#its the adhd and hyperfixations but also my dude

[lowkeyrobin]

Hellooo, I was wondering if you could do MCYT with an S/O who has ADHD? (Mostly hyperfixates on horror games, etc.) I personally have a bad habit of walking around till my legs are sore (my leg has been sore for the past three days please help I can't get rid of this energy ahh-) and how MCYT would react to that/stop Y/N from. Doing that lol

HELP THIS IS SO REAL BAHAHHAHABA ; thank you for the request 🫶🫶 ; sorry if anything seems a little wrong, I'm kinda looking into if I have adhd but obv idk and I'm not diagnosing myself, but I obviously am not diagnosed so I don't know the full ins and outs and I know it's a spectrum, so uh yeah 👍 hopefully I did good lol

MCYT ; ADHD shenanigans

includes ; tommyinnit, tubbo, ranboo, badlinu, nihachu & quackity

warnings ; language

masterlist

TOMMYINNIT

he'll walk into your stream, sit down, look at your screen, then blankly stare at you when he realizes what you're playing

"Dude. are you streaming FNAF again?"

you nod with a smile "yupppp"

he spends the rest of your stream talking to chat and trying to scare you more

you're just talking about the lore and shit and he's loosely hanging onto it LMAO

if you're just like pacing around the house he'll look up at you like "bro you okay?"

will genuinely join in as well, he's always got the energy

he doesn't mean to enable like hurting yourself to a point, but once he realizes he is kind of enabling it he'll immediately stop

"sit down, here, skip leg day for once, focus on those noodle arms of yours"

"says you! the fuck?"

TUBBO

he'll walk into your bedroom for the first time in like a month and just see posters and little trinkets and merch of your new fixation and be like "christ, man"

"I'm a little hyperfixated"

"I see that. also considering the 150 hours worth of streams you've put into FNAF, yeah..."

he gets you a vr headset and buys you the fnaf vr games.

he doesn't understand how you have so much energy but it's whatever

"dude, sit down, your legs are gonna fall off, you've been pacing for like three hours! drink some water at least"

"tubbo, I can't! I have too much energy and I can't get rid of it"

that commences three hours of wrestling in the living room 💀🙏

RANBOO

let's you rant about your fixations and the lore and whatnot

I mean they won't deny that the Blair Witch Project video game is really good

they even buy you posters of the Blair Witch Project movie and video game (we don't talk about the movies after the first...)

even gets you merch off the official game site too (if that exists? I'm not sure istg there was merch tho)

they start to get a little fixated on it too considering they love hearing about the lore and theories from you and stuff

they even play it on stream and dedicate it to you

"thanks for the content y/n"

when you're running through the house, he'll race with you for a while before finding some other ways for you to release energy without making yourself sore

at one point he just gives you coffee that way you'll crash and burn after a few hours

I mean at least you don't feel like your legs are about to pop off your body

FREDDIE BADLINU

invested in the resident evil lore because of you

"I saw this and thought of you" AND ITS A LEON KENNEDY EDIT LMFAOOO

I mean yeah

loves hearing you rant about the games and everything, he could listen to you talk for hours

when you're all strung up on energy he also enables it without realizing at first

when he can tell it's more than just being energetic he'll help you find ways to calm down

if need be, he'll read to you, instant sleep I swear

or when he starts talking you'll be fully invested in his words

"yknow, Google listed among us as a horror game and I really cannot-"

NIKI NIHACHU

the amount of dead by daylight merch and the amount of money that you've spent on it is kinda concerning

but she loves listening to you rant about how the kill animations are so awesome and about new maps and characters and dlcs

I mean it's your current fixation, of course she'd listen to every single word you'd have to say

she even plays with you on stream a lot as well

when you're strung up on energy, she'll take you out for a run, you're like a dog on a leash though because she's not trying to lose you

"niki, come on! I wanna see the water snakes!"

"I'm coming, I can't sprint like you do, darling!"

QUACKITY

"of all the games, why is five nights at freddy's the one you're fixated on?"

he loves hearing you rant and explain lore and theories to him tho

genuine love language

he'll even play it on stream with you

"and the purple guy basically killed all the kids, and the kids basically scared him into the springlock suit and it literally killed him so he possesses that suit now-"

he'll just joke about the amount of energy you have

like Ranboo, will serve you coffee so you can crash and burn considering you end up begging him to help you

#lowkeyrobin #mcyt x reader #mcyt preferences #mcyt oneshot #tommyinnit x reader #quackity x reader #ranboo x reader #badlinu x reader #tubbo x reader #freddie badlinu x reader #niki nihachu x reader #nihachu x reader #gn reader #gender neutral reader #they/them reader

[eshithepetty]

Ok... time to talk about Reigen having adhd. Because not enough people talk about it imo and I've been thinking about it lately so. Here it is.

Evidence:

Have you seen him fucking move. His hands. He literally stims. People constantly make jokes about how if he sits still for 5 seconds he will die;

he has a bunch of random talents and interests (martial arts, massaging, psychology, editing, gardening, obviously psychic stuff even if he's not an esper, etc.), kinda implying he just gets super into things out of nowhere sometimes until he loses interest and moves onto the next thing. That's literally hyperfixating m' dudes;

couldn't stand his previous job which was boring and repetitive and stifling. Of course, part of it is probably just him hating capitalism and all that, but you can't tell me that doing the same thing he had no real interest in over and over didn't make him super depressed. He didn't even have a solid plan after resigning, he just. Was done;

on that note - hes pretty impulsive. Does and says things without thinking it through a lot of the time. Doesn't need much more explanation tbh;

also has struggled with addictions (drinking, smoking). Of course adhd havers aren't the only ones to get addicted, but it's been well documented that those with it often fall into it easier than nt people;

has hella rsd. Of course he masks his insecurities so it's not noticeable a lot of the time (tho actually. One could even argue that part of why he masks the way he does is because of rsd and fear of rejection of his 'true self'), but its very apparent in, for example, seperation arc, where him immideately jumping the gun and grasping to keep mob to himself at the slightest hint of rejection was the whole thing that started it all;

this ones less concrete but the whole 'he used to be such a well behaved kid with such good grades, what happened to him ://' deal that the reporters spoke of in that arc was. Definitely too relatable to my adhd riddled burnt out self lmao.

I could probably dig up more but yeah. Tl;dr: Reigen's definitely not nt and him n Mob are adhd and autism solidarity. I rest my case 😌

#mob psycho 100 #mp100 #reigen arataka #adhd #meta #character analysis #neurodivergent #ramble #my own post

[alphian-hcs]

Octrio + Riddle With a hyperfixated S/O

Finally updated, posts will be cut down to two headcannon posts per week, due to my adhd having butt forgetting to write, also yes, this is slightly self indulgent.

Riddle Rosehearts

- Riddle would think it's just his s/o liking the subject of their hyperfixation, though when he notices all the merchandise from said hyperfixation. He realizes how much this series means to his s/o, and tries his best to understand it, not really being able to relate since in his childhood and such he was only allowed to do studies and barely play with Trey and Chen'ya as a kid. - Soon he is able to understand and occasionally buys merchandise for his s/o, giving it as small gifts for them. - He probably does the thing parents do with their kids, aka uses a item that his s/o wants as a motivator to have his s/o keep their grades up.

Azul Ashengrotto

- Azul immediately understands, because he hyperfixates on coin collecting. He would listen to everything you say about your hyperfixation and make comments, vie versa when he talks about coins. Jade and Floyd would have to endure this if they happened to be in the same room, since all hell breaks loose with the hyperfixation.

- Azul would think about the worth his s/o's merch could produce over time, but ultimately decide to get more merchandise for his s/o, sometimes sneaking them in their room or in their bag when they didn't look, just so he can see his s/o's excited face when they see the object.

- I can totally see Azul explaining his coin hyperfixation via power point presentations, and his s/o explaining via whiteboard, like that one video that explained the evillous chronicles in two hours (good watch ngl)

Jade Leech

- Dude immediately understands because of his mushroom obsession. He would probably try to get his s/o to get hyperfixated on mushrooms, so he can rant about them with a more willing audience than his brother.

- Though if his S/o is more interested in something not related to nature, he would happily listen to his s/o's rants. if its something sea related though, he would offer knowledge he has about the subject of his s/o's affection, watching them get hyper and excited over it.

- Jade definitely pulls some strings to get sold out merch and such of the hyperfixation, sometimes sending Floyd out to get the items as to not arouse his s/o's suspicion, and make it easier to surprise them with the gifts.

Floyd Leech

- Watch out if your hyperfixation is on a streamer/character/actor/any kind of person, because he is absolutely going to be jealous. Floyd at first would just think "Oh, they're just a fan of them" but when he see's the increasing amount of merchandise he begins to get jealous.

- He would at first think of hiding all his s/o's merchandise as a punishment, but decide against it since he doesn't want to see his shrimpy sad, instead deciding to try and see what's so amazing about this hyperfixation. Immediately gets addicted and hyperfixated aswell until four weeks later when it drops out of his system. still listens to what his s/o says about the hyperfixation though.

- He would buy some merchandise for his s/o, but much like Jade, pulls some strings to get something signed by the person who made/streamed and made the hyperfixation. Seems they are taking a break for a while though...wonder why? Floyd plays innocent though, just happy that his shrimpy is so happy with the present he gave them!

#riddle rosehearts x reader #riddle rosehearts #azul ashengrotto #azul ashengrotto x reader #floyd leech #floyd leech x reader #jade leech #jade leech x reader #octrio #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland headcannons #alphiwork

[peskytimeswithscar]

ok it's headcanon time for.... grian!!!!

in regards to identity i view him as being aro-spec, while i could find a specific label i feel like c!grian wouldn't care much into finding that label, i think he'd prefer to just identify as being on the spectrum but he wouldn't really put in the time or effort into researching it

he also is asexual!! however im just asexual myself so all my blorbos must be asexual bc it feels. weird if not

and he's gay!!! gay man, gay gay homo (but actually this is mainly just because of yhs where he says hes "no im into dudes", plus i just cannot see c!grian with a woman that man is gay)

i also see him as being on the asensual (sensual attraction is the desire to touch others in a non-sexual way, e.g. cuddling, kissing, etc) spectrum !! mainly demi-asenflux because i feel like he would only like touch from people he's close + sometimes really doesn't want to be touched, but sometimes/alot of the time he really wants to and is the clingiest

he also gives off vibes of being on the aplatonic spectrum but i cannot think of anything in specific, maybe demiplatonic and cupioplatonic? i just feel like smth is up w this man's platonic orientation,, he def wants to have friends and is willing to do so but he only really feels platonic attraction whenever he's actually close to a person

i could probably go more into detail but those are the primary ones in my head for his sexuality so lets (finally) go onto GENDER!!!!

this man is definitely transgenderism!!! he identifies as a trans-man tho i do feel like his standards of being a man definitely differ to society's, he's most definitely gender non-conforming and he mainly wears androgynous or feminine clothing most of the time (though he only really wears skirts or dresses if hes cross-dressing as ariana griande)

he also probably is somewhere on the non-binary spectrum he just doesn't really identify with it

i feel like he primarily uses it/he pronouns? he definitely feels less than human due to his watcher roots so it got used to being called it/its, he also only is called she/her when he's cross-dressing as ariana griande, and if i had to give him some neoprns i feel like he'd enjoy chirp/chirp's? or some sort of parrot themed neopronouns

i also think he wouldn't get top surgery! it's easier for him not to since he only gets dysphoric over the shape they cause (which can easily be solved via a binder) instead of the actual chest itself

ok gender part over now it's time for some other headcanons

this man is definitely 100% neurodivergent, i feel like in particular he has adhd (this man cannot finish the back of his bases and gets distracted off tasks like a dog seeing a squrriel) and autism!!! i feel like he sometimes goes non-verbal (though i feel, as a parrot hybrid, when he's non-verbal he just ends up copying what other people are saying to him, so maybe that could be considered semi-verbal?), i think he would stim ALOT using his wings, he's happy and suddenly u have feathers everywhere because he flapped them alongside his hands

i think he would also have really bad rejection sensitive dysphoria, he definitely dislikes getting rejected from things which leads to him bottling alot of things up and causing plenty of the scarian miscommunication we're all too familiar with

he also stims with bird noises alot! he likes to chirp and squawk when he's happy, tho that may also just be because he's a parrot hybrid

he definitely changes hyperfixations like the wind, one week he likes this one thing and another he likes this other thing, and i feel like he would only really have 1 or 2 special interests that actually stick around (one of them likely being architecture/building, the other probably being birds and such)

he tends to have a very changing routine and schedule due to his adhd HOWEVER he has some routines (mainly with scar in them, who prefers to have very set routines cause that man also has autism) which never change or both of them get stressed out (e.g. morning/night routine, a routine that started in the desert and then followed them onto hermitcraft - they both get very stressed out on the life series since it disrupts their routines)

this was.... alot more text than i was expecting to write but anyway!!! expect a scar one at some point

#3lscar.txt #peskytimes /r #scarian #(mentioned/implied) #grian #grianmc #hermitcraft grian #life series grian #grian headcanons #the silly #hermitcraft headcanons #im ngl i fully realised i myself am demiplatonic whilst writing this #thanks grian goodtimes

[i-may-be-an-emu]

hiiyyyy!!!

also, trans HCs??

TELLL ME MORE!! :DDDD

HELLOO!

Gladly. (This will be a very long post btw)

(I know I said this at some point but idk when so sorry if im not answering this properly)

My ftm headcannons:

Peter Parker (Marvel Universe)

He knew ever since he was little

The spider bite gave him free testosterone

He also has adhd (hc) and before getting top surgery would hyperfixate and forgert he was binding

Because of this Aunt May would have to check on him and set timers ect

the scene where Tom's spiderman is like "I'm not a girl I'm a BOY- I mean I'm-I'm a MAN" is pure trans-ness

he's also bi (hc) and really terrified of getting a boyfriend and then having him not see him as a man and is actually a straight dudes

So he only dates girls

(mj/the girl Andrew's one was in love with is mtf [but she doesn't really care about her gender but knows its feminin and calls herself mtf] and always reminds him he's a real man and when he goes "but what if-" MJ hits him with a "well then aren't you saying I'm a man then?" or something)

Luke Patterson (from Julie and the phantoms)

Part of the reason his mom and him fought so much

his parents said that the band made him trans and hanging out with boys was turing him into one

But after he died they saw that he was a guy and dedicated the rest of their lives to helping (especially young) trans folk

He wasn't diagnosed as autistic or with adhd (hc) because he was seen as a girl which gave him problems in having to get his parents to listen to him about both his brain and gender

Hates sleeves = trans

The beanie. No I will not elaborate. He wore a beanie. He is trans.

The way his hair is styled is like it was grown long and cut short instead of grown short and cut to stay that way, meaning that he is very likely to have had long hair and probably cut it short himself

When he became a ghost his soul was a guy so his ghost form became a guy, meaning he had a cis guy's appearance and "biological" situation or whatever

My Name Is Luke. He wrote a song called my name is Luke.

Jake peralta (Brooklyn 99)

Gina helped him come out to his mom

Did you SEE how he looked in highschool? The long hair and earring? Litterally in denial. Plus he was best friends with a girl (not saying straight guys can't have female friends but c'mon)

He wears about 3 layers

He met Rosa in the academy and i like to think that it was transohobic and put him in a dorm with her

she didn't care but was really mad about the academy being transphobic

prison was difficult, but Caleb was also trans and it made it easier (they look down in the shower and jake says samsies, I refuse to belive it's about circumcision and think it's trans instead.)

When Jake came out to Holt they had a kinda father-son type moment and Holt said that he understood and if Jake ever needed anything to come to him

He was still wearing a binder in the first few seasons (screw the scenes where he's shirtless) and the pain is unbearable because he's irresponsible (cue Gina and Rosa basically grounding him and everyone finding out he's trans)

Hiccup Haddock The 3rd (How to train Your Dragon)

He's 15 in the first movie. 15. My boy looks like he's 12

He's not as buff as the other guys his age and in one of the episodes where he's 15 bucket does a painting of him and Stowick and makes him extra buff, Stowick likes it more and Hiccup feels like crap (because he's trans)

Everyone sees him as a screw up and won't even let him ououtside

We never see him shirtless

"But he grows a beard eventually!" Yes but how long did that take him? My guy invented a flaming sword i think he'd be able to get testosterone from sosomewhere.

Kids? Sperm doner! (yes i know they're vikings but they could always just like... yk)

He doesn't have a bulge in his pants

He felt like an outsider and seeing toothless be the only nightfury made him just feel really connected to him

He didn't change his name

When he meets his mom she's obviously suprised but understands what's going on

My mtf headcanons:

Carrie (Julie and the phantoms)

Trevor understood fully because of Luke and asked her if she wanted a new name and what pronouns to use

He sometimes messed up with her pronouns at first but he tries really hard to get them right

When she came out he game her his credit card to buy new clothes with and quickly learned that was a very bad idea

She figured out her gender but was still figuring out her sexuality

She started dating nick as a power move to try and gain popularity (it worked)

She went on puberty blockers at 13 and it meant she was able to get a high voice but still does voice training as well (i dont know much about mtf voice stuff im sorry 😭)

After season one the boys were able to become visible to lifers when they want to be and she and Luke become trans bff's

loves pink

(I'm sorry I cant think of anymore mtf ones mainly because im ftm and those hc come from projecting onto charichters)

Nonbinary:

Oh my gosh I forgot their name 🤦 (from jatp)

(The member of dirty candy who Reggie likes)

Idk. But they are. She goes by they/she pronouns too, and I cant really say much else because they're a side character.

And also MJ from the Tom Holland spidermans is a genderfluid girl

Im sorry im too tired to elaborate any further I will think of more tho C:

[Edited]

#Headcannons #transgender #trans headcanons #Peter parker #Trans spiderman #Luke patterson #Carrie Wilson #Hiccup haddock #Jake peralta #mtf #ftm #Im sorry that there's not as many mtf or nb ones as the ftm #nonbinary #lgbtq #Jatp #Httyd #B99

[chaoticgremlinbrainspace]

wow me thinking about dick Greyson? more likely than you think!

Disclaimer I am just a guy on the internet having a self indulgence time for fun, my grasp on canon vs Fanon is shakier than when I tried rope climbing in P.E also I am not a trained medical professional all things related to adhd I talk about come from Personal Experience or further research FOOD AND TEXTURE: fun fact, people with adhd can hyper fixate on foods, found that out from my mom’s doctor. so I think dick definitely has foods that he fixates on and will prefer to eat over other foods. also he would have foods he just can't fucking eat because of taste or texture, like for example when I was younger I refused to eat fried eggs but I would eat boiled eggs, even better example jellies and puddings are things I can eat bc it activates my gag reflex and I hate the way they feel, physically can't swallow them without feeling sick. so ya know ya boy is gonna project that onto the dickster lol. I think he would probably hyperfixate on foods that fall into a similar category of each other I know I do lol. my food hyperfication has been crushed up instant ramen. and has been for a while but specially a certain kind. think dick would hyperfixate on certain brands of cereal because ive seen the “dick likes sugar cereal” thing floating around, and because this the projection corner I think he prefers to eat it a certain way, probably dry because of easy transporting and he can bring as a quick snack for when hes on the go, but I think he also would like the crunchy texture and mouth feel. again projection corner I think he would fucking hate gelatinous foods with a passion. but also like gritty foods would probably be a no go. like he can eat them if he needs too because bat training and all that doesn't mean he would enjoy it lol. and like I feel like when hes knighting hes just in a consent state of near discomfort bc hes masking so hard(lol)  so when hes dick Greyson he sorta lets lose a bit and his symptoms are worse or hes allowed to be particular about things like food when hes a civilian.  and I think he probably likes the texture of the nightwing suit otherwise he would peel his skin off. projecting is fun so I think he would hate rough and scratchy clothes and bed sheets are the bane of his existence so he kicks them off before going to bed other wise he can't sleep. he probably fidgets with his gadgets quite a bit especially when on patrol and hes looking around and nothing much is happening. I think dick would do the leg bounce tm as a civilian a lot maybe play with his hair if its long, or just generally messing with with when hes nervous or fidgeting. idk I guess im making nightwing his “nooo guys dw im super normal im just like everyone I am a functional put together adult haha” which its funny bc masking. I think this dude would have so many built in work arounds like (projecting) audio processing problems, so he probably has people either reapet or smth to like record and play back that or hes just really smooth about (smile and nod and hope to god that was the correct answer) anyway sorry back on topic, i  have dick having a stuffed animal named zitka (?) that an elephant and like hell yeah, but also I think his thing is very much a “ive had a bad time today and I just need to destress for a bit and hold something soft/familiar in a dark room for a bit” as you can tell I am projecting onto dick Greyson a lot lol. anyway I think he would also struggle to like, eat consistently, like eating too much or eating too little bc he gets distracted with a case then over compensates or he gets bored and then eats to get some form of stimulation(I do this lol) I just think dick would chew on things but be embarrassed about it(projection) but yeah I just think this asshole would have a system tm that no one else gets bc his room just looks dirty as hell but hes like Nono guys I set my bag and wallet in the same spot in the corner of the room because if I dont I will spend 30 minutes looking for it and it will be in the freezer. that and I think he would either do really well with cold foods or really badly. I think dick is the kinda guy that would leave his sodas out overnight so they stop being fizzy bc he hates the feeling of the fizz(projecting) but yeah overall I think he prefer sweeter foods as like his comfort/perfered foods. I also like the hc that he can cook he just doesn't have a lot of time too, so he snacks a lot bc he needs the energy. adding my own shit onto it, executive dysfunction got his ass like “I could get up and make a sandwich I know what I need to do I have the ingredients and im hungry but I can't fucking get up to do it” anyway funtimes in hyperfixation with grem thanks for reading the insane rambles <3

#dick grayson #nightwing #grem screams #adhd dick grayson #tee hee i am mentally ill once again

[mochapanda]

i was listening to a video essay today while driving around doing errands about how mental disorders are socially constructed bc even our reality is socially constructed and idk why but i kept thinking about how so many characters in adventure time would be labeled dysfunctional or mentally disabled in our awful individualistic capitalist society but bc the world of adventure time is so fucking weird and their society is so fucking weird they can all just kind of chill. some characters are even just incredibly clear allegories for very specific things (neddy, ice king, hell id argue lsp) like finn can barely last 20 minutes in a classroom and all pb says is "well at least hes street smart" there is no 504 plan no forced work ethic he needs to learn hes just allowed to fucking exist and he then becomes INCREDIBLY emotionally intelligent just by learning from other people and his experiences naturally. dude has fucking adhd and no one gives a shit bc it just. doesnt matter bc he has unconditional support anyway. he spends WEEKS hyperfixating in a dungeon after his break up with flame princess bc its the only thing that makes sense to his brain at the time, and jake ALLOWS him to stay (for weeks) after knowing he'll be able to come back bc its finns way of getting his mind back on track. in football bmo completely changes in personality and ends up having multiple freakouts/meltdowns and jake just kind of sits down next to him and says its okay to feel "donked up" in your head or heart, and even after (from finn and jakes point of view) bmo just randomly smashes up glassware theyre just super worried. bmo (and football) are able to process whatever the hells going on with them in their own way, and everyone just kind of moves on. like it doesnt even matter whether or not this was an elaborate pretend game or a metaphor for something deeper bc EITHER WAY bmo has a loving family that doesnt force him to adhere to a rigid social norm, and they only step in when he starts breaking stuff worrying hed get himself hurt (would also like to mention no violence is involved by finn or jake the entire ep, bmo simply sits on a stool with a traffic cone on his head for smashing their bathroom mirror) i could legit talk about ice king's redemption for weeks but my point is literally that considering being a homosexual was considered a mental illness like 50 years ago who the fuck knows what will still be an illness or disorder in the future. we have no way of knowing what our society could look like at any point in time and adventure time actually kind of proves this theory that any mental deviation is made up societal bullshit

#even the madness of wizards is normalized to an extent #finn has a whole monologue in blank eyed girl about the concept of 'creepiness' being a mind shield to protect from things that remind ppl #of themselves that they arent comfortable with like i think they know what theyre fucking doing too #im gonna bookmark this in case i decide to write an essay do you think my psychology teacher would accept this

[that-was-anticlimactic]

i started sk8! i'm two eps in and it's very nice so far. definitely more relaxed than what i usually prefer but it's still fun :] ngl that blue-haired dude is creepy as hell. i haven't watched far enough to find out for sure but it seems like he's manipulating miya which is. >:(( giving off nasty rich person vibes. reki is so <333 to me he's just!! a little guy!!! ngl a bit worried abt the fact that langa seems to be very good at skateboarding like absolutely good for him and all but if i was reki i think i'd be kinda jealous? it would be interesting if they addressed this later on in the show. loving joe's and cherry's dynamic so muchh! they're so funny to me. immense respect to joe for deciding to skateboard with his tits out. the only question i have is where are his nipples???? like sir??? i know its anime censourship or whatever but still. also if i may share my personal hcs for some of them: i hc reki as a trans bi guy. idk why but that just. feels right for him yk. i also love the idea of him having adhd and tourettes! you were so so right about that <333 one thing about langa is that he is definitely not straight. gay i think and aspec as well. also he is autistic bc i mean. have you seen him. he and reki are literally hyperfixating on skating together!! like that montage describes bonding about a shared hyperfixation so so accurately. joe def gives of bi vibes 100% but i'm not too sure about cherry. and also you were right i do love miya! i've seen him for 5 minutes tops and he has been mean for all of them but he is so <3333 to me!! OOPS I WROTE A LOT. AHEM ENJOYING SK8 A NORMAL AMOUNT.

YES YES YES ONE OF US ONE OF US ONE OF US

okay y eah blue haired dude is ad*m and i hate him i hate him i hate him he 100% is manipulating / grooming miya and i will STAB this man

oooooooooooh just you wait. just. you. w ait.

YES REKI BELOVED he is my blorbo my everything he is The character i am reki he is me he is he Is The Little Guy i would die for him i love reki btw if you didn't know

UYTFDGHUIJOUYGFU CRYING AT THE JOE NIPPLE COMMENT HELP-- I DIDN'T EVEN NOTICE CACKLING

YES EXACTLY !!! @capt-snoozles actually drew some trans reki art and it is. it is SO GOOD. and yES TS REKI MY B E L O V E D!!! theo has also drawn AMAZING ts reki art that i just. i love so much. i literally showed everyone in my class once i cried i love him (reki and theo lol)

YES GAY ASPEC AUTISTIC LANGA !!! he is SO autistic coded there is literally a scene where reki and shadow (MY BELOVED I LOVE SHADOW SM) are talking and langa is literally just. sitting there and swaying back and forth with his eyes closed. i love him.

#olly tag #I AM SO GLAD YOU'RE ENJOYING IT #I LOVE THIS SHOW SO FREAKING MUCH #ALSO IK SHADOW SEEMS LIKE THE WORST AT FIRST BUT TBH IT'S ALL AN ACT BECAUSE HE DOESN'T REALLY KNOW WHO HE IS ANYWAYS-- #the matchablossom content just gets even Better don't worry uyftfcgvhijugytfcvgbhjiuhygf #corey rambles:)

[calciferstims]

i never have had any like a hyperfixation, special interest or any of those sorts, and im ngl, sometimes i've been wishing i did though? because like im imagining all the fucking big brain you get from it? who tf cares if its like minor shit nobody cares about, just having some type of specific knowledge is power. but then i seen people who are not able to function properly, like it eats them literally up, they cant focus on other stuff than that specific interest. 😳

sorry I’m so late to answering this sweet jesus 😭

anyways honestly I get why you might feel that way! personally I really love my hyperfixations most of the time I’m genuinely happy to have them despite the drawbacks. sometimes I feel like hyperfixations are a little compensation present you get from the adhd gods after they land you with all the bad shit. like ‘okay, so you’ll never be able to do any work and you can’t focus at all, but!! get this!!! looking at pictures of this one specific dude will give you a dopamine rush like you’re on literal crack cocaine :D’

like yeah crying bc I can’t do my work sucks but at least I get free happy chemicals just from looking at cool art of some guy 😎 I honestly can’t imagine only ever liking things a normal amount. couldn’t be me.

but yeah of course, there are the downsides too :/ like you can’t stop talking about it and then you feel annoying. or like, one day you’re so intensely into something and then the next you barely even care about it and you get like so disappointed that it doesn’t give you that rush anymore??? also the fact that you really can’t control what you fixate on so sometimes you just end up cringing at yourself so hard. and yeah, they can be distracting at times 😅

but I wouldn’t trade it personally :) it’s one hell of a rollercoaster ride but I would be so bored if I wasn’t thinking about my blorbos 24/7

#personally I don’t feel very ‘big brain’ when it comes to my fixations 😂 but there are definitely people out there that actullay fixate #on really cool ass shit like insects or astronomy or like. machines or something #and idk I just think those people are much more impressive than me being able to quote embarrassing amounts of Doctor Who s1 #ask box #ok but flashback to before I got meds and I literally could not do any work for a single second because my brain was so entirely consumed #by bagginshield #those were the days….

[brad-bakshi-loves-bugs]

oh my gosh, did you just say you roleplay in your room?? dude (gender neutral)!! that’s so smart. and also really cute..:)

you talked about having ADHD. i’ve been having some trouble lately and i was wondering what it looks like for you? just to get an idea wether i might need to check it out or not.

thank you, i think...? this is the strangest ask ive ever received but i think being called cute is a compliment LMAO so ty

so like. adhd looks different in everyone it affects, and i always recommend reaching out to a psychiatrist or even just your physician if you suspect you might have some Fucky Stuff going on with your brain! i was diagnosed with adhd when i was 10 which is pretty telling for how severe mine is because they dont usually diagnose afab kids that young LMAO but again. everyone is different!

HOWEVER i will start this off by saying that i also have severe bipolar 1, which has a lot of overlapping symptoms with adhd. im not a psychiatrist, a psychologist, or a therapist (or any other -ist), and i couldnt tell you which of my Problems are adhd and which are bipolar. so here's your disclaimer to please not use me as the deciding factor for whether or not you have adhd! my adhd personally is life-altering and essentially ruined my childhood for various reasons, and it's still something i struggle with daily. not every case is so severe (most aren't, in fact), so take everything i say with a grain of salt!

but here's a list of things i attribute to my adhd, which is very far from a complete list, but it's what i can think of off the top of my head:

i HATE silence. whenever im doing anything i have to be playing music or listening to something or i cant focus at all, but it also cant be New Music or ill just get distracted and not be able to focus

on the flip side, i also cant fully concentrate if i have any sort of noise. so if im trying to have a serious conversation that requires my full attention, i have to turn off all music and essentially block my ears so that i can focus. no i dont know why but its SO FUCKING ANNOYING

i alternate between skipping every song halfway through because i get bored quicker than a song can finish or listening to the same song for 6 hours on loop and still wanting to listen to more of it. seriously, i listened to rockstar sea shanty by nickelback almost 400 times this year alone, and i only just discovered it in august

when i hyperfixate, i cannot do ANYTHING else or i get massively depressed and lose all motivation. i ended up in a psych ward back in october because the thought of doing my (easy and otherwise enjoyable) job made me self-harm because i was hyperfocused on watching a specific show and i couldnt do ANYTHING else. im a terrible employee

time management? not here! im late to EVERY SINGLE THING. i had an interview yesterday and i was late by 15 minutes. when i was working at petsmart, i can count on both hands the number of times i showed up to work on time in an ENTIRE YEAR. i have no idea why im like this and i hate it

i pace. a LOT. like, i spend several hours a day pacing. i literally just walk around my kitchen and living room and bedroom aimlessly. im like an npc, but instead of giving you helpful tips i just give you really shitty one liners and puns until you beat me to death

if im not pacing, im doing SOMETHING. whether im biting my nails, popping my knuckles, bouncing my leg, bobbing my head, anything. its physically impossible for me to sit still. like right now, im sitting at my desk typing on my keyboard, but im also shaking my legs violently and bobbing my head to the music im currently playing (it's hicktown by jason aldean. yeah, i enjoy country music. im a redneck sorry)

i SUCK at multitasking. like, even just listening to something and writing. or listening to someone and watching tv. or listening to two things at once. okay, so im starting to think im just really bad at listening. but STILL. my mom can work and watch tv at the same time, but if i try to do that i just end up watching tv and i cant get anything done. i absolutely cannot concentrate if two things are happening at once

i cant watch movies. i literally spend more time rewinding and playing back whatever i missed while i was checking my phone than i do actually watching the movie. im the same way with tv shows unless im hyperfixated on them, but at least theyre shorter so i can take more breaks

again, this is not a complete list. nor does this mean that if you check all of these boxes then you also have adhd, or that if you dont check them then you dont. i cannot stress enough that adhd affects every person differently. thats why its such a bitch to diagnose, and why the symptoms overlap with so many other illnesses and disorders.

i do hope that some of this helped! i have no issues with talking about my own mental problems because im a very firm believer that they should be destigmatized and more often talked about publicly, but i try to limit how often i bring up my own issues unless someone directly asks about them because i know not everyone wants to hear about them and that's fine too!

#not mq #asks answered #mental illness #<- thats the tag im gonna use in case i make any future posts exclusively about my own mental Problems so feel free to blacklist #also sorry for rambling so much. thats another classic adhd symptom LMAO #words cannot limit me #whoops!

[drunkenelfmage]

ADHD and Gender

Nowadays, one of the first things You'll find out about about me is my ADHD. Probably mostly through just context clues of me rambling in your face, topic bouncing around in very long sentences without punctuation or pauses, talking exitedly about every topic like a 6 year old that was just asked to describe why Charizard is awesome.

But Im also hyper conscious of how my ADHD affects my day to day life, so you'll hear me talk about the various symptoms and deficiencies that come with it (and of course the latest tactics Im using to combat all of its problems). I was diagnosed as a child, but only in the past year I have actually acknowledged its existence, understanding my symptoms, seeing a therapist, and taking meds. FOr a long time, I thought it only affected me a little bit, and since I knew so many other people with it that seemed to be functioning well without therapy and meds, I thought I didn't need it either, which is possibly one of the worst decisions I have ever made in my life.

I got ADHD and I have it BAD. According to my therapist, it is NOT a light case of the forgetsies that I can just muscle through. Dude said I should be on meds the second session we ever had lol.

So thirty years of untreated ADHD brain has lead to some bad habits. Its a common symptom of ADHD to start projects or big changes and never finish, and after so many years of failure, I've developed a fear of even starting anything to avoid the disappointment. So when I finally started to confront my feelings on my gender, there was always this fear under it all, not just of transphobia, but of an inability to follow through, to end up stopping at some point far behind an imagined "finish line".

The initial glee has definitely slowed down. Its a little hard to experiment living in a transphobic household. Any makeup has to be wiped off after a few moments in front of a mirror, and even when the clothes come from goodwill, the costs add up. The only thing I have been able to consistently do has been wash my face and shave and experiment with pronouns online. Just have to be satisfied with just that for a little while.

I was worried that my ADHD had tricked me, got me excited at just the idea of exploring my gender and now that it wasn't novel or easy, it was going to be another thing to add my list of failures or impulses that I never engage with.

THat was until I had a conversation with someone today, talking about how much I shave and I realized that the idea of stopping was just not an emotional option for me anymore. I can't go back to lazily using trimmers once every week, I need the hair on my face and chest GONE, the same way someone might feel if they suddenly found their body covered in spiders. Shaving was the least permanent change I could have made regarding my gender, but now I know it was incredibly permanent, because now I know exactly when Im feeling dysphoria.

So maybe ADHD was what helped me pull the gender trigger, but now I know these desires won't fade away after I find another hyperfixation. I just hope I can stay focuses long enough to actually deal with them.

#genderfluid #adhd #journal #transgender

[wainwrightjakobshammerlock]

Hellooooo :3 me again

1, 5 and 8 for the disability ask game maybe !!

hai magnus <3

1. autism + adhd + ocd mental wise (and trauma but that goes without saying), hormonal disorder (a very obscure hormone that makes me really hungry all the time. i dont remember the name but its not insulin) + somewhat unidentified bowel disorder (probably ibs) + unidentified arthritic disorder physical wise (a recent-ish addition. oof ouch my joints)

5. i mean the mentol ilness definitely intersect in a lot of ways. unsure about the physical ones as again 2 of them aren't really fully diagnosed but it fuckin sucks when i hyperfixate on a viddy game (yay serotonin) and have to stop just because my finger joints decide to be cringe. the body and soul at odds... sadge :(

8. the physical disabilities no not really but the autism and adhd... im gonna be honest i am a trans dude but i consider that way way secondary to my sense of self. the first thing closest my identity is whatever my special interest and hyperfixation at the moment are. to the point that i feel like they also are a component of my gender? but i also feel like i kin/stel them sometimes? i believe the proper term (i follow a lot of mogai/liom blogs bc i find them rlly cool n fascinating) for this is traitblur. it's weird but also neat but also makes me kinda scared of losing or changing my spin since it is so core and dear to me (hyperfixations change regularly and i have accepted that, but my spins last Years so. yknow.)

#fourth wall mail slot #ask meme #magnuficentwo #magnus

[chaoticgremlinbrainspace]

idk if theres something wrong with me but I feel the deep seated urge to just study the bat family and their weird ass family dynamics/relationships with eachother and like make a huge chart with notes then work my way out from there to their friends and then their friends friends until I know the entire web of complex interlocking relationships and how different people interact with each other and their histories with each other and shit. like I want to dissect the dc charaters and I know the only reason my ass is here in the first place is bc I hyperfixated on nightwing then got invested (sobbing shittung dying nightwing is my lil dude I put into a hydraulic press so unfortunately he would take up so much brain realistate💀) I wanna write silly goofy lil stories featuring him but I also want to do other characters justice and have full context of events and stuff I will throw up if im ooc and or just fucking wrong about something. like theyre so funky I wanna do right by their charaters but ive also gripped dick by the throat and started projecting onto his guilt ridden ass.(eldest child moment yippeee disappointmenting my parents makes me explode :( also hes funky like that lol) but like genuinely want to be able to take existing relationships and just like idk go into it? like explore them I guess and how they interact, what makes a character tick and all that. theres just something about charaters that are so fun to pull apart and find who they are at their core, what makes them this charater, you know? and I feel like part of discovering that is understanding the connections and history of a character in relation to the setting and other charaters, how they react, how they think and feel when put into situations, shit like that I could rotate in my head for hours. im also an emo lil shit and my brain tends to fixate on the darker events and happenings, which can be a hindrance at times 💀. and like im also just one lil dude my Interpretation of those relationships and charaters could be comepletely different form someone else's due to my experiences or lack of experiences with certain stuff. and like I wanna do it justice I dont wanna should dumb or completely miss the point because that would suck ass, Especially if I ever did post it online it would be like being dragged through the city tied to a Honda civic or smth. or at least thats probably how it would feel lol. damn fear of failure and ridicule we meet again you assholes....anyway, I wanna write silly goofy lil stories for my own enjoyment but I want them to be good and accurate to the characters, maybe add small little head canons as a treat but. Domestic type shit or me projecting onto dick my fucking adhd and making him explode too lmao.(im very insane about that head canon ive thought about it a lot, shout out to middle school me for doing all that research instead of sleeping or doing homework your a real one lol). that and using dick as a vehicle to explore my own queerness in a sense because like, its fun, and probably less dangerous than walking around downtown by myself. like I really enjoy giving dick a funky gender that he cant quite label or name that just is, and it doesn't matter because he’s just rocking around kicking ass, he just happens to not be cishet in my heart and mind. that and I wanna draw him in fun outfits, my friends agree he dress like a lesbian(lesbian approved statement). and like yeah I just think its neat to heasdcanon him as queer, Especially the funky genders because hes just doing his own thing bhfdjknvl. this turned into me rambling about making dick gender queer in some fashion not to say that cis dudes cant wear traditionally seen as feminine clothing or anything ya’ll because fuck the notion of gendered clothing, I just mean like imagine like very loud outfits, patterns colors weird shapes and sizes. that and cursed thrift store shirts that say some shit like “oat sealed frog jar” with a picture of Freddy Mercury sitting on a bench wrong. with the like insane fonts. I guess I wanna throw dick in fits that you typically would associate with the chill queer alt people who have cool drip. idk man. anyway sorry to y’all reading this it kinda got outta hand there. 

#dick grayson #I got fucking sidetracked by my own head canons again #mother fucker #thinking of writing a fic but every time I try my brain refuses to write anything #grem screams #long text post #im sorry girlies #grem goes insane over a fictional dude in text form #adhd but like only a lil bit #im the online equivalent of standing in the corner staring at the people talking about smth #but being too nervous to hop in because what if im wrong or say smth stupid🥺 #not in a cute way either more like a #fucked up lil dude stare #like a fucked up cat probably

[queercodedmoss]

little ableist things (microaggressions?) the mcyt community does to its creators:

wilbur infodumping is not weird. it’s not annoying. and he’s not weird for whatever topic hes hyperfixated on. he also not weird for irrational and inexplicable hatred towards things. that’s just how being ND works sometimes. also, he’s obviously uncomfortable talking about being diagnosed or talking about showing ND traits. stop mentioning it in donos and chat.

techno is not emotionless and completely monotone. he very genuinely isn’t, his voice is just deep. his tone actually fluxates a lot when he’s speaking, and he absolutely shows how he feels. he emotes fine, you’re just ignoring it. also, he probably has RSD, which is rejection sensitive dysphoria, a common thing for ADHD folks. it would explain why he tends to passively resolve drama (privating old videos, doing a charity stream, etc) instead of confronting it and apologizing. it doesn’t give him an excuse, but it offers an explanation.

dream doesn’t need a caretaker for his ADHD, stop trying to assign george the role like it’s a cute romantic trope. it isn’t. its gross. he’s a functioning adult. stop infanitilizing him for showing ND traits. and when hes vocal stimmed before (on an old george stream, on tommy’s stream) people were so fucking weird. also, stop reducing dream to his ADHD, he’s a whole person that exists outside of neurodivergency. him being ND doesn’t exclude him from having to own up to mistakes, stop trying to give him excuses. let him grow.

tubbo doesn’t need a caretaker in ranboo/tommy. when they correct his spelling it isn’t “aww cute look at them looking out for tubbo”. and when tubbo messes up spelling it’s isn’t “aw adorable”. that’s infantilizing. it’s just dyslexia bro, stop being weird. you guys make it sound like it’s a trait that’s attractive to you and it’s weird as hell. tubbo isn’t a soft childish person, stop trying to make him into one because he’s dyslexic.

ranboo repeating phrases/words or stuttering, or having any irregular speech pattern, is not something he needs to correct, nor is it something you should attempt to correct him on. it’s just how he speaks. leave it alone. it’s actually super engaging for ND folks to listen to.

karl has said he’s ND before and people ignore it for some reason. i can’t even begin to touch on all the ways people infanatalize karl dude. i really cant. also, for the dumbass who said “he’s just on the spectrum” on twitter, the autism spectrum is not a sliding scale from functional to nonfunctional. it’s more like a web graph of different strengths and things that are impacted. he literally shows ND traits all the time, like constantly moving, playing with his hands, etc.

tommy hasn’t said anything about being ND, but he does have ND traits so i’ll include him here. him being loud and having bursts of energy isn’t annoying. him talking fast isn’t annoying. him making noise constantly isn’t annoying. he’s probably hyperverbal. tommy has very little filter which is also an ND trait. all of the things people hate tommy for are reduced to traits used to diagnose ADHD.

my point is, our community is not great to neurodivergent creators.

people are so ready to support neurodivergency and educate themselves until ND people show traits in real life. you’re all fine when it’s people behind a screen talking about their experiences, but when real life people show those traits you’ve read about online, you find it annoying.

and maybe i should’ve phrased some of it better than “it’s not annoying” because yeah, it can be. but think about why you find it annoying, and think about what it’s based on.

also for the love of god stop trying to force creators to talk about being ND, or showing ND traits. it’s actually really fucking weird and an invasion of privacy to talk about their mental health and diagnoses. if i was a big streamer and people asked me to talk about being ND, i’d ignore the questions because 1) it’s uncomfortable and weird and i wouldn’t want every soul on the internet to know how i function and 2) because as soon as a creators says they’re ND they’re either reduced to their diagnosis or it’s ignored completely.

i get it. you like hearing about creators that share experiences with you. it’s comforting to hear these big cool people talk about stuff you’ve experienced negativity around. but it’s not your right to know about that shit. let creators have personal lives that don’t involve their fans. let creators have privacy.

#here’s my lil rant it’s not well worded but it has good points #i’m ND btw otherwise i wouldn’t talk on this #also if i were in technos place i would do the exact same thing he did because i have RSD and that shits terrifying #do your own research #but i’ll tell you this #it’s like when someone finds out about the smallest mistake you get white hot humiliation and paranoia that they’ll hate you #i can’t imagine what it would be like when there’s tens of thousands watching your every move #this is slowly becoming an account for me to yell about things i can’t on twitter #anyways #adhd #autsim #nuerodivergent #mcyt #minecraft youtubers #long post #wilbur soot #techno #technoblade #dream #dreamwastaken #tubbo #ranboo #karl #tommyinnit #please stop infantilizing them #greatest hits

[sirdust]

blitz has adhd - headcanon/interpretation masterpost, or something

i have adhd myself and my magic beams of neurodivergency have detected this bitch is adhd as fuck too. supporting evidence:

- impulsive, interrupting others’s words/actions and wasting money on horse-related purchases all the time: e.g. in ep1 he swoops in to assassinate martha since moxxie hesistated for five seconds (”ya snooze ya lose”) and immediately spends earnings from job in ep4 on a tacky horse toy

- drinks tons of coffee, mostly seen on instagram but also referenced in-show. many people with adhd self-medicate using caffeine drinks (coffee especially) since its neurological effects are a facsimile of prescription stimulants used to treat adhd

- his love for horses + the movie spirit (the latter of which is seen only on instagram bc copyright) reads very similarly to a hyperfixation to me. lots of people with adhd spend excessive amounts of money on hyperfocus/hyperfixation-related impulse purchases since it gives that dopamine hit we all crave so desperately

- one of blitz’s most interesting flaws we’ve seen so far is his inferiority complex, and his behavior reads to me as similar to experiences of rejection sensitive dysphoria (rsd). rsd is an oft-underresearched and difficult-to-treat symptom of adhd, but it involves extreme emotional distress at real or perceived rejection and while it often leads to periods of intense sadness, it just as frequently leads to equally intense fits of anger. blitz picks a death battle with fizz when he points out his social insecurity and is deeply upset when loona becomes angry with him in ep3. loona points out after this argument that “he’ll get over it, he always does”. while rsd episodes aren’t difficult to trigger and recur often, they aren’t long-lasting and usually only cause acute distress for a couple of hours.

- even aside from impulsivity and possible rsd, blitz is just kind of a strange and awkward dude. he’s universally rude and at times seems genuinely unable to understand certain social cues (”we’re in good hands since texts don’t make people angry”, also i only just saw that he has like a billion unread texts #relatable). he has no genuine friends at this point in the story and has presumably struggled to make meaningful connections for most of his life up to this point, which is an experience many people with adhd share.

- vivziepop has adhd. this isn’t evidence i just think it’s a cool bit of trivia to know and share with other adhd fans.

#helluva boss #op #long post // #didn't have time to throw this together yesterday but here it is!

[microcroft]

Speaking of Merlin fics, if you don't mind, do you have any recommendations? I'd really appreciate it since Big ADHD means I have little patience for finding good ones -.-'

okay this was sent back in april but tumblr is garbage and i didn't see i had any new messages until right now?? im so sorry Anyway i fuckin get that my dude, except like my adhd does the opposite specifically with merlin fanfiction for the past year which has been my hyperfixation and i have been using to cope with a multitude of issues so you are in luck (if you still want recommendations) because i created a collection of my favorite fics that i am adding to a lot because i read a, quite frankly, concerning amount of merlin fics (there are some non merlin/arthur in it but its mostly merlin/arthur fics)

https://archiveofourown.org/collections/bestfunnylittlemagictwinkfics but more specifically, the ones that immediately come to mind are the long but very good ones that live rent free in my mind, in no particular order, there are a bunch in the collection which are just as good but I am really tired right now and dont want to make this post extremely long so I just want to make sure you (and whoever else may be reading this) know about these ones:

Born of Magic - "Set after 1x13. When Arthur learns he is of magic, he decides it's time to grow out of Uther's shadows. Secrets are revealed, and Arthur comes to learn just how far his father is willing to go in his war against magic. With Merlin on his side, can Arthur build the kingdom he was destined to create?" Arthur has his own cool special brand of Once and Future King magic, merlin also he is adopted by a unicorn.

Para Bellum - "After Merlin goes missing, Arthur forges new alliances to repel a deadly threat to Camelot. Nothing will stop Arthur from finding Merlin, and nothing will stop Merlin from protecting Arthur -- no matter the cost." I will never get enough married Merlin and Arthur fics and this is

The Care and Keeping of Camelot - "With Arthur dead, Camelot's destiny has soured--if it was ever any good to begin with. Gwen is fed up with grief and mediocrity and takes matters into her own hands, returning to the start to make a better Camelot or break history trying. Knighthood, rekindling her first love, and Merlin's silly almanac are all just byproducts." Post Canon Gwen is sent back in time by Merlin fix Camelot using what they learned. Featuring Morgana and Gwen having homoerotic sword fighting lessons and Merlin and Gwen's mlm/wlw solidarity.

For Want of A Nail- "Fleeing from Essetir in the bloody beginnings of the Purge, Hunith finds herself on the doorstep of old friends. That's all it takes to untangle the skeins of destiny and weave a new tapestry." Canon rewrite set in an alternate universe where Merlin grows up with Leon as his adoptive big brother, he has a very good dog, he and Leon give morgana a puppy for her birthday (very important to me), there's a whole lot of pagan rituals (which i fucking love), and merlin is a badass with a staff and throwing knives.

pretty much every CaffeinatedFlumadiddle merlin fic I have read, they are genuine comedic gold and so fucking well written it blows my mind. but out of all of their fics my faves are: Calling the Middle Man (Lancelot's characterization in my head is now entirely based upon this fic) and Thick as Sorcerers (the cat scene had me dying, and also gwen and elyan's dynamic in this fic is so fucking good)

Next to You (It's The Rule) - In which Merlin and Arthur are pining for each other and basically married, and everyone knows it, Merlin is a little shit, and all of Camelot and other kingdoms love him and see him as their ruler because he is honestly running half the kindom. Merlin and Arthur cant cope with being separated from each other, and when they get into a fight the whole kingdom goes into a panic.

(how do i do a secondary bullet???) (i really do love this fic so much, i love reading merlin and arthur being dumbasses together and co-running camelot and the majority of this fic is so unique, funny and like exactly what i look for in fics, so please dont brush it off just based off of this but i want to state that im not a fan of the genuinely-calling-merlin-queen bit. it was funny at the beginning but it did get taken a bit too far at the end in my opinion. i get that it is fantasy medieval times and it makes sense that people probably dont quite grasp that there can be two kings, i could write a whole essay on this topic but in the end it does make me feel uncomfortable, a bit like forcing heteronormativity when you dont have to because its fantasy medieval times not actual medieval times, and misgendering- it honestly did trigger my dysphoria a bit at the end but there is so much in this fic that is so good I can't not recommend it.)

okay there we go im cutting myself off now. if you want any more fics or to talk about merlin at all hmu i mostly just send shit to my friend who has never watched the show but probably has an extensive knowledge on it just from the shit i have been sending her like every day for the past year lmao.

#merlin #merthur #fic rec #fearoffalling #life #haleigh gets talked to