#its fine when im distracted but

[smolsix]

-blows dust off this blog-

So

Little Nightmares III, huh???

I was trying to avoid being excited about it because no solid release date and 2024 could be a few months from now or a year from now and Idk how long I can handle being so fuckin hyped for this game YEEHAW

BUT I CAN'T, I KEEP THINKING ABT THE GAME AAHAHHGAGA

so here are my thoughts, if you wanted to know

FIRST OF ALL, i am so glad that after we saw LTNM II we thought it'd be co-op but it was just an AI, that we finally get co-op! AND ONLINE TOO, i spent the first day worried it'd be shared screen same room situation since i wasn't trying to get my hopes up but then I realised I can just.. google it.. AND IT IS!!! ONLINE!! IDK WHO I AM GONNA PLAY IT W FIRST AAAAAAAA

anyways, you can definitely tell it's a new studio working on this game, the world feels mostly the same but the character designs themselves are definitely stylistically similar, but not the same. With Six especially, the MC designs were very simplistic and realistic but used colour (or for Mono, a single design quirk being the bag) to stand out against their backgrounds and against the enemies which are largely neutral colours. But these new ones feel... "over designed"? On their own they definitely aren't, but in comparison to Mono, Six, Seven, and even NPCs like the flashlight girl, they have a lot more going on (especially the little wrench kid, Idk which one is Alone and which one is Low yet btw OOP)

Despite it being a new studio and you can tell, new puzzles and environments, they're still doing their best to have the OGs vibes and whatnot to feel familiar, namely in the trailer they bring back the fuses, and the additional gameplay video there's a short scene with an environment with all the shelves you can find in LTNM 1s gnome section (the one with the cart that is affected by the Maws swaying).

But regardless, it still feels different enough my brain is still nervous about it. I also feel In A Way about Tarsier having LTNM II explode and their franchise getting the attention it deserves, only to have it stuck with Bandai and now it's going to likely explode again and they aren't involved. Idk how anyone on that team feels about it, but if it were me omg.

Also the only boss we've seen so far (i hope they add more and i def want some to be a surprise so im not gonna assume this is the only one for now) feels... out of place? it has the design qualities of a LTNM boss, but the size of it makes it more of a spectacle than a warped/corruption of an adult. All the previous bosses fit in their environment, we are the small ones and they are scaled to the world around them. This is the first time, outside monster Six who imo is a bit of an outlier anyways due to her circumstances, we're getting a boss who is this huge and doesn't even fit their own environment. I hope we get a lore reason for this in some way, because currently the boss doesn't have the same vibe as the others and it's throwing me off a bit. Don't get me wrong, it'll be terrifying, but looking at the picture as a whole they are sort of out of place for me rn. I don't hate the bitch either, I'm not gonna be like omg get rid of it or change it, but it does strike me as odd seeing it for now.

And yes the tall man is too tall for a lot of things, but he's not THAT big. He's more like yer tall guy who hits his head off doorways, which happens irl anyways LMAO

Little Nightmares primarily tries to capture the feeling of being a small child and how everything is big and scary, but a doll that huge is out of the realm of reality set up for us already. It's gone from scary corrupted animal to godzilla, if that makes sense.

OH AND THE MIRRORS ARE VERY LTNM COMICS OF THEM TEE HEE < 3

#while i find the MCs designs to be a bit much for now they're fast growing on me as characters #they give me indie movie vibes more than little nightmares MCs vibes #but hey if we get a 4th installment then it goes from an outlier to part of a trend #my brain will get over it eventually anyways these are just my initial thoughts #oh and as long as they either dont bring back the flashlight or change its controls im mostly fine w the puzzles and whatnot #like suuuuuper minor gripe but i loved in the first games that when you had a weapon it was too big and too heavy #they had serious weight when you swung them and the mcs clearly struggled #and it really helped you feel powerless even when armed #i know the masked kid has a slingshot btw but i just hope it isnt used as an easy weapon and more as a distraction #having any kind of upper hand in this world sort of diminishes the initial scare factor they were going for #being that youre a small child helpless in this world #outside sixs ending but aside from the hallway you literally dont play w her power at the end #text #long post #little nightmares 3 #ltnm 3 #ooc

[ch1zzie]

Some Julie's and idk a little thingy for today

#welcome home #partycoffin #julie joyful #man i have a LOT to do #today was kind of a mess we were suppose to go to my aunts house but uh my mom sort of took long in storage so its too late #not a bad thing actually #we have a lot more things that can help us and i have my missing nintendo switch thats been gone for 2 (or more) years! #its missing one controller but its fine! we can get a new one for it (it been had one controller because my brother broke it ages ago) #time to unpack everything i packed and uh do more work? #i still need to finish that freeplay menu im working on for my buddys fnf mod #and also need tooooo post some art i made (some time when i make more) #i haven't had much time for making my own art of things i like #OH I FORGOT ABOUT MY ART PROJECT TOO #welp things are going bad #what else did i forget? #curse you terrible memory CURSE YOU BEING DISTRACTED EASILY CURSEEE YOU HAVING HARD TIME TO FOCUSS CURSEE YOU EVERY ISSUE I CANT THINK OF

[sporesgalaxy]

ough your nightmare sounded so scary i hope youre feeling better!! it also sounded so much like a covid metaphor im crying

OH LOL IM FINE THANK U THO. Honestly I definitely had it bc I was thinking abt my history with OCD last night! Ive spent my whole life being freaked the fuck out by things that are real to me but no one takes me seriously on lmaoooo. I didnt even think of covid specifically when I woke up but yeah it works

#asks #I went through my whole usual arc of wait no way -> freaking thenfuck out -> crying -> event passes -> hopefully im insane and its fine! #I was even trying to distract myself w Games right before i woke up which is rlly what i do when this happens #gosh its been a while . i dont miss that.

[steampoweredskeleton]

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Ignore

#delete later #i have three medical appointments in the work day in the next three weeks #one on Thursday then two mid/late January and i know that its good bc i need these appointments but i get so #anxious that ppl ay work are mad at me for having so many #im also scared about thirsdays one bc its for my ankle and hand pain and ironically the hand is way better and the ankle is also #more stable. something clicked again a couple days ago and fixed the pain in half of ky foot. no idea what happened there but #the click itself hirt like a bitch which is new. most of my pain doesnt start with a click and most clicks are painless #so fun #im just in a permanent state of being afraid i wont be taken seriously. my physio wanted a scan on my foot so om gonna #relay that but like idk what theyre gonna say. also if they do want to swnd me for a scan that's gpnna be ANOTHER appointment #so fuck me i guess. at the very leasy its not like severe psin any more so they wont send me to a and e for an x ray like they did #with my hip that one time. that would fucking suck to explain tp my manager #hey julia im fine but ive been sent ro rhe hospital for a scan so i guess ill be back when im back? #fuck me im anxious. and i hace so much apprenticeship work tp do i want to scream #also was distracted by my aching hands bc often they just ache abd successfully triggered myself so bow time to play what #is actual acge and what is remembered ache oh joy #one of the other appointments is gender clinic appointment abd im hoping to get referred for top surgery now ive been on t #for 9 months. waiting list gonna be like four fucking years but debating saving like mad abd going private bc jesus Christ #i cant bind bc of sensory problems and constantly aching ribs and last time i taped i ripped chunks of skin off so kinda #think i shouldn't do that again but like it sucks. not as bad now that my voice is dropping abd shit but still not fun #we'll see!

[soldier-poet-king]

Not to be like. All of this can be summed up by naruto. But maybe. Simplified. Gaara. Why do I exist. What is the purpose. What have I done. What will I do. How can I make up for existing.

#franposting #MAYBE SO #the duality of fran is naruto in one hand and kristas harrowing manuscript in the other #and im laid bare between them like. this is fine. i am definitelt a normal well adjusted person #and not a monster and wretch hiding behind my carefully constructed facade of kindness and cheerfulness ans generosity and humour #to make up for the complete lack of anything good or worthwhile #if you wear the mask long enough does it become you. do you fool others. is it enough? will it be enough? to make up for it all? #you run and run but its in circles and youre always left back with yourself when the mask falls ans the distractions fade #god i am so annoying and pretentious and i dont even mean to be it just. #well. another thing to make up for. is complete self effacement possible. idk. i am trying

[machinedramon]

legit wondering if when I start going to the doc for all my physical shit I should ask abt who I should see abt maybe getting mood stabilizers

i'm sick of this unending cycle of getting eight million ideas and scrambling from one to the next before burning myself out on all of them and falling into a depression and hating myself for not doing any of the eight million things I was excited about

#i am losing my fucking mind here i cant fucking take it anymore #i dont think im bipolar i just think the adhd takes the wheel and fucking floors it #i dont have delusions of grandeur (not more than a flight of fancy that i know is unrealistic anyway) or like. euphoria. #i also dont not remember stuff from from those surges of inspiration #i mean i might forget something but thats bc i got distracted and my brain dumped it to focus on New Shiny Thing #this is the equivalent of my 2AM mental breakdown so bear with me here i am Going Through It when i should be sleeping #also it feels like theres shit crawling on me and there isnt but i cant sleep bc i am ITCHY WHY AM I ITCHY WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE THIS #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #fun fact: the sensation of shit crawling on you is called formication #which is really fucking funny #like i understand its from formica meaning ant but it is literally one letter away from fornication #anyway doing my usual webmd doom spiral and guess what gets formication as a symptom sometimes: bipolar disorder #im gonna laugh if i get a bipolar dx but it doesnt seem right #all the other options were autoimmune disorders like parkinson's and MS and fibro and RA #which. i might actually have rheumatoid arthritis. but the others? theyre scary. i dont wanna deal with that. #i dont even wanna deal with RA lets be real #farmer voice: i was just fine before i went to the doctor and now all of a sudden ive got an immune disorder #wait i dont think parkinson's is an autoimmune disorder thats a neurological condition #ok carry on #more fun facts since i am now down a wikipedia rabbit hole to distract myself from my itchy self #the process of ur limb falling asleep and going numb is called obdormition #then when the feeling starts coming back the pins and needles feeling is paresthesia #formication is an uncommon kind of paresthesia #obdormition is our funny word of the day and i look forward to telling someone about it randomly or for it to show up in a crossword soon #bc u know how u find something new and suddenly it's everywhere? #yeah. i get the feeling thats gonna happen here.

[possiblytracker]

back to cycling through random underplayed games in my steam library to tide me over i GUESS

#i was doing this a little to procrastinate a few weeks ago. like to an almost dysfunctional degree. #like id (try to) write all day and get a little done and just be like 'fuck it time for a break' that was not actually a break id just stop #it was like full on videogame masochism type shit i would just throw myself at the most difficult frustrating challenges bc Anything #was better than writing and smth just made me really want to put Effort into smth stupid kdjJSDKJ #i was too scared to tell anyone i was really embarrassed dfjkSD;; #was a weird time but i broke out of it and wrote my diss and thats DONE so its FINE NOW #on that note i picked up don't starve recently after sitting unplayed in my library for over 2 years #and tbh i am Fascinated but im also so so so bad at it #which was good and fine when 'i need a Struggle or my brain will shrivel and combust' was the whole deal #but now im like. if i was Any less annoyingly stubborn abt videogames i mightve stopped already but we are still here #THEN AGAIN im trying to distract myself from totk just like i was previously distracting myself from work so #still pretty good conditions for metaphorically slamming up against a brick wall over and over kjgSDKJ #im in a weird headspace rn idk how i feel abt bursting back into conversation rn im so tired and headachey but somehow #wordvomiting into tumblr tags is still fine. sdkjhg #i didnt use tumblr for so long im just making up for it you all just have to deal with me for a bit

[cryptidapprentice]

currently having an Awful Time (dropped phone in toilet) (needs to go to work tomorrow) (bus pass is on phone) (also cant check emails because of stupid 2FA connected to my phone) (really wants to cry rn)

#marine myths rambles #ik this is like. first world problems/gen z things but like. im genuinely extremely upset n kinda freaking out about what to do #other than 'put phone in rice and Wait' #i rely so heavily on my music on public transport though n im already kinda overwhelmed so idk how tmrrws gonna go. #also my mom tends to get frustrated (understandably) when i miss her txts so im like... ugh #its okay im tryna watch babymetal vids on my switch to distract me (its not really working bc i need additional stimulation ; ;) #i literally pulled out my laptop to check my emails and then post this #n e ways pray for my phone (and my job and my mental/emotional well-being 🙃) (ill be fine i promise im just ruminating and catastrophizing)

[artistredfox]

Pardon me im gonna ramble about silly minecraft block eggs for a moment.

I think it was done poorly. The point of them at the beginning was to pair up spanish speakers with english speakers so they would be incentivized to interact and use the translator. With a vague threat of punishment for not caring for the eggs right.

So where did that go? Where is the dragon who left her eggs behind? And I understand Tallulah being a late-comer, but (although i love them) richarlson amd pomme just kind of. Appear out of nowhere.

In my opinion, when the brazilians joined, the dragon should have appeared. Those who kept their eggs alive and well would recieve gifts, while those who lost them get nothing.

Then, the brazilians would be soread among the pairs, with either the original lost eggs coming back or new eggs taking their places, and running like that for a bit. And then the same thing again when the french streamers joined.

That way there would be more incentive for the streamers to be interacting, having conversations, learning new things. Instead all the brazilians have their egg, and the french have their egg, and most of the eng/span eggs are dead, leaving those pairs with no egg nothing to do on the server.

Also the binary entity is poorly executed and bad rp.

Thats it thats my take.

#qsmp rant #i love the server but some of its lore makes no sense #the binary entity specifically. hate that mf #it has no weakness. it attacks only the egg it wants to kill and ignores all other distractions #im pretty sure it was in creative mode a few times too. op and stupid. #like if they had some Lore of binary entities b4 about ways to avoid/defeat/scare off the creature itd be fine #but as it is they just threw a hungry wolf into a chicken coop and shrugged when the rooster cant defend the chicks

[lover-of-mine]

I am team 'buck should have kept his facial scars from the tsunami'

I see what you mean and I agree with you at some level, but I think the point of him getting the cuts on his face was more for us to think about the blood thinners at all times, so they didn't think about committing to the possibility of facial scars, but I also think at some level the choice to just make them vanish was more about not forcing Oliver to forever have to sit in makeup for a few hours to give him scars every day, I think it was more of a matter of convenience. But it would be interesting, it is a bit of a pet peeve of mine the way characters never scar, like, Buck would have some of them for sure, and this could be interesting if they went for it.

#on a im definitely projecting here note tho #as someone who has a scar on their face #i admit it is not nearly as visible now as it was when i was a teenager and im good distracting people from it since i had it since i was 5 #its not a dramatic thing i just had stitches near my eye and it left a scar #i got used to people telling me to cover it up and a dermatologist once told me we could fill it up if i wanted to make 'go away' #if a project needed me to put new scars on my face every day for who knows how long i don't think i would handle that very well #and considering the way that earlier projects Oliver worked had him cover his birthmark it could be a sensitive topic for him too #but this is absolutely me projecting #maybe hes absolutely fine and it was just inconvenient #but that was actually my first thought at the idea of Buck keeping the scars so I'm sharing it #i really need a tag for asks #anon 😌

[shwarmii]

it's just me and my Homegoods' autumn leaf print in black microfiber blanket against the world

#i apologize if im being incoherent tonight. its bc i am chatty when ive gone without sleep for too long #all the lines are blurred. the filter is gone. i am just gonna say/do anything to distract from thiS STUPID FUCKING NAUSEA AHHH #v tempted to watch a ghibli movie on my phone if this keeps up. ive been nauseous fOR TWO DAYS STRAIGHT. STOP IT #ive heard of/experienced painsomnia before (insomnia induced by pain). but is nauseomnia a thing?? idk how to spell #me all the time: boo streaming sucks. own movies instead. but the dvd #also me: i am buying these movies to stream from my phone whenever i am sick/have an attack #incredibly illegal that MY FAVORITE MOVIE EVER doesnt have my FAVORITE DUB EVER on streaming anywhere #like bitch Castle Of Cagliostro saved my fucking life bc i was stuck in a pitch dark room with no electrocity and it was in #a strange house and my family was on the opposite side of the house and i was having my first anxiety/panic attack #and i had a fear of the dark and thought i was gonna die. so then i went ''might as well watch something nice while i die'' and my #portable dvd player was all charged up and i had brought 8 dvds with me. i was like 10? maybe younger. and one of them was #Lupin III: Castle Of Cagliostro bc my dad was a Miyazaki nut as SOON as the movies were coming out with English dubs #of course he was grabbing Miyazaki's directorial debut. and David Hayter voice Lupin/the Manga Studios dub iS BETTER #bob bergen as Lupin's english va in Caglisotro is FINE but so much is clunky and unnatural about that dub's script #aND YET ITS THE VERSION ON ALL THE STREAMING VERSIONS. AND NOT THE MANGA STUDIOS DUB. smh let me watch mY #FAVORITE/COMFORT MOVIE WHILE IM SICK. DAVID HAYTER'S VOICE IS PIVOTAL TO MY ENJOYMENT. I AM ATTACHED #someone either let me download that movie onto my phone or else surgically remove Whatever Is Causing My Nausea pls and thanks #diary dump #shwarmi #me

[kirexa]

I could probably get away with pulling an all nighter,, i don't rly wanna sleep :(

#im not struggling w/ any of the classes i have tomorrow infact i could just do all my work and extra for comp sci rn becasue its all online #i have french but we didnt have homework so idt we'll be doing anything important even if we do french is one of my best classes #this is mostly because i can't bring myself to put in almost any effort for my core classes. idek what I' supposed to do in human geo since #the teacher isnt good at exxplaining #hes a great teacher its a fun class during led instruction #but when we have to do work on our own its just “Oh yeah you need to do the essay” which is fine its only 400 words but. I do not know what #iam doing #I also have english tmr but i have literally the nicest english teacher nd its 8th period ill be awake ish by then and even if im not im su #sure she'd let me put my head down during independant reading. Her room is lit dimly w/ like string lights and a few lamps #she says the overhead lights hurt her eyes and distract students aometimes #sleeping would be so hard rn like not because im hyper energized just. my face hurts sm and i have music in my head and im too hungryt oo f #fall aswell #asleep #gonna. rest and do nothing but i probably wont sleep lol

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#guess whos back in therapy bby 😎 #the lady i saw was nice. 1st appointments r always a lotta blah blah blah so much to cover #and im always like bleh whatever im not that bad but when u put it all down on paper it is sorta a lot lol #i got the comment. hm u seem to kno a lot abt the dsm. and like listen. i have been meticulously categorizing my problems for the last 4 #years. and i like to learn so ya kno. also said yea it sounds like u r having hypomanic episodes. #and asked if bipolar was a possibility and like if i was bipolar that would absolutely blow my god damn mind. im pretty sure its just pmdd #but whatever. im open to the possibility. mostly i wanna hear someone else perspective on this #i feel like im collaborating on a project. like gimmie ur notes i wanna see if were on the same track. bc im insane like that #i always feel bad when they apologize for asking invasive questions. like neh its fine. i got nothin to hide and i dont give a fuck #also i told a class of my peers that my distraction from research is drawing narut0 fan art. again bc i do not #give a single fuck. Professors response: hopefully we get to see it some day. bro. if u ask me i will show u. i do not care #i mean. probably nothing too weird but i feel like most of my stuff is safe to share. i just come off looking like a weeb i guess #but yea back in therapy bc my mum reminded me bc the ppl around me irl r also worried for my well-being based on my behavior lol #i mean its just bc i complain that im in like psychological pain a lot. so lots and lots of bitching abt my brain ^^ #the lady i saw did fall a lil bit into my trap. like what woulf ur life look like if u had everything under control? bc it seems like ur #here and ur starting a phd what more do u want? and im like mwahaha but u see i can do school #i can do school so good. i am the best at school and thats it. i am otherwise barely functional #so i can be successful on paper and dysfunctional when it comes to having a life :-] #but whatever. well see what she wants to follow up on next week bc i threw a lot at her #also went to my office for the 1st time. it is really nice to sit in a working lab and watch ppl interact. but also i do feel like im #dying if i try to sit in that room with 2 other ppl lol. so well see how it goes. i may find somewhere else to hide #unrelated

[ei-mugi]

my main hurdle with my dcaf fic is my depression but my 2nd task-related hurdle is not knowing what eichi should be doing at my ambiguous and butchered chosen place in time--- nvm see the notes

#i already fucked up the start of checkmate but its fine the details dont have to be perfect #its so early on i can write a way around that. who cares #whats important is that it stays like thematically coherent. and characterisation needs to be consistent #but also liiike. whats----------- oh. #okay. i just thought of a solution to my problem #thats really easy why didnt i think of this months ago #ok im gonna write that down somewhere for after i finish my BB fic #and then several yaers down the line once i have a nicely wrapped and finished dcaf i can rewrite the whole thing to make it #accurate-er to the canon timeline of events. making a timeline just isnt fun to me sorry #the goal with dcaf wasnt to make it perfect it was to make it done yknow #i wanted to prove to myself i could write a longfic (or medfic at least) & that i could have a bare minimum satisfying narrative #so staying entirely true to canon isnt high on my priority list #learn how to make the thing THEN learn how to make it well u get me #i love roleplay but ive never done a whole lot of individual writing lol #i still need to reread those reminiscence events though... sigh... and ideally fluff out with some other stories too #i gotta manage my expectations on what i know im able to get done tho. sad but true #thank god i actually wrote notes when i was reading rocket start #i started writing notes when i started obbligato too tho im not far into that yet ive got other stuff to do #im totally distracted ok wrapping post up now

[jvzebel-x]

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#one of my least favourite media tropes is the 'bad person w a heart of gold' character lmao #i think its a kneejerk response to my inherent belief that when someone tells you point blank who they are you should believe them lmao #but also maybe its projection bc its not like ppl arent always offput by me for one reason or another #w/o ever actually getting to know me lmao. #so like maybe i just have chosen to disavow all versions of having a 'deeper' self in favour of spitting on the idea that i should have to #prove myself by disproving anything w a Deeper Level of Self lmao. maybe im actually just exactly what meets the eye. #perhaps i am not only totally fine w that but genuinely prefer it that way lmao. #... that is all hypothetical nonsense rambling however lmao. what is objective fact is the Bad Person w A Heart of Gold trope #has done as much damage as the Manic Pixie Dream Girl trope&i fucking hate them both the exact same amount lmao. #what is also objective fact is that i have now dropped two books in a row bc i refuse to sit thru the plot points of #'im an asshole but pls get to know me its def not fucked up that i take my bullshit out on random ppl like a toddler pls coddle this' #&'no one could ever understand my sad life story that makes me extremely abusive pls fix me' LMAO #ahhh i just need better distraction. between everything going on back home&the unstable weather making my unstable body heave #i have been going rather stir crazy&usually i can get thru like a book a day when things are like this #&starting over twice is Offensive right now LMAO.

[halinski]

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#my problem is this: when i am in a considerable amount of time i just #tell myself im not #and my brain goes: okay #and sometimes that means that i started dissociating #and sometimes it gets to a point where I literally am not as aware of my body as i should be #and i'm like yeah yhe pain is literally fine #i just slammed my head while skittering through the house bc i didn't realize the wall was there #and yeah #i cant tell how bad the pain really is tho #bc my varying degrees of dissociation really just block a lot of sensation #and i cant explain that to the doctors without them thinking im deranged #and like im already on 2 antidepressants and an antipsychotic #and i fled from my last therapist once again #and my psychiatrist is happy as long as i can keep my job and say im fine #and the obgyns all just are like take the damn hormones and dont wanna do more tests #this is just a rant ignore me #its 2am i gotta get up and go to work in 3 hours bc staying home doing nothing would be even worse #bc it means no distraction #and its bad bad bad for my head #and i cant #ignore me #the sleep aid effect of the meds hasnt been very effective the past 2 months :( #also i am in pain from cramps