#its fucking boiling tho

[esoomris]

fun thing about dredge is like. the familiarity of the unknown. like sure the various Horrors are scary when you first encounter them, but soon enough you learn where they are and how to avoid them and like, sure they’re dangerous and sure you don’t fully comprehend them but like. give them a wide berth you’ll probably be fine. which is exactly the mindset that any person who was hired to go fishing for a living in the eldritch nightmare town would end up in. yeah the anglerfish have come up to the surface and their lures are clearly designed for me but like. i’ve got bills.

#dredge #i went from being scared of the big cliffs monster to exclusively referring to it as ''this fucker'' in like. 2 in-game weeks #forreal tho this game has some real incredible gut-drop moments #like the aforementioned anglerfish and also the bit where the science lady tells you there's a creature in the middle of the coral reef #and you look down and see its fuckin tendrils and are like. oh. oh fuck you're way bigger than the other guy #but like you get used to it all in a way that kinda adds to the immersion #i can picture my fisherman on his little boat muttering to himself all the same thing i mutter to myself during gameplay #''fucking snitch fish calling their damn mom on me. get boiled idiots'' - he would fucking say that #Moose Talks

[slicedblackolives]

my personal theory of why characters like james bond and indiana jones and batman and the line cook in bear are sexy is that that particular rogue archetype combines working class male attributes of physical violence and manual labour with a bourgeoise genteelness so middle class viewers don't have to deal with the cognitive dissonance of finding male labouring bodies hot but not wanting to fuck poor people

#like thats what gymming boils down to? #men who do physical labour and have the bodies for that are like objectively hot but the class of men that does it for their job are not #viable partners under capitalism for middle class women/mlm #so u settle for a billionaire who beats up criminals in his off time #or an eton-cambridge educated hired killer #like thats why sebastian moran has to be a disgraced lordling yanno. if the middle class readership has to find him hot. he has to have #that social and cultural capital even tho it makes zero sense for his real job #why officers are hot and grunt soldiers aren't #or if grunt soldiers are hot theyre the 'secretly' poetry reading kind #there has to be SOMETHING. to mark them as distinctively NOT working class despite the working class job #LIKE EVEN IN THE BEAR! #the majn character is so fucking hot hes a line cool hes filthy but hes a haute couture chef #he 'approximates' working classness without embodying it so he can be desired yanno #its also v specific to men

[timetokrill]

every day i think about feferi peixes

#krill chirps #my stuff #i feel like shes just. shes an Interesting Character to me #despite being not really any sort of focus character #she was the heiress to alternia and disagreed with the condesce thats Inch Resting to me #idk i feel like having her just be some sort of filler character on par with nepeta or equius was a sort of waste of Something #like. worldbuilding i Guess #iirc ah actually like. Mentioned that meenah is so cool and pretty relevant to sort of make up for pisces who got “saddled” with feferi #it just always struck me as odd that even tho she was like the princess and one of the nicest trolls (which is considered odd in alternia) #she barely had any time in the spotlight #ITS JUST. i think the hemospectrum as a Whole is pretty underdeveloped #its a v interesting piece o’ worldbuilding but not super expanded on when you get into specific castes? #BUT ESPECIALLY FUSCHIAS #bc like. it was just a weird move to say hello heres the Princess of this Fucked Up Murder Society and she Doesnt Want To Murder and also #her mom is an eldritch beast #and then just murder the gal #AND THATS NOT EVEN GETTING INTO HER RELATIONSHIP WITH ERIDAN #or the fact that the fandom boils her down to the sweet irrelvant fishpun princess #(classic fandom misogyny moment. btw) #when in canon shes got a MEAN STREAK! #she is RUDE SOMETIMES #stop flattening her fudusudueusifoekfjej #feferi peixes #homestuck #maintagging them bc i put a shit ton of stuff into the notes #look at my words boy #i dont think its wasted potential for feferi specifically as much as it is the Idea of feferi #its not like she got a whole arc that was abandoned #its more like. she Could have had an arc #it just never started. idk. i like feferi shes cool

[so-very-small]

to all my fellow tinies

get the FUCK inside

#im honestly so glad its storming tho #it was supposed to be 108• today. 108. 108. could u fucking imagine #the ac doesnt work right in my room either i was ready to die #but the storm came and cooled it off #dont get me wrong u’ll boil alive outside #but AT LEAST IT ISNT 108 #i wanna move to the cold so bad

[martyrbat]

shaking some of you by the shoulders and forcing you to confront if your self proclaimed pretentiousness is just an excuse to be casually classist or ableist

#i had a big thing in the tags that no one would care about but they boil down to this: #1) sorry for dropping off for a few days its because i didnt wanna spontaneously deactivate because i do love you guys #but sometimes some of you make me want to straight up deactivate because i feel like im being laughed at or judged #and the ‘oh no ransom i didnt mean YOU when i was mocking something that applies to you’ is (surprisingly!) not fucking comforting!! #and 2) havent wrote a word since it because it just made me feel like shit even tho it was unintentional #and made ny little excitement to start back into my wips just turn to that nauseating fear and insecurity again lol #and 3) again. love you. but for the love of god sit with yourself and ask why do you feel a certain way/think thats okay to say. #what was your intention in mocking something that you KNOW applies to other people. not something fictional like a ship or comic or game. #but something that actually applies to their real life and their ability to do or create something. #like be pretentious! whatever!! but if its motivated by you wanting to feel more superior than other ppl then thats just mean and gross!!!

[bednbunfast]

my father got me a cater,,, ( who i still need to pay for, actually... i really cannot save money whoops,,, )

please he is so ugly i lvoe him,,, silly guy,,, i am going to place him next to my pillow and hope i don't drool on him,,, ahaha...

#☕️ | chatter #SO FAR ITS NEVER HAPPENED BUT ITS SUCH A FEAR... I DO NOT WANT MY PLUSHIES TO GET DIRTY ;-; #i wish his friend gets a malleus bevause i want to bring him to a school program thats literally just. twisted wonderland. #WE NEED TO MAKE TWISTS TO DISNEY PRINCESS MOVIES HOW CAN I NOT RESIST #WE GOT SLEEPING BEAUTY TOO IM SO FUCKIGN!!!! AAAARRGGHRHEHFHWJXKWND #its also so fucking silly the story my classmates went with is boiled down to. maleficent is nice and wants to help with the king's army #the king is racist to fairies and does not let her join. kills one of the fairies ( merryweather? methinks? ) and so she curses him #i probably shoukdnt be ranting here JUST IN CASE SOMEONE FROM MY SCHOOL SEES THIS... #hiiiiiiiiii fellow schoolmate !! sorry please ignore me im just very excited!! #i am bringing my crowley plush tho... he hangs on my bag for his crimes.

[solemntitty]

for whatever reason weather.com keeps on putting the units in as Celsius as opposed to Frankenstein and i keep on being like pls. i am in america. use the freedom units i am begging you what the hell does 17 even MEAN

#jamie has made a statement #would get it if it was when i was in canada but nope its been doing this even in socal #all i know about celsius is yanno 0 is freezing 100 is boiling for water #and when my phone gets to 42C its too hot to handle #and that 27C is hot in england apparently #other than that i have No Clue #its just not as intuitive!!! or granular!!!! #esp bc it doesnt even have half units on the site #thats my one american unit i will insist is better for measuring #only for ambient temp tho #cooking temp or other shit celsius makes sense #oh and also F for body temp and med stuff #bc like ok. how do u easily tell when someone has a fever if u use celsius #like its so fucking easy w farhenheit bc its just is it above 100? not good #i dont even know what it is in celsius or an easy way to tell in celsius if its over 100F #im sure ppl have the numbers known but if i had a thermometer that only used celsius and i had a fever #i would not be a happy camper #off topic but i sometimes like having a fever. i dont know why lol #i like knowing my body is Cooking i guess bc i also like sitting in a hot car sometimes

[semercury]

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#stuff sarah says #i need to start streaming again #and yes its bc of all the negativity in this games community that i feel this #''you cant be the only source of positivity'' then i will die trying #''youre one person'' something something starfish fuck you im going to eat all your cereal #i think a lot about the person who stopped by and kept going on about how nice i was and how rare that is with this game #it meant a lot but it also made me sad #me giggling and having fun and not threatening people shouldnt be smth unusual #anyway. i also should do it bc i like doing it #i got scared too and theres some specific reasons why but im not going into them here bc it boils down to me just worrying abt small things #and esp bc like. i started doing it as a way to challenge my anxiety. being nervous is kinda part of it #''oh noo people are observing me on the observing people website'' bitch thats the point. dummy. #edit: def wont be doing it this week tho. i feel like hot fucking garbage physically

[lonelyplanetfag]

i think i am one of the worst people alive

#im better than shitty rich ppl #they definitely give better gifts than i do tho #im so bad at it it's not even funny #i haven't been able to get anything 4 my mom cuz i can't order shit online & i haven't seen my dad since thanksgiving #so that's all fucked #and i keep fucking talking too much #cuz i cant tell when it's too much til i already fucked it up & made ppl feel obligated 2 talk 2 me #srsly why can't i just shut my mouth #im always too much or not enough & i'd rather just not Be tbh !!!! #like hey girl rver think that nobody wants 2 deal w ur shit???? #it's my fault @ the end of the day & i know that. but i also wish i knew how to fix it #i need 2 fix myself & shjt cuz i know im being annoying n all #but i rlly don't wanna get better #n its probably super self-absorbed & attention-seeking 2 say this but i want someone 2 worry abt me #there's definitely a better way i could put that but it's late & im fucking tired and stupid as hell #and there's more nuance & shit but that's what it boils down to #think i just want 2 b loved or wtvr #some edgy shit like that

[wrdn-tabris]

i think everyone just forgets that i am hard of hearing and like. it doesnt usually bother me but its makin me feel esp a little raw today

#cara speaks #amonst other things #or that im you know. blamed that i cant hear #‘wear your hearing aid more’ ok i dont want to wear it at home tho? #its not going to like. magically make my ear work when im not wearing it either #idk #ive had like this low burning feeling all day and honestly i havent crief in a while #so just one little thing thats so fucking dumb made this all boil over #i dont have anyone to talk to

[darksouls2yuri]

best fucking drink of the century

#txt #bug juice..... #bug juice my childhood drink. go to the gas station get bug juice and boiled peanuts. WAHOO! #anyway they sell it at this regional gas station chain we have down here. <3 #<- first time ive seen it tho bc its usually fuckin. tummy yummies. fuck that baby shit

[meat-huge-pain-endless]

yeah yeah yeah i know that i need to do the good thing even if its the hard thing but god dammit sometimes it’s rlly fucking hard!!!!

#i just deleted instagram bc i know for a fact it was actively making me worse #i had originally just removed it from my home screen and turned off notifs and was like #yeah this will work i’ll exercise self control #and then i was doomscrolling reels for HOURS today #idek how long but it was too fucking long #and i realized that even tho i rlly rlly rlly didn’t want to delete it #(which the reasons i didn’t want to delete it basically boil down to i am obsessed with perceiving and being perceived) #i just needed to do it bc my social anxiety is worsening to the point of impacting my day to day life #and like ability to exist as a person #and the fucking panopticon that is instagram literally fuels that so bad #like u can see what posts someone liked who liked their post who liked an instagram reel who liked a comment when they were last active #who they follow who follows them and then there’s story views and story likes and the notes you can leave and just AHSHFJRKIF #IT DRIVES ME INSANE THERES SO MANY RITUALS AND I GET SO OBSESSIVE ABT THEM #BC I FEEL LIKE THERE IS A ‘RIGHT’ AND A ‘WRONG’ WAY TO USE SOCIAL MEDIA #LIKE IF U DONT USE ALL THE FEATURES OR HOW ITS INTENDED #ugh #plus i’m so unhealthily obsessed with what other ppl think of me and. yeah instagram makes that worse too!!! #but the other hard thing i’m doing is a t break #genuinely can’t remember the last time i went more than like. a day or 2 without smoking #i’m out rn and don’t rlly have any money so it’s kind of a forced break but like a break is a break atp #and ik it’s the good thing #for like health/dependency reasons #but GOD does it help with the anxiety #and like normally what i do with a thing like this that i know i need to do for myself but dont want to #is i just don’t. and i think that everything will turn out okay cause im like #well if i’m aware of why it’s bad/why i need to stop then i can just keep doing it but less/more carefully/whatever #yeah no that’s not how that works bro! nice try tho! #self care is fucking hard sometimes

[deacf-coffee-is-a-sin]

“Fier. What’s your favorite flower?”

Of all the responses he had expected, that was not one of them, and Fier raised his hands from his eyes, shot a puzzled frown at Petra’s silhouette. As promised, Petra was not looking at him and spoke instead to the ceiling.

When Fier said nothing, Petra continued, his voice just as soft as before. “I think people pick their favorite flowers for how they look or how they smell or how easy they are to take care of. Some people only want to look at them, some people want to plant them, and some people want to trim them and take them home. People love differently, for different reasons and in different ways. You don’t have to want flowers in the same way other people want them. There’s nothing wrong with you, Fier. You know that, don’t you? There’s nothing wrong with you.”

More than Enough by Elizabeth Wambheim

There's so many good quotes in this book but this was the 1st that just completely broke me lmaoo.

#deacf talks #i have so many thoughts abt this book but ill just boil it down to: plz read it😭😭 #its so short and sweet and well written #But omg #so I've been wanting to read this book for fucking years but my library never any copies of it until recently and AAAA. #its soooo fucking good #but omg just like??? fier being coded as autistic and the 'beast' within the castle being #like the physical manifestation of his ptsd from ppl invalidating his identity as ace and his personal boundaries???? #and petra also being coded as autistic??? AND ALSO BEING ACE?? and also also being a genuinely kind and loving person who respects fierr #s boundaries??? AND a gardener??? #has me going absolutely feral #the funny thing is i was immediately on board with the 'oh fier is autistic and doesnt like being touched. based' #but then it took that already 'non mainstream'approach to a mc and conflict And added sm depth to it #by explaining that his touch aversion came from trauma and how both being neurodivergent and asexual was used against him as a child #AND THEN having a character with similar traits (nd and ace) and having him immediately understand and respect those boundaries??? and then #have them both love each other unconditionally completely disregarding the things abt the other that society had made them ashamed of #really got to me ok🥺😭😭 #more than enough #more than enough by elizabeth wambheim #fier is just like me fr tho lmao. i hate being touched in certain places by certain ppl #also a lot of his mannerisms reminded me of me and that kind of freaked me out a bit lmaooo #autistic coded characters need to stop being so relatable or im gonna have to get some kind of testing done lmaooo #but go read the book!!!

[saintslaughter-a]

30c and ive given up and broken out the shorts

#mun;; #tbd;; #how i got into them i have no idea theyre at least one size too small for me #im not wearing sweats anymore tho fuck that #its so damn hot i wish the wind would pick up for once #god theyre not comfortable but im not boiling anymore so. thats all i got.