#its so freaking messed up

[marblebagcollective]

scream and shout , trickle down and down , ill build a home at sea.

#first two links r the art in better quality and the last is the song !!! =o #i dont support d ream and neither should u hes a freak #this is cdream his fucked up and evil roleplay character #exile arc #abuse implied #bruises tw #blood tw #ctommy #c!tommy #c!dream #c!dream fanart #c!tommy fanart #c!tommy hurt #been listening to that song so often idk its just exile coded to me. ocean themed and other stuff #this art is basically just ctommy messing about . daily logsted activites . its not a home but its all hes got #while cdream stands there observing probably laughing at jokes ctommy makes or just at him #dsmp #dsmp fanart #exile cw #injury cw

[vestaldestroyer]

ok I wonder if there's someone out there who has this too

I don't get crushes or fall in love. instead, I become obsessed with people. I feel absolute loyalty and devotion to them. I'd do anything they ask without question. it's instinctive and automatic, I don't even think about it. I become their servant and follow them around like a puppy. every minimal attention from them gives me infinite joy.

this is always one sided and everyone eventually gets creeped out or annoyed and leaves. it breaks me every time. yet I can't stop it from happening. I try to hold back but it's almost impossible.

not that I would wish this on anybody, but please tell me I'm not the only one

#i finally put it into words #now lets see... who could get me #aromantic #arospec #aroace #demonkin #otherkin #angelkin #divinekin #neurodivergent #maybe? #idk. just help me please. #tell me im not a messed up freak #bpd #<- people in the notes said it could be that so lets see if someone can confirm this for me #if im actually borderline then im fucked #because if i go to a therapist and get diagnosed theres no way im getting top surgery ever #since one of the main symptoms is abruptly changing self image #im fairly sure i am trans. i have been iding as such for years and its not going away #fuck. this is turning my world upside down

[quietwingsinthesky]

if supernatural was any good, they would have had mary and lucifer sleep together in the apocalypse world. this would have solved zero problems with the show, but it would have created a hundred more interesting ones than they already had.

#they could have done this. for me. #it should have gone really well too. for mary and lucifer i mean. #because that would be 1000x worse for everyone else involved. if mary enjoyed herself and bonded with him. #doesn’t even have to be much of a bond but like. just enough that when sam and dean are there. it’s so incredibly uncomfortable. #sam like :) this is the second time my mother has slept with someone complicit in torturing me. i feel normal about this and its not #messing me up so bad im going to scream. this is fine. #dean would freak the fuck out about it though. openly and loudly. it’s *lucifer*. #which. of course. trying to tell mary that she’s not allowed to do what she’s already decided she’s doing because dean doesn’t want her to. #yeah. im sure that’ll go well. #lucifer doesn’t even have to do anything to drive a wedge between them besides sit there look pretty and eat mary out until she screams. #easiest job in the world #and most importantly: it would have been hot. literally just let someone walk in on mary pinning the devil himself to the floor. #why not give me this one thing huh

[nafohcnis]

MORE J.D i have umm a bit. this is old too. I know no more perfectionist J.D anymore... But umm what. ever... he's still working on it.

#THE SECOND PANEL IS SO FUCKED UP cuz my pen messed up so i just started going cray #he's freaking oyt.. #ths is unfortunately based on something i did #I volunteer to help decorate and i get really like. OK IS IT THAT HARD TO LINE UP THE CIELING LANTERNS WITH EACHOTHER. #and these poor girls were like “i can help! You don't have to do it by yourself!” and i was like nooo its okay!!! #because i KNEW as soon as they were done i was gonna redo everything they did... MY BAD... ITS LIKE THERES STATIC IN MY HEAD UNTIL I FIX IT #ths is a pretty old drawing too. i think i drew it sometime jan-feb?? #john dory #trolls john dory #trolls #dw trolls #dreamworks trolls #I drew this while sitting out during my gyms swim unit cuz i forgot my stuff at home #'s super messy cuz i drew ths pressing the paper to my leg #i like hue shifting these pictures a little bit

[doggirling]

treat me right, i'm still a good man's daughter

#i am always thinking of them btw. #my art #starstruck #kirby #kirby oc #sir arthur #chavra pendragon #its probably just me messing up their accurate heights but she looks so freaking small next to him #sir lancelot #sir galahad #sir nonsurat #sir dragato #forgot they were there too LOL. chavras very pissed about arthur making her actually interact and go on missions with others #nothing personal galahad. its just her disorder

[skunkes]

severe and extreme exaggeration but igts so crazy how ive been having the Energy and Drive to do lots of comms lately but when I calculate everything its like. yey i finally have the energy to do 50 comms this month ^_^!! how much will that earn me? and the answer is like. $300

#genuinely what it feels like haalp #talkys #i know its also on me for not raising prices but like. T_T i refuse to go higher on chibis....! theyre CHIBIS theyre meant to be quick and #simple for me I'm not gonna charge more for something thats not even rendered or with a background.... #like the real solution is to take less chibis and offer other more expensive comms #so its less art for more $$$ but my other comms also arent very high price... #bc i havent honed my skills there...and also i still feel nervous and ashamed of my art + skills....aroo #non chibis being Not Chibis and more expensive leaves more room for messing up and disappointment. and freaking out over potential #disappointment to the point where im nearly crying thru a comm bc of how ugly it is. augh #(also clarifying im not blaming my clients im literally the guy setting the prices) #bc i dont want anyone seeing dis and feeling bad #it is not anyones fault #wagooobnhnnnn

[maudiemoods]

Ok not cool why am I hearing voices

#i need to go to the doctor 🧍🏼‍♂️ #somethings wrong because usually they're not this clear #its weird and i dont like it #they sound like people i know and its too much right now #little vent sorry but i think im actually struggling #im so confused #aurhhg #ren won't shut up #mental illness #idk sometimes they get really clear and it freaks me out #other times it sounds like a bunch of voices talking over each other and it drives me crazy #most of the time when they're clear they just have very boring conversations #wow i didn't realize how much this was affecting me huh #most of the time its right as im trying to fall asleep. i can't tell if its just my dreams?? idk #but sometimes ill hear very loud words that are super clear #aa its scary sometimes grrr but normally it doesn't mess me up #but i heard a loved one say “help me” and now im freaking out aaaaurgggg #gonna text them because i also have paranoia really bad #tw mental illness #idk just in case i guess #im fine just a little spooked jdkxjsjxj #anyways sorry for the vent/ramble i just really needed to type it all out #might delete later idk

[marinetteplztakeabreak]

Was going to make felix and kagami kiss in my feligami fic but what if they simply made romantically charged eye contact. Thats like the same right (screams)

#WHY are rhey giving me such a hard time with this #i KNOW they want to kiss every five seconds its just #making them kiss The First time #is so hard #once the dam breaks they will not freaking stop i just cant #get them to stop being immune to showing weakness. somehow #neither of them have actually technidally said what they have going on is explicitly romantic #and both of them are like #what if they just wanna be friends #and dont want to make the other uncomfortable and mess it up #because they wnna kiss so bad theyre insane #do u see my probelm #im like maybe almosy done with the last chapter of my feligami fic #or maybe itll be another couple of months #whos to say

[oflgtfol]

i think the whole discourse around whether or not cishet aro men are queer stems specifically from the idea of allo aros being hypersexual - and so the idea of an allo aro, specifically a straight aro man, draws to mind the idea of like, fuckboys, or sexist men who only view women as sex objects, etc. And that is likely why the idea of cishet aro men leaves such a bad taste in apparently so many peoples mouths

now, i’ve spoken before about how attraction =/= libido. i’ve mostly spoken about this in the context of being ace, where asexuals can still have a libido despite not experiencing sexual attraction. the confusion and conflation between attraction and behavior has been a huge source of frustration for me with regards to the popular idea of asexuality and how it has confused me on my path to figuring out my own sexual identity over the years

BUT. the idea holds true not only for aces who have high libidos - but also for allosexuals who have low libidos. the idea that to be allo aro is to immediately be some hypersexual fuckboy is just, so warped? just because you experience sexual attraction but not romantic attraction does not mean you immediately become some sexist pig who always needs your dick wet. like idk it’s just beyond fucking frustrating to see the way that people sexualize alloaros when they’re just - they’re just people. you would not assume what another person’s sex life or libido is if they were otherwise alloromantic allosexual, because your orientation describes the way you experience attraction, not your behavior and sex life, nor your libido. in the same way, being alloaro has literally nothing to do with what your actual libido is. so why are allo aros the exception? to try to divide the community and exclude them based on your assumption of their sex lives is just so fucked

#brot posts #aro tag #gonna get a bit TMI here. beware #i think im definitely acespec i dont know if im fully ace or not but im definitely acespec #and i dont care to define myself further than thst cuz its just gonna be frustrating for no reason #and the reason why i get so mad about the idea that aces inherently dont have sex #is that like - im acespec and i definitely have a libido of some kind #im still a virgin tho! like im not out here being some fuckboy #i just jerk off about it like jesus christ #like when you have this idea of alloaros in your head of being some hypersexual freaks with no boundaries and disrespectful of their #partners etc insert every fuckboy stereotype #its just - why are you assuming things about their sex lives and then deciding you dislike them based on your assumptions #1. how do you know theyre even having sex? all because theyre allosexual? #not all allosexuals have sex…? and not in a celibate way? #they could just jerk off about it and be perfectly content that way. same as me! #2. and even if they are having sex who give a shit? fwb exist you can easily have respectful consensual sex without romance #to assume otherwise is just…. #well dare i say it. its very sex negative. you have messed up ideas on sex if thats what you think

[azulashengrottospiano]

i think i made a mistake signing up for chemistry next semester. but also. credits so i can graduate faster. Consider.

#auburn's rambles <3 #i need to get out of my “80-70% is bad” mindset #girl you are passing all of your classes CALM DOWN. #granted this is an exam...but its not the final #you can mess up a few problems just breathe bestie #i think im so stressed because we didnt really go over limiting reactants.................. #like im sitting here freaking out over something thats actually quite simple #but yeah anyways dont expect to see me around much tehse next few weeks.///./../. i think i'll be working til mid december

[somestorythoughts]

Can we talk about how fucking weird this arc was for the actual Rako Hardeen?

Like you think you killed a Jedi then when you go to collect your payment it turns out that they ordered this hit and ONE OF THEM HAS YOUR FACE and they steal your clothes and record your voice into a weird thing the other swallows...it just must have been weird as fuck.

#I don't actually remember if they're clear that he failed to kill obi wan #but that's just freaking surreal #rako hardeen #rako hardeen arc #star wars #clone wars #obi wan #mace windu smiles a lot in that first episode i can't tell if its cause he thinks its funny #or if he's smiling because if he's laughing hes not thinking about how weird this is #or how messed up it is #edit: okay he does know he failed to kill him #so the jedi you thought you killed shows up WEARING YOUR FACE

[ladynicte]

Compilation of my favorite Nicos from the graphic novel

#nico di angelo #battle of the labyrinth #pjo #pjo graphic novels #i love his freaking wings plus percy is so much taller than him its so cute they made him so tiny #luna's lowkey #also if this looks messed up on mobile too bad i did my best

[lecliss]

I'll never be able to take the theory that Vincent is Sephiroth's real father seriously cuz I cannot stress enough how important I think it is to the plot that Vincent wanted to fuck Lucrecia and did not get to.

#once again i jest but now i have to actually talk about it #like. okay we have no proof of any actual timeline for the dirge flashbacks other than. it was at least 30 years ago #so who knows how long they were at the manor. could have been weeks before The Incident. or months. or maybe a full year! who knows #but to me a timeline of like. they fucked and like a week later vincent found The Evidence and lucercia had her little breakdown #AND THEN EXTREMELY QUICKLY SHE AGREED TO THE EXPERIMENT AND IT COULD GO ONE OF TWO WAYS #1. she knew she was pregnant and thats why she agreed to the experiment cuz there was already a usable subject #and therefore she must have fucked hojo like a week after she fucked vincent AND THATS STUPID FAST FOR THESE EVENTS #or 2. she didnt know. agreed to the experiment. fucked hojo. and therefore thought seph was hojo's and NOT vincent's #AND BY THE WAY. i dont even actually believe hojo fucked either!!! cuz theyre both scientists so why wouldnt they think IVF was the best way #okay. well.... hojo is canonically a fucked up little freak. so. he might have taken the opportunity to... get in there. #also when did ivf even start being a thing? cuz that may play a factor into this if nomura even considered that #well either way lets just unfortunately assume hojo got in there #ITS STILL AN ODDLY FAST TIMELINE #also. fuck man doesnt lucrecia have a later line in dirge where she actually says shes in love with hojo? or something along those lines #IMPLYING ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE SHE HAD THE FALLING OUT WITH VINCENT. YOU WOULDNT FUCK THE GUY AFTER ALL THAT SHIT #AND WHILE CLAIMING TO LOVE/CURRENTLY FALLING IN LOVE WITH HOJO!!!! LIKE CMON MAN!!!! SHE SUCKS BUT SHES NOT THAT KIND OF A MESS #i dont think vincent would fuck her until they sorted out their issues anyway and that CLEARLY didnt happen. #its VITAL that that did not happen!!!! #its just. if vincent and lucrecia fucked. everything would have had to happen EXTREMELY fast within like a 2 week timespan #and im just talking about up to when vincent learns shes partaking in the experiment. it was probably another week or two until vincent died #SO. logically it must have been like #fall in love->learn about the gimoire incident->refuse to speak to vincent->get obsessed with hojo->fall in love(?) #and then thats where i think its ambiguous on did the experiment become an idea before or after seph started to exist? #like chicken or the egg ya know. experiment idea or sephiroth zygote? #that feels fucked up to say. im so fucking sorry to seph to talk about this. yeah sorry i have to debate who fucked your mom bro #god imagine telling him that. like not even as a reveal thing cuz he knows who his father is. just like as a sick joke. your mom joke. #NO OH M Y GOD I HAVE A QUESTION NOW #in accordance to him having a photo of lucrecia in ever crisis. after he reads that jenova is an ancient (incorrect btw) #does he think that picture is still her? what about when he takes jenova's body from the lab???? #oh my god 30 tag limit. FUCK. i need like a rant blog for all this vincent talk now. my brain is going a mile a minute

[llitchilitchi]

oh bless I can finally delete my twitter account

#litchi.txt #/j #on a more serious note I just finished watching the video #wont be posting about it other than this #its great to see him compile stuff like this #I am proud of how well he delivered everything? like honestly wow #its messed up to see everything hes gone through compiled into 82 minutes #glad that its out there in such a well done manner #(also the editing was great. i know this is a serious video but I was laughing a lot thru it) #Im excited to see things might go back to normal? #Im glad he called out certain people #this was just. yes. #and I am so incredibly grateful that hes leaving tweeter #like holy shit I am so glad and if I see people whining about it I will hunt them down for their kneecaps #dont have anything else to say other than what everyone else has said already #but please lets not freak out even more #lets just. be calm. and enjoy life. and move on. and Be Normal just like he asked us to

[solarpowerlesbian]

this close to using my teacher voice with my dad. btw.

#we're probably getting a cat soon & he is just. completely disregarding everything i am telling him about slow introductions (we have a dog) #and its like...did u read the stuff i sent you. because you're not showing me that you did. you're showing me that you ignored the articles #and it just freaks me out so bad bc he's the only one that works from home and like. i feel like i can't trust him not to mess it up #because he always assumes he knows better than everyone else about everything. so it doesnt matter what i tell him about slow introductions #i feel like he'll just let the cat out after 1 week bc he decided they're friends now even if their body language says completely otherwise #🧃

[rubarb69]

Theres something so special about cutting your own hair; maybe it is uneven and choppy, and maybe it does frame your face poorly. But its still uniquely yours. Self actualization or something

#poetry #something about trans joy #maybe #idk #only you have to wake up with yourself every day #be happy with who that person is #plus. the choppy at-home look is in.... right? #and like if you say you slay and serve then you will. even if your hair is a botched mess #infact it might add to it #its a silly goofy element #ive spent my whole life being considerate #being palatable #and even still #people are disgusted by me #so why try #why not be myself 100% of the time #if people are gonna call me a freak i might as well put on a show