#its been stressful all around but like

[haunted-xander]

Sometimes I think about Urianger's role in and feelings on the Thancred-Ryne dynamic and I think watching it kills him a bit inside. For several reasons.

Like, to begin with there's the guilt he's been carrying with him since he ushered Minfilia to the first, how he effectively killed the person Thancred cared about the most in the world and who's "death" ended up causing Ryne's entire Situation. He looks at what's happening between them and can only think "I caused this" even though that's not really true. No one person is responsible for this outcome, it's a culmination of several circumstances and the consequences of them. Logically, Urianger knows this. But it doesn't matter, because his guilt is overpowering his logic.

And also, like. What Thancred is doing here, the way he's knowingly letting Ryne be and stay hurt because he literally cannot bring himself to tell her his feelings, is the exact same mistake Urianger made with Moenbryda. Of course, the circumstances are vastly different, and the potential consequences to Thancred telling Ryne the wrong things or her misinterperating it is far greater (being a matter of literal life or death), it's still the same sort of paralysis they are trapped in.

And he knows it. He sees it. But he can't say or do anything about it, he doesn't have the right to. He acknowledges the mistake, but he hasn't really improved upon it yet. He still doesn't voice his thoughts and feelings as he should. He's also non-confrontational by nature, he doesn't argue or try to change peoples minds, he probably doesn't think he has any place to.

So, he tries to help in what little ways he can. Because he doesn't want it to become Monebryda again, he doesn't want to know he stole not one but two people from Thancred. So he does what he can. He tells Ryne little tidbits about Thancred, things that help her understand him but are safe to share. Nothing too deep, nothing too personal. Just small things, things that are purely factual, because he can't afford to give her a false image of who Thancred is. He teacher her fun and interesting things, because Thancred isn't in the mindset to provide her with non-essential skills.

I like to think Urianger has brought it up with Thancred at least once, during one of his stays. But nothing would've come of it. Not really. Unlike Y'shtola, Urianger isn't pushy, he'll bring it up once or twice and when he sees this won't go anywhere, he gives up. He wants to help, but he knows that persistance only does do much, and he is not the person who has the resiliance needed to push and push until Thancred finally budges (because he won't budge, it won't help anything but to sour things further by adding aditional stress to an already strained dynamic).

And like. Urianger gets it. He gets it because he's been the same way- not saying what he should to someone he loves more than anything else because she was meant to figure her life out herself, and 'steering' her in any direction by telling her his feelings (regardless of if the 'steering' is intention or not) will go against that. He gets it. He gets it and it's all the more painful for it. He knows it can't just be fixed by acknowledging it or with encouragement, something needs to happen to break the stasis.

I think this is probably why he stayed behind while they went off to Nabaath Areng. This is the very last chance they have to say what they want to, and he can't afford to be the anchor anymore. This is about them, not him, he can't let their resolution be buffed by his presence, so he stays behind. Which was probably for the best. Ryne got nervous when Urianger said he's staying behind, probably not too excited about being alone with Thancred (well, not alone, but WoL doesn't count) so soon after she had ran away crying. But she needs to be nervous. For anything positive to come out of this Thancred and Ryne both can't afford to be too relaxed. As sad as it is, the stress is necessary for anything to happen. He knows it. Does he like it? Absolutely not, but nor does he like his other plots. At least no one dies this time if it goes right.

#urianger had an integral part in the thancred-ryne situation and i think its very important to remember that #like i think he served as a very important buffer that prevented the dynamic from becoming even more strained than it already was #but also like. ryne NEEDED to have at least someone she can be comfortable around without the stress of her circumstances souring it #urianger is uniquely suited to play that role. even with his guilt regarding minfilia he never showed anything but genuine kindness for her #it helps that she didnt know about his hand in the situation existing to begin with (as shes surprised when he tells her in ahm areang) #THATS ALSO IMPORTANT BTW. like this man had a DIRECT hand in making this happen (even if it isnt fully his fault. minfilia made her choice) #AND LIKE. the parallels between uri-moen and thancred-ryne. they both love these girls so so much but cant bring themselves to say anything #urianger has been through the pain before. he knows. but he hasnt improved much himself. what right does he have to scold thancred? #silent support is all he can give. pushing thancred would make him a hypocrite and risk making it worse. hes not suited for confrontation #y'shtola and uriangers approaches to helping both have their merits but it needs a balance #too much pushing and the dynamic just gets worse but too forgiving and nothing will ever change #and yes i know im just repeating myself but ITS IMPORTANT OK #GOD #urianger augurelt #thancred waters #ryne waters #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #xander rambles #xander being insane about ryne #urianger actually this time but. its related to ryne so. it gets the tag

[tangledinink]

new gemini update was so good as always but I can't stop thinking:

big mama: there's nothing wrong with my sons

splinter: you fucked up two perfectly good kids is what you did. look at blue. he's got an eating disorder

wwhhhattttt? nooo, don't be silly. leo doesn't have an eating disorder.

leo and donnie have eating disorders--

#this is a Joke but also No It's Not #it's just different flavors lmao #but both of them have absolutely fucked relationships with food #my poor babies... :(... who did this to you...? #(it was me i did) #leo spends a lot of time worrying about whAT hes eating and how mUCH hes eating and if hes eating the rIGHT thing #largely due to his mom and also just being a celebrity/child celebrity in general #but also in part due to: #donnie has a lot of food sensitivities which have really never been accommodated for at all and as a result he just #has a very negative association with food and eating. he doesnt LIKE eating and he avoids it a majority of the time. #its stressful and unpleasant and he doesnt like it #which ofc only gave leo another reason to hyperfixate on food and calories and nutritional value etc etc etc #which leads to #ironically #leo (who def has an undiagnosed ed and restricts/denies himself food regularly): worrying abt making sure donnie eats enough #donnie will do the same thing back sometimes but not with the same obsessiveness that leo does #esp because the ideals surrounding eating and dieting set up around them really kind of just #lead them both to believe (at least to an extent) that leo is fine and eats a totally healthy and ok amount of food (esp in comparison to d #(no he doesnt)(and even when he does thats not the point) #tw eating disorders #cw eating disorders #eating disorders #tw disorders eating #cw disordered eating #disordered eating #gemini au asks #asks #anon

[arsenicflame]

stede is 'oh this place has something related to my interest i must go in immediately' autistic and izzy is 'if we deviate one inch from my plan for today i will murder someone' autistic

#stede wandering off into the forest to look at bugs was not on the schedule or any of izzys contingency schedules #new thing i think would fix izzy: a clear fucking plan #in the nebulous reunion timeline future i see izzy researching every port town they are gonna stop in HARD so he can figure out everywhere #stede + ed might possibly want to go and plan several routes for the day to keep himself calm in the inevitable chaos #(and yet somehow every time stede finds something he missed and they still go off script anyway) #(he tries to go separately around port from them one time and its a fucking disaster; someone gets stabbed; so he just resigns himself to #incredibly stressful port stops) #its not like stede + ed mean to do it!! theyre both awful for it individually and they just feed off each other #its ok because theyre very good at letting izzy have the deck Exactly how he wants it and scheduling as much big picture stuff as they can #with him #(when stede realises theyve been the cause of like. 65% of izzys stress they finally agree to let him redo the rigging as an apology and #they suddenly realise watching him buy the supplies that hes just as bad as them in his own way) #(he absolutely terrorizes the rope guy but they have never seen him so relaxed as when he was up there redoing all the lines) #nyxtalks #ofmd #izzy hands #israel hands #stede bonnet #you can pry autistic izzy away from my cold dead hands

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Not sure if this theory makes any sense at all but I'm starting to believe that there's no time skip between Wally's phone calls and what we see/hear in the show's Media/Merchandise. If we see the Toyland call being made before the Homewarming episode then it would make sense that Wally's expecting Barnaby to come over soon. As well as the Homewarming sketch from the prior update. (I don't know, still kind of brainstorming this perspective)

that theory Does make sense and i've been considering it! the "timeline" is such a nebulous thing right now because we still... don't really know! there are too many variables and too many Maybes for any solid answer.

maybe the reality that the neighbors live in exists outside of time like you say, and like half of me suspects. there's so much reality fuckery already present, but I'm also... unsure of how much merit this holds given what we know / can infer about how time passes in Home. i'm putting this theory on a low shelf to look at but not prioritize

maybe it really has been 50 years, and Barnaby is either still around / Wally is still in contact with him, or Barnaby... isn't there. who knows, maybe Wally was just verbalizing some Wishful Thinking. i mean, Wally is a bit of an unreliable narrator, isn't he? we can't assume that everything he says is entirely accurate or truthful. and i mean, if it's been 50 years it makes sense that Wally would be pushing for connection / to revive WH. who knows how long he's been trying.

hm... i mean. it could be a mix of that and the Outside Of Time theory. who knows, maybe W is receiving calls from different points in the timeline - Wally may have started out just calling, and has just graduated to invading the WH website / getting pushy with the envelopes and media that's been sent to the WHRP. maybe Wally got tired of waiting for W to respond before W was even born. who's to say!

#i mean. idk the emphasis wally puts on Its So Quiet makes my brain tilt its head #it feels like wally breaking composure before he pastes the Facade back on with '-during homewarming' #that and just the way he phrased 'everyones usually so busy so its just me and home for a long while' #Usually so busy. Usually. why not Always? or Is? #usually. #and then the 'its just me and home for a long while' #the phrasing here has Connotations i think! #homebogging #welcome home speculation #wh speculation #OF COURSE. I HAVE TO DEBUNK MYSELF! #what we hear / see from Wally is - ironically - more genuine than the WHRP's or W's recovered media (save the eddie excerpts) #the WH media shows us the ideal homewarming - where everyone is getting into the spirit and spending time together and the like #but then wally could be telling us what homewarming is Really like - lonely. quiet. #WHICH MAKES SENSE THEMATICALLY! and it mirrors how christmas time is. its marketed as this joyful thing that brings people together #when in reality its lonely and stressful. i know i certainly never feel more lonely than i do at that time of year! #so there's just. layers. right now im simultaneously believing in the time discrepancy And them existing outside of time #im leaning on the first one but you know! #BUT!!! IM CONFIDENT THAT THE HOMEWARMING WALLY WAS CALLING FROM WAS NOT THE ONE WE SAW IN THE UPDATE. #wally spoke with enough familiarity about the time of year to make me think 'hes lived through many of these hasnt he' #it could be that time Has passed for the neighbors and its been many homewarmings. #it could be that it Started as what the commercials/update showed us. #but as time passed maybe it became a time where everyone just... Isolates for one reason or another. so now it's just quiet and lonely #im still rolling it all around in my head! many factors and implications to consider w/ this update! #Take All Of This With A Grain Of Salt As Usual!

[liquidstar]

and now for something stupid

#but really i also just wanted to play around w this sort of coloring style bc its been FOREVER since ive used it #and i think i can make it look better now #AND i think i can make more sillay stuff like this and not have it take as long w cleaning up lines #anyway now you all understand the terrible dynamic between these three #phobo's infodump text is just copypasted from the wikipedia page for knives. #julliet ALSO uses knives is the thing so hes actually mansplaining < JOKE #he just wants to share. even if it gives her a headache. but he wouldnt mansplain he doesnt have it in him. hes ok with felonies tho #but julis life hasnt known peace since she was told to take care of the newbies #and shes ALSO a newbie (just slightly less so) so really this is probably just tartarus hazing her #theyd take one look at the two disorganized unserious overeager newbies and think ''you know what would be fucking hilarious'' #and pass them onto the neurotic slightly-less-newbie who takes everything as seriously as possible. disaster combination. #i cannot stress enough that this is a group of bandits and murderers theyre NOT above hazing. #deimos actually is doing the best job at it since he is stealing as we speak #i mean hes not supposed to do it to his teammates but still. on the right track #as for the dynamic between deimos and phobos themselves its like. theyre just bros. theyre both pretty similar in personality #except deimos is kinda more mean and cynical while phobos can be kinda. dense and naive despite literally where hes at in life #but most of the time theyre basically beavis and butthead #i would also like to stress that juli is not being homophobic she just already cannot stand these guys and cant believe the audacity #but. complete misunderstanding. karma for stealing wallets ig #this will never be cleared up by anyone ever #but again thats not their dynamic they are just beavis and butthead. and i guess that makes juli daria LOL #finn's ocs #finn's art

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

when u didn't come back after 6 days i was worried this had happened to you

Yeah, it turns out grimace really doesn't like people celebrating his birthday. Yeah, it was a warning shot. Yeah, I won't do it again.

#fanart #non mdzs #This gave me a real good chuckle B'*) thank you #The family guy death pose and the realistic shake really does it for me. #I never would have thought I would have been grimaced....grimed cat....purrpled if you will. #tbh this isn't too far off from what actually happened (peeped the horrors and had a dreadful & stressful time) but its FUNNIER to say: #I got grimaced and took six days to crawl back to civilization <3 #also because this is a mdzs blog and I have brainrot #I think wwx would make absolutely stellar grimace shake videos. You can't tell me he would not string together some genuinely horrifying #sequences of events for a 'funny' meme tiktok. #he has it all. The artistry. The horrors he has peeped. The history of creating horrors. #I imagine the juniors made theirs first (a decent Teen Boys being silly attempt) and wwx was like 'Oh fun! ^-^ I wanna try!' #Wen Ning and Wen Qing would probably also do a very horrifying take on the meme. As they should. #RIP if this grimace stuff had happened around the time of the wwx's Wen Chao revenge scene I could have done a real funny bit.

[todayisafridaynight]

i HAVE to keep the daigo plush locked away lest i squeeze it every five minutes to alleviate the cuteness aggression i feel whenever i see it

#snap chats #being without my computer charger has been maddening #that makes me sound terminally online and its because i am. its also cause all i ever wanna do is draw :(( #AND I ESP WANNA WORK ON MY COMMS NOOOOO FUCK #i mean i was at least able to read through yakuza’s bias vol 2… so theres that… #MY SCHOOL STORE DIDNT HAVE LAPTOP CHARGERS i had to order one… hopefully it gets here Overnight like i asked….. if not ill kill #anyway. daigo plushie so cute :(((((((((((((((( #mine cute too but theres just something especially squeezeable about daigo #alas.. thats what the aoki plush’ll be for. my personal stress toy ☠️☠️☠️☠️ #lowkey i wish i also got ichi but then i remenbee they made him pale as all hell and Yeah Im Not Putting Money To That #THE SMALLEST BIT OF A TAN I BEG YOU RGG WHY IS HE SO PALE IT DONT LOOK RIIIIGHT :(((( #anyway.. i have my last class in half an hour… lemme drink this tea… #also Lowkey obsessed with my outfit today.. its that butterfly shirt + gold accessories since theyre monarch butterflies #tho Lowkey 2x the black and yellow remind me of the watase blokes from gaiden…… wack….. #ok bye its tea time #help one of my roommates just came home and she just announces like. ‘man those edibles were. OUGH’ #calling my dad to pick me up nooo im a lame straight edge dont talk about drugs around me ill scream and cry LMAO #ok im done byebye lemme drink this good god

[ra-vio]

Linkle from Hyrule Warriors, my beloved.......

#loz #legend of zelda #hyrule warriors #linkle #god i miss the hyrule warriors. i always wanted to go back but i stopped around this time in 2018 and games just kept coming out #i haven't finished age of calamity yet. its been 2 years #this is a redraw but i found out the original version is not on this account which is fine by me #so anyway i never left the linear algebra discord. and now the server is active again because theres a summer course #so i get to relive all the linear algebra stress while also trying to help these students not fail too bad #at least two people have already gotten a zero because of format or tech errors. i am losing my mind #i am not good at math or a tutor i just like being useful where i can

[smokeys-house]

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#i feel like a lot of the people who i thought i was cool with have been. keeping me at arms length lately #like one person suddenly showed up and then decided i wasnt cool and then i was like ok. bye! #which was the right call imo #but since then it feels like ive been. idk sorta cut off from a lot of folks #like im just being uhh whats the word. tolerated #idk. im not cut out for social stuff. i dont even know my own feelings let alone the feelings of others. but i wish it would be a little #more clear cut. like either hate me and go away or stop ignoring me #u cant have me as a pretty little stuffed animal on a shelf. im either with u or ugotta put me in the garage sale pile #idk i dont think anyones actuallly doing that. i just feel distant lately is all #i think im just kinda stressed out. things have been hard since last year or. maybe before that now #i have trouble keeping time around grief. #it feels like im trying 2 talk 2 ppl and they just cant hear me #its like when i was a kid all over again #anyway #dw about me. i just needed 2 get that out ig

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i started the semester off with such a level head but ive walked myself further and further toward i ledge i can feel crumbling #out from under my feet. i sit in small rooms where i feel the stress radiating from my chest down into my limbs. disappating into the floor #it makes me want to run and run and run but im so tired and the sidewalk is icy slick. and i feel like im at the limits of my abilities #and i know every grad student has that worry but what if its true. that i have a void behind my eyes and not enough depth of thought #anywhere it matters. how am i supposed to operate in this system when i can barely string together the words to understand what im reading #and itll never be any easier. what if im at my functional limit? what if i caught fire and burned away to ashes? what if i screamed and #kept screaming until someone told me patch up the open wound in my chest? what if i just stopped? #what if i could just let go of any need to feel like i have a purpose? what if i could just live? and feel the wonder of the things around #me. let go of all my emptiness #move at a pace that isnt breaking my neck. feel anything close to joy or if that's too much to ask then let me at least feel stable. just #for a while. just a little while. #and i know itll b fine. and i know im just being whiny bc things are hard and theyve been hard and theyll always be hard bc i refuse to make #things easy. but i just feel like im standing alone on a beach where the water's been drawn too far back #and i can see it rushing toward me faster than i can run. im just waiting for the tsunami to wash me away to nothing #unrelated

[arsenicflame]

when will someone pick izzy up bridal style and spin him around? hm?

#it Would upset his tummy but i think he deserves a little holding. as a treat #to be cradled. and spun around with joy #(honestly to me i see this only working as bellhands i dont think izzy would let anyone else get away with it- maybe ed but. thin thin ice- #and i see izzy being too stressed about eds knee to get to unbridled laughter. so sam . hes just appeared; for the first time in a long #time. he sees izzy [they have a little reunion (depending on ~circumstances~ that could just be yelling affectionately at each other like #hey i haven't seen u in a year- or if its after faking his death i see sam getting punched. just a little) they get to kiss a bit etc etc] #then sam just. sweeps him up in his arms. izzy yells in shock and demands sam puts him down but sam just. holds him tighter and #spins him around in pure joy. and izzy laughs #(this; more than anything shocks the crew. they thought the rest of it was shocking- sam bellamy likes izzy???? theyre married??? #people think positively about this man they all hate???? wtf wtf. izzy punched sam and got away with it?? the prince of pirates????? #but then izzy is laughing. and theyre astounded. they didn't think he was capable of that. maybe they never knew him at all) #djjdhdhdj ive been. thinking about this. A LOT. today so here #have a ramble about izzy (again) #if izzy not for cradling like lover; why small? #nyxtalks #ofmd #israel hands #izzy hands #bellhands #sam bellamy #i think i went off enough in the tags to quantify those fjdjnd

[chickenstrangers]

genuinely feel like i've forgotten how to rewatch things just like as a comfort show. every time i've rewatched a show recently it takes me at least 3 times as long to watch because i have so many thoughts and need to write them down and reflect on them and screenshot everything

#not complaining i like meta whether or not i actually end up writing it #but i've been stuck on episode 8 of not me for a week because every scene keeps being back to back one of the best scenes of all time #and i need to stop it and take a walk #thinking about the way the nature of art and activism and hopelessness #and yet the unstoppable drive of humans to do something about it #and how the camera moves & captures its subject and how it exposes them and how they look at each other and recognize something in eachothe #i have cried THREE times this episode about the CAMERA work #every time i rewatch things my brain goes into essay mode #because the first time watching i was just bingeing most of the time #it is much less stressful this time around with how bad they are at all their plans tho so that is a nice thing for me #rambling rambles

[saaltskies]

i went to bed right after finishing the epilogue but i am now awake and can put my silly little rant here

#pokemon sv dlc spoilers #pokemon scarlet and violet dlc spoilers #sv dlc spoilers #ok first of all NOT PENNY CALLING MY MOM HOT IN FRONT OF ME #EXCUSE ME???? #glad to know penny is into milfs #anyways #it was soooo fun seeing how the three acted as house guests #nemonas the perfect house guest shes super polite and enthusiastic offering to help with stuff fantastic #penny is just vibing and having a good time #and arven is all stressed and anxious about being polite enough bestie calm down its fine #also YES nemona and kieran meeting #ive been wanting them to meet so bad this whole time #wish i could have gotten more nemona and carmine interactions #but ya this event was so silly goofy #oh and i sent out ogerpon in the battle against pecharunt and she reacted that was fun #around the time nemona disappeared i was freaking out bc right before in the remote finding conversation she wasnt saying anything #and i was like NEMONA?? ARE YOU OK?? bro whys she so quiet #i was surprised at first when kieran lost to nemona and by a lot #but ig it makes sense first of all nemonas probably gotten a lot stronger since we last fought her #especially now that she has a rival #and two kierans team is built for double battles #anyways that was fun! #my first class of the day was cancelled so ill be able to do stuff #i havent done anything after beating the story i just went to bed #weeeeee #back to scarleting the violet

[allofuswantgwinam]

someone tell me to stop being a pussy and give the gas station guy my # tomorrow

#yell at me #bully me #he makes me want to throw up 🤣🤣🤣 #it’s annoying that I only see him at his job bc I was feeling brave the other day B U T #there was someone behind me soo i was as anxious about that 💀 #instead of being nervous about him lmao #ITS STRESSFUL #and I love when I go there and then Love Talk comes on when I leave 🤣🤣🤣🤧🤧 #or if I’m thinking about going for no reason just to see him and buy something random and then the song comes on 😭😭 #I be like ‘heard im ommfw’ 😭😭 #ugh #I’ve been meaning to bring the cards out for this #maybe tonight I will but I feel like I already know he’s into me I’m just being a PU S S Y #U G H #when he was mopping another other day he literally started mopping all the way over to me 🤣😭😭 and was giggling about something I said #while I was checking out and I was gonna die bc it was so cute #then after I was done and I realized he mopped everywhere around that mfer said ‘jump’ 🤣🤣🤣 I said he was gonna have to carry me lmao #and he giggled again 😭😭 cutest giggle I ever heard in my life fr #send help

[trans-xianxian]

girl I think I need to move 😭

#my housemate is getting less and less friendly #and I'm becoming more and more frustrated with her patterns of communication #I'm just always like. dreading encountering her in the kitchen #plus there was a recent thing that was definitely my fault but the way she communicated abt it was not helpful #or proportional to the issue #she'll be like really clear and upfront about some things and then turn around and be very passive aggressive about others #and its very stressful #plus she acts like she's the only one who does cleaning when that is so deeply not true #and I seem to be the only one doing certain tasks #and overall we just seem to be on different pages about living with other ppl #in a way that isn't either of our faults #it's just getting more and more clear that we're not as compatible as maybe we thought #and that added to the way she's been acting recently has nawt made it easy to live here #especially when I'm home literally all of the time #which sucks because I love this apartment and the rent is great #but alas #ghost posts #text