#its hard to explain

[ganondoodle]

so, inspired by the warm welcome the captain received with that rough doodle i posted, i made an updated design for Ki'ita as well (basic and with clothes)

i removed the piercings she had bc considering that they spend the majority of their time in arctic waters i think having metal directly in your skin is a bad idea, no matter how thick your blubber is; i also gave her typical white markings a green hue bc ... i liked how it looked and makes them stand out a little more

(i will not repeat what i wrote on the post about the captain but wanted to add a bit of more info about Ki'ita herself)

(i dont have ALL of their backstory done yet but) the captain and Ki'ita worked together in another organization, one in which the father of the captains child also worked at, before being betrayed and barely managing to escape, after which the both of them founded their pirate crew (possible name is the Solar Pirates bc of their solar powered boat stuff); since the captain had her daughter shortly afterwards Ki'ita managed most of the organisational matters at first, including the construction of their base on an abandoned island they had initially fled to

over the years they invented the solar powered ships that allowed them to gain control over a large part of an important trade route, leaving normal ships (mostly) alone but attacking those of hunters and similar, rescuing demons and mutants, even some humans from them, most of which also join the crew and it quickly lead to them becoming their own little community

Ki'ita does not like to spend alot of time among large groups of people, no matter how much she cares about them, and her originally being from norther lands gave her the idea to explore, and if viable, do underground missions in those norther areas to disrupt the infrastructure the hunters had built in recent years and overall keep the crew informed about things that may otherwise stay hidden; with each of their travels her time absent from the base increased but the patience of the captain is wearing thin so its likely a serious talk is underway on Ki'itas third solo mission she nearly died due to entanglement in abandoned nets made by hunters from an unknown material that she could not break, the massive scars on her tail especially come from that, only surviving bc the date they were supposed to return to the crew had passed and the captain grew to worried about her and made the entire crew rush into an emergency search, including the captain herself and her toddler, who were not suited for the cold climate just like the rest of crew, taking a huge risk that Ki'ita still feels ashamed of for causing; they stayed within the base for a whole year afterwards, not just to recover but also as a silent apology, taking time preparing herself to ensure theyd not get into a situation like that again

(before departing on their next mission the captain gifted her a sword with the blade made from the material of the net, a wooden handle, bc of the cold, and a blue wrap around it reminiscent of the captains striking blue teeth; a reminder of what had happened, a means to defend herself when their strength and teeth are not enough, and also a promise to always return again)

the oldest members of the crew know Ki'ita well and treat her like an old friend, among the newer members she has more of a .. cryptic status, the mysteriously absent vice-captain who only appears every few months or so out of thin air, throws a big party, sleeps for a few days and then vanishes again, the only hint to when they will return soon again being the captain getting noticably grumpier

(OC art, Ki'ita, she/they)

#ganondoodles #art #oc #original art #artists on tumblr #original character #character design #monster #man why do i keep writing such long texts #its not even that much i wrote here!! #sorry for the long post #idk if its good to write more about my ocs maybe i shouldnt? might make the post less rebloggable with so much text on it idk #right now im thinking about them actually having a kid together later on but i havent decided yet #their relationship is kinda out of the norm i guess #neither ever said they were in a relationship and neither does the crew know #and they are not overtly like a typical pair in love kinda thing #its hard to explain #they do love each other but its like super private while also not?? #like they never say publicly that they love each other nor kiss #but when youd hear the news that the captains having another child and its from kiita youd be like yup that makes sense #(also her nickname is Kiki but only the captain knows that) #ANYWAY #sorry for this sudden disconnected oc spam #i love these lads #and im so happy i got their design down more coherently #i spent over and hour writing all this argh i wanted to get more sleep for once damn it #just now noticed i fked up kiitas arm there #man #dont draw when you are tired and need to sleep kids

[kokomalls]

playing ghost trick is like hmm yomiel did some things wrong but also he did nothing wrong

#its hard to explain #ghost trick #ghost trick spoilers #yomiel

[choco-1601]

Do u think John never talked about Arthur’s sickness in front of him out of respect for Arthur’s feelings?

#maybe he didnt wanna piss off Arthur for showing he cares #idk if u get it but i do #its hard to explain #its ig an ego thing #for Arthur #it just seems that way to me #the big and strong arthur becoming weak and frail day by day #when u r in the position u certainly don’t want ur rival to comment on it #rival bc both john and arthur competitive #maybe im thinking too much into it #morston #john marston #arthur morgan #red dead redemption 2

[flamboyant-king]

This is your warning, scum.

#this is my anime high school old man yaoi and bread club sona #its hard to explain #but its me but more unhinged. crazy right. #egg king #anime #doodles #i do have something id say is fairly gay coming up i just cant SHITE OOOUGHHH

[foxgirlplushie]

imagine: a foxgirl who’s ears and tail and hair are made of cuddly plush~

good news you don't have to!! that's me!!!

#or at least. thats song!!! #but with more fox #its hard to explain #fox.sys #been a while since we got to use that tag #asks

[lunarifie]

Time Travel AU where Paralyte, Entropa, Inku, Shaman Suse, or whichever big bad goes back in time to stop the Infinights from meeting. That way they can’t meddle with their plans.

Which means somehow making Mudd stay in his Kingdom.

Making Bart stay on the Jebediah.

Leaving Kyborg to wander restlessly.

And leaving Gum Gum to grow up all alone.

By being forced to go their seperate ways, the future begins to change, all the problems they already solved are back and worse then ever (since they were never fixed in the past). Now the future/present infinights need to go back in time to stop the big bad from changing their pasts, as well as making sure the timeline goes as normal with as minimal changes as possible.

Which just ends up creating their current timeline.

Kind of like those loop hole time travel paradoxes. I think it’s called the Predestination Paradox (correct me if I’m wrong) where nothing is ever altered in the future from traveling to the past because it all already happened. The future is already the outcome, they just don’t realize it because they succeeded in stopping the big bad.

#Altered Pasts AU #its hard to explain #its like fate #tftsd #tales from the stinky dragon #stinky dragon pod #think of ninjago #in season 1 #where Garmadon tried to break up the ninja #but the ninja just ended up fixing everything his altered #time travel paradoxes always give me headaches

[lavenderjewels]

I actually really like Yuuta in this fight against Sukuna despite hating his role in kenjaku’s death. I am a little worried his powers could overshadow other characters, since he can just copy Sukuna’s or Angel’s and use it against Sukuna. I don’t want it to enter in a territory similar to the Gojo fight where eventually something has to happen to kill or weaken Yuuta just because he’s overpowered either. Love the team up, just wish there was a way to make his role slightly less prominent and to let other characters shine, especially since the other characters could do well with having more development and spotlight

#jjk spoilers #I honestly DO like yuuta as a character #it’s just a combo of him being overpowered and feeling a little??? detached from the main story?? #its hard to explain #it’s also a personal preference #this fight actually Does work great for Yuuta’s character (outside some potential issues) and doesn’t make me bitter like the kenjaku endin #im just hesitant #and don’t need some grand fight or development w him #vs so many other side characters who would be So much better with more focus!! #idk #might delete #also idk why but every time there’s a yuuta fight I immediately lose some interest #happened during the uro and ryu fight too where I stopped reading and then caught up after 😭 #maybe I just like him as a character outside of fights?

[ailani-reillata]

I couldn’t find any motivation to write today but! At least I thought about writing, that’s a start-

#Why is it so hard to stay motivated #I mean #idk #at some point I always just feel like my creative efforts are pointless #But I’m trying to remember that the point is letting myself have an outlet #But idk #its hard to explain #I’ll try again tomorrow

[nessguts]

Sorry if this is a dumb question, but when you tag things or post things on Twitter/Tumblr about hating vegeta or thinking he’s ugly, is that like, in an affectionate way? Or do you actually think he’s ugly?

i do earnestly think he’s very ugly yeah 😭 that’s 100% genuine

idk its just. i have umm… a complicated relationship with vegeta ^_^;; i do genuinely feel a lot of negative feelings towards him like i think he is an asshole and selfish and dumb and mean and childish and just generally out of control…

but at the same time kakavege is like the most important thing to me in the world, especially vegeta’s side of it.. and i spend a lot of time thinking about vegeta and his characterization and stuff >_<;; ….

i definitely am capable of digesting vegeta a lot better in a post buu arc setting, i enjoy watching vegeta during the Z timeline cuz he’s insane and if’s funny to laugh at loser boyfailure characters like that but at the same time he’s annoying and embarrassing before his “you are number one” epiphany -__-

and well frankly i kin vegeta in kind of a serious delusional way lol i’m like intense about him and i think that having a lot of animosity towards him is like a very on brand thing for someone who kins vegeta to do LOL idk >_< sorry i genuinely just don’t know how to explain it i’m sorryyy lol

TL;DR all my complaints and gripes about vegeta are always genuine but i guess its difficult to really say i hate him because clearly i am deeply invested in him as a character >_<;; I’M JUST INSANE SORRYYY

#its hard to explain #i get this question like a Lot and i never know how to explain it djdkdj #sorry i just have autism >_< ;; … #sorry i have deeply complex feelings about a character thats very high on my kinlist #as if its my fault.. #thanks for the ask tho ^_^ #answered #.txt

[elasticheartsouls]

In general, people live with a fear of death.

I live with a fear of life.

#mental health #mental illness #its hard to explain #tw death #tw sui ideation #tw depressing thoughts

[osierrasoulo]

There is nothing like a grooming session with my boy to help the stress melt away.

#horses soothe the soul #grooming is therapeutic for me #its hard to explain #i love him

[allaboutbethsblog]

ughh, my brain is full of shit. it's a load of stupid stuff that randomly comes to my mind, and the only way to get rid of it is to go on a walk and listen to music.

#i hate my fucking brain #its full of shit #its hard to explain

[tabbyrocks]

monodeku idea where one of the main reasons izuku started to crush on monoma is because of how good he is to Eri. I bet you he comes by sometimes to help watch/take care of her and does an amazing job every time.

#monodeku #I bet you he does like a whole personality 360 bro #like how Gordan Ramsey is with kids #hc that eri asks monoma to copy her quirk because she likes seeing her horn on him #so she like feels less alone in her quirk yk #its hard to explain #i bet he bakes her little apple pastries #and gives her piggy back rides #hes such a dad #they are the cutest ever #izuku out here like “oh god hes so good with kids i need to kiss him on the mouth this instant” #not super in context with this post but #i realized that Eri wouldnt cry like normal kids when she gets hurt #because she probably has a super high pain tolerance everything shes been through #like imagine monoma is teaching her how to ride a bike or something #but she takes a mad tumble #and gets scraped up #but instead of crying she just stands up and dusts herself off #and it freaks monoma tf out #untill he realizes WHY #and he is like #“i am going to kill overhaul so hard omg” #and later izuku talks to monoma and hes like #“she didn't cry right? yeah it freaked me out the first time too” #“shes a really strong kid” #and monoma almost bursts into tears on the spot lowkey #i would too #loving this twitter post ive made in the tags

[swans-chirping-in-the-distance]

Thoughts on Piper McLean?

Hmm...

Okay Piper is actually so cool but for some reason she's just okay to me. Nothing special. It's pretty weird because she seems like I'd love her but she's just eh. Like okay. Solid character. (I'm only on toa 1 tho, but idk)

#its hard to explain #shes just not all that to me and idk why #pjo piper #piper pjo #hoo piper #piper hoo #piper mclean #thanks for the ask <3

[blxck-rider]

In case you're wondering why I'm not super active at the moment~

Last month I lost my apartment due to being unable to pay rent. Since my job was tied to my apartment and my boss laid me off for reasons that unemployment found was not enough to justify being fired or even documented, I was unable to pay rent and eat simultaneously.

Which lead to me moving back in with my father and being 25 miles away from the city. We're talking watching coyotes and deer casually stride through your yard, finding animal bones half buried, and no noise pollution away from the city.

While I am immensely grateful to my father, I am still unfortunately entirely broke without a dime to my name. So yeah, I'm only able to post and reply through mobile currently because there's no internet here and I have no other way to write.

If you wanna help a bit, feel free but by no means are you obligated.

#out of rider #life update #I'm not dying #but I'm not okay? #its hard to explain

[florshedworf]

why have most of the media i’ve been into been like. “well that was alright! i will now go to bed now and have no further thoughts on this media.” and then i go to sleep and fucking dream of it

#worf opens their big mouth #LIKE??? NOT EXACTLY DREAM DREAM #ITS HARD TO EXPLAIN #like i will wake up and am like wow i had thoughts aboutthose guys like. all night. and am continuing to have thoughts #I JUST REALIZED THIS HAPPENED WITH INVADER ZIM #i watched the whole series and was like ‘that was neat’ and had like 3 days of dreams just centered around that show