#its so hard to breathe lol

[starofhisheart]

So much of the "bad" behaviour in ofmd are trauma responses and i love that they show how yeah sometimes we dont respond in the most healthy of ways, we fuck up and we hurt those closest to us, but we still deserve love and kindness at the end of the day

Just so important to me

#its just really important to me #and is why i will defend this show to my dying breath #ofmd #our flag means death #spoilers in tags: #stede's response to ed & the crew potentially leaving #ed's whole kraken era lol #there's so many examples of their actions being led by their trauma #and even the characters whose backstories we dont get #its heavily implied that a lot of them grew up either poor #or at least on the outside of conventional society #whether it be for attraction gender or class #and growing up around violence!! #thats a big one! #violence as the only method of solving problems #why they're so confused and rattled by stede #when you've never been shown kindness before its hard to show it to someone else #or recognize when its being shown to u #i so wish max hadnt cut the budget and episodes #bc s1 did such a good job of showing all this w added backstories #and more breathing room #and while i love s2 it has suffered from the reduced time #especially in this regard #i do think the post-kraken crew dealing w their traumas differently #was some of the best television ever #like they dealt w such a serious topic w the complexity it deserves #(tho again had they had more time it could have been ever better) #and sure there was some humour #but it wasnt cruel #ofmd s2 spoilers

[birdricks]

doing my anatomy study is fucking torturous bc every time i read some shit like “birds dont have a diaphragm” my brains like “hmmmm…… birdperson…..” and then i end up thinking abt him instead of studying

#it is rlly fun tho. thinking deeply abt alien (bird guy) biology all the time #ok typing this bc its fun and counts as revision. #(if i get anything wrong idgaf. this is from memory) #birds only have tiny kinda rigid lungs so they have a bunch of air sacs instead for air to flow into #and no diaphragm! so they use the intercostal muscles to breathe in and out #which r like the muscles around the ribs #but also means if u squeeze them around the middle they cant breathe #birds also have a kinda weird digestive system due to not having teeth etc #but of course bp .. does. but his diet is similar to that of seed eating birds #we dont see him eat i dont think. ? #its possible he has a mixed style of digestive system.. with a stomach like a human and gizzard like a bird #assuming he just swallows seeds whole without chewing lol #hmmm… id say its probably more likely he just has a proventriculus/gizzard combo and maybe like. a larger proventriculus than normal birds #hard to say. we dont rlly know enough abt his diet ig #altho i imagine it to be omnivorous #also smth fun is birds often swallow stones to help digest seeds. now if he chewed it probably wouldnt be necessary. but think abt it. silly #ok take this w a pinchhh of salt. but diet aside the teeth could be used simply for speech. #i vaguely remember learning abt that in language. #also he does Canonically have a cloaca ! wont go into that rn. but hmmm. much to think abt. #basiclaly bp pussy reallllll #kinda. #in the ways that matter ! #oooooh what else. #ooooh. yes. birds dont have vocal chords. they have a syrinx for vocalisation #but of coursee bp can talk. #butttt there are birds that can imitate human speech. so its possible bp just uses similar techniques for speech #but it also gives him a far greater control over his voice than most … making him perfect as the lead singer :] #oh and ummm. he veryyyy likely has hollow bones. so even tho hes huge hes deceptively light. TEE HEE #ok thats it. i need to actaully revise this shit now LOL #but ooohhgghhhg. i need him.

[sleepyseals]

[Image Description: A digital painting depicting Feldspar standing to the right of a campfire, facing away from the viewer and upwards. They are holding an arm outstretched above them and the other gesticulates as if they were telling a story. Several fireflies surround them and their shadow falls to their right. Wreathed in the smoke of the campfire is a scene of their campsite in Dark Bramble. Three large twisting brambles, the anglerfish fossil’s teeth, and three pine trees are suspended upside down, stretching downwards toward Feldspar and the campfire. A plume of stylized curling smoke stretches across the top of the scene from Feldspar’s ship in the top right corner. The ship is sparking with electrical failure. End Image Description.]

my piece for the @travelers-encore-zine !!!  I think this came out a bit more conceptual than I wanted but I still like it!

Thank you to the mods for making this happen, putting everything together and being an amazing support team!!! Thank you to my fellow contributors for being so lovely and making such amazing things and sharing this project with me, I'm really happy I got to be a part of it!!

#I'm so late to posting this omg sorry!! I got stressed abt writing the caption bc its hard getting the words out of my brain sometimes #but its already been a few days since the zine came out I can't believe it #expect some sort of process video or post for this maybe!! as soon as I figure out how I want to do that haha #idk I put a lot of work into this that I don't want to leave unseen but I don't know how I would even go about formatting smth like that #I dont know how to feel abt this piece lol I definitely got very tired of looking at it by the end but I think I'm still happy with it #there's so much going on for me atm but I'm happy! I'm so happy I have things to be passionate about #crazy how life is messy as ever but so much more manageable when you have something you care a lot about #videos game. <3 <3 <3 #I’m interested to hear people’s thoughts on what this means like symbolically ::] #both lonely and claustrophobic #Stories are the basis of so much in game but give feldspar room to breathe god damn it #I have to go to class and stop rambling in the tags now #outer wilds #feldspar #dark bramble #my art #outer wilds spoilers #ow spoilers #how did i forget spoiler tags... smh my head XD

[kyistell]

Hi! Idk if ur still taking requests for little snippets, but is it possible to request a little snippet of NJ helping Loui with his messy curly hair in like- a hot day where humidity is a bitch? 👁️👁️

*🩴*

As a guy with curly hair most times, humidity is such a bitch and happens whenever it feels like here in Jersey, no consistency. So this hit close to home lol.

Hot and Humid (The Worst Combo)

Every door in the state house was open, along with the windows. The Southern States were out barbecuing and the Northern States were suffering, except New Jersey.

It’s not like Jersey liked the heat, it was a pain in the ass, but it did mean he could go swimming and get good southern food, so he can’t complain too much. The problem was the humidity, it was ungodly humid out. Jersey knew humid intimately but this was ridiculous.

Almost every state was either in the pool or on the side relaxing or barbecuing. Almost. The only state that wasn’t with everyone was Louisiana, which Jersey would understand if it wasn’t for the fact that this is weather Loui would absolutely be in.

Jersey was about to go inside to find him when his name was called. Standing in the doorway was Loui, his hair frizzy and messy, looking just as miserable as most of the NE states felt.

Louisiana only had to say one word and Jersey would be at his beck and call. “Help”.

Jersey dragged Loui to his(Jersey's) room, looking at what products he had that could work, he realized he was severely lacking and would need to get more stuff again. He gave Loui a juice box and the tv remote and got to work.

Hair was hard, especially curly hair, it’s hard and annoying at the best of times and at the worst it’s near impossible. Jersey was basically an expert in all things hair but he was definitely wishing that Loui had come to him in the early morning before the humidity got too bad.

It took two hours but Jersey was able to put Loui’s hair into cornrows, that way if he wanted he could go swimming with the others. By the time the two got back outside some of the food was ready and it somehow got hotter and more humid, but at least now Loui’s hair wasn’t a mess.

(And if there was some magic involved to make sure his hair didn’t get affected by the humidity again, then that was between him and the demon he calls his friend).

#welcome to the table #wttt #wttt new jersey #wttsh new jersey #wttt louisiana #wttsh louisiana #welcome to the statehouse #just because i call them little snippets #doesnt mean that they are okay #i just have to give context #its my whole thing when writing #fanfic snippet #wttt fanfic #i normally dont care about humidity #and dont notice until its super bad #but thats cause i live in nj #and nj is always wet feeling except during the deep winter #so even if its horribly humid #i would only notice once it starts getting hard to breathe lol #i probably could have done dialogue for this would #probably should have #but i also like these little snippets not having speaking #idk im weird #but thats nothing new so #kyi requests #kyi writes

[thefirstlioveyou]

oops

#will; has a new hair cut #majority of fans; omg so cute!! #some fans; what the fuck is your problem this jsnt a good thing this is not him why are you saying it looks cute omg stupid bylers #lets breathe guys #i really am having a hard time processing what i read #i think its normal for people to compliment a new hairstyle… #and its still a bowlcut lol… #youll survive i promise #its one thing to theorize and another to shame people for liking the hair

[kithj]

okay officially did the final polish on siren's call i am not allowed to touch it anymore

#sorry i got antsy. but i fixed another typo i caught this morning after reading it for the billionth time lol #im officially NOT looking at it anymore. it's done #going to be better about that next time i publish something like this and not rush into it #idk im so used to being able to edit stuff after posting i need to spend more time polishing & let it breathe a bit #its hard i was excited to post it lmfao #i am learning. its fine

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Me, explaining things in a way that's completely incoherent: I don't understand what you find so difficult to comprehend???

#i think the problem is that something in my brain structures information in a way thats hard for other people to understand #it may be a dyslexia thing. but it is the most frustrating thing to be misunderstood without any #idea of howbwhat ur saying doesnt make sense. like. look. fucking. its right there. laid out in a way that looks like an absolute disaster #bc u would think with as many control issues id b extremely organized but no. i kno where everything is #but its in a pile. aye. this project is such a clusterfuck #this is how my brain collapses. what sort of shape will i b in by the time we finish? (ie my birthday lol) #let's not think abt it. it wont b good. #everyday i get texts and emails and i have to put my head down and take a deep breath so by brain doesnt explode. the amount of psychic #pain i am burdened with when i open my manuscript doc is shocking. #is this my villian origin story? ive lost the ability to not look like im in pain while im in meetings. if u pay close attention u can see #the misery behind my eyes. my boss is gonna turn up the 23rd and b like: ready to go get icecream to celebrate #ur paper and phd accptance? and im gonna b like: i would rather eat glass #if u try to rope me into a surprise party i might walk out. excpet i wont bc im not that much of a brat #theres nothing to celebrate. just let me lay down on the floor for a while #unrelated

[the-kipsabian]

i always just like surprising people by saying im not a native english speaker lmao

#most often people are just like 'wait for real' like lmao yeah #ive just been taught and been studying since third grade. most things i consume are in english with or without subtitles #ive improved a shit ton of my hearing comprehension purely due to years of wrestling ngl #and yeah ive been reading and writing fics in english for aboutttttt 15? 16? years. so that helps too #not to toot my own horn i know im incredibly lucky to have this especially in our school system for free and shit #but yeah. its just always fun to me when people are very confused about it #ofc im not perfect. but ive been told its hard to tell most of the time lol #night is an absolute mess on main #i will still google words im unsure about. i cant tell the difference between breath and breathe no matter how hard i try to learn #like said im not perfect. im just confusing without the clarification lmao

[kingtankgirl]

nothing quite like working in a grocery store during holiday times with a persistent cold for the past week to make ur suicidal ideation relapse as fuck

#like im fine but my god i am so sore all over and i cant catch my breath and im still working 40 hrs a week n lifting 40lb boxes all day #its just hard to be disabled and working a full time job this physical but then im sick on top of it n its like lol ok! #n my fucking symptoms wont improve even tho my housemates r over it cuz i just literally cant give my body enough rest lmaooo #im fine but i do hope i pass peacefully in my sleep tonight. that wld be preferable to coming in to work tmrw. to be clear #god if ur listening--

[sleepless-crows]

i am better !!!

#i got so sick idk why lol #like i started to have a fever and then my blood pressure and pulse were fluctuating or something and then the blood wasnt flowing properly #throughout my body that it hurt everywhere and i was so lightheaded and pale but that passed away and then my stomach was acting so weird #and up until now it is but the medicines im taking arent helping and i just got my period so even more pain but its ok now and i got a sore #throat that was so bad but now its almost almost gone but at one point i had such a hard time swallowing and breathing and my throat was so #small and i have so much like phlegm but not a runny nose and i cant even cough so i had a hard time sleeping because sometimes my throat #would just close and i couldnt breathe but its better i guess but the medicines and the sprays SUCK SO BAD but theyre working #thankfully i do not have dengue or whatever else but wow i was super sick the past week

[swirlwalker]

Been wanting to do some comic dubs/voice acting but wasnt too confident with which characters I want to voice as. Might be sticking with Barry the Quokka since they're the first Enby character to who I feel comfortable voicing in the private stream with my rl friends for "The Murder of Sonic the Hedgehog" game nights!

And eh maybe Vector, Blaze and a bit of Amy!

#swirlwalker rambles #sth #yes #even vector himself tho its a little hard to do his impression for more than a minute without losing my breath so much lol

[aloverslonging]

she’s got a boyfriend she’s had since 2019 and she may not even like other genders other than males, so i don’t expect the feelings to be returned nor expect anything from her nor do i plan to say anything, but i sigh thinking about her bc she’s very cute lol

#tfw you have a work crush. #not the best thing to have LOL work crushes dont generally work out Anyway #and #these arent just the feelings i experience abt her i def have romantic feelings #but its always uplifting to see her in the midst of the chaos that is working retail #and while we work separate jobs - she’s online shopping i do stocking shelves #its just a relief to talk to her. she’s a breath of fresh air and even when we’re both frustratedbwith work #she’s always saying hi in such a genuine chipper and welcoming way haha #and when i shared the treats i made with her today as i was sharing them with other coworkers #and asked her if she’d be interested in trying any #as soon as i brought them to her she popped one in her mouth and gave compliments about it lol #but the way she grabbed one and quickly had at it was very funny and endearing/cute #and the compliments were sweet #i never expect anything to happen with this crush but hey. feelings of a crush always bring me just a little bit of joy at least #so im content to just admire! #which i usually do with crushes anyway because i have a hard time admitting feelings/confessing a crush #rejection is hard on me even though i accept & expect feelings to be unrequited #so i tend to admire til someone else makes the first step #but anyway. im just happy she exists. shes very sweet and i wish good things for her #maybe one day ill at least muster up the courage to ask if she wants to hang out outside of work or if she’d like to play a game together #sometime #i know she at least plays stardew so i think id be able to ask that #or lead into asking what other games she likes #ANYWAY. #i probably wont make another post specifically about her like this #even rbs will probably just be general vibes i like to post her #here #but in case i do #myosotis tag.

[ihatebnha]

i want to vent for a moment about another trope? (idk if it’s considered one but im going to say it is) in smut that i don’t like. when the reader is giving someone a bj & their throat is basically used as a flesh light. i’ve read fics where i just had to stop in the middle of it bc it made me so uncomfortable, the fic is like “you instinctively started breathing through your mouth while his cock aggressively pushed further down your throat” & im just like … actually i don’t want to be fighting for my life while im giving head, i enjoy breathing like normal :) idk if this is making any sense but i just don’t like how aggressive most bj smuts can be

lmfao this gave me flashbacks to the first "rough deep throat" porno i ever watched... i literally remember being like "oh my god... they're abusing that woman........."

ANYWAY... rolling my eyes (not @ u, anon) because I AGREE and think this is just another way smut gets extremely disconnected from the actual... "nuance" of what it's based on (for lack of a better word lmao).

it's just so, SO... odd to be reading something that starts one way (cute, funny, smutty, WHATEVER)... only for it to become hard smex immediately without any proper... preparation.

and i'd say like... makes you wonder why deep throats are the go to... but actually, i'm not wondering lmfao. i know.

so while ofc there are exceptions and warnings and that's fine and all... often it's just... throwing random deep throating at us because the author thinks its... normal? and tbh, i have to laugh.

although honestly... i also somewhat think it's just because some people just don't know what to say to properly describe or extend their smutty scenarios, either because they've never experienced them or just want to lengthen their descriptions and don’t know how... and that is almost an entirely separate conversation LOOOL

#u see stuff in the tags thats like: 'how the boys like their bjs!' which okay! good! #and then u click read more and its 'bakugo is pulling ur hair so hard its ripping ur scalp and he's calling u a binch and u can't breathe' #LOOOOOL LIKE WHAT? #when i dont know what to say in smut i just dont write it #simple as that #LOL im kidding (not really) #but yea i think people really flounder when it comes to descriptions #and i say that because i do too #its hard to write really detailed smut that sounds good #and esp if you've never ... experienced it #so people are like... how to write bj... ah yes... automatic deep throat... #no no no #anyway #i think ur right but its hard to figure out what the right response is u know? #like should i be... upset i can no longer read this or just feel bad for the author #LOL contributes to everything else we've talked about too how men can exploit this misunderstanding too #but #im not gonna get into it #thank u anon *salute* #ask #anon #caitie chats #sx talk

[nerice]

chensoman anime is so overproduced....

#this is a salt post abandon reading here if ur alrdy annoyed #// #went back to look at jjk and jjk just looks amazing. it looks very polished. it goes hard but also holds frames and let's them breathe #cs/m is moving too much somehow in a suffocating busy way #& im not bashing the cgi here. yes it's clunky but anything that can take the crunch off of animators lol #like some of the awkward angles and rotoscoping is the fault of being too close to the cgi they obviously used #they somehow managed to make an anime equivalent of AAA hyperrealistic games that feel bland bc of it #not always!!! ofc!!! but im saying the hyperpolish doesn't add anything of value esp to a property just as cs/m #& i know fujimoto is a movie buff n this is probably his dream adaptation n whatever #& i know anime will never look like in the olde days again #but i am thinking of akira animating on 1s and making the busy look work #i think of the hyperreal movements in satoshi kon movies and how he makes it work #chainswman wld have been better off looking like klk this is the hill i die on #not saying it needs imaishi's animation style and sharp chins and yelling. but the feeling klk had #of dark and grimy fights that went with scratchy and decidedly drawn lines in their fights & copious amounts of blood #& i do like the stark contrast red blood in csm! it just does nothing style wise since the rest is so Realistic. it's just red #in the end its an adaptation but i would have liked it to stay closer to the feel of the manga. the endings Get It #& on that note i also don't like the soundtrack that much. ik the discordant stuff Fits but vs katanaman was the first time #that it actually integrated well with what happened on screen. (again compared to jjk or klk that had impeccable osts) #bg music not op/ed ofc. tho none of the ending songs have been all that stand out either #anyway!! this has been my salt!! #csm blogging #still preferable to a bad adaptation i guess (sighs at fnae...) #but i do hope jigokuraku next year will look worse (lol) bc nobody cares abt that show/manga so they'll not go all out #and i do hope they will not Improve On (tm) jjks current style bc i need my toji moment to fuck me raw #good morning and goodbye

[samwisefamgee]

god wants me to kill myself sooooo fucking bad lately lol nice try bitch im queer

#you dont even fuxking know #the number of. literally impossible coincidences that have taken place to make my life just so much shittier lately #i have been sooo strong ive written like two dozen text posts just bitching and bitching about the sheer fuxking insanity of it and i only #posted like one of them im doing so good being so strong #that said i want to fucking die today lol this shit is melting my brain #it just never ends #the past two weeks have just been... so bad lol #i havent been able to see my bank balance in weeks i just know im so in the fucking hole it doesnt even matter #i havent had a working phone in a month #my family just vacationed in hawaii and im living in a moldy trailer #and the physical and mental health just go and go and go #and the mold grows and groes and grows #my friend offered me a top of the line pc for free and it felt like offering a homeless guy who loves music a grand piano #like yeah lemme just keep that under the bridge downtown where i stay lol #itll be fine #its like all the nice things id love to experience are dangled just out of reach of my fuckin cell bars lol #might fuck around and get addicted to a third substance in light of hope being a fool's errand in a truly random universe #life isnt guarunteed to get better no matter how long you wait or how hard you try actually and that is a hard fucking truth for everyone #alcohol is free and can keep your mind off how much mold & dust you breathe daily & breathed in the past 2 years & thats also a hard truth #also reading this i need to clarify in case anyone else reads this shitsheet. i do not want to vacation in hawaii. colonizer shit #what i wouldnt fucking do for just a week up by priest lake tho :(

[jctaro]

GOOOOOOOOOOOOD MORNING and pls unclench ur jaw, drink water and be mindful of ur breathing (this one's a new one LMAO)

#but breathing is IMPORTANT not to say essential lol #but i learned that the way we do it is equally as important so ive been trynna teach myself how to actually do it (its HARD) #🍒 — cherrypostin