#its like being a kid again for a bit

[askblueandviolet]

hey ever considered if. MAYBE the mayor likes you. that’s why they stick around????💀

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#lego monkie kid #lego monkie kid fanart #monkie kid #monkie kid fanart #lmk #lmk fanart #monkie kid macaque #lmk macaque #blue and violet #he is not very convinced in believing the Mayor likes him #because... how could they? #its really weird betweent these two righy now #but Macaque probably believes that Mayor's personality is so out of wack that they could be emotionally vulnerable and passive one moment #psychotic angry sobbing mess in the next #Macaque is not taking any chances in believing he is on the Mayor's good side again #but again - its complicated #really really really complicated #so complicated that I don't know if I am writing this relationship correctly and depicting things the way they should be depicted #but don't think Macaque doesn't remembered those prison moments #he knows the Mayor wanted something 'better' between the two #but can Macaque really afford to believe that when its literally the Mayor who says that? #regardless - being on better terms with someone doesn't actually mean you have to like them #it is simply: getting along a little bit better #BUT THEN AGAIN THE MAYOR SAID THAT BEFORE LBD DIED SO THIS IS EVEN MORE COMPLICATED

[socksandbuttons]

oh i read this fanfiction!

#and the sequel where she has toast #no longer u can find this fic but i remember it #anyway her parents arent terrible. her mom actually admits giving her kids what they want #cause SHE didnt get anything when she was younger. which is... super nice of her #kukis dad is just a bit of a perfectionist but not the worst. #how they ground mushi tho for like what was it again??? a long time??? mushis evil tho so technically not her parents fault #i havent watched it i just got vivid memory of that one fic and how terrible inaccurate it was #also sonia died in that???? im mad about that still #but the sequel..... LORD THE SEQUEL #never over the joke about toast and numbuh 2 #knd talk #absolutely no called for a knd post but i just #TOXIC OPTIMISMMMM I CANNOTTTT #that is such title im like???? 'so u didnt watch the show' #kuki being optimistic and carefree and (pretending) to be a little airheaded #that girl is feirce AND smart when she needs to be and tries to be fun #its not until mushi basically betrays her that she goes 'hmn.... wait a minute' #ALSO ALSO MUSHI WAS ALREADY FAKING BEFORE THE DINNER EPISODES #WE KNOW THIS. IN OP I THINKE IT WAS OP SPACE #THE ONE WITH THEM TRYING TO SAVE SOME PILOTS AND CREE WAS ON BOARD #yeyeyeyey mushi was already geared up to be dasterdly #anyway ANYWAY enough of knd rambling

[good-beanswrites]

And here's one with Weak for Fuuta and Amane, for anon! I've recently been going crazy over some ideas from posts about Fuuta and food and he and Amane's relationship, and they came together perfectly with the prompt -- thank you for the request 👀👀👀

“Can you be quiet for one minute?” 

Fuuta spun around from where he’d been complaining loudly about the food, with his mouth full of it, to find Amane glaring from beside him.

“I’ll do whatever the hell I want,” he said through bites. He paused to swallow, though. And take a sip of his drink. And then forgot was he was talking about anyway.

Amane returned to mouthing a blessing over her food. The annoyance in her expression melted away to serenity as she brought her hands together. Fuuta watched as she drew herself up. Then she ate calmly. He could have crumbled in shame, right then, at the thought of this tiny kid holding up better than himself. 

She, too, had experienced the punishments that came with their verdict. Restraints pulled so tight it’s hard to breathe. Long nights of maddening voices and watchful eyes. The smaller meal portions leading to shaky limbs. Fuuta spent every meal inhaling as much as he could as soon as he could -- and here Amane sat as if she had a perfectly content stomach. Through everything, she maintained her strong gaze and commanding voice.

Fuuta reminded himself she did have a few advantages over him. She still had all her eyes and ribs intact, for one. It was difficult to give someone a convincing stinkeye with only one eye.

While he continued shoveling down his meal, he noticed her separating things on her plate. The meat in the corner went completely untouched. 

The aforementioned treatment had made him irritable -- more irritable than usual, that is -- and he jabbed his utensils at her. “Hey, we talked about this. Eat your fucking meat. I’ve been eating my vegetables, yeah?” Not that he wanted to. He would have eaten just about anything they put in front of him if it kept the gnawing hunger at bay.

“It’s against my beliefs,” she said simply. 

“I thought suicide was, too.”

She raised her chin. “I’ve known plenty who have fasted and become stronger for it. This is nothing drastic.”

Fuuta grit his teeth. He’d witnessed his fair share of internet-goers who acted cruel about another’s religion. He wasn’t about to join them in being some piece of shit who forced her to do something that was against her code. But there was no way he was going to sit around and watch her starve herself, either.

He couldn’t blame Amane for how harshly she’d refused help from the others -- they coddled her, encouraging her with sweet talk, or tried an insufferable stern parental tone. Fuuta wasn’t cut out for any of those methods, anyway. What he did know how to do, however, was make threats. 

Even if Amane didn’t fear death, he knew there was one situation she would do absolutely anything to avoid. 

“Oi, if you get any weaker, Shidou’s gonna step in.” Her frown twitched. “He’s already harassed me and Mahiru about our meals. He saw my hand shake one time and hasn't stopped hounding me about it since. The minute he can tell you’re not eating enough, he’ll be all over you. And let me tell you, you’re not very subtle about it.” 

The final statement came out with more bite than intended. Maybe he was bitter that she was at least more subtle than him. Maybe he thought it was fucked up the way she, too, had grown visibly weaker. Maybe he was just hungry and tired of talking. He attacked another mouthful of food. 

Amane was searching her plate as if the answer could be found there. There was a long silence as she contemplated. Fuuta had thought he’d won until she shook her head. “No. I can’t.”

He rolled his eyes and head in an over dramatic show of exasperation. “So stubborn!”  When he was done chewing, he picked up his plate. “Fine.” He gathered up all that was left, dumping it onto hers with a flick. 

A fire ignited in her gaze. She shoved the dish away. “I’m not some weak child to be pitied.”

“Wha–? It’s not pity!”

“You think I’m weak.”

“I think you’re hungry!”

“You don’t know anything!”

Mikoto passed by, chuckling as they raised their voices. “Look at you two hotheaded kids. Do I need to break it up?”

“Go away!” they chorused.

“Alright, sheesh…” He kept walking, leaving the pair to stew in silence. 

Fuuta didn’t have it in him to fight today. He was tired. He ached all over. If she wasn’t going to appreciate his help, so be it. He was starting to get used to his good intentions being taken the wrong way. It looked like he was just the weak one, after all. He grabbed his empty plate and stood to leave.

“Fuuta.” Amane took a deep breath. “I am hungry.” She gestured for him to come back. Then she moved the meat from her plate onto his.

He eyed the offering, hoping his expression didn’t betray how desperately he wanted to scoff it down. “I’m not some asshole who’s gonna take your food.”

“You’re not taking it. I’m giving it. I would have thrown it out otherwise.” Amane picked up some of the vegetables. “In return, I will eat this. We both must stay strong for the ordeals ahead.”

After a moment of hesitation, Fuuta sat back down. He took a bite. Neither said a proper thank you. Neither needed one.

He glanced to Amane with a smirk. “Good. This way, we’ll both keep that geezer Shidou away.”

It was only for a moment, but for the first time since the second trial began, Fuuta could have sworn her lips slipped into a small smile. 

#milgram #fuuta kajiyama #amane momose #oh yeah it also references that minigram/timeline about her not eating meat and him not finishing his vegetables #the fuuta/food one was from a bit ago but its been in my head again after his timeline convo making sure haruka was eating #thank you for the request ahh this was so much fun :D #ive had so many amane thoughts with purge march coming up - and its always a good day to get emotional over fuuta dsfdsfds #i always thought their timelines were really interesting with how calm she is and how completely wracked with anxiety he is #i think hed be pretty aware and ashamed of that #rip mikoto but i needed to show that they find kinship in being treated younger than they want because of their age+attitude 😂 #i picture a very sibling relationship for them #you dont really coddle your younger siblings the same you would with other kids #so they have a lot of respect and also frustration towards each other... #i actually think fuuta has a lot of respect for shidou too but can lean into his annoyance for amanes sake #ahh ty and i hope you enjoyed! #like i said this one was a lot of fun to write omg #drabbles

[cookie-dough-writes]

They should make a support group for kids who had too much unrestricted internet access as a kid because it is just so complex. I also do not want to bring up pony.MOV in an expensive therapy session.

#been watching rainbow dash presents and MAS and listening to some old pony songs #i heard 5 seconds of love me cheerlie and i suddenly remembered what being a kid was like #its kind of sad how much my childhood was full of online stuff that i couldnt even process but then again my brain was fried with grief #at the time #good god though #but!! on a lighter note i loved and still love rainbow dash presents #i didnt even realise it was based on fanfics until i was halfway through it as a kid #i was a bit dense #but i was 8 #but their Rainbow is... very me i love her #pinkie also #i realised thats why Gay Bar is so familiar to me because pinkie sings a snippet in it in episode 2 #anyway #YEAH 2012 was a great year for me but i was so weird #cookie rambles #mlp #my little pony #sonic #sonic videos were very this #nostalgia

[nonuggetshere]

GOD I HAD AN IDEA AS I WAS FALLING ASLEEP TODAY

About FaaF naturally

A sad one, TW fir near child death and harm

Involves Xero's attempt at an assassination, or it could be literally just any guard controlled by the Radiance

PK and WL need to talk about something private, and WL looks at the tiny vessel tagging along by her wyrm's side

"Should it be here?"

"It wouldn't understand anything anyway."

"Still, it's...a little..."

He sighs lightly, "Yeah, I get where you're coming from... Vessel, come here."

He kneels down and orders them to sit by the door and wait for them while they talk, says he'll come pick them up once they're done and not to move, then the two go to talk on the balcony and close the door behind them

At some point, Xero/the guard bursts in and attacks PK in the middle of the conversation, managing to take them by surprise and so gets one good swing in before PK darts away and retaliates, pinning them down with soul blades, though he has to keep his wife from killing them on the spot - he doesn't want to be so hasty, knowing they're infected and not themself. He pulls out the sword from his chest and that's when they realise, it's covered in void...

Child harm/near death TW beyond this point

After a moment of shock White Lady, who's closest to the doors, runs out and all her husband can hear is a horrified, heartbroken scream. He feels nauseous, his stomach twisting into knots and feeling like his heart is in his throat as he runs out after her. He sees her in tears, cradling a tiny bundle soaked in void. There's- there's so much void. It covers the floor where he left their child vessel and soaks through his lady's shawl and clothes as she cradles them in her arms.

For a moment he's paralysed, before he just snaps. He flies back onto the balcony, screaming at the possessed guard that he'll kill her, he'll make her pay for this, and he slays them in his rage (something he'll regret and feel ashamed of later), still hitting and screaming at Her well after the possessed person is dead and she can't hear him anymore.

He collapses, panting, near tears, and just gets himself up and stumbles out the door and towards the two, he wants to see how bad it is for himself.

Flower survives, but just barely. They had multiple stab wounds and lost their left arm, if not for their parents immediately healing them they'd be dead. They're barely older than 5, still so very little and defenceless, PK is horrified at how could anyone hurt a baby this young and helpless (hypocrite), even if they're not alive.

They're still on bed rest because that was so much damage and their mother doesn't leave their side and their father only leaves when necessary. They still don't realise Flower's alive and they know they shouldn't be so attached but it still feels like their baby and they can't just leave them. WL spends the entire day by their side, gently stroking their hair and horns with her now permanently void stained hands and softly coos and sings to them

Of course, they quickly realise they ARE alive because no way in hell a toddler is getting this hurt and NOT crying and screaming the second they wake up <3

Which just makes this situation so much worse

#thylacines can talk #faaf au #mentions of child harm and near death in tags too btw #so dont read further if its something youre sensitive to or cant handle rn #i like to write him as more sympathetic in faaf but i cant state enough what a gigantic hypocrite he is #pk: How can you hurt a child?! they're FIVE! #child harm cw #radi: ...dude. #dont make your kid a child soldier but also you cant 'all fair's in war' your way out of stabbing a toddler radi #unrelated tangent but they both suck and god i need to focus some more on FaaF Radi. Ik this AU at times feels like sympathetic PK and evil #villain Radi AU but it's really not. They're both morally grey and while Radi is a bit more. questionable and less sympathetic imo. doesnt #mean shes completely evil. they're both meant to be morally grey and both did equally horrible irredeemable shit that they come to regret #and wish to fix. ik it doesnt come off this way at times because i have my things i prefer to write at times and this AU was always a #relationship dynamic exploration between Flower and all different characters. but neither PK nor WL are by no means forgiven. Most of their #kids range from ''i literally dont care about you you are not my parents dont contact me again'' to ''i hate your guts'' #with sometimes an added flavour of ''And I WILL murder your ass if I see you again'' for some of them #(Razor my beutiful wife with unchecked anger issues <3) #sorry if the tags are incomprehensible it is 5 am and i instantly forget anything i write the second i cant read it fully #once i finish writing a tag and it collapses the contents of it instantly leave my short term memory. im not being dramatic btw the amount #of times i have to back out from editing tags to read them back bc i forgot what i wrote is annoying

[minamotoz]

the boy meets world writers creating the most heartbreaking narrative about growing up queer and closeted in 90's you've ever seen (it is entirely through subtext and poorly aged, sorta problematic jokes)

#boy meets world #im sorry im in my shory brainrot era again #i know i literally Never post abt BMW but i cannot stop thinking about this genuinely #i rewatched 4x12 aka the gayest episode and my brain is about to Explode #'its only natural' 'sure......natural' UR JOKING??????????????? #theyre so miserable bc of their own comphet yet they just. accept the fact that 'its always been this way and it'll always be this way' #they both long for normalcy and acceptance and they think that being straight is the only way to achieve that HELLO CAN ANYONE HEAR M #like. cory chasing the white picket fence nuclear family fantasy with topanga and shawn chasing what cory and topanga have #bc theyre the most stable parts of his life #and so much of corys interest in girls is entirely reliant on keeping up with shawn #he starts crushing on girls bc shawn does. he starts dating girls bc shawn does. he wants to have sex w topanga bc he thinks shawns done it #FUCKING 'i always thought topanga was the one person i could live without but shes gone and uoure here and im alive so it must be you' #ARE UOU KIDDING ME #*couldnt #im sorry im judt word vomitting i just feel. Insane #this show and this ship make me go a bit cookoo bananas

[cheemken]

Another thing about Drayton that I've latched onto is his line about how 'you don't want to see me ugly cry' when you battle him. It makes me wonder how he'd cry exactly.

I'm torn between two types. One is that he's the sort to get really quiet when he cries. Just suppressing it full force, shoulders shaking and tears just sliding down his face. In private too cause it's not cool to be caught like that, and maybe he'd grab a pillow or something to muffle sobs but after like 5-10 mins, it's like a switch flipped. He calms down, washes his face and proceeds with his day normally. Sidesteps any and all questions about why his eyes look red rimmed and puffy.

Another is that he is an ugly crier. Just full on sobbing, snot and tears going down his face. Trying to wipe away but it just keeps coming. Kinda lashing out at people who try to get close or comfort him. He hates feeling this way, hates having others see him like this but it's just too much to pretend that he's fine right now. When he's calmed down, just rough scrubs to his face and then quick exit, ignoring people calling out to him.

Now what would make him cry like that is the big question haha

Oh bet he represses everything, and I mean every single thing lmfaoo

But I also imagine him being a mix of both in a way, like, he doesn't show it to anyone else ofc, he would never ever cry in public, that's so uncool in his words, but once he's alone it just,, it's a gradual thing, it builds up y'know, it's like the feeling of anxiety, where your chest feels tight and your throat feels dry and you can feel every nerve in your body almost pulsing just beneath your skin, and suddenly every little problem starts to pile up on him, until it reaches its peak and he just,,, tears up, tries to stop them, trying so hard, so hard he's trying so hard why can't they see that I'm trying and until he starts to really ugly cry, like, his chest hurts y'know, broken sobs echo within the room as he tries so hard to calm himself down, until his pokemon come out to try and calm him, until he lashes out on them, until he falls to his knees, falls to the floor, his Dragonite nuzzling close to him, hoping it's enough comfort without really hugging him, without having to risk him panicking again from being held too tight

And they wait for him y'know, wait till he's the one reaching out for them, wait till he's the one clinging to his pokemon, holding them tight, closer, impossibly closer, at least they won't leave him

Ofc, his process is still slow, after his tears were shed, he'd just,,, sit there or lie down and look up at the ceiling, letting the last remnants of his tears to fall before he takes a deep breath, let's it out, and sits upright again, chuckling to himself, saying shit like "well, that was something, huh?" And after he makes sure he looks presentable, he goes on his day as if he didn't just cry for almost thirty minutes

Low-key tho but other than being compared to his fam, I think his academic record would kinda haunt him, cause like yeah, he knows he's a strong trainer, he has no doubts with that, but he knows he's struggling w class and while he's so chill abt it, repeating his school year kinda messed with him a bit. Maybe that, and maybe the whispers abt him too ofc, how he knows other people doubt if he really wants to be a Dragon Master like Drayden and Iris, he is from a family of Dragon Masters, so why isn't he making more of an effort to become one? Idk but yeah hahaha

#speaking of i was supposed to post smth last night abt dray and iris too but i got so tired i forgot cbndnd #now i really forgot what its supposed to be lmfao #but damn tho w his cool kid persona he really gives off dave vibes hahah #idk its just that i know despite how he is he cares a bit too much but never ever shows it #bc emotions will only hurt you more yknow so he keeps it all in #idk i think that while hes good at hiding his emotions hes so shit at handling them #like w kieran he knows itd mess w kieran if he gets beaten again by the player #and how kieran doesnt like being called ex champ anymore as hes apologizing to drayton #but idk i think hed be the type to hold grudges bc yeah hes shit at handling emotions #he means well yknow its all fun and games for him #but sometimes payback is payback. and for him payback is fair #pokemon hcs #an ask and an answer #anon

[13eyond13]

officially more than halfway through the manga volumes now, I think? Starting vol 25 today

#and ngl i find most of the new characters a bit annoying #especially the loudmouth kid character like idk just feels a bit too childish for this manga #thats clearly full of so much dark not for kids shit #all i actually care about is the 3 main characters we were with from the start but #if they dont let casca actually be a real character again im gonna get upset as well #its too hard on the head watching her the way shes been for the last like 12 volumes or wtv #like at this point i feel its true shes just being used to tie griffith and guts together in hatred instead of anything else #hasnt been allowed to have any agency or even thoughts or dialogue for so long now #mostly just became like a sexy tragic prop of a person that they all have to protect #13readsmanga #berserk #berserk spoilers #p

[chickenoptyrx]

Don’t know if you’ve heard about this new dbs arc and I just wanted to know your thoughts on it? Also, what do you think about the Trunks x Mai pairing?

I saw, yeah. I'm personally p ambivalent about it- I hope its good but I'll just keep my expectations low :T

And yeah I really hope they drop the whole Mai thing now. 1. It's weird but 2. Supers version of Mai is boring, so we get all the creep factor but none of the weird fun personality- so like what's even the point? Guess I'm glad F trunks gets to be (sorta) happy tho

But 'apocalyptic hellscape lady w a shotgun' should not be this hard to sell to me (눈_눈)

#no offense if you like mai #i get it. i wish i could #ask #ugh ok but as an extra bit #maybe im misremembering but mai in DB was like evil but also ridiculously.. shy(??) #thats not the word but like the whole pilaf gang thought blowing a kiss at bulma was like the ultimate embarrassing thing they could do #to the point of it bein like their idea if torture #when did mai suddenly have this overt interest in dudes to the point of talking like some pervy older lady #like what bulma says she sounds like #i mean i guess im glad they atleast had her interest stay almost exclusively on the adult version of trunks #but yknow then they hadta make it weird again by havin her actively decide she can just wait on this kid to grow up #uugghhh #like. they make her creepier than i remember her ever being #and it feels like tgey do this w no self awareness #like theres no joke and its not presented like an absurd thing its more presented like maybe theres hope for trunks and his misguided crush #annnnddddd i hate it #that creepy #they managed to make a former villian worse by tryin to shoehorn her into a spot onbthe heros side #lol i care so little about the new super stuff that most of this ask is me whining about a cartoon ship i dont care for

[bonestrouslingbones]

btw big shoutout to that woodworking class i took in my final semester of high school for allowing me to 1. not constantly sound like i'm talking entirely out of my ass and 2. hide some very niche secrets because of the like 2 full months of paperwork & osha training before i got to actually build anything

#dont click see all on the tags i accidentally went insane over woodworking Its Not Worth it #god that class was such a mess. it took so long bc we couldn't all go to the shop unless everybody passed the safety test #and. well i'm pretty sure only i and like 3 other kids actually wanted to be there . im still a bit angry about it yeah #i wanted to build a table for my mom for mother's day and didn't finish it til JUNE and then it fell APAAARRTTTTTTTT!!!!! but its FINE #I WAS GRADUATING LIKE A WEEK AFTER BUILDING THAT TABLE BUT ITS ///FINEEEEEE//// #THE actual knowledge that i still retained from it is really funny tho tbh #the only thing you can call a guard on a bandsaw is the lil 2" radius circle printed around where the blade goes through the table #if you put your fingers inside of that circle they will be Swiftly Removed #i am more comfortable with that fucking thing than a hand drill #however drill presses are fine. kinda fun actually #walnut smells really good when it's being ripped but the dust gets fucking everywhere somehow even more than white oak #that was my last class of the day that semester and i would constantly go home with my black clothes having turned brown #and i'll say. most fulfilling class i've ever taken to be completely honest #ik i am not attending a trade school but WHYYYYYY DOESNT MY UNIVERSITY OFFER WOODWORKING AAAAGGG #WHAT IF I DROP OUT TO BECOME ONE OF THOSE YOUTUBER GUYS THAT MAKES TABLES THAT ALL LOOK THE SAME HUH. WAHT THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!! #WHAT IF I WANT TO MAKE 32 TABLETOPS OUT OF MINIMALLY TRIMMED SLABS AND EPOXY THAT ALL SOMEHOW LOOK BORING. WHAT IF I MAKE BANK ON THAT #ITS! BETTER!! THAN ALL THESE ESSAYS!!!!!!!!! #ahegm sorry folks. what i meant to say is that whenever ebony looks like he's creaming himself over furniture that's me talking through him #all that being said if i ever have to look at autocad ever again i will start huffing the polyurethane

[ya-gurl-emily]

order 86 Ratchet online to complete my tfp autobot cast*

shows up 2 weeks later, defective copy

have to mail it back (need a new box cause i don't have the actual one) wait for that to go through, then order him again from bbts at higher price

have to wait another month cause they hate shipping to ireland

#online shopping causes me nothing but pain #dude why can't there be better nerd shops near me #Dublin has a bunch but my spot has like 1 comic shop thats been selling bbm soundwave for like 2 years #gamestop sold TFs for a bit. but then they died so like. shit #Smyths usually has new stuff but they just skip out on half of studio series for some reason #probably cause transformers sell like shit #that section gets smaller every single day. it grew again when the movie came out but now its back to being tiny. #even then 80% of it is just shelfwarming movie toys. no wonder the mainline focuses on adults now. kids dont care about the brand anymore #also *“erm achtually i don't have Cliffjumper ” fuck you #That dude's on screen for 2 minutes and then he dies. I'll be fine without him #>coping because the only way to get him is a 110 euro 4 pack with 3 other dudes idc about #I'm not doing that. im already mad i have to buy tfp breakdown in a 2 pack. and thats including a 2nd guy i also think is neat #im mad he's a bulkhead repaint but thats a rant for another day #anyway uuhhh didn't expect to type this long. stay in school don't do drugs ok bye bye

[digirainebow]

i didn't think jacob would be arguing with olivia, wanting it almost as much as her. what the hell. i expected the self defeated, taking one for the team attitude but actively needing it like her? when he had been trying to stop her all night? i feel like i've been blasted by a buckshot

#digi discusses #the world needs more jacobs and i just took him out of it #did he go back to being a kid again? to see the lights of possibility again? #to feel like he's doing something exciting and worthwhile again not by making art but by being “freed” by maggie's knowledge once more? #or did he. choose another timeline entirely? augh i'm gonna have to watch the ending back again...where did he go... #maggie would be turning in her graaaaaave to know he chose this. she would hate that for him she would h a t e it #the anna parallels. stuck between time only able to hear him on radios if you are lucky. fuck off #becoming an urban legend...i think he would have liked that. immortalized just like he wanted. ugh wait did riley do that for him #but the details getting lost his name becoming warped over time? i think riley (and i) would feel it was almost disrespectful to his memory #the fact he puts meeting riley on the same pedestal as saving camena. god god god god. even when they aren't friends they are. #riley talking to athena like a person like he did. i am MISERABLE #its the dys exocolonist thing all over again. he's happy and that's...good. but he could have been just as happy if he'd stayed too #every single time i think about the hug i'm going to cry #every single ending has done this to me there is literally no winning #being kinda mean to him was bad enough but this ending just feels! it feels like riley. like i. drove him to. #girl i need to log off bye #oxenfree II spoilers #yeah there's the essay. just took a minute #i will make another one about hurt healed olivia in a bit too because that. made me sob. that one hit really...close to home #he says when he was a teenager he would have fallen for it if someone told him he could open a portal in the sky and make things better #what a liar he would still do it now #EDIT: NO i knew it he says almost exactly what nona says after you hug her when you hug him. the orange-associated characters strike again

[fourteenthz]

Btw I finished everything from 6.5 finally and my take is

#this might be my favorite patch btw i just wanted to talk abt lyna for a bit bc I ADORE HER and it makes me happie that she was there #I REALLY LIKE MSQ I adore the parallels with ffiv and as SOON as i saw zero staring back at her reflection I WAS LIKE #SO SHE IS GOING TO BE CECIL #LIKE IN MOUNT ORDEALS !!! YEAH !!! so i was the entity of msq going “shes going to transform into a paladin AAANY minute now” #SHE DID !! and that is my fav trial from these last patches btw I adore rubicant but yeah 🫡 zeromus won 🫡 #it was just. so cool. i adore the mechanics so much and it felt right the moment and everything #it isn't my fav moment in the msq now but it's a satisfying one and they really brought some shb moments to remins us of the good stuff^tm #but with so many good raids going one the msq seems A BIT lackey but just bc the raid series are WAY TOO GOOD #something something i almost had an anxiety attack when the twelve were leaving TRULY i was destroyed #but them deryk did THAT FACE ^TM and I was BAWLING MY EYES #this guy means so much to me. insane. so much ao i genuinely changed my girl's patron deity and its him now CANNONICALY #his is by far my favorite fight from the twelve. it wasn't hard per see but i was dying with laughter how i was being thrown from one side #to another. I'm not even kidding me and still STILL it's a fave. I'm going to play that again now excuse me #but yeah it was so good. i really really like this alliance raid series so much deryk is so dear to me the way the dialogue went #with him talking abt the twelve like his ancient friends i cried so hard 👍 that ending ruined me so bad u guys 👍 #yeah the msq was good but they are popping OFF with the raid series #maybe myths isnt my fave just bc pandae is right there and I swear nothing tops that for me but MAN.... HEAD IN HANDS. #i love them. I love what the devs are doing with expressions lately and i love the amout of times the wol is smiling #just... something something it seems fitting for what they want for the next expansion #yeah I'm insane abt the fact we will not have mom and evil dad anymore and the ancients and i get panicked thinking the twelve arent there #anymore and OF COURSE I miss drama a lot but it does seem somewhat fitting. the way that doing all that it still #straights the scion's relationship more and how we will keep the group together despite everything changing #idk idk i hate change and i adore what we had in the prev expansion to no and and yeah i feel like it isn't perfect like before NOW but its #like. still so good and so true to what ffxiv likes to preach and etc etc. i don't expect an shb or ew exp for 7.0 but still. EXCITING. #this rambling came out of NOWHERE BUT YEAH Anyway if u excuse me now. shb new game+ play time #kelly says #6.5 spoilers #edit: there are SOOOO many errors in these tags. sorry i got to excited. i just saw fray and had to close tumblr immediately to talk to him.

[caffeinatedopossum]

I feel like I have an unacceptably low level of control over my body. Like obviously there are some things that no one can control but I have like actual big problems because of it. I'm not really sure how to describe it but it's not just me being really clumsy (although that is an effect of it) or even the tics I have.

It's like I can feel my body moving wrong constantly but I can't correct it and it hurts and it sucks and I'm tired. I'm tired of hurting myself, making mistakes, breaking things, acting like it's fine when in reality I'm constantly afraid of how much any movement I make next could hurt me. I need to move to stay sane, I want to workout and get stronger and go on walks with my friends. I wanna get better. I can't even roll over in bed without pain and I'm just so tired.

#opossums chronic illness rants #seriously though this sucks so much and idk if theres anything i can do about it but i wanna try #its probably a combination of a lot of different things #like muscle weakness and instability from ehlers danlos syndrome both making each other worse #along with the poor proprioception from autism the dizzyness and weakness from the dysautonomia #the fact that i cant really see and even possibly inner ear damage (thats a new one that ive been suspecting more and more recently) #im not sure if the ear damage would be just from built up ear wax or maybe or something else #but im really not having a good time because it brings back bad memories #when i was a kid (8 i think) my mom was convinced i had compacted ear wax but given that she refused to ever #take me to doctors she decided she had to fix it herself #which led to a lot of excruciating trials where she stuck wires and que tips stripped of their cotton into my ears #and tried to scrape out whatever she could. even though i wanted her to stop because it hurt so bad i would start crying everytime #im also mildly suspicious that might be what damaged my ears in the first place... but i really have no way to know that at the moment #all i know is i dont want anyone looking in or putting things in my ears ever again #it doesnt even matter how much i trust them because now anything put in my ears hurt #like even when im just regularly cleaning them with que tips it hurts and im reminded that might not be normal #idk if you read these tags let me know if cleaning your ears is supposed to hurt i guess? #im honestly not sure. like i just always assumed i wasnt being gentle enough or something but it doesnt matter what i do #its not super painful either just a little bit so i ignored it because i assumed it was normal #since a lot of 'normal' things hurt for me. which i now know to my surprise isnt normal at all but i didnt figure that out #until i actually got people to believe that these things were hurting me #apparently its very hard to find anyom #who believes that opening bag clips or trying to lift a jug of milk are actually quite painful for me #they usually just say im way overreacting and when i was a kid i just believed them i guess

[drbtinglecannon]

OTL

I know Hunter is most likely to end up living with Camila I KNOW it ended up getting the most screentime/implied time with the time skip and it's extremely healthy for him and I love Camila and I want what's best for Hunter and I know she loves him and with the show being cut there's not enough time to flesh out other dynamics, but godDAMMit this isn't the horse I backed I wanted Dadrius 😭

Anyway if we don't see the fucked up loser adults from the Boiling Isles come Jan 21st I will scream

#like. TTT made it clear camila is not only amazing (i always loved her bc she was always a good mom that tried her best gdi!) but that #she genuinely thinks of the kids like they are all hers while under her roof. shes like. even more Mom than eda who gives off such mom #energy by this point too. & like tbh darius has such single gay uncle energy & being a mentor to hunter would be full circle to his old #dynamic w the prev gg being his mentor. BUT. DADRIUS. IT WAS SO CLEVER. HE ACCIDENTALLY STARTED TO CARE #really i just wish we got the full 3 seasons bc i wanted darius backstory :( & also. idk maybe flapjack wouldve survived ;__; #but yeah like. theres a lot of camila evidence. she really did come in last minute with the steel chair while the other dumbasses (eda #darius raine too a bit) were taking too long to sort all their endless baggage haha #really its just bittersweet when popular fandom theories end up wildly far from canon in the end. toh has gone through a LOT of them too #tc posts #ignore me im mourning my fictional found family #i need to see eda darius raine eber lilith steve perry gilbert harvey again asap (id say the last 4 arent v fucked up but like. its fine)

[deus-and-the-machina]

I definitely get being torn about TOH finale bc it was amazing in many areas and the crew worked so hard to get it all together so if there was something you didn’t like about it it’s a bit of a guilty feeling and whatnot, while also understanding that they couldn’t do all they wanted and stuff. I’m mostly just glad we can come together and celebrate this amazing show.

But I do find it annoying if someone goes “well if you didnt like this thing you just don’t get the themes and purposes” like. sometimes I do get what they were going for but it wasn’t to my liking ok. It having meaning does not mean it must be liked, and also maybe it doesn’t have a meaning, maybe it was just because Disney cut it short so they needed to wrap it up early and couldn’t elaborate. It’s ok to admit that.

Most of all I’m just so glad the crew was able to get it done after being sabotaged through everything

#mostly this is about them doing nothing else with belos' backstory and caleb and evelyn #I saw someone say 'why would they be relevant it happened so long ago and they're dead' idk because its our main antagonists motivation???? #and its never been properly shown or explained??? like if you weren't an online fan digging through backgrounds you might've never known #who Evelyn or even Caleb was. tho I feel you'd probably get hes belos' brother #like im torn bc I respect the team being like ok we have one more episode we're gonna focus on our main trio and wrapping it up #but the belos fight and lack of his backstory did feel a bit sad. and we can accept that parts of the story were missing its ok! as a fandom #we can fill in the gaps Disney didnt give them time to but we also need to accept that as much as we loved this big triumphant finale it #wasnt perfect because nothing is. thats what fandom is for its for expanding on the source material to our hearts content #I was also a bit disappointed the other kids didnt really get much to do or even muchspeaking but again it was clear they wanted to focus on #luz eda king bc thats our main trio and it would be weird not to at least finish their stories #the owl house #toh spoilers