#its late i napped and woke up now i feel weird

[nvrsaidiwasinurcloset]

Hi again, same anon that asked for the ovulating reader thing. I wouldn't mind either but if you could do maybe a mix of both like fluffy at first and it leads to smut that would be great!!😊

I hope you like itttt! :)

Pieces of you - Ethan Landry x Fem!Reader

Ethan Landry x Fem!Reader

This contains SMUT - Minors DNI

Summary: You're extra needy of Ethan's attention.

A/N: TWO POSTS IN ONE NIGHT. I feel like I've been slacking a little lately lol. I'll be updating my masterlist tomorrow with everything that isn't already on it:)

Ethan had just gotten his own apartment, and you pretty much moved in with him almost immediately. He never wanted you to leave, because he loved waking up next to you. He’d gotten used to all the cute little random things you like to do and became more familiar with your emotions as he spent all his free time with you. But today, you were acting differently. He couldn’t figure you out.

When you woke up from a nap, you walked out of the bedroom to see Ethan on the couch watching a movie.

“Why’d you leave me in there?” you asked.

You fell asleep with him spooning you, because you needed him around you.

“I’m sorry babe. I wasn’t tired and I didn’t want to wake you up,” he said, as you sat down on his lap.

You snuggled into him as he sat there, your head laying on his chest.

“I missed you,” you said, taking in his scent. “The body wash you use smells amazing on you.”

He laughed a little at your comment, wrapping his arm around you. He focused on the movie he was watching, but you wanted him to focus on you.

You traced your fingers over his shirt-covered abs, as he started to wiggle. The movement of his hips made you gasp.

“You’re tickling me,” he laughed, as you stopped moving your fingers.

You sat there in silence for a few minutes, but he could tell something was bothering you.

“What’s going on in that pretty little head of yours?” he asked, placing a kiss to the top of your head.

“I don’t know, I just…I feel weird today,” you said, “Can we talk? Like, about anything. I don’t care if its school.”

“Uh,” he said, pausing the tv, “sure, baby. I’m going to be really busy with school next semester, I hope you don’t mind.”

You did mind, but that’s probably just your hormones talking.

“What new classes are you taking?” you asked, placing a kiss to his chest.

As he spoke, you couldn’t help but admire the sound of his voice, and the way his words vibrated through his chest as he talked.

“Are you listening, baby?” he asked, trying to look down at you.

“Yeah, I’m sorry. What did you say?” you asked, as your hand rubbed up and down his chest.

“I was asking what you have going on after break’s over. What classes are you taking?” he asked, his hand running along your hip. The simple action wasn’t meant to be anything more than sweet, but it was starting to drive you crazy.

“Oh, um, I’m not really sure. I’ll check later and let you know.” You said, his hand movements really getting to you. “Can you stop rubbing my hip like that?”

He stopped his actions, feeling confused.

“I’m sorry, babe. I didn’t know you didn’t like it,” he said, holding his hand still.

“I love it, but you just can’t do it right now,” you said, holding on to him.

Ethan sat there, still confused, trying to figure out what was going on.

“You haven’t eaten anything yet, do you want to go get some food?” he asked, gently scooting you off him to stand up. “I’m starting to get really hungry, and we forgot to go grocery shopping.”

The only thing you were hungry for was him, but you decided to get up too.

“Yeah, let’s go,” you said, slipping on your sneakers as he grabbed his keys.

You sat in the passenger’s seat struggling to sit still. You really missed the loss of contact, but you also didn’t want your boyfriend to starve.

“Do you want to go to a sit-down restaurant, or you want fast food?” he asked, as his hand rested on your thigh.

“Oh, um, I don’t know. Whatever you want, babe,” you said, watching his hand rub up and down your thigh.

“You okay with Olive Garden? I really want some pasta,” he said, glancing over to you before focusing on the road in front of him.

“That’s fine,” you said, as he took a left turn towards the restaurant.

Once you got there, you took a seat across from him at the table. The waitress was quick with your drink order, but you felt like the food was taking forever.

“You want a breadstick?” he asked, taking a bite. “They’re so good.”

“Sure,” you said, finally deciding to eat something.

“Babe, are you sure you’re okay? If I did something, you’d tell me, right?” he asked, as the food was finally sat in front of us.

“Yeah, I guess I’m just a little needy today,” you said, twirling the spaghetti noodles around on your fork.

“It’s okay, I like you being all cozy with me,” he said, as he started to eat his food. “Fuck, this tastes amazing.”

You started to realize that if you didn’t fuck him soon, you might actually lose your mind. He grabbed your hand on top of the table as you talked about the things you wanted to do for the rest of the break.

“Babe, can we get out of here soon?” you asked, looking for the waitress.

“We can take the rest to go,” he said with a smile as his fingers played with yours. “I love you.”

“I love you, too,” you smiled, as the waitress walked over to give Ethan the check.

On the way home, his hand was back on your thigh. His thumb was rubbing circles against you, and you finally couldn’t take it anymore.

“We need to get back home,” you said, stopping his hand.

“Why, babe? I was thinking we could go to this cute overlook. I brought a blanket, and we can cuddle while the sun sets,” he said, and you started to feel bad because it was so sweet and romantic…but you couldn’t hold back anymore.

“If you don’t take me home and fuck me, we’re going to have to do it in your car. I need it, baby,” you said, your pleading eyes connected with his.

“Is this what’s been bothering you all day? You just need me to fuck you?” he smirked, starting his hand movements on your leg again. “All you had to do was ask, babe. You know I love it.”

“I’ve been trying to hold back all day,” you said, gasping as he squeezed your thigh.

“Don’t ever hold back again, okay?” he said, as he turned into the parking lot of the apartment complex.

You both got out of the car and hurried up the stairs to his door. When you made it inside, you grabbed his hand, pulling him to his room. You stripped out of your clothes in seconds as Ethan stood there, watching you. You started to get impatient as you walked over to him, lifting his shirt over his head. His lips connected with yours as he unhooked his belt and slid his pants down his thighs.

“I guess you really do need it,” he said, as your hand stroked his cock through his boxers.

“So bad,” you mumbled against his lips.

You led him back to the bed, lightly shoving him so he’d fall back. You straddled him, grinding your wet pussy against his clothed cock. You lifted off him a little, to pull him out of his boxers so you could have him inside of you.

“Baby, wait,” he said, as you whimpered. “If you want to skip the foreplay that’s fine, but at least let me stretch you out with my fingers. I don’t want to hurt you.”

“Okay, but no teasing. I can’t take it right now,” you said, as he flipped you over to have better access to your dripping pussy.

He slid one of his fingers inside of you, gasping as you started to clench around him immediately. He started to move it in and out of you before adding another.

“Oh my god,” you moaned out, finally getting the attention where you desperately needed it.

He pumped his fingers in and out of you for a few minutes, as you started to whine.

“Okay, I think that’s good. I need to ride you,” you said, the eagerness in your voice making him laugh.

“What has gotten into you?” he asked, smirking.

You didn’t answer as he laid back, and you resumed your position on top of him. You lined him up to your entrance before slowly sinking down onto him.

“Fuck,” he gasped, loving the feeling of you around him.

You started to move as his hands started to roam your chest. You whined out as he softly pinched your nipples. You leaned down to kiss him as you grinded on him, his own hips starting to thrust into yours.

You were a moaning mess within minutes, and your brain started to get foggy with pleasure.

When you sat back up to ride him again, your hand went to your clit, rubbing circles against it.

“You’re so fucking beautiful,” he said, as he helped you rock your hips.

You kept rubbing your clit, and kept trying to get close to an orgasm, but you couldn’t get there. You started to get really frustrated, tears welling up in your eyes at the disappointment.

“Hey, what’s wrong, babe?” Ethan asked, wiping the single tear off your cheek.

“I need to cum, but I can’t,” you whined, as you tried even harder to get there.

“Maybe it’s just the position. Want to try another one?” he asked.

“Yeah, I guess,” you said, sliding him out of you.

You felt empty as you waited for him to tell you what to do.

“Let me fuck you from behind, baby. That always makes you cum,” he said, as you got in the position.

He groaned as your ass was stuck up in the air, your pussy craving him. He wasted no time as he started to thrust into you, as his other hand snaked around to rub your clit.

“Fuuuuck,” you whimpered, as the tip of his cock repeatedly hit that special spot inside of you.

“That feel better?” Ethan asked, as your arms spread out on the bed in front of you.

“Yes,” you mewled into the sheets.

He started to move faster, knowing how desperately you needed it. Loud moans were flying out of your mouth as you finally started to feel like you were getting close. Your hips moved back to meet his with each thrust, the sounds of his skin slapping against yours filling the room.

“God, you’re so fucking tight,” he said, his free hand running over the curve of your ass.

Your hands were balled into fists as you gripped the sheets, your impending orgasm quickly building.

“Fuck, you’re gonna make me cum,” you cried out, the feeling starting to wash over you.

Ethan watched you pull at the sheets as you started to shake underneath of him, the sight making him close to his own orgasm. Your walls fluttered around him, your incoherent babbling making him laugh, until those laughs turned to groans.

“God baby, your pussy feels amazing,” he moaned, as he reached that peak.

He pulled out, painting your lower back with his release. He kept his hands on your ass while he caught his breath.

“Thank you, babe,” you said, as you relaxed your grip on the sheets.

“You’re welcome,” he said, grabbing a towel to clean your lower back.

“Can we cuddle?” you asked, getting underneath the comforter.

“Of course, baby,” he said crawling in beside you.

He ran his fingers over your bare back as he held you against him. He loved the special, intimate moments he got to have with you, especially right after sex. It makes him happy to make you feel good.

“Hey, Ethan?” you said, looking up at him.

“What’s up?” he asked, placing a kiss to your forehead.

“Can we watch the sunset tomorrow night? I thought it was really sweet that you wanted to do that.”

He smiled at your words, “We can watch the sunset every single day if you wanted to.”

#ethan landry #scream smut #ethan landry x reader #ethan landry smut

[hpalways]

sleep buddies

Fandom: Twisted Wonderland

Character(s): Leona Kingscholar x GN! Reader

Quick Summary: Lately, you had been feeling burnt out from studying so hard. Exhausted and maybe now delusional, you jokingly thought to yourself that a nap with the king of naps wouldn’t be such a bad idea. Until it was no longer a joke and you found yourself craving for his presence all the more. 

You had been studying in the library all day and were feeling exhausted. As you made your way back to your dorm room, you couldn't help but think about how nice it would be to take a nap. Maybe you could even convince Leona to take one with you. You knew how much he loved his naps. 

As you made your way to the dorm, you had suddenly crossed paths with the devil, Leona himself! He was flipping through a book with a bored expression on his face. He looked up at the sound of your footsteps, and you couldn't help but feel your heart skip a beat at the sight of him. 

For some reason, as if your mouth had a mind of its own, you asked him the question. The all nighters were getting to you. 

"Hey, Leona," you said, trying to keep your voice casual. "Do you want to take a nap with me?"

He raised an eyebrow in surprise and let out a grunt, but didn't object. 

The next you knew, you were in his room. 

As if you had been possessed, you climbed onto his bed and snuggled up next to him. Once again, to your pleasant surprise, he made no complaint. You could feel his warmth next to you, and you closed your eyes with a contented sigh.

For a few minutes, you both lay in silence, enjoying the feeling of each other's presence. You could feel your breaths slowing down, and you knew that you were both starting to drift off.

As you fell into a deep sleep, you felt Leona's arm wrap around you, pulling you closer to him. You snuggled in even closer, feeling safe and content in his embrace.

When you woke up a few hours later, you found that Leona was still asleep next to you, his breathing slow and even. You couldn't help but smile at the sight of him, feeling a sense of closeness that you had never felt before.

As you gently extricated yourself from his grasp, you felt a pang of sadness at leaving him. You wished that you could stay with him forever, just like this, in a state of blissful contentment.

But you knew that you had to leave, and so you got up and left the room, feeling grateful for the brief moment of intimacy that you had shared with Leona.

Over the next few days, you found yourself unable to stop thinking about the nap that you had taken with Leona. You couldn't help but feel a sense of longing whenever you saw him around campus, and you found yourself daydreaming about what it would be like to be with him again. It was weird. You thought you were going crazy. 

Suddenly, you felt a warm presence next to you, and you looked up to see Leona standing next to your desk. You blinked in awe. Maybe he was going crazy too. 

"Hey," he said softly, his voice surprisingly gentle. "I heard that you've been studying all day. Do you want to take a break and nap with me again?"

You felt your heart race at the sight of him, and you couldn't help but nod in agreement. It was seriously kind of out of character of him, but perhaps he actually enjoyed your presence. You followed him out of the library and back to his dorm room, where he led you to his bed and pulled you into his arms.

For a few minutes, you both lay in silence, enjoying the feeling of each other's presence. You could feel your breaths slowing down, and you knew that you were both starting to drift off.

As you fell into a deep sleep, you felt Leona's arm wrap around you again, holding you close to him. You could feel his warmth radiating against your skin, and you couldn't help but feel a sense of safety and comfort in his embrace.

When you woke up a few hours later, you found that Leona was still asleep next to you, his breathing soft and even. You couldn't help but smile at the sight of him, feeling a sense of happiness that you had never experienced before.

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[strawbubbysugar]

Happy birthday Bubby!

Couple more questions!

-Are you able to say everyone’s ages in So(u)l, including the animatronics?

-Does June ever play his guitar and sing in public or at bars or anything or does he only do that at home now?

-Soulmate question, kinda regarding Rush and Morgan’s bond, does that imply that if you don’t have a soulmate due to your previous one passing away, you can get a new bond later even if your future soulmate already exists? Like the string will “wait” kinda until they’re ready? Or was Morgan and Rush’s string there right when Rush woke up?

-What are June, Hello, and Goodbye’s main fidgets/stims?

-Okay this might be weird lol but I’m curious, what are Hello and Goodbye’s favorite little things that June does in his sleep? Does he talk, twitch, unconsciously cling to them like a koala, anything like that?

-What kind of odd jobs does June do on the side?

Thank you!!

i wanna keep it vague, but June is roughly in his mid 20's matt is roughly in his mid-late 30's Marlow is roughly one year younger than June Morgan is two years older than June Hello is a year old (his AI is somewhere around June's age) Goodbye was a year older than June (now the same age as Hello) Rush is around 8 years old (his ai is early 30's) Wibble is around 6 years old (his ai is the same as Rush) Cammie is 4 around years old (her ai is the same as wibble and rush) Octavia is around 2 years old, but was technically never completed (her size makes it much easier to fit a more complex system in her, so her mental age is around 40) The skrittles have the same AI age as toddlers, but theyre a few months old Astro Cadet has been worked on off and on for about six years, and his ai is about the same age. It grows much slower than the WOW branded animatronics

Absolutely no in public things. He's gotten a lot more shy about performing since his band days. He only ever plays for hello/goodbye and piper

Soulmate marks are all about right time, right place. if you arent the version of yourself that would be soulmates with someone, no markings will show up. Morgan was a very different person with their last soulmate, and their life experiences changed who they are. it happens! people change, especially as they get older. its why a lot of people are told not to be upset if they dont get any markings until later on (SPOILERS BELOW) Its why samir and june didnt have any soul marks until samir was goodbye. he wasnt the person that wouldve been soulmates with june yet, he needed to experience and change and grow before that would happen. So did june!

June chews his lip a lot, and sighs. Sometimes he sighs for no reason just because he forgot to breathe. I think his favourite fidget toy would be one of those fidget cubes Hello stims by waving/flapping his arms, or playing with his hands. I think he'd enjoy fidget spinners or rubix cubes! Goodbye stims with squeezing/pressure. He'd enjoy weighted blankets, and I think he'd enjoy stress balls. Ones with thick stuff inside so he can really squeeze down

Hello likes it when June sighs in his sleep, or mumbles. Goodbye thinks its funny when he snores on occasion, and records it to play it back while pretending to nap. (taking inspiration from my roommate bc its hilarious, sometimes june will make the saddest, softest little sigh in his sleep and hello will wake him up like "WERE YOU HAVING A BAD DREAM ARE YOU OKAY" & june will be entirely confused)

June does a lil of everything. people in town come to him for a lot of stuff like yard work, painting houses/fences, cleaning houses. He occasionally comes into bryn's office and helps with anything they might need too, like fixing the chairs, etc. He's known as a jack of all trades around town (which makes him feel nostalgic, since that used to be what he called his childhood best friend)

#ask #so(u)l project #i ADORE getting these asks #theyre so fun

[httpsdana]

Hi baby I’m back again with an Eric one 🤭🤭 I’m requesting prompt 139 where the reader has had a nap after a bad day and is still tired and comes to Eric crying and he comforts her by running his hair through her hands while she sat in his lap while she’s working and she just cries into him and finds comfort in him.

- love from you biggest fan (me 🤭💖)

Bad Day~Eric Garcia

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139-"C'mere, you can seat in my lap until I'm done working."

Bad day was an understatement when describing y/n's day. She had an awful horrible day.

When she first woke up, the outfit she had in mind was nowhere to be found so she had to wear one of her least favorite skirts.

As she was putting the last touches of her make up, she felt something weird. She went to bathroom and realized she had gotten her period. With a frustrated groan, she changed her underwear, putting on a pad and making sure to have at least three in her bag.

She was already late, so she stopped by a coffee shop to get her usual morning coffee. She got stuck in traffic and was scolded by her boss when she arrived late to work.

While drinking her coffee, she spilled the last bits of it on her white button up. She felt like she might cry at that moment. Taking a deep breath, she tried focusing on her work.

When she showed her boss what she had been working on all week, only for him to horrifyingly destroy her excitement and blamed her for everything that was going wrong in his company.

That was her breaking point. She took permission to leave early, saying she was feeling sick.

She drove to her house in frustration, trying to control the tears in her eyes. Parking her car, she got out of the car and slammed the door, entering her apartment. She was met with silence.

She let out a sigh realizing that Eric won't be back for a while. She took a hot shower and changed into one of Eric's shirts. She got under the covers and tried to forget her sorrows with a nap

Eric arrived to his appartment and wasn't met by the sound of his girl screaming one of Taylor Swift's songs which was weird (yk I had to mention her)

He saw her asleep in their bed, so he decided to go across some bills while she let her beauty rest.

He chanhdd his clothes and put on his glasses before sitting down on the couch and spread his papers across the coffee table. (Eric with glasses has been on my mind all day)

y/n let out a groan as the cramps started to hit hard. She opened hed eyes, and saw Eric's t-shirt that he was wearing on the floor, indicating that he arrived. She jumped out of bed almost immediately, walking to the living room

Eric felt y/n's presence, making him look up with a smile. When he saw her sad face, with tears in her eyes, his smile dropped quickly.

"amor? what's wrong?" he asked.

She let out a sigh as one tear slipped down her cheek

"I just had a very bad day. Everything seemed to be against me it was so frustrating. And now the cramps are killing me and I just want cry" she sat down next to him, laying her head on his shoulder.

He put his arms around her waist, pulling her up to stand. He patted his lap as he spread his legs a bit.

"C'mere, you can seat in my lap until I'm done working." he said with his usual comforting smile

She cracked a small smile and sat down on his lap. He lifted on hand to the back of her head, running his fingers through her strands while she cried more into his chest

"its okay. let it all out baby" he whispered sweet nothings into her ear to clam her down

"how about we order some food and eat some ice cream after that?" he suggested after her sobs calmed down a bit

She looked up at him with a smile, wiping her tears as she nodded. He smiled back and leaned in to her, nose brushing against hers, before he connected their lips into a sweet kiss

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[jaybleu25]

23rd of December

alright

hi

its me

jay here

so last year in 2022, i had a bit of a medical scare. it started off as a normal day; a few days before that i just got onto winter break (it was my senior year of high school at the time, just finished midterms). i was chilling in my room, minding my business, when all of a sudden i started feeling pain near my stomach. and i was like "oh, it's probably just that time of the month or something"

but then an hour passed. and another hour. and with every hour the pain just. got worse. like it just went from tolerable to feeling like i was being stabbed. it got to the point where i couldn't handle it any more, and i just laid on the floor for a while. then it got too much, and i called my parents to tell them.

after about 30 minutes, we all collectively decided it would be best to go to the hospital since the pain was really bad. i was crying at this point. mainly from the pain, but also because i was terrified since this was the first time i myself have ever had to be admitted to the hospital. so we get there, i get a quick check up at the front desk, and i'm taken to the er.

which, can i just say, was nothing like how i was imagining it. with how media portrays it and stuff, i thought it was the room where you actually got surgeries and stuff done or whatever. but no, that's a separate room. the emergency room is just a normal doctor's room but way nicer (and also has a stretcher for the patient to lay in).

it was pretty late at night at this point; no clue when it was, but i think we got there around 10 or 11 pm at night. i was there for a good few hours. they hooked me up to an iv, which i would argue was actually the most painful part of my time there (i also have a big fear of sharp things so that added onto the pain of them putting something in my arm wasn't great). but after a while it actually helped with the pain a lot. i could barely feel it after a while.

so after a good few hours, doctors or nurses (i can't recall) come in and take me to get an ultrasound done. during my stay there, i'd been kinda taking naps to help calm myself down, and also because i just didn't have my phone with me so i couldn't play games or anything to pass the time. by the time it got to midnight, my brother left the hospital since he was bored (gonna talk about that point later). but basically, there i was in a different room getting an ultrasound done, which was another thing that surprised me since i only thought ultrasounds were for people who were pregnant. the more you know i guess

after that was done, i got brought back to the room i was staying in and took another nap. woke up a little while later to hear the news,

"looks like appendicitis".

so then the doctors/nurses tell me and my family that i'll likely have to get surgery. main reason? well, as a bit of a tl;dr, if you have appendicitis and you leave it untreated, it could cause the appendix to basically explode itself, spreading harmful things into the body and eventually likely killing the person who has it.

this is when i began to worry that i might die.

but the doctors/nurses then told me that before the surgery, i could get a CAT(?) scan done to make proper sure that i actually had appendicitis. of course, me being terrified of having to get surgery done, chose the scan. so i got taken to get scanned, get brought back to my room, doctors/nurses come back in a little while later and basically confirm,

"yep, it's appendicitis".

so now there i was in the process of getting ready for surgery. my first ever surgery. i then got rolled down in my stretcher to the recovery room where i was told to "get ready", which basically consisted of me changing into a hospital gown, washing my mouth out with some weird mouth rinse (tasted gross fyi, would not recommend), and washing myself down with wipes. then after that, i went back on my stretcher. and before they took me to go to the proper surgery room, one of the nurses came up to me, and she said something that i will never forget: "Would you like to say goodbye to your parents?" um. no??????? i don't??????? like she could've worded it so much better. i know she meant "do you want to say goodbye before you go in for surgery" as in i'll probably see them again, but the way it was worded made it sound like that was the last time i'd ever see them.

that was when i fully believed that was it.

that was when i fully believed i was going to die.

it didn't help that there were a lot of stereotypes surrounding surgery in media, with it being terrifying and such and how some people wake up mid surgery and are forced to watch it happen. thinking of that, i was terrified. especially with the thought that i was probably going to die.

so i said goodbye to my parents, and i told them i loved them, and the nurses started rolling me towards the surgery room. we went down a really long hallway, and only half of the lights were working. looked like something out of a horror movie. and the entire way down the hallway, i was thinking a lot.

"i never got to say goodbye to my friends" "i never got to say goodbye to my brother" "i never got to tell them i loved them" "i'm never going to be able to go to university" "i'm never going to become a teacher" "i'm never going to meet my online best friend" "i'm never going to see my family again" "i'm going to die" "this is it" "if this is what God wanted for me, then so be it; he knows what he's doing" i was sort of trying to come to terms with the fact that i was going to die. but nobody's ever truly ready for that. but while i was still scared, i knew i'd be at peace soon.

i think the nurses could tell i was scared, because once we started getting closer to the surgery room, they started saying casual conversation.

"it's pretty snowy outside," one said.

"yeah, it was snowing on the way here" i responded.

"looks like we'll be getting snow this Christmas," the other said.

"yeah," i responded.

then we got to the outside of the room. the doors were closed, and one of the nurses pressed a big button on the wall that opened them. they rolled me into the room, and they carried me off the stretcher and onto the surgery table. they then explained to me that i'd be under anesthesia, so i wouldn't be awake for the surgery. i was nervous of what would go down, but i went along with everything.

they put the anesthesia mask over my mouth and nose.

i took a deep breath.

i blinked.

i was in the recovery room.

it was morning, Christmas Eve. the 24th of december. it was bright outside with all the snow.

i was laying in my stretcher, kind of confused on what was going on. that was it? was that my surgery? is it over with?

it was around 8 in the morning. i laid there for a good 10-20 minutes in silence, just thinking, trying to figure out what was going on.

i was alive.

after a little while, one of the nurses who were nearby noticed i was awake, and she came over to help take care of me. she brought me back my normal clothes, and i got changed, and she helped me get into a wheelchair. i could barely stand. it hurt to stand. it hurt to move.

i was half awake at the time, but i thanked her for her help, and she rolled me down to the lobby where my parents were waiting. i got helped into our car out of my wheelchair, said goodbye to the nurse, and we were on our way back home.

getting home, i got helped to the couch, where i proceeded to lay there for an entire week. i could barely move. all i could eat was yogurt for a while since i could only eat soft things. i stayed on that couch for a while, only getting up when i needed to use the bathroom (which i rarely did since it hurt to sit up and walk around). my cats often kept me company, laying on top of me on the blanket and keeping me warm.

luckily for me, since i was on winter break, i had the entire week to recover. granted, i wasn't fully recovered by the time the week was over, but by that point i could at least walk a little.

the next week, i had to go back to school. but i could barely walk still. because of that, the day i came back, me and my mom (she helped walk me there) went to the front office, and i was able to use the wheelchair they had there. so for that entire week while i was at school, i was in a wheelchair. there was nothing wrong with my legs, it was just whenever i put pressure on my stomach (whenever i sat up from laying down, standing, etc) it hurt a lot.

i still remember when i got to my first class that day. the school resource officer helped roll me there, and the moment i got into the classroom, everyone was surprised. they all looked at me.

"WHAT?!" they all exclaimed.

i couldn't help but laugh. i found it hilarious.

as of this being posted, it's officially been a year since i had to go to the hospital. my scars have (mostly) healed. it doesn't hurt anymore. i can walk around perfectly fine. i've fully recovered. well, aside from me now having to deal with the fact that i get sick more easily now that my appendix is gone. that's the only downside.

the appendix is actually more useful than you think.

#tw pain #tw surgery #medical story yippee!! #tw vent #tw mention of death

[superjumpintomyheart]

👉👈 callie × frye? any headcanons, thoughts?

I THINK THEY ARE SO NICE!!!!! I really like the idea of them together <3 probably maybe a teeny bit more than mariver,,, perhaps

For ship names we aren't working with a whole lot here... we got either crye, frallie, or something like calfrye so do what you will with that

extrovert x extrovert for the win these two lesbians are so insane

frye is so impulsive and callie is like almost always down to do whatever she wants, so their dates are often just the most spontaneous weird ideas that frye had and they decided to go out and do them

some of them are normal like "we went and got pizza late at night bc all of a sudden we just wanted pizza!" but then there are some like "frye woke up at 3am and demanded we try breaking into wahoo world bc she had a dream about a ride there... we got kicked out."

callie is so cuddly in her sleep (and kinda in general too) but whenever her and frye are napping or just asleep at night callie is curled up right next to her, always touching frye in some way otherwise she cannot sleep

frye would love dancing with callie so much, they might take one of those dance classes for couples and end up just dancing with each other in their living room when they're supposed to be cleaning the apartment all the time

frye also loves to play with callie's hair since its so long and sometimes it'll accidentally make her fall asleep bc its like a nice massage on her scalp. she kinda needs it tbh since she wears it up so often and it tugs on her scalp a lot, frye takes care of her <3

they like to do a lot of cute mutual self care things with each other like face masks and doing each others makeup and such, its just a cute way they spend time together after long days

they go on double dates with mariver! and pearlina!!!

since both callie and frye can have a lot of energy at times and they need to be stimulated to dispel the energy so they'll do stuff together, frye might say something like "i feel like just running right now! I can't sit still at all" and callie will be like "let me grab my sneakers, lets go"

on the opposite side of the spectrum, if one of them is drained the other probably is too, they have basically identical energy levels like they're synced up or something lol

they love to give each other lots of little kisses ;-; on the forehead, cheek, hands, lips, all over their face, they just always show affection like that with each other

one time callie gave frye a forehead kiss after she had just put lipstick on and she forgot about it so when she leaned back to look at frye she just started laughing

"what?? why are you laughing cal?" frye can't see it but the pink lipstick callie was wearing made a perfect imprint of her lips where they had been on frye's forehead, so she just has a splotch of pink in the middle of her forehead

she probably looked in a mirror or in the camera on her phone and once she saw too she started laughing, then she wanted to get revenge so she put on lipstick herself and purposefully kissed all over callie's face so there would be a bunch of lip marks on her

they ended up laughing and messing up their lipsticks but it was fun and they love to spend time with each other <3 so its worth it

#splatoon #splatoon 3 #frye splatoon #frye #callie splatoon #callie cuttlefish #callie x frye #crye #? #frallie #??? #ship name in progress ig #splatoon headcanons #splatoon hcs

[silvfyre-writings]

Sleep is for the... (MHA Fanfic)

Please enjoy some self indulgent insomniac Tokoyami. I am struggling with sleep right now which prompted this fic to be born. Enjoy!!!

Sleep was always something that eluded Tokoyami when he so desperately needed it. Like right now, he was lying in his bed, staring at the ceiling whilst Dark Shadow flitted about the room, energetically chatting away despite how late it was. Occasionally his quirk would turn to him and ask a question, but Tokoyami was just too tired to do anything more than simply nod. This had been going on for several nights now; the inability to fall asleep, that is. After the second night of no sleep, Dark Shadow had taken to coming out, trying various things that he’d read about over Tokoyami’s shoulder while he’d searched for a way to cure this sudden bout of insomnia. Last night, it had been white noise—if Dark Shadow quietly screeching could be considered white noise in the first place. Tonight, it was quiet talk. Supposedly, quietly talking to another person—or in this case, quirk—was meant to make one feel tired. And it had, Tokoyami was tired. He’d gone without sleep for four nights now, and he wanted nothing more than for someone to just put him out of his misery. Maybe Aizawa-sensei could get Midnight-sensei to use her quirk. Then I might actually be able to sleep.

“Fumikage. Are you alright?” Dark Shadow poked its head over the edge of the bed, looking concerned.

“I am fine, Dark Shadow.” Tokoyami said, swinging his legs over the edge of his bed. “I apologize, but this idea of yours isn’t working. I’m just going to go downstairs.”

“Oh, alright. Goodnight, Fumi!”

“Goodnight, Dark Shadow.” Tokoyami watched his quirk vanish back into his body and let out a sigh. At this point, it was going to be another night of no sleep, so he figured he might as well watch something on the television to pass the time. It wasn’t like Aizawa was going to be prowling around the dorms at this hour; even his teacher slept.

Sometimes.

Carefully—and quietly—Tokoyami made his way down the stairs to the common room. He didn’t run into any of his classmates, a skill he seemed to have mastered since living in the dorms, not that he’d meant to honestly. It was just that most of his classmates seemed to always be getting a drink or a late-night snack at the same time he was heading towards the common room. His classmates were always kind when he ran into them, some of them even offering to stay up with him, but Tokoyami always refused. There was no point in all of them losing sleep and making Aizawa angry with them.

It was always weird to see the common room so dark and empty when it had been full of life only a few hours ago, but it was a welcome sight for Tokoyami right now. He shuffled over towards the couch and collapsed onto it, feeling around for the television remote without lifting his head. Once he’d found it, it didn’t take long for him to flick through the channels to find something to watch; settling on some sort of documentary that was playing. It looked to be about the deep sea, not something that had ever really caught Tokoyami’s interest before, but it would do to pass the time until the rest of his classmates woke up, and got himself comfortable. Maybe if he was lucky, sleep would come for him.

The voice of the narrator was surprisingly soothing, allowing a sense of calm to blanket the room. It was enough to have Tokoyami relax into the couch as he watched, eyes slowly growing heavy. Soon enough, his blinks lasted for several seconds, and then his blinks became quick naps, and then the quick naps descended into sleep. The first sleep in four days.

When Tokoyami woke up, he was confused and disoriented, not quite able to remember where he was or how he’d gotten there. A quick scan of the room told him he was still on the couch in the common room, and that the sun had long risen. A further look showed that his classmates were moving about with their days, if only keeping quiet because of him. It left a warm feeling inside Tokoyami’s chest at the care they were showing.

“I told them to keep it down.” Tokoyami turned to see Shoji sitting in front of the couch, looking over his shoulder towards him. “You only come down here if you can’t sleep, and you were sleeping, so I didn’t want to disturb that.”

“Thank you.” Tokoyami said, sitting up and blinking as a blanket slid into his lap. He hadn’t even noticed that he’d been covered in one, which said how tired he still was. Sure, he felt well rested after a few hours of sleep, but not even those precious few hours were enough to chase away the bone deep exhaustion that plagued him. “You didn’t have to stay.”

Shoji shrugged. “You make good company, even while sleeping. It allowed me to work on my homework in peace. Besides…” His friend pointed to the other couch where Midoriya and his friends were currently passed out—although Iida was still awake and watching the television intensely, which was playing a movie now, Tokoyami noticed. “They fell asleep too.”

“Ah.” Tokoyami turned his attention to the movie that was playing. “What are we watching?”

“I dunno really. Some old movie, I think. I didn’t quite catch the name.” Shoji paused, and Tokoyami could see that his friend was thinking about what to say next, so he waited patiently. Finally, Shoji found the words he needed. “You need to talk to Aizawa-sensei about this.”

“About what?”

“The insomnia. Four days, Tokoyami. Four days.” Tokoyami ducked his head at his friends worried tone. He wasn’t used to others worrying about his sleeping problems, but Shoji had proven one thing since he’d met the other boy, and that was he cared deeply about his friends.

“I don’t know.” Tokoyami said. “Aizawa-sensei has enough on his plate already, he doesn’t—”

“He needs to know.” Shoji interrupted. “Lack of sleep can cause some serious problems, both physical and mental. What happens if you get hurt during training? On your work study with Hawks?”

Shoji had a point, Tokoyami had to admit, although he was loathe to admit it. How many times had he watched his classmates work themselves into the ground, having gone without sleep for days until their bodies literally could not support them? The answer was too many times, and every time it did happen, Aizawa lectured them all on the importance of sleep.

Which felt a little hypocritical coming from the man, but no one dared to try and argue that.

And, well, Tokoyami knew that he should go and tell his teacher about his troubles since Aizawa would no doubt be able to help him… but… it didn’t seem right to do so. His teacher was so tired lately, and was already busy with the problems of his classmates, it didn’t seem fair for Tokoyami to add to them. It was just a bit of trouble sleeping, something that would pass in time and be forgotten about. It was something he could deal with on his own, he just had to keep trying.

“I’ll be fine, Shoji, but thank you for your concern.” Tokoyami said in the end. He did appreciate the way his friend was worried for him, even though it was unnecessary.

Shoji gave him the look that said he didn’t believe Tokoyami in the slightest, but didn’t say anything more; he just turned back to continue watching the movie. Tokoyami stared for a moment before he reclined back into the couch and pulled the blanket back up. He’d finish the movie and then begin his day.

“You need to tell Aizawa-sensei.”

Shoji’s words rang through Tokoyami’s mind as he trekked down the stairs, once again heading for the common room; once again, unable to fall asleep. He’d gone to bed early that night too, in an attempt to trick his mind into falling asleep at a much more reasonable hour than the one he had the previous night. But it hadn’t work, and Tokoyami had tossed and turned in his bed for several hours before just giving up and deciding to go to the common room again. Maybe the couch would work its magic and send him off to sleep again. I should’ve said something to Aizawa-sensei today.

But it was too late now, and at this point, Tokoyami didn’t care. It was the fifth night without proper sleep and he was just so tired. He didn’t know why he was being plagued with insomnia now of all times, for it wasn’t something he’d dealt with as a child—nor had his parents—and Tokoyami just didn’t understand. He felt sympathetic towards those that dealt with insomnia on a regular basis. He couldn’t imagine struggling to fall asleep longer than he already was.

So, once again, Tokoyami sat on the couch, rugged himself up in his blanket that he’d brought downstairs with him, wanting something soft to burrow into, and turned on the television, heading straight for the movie channel. Movies were soothing—sometimes—and Tokoyami found himself really in the mood after all the movies they’d watched during the day.

Tokoyami was about three-quarters through his second movie when he heard footsteps approaching him, his head turning so fast he almost expected his neck to snap. Which probably would’ve been the preferred option, since he found himself staring into Aizawa’s unimpressed face. “Hi, Aizawa-sensei.”

“Tokoyami.” His teacher greeted, eyes quickly flitting to the television before coming back to stare at Tokoyami. “It’s past curfew.”

“I know.”

The two stared at each other in silence, Aizawa breaking it with a sigh. “What are you doing down here, kid?”

“I… I can’t sleep.” Tokoyami admitted, dropping his eyes to stare at the blanket in his lap. His heart was beating fast at the admission, and he couldn’t bring himself to look his teacher in the face, scared for what he might see in Aizawa’s face if he did so. His teacher was probably upset with him for having such a minor problem, and would probably just tell him to get over it and go back to his room. Tokoyami should’ve just—

“Why not?”

—said something to Aizawa sooner? Tokoyami looked up, having not expected the question. Aizawa was staring right back at him with a blank expression, although Tokoyami swore he could see a touch of concern hidden underneath that blankness though. “What?”

“Why can’t you sleep? Are you having nightmares?” Aizawa asked, coming to rest his forearms on the back of the couch, giving his full attention to Tokoyami now.

“No, not nightmares. I just can’t sleep. I managed to sleep for a few hours yesterday, but this is the fifth night I haven’t been able to fall asleep.”

Aizawa sucked in a breath, the action making Tokoyami freeze. Had he said something wrong? He didn’t think he had. But, Aizawa didn’t look mad at him, only upset and—oh. His teacher was upset that Tokoyami hadn’t said something sooner, he realized.

“I’m sorry.” Tokoyami found himself saying.

“Don’t be sorry kid. But you definitely should have said something before now. Five days, Tokoyami? I’m surprised you’re still standing.” Aizawa said.

“You were busy.”

“I’m never too busy for you kids. You all need to learn to come to me when you have a problem rather than struggle on your own. If you’d told me earlier, I’d have done something about it sooner.” Aizawa explained. “You aren’t the first kid to have insomnia, and you won’t be the last.”

“Oh.” Was all Tokoyami could say at that moment.

Aizawa watched Tokoyami for a moment before pulling his phone out and tapping out something, shoving the device back into his pocket only a few seconds later. “I’ve texted Midnight. She’s on patrol tonight, so she’ll swing by and use her quirk. It won’t be a permanent fix, but it’ll do for tonight. You need to rest before you collapse.”

“Thank you, Sensei.” Tokoyami felt relief at the idea of being able to finally get some rest, even if it did have to come from a quirk. It would be sleep, and that was all Tokoyami cared about.

They didn’t have to wait long for Midnight to arrive; she must’ve been close to the dorms when Aizawa texted her. The woman only needed to take one look at Tokoyami before she rushed over, a gentle hand coming to rest on top of Tokoyami’s head, and an equally gentle smile on her face. “Hey there, Tokoyami. Shouta tells me you’re having some sleeping troubles.”

Tokoyami nodded. “I have been struggling to fall asleep for several nights now. I am very tired.”

“I can only imagine.” Midnight soothed. “I can put you to sleep with my quirk, but I need your permission to do so.”

Tokoyami went to nod, but paused, looking towards Aizawa. “What if Dark Shadow reacts to me falling asleep?”

“Then I’ll deal with it.” Aizawa shrugged. “Just get some rest, Tokoyami. I’ll keep watch.”

Tokoyami nodded, and felt his eyes start to close as he was hit by Midnight’s quirk, sleeping coming to him faster than it had in days. As he fell asleep, he thought he saw Aizawa come to sit on the couch by his feet.

But he was probably dreaming.

“I’m hesitant to prescribe the stronger medications since the insomnia has only recently started, but if it persists, I’ll arrange for a small dose to see if that helps. But for now, try the melatonin, and try to follow everything I’ve written down, okay?” Recovery Girl said, handing Tokoyami a piece of paper with instructions he needed to follow to try and help him be able to fall asleep easier. Tokoyami stared at the piece of paper, not all that hopeful about this working, but also hoping that it did.

“Can you write him a note for the heroics class?” Aizawa asked, having accompanied Tokoyami to his appointment with the healer despite Tokoyami insisting he’d be fine on his own. “Until he’s had more rest, I’d rather he not participate.”

Wait, what?

“I can do that.” Recovery Girl said, quickly scribbling onto another piece of paper and holding it out to Tokoyami.

Tokoyami glared at the sheet of paper like it would end his hero career if he took it. “I can still participate in class.”

“Not until you get more rest, kid. One good night under Midnight’s quirk isn’t a substitute for five days of no proper rest.” Aizawa said, taking the paper instead. “You’re not taking part in heroics for the rest of the week at least, and definitely no work study.”

“But—”

“No, Tokoyami. You need to take care of yourself first.”

“But, Hawks—” Tokoyami had been looking forward to his work with Hawks later on in the week; the hero having offered to help Tokoyami with his aerial combat skills. And that wouldn’t happen if he wasn’t allowed to work with his mentor.

“Hawks can cope without you for a week, I’m sure.” Tokoyami deflated. There was no point in trying to argue with Aizawa once he’d made up his mind. His teacher was the stubbornest person he’d ever met in his life, and he had no hope of winning against him. Aizawa seemed to sense Tokoyami’s change in mood, and came over to place a hand on his shoulder. “Kid, I’m not doing this to punish you. You need the rest, and working will just make you worse.”

“I know.”

“Do you?”

Tokoyami nodded. He did know that, but that didn’t mean he had to like it. He was a hero in training; a little bit of tiredness wasn’t going to kill him, yet so far, everyone around him had acted like he was going to drop dead any second now. Hell, half his classmates had nightmares, yet he didn’t see any of them getting treated the same way he was. Well… not that he was aware of. Maybe they were getting help, and just didn’t share it. He could vaguely recall some of his classmates sitting out of heroics class occasionally, so maybe, just maybe, he wasn’t being treated all that differently.

“Come on, Tokoyami, let’s get you back to the dorms.” Aizawa said, leading Tokoyami out of the infirmary. “Try and use today to get some rest. Try some of the things in that list and see if they help.”

“Yes, Sensei.” Tokoyami nodded, obediently following his teacher down the hall. “Aizawa-sensei?”

“Yes?”

“Thank you.”

Aizawa looked over his shoulder, frowning before he realized just what Tokoyami was thanking him for. “No worries, kid.”

#mha #bnha #mha fanfic #tokoyami fumigake #aizawa shota #shoji mezo #comfort #fluff #insomnia #friendship #dadzawa #writing #fanfic #my hero academia #boku no hero academia

[sakurachan7734]

The moment I realized I liked you all 

Rewrite

Chapter 6: strange dreams

Jackson x Zachary

Zachary: I will let you go first what do you want to say? 

Jackson: I’ve been having really weird dreams lately

Zachary: really? What are your dreams?

Jackson: I’m at a park with three other people but I can’t see their faces and every time I get a chance to look at their faces I wake up and every time I go back to sleep and dream starts over again

Zachary: maybe the people in your dreams are people you know?

Jackson: I think so I think I can tell who they are

Zachary: who do you think they are?

Jackson; well I think it’s you, Charlie and Aristotle

Zachary: what makes you think that?

Jackson: well one of them looks and talks like Aristotle and one looks and talks like you and one looks and talks like Charlie so I think it’s you guys

Zachary: maybe your dreams are showing all of us because we are all good friends

Jackson:* mind* great Zachary sees you as just a friend

Zachary: now I have something to ask you and you need to be completely honest and don’t lie 

Jackson: yes?

Zachary: are you ok?

Jackson: yes I am

Zachary: are you sure? You get really attached to us when you’re not feeling like yourself

Jackson: I’m fine Zachary I can’t spend time with you?

Zachary: you can we are just worried but I guess I will leave you alone about it

Jackson: ok

The school day ends and Jackson starts walking home

Jackson pov

Oh my god Zachary possibly knows I like him and I know he is going to shut down any confession I give him I need to calm down I should take a nap

Jackson lays down on its bed and goes to sleep

In the dream world

Aristotle:* grabs Jackson’s hand* your here!

Jackson: hay Aristotle!

Aristotle: me, Charlie and Zachary are going to the beach do you want to come?

Jackson: yes I would love to

Aristotle: good see you there

Jackson:* mind* remember Jackson this is all a dream none of this is real you have to walk up at some point

Jackson walks to the beach and sees Zachary, Charlie and Aristotle there

Charlie: you made it!

Jackson: why would I skip on going to the beach with you guys!?

Zachary: come on Jackson go change into a swimsuit and let’s go swimming!!

Jackson: ok!

Jackson:*change this to a swimsuit and jumps in the water* come on guys!

Zachary:* jumps in the water* yippee!

After a few hours in the dream world

Jackson: I love you guys so much

Aristotle: we lov-

All of a sudden Jackson wakes

Jackson: great! I woke up during the best part!! Like aways!!

Max:* walks into Jackson’s room* what?

Jackson: nothing

The next day

Jackson: I had that dream again

Zachary: the one with all of us?

Jackson: yes

Zachary: what where we doing?

Jackson: relaxing at the beach

Zachary: oh that’s nice

Jackson: also did you hear about the amusement park next month?

Zachary: yes I did

Jackson: when Aristotle gets back do you want to go? 

Zachary; yes I was just talking about that with Aristotle because I know they get back in three weeks

Jackson: good! So the 27th of next month?

Zachary: that seems good tell that Charlie and I will tell that to Aristotle when I call them tonight.

Jackson: good deal!

End of chapter 

#scp foundation #scp #scp containment breach #scp fan child

[boytumms]

(Shy boy anon again :D (god I love your content ajhshxnvn)) Regarding the last ask, I had a story idea about a lonely (100% shy I always have to make them shy 😭) priest boy working at an isolated and quiet church. Missing the warmth of family and love, on a quiet night, he prays at the church's altar for someone, anyone he can spend time with. So the gods heard his plea, and sent an (angel? baby?) down to be his child (he didn't see any of this so he finds out later 👀) 1/2

2/2 So after a short while he begun to notice he was feeling sick and tired all the time, and finds out that he has fallen pregnant, he's ecstatic (not questioning how because he's religious) that he now has a child on the way, but is worried because since he's at a church, the other people there will disown him, so he has to avoid them altogether or leave. He decides to stay, but only comes out to work at night to hide his growing tummy (I love the word tummy so much 😭) 2/? (I lied)

3/3 ((soft part) last one I hope) He would always have a hand resting on or near his belly, and layer on while he's trying to sleep since he's usually up then, the baby is used to the late hours so they're more active, resulting in him rubbing his belly trying to get them to calm down (mmaybe he's the type to get hiccups easily too so all the time he has tiny high pitched ones 😭) (IM SO SORRY IDK HOW LONG THIS WILL BE SORRY)

4/? 😭 He ends up being overdue, and has a really hard time getting up from bed, praying, sitting etc, so he spends a lot of time reading books or writing, while also (obviously) rubbing his belly. He's also the type to get really nervous but excited every time he feels a kick or movement 👀

5/? When he finally goes into labor, (He was in the middle of reading when he started falling asleep, and as he was in that state it just 😳) he's really scared because he doesn't really know what to do, but he believed that (the gods?) would aide him and keep him safe, and after a few hours of labor he gives birth, in his room, to a boy. As he holds him, he remembers his wish from all that time ago, and thanks the gods for his wonderful gift. (AWUFITJRIRJGJFJ 🥺)

6/6 IM SO SORRY THIS WAS REALLY LONG I JUST WOKE UP FROM AN HOUR NAP AND ITS 9:30PM SO IM DISORIENTED PLUS I THOUGHT OF THIS AS I WAS TYPING other than that uhh thank you for listening to my dumb priest boy story I hope this wasn't misfortunate I'm really shy about mpreg so I apologize in any way if this was weird or I made you uncomfortable in any way!!

AA its ok!!! This is so cute and wholesome hehe :D That poor priest, having to go through his pregnancy alone, trying to hide his growing belly from everyone else. I wonder what his church would think when he shows up with a baby in his arms...

#ask #shy anon #mpreg #writings #birth #belly kink #u dont need to apologize i liked your story :D

[seancamerons]

I have reason to believe something is going on that is kind of weird.

I’ve been waking up early lately for the past couple of weeks. I go to bed late, and don't feel tired with or without coffee. My eyes are burning, tingling as well as my cheeks. Idk if its because I started wearing my prescription glasses 2 years ago because my eyes have been hurting for several days lately. My eyes tear all the time. I believe I could be allergic to ingredients in some mascaras, I end up looking like a racoon or have to constantly wipe away fallout and prevent my eyes from burning. I’ve been putting more effort into my appearance, make up, hair and dress. I have all these ideas buzzing around my brain, I want to make xmas cards and such but I feel weird about all of this. I’m always avoiding being depressed or trying to keep my mind upbeat but Im feeling like this, in my gut is scary and possibly a potential warning. No naps the past couple of weeks. No depression, feeling ‘good’.

I just assume everything is fine but I feel like there’s warning signs happening when I had that bad time in 2015. One of the hardest things. I had to become more self-aware. Going forward from there, I had no experiences after my hospital stay. I don’t want to go back there. I don’t want to have problems. I usually get depressed near the holidays, now I feel good about them and excited, which I also fear getting bad again. I take my meds. Why am I feeling like this?

But yesterday, I woke up at 3:30am after going to sleep at 930-10 pm and I have stayed awake. I got tired around 4-5:00 pm and laid down and calmed down without my phone, without my computer and simply cleaned while listening to music. I’ve been non-stop for days. Very motivated, but I also feel unproductive.

It is currently 1 in the morning, overwhelmed, overloaded, not tired at all whatsoever. I’m trying to figure out what is going on. I think I’m suffering from stress related anxiety,adhd side-effects, and it’s affecting my mood. I honestly hope I am not having a relapse of mania. I haven’t had any issues in a long time. I hope it improves and doesn’t get bad. I desperately don’t want to ruin my life again. I have been doing so good for the time being and I thought I was doing good. I’m constantly over-thinking. I constantly have to feel like being mindful of what I say in any and all situations. I take so long to respond to friends and such. I feel like I’m constantly afraid of improvisational interpersonal difficulty.

I’ve been stressed financially for a long time, at least a few years. In the back of my mind I’m always thinking the worst. Outside I’m fine but inside I’m always a walking contradiction, my mind says one thing, my heart wants another and my brain too wants something completely different sometimes. I have trouble making some decisions. I don’t want to go back to therapy. I want to find a way to combat this before it gets out of control though. I don’t even know what the first steps are to start this.

Sometimes I wish I got therapy in college because I struggled badly through those years. I was absolutely miserable and I’m a nervous wreck at my own graduation. I hate making mistakes and shit I regret a lot about that time. I struggle now because of those decisions.

When I did get help it wasn’t until recently that I started feeling weird. I can’t calm down. I feel like I want to do fifty million things at once. This is really rough and bad. I’m going to try to calm down, wind down, get off the computer and get a little bit of sleep. Am I ok?

#personal #help? #srsly don't know #i know its late and everyone on here is probably asleep

[umichenginabroad]

Abhi in Paris

Week 10: Parisian Adventures

Hey everyone, welcome back to Week 10 of my blog! It feels crazy to think about the fact that I've been here for 10 weeks now - oh my god, the time is flying. And funny enough, from the Scottish Highlands to the Volcanos of the Canary Islands, one of the few things I haven't done so much is explore Paris. It's a massive city with so much to explore, and although I feel I've seen other parts of Europe really well, I know that Paris has so much more to offer. So, this week I'm going on Paris adventures - from learning more about the bakery scene to trying out new bars and meeting new people. So here we go...

Monday, March 18th - Monday began as a usual start to the week. I got a morning cycling class in before making my way to ENSEA in Cergy, France for my afternoon classes that day. I got my first ever midterms back, and I'm proud to say I didn't fail :) I was able to come back from class and catch a few hours of TV relaxation.

Tuesday, March 19th - Tuesdays are always the worst! I have a morning class at 8am, which means I wake up at 6am to make the hour and a half commute up to school. After one class, I have a six hour break before by three hour french class. It's so tough because if I got back to Paris for the break I only have two hours there, and if I stay in ENSEA, I don't have much to do. It's always a coin toss, but today I went back to Cergy, managed to hit the gym and grab lunch, before heading back up to ENSEA for my evening French class. After a tiring day of class, I always make my way back, cook up some pasta for dinner, and then crash.

Wednesday, March 20th & Thursday, March 21st - I'm gonna gloss over these two days a little bit, because as luck would have it I caught a cold. Somehow, I recovered pretty quick, but I was out for most of Wednesday & Thursday.

Friday, March 22nd - Friday was so fun! I started the day with a French Culture class, where our new Professor, started the clas by giving us some French treats from the Brittany region of France. After that, we had an amazing discussion of French work benefits, and hoenstly, after I heard what she had to say, I have to say I was tempted to move to France permanently. Here's a quick summary of what the average university graduate in a full time rolled (called Cadre or CDI in France) gets:

35 Hour Work Week & Any Extra work above that can be claimed in the form of extra vacation time later

5 weeks paid vacation per year, 11 public holidays, bonus Mondays & Fridays off when public holidays are on Tuesday/Thursday, 16/20 week paid maternity leave & 2 week paid paternity leave, 2 week paid leave if your child is ill, 1 week paid leave if you get married, and the list goes on!

Once you get hired as Cadre, it is literally impossible to get fired unless you commit a felony - in fact the french have a phrase that goes "to put in a cupboard" because its easier to silo a bad employee into a meaningless role (cupboard) than to fire them

Incredible social security type pension benefits

Free Public Insurance that covers a lot of things including all life-threatening ailments like caner & private insurance that costs 150-200 euros a month for a family of four

This is all a super longwinded way to say that the benefits in France are incredible. Anyway, after class I managed to go to the gym and relax for a few hours. That night, I went to a warehouse party in the 19th arrondissement with some friends in ENSEA. Man do the Europeans never quit - I was there until 5am!

Saturday, March 23rd - Saturday was a late start given the events of the previous night :) After grabbing a Portugese delicacy "Pastel de Nata" with friends from ENSEA, I came back home around noon and took a fat nap. I woke up without much homework to do and spent the evening going down a weird rabbit hole of algorithmic forex trading, working on building my own trading bot. Just a really random and weird evening.

Anyway, that night the same friends from ENSEA made thier way back to Paris, where we had a few drinks and played some card games. We then explored a youthful area of Paris known as "Bastille." It was amazing meeting a bunch of exchange students like us there!

Sunday, March 24th - As you might imagine, after the last two late nights. Sunday was a recovery day. I woke up super late, managed to get to the gym, and just spent the rest of the time catching up on homework.

For me, this was a week to explore in Paris, something I haven't had much of a chance to do with all the travel across Europe. But don't worry, next week I'm back off to the races with a 6 day trip across Germany!

A plus tard,

Abhi Athreya

University of Michigan, Aerospace Engineering 2025

ENSEA in Cergy, France

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[minkkumaz]

ITS SO WEIRD NOT PUTTING THE ‘ASK ANONYMOUSLY’ BUTTON ON… at one point ill accidentally turn it on i can feel it TT

and yes thats quite literally me!! that was my smile after i saw UR NEW SERIES. YOUR NEW SERIES ⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ because pause we need to DISCUSS.

its crazy cause i was literally talking to my friend about danganronpa last saturday.. im not well versed in the game(show???) but i remember watching those silent playthroughs when I was bored.. A bit boring but i love the blue haired mc.. (suichi?? shuichi?? i know his last name was saihara..)

BUT SERIOUSLY RHOUGH 8TURN AND DANGANRONPA?? frothing at the mouth. i’ll literally stay by minho all the way to make sure nobody does something devious..

knowing you,, you’d definitely sneak some yungyu love in there LMAO (not that im complaining bc recently his white hair has been resonating within me.)

i was supposed to be playing valorant w a few friends today.. but i overslept and napped for EIGHT. EIGHT HOURS 😭

so i woke up around 256am. its like 430 now and i have classes starting around 3hrs.. struggling.. BUT VERY EXCITED FOR THE SERIES ^^

(and yes leehan strutting in heels. he’d eat it UP??? he’d make his fish decide which strut looks better too. sungho and riwoo would be peeking at him through a crack in the door, just watching leehan talk to his fish as he demonstrates the way he walks.)

-🍉

omg its okay if you put on anon accidentally, its your split personality LOL

MY SERIES! i am extremely well versed in this game, and i have been hyperfixating on it lately so i seriously couldn't help myself ><

i have all of the games, and i also love the blue haired mc!! shuichi saihara! he has always been my favorite i'm constantly hyperfixating on him he's the love of my life since day one!

i cannot confirm nor deny any of your speculations.. but yes some yungyu love will definitely be snuck in because how could i not? he is the love of my life of course :D

no romance as of now but definitely some implied with a mystery member...

EIGHT HOUR NAP?? naps are either super refreshing or make u wanna explode after.. I HOPE YOU GOT SOME GOOD REST THOUGH YOU DESERVE IT! good luck with your classes ><

also u are so funny abt leehan he totally would LMAOO

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[reigngoawayy]

(9 . 11 . 23) - DAY TWO (long post incoming)

RATING: 5/10

MOOD: relieved

today was a mixed bag. i woke up late bc my alarm randomly got set to 6:45 instead of 6:30 leaving me with 45 mins. which isn't that bad at all bc i usually get ready in 30. it certainly was a minor inconvenience tho.

i walked to my bus stop in a rush bc i honestly don't remember what i was delayed. i didn't miss the bus tho. i talked to that one kid on my bus stop. he's chill but he makes a competition out of everything.

he school bus was extremely annoying, they were doing a "sus battle" at the end of the day. im not joking its actually what they called it. this isn't the first time this has happened. honestly it happens every day.

my friend has these weird phases where he ignores everyone. he got out of one today.

i got to school and realized i didn't have my laptop so i wandered around the school looking for it. i called my mom and she found it at home. we had a pre test and i missed 100% of that hour so that was nice

lunch came and the core part of the friend group (me and 3 others) was gone. i HATE the rest of the people there. they talk about lesbians a lot, idk why.

we broke cds in science to learn about collision. i shattered mine so hard that i couldn't identify a single peice

music tech came, we got a new project. me and my friend were allowed to work on a project together. we decided on gospel metal bc were over achievers.

i was so exhausted my 7th hour that i just napped for most of it. i had most of the work done so the teacher let me

got home and had a monster. went to my room bc i was exhausted. i painted and played ow comp for rest of the day

dinner came and we have this really good soup. i almost never eat anything that im not particularly in the mood for. im very picky.

i got a random realization that life is hard and i cried. my mom helped me out n stuff so i feel better

then i made a milkshake and here i am now (btw it was really good)

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[keefwho]

January 15 - 2023

9:51 AM

Today I’ll probably touch up on my ACT book again and try to focus on my sense of self. Its bad, I really do feel like a character lately. I don’t know how to explain it. I just feel out of touch with who I really am and out of touch with others. I’m in a kind of feedback loop in my head and I need to break out. This feels like a complex problem though. I’m having trouble identifying what it is that is actually wrong. It might be multiple problems that need their own attention. My plan today was to actually do some things alone and try to clear my head. When I’m alone I’m almost always thinking about my friends and the next time we’re going to hang out. I want to stop that and be my own person more. That’ll also give me more to talk about. 

On a different note, lately I only feel like getting off with others in ERP or something. I thought this desire would go away but it’s been awhile and I still feel like this. It’s a problem because I actually feel down bad but I dont’ want to. I don’t know why jerking off normally isn’t satisfying me. I’ve been trying to ignore it overall but it’s kind of hard. Its like my body is crying out for some good release and I can’t ignore it. I feel weird that this is happening because I don’t want to come off as a coomer or whatever. Maybe I crave a little intimacy. I don’t just wanna nut, I wanna get vulnerable with someone. Whether that be sort of romantic or absolutely degenerate, either is fine. It’s been awhile since I’ve been humiliated but I don’t even know how to go about proposing that to someone. I know a lot of furries in VRchat are down to do anything with pretty much anyone but I feel like I need to be friends with someone before we do stuff together. Even then it does not feel right to just ask about it. Usually it happens naturally on a drinking night or something. Its all so complicated. 

2:40 PM

I’ve been putting off my alone time. I admit I’m a little bit scared. I don’t know why. Maybe I’m afraid I won’t like what I find. I’ll probably be okay but still. My plan is to do my yoga in VR like usual but then just chill in the world for maybe 20 or 30 minutes with nothing but myself and the ambience. I figure it will be good thinking time. It has been in the past. 

4:55 PM

It was scary being alone with my thoughts. I didn’t think much of anything, I didn’t feel much. I’m concerned I was feeling so little. I was content at least. Maybe today isn’t a good day for it. I had a bit of a meltdown last night so I might be emotionally tired. When I woke up I slept in for about 30 minutes which had the effect of a nap and threw off my sense of everything right off the bat. I think today I’m completely mentally exhausted. 

8:03 PM

I have no reason to feel happy or confident right now. 

[venus-pjo]

The Halfblood Chronicles- Part 3

CHAPTER 3

Valerie paced the room in silence, tears streaming down her face. We all felt bad for her. Varians lifeless body was a horrible sight for everyone. Moon had explained before that Varian didn't have parents, well he did, but they didn't care. I knew it was my fault, Varian had asked if i wanted to go on a walk with him earlier, but i declined. It was on the walk he got into a fight and this happened. Princess Zia suddenly entered the room. 'How did i end up in my room? I was going for dinner after my nap, but i woke up in my bed there now?' She questioned everyone. I shifted uncomfortably in my seat. 'Uhh, your highness? It was me, you fell asleep and nearly fell over so i put you to your room' i awkwardly replied. She nodded quickly and sat down beside Moon and Wolf. Moon got up and sighed. 'Its quite late, you should all go to bed, now' She announced, i nearly hugged her i was so happy. But too tired to do so, Maria grabbed my hand and dragged me of to the corridor that had both of our rooms in it. I bid her goodnight and was asleep before i hit the mattress.

I walked through the castle. In this dream, i was an adult. The princess was becoming the queen, when i looked at a calendar, it was December 7th, 2036. It freaked me out knowing that i was 24 years into the future. Then i realized that i was 38 in dream world, which somehow freaked me out even more. I saw Mitchell, but the stranger part was, i didn't feel the same romantic feelings as i do out of Dream. 'Well, well, hello, savior of Blouna' Mitchell laughed and wiggled his eyebrows. He would have continued if he didn't stop to fix his weirdly long ponytail and fringe. An older Claire entered, the Princess/Queen right behind her. She quickly smoothed down her skirt while Zia ran to greet me. Her hair was shorter, around her shoulders. She flung her arms around my neck and hugged me. I knew it was weird, but i put my arms around her waist. 'Darling!!!! It's finally my Coronation!!!!' She squealed excitedly. Darling? .'Gurl, y'all are both gonna be queens now, like Deirdre is the queen of Vagualat and now we have Rosa as queen of Blouna' A woman entered the room. Ria. I recognized her from the last dream. 'Hey, Dre, i need to have a few words with you' She smiled, i nodded, trusting her. She grabbed my hand and pulled me into another room. She took a deep breath. 'We have a huge problem….its Séan…hes back'. The dream ended there.

I hate mornings. Especially this morning. Valerie had shaken me awake as we were under attack by some dude called Chrumbdee pronounced as Crumb-dee. I grabbed my spear and jumped out a window, making a grand entrance that got everyones attention. 'Yes, yes, i know, i make such amazing entrances' i grinned as i dived into the lake which i forgot existed. I got out, drenched and quickly dried myself with a flying flamethrower. Well, it was passed in circles around me by warriors, specifically Rose and Raven, while for some bizarre reason it was on fire. A girl with short black hair went flying past, a dagger in hand, She kicked a guy in the head and proceeded to decapitate him. Moon straight up danced on the roof while avoiding flaming arrows. Leslie from lunch popped outta the lake and bit one of the female attackers ankles before sinking back under the water. Rei also from lunch kicked a dude in the shins and ripped anothers head right of. I grabbed a sword and slashed a poor girl from the enemy team in half, i stabbed another in the throat with my spear and with the body stuck to it, i spun it around, hitting everyone in reach. It was disgusting, but it worked, to scatter and scare the enemies. Their guts spewed out from were their torso had disconnected from their body. I held back the urge to vomit, but failed and accidentally puked on an enemy. Heh, awkward- '…dude…' They stared, vomit pouring down their face. 'sorry' i winced awkwardly. Okay, okay, so i don't have time to explain the whole fight but anyways, us, team awesome, obviously won. Our awesomeness beat theirs by bazillion.

The infirmary was weirdly empty, weird because we just got attacked, duh. Sorry, that was rude … but you get my point. I'd sprained my ankle by being kicked really hard… Okay thats a lie, i was dancing and tripped….after, the fight. Maria and Mitch visited a few minutes ago, but left pretty quickly. I was actually feeling really left out now, since we came here they've stopped hanging out with me. I stood up and hopped out. The princess ran to help me from a meeting with a neighboring kingdom. 'Are you alright?!? In that state you should lie down and rest!' She asked worriedly. I nodded an okay at her, but she wasn't convinced. 'Deirdre, c'mon' She grabbed my hand and lead me away.

Gods, she was really pretty, even when she scolded me for trying to walk with a sprained ankle. 'Do you want to hang out today later on? More specifically, half three?' She mumbled awkwardly, I nodded and smiled. She let out a deep breath and helped me stand. 'Y'know what? I'm just going to carry you' She picked me up and i suddenly imagined our wedding, which i threw aside because the hope of that being reality was too much. Zia kept glancing at my ankle in worry, i was only worried because a pretty lady was carrying me like it was our wedding and i was scared i'd embarrass myself. Sadly, we arrived at my room quickly. She sat me down on my bed and bid me goodbye for now. 'Alright, bye!' I smiled (hopefully) Charmingly. Lydia came in within a few hours. 'hi….hows the ankle?' She asked awkwardly. 'Its decreased in pain' I shrugged. Lydia ended up staying for a good few hours more and we became friends in less then one. Soon the sun was setting and Maria came back from her day of doing whatever. She sat down on her bed quietly, her dark skin looked like gold in the lighting. 'Uhm, hey' She muttered. I had a strange urge to slap her, but i decided against it. Something felt off about her, but i just couldn't tell what the exact problem was. Maria lay down in her bed and pulled the curtain across blocking my view. Meh, its probably just my brain misinterpreting things. AHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHA I'M SO TIRED AAAAAHAHAHAHAHA -AAHAHAHAHAAAAHHHAAHHAAHHAAAHHAHAAHAAHAAHAHAHA. I quickly got up and closed the windows, I couldn't sleep with open windows. Then i remembered the hair ties on my wrist, i quickly pulled them of and glanced at the deep, red marks that the ties had left. I tripped back into my bed, when a sickening crack echoed the room. Then it all went black.

My arms were tied. I was gagged and tied up. A feminine figure paced infront of me dressed in all black with a hood covering their face. Their eyes and mouth were covered with a veil of some sort, kind of a one way thing. I'm confused. They were refusing to speak to stop me recognizing them, another had told me that earlier, i probably didn't know the other one so they didn't need to hide. I stared around the room, waiting for food….-Or saviors, dunno which. I'm flipping bored. A crash echoed in the room, i passed out. Again.

Whats it this time!!?!?!?? Why do people keep kidnapping me?!?. Oh, I'm back with Moon. When did that happen?!?!?. Mitchell, Maria and Lydia ran to see if i was okay, but something was up with Maria. 'Mitchell, shes fine, lets go' Her voice was firm. But Mitchell wasn't about to just leave because she wanted to. 'Yeah, i'm gonna stay for a while, okay?' Maria was reluctant, but left anyway. Almost instantly, Mitchell turned and sprinted to right beside my head. 'Maria is a traitor, its too obvious, last night i heard her talking about how she was going to kidnap you, then when you were in the infirmary for the first time, she put a special poison in your Fanta, that would kick in 5 hours later!!!' He threw himself on to the bed and sobbed. If I'm entirely honestly, it wasn't a surprise. Lydia hugged me from the side. 'I'm so, so, sorry i didn't notice earlier' She cried into my neck. Mitchell pulled himself together, 'Dre, don't confront her yet, we need to know more'. I agreed silently. Now it was just me and Lydia, when i tried to stand up, i realized that my ankle was healed. Gods, was it really that long ago? Lydia looked up at me, suddenly my heart started pounding. Instinctively, i put her hair behind her ear, was she this pretty all the time, or was it just now? Our faces were so close, that are noses were touching. I glanced at her lips….and we both pulled away awkwardly. 'ummmmm- DOYOUWANTTOGO -ONADATEWITHME' I yelled. Lydia looked surprised, but her "yes" was a kiss on the cheek and a smirk. As she walked away, i couldn't help but stare at her butt. It had a nice shape. Okay, thats enough getting high on injuries for me. I lay back in my bed, thinking about the weeks events, from Varian to Lydia…….. Light suddenly shone through the door. Surprisingly, Mr. Escalante was standing there, an uncomfortable look of dread on his face. I flung myself of my bed and scrambled to my feet. Before realizing i was wearing something that was not good for fighting or even defense. 'Deirdre, i know this is weird, but' He transformed from a weird old-y to …. CALE ESCAlINTE!?!?!? Cale was this hot korean singer who i had a huge crush on, oh lord, please kill me now. I decided to focus on the similarity of the last name, 1 letter difference, am i really that dumb? And the has the same first name. Gods, I'm so stupid!!!. 'Its….its…….. AWESOME!!!!!' I squealed. I just couldn't help myself, but then i realized that he must be here for a reason. 'Deirdre…..I'm your father…I know its really, really strange, but its true'. ….I HAD A CRUSH ON MY DAD?!?!? EWWWW!!!!!!! Then i remembered that since it was just a celebrity crush, it wasn't proper, so it wasn't that bad. 'Alright, but you need to explain'.

'Thats so cool!!!!' I stared in excitement at my dad. It was fun, you know, finding out that my dad was a celebrity was, i don't know how i feel, if I'm honest. 'Wait…what was your opinion on me when i was your teacher' He asked suspiciously. I felt my face turning pink. 'Uhm…honestly, i thought you looked like an over grown baby….but i thought you were intelligent, i guess' i face planked the table between us. 'Well, princess, i have to get going, i'll be back tomorrow' he hugged me and evaporated in a cloud of light blue smoke. Aww, i wanted to know more, eh, i have a crush and a traitor to deal with. So i decided to go straight to sleep. Worst decision ever. The nightmare started of in a cute little apartment in korea, i think its korea anyway. The figure from my kidnapping was looking through a pink file, When her hood fell down and she took of her mask. Maria was the one behind my kidnapping? Makes sense, honestly, she was the only person in the room when it happened, and before all that, she didn't want us going to moon with the video. It all made sense, too much sense for her to actually be a traitor. Suddenly a cloud of blue smoke appeared and someone moved through it, but Maria ran right at it and disappeared just as my dad emerged from the smoke. A sudden shock of cold went down my spine, Mitchell, I'm guessing, thought it would be funny to pour freezing cold water on me while i was asleep. I sat up in my bed and happily smacked him. He hugged me, some how confusing me even more. 'DEIRDRE!!!' He fake sobbed onto my shoulder dramatically. 'M'okay, since your awake and healed, lets go eat' he grinned. I agreed, but only on the condition that we sat with Lydia. He said yeah, because they had nicely bonded over visiting me at the same times. 'Also, we have a meeting with Moon and three surprise guests' he explained as i got changed. 'Why exactly?' 'Why not' 'but why' 'I don't know' 'Ugh, go away' 'no, we're getting breakfast together' 'ugh fine'. Our argument ended there. On the way to breakfast, i kept thinking about everything last night, from Lydia to dad. Things were getting weirder the longer i lived here. But the door to food came into view pretty quickly. 'Race you there!' 'your on!'

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