WARNINGS: cheating,, falling out of love,, mentions of deku x reader towards the end,, implied sex (nothing explicit) -- masterlist
for @okkatsudon and their somebody new collab !! here's the link to the collab masterlist and be sure to check everyone else's fics out !! im also posting two more lmaoo so get ready for angst 😭
a/n: like with any other cheating fic i write, i do not believe any of your faves would cheat on you or do anything to purposefully hurt you. todoroki would absolutely adore you and be smitten by you and he would never ever in a million years actually cheat
‘he loves me,’ you said, a whisper falling from your lips, the weightless petal you plucked drifting to rest on the blades of grass cushioning your legs below.
shoto used to tell you he loved you nearly every day. keyword: used to. now you could barely remember the last time you had heard those words from him. in fact, the most recent time he told you he loved you was probably a month ago. whether he truly did or not was still up for debate.
. . .
his arms snaked around your waist, head tucked into your neck, his body swaying to the calm beat of the music, and yours swaying as a result of his. a pan with pancakes on it was sizzling calmly in front of you two as he embraced you in total bliss. kisses trailed from below your ear to your lower neck, leaving a scorching heat behind, a testimony of his love.
the heat had started becoming uncomfortable and unbearable. you wanted to get out of his grasp as soon as possible and soothe your skin with some ice to cool it down. neck sizzling in unison with the pan.
‘i love you,’ he whispers, muffled into your neck with an air of finality, the heat dying down with his cool breath, before he unlatches his arms from you and moves away.
you finally felt as though you could breathe again.
. . .
‘he loves me not,’ another petal falls to its demise, waiting to decay and decompose, back into the soil it flourished from.
. . .
shoto and you just had another argument about him coming late. recently he had been taking on more and more shifts and had been coming home alarmingly late. you understood that being a hero was an important and taxing job, but he needed to take care of himself as well, and rest. you were only getting more and more worried, especially when bruises started popping up all over his body, purple and angry.
you pleaded with him to take a break, to take some time off and spend it with you. the home you two had worked so hard to build was becoming colder and lonelier by the day. it no longer felt like home to you.
shoto no longer felt like home to you.
his touch was seldom felt by your aching skin, and now it felt completely foreign to you; unfamiliar. the calluses on his palms were like graters on your skin causing you discomfort and the left side of his body brought you nothing but chills, the coldness seeping in from his body heat.
but he refused. instead calling you selfish and spitting insults at you. insults that still feel like bullets to your fragile heart, that left gaping holes in your chest.
he went out that day, to cool off, leaving you on the kitchen floor by yourself, your chest heaving inconsolably and tears running down your face.
he found you on the floor when he came back hours later, face puffy and swollen, tear tracks now dried. he felt his heart ache looking at you, a pang in his chest, guilt finally hitting him like a tonne of bricks.
he knelt on the floor and picked you up, kissing your forehead and gently tucking you into your shared bed. he frowned seeing you barely react to his touch and seeing the lack of life in your eyes. as he walked off to the en suite bathroom, you couldn't help but notice the fruity scent trailing behind him.
that night, when all was quiet and still, when your sobs had finally died out, again, after hugging your pillow for comfort, you could’ve sworn hearing todoroki moan someone else’s name in his sleep. someone that most certainly was not you.
. . .
‘he loves me,’ you say defeatedly. there was no point in playing silly little games.
todoroki didn’t love you anymore, and you debated whether he ever did.
there was once a time where the two of you were happy. you laughed together, messed around together, loved together. but not anymore. tears start to resurface remembering the time you two once had, when you were seemingly in love.
those days were long gone. he barely even looked at you nowadays.
. . .
‘he loves me not,’ with a barely audible sigh, the last petal leaves your grasp and joins the rest on their deathbed below. you knew this was coming, but your heart still screeched in pain.
a soft, sad smile graces your features as you get up to return to your lonely, shared apartment. he never loved you, you think to yourself. never did and never will. you were merely a habit, something he’d gotten used to having around.
. . .
todoroki came home that night incredibly late, hoping you were still asleep. with bite marks adorning his neck like proud battle wounds, wings scratched onto his back, his hair tousled as though he just fell from heaven. he let out a sigh of relief upon finding you nowhere in sight; you had probably gone to bed, tired of waiting for him.
he failed to realise how empty the house was. even after eating your leftovers, and going through the nightly routine you had helped him put into place. something felt off, but todoroki couldn't quite place his finger on it. he blamed it all on his exhaustion.
he slips into the other side of the bed, quietly, not wanting to disturb you. it wasn't until the cold sheets uncomfortably scratched his sore back, did he turn to his side, to face you, only to see nothing but a stack of pillows, replacing where you should've been.
jumping out of bed he runs to your wardrobe, only realising now how barren it was, with your side all emptied out. why didn't he notice sooner?
his phone beeps loudly and he rushes to it, hoping to see a message from you. his body turns to stone when he sees an ‘i had fun tonight xxx’ instead. he didn't bother to read the follow up messages.
. . .
you stare at the 15 missed calls and 23 messages on your phone with tears in your eyes. you heave and a sorrowful sob leaves your lips at the thought of someone you had loved with your entire being, lying to you so effortlessly.
you knew he had not been faithful to you. you knew but you refused to believe it, choosing to act as though nothing was wrong. but the hickey’s started getting darker and more prominent and todoroki had started staying out later, not even bothering to let you know he was going to be home late. you even saw the messages one day when he carelessly left his phone unlocked on the nightstand.
a figure envelopes you in a hug, his scarred hand sifting through your hair and the other rubbing your back in an attempt to comfort you. burying your face in his neck you cry even louder, snot and tears soaking his t-shirt. he only holds you tighter, not letting you go until your tears stopped and your wobbling smile resurfaced. anything for a friend, the figure thinks, his heart burning and aching for you.
after indulging in the warmth of several other bodies todoroki now realises how cold he truly feels without you next to him. nothing could compare to the feeling of you pressed up against him. no-one could compare to you.
todoroki realised he loves you, a little too late.
* this is a repost from my old blog with minor edits !! *
so i followed twitter advice and waited around the backstage exit. there were only like, a dozen of us and i thought the cast would've left long ago *checks notes* oh yeah probably makes more sense they'd wait an entire hour after show ends to leave.
so what you get is Yuzuki and Aoto passing in front of you as they went back inside the office building, like almost zero distance and only a dozen people around. they were still smiling and waving to us!
so i thought that was it and decided to check out the paid office area since i bought a ticket already. i was just looking at the collab cafe menu at its gate and they showed up RIGHT BEHIND ME??
They were going to sign the Kingohger billboard inside the cafe. It's a complete surprise to everyone. After each of them signed and photos taken, they went around the cafe area and greeted every table!! I was outside but the fence was only like a metre tall and saw the whole thing at the same distance as the staff. I almost felt like a stalker at this point i swear i'm not. (a cute coincidence is Yuzuki's assistant is wearing lavender too lol) they were so close to me i get to see the pattern on rita's coat 😭😭 hurry up and release the official photos
so when they left the cafe they still wave and chat with the kids for a short while in the lobby. Yuzuki's back was facing me so i just took all my courage and called Rita. another kid later she's finally looking at me and i shook her right hand with bracelet and said i'm from hk and rita-sama is my favourite 😭 i got an 'arigatou' 😭
you know why i say it's so surreal now 😭 it's rita but not rita's mannerism it's yuzuki but i only got to see 1/4 of her face i CANNOT process what happened. not only 1 i got FIVE (5) close encounters i'm going to heaven
i totally get why her tagline from the ldh audition is 'natural transparent pure girl' now up close 😇🙇♀️