#its hard for me to remember this sometimes lol

[dallonwrites]

actually making my tags from my last post into their own post. writers who struggle with grammar, spelling, typos, errors etc i love you. writers who struggle with rereading their stuff thoroughly no matter how much they try, who don't always have access to other people to help them read i love you. whilst reading through and checking for these things is good practice i really believe that the weight of it should not be put wholly on the writer's shoulders. especially writers who are neurodivergent, disabled, have any condition that can impede their reading + comprehension, are overworked and overtired, are not writing in their native language, list goes on....because grammar mistakes/language mistakes/typos have nothing to do with your abilities as a creative. this is where editors should be uplifting writers, helping them, not scrutinising them for something they cannot always control

#and in case anyone is going to say it...like i said in my tags i get that it can be frustrating #if it feels like a piece has NOT been reread or checked for these things at all #but even then its like...do you know the writers context? their background? #does the story itself still hold up strong creatively? #im just saying some leniency and grace goes far and esp in the short story/litmag scene i think #an editor who is considerate and inclusive should not use those things against a piece's worth #for me its like....1) the word spelling and grammar check is really confusing to work with sometimes #and also just. straight up does not work sometimes #and 2) no matter how much i reread and check for spelling and grammar i will forget a word. i will misuse a word. i will forget things #a bitch is forgetful! a bitch struggles with rereading their pieces and i do what i can to help that #but i need help and grace from the editors who wish to work with me! #i remember one time i wrote vacancy as vanacy in an excerpt in a writing update #literally passed me by and i was so humiliated?? nobody even pointed it out #but i assumed people were going to think of me less that i would make a simple mistake #its just...v hard and daunting being open with your writing sometimes lol lets all be kind to each other

[soupmanspeaks]

you ever wonder if the Glamrocks's face tracking acts up when they look at Glamrock-Freddy, like they'll look at his face, and the recognition will register as Freddy, but their systems for whatever reason or another think that there is a face overlapped on Freddy's do you think they see two small squares next to him, at his side, roughly child sized, but no one is physically there.... right...?

#fnaf #michael afton #five nights at freddy’s #glammike #crying child #elizabeth afton #i wanted to allude something to william but idk #would the glamrocks go into the sinkhole? maybe #maybe next to glamrock freddy alongside the weird overlapping face he has and the two kid height faces #there is a face tracking box next to him...standing #remember that post about the ghost hunters comin to the pizza plex? maybe the weird face tracking happens too... #im watching garret watts and Andrew's constant facial tracking anomalies inspired this post lol #anyways i really like the thought that despite being the most friendly Glamrock; Freddy has this......feeling about him #his AI was made just this year! programmed with cutting edge and top of the line technology! #then....then why does he go off script sometimes? why does he say things that wasn't programmed show dialogue? #how does he know about Mr. Afton? the killer from the 80's who committed heinous deeds? #Why does he speak as if he knew him personally? if his AI is just pulling stuff from online; Why does he speak with resentment about him? #IM SORRY I JUST LOVE THE CONCEPT!! #like just because this franchise has gotten more neon and sugery than ever; remember; lights can be blinding and sugar causes cavities #idk what that means just omg there is more horror potential than you think in the SB era of games if you look hard enough #off topic but back to freddy being a sweetie pie i think that its funny okay #freddy sasses adults okay okay but he isnt mean to kids okay maybe michael just idk; MATURED? maybe he just got some whimsy mkay? #listen if i was forced to be in a perpetual cycle of atoning for my own and my father's sins i would find any and all silver linings mkay #aw yeah this is sick i get to be a freddy mercury inspired glamrock bear WOOO #granted michael was probably tired of animatronic bands and pizza by fnaf 6 but ykkkkkkkk it.....could be worse? he could be his dad lmao #anyways headcannon michael listend to freddy mercury and this is the equivalent of cosplaying him scott told me so (trust) #tag rambles! theyre fun lol

[bmpmp3]

why does everything i get really into always end up being so god damn niche. by the year 2035 i am going to be blogging exclusively about the interpersonal relationships between the pillbugs and snails hiding underneath the bricks lining the flowerbeds in my parent's garden.

#im falling hard into the virvox guys rn sowwy. i like em a lot hee hee. i didnt realize just how small the fanbase for em was tho #actually i didnt realize how small the company that makes them were either. i got so used to the yamahas and cryptons of the vsynth world #that i forgot that like honestly. a lot of the voicebank makers and some of the software makers themselves #theyre like companies of like barely 10 employees with like no funding LOL not a bad thing but i forgor #but yeah i was looking up to see if there was like. a fanon reason why people shipped takehiro and ryusei? not judging because i get it #i like took one look at the virvox guys and immediately slotted them as a very strange boyband (a catboy and a middle aged dragon man....) #and also took a second look at takehiro and ryusei and assumed they were childhood friends. i saw the doujin flash before my eyes #but also looking into it it seems the fanbase is also like. 20 people. and like 3 of them ship that #and at least one person ships whiteCUL and ryusei? why not LOL when it comes to vsynths sometimes a ship can be spearheaded by like #one very prolific artist HGDJKDFSHDJK which actually reminds me. honestly i dont really have many vsynth ships #i guess i dont really partake in a lot of shipping stuff deeply but i like romance!! you know i like love stories. you know this #i mean i keep calling the eclipsed sounds characters the celestial polycule for a reason tho. im not joking around about this #this is serious to me. they are stars and moons and suns and together they hang out and kiss. in the sky. this is serious to me #also i do like solaria x eleanor forte actually. its a bit random but i understand it. i understand it #and of course the aformentioned takehiro x ryusei. and also the whole virvox polycule. get that old man in here too #(what do they call people like me. a multishipper? i do that a lot. you know this from my otome game fanart LOL) #OH and i dont remember either of their names rn but i like that the cevio bank anju inami voiced has like a big fat crush on like #that girl with the brown hair. i like that theyre like. besties (turning into something more wink wonk) #thinks with all my brain. i think thats it. i dont know why theres so little. i think its because i think of them as like #audio sample libraries first and foremost and i forget about their characters and relationships LOL #but im not against the idea of making some audio sample libraries kiss...... not at all #picks up a guitar sampler and a sound effect cd. presses them together. #hee hee. they kiss

[lucyvaleheart]

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#supposed to log good things #most of day was negative feelings and sadness #then. i remember feeling good #and then. tthe good went away #rreplaxed with the usual self doubt and loathing #the feelings of undesirability #the wish that i was. attractive in any way to anyone close to me that anyone wanted to. touch me #that i wasn't horrifically gross and disgusting #do the people who hold me do it out of pity? am i really so awful #pictures get a lot of praise #sometimes #less so lately #maybe the novelty of my personality has worn off #maybe seeing how broken i am #such a shambling wailing mess of a girl #....has made people realize how ugly i am #i don't know. its hard to care most nights #I'm supposed to feel better in the mornings #i don't usually #I used to #now i just feel..... dead inside #like a walking corpse #some part of me wants to make that reality #sigh. #anyway. #im sorry you had to read this whoever you are that's made it this far #it's a cry for help but my discord status says don't message me so it's. probably not gonna get much lol #.....i guess uh. if you've read this far and do want to say something you can take this tag in particular as a one time pass to do so #....i make no guarentees I'll respond but i will guarentee that i won't kill myself. at least not tonight or even any time this week

[dottores]

ahhhh the sudden awareness of where you stand with people my beloathed </3

#never fails to hit hard but #i am glad that it happens #i must go do my readings for tomorrow #i shall see you all in the morning or after classes #i will say it doesnt hurt as much as it used to nor do i feel like angry or anything — is this me actually finally fully maturing? #ur little miss cat is growing as a person guys #remember when i used to throw tantrums on the dash when i got upset #actually dont remember that LMFAO #no but for real i think its crazy how much my general mentality has shifted with the start of law school #i think i became chronically online while i was stuck home for a year #jk lol but honestly its changed so much of my perspective on things way beyond just legal matters #i rmr so many people telling me that law school fundamentally changes you as a person but i did not believe it #but here i am a month and a half in fundamentally changing as a person #one thing that will never change is that i shall always make a small post with a million tags dissecting all of my inner thoughts #sometimes i wonder how many people read to the end #comment the number 7 if u got this far #LMFAO

[cephalonheadquarters]

RED VOX MENTIONED HIIIII I LOVE RED VOX was just thinking about them the other day actually I haven’t listened in so long I need to relisten….. AAGAGHHH I love red vox. I love the flow of their albums and how good all the songs sound together I love how the outro at the end of what could go wrong has the same melody from the beginning of another light I LOVE ANOTHER LIGGHTTTTTTTTT Ilove red vox

yah ive been spending the afternoon relistening to a bunch of songs and albums lol visions and afterthoughts are probably my favorite ones

#i keep relistening to visions and afterthoughts the song itself its so bhbhbhbhbh #Idk how to describe it #their songs just make me really sad sometimes #ive just been laying here for the past 4 hours and listening they make me want to do nothing #🙁🙁🙁🙁 #pale blue dot & as long as i can dream always get me #bhbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb whatever #i also really like the intro of choking on the spite #i have a hard time remembering anything but i do like a lot of other songs lol #when i listened to Tell Me for the first time i had to pause at the 'running out of time' part cause i was so blown away its so good #i love red vox 😑😑😑 #they make me think #burn a picture really good too #urghhhhhh #*dies* #i like how in the garden works. Unsure how to explain it but it goes from idk. Like. #Hes talking abt garden and then turns into jungle something much bigger idkkkkkkkk im not good at talking about what i think about lyrics

[karvakera]

jumpscares you with my ocs

the first one was done today to keep my attention on the stream I was watching,,, I physically can not watch something if I dont draw at the same time.

the mermaid one was done a while ago but I wanted to share it since its dear to me (despite the godawful mistakes in anatomy and angles). I usually struggle with backrounds but I think it turned out fine there,, also something about its vibe is special to me,,, feels somewhat nostalgic

#oc artwork #oc #oc art #own character #sometimes I want to dump their lore herebut then I remember one of them is kind of a cannibal— #the other has depression and daddy issues #yes the capemau wears is inspired by moth wings #I watched midsommar a few days ago #im not saying im into murder but id join that cult #it seemed like so much fun (if u dont count the murders) #I was pleasantly surprised because my fav actor was there #HTTYD soindtrack goes so hard #listening to icdd käärijä and httyd music in that order andthen repeat #its like getting hot and then cold water poured on u #the genre differences helpp #somehow I feel like the daily gojos downgraded my art but I hope im just imagining it #maybe its just me always trying out new styles/brushes too lol #at least I can kind of? draw shorter hair now (even though I have slowly started drawing gojo's hair longer) #not giving up onthis series im seeing it to the end #its unfortunate that some of the funniest memes I could do would contain sppilers for the very episode that would end my series

[pizza-feverdream]

Do you believe in the concept of soulmates?

Maybe not in the traditional sense, destiny-bound to be with each other and all that. I do think there are certain people out there that one is bound to "click" with bc of different factors, and it's just a matter of finding them. As in, I think I think there are lots of people you could consider your soul mate, but it's up to you to find them. Also, there may be more than one. (I also think a soul mate could be platonic, or in your family.) I think of it as "someone you're close to with your soul", and that can mean whatever you want it to mean.

#wow that's a lot lol #i just woke up apparently i have a lot of thoughts about this #i just remember being with my ex and the whole time worrying like #if i break up with him will i be able to find someone else? #which #should have been a sign i wasnt invested in the relationship #but eh #but anyway yes #there's people out there just waiting to make deep #meaningful tight bonds #you just gotta find em #AND OMG its hard sometimes #esp with poor social skills #but i have a bff now and i could consider her my soulmare #my sister is my favorite person and she could be considered my soulmate #hell even the old lady at work whos like taken me under her wing #soulmate #ill stop now cause my dog wants me to get up so he can go outside #thank you for the ask! btw #asks #moots #also am i going to count this towards my 300 word daily goal? #hell yeah i am

[horrorwebs]

i left her house and party without telling her how i feel or attempting to make a move i feel like the stupidest motherfucker alive

#like. that was my chance. it was THE chance. why am i such a fucking coward #its not like i didnt want to but i couldnt find the way thwre was too many peoñle and i wanted it to be private #so we LEFT for WALK on her NEIGHBOURHOOD that was MY CHANCE. we went to the little park with the swings i REALLY WAS ABOUT TO SAY STH #WHEN ONE OF THE GUYS AT THE PARTY AND HER COUSIN ARRIVED B #TO PICK US UP BY CAR BC SHE HAD TO BLOW THE CANDLES #(<- the party was her birthday cellebration) #like really idk how i am a. so unlucky and b. such a pussy #i think i shouldve been a bit more drunk to have told her right away.but i Was working my way through it to tell her it was just hard yknow #im scared ill ruin things if she rejects me. and i feel like she wants to be with me sometimes and that she likes me. #but other times i feel like im just being insane and she will simply reject me #i think her cousin noticed i like her though. (i dont think this is too hard to notice anyway) maybe thatll help? idk. #half the world thinks we are together and i have to wonder why arent we?i like her n i think she likes me (or at least she has in the past) #so whats stopping us? the fact we r in a band together and want a future on that might be something. she has also told my friend she values #the friendship too much or sth like that (my friend doesnt remember very well) but that then means she does like me! but also shell reject #me possibly! or will she? who knows?!! #anyway i think it wouldnt be that bug of a problem anyway for the band if we are mature about it. even it it doesnt work and we decide its #better as friends in a future. i dont think anything she does or i do will be as bad as 'point of no return bad'. #i believe in us. and i feel like the sappiest mf alive too #but see if youve read this far i think you might understand why im such a coward and so scared of telling her i like her #but i was so close of just bljrting it out or kissing her. i did kiss a bit her neck.... sorry lol. but nothing too um .sexual? it was like #peck. but you ask and how did that happen? well see. we were sleeping together. like on top of each other hugging. my face was on her #collarbone. so i was like there. but i dont think she tought much of it sometimes we kiss each others cheeks or whatever and its just like #or maybe she did. there were pther people on the room anyway so ot was like . weird as well bc of that #idk ots just a very ambiguous zone in which i will die forever if i dont work up some courage #this posts always turn onto rants but i dont speak much about her with my friends unless they ask +im a bit drunk.it embarrasses me greatly #spikeposting #loveposting

[superchat]

Hey fathör. Genuine question. How do you get like okay with the idea of like "it's better if I'm alone"? Cause I really resonated with some of the posts you've made talking about that but like the idea of being alone also kinda makes me scared. Like how do you get over that feeling?

uhmmmmmmm, im not the best person to ask cuz i have Problems and have had zero therapy in my life. im on no medications and have no diagnosis i am confident in saying i have, other than general depression but even then i dont know the extant that i have it, or the ways i feel it or deal with it.

generally the feeling doesnt go away. for me itts an unhealthy battle of "will my selfishness win or my will?" cuz its always conflicting feelings of "i dont think i should be friends with ppl cuz i can be shitty and im not mature enough for them" vs. "i am lonely and want to talk and connect with ppl" and eventually my selfishness wins and i start talking to ppl again even tho i cant justify itt to myself so

ive always been kind of a solitary person, or someone who enjoys their alone time. over the years its gotten more? worse?

humhumhum i noticed a ttrend over time where i like. get in like, a better mood and then act like an ass in some way or another and that will knock down my self esteem and stuff

last year was very eventful in a lot of bad ways and after it ive had enough things settle in my head that its okay to stay away from others for my own good as well as theirs. i kind of live in a constant "i dont think im being a good enough friend" while also feeling very exhausted as if im doing a lot but like really, im not. after many months this is still the case so i think itts just the new standard for me

#a lot of times i am just a bad person and at the same time i have a hard time coping with that #i do want to be honest with who i am and not being a shitty denial manchild #i remember when anon would like. be so very exciting and make my heart rush cuz its like! someone wants to talk! or say hi! or w/e! #but lol after last year they just kind of hrm #sometimes dread fills me when i see one cuz im like ''what did i do now'' #or sometimes indifferent. if anons ever compliment me now and im like :| #nott to be rude to whoever compliments me cuz its very nice of them but also i just #dont feel much with it. like tyvm i recongize its a nice thing youre doing and i want you to feel validated in that #anways #is 1am thoughts #anon #asks

[stroebe2]

it’s funny how a lot of things that are making life in general bad for a lot of people could be resolved easily with just a few actions from the right people (as in the people needed to make it happen, not even talking about politicians etc). just like chain of events that get triggered through an action you do or an opportunity that gets to you, like receiving a phone call, asking someone a question, sending an email, talking to someone you just met. what im getting at is its pretty frustrating to be sad, angry, hopeless but if the right people and events line up and align like stars in the sky suddenly you could be out of that shit so quickly. and forcing it too might not even work that shit needs to happen organically which makes it more frustrating

#idk how you would call it like destiny or something but i feel like these are moments that are written at some points in your life #and its hard to overcome them/not letting them happen #all through my life i felt like ive somehow ended up at the right place at the right moment which feels strange to me #like getting lucky and getting put on the right track lol #you absolutely 100% are in charge of your life of course but i feel like sometimes there are things that happen that you cant control but #were meant to happen #idk this whole post is just words salad i just remembered this feeling w a déja vu moment please bear with me

[girlwithfish]

5am instagram stalking ppl i used to go to hs with. its crazy bc some people are still friends with other ppl from our hs. i guess crazy to me bc i dont talk to anyone at all from either hs i went to nor anyone from the same school district i was in from 4 grade-8grade. i hvent mantained friendships or anything w anyone from any place ive lived. thinking its me. . ...

#the realjty is i was just really shy when i was a kid. the ppl i went to school w from ages 9-14 i didnt really have lasting friendships #i follow like 3-4 ppl from that time in school on Instagram but thats it rly. ive never kept a friendship #then fhe school i went to for under 2 yrs in hs I follow several ppl from cuz i guess i was somehow a little more social where i followed #some classmates on instagram but yeah no contacg w anyone and yeah. i really doubf anyone from either of those schools remembers me #i just wasnt rly close w anyone ever to remain in contact w. and i didnt reallly make friends at the hs i graduated from #and i follow a couple ppl from my last hs but thats it i havent talked to anyone from any of those times in my life again rly #Which is crazy like #I guess ive always just been standoffish. never unfriendly to ppl but i never really connected w anyone #beyond school and stuff. nd i doutb anyone remembers me anyway. i really was a nobody in hs without even my own circle of friends #crazy how rhat wrks out nd not thay i have many relationships atall rn besides family and my s/o but like its crazy cuz #sometimes my bf when were in his hometown will run into someone he wnt to school w cuz he stayed in the same school district #k-12 nd theyll recognize him and talk to him and its ctazy cuz ive movd twice so i just never stsyed in a place where that would happen. #i like dont know anyone from my high school here in nc nd have never seen anyone barely #LOL #sometimes i wonder what itd be like if i had stayed in ohio and gone to hs with all the ppl i had known a bit for all of middle school #Cuz i just really do not know anyone maybe my life seems a little lonely bc of that. idk.. #its hard when a lot of ppls friendships r built on the fact that theyve known each otber for a long time or since x grade and are childhood #friends or something

[pyrriax]

yk what i just realized?

i accidentally wrote pandora with a slightly altered version of my issues pvnjkdml

i noticed it but not All of it

#haunted ecosystem #i forget sometimes that the way *i* think it's the norm and thusly i'll write characters that follow my thought patterns and well. #you wind up with a lot of paranoia lol #like i knew i unintentionally made pandora autistic-coded but yeah i also mightve given him the paranoia & delusions & hallucinations too #though the latter was partially influenced it was still like. organic ig? thats terrible phrasing. #unrelated but why is it so hard to find more. non-specific paranoia positivity posts #like i know its a symptom but cmon. #anyways what if i wrote a fic and actually posted it anon. what if i wrote the fic ive been itching to write since the thought came to me #its not even like. questionable. im just afraid of opinions bc it involves a lot of projecting onto a typically 'strong' character #sigh. i probably will write it. probably wont post it. #maybe i'll finish that one fic thats rotting in my docs from the year before last when i last hit rock bottom lol #okay anyways enough talking to myself in the tags #ily whoever reads this i hope you have a good day and please remember its okay to ask for help when you need it. dont be like me

[aro-attorneys]

I will never forgive Those SU Fans(TM) for trying to convince everyone how bad the writing or characters were. One of the worst things I've seen was straight-up accusing Rebecca Sugar of being a fascist (which is so absurd that it's almost funny. ah yes this Jewish queer showrunner who almost lost her job for wanting the basic representation in her show is probably a fascist). But also allowing none of the characters to have any nuance? I know the fandom here was mostly made of teens but man. To the point that I wonder why they'd even be watching the show if they just hated on the pacing, writing, and the characters? God forbid you write characters with some nuance without getting cancelled.

#steven universe #srry for the random SU rant i know im not rly a SU blog (anymore) (mainly bc theres not rly content anymore for me to reblog lol) #SU rly showed that without critical thinking skills #the worst takes are made #when the diamonds came around and man imagine being allowed to write lore that deals with imperialism #people complaining they got their redemption too quick like ??? they were not even redeemed #they were held accountable and spend era 3 undoing the damage they did but were they redeemed? they fucking werent god it was so weird #to see those takes #i could go on abt rose quartz but i already vented a lot abt her #all my su posts are complaints lmao woops #i remember the show really fondly actually! i listen to the songs sometimes and man they rly went hard w the character(s) (arcs) #also a disclaimer here bc i know people may come after my ass: #was it a perfect show? of course not. no show ever is #it had its flaws. but those were not flaws that were THAT upsetting

[hpdgirlfriend]

ummm

#tehe i keep having things there's no real research on #i just remembered now my infatuation w orbit is probably. something along the lines of erotomania (the delusion.) #my psychosis is rlly. mild? in the way that it's juust a bit over paranoia #sometimes i can tell i'm having a delusion but it still feels real to me even with that knowledge #and no matter how hard i try to logic myself out of it #its still scary and upsetting #but thats a tangent #me thinking orbit loves me or eventually qill love me makes me feel. happy? even though on some level ik he wont #i can say he wont and he doesnt but i don't believe it unless i'm having some sort of breakdown #but i think its still a belief i hold in the back of my head even then #^that he loves me #or will #i dont have a good enough memory to know for sure lol L #he doesn't know me and the chance that he's as obsessed w me as i am with him is very low. and even though i can SAY that #i still believe he loves me. or at the very least will love me #i always read into things that are very much coincidences and take it as evidence he loves me. the smallest things #what the fuck was the point of this going to be. #diary

[unsat-and-strange]

bro being a (very new) writer still stuck on fullmetal alchemist is lowkey kinda annoying like do you have any idea how frustrating it is to try and write a cool au that takes place earlier than the canon story when some of the characters dont really even have NAMES

#ebb rambles #like i just want to write a thing i feel good enough about to post is that so hard #instead im continuously referring to people just as “him” because its far to early in the story to use anything the audience knows and- #theres no official name gdi #you know i read somewhere the author did have an idea for scars name but never shared it #she said sharing it didnt fit into the story or whatever i dont remember exactly #just like gahsdfhjgkjghfdffgkh writing in and of itself is annoying sometimes #fun yes but annoying lol #dont get me wrong im having a great time i just like to complain #finally got baldurs gate working though #moving slowly but surely