting this #musicposting #my sister was so jealous of me getting mitski in my top 5 tho lol….. get fucked #two of her top 5 artists were broadway artists bc she kept listneing to heathers and moulin rogue on repeat LOLLLL.#ive been there tho brother. flasetteos…..

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creatediana · 1 year

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A half-assed whiteboard imitation of Frederick Sandys’ Perdita (1866), done in a few minutes in Expo marker on 2/14/2023

#my drawing #visual art #2023 #pre-raphaelite #frederick sandys #shakespeare #the winter's tale #perdita #artists on tumblr #shakespearean heroines #i did this on the same board i've done my other whiteboard drawings that i've posted #idk if i've mentioned this. but it's in the math tutoring center where my sister works lol #i haven't been there in two months. i don't take any math classes anymore so i'm really just chillin in there. sometimes i socialize #sometimes i do my own studying. that's how i started these expo marker drawings. is that i was looking at paintings for inspiration for my #figure drawing final. and id do a sketch in my sketchbook and then copy it from my sketchbook onto the board. and id leave em there #obviously nothing about that is against the rules even if that's not what that room is *for* ... im allowed to just kick back #i always wondered what the other ppl who work in there thought of my whiteboard drawings. bc id leave em up. and sometimes they wouldnt be #erased for like a week or two. hell. the last one i posted (the love potion by evelyn de morgan) was my least impressive imo #but it was only erased like a week ago. it stayed up for like 2 months. kaily told one of her coworkers he could erase it and he was like #'its been there since last year... and out of respect for that i will not be the one to do it.'#lol like they're nice but they're not sacred #but anyway i went at a different time of day and stayed in there for several hours just reading and drawing while other ppl did math #i met three other ppl who worked there that i'd never met before. and they were all like 'oh are you kailys sister who does the drawings?'#i guess some of them really like them lol. it touched my heart #one guy in his 40s also saw i was reading a book on john donne & was pretty interested in that combined w my choice of the winter's tale #i guess he's a bit of an early-modern english lit buff himself. he's a christian. he said he liked george herbert.#he said smth to another student like 'yeah you can do math in here. or you can. draw on the board. or read books about #sixteenth century poets and theologians. whatever you want'#i didnt know anyone there would actually be impressed w anything i do. since it is not stem-related at all.#i guess i bring that old school humanities swag to the math center hahahaha

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britneyshakespeare · 5 months

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i finished twelfth night. 25 out of 38 shakespeare plays completed.

#after finally reading othello and twelfth night in the past 10 days im not sure which are the most famous plays i still havent read #bc like ive mentioned previously ive always read the plays in arbitrary order. whatever piqued my interest #hence why i read the henry vi plays relatively early on. or some of the more obscure comedies #but lately since i past the halfway mark this year some of the more talked-about ones im like 'geez i should just get to that one already'#not that that makes me enjoy it any less. i think i mentioned that in my post i made while reading othello #i fucking loved othello. that shit was 10/10 although i very much was reading it bc i felt like i had to at that point.#doesnt mean i wouldnt love it. after all i only read shakespeare bc i love shakespeare! not bc theres a gun to my head #its more like i just want to know what everyone's talking about already #tales from diana #i think at this point the most famous one i still havent read is... much ado about nothing? which isnt THAT famous all things considered #but some of you ppl do seem to be awful crazy about it so ill see #i already knew the plot of twelfth night i had just never read the original. now i have #so i kinda already knew how much enjoyment i could get out of it. some! a good amount!#but i found it a quick read and i wasnt THAT excited about it #the next one i want to read is pericles though. ive read 8 shakespeare plays in 2023 but none have been romances!#i do love the romances. the romances are still the only genre where i havent read more than half of them #ive read 2 out of 5. the tempest and the winter's tale... two of my favorites overall #in a way ive kind of been holding myself back from reading more romances bc i needed to check some of my 'required reading' boxes lol

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nicohischier · 1 year

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lol kinda thought hockeyblr had moved away from being toxic towards fans of other teams and more towards actually showing signs of basic courtesy but guess i had just managed to remove myself far enough away that i no longer saw the toxic sides. lol.

#not hockey #lol #starting to remember what one of the factors turning me away from hockey(blr) was lol #its been two weeks and im already ready to go back to lurking on the outskirts like ive been doing for the past few... years?

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puppyeared · 5 months

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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn….#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

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myownprivatcidaho · 1 year

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thoseve yall who were here a year ago might remember that a year ago He was liking tweets like "idk how people can cheat when im in love im obsessed😍" and "the honeymoon stage rlly doesnt die if youre with the right person🥰" and he was liking stuff like that up till recently now shit like this is in his likes something is BROKEN in him

#i feel bad. i dont even mean it in a conceited way but i cant help but feel like a bit of this is my fault #hes so bright eyed and ambitious that the idea of him losing any of that idealism is nothing short of a goddamned tragedy im sorry #yes this is the guy who lead me on (unintentionally???) and flirted with me for a year despite seeing TWO people during that time #the latter of which became his girlfriend (who i told Everything to ...)#and like. he never apologized he never explained what was going on or why he acted like a fucking simp for a year #but basically we're not talking now and we're on bad terms and angry at each other #(me because. well yall were there for that . hes angry because i ratted his flirty ass out )#god that all stings so bad i havent talked about the details of what happened to anyone......#but yeah i just. even still after all this time i hope he stays bright eyed. the idea that he wouldnt is heartbreaking in and of itself.#that one crush situation lol #idk if theyre still together. it was early novembet i reached out to his gf and laid the whole thing out for her #& she said theyd 'take it from here' (??????) and was uncomfortable with me and him communicating with the knowledge that THAT ALL happened #even while they were together. i told her i could respect that (even though i wanted to ask her who the FUCK she thought she was. anyways)#and then i reached out to him one last time to clarify i wasnt dredging it up for retaliation or to break them up but bc she genuinely #deserved to know. then he sorta said fuck my feelings and then reiterated what his gf said that we shouldnt be talking anymore #its been radio silence since then from bothve them. if they did break up id feel bad (cause how COULDNT i?) but if they didnt.#that means the only factor that changed here was. well. his 'relationship'/chances of a relationship/flirtationship/friendship with me.#i dunno. im not gonna act like i have all the facts and im not gonna act like he hasnt screwed me over #but getting back to my main point. imagine knowing him and watching him lose his idealism. try not being heartbroken over that.

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angelamontoo · 1 year

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I received The animated Peter Lorre as an early birthday present and I absolutely love it! Its an enthralling read as a fan of both Peter Lorre and animation history(I'm still surprised by how many characters I grew up with, who I didn't know were Peter parodies till I read the book) and I'm thrilled to own it for myself.....but I do have an issue with it(cause god forbid I enjoy anything without finding something to later complain on tumblr about)

OK so this is the epilogue