#its the only way he can trust people

[qtubbo]

Ive actually been trying so hard at trying to figure out why people think qphil doesn’t care about qtubbo, and I mean specifically care nothing else. Cause you can argue tubbo’s not one of his most important people that’s fair, but also you don’t have to be at the top of a list for them to care. It’d also be really hard to argue that he doesn’t trust tubbo, and in that same vein not respect him at all. Their relationship is very complicated, and it is true that it’s way more onesided than people like to admit, but it’s not like Phil has just shown Tubbo zero attention or love. My best guess so far from all I’ve seen it’s because Phil fundamentally doesn’t understand who Tubbo is as a person, and has this very shallow view of him. So people have taken Phil’s mischaracterization of Tubbo as a sign that he doesn’t actually care for the real Tubbo? Idk I like to figure out how fandoms think… (oh also if you have your own ideas why just like tell me I’d love to know)

#I need a deeper reason then they just think Phil doesn’t trust tubbo its something internal #Because care doesn’t equal trust so even if it was that people wouldn’t go straight for that conclusion #Btw to me Phil does care for Tubbo he just doesn’t get Tubbo so he thinks Tubbo already understands that #For example him thinking tubbo has an ego when tubbo has very clear self esteem issues #Which is something most incudling his not very close friends have picked up on #He ignores the obvious about tubbo that break his idea of him #because to him he already knows tubbo so theres no need to seek out a greater understanding #Which is something I think is starting to break more recently if youll allow me to rant #Qsmp #In purgatory Tubbo did not change in any serious moral way and it was unlikely he would even looking at it before hand but phil was so sure #He did from the get go. The idea that tubbo could change so drastically is a heavy misunderstanding of who tubbo is ecause of that I think #Phils starting to realize his idea of Tubbo is off it’s not alligned to the actual person #Qsmp phil #Qsmp tubbo #But phil has bigger things to worry about right now so thats taking the back burner he can worry about the purple stuff only he can see

[thelien-art]

Day 2: Maglor of @feanorianweek

Kingship

Poppy = Sloth | Manipulation

I do think Maglor mourned when Maedhros got himself captured, I just also read Maglor as a manipulative power hungry character.

He probably convinced himself that Maedhros had died and ignored everything that proved otherwise, both as a poor coping mechanism and, subconsciously, seizing the power of being a king, although he never named himself one as that would give him trouble. He differently enjoyed the power and mourned, when Maedhros came back, for the power loss. He was happy to have his brother back of course. I don´t think he spoke against Maedhros choice to give the kingship to Fingolfin, even if he wanted it himself, as he did except Fingolfin to do something stupid and get himself killed eventually, and by agreeing he seemed more "civil" and the friendliest of his brothers, which would end up giving him political power, giving people the illusion that he´s the innocent and harmless of his family.

Maedhros | Celegorm | Caranthir | Curufin | Ambarussa | Nerdanel and Feanor

#beloved manipulative minstrel king #most of this is just my headcannon and how i read him as a character just ignore it if you dont like it #in his perfect world he would sit and play music while telling people what to do and everyone would love and respect him #when he was king he had help from caranthir and curufin with the things he didnt like or thought below him yk boring stuff like paperwork #and only did what he thought sounded fun or helped him keep support and power and of course just for the sake of being in control #i would have liked to give him a fox a cat or a snake but held on to the lion #as a way to show maedhros through it too if that makes sense #but thelien what does poppies have to do with manipulation #easy dried poppy seeds are drugs and was once used as medication and yes you can get high on them you just need a lot like a lot #which is why that if you need to take a drugtest and you have just eaten poppy seeds youll test positive but only on a very little #trust me its not gonna affect you #fun fact in some places its illegal to have red poppies in your garden because of this #still going on the flowers and deadly sins #maglor #makalaure #kanafinwe #tolkien #silmarillion #jrr tolkien #digital art #silm art #my art #feanorian week #feanorian week 2023 #feanorianweek

[dykedvonte]

thinking abt what you said with house viewing Benny as a son and I’m obsessed. Like. The man spent most of his life before the war presumably alone, and then after the bombs fell he was alone again, save for AI he himself devised. Then he decides to pull in some Tribes, and one kid shows promise! So sure, treat him well, train him, groom him to be his protege, then next thing you know UH OH he’s got developing paternal feelings towards this guy. Wanting some semblance of a family when the time has long since passed, yet fostering that feeling all the same seems so accurate for him. Benny meanwhile only views him as a boss, and not a particularly good one at that. makes me wonder how House must’ve felt when he found out about Bennys plans

I view it as House blames only himself for this, cause he kind of does in canon (strap in this is a long one).

When reflecting on the issue of Benny, House chastises himself first and foremost for not acting quickly enough when it comes to priming Benny. He describes Benny as being ambitious, ruthless and capable; compliments coming from a man like House. House has an ego and while he is logical enough to understand there was never any evidence Benny saw him as a father-figure, he lacks the humility to admit he let his own views on his relationship with Benny blind him to the activities happening behind the scenes.

I doubt that House was as aware as he makes out about what Benny was doing, he knew early on but certainly not early enough to stop Benny from hacking and obtaining a securitron along with getting the chip in the first place. I take it he was distracted by all the possibilities he was calculating of Vegas' success and growth with him steering and Benny as the new figure head, not because of any normal affection for Benny but the admiration of his capabilities. It's to be noted that House believed menial incentives (likely caps, booze, basic needs, etc..) were enough to keep Benny tame like the other Chairmen but, as evidenced by the Omertas and Mortimer in the WGS, this is not enough when it comes to more driven Vegas citizens. This implies he still undervalued Benny and created a space in which Benny felt the need to rebel.

House in my eyes is not sentimental in the traditional sense. I can imagine his pride was severely scorned as someone he certainly deemed dumber than him was, albeit only for a little, able to out-gambit him. It would definitely hit home seeing how his brother also betrayed him but I feel like that's why he's so apathetic when he tells the Courier to do as they see fit with Benny. I doubt the way he terrorized his brother brought him any emotional satisfaction other than a "Now who's in charge!" ego boost. Putting that same emotional intensity towards Benny isn't worth it because who does it benefit? Wasted time, wasted planning, and most importantly wasted potential are all he gets from continuing to be hands-on with Benny. I say the closest example is not being able to throw out old toys due to the memories attached but knowing it's necessary as they are broken or just taking up space for new ones, and then asking someone else to do it so you don't need to get caught up in the feelings of throwing something you put so much effort into. It's not Benny House cares about in my mind, not in a way that sounds healthy to any non-emotionally constipated individual, but what he could've represented for him, which is why he so quickly offers the same position to the Courier.

As for Benny's view on all of this, it was a long time coming. Benny didn't and doesn't believe House is a completely shitty boss. He admires what he's been shown and admits House knows how to run the strip, but disagrees with the directions. Ideologically, House is an anarcho-capitalist while Benny is just an anarchist. House wants to run the strip to profit, though money is not what he's concerned with being rich with anymore. Benny wants a free state that he wishes to become a place for the people, except for the Chairmen who would be on top (I like to remind people that Benny's motives were selfish but not for personal gain/power as was it for the people he actually saw as family). Benny was never looking for a father but a future. He was not interested in being adopted, or having the chairmen adopted, as bigger names still overshadowed in House's legacy.

Truly, it's easiest to summarize as House feeling strongly and thinking positively enough of Benny to start incorporating him into the future of Vegas (a huge honor actually) while Benny was so disillusioned by House's ego and indifference that he thought the only way Vegas could be the future is with House gone.

#tdlr House saw Benny as the perfect face of his Legacy while Benny saw his legacy as a stagnant mosquito infested pond #its more complex as house certainly would of been irate if he hadn't known and the courier came to kick benny's ass #but more someone being mad youre fucking with their things #i likely thing that even in a more traditional father son relationship House is conditional and would force Benny to confrom more to his #standards as I also believe the Chairmen are more tightly monitered due to bennys unique relation to house and being the first tribe #so itd be smothering and oppressive for someone like Benny even though imposing his beliefs and standards would be how House shows affectio #and fatherly praise which would result in Benny probably wanting to act out even more. like the only way a father son dynamic is healthy an #works is if house would relent some control and show he sees benny as an equal which would never happen cause its house but its still tragi #to me cause house has that longing for something more personal to him than Vegas and tries to fill it with progress cause its rather hard #to create those bonds in the state he is in and benny was the closest thing to that and even that he inadvertently ruined #but on benny house kinda ruined him cause the chairmen for all intents and purposes liked and trusted benny as a leader after bingo who #benny really only killed because of the illusions of grandeur house put into a young impressionable mind and how bingo refused to hear him #not to absolve him of his wrongdoings and being a dick but benny didnt just attack bingo he challenged him and won and in the end while #nostalgic none of the chairmen choose to leave and go back to the old way which says something cause they can leave #this is long and honestly should a seperate post on benny cause i have thoughts on him and how more people need to add his all roads traits #to get a cohesive picture of how hed really act #benny gecko #benny fnv #fallout #fallout new vegas #robert edwin house #mr house fnv #mr house #ask #anon #sorry if this is confusing I have very indepth thoughts on all aspects and possibilites on how unhealthy and power inbalancey anything #with house would be but this is so interesting cause its oddly vulnerable for house of all people to disclose this to the courier

[hecksupremechips]

God every day I think about Akane’s breakdown in door 3 because there really is no correct way to interpret that and every possibility makes me crazy. Like she sees this fucked up corpse whom Junpei (and the player, depending on how they play) believes is their friend Snake, but she knows that it’s Guy X. It’s a man she very intentionally put in the game for this very purpose, so that he could die horrifically and be displayed for everyone to see. And she has a full mental breakdown over being trapped in this room with the corpse, being trapped by Junpei, to the point where she rips out her hair and starts bleeding from how much she bangs on the door screaming to get out. And fuck, there’s so many possibilities like

Akane could be feeling genuine terror over the sight of the body, and with that remorse. She made this happen, she wanted this to happen, and now she’s forced to quite literally watch the damage she’s caused unfold. She can detach herself from his murder easily in other timelines where she doesn’t have to look at it, and she can sleep easy knowing that her hands are technically clean because she didn’t do the literal killing. But she can’t do that here, and she has to face the fact that not only did she happily cause this death, she failed her mission. She isn’t going to survive, and now this man is dead for nothing and everything is her fault

On the other hand, her entire breakdown could be completely fabricated in order to keep playing the role of the damsel in distress who is so innocent that the very sight of blood drives her to insanity. The interesting part about this is that if she could fake such a horrific breakdown, just how much of her personality a facade? We know she wants revenge, for everyone from Cradle to feel even an ounce of the pain she and so many others went through, but we don’t get to see the extent of how much she feels this way. We never hear directly from Akane about her feelings on any of the original organizers, just her note about her desire to punish them. She hates them, but does she see their deaths as a necessary evil, or does she feel joy and satisfaction at watching them go? It’s absolutely horrifying not knowing, not being able to see her true feelings, not knowing just how real or fake she is, the extent of her madness. Perhaps she doesn’t even know that herself

IN OTHER WORDS, it’s fucked

#zero escape #akane kurashiki #the truth lies somewhere in the middle im sure #but god both possibilities are so tasty #personally i think her reaction is fake to an extent like i think she does feel at least some joy over the murders #shes doing a good deed and ridding the world of evil #but i think that this is a rare moment where she actually thinks for a minute about what shes done and how its fucked #like shes never truly present in the moment she can never fully grasp the severity of the trauma #and i kinda want to believe that this route is a bit unexpected for her #like she had to have known it was a possibility but its entire existence relies on junpei betraying the others #and i think that she was ready to write it off as a rare possibility so she didnt worry about it too much #because the only thing holding junpei back from choosing door 3 is aoi saying that picking it would require leaving people to die #and akane has nothing but her trust that junpei is good and wouldnt do something so horrible to rely on #but then it happens and she cant handle the uncertainty she wasnt ready for ANY of this to happen #not only did junpei betray the others he betrayed HER in so many ways he doesnt realize #he did what he thought was good for june but its exactly the opposite hes not only damned her #but he trapped her in a room with the disgusting corpse that she put there and everything throws her off #and she has to confront that even junpei is unpredictable and is capable of evil and that she herself has fucked up so much #she cant escape this without literally STEPPING INTO the entrails of someone she killed #and its all just too much and she completely loses it #so yeah for me its less a mental breakdown cuz she feels bad for murder #but more a breakdown because shes been betrayed and caught off guard and has a brief realization of how terrifying her actions are #those may sound the same but they arent please guys please :( #as you can see im very normal about this and good god 999 is so fucking good

[rickybaby]

Nobody understands Daniel Ricciardo Like Red Bull do

#the way it took only one race for daniel to show he was never the problem at mclaren #nobody understands daniel like redbull do #its such a simple statement but soooo - #when you think about christian horner saying this is not the daniel we knew. the drives he had with us #like he couldnt understand who that Daniel was. couldn't understand how he could end up where he was with mclaren #i just cant imagine how draining those two years at mclaren was for him having to change the basic core of himself as a driver and #having to go against his won instincts and the first race back? AT giving him that trust and confidence in himself by listening to him #and for the people constantly saying why redbull is giving a second chance to a driver who's apparently finished - #he doesnt have to prove himself to them. they know what he can do. they know how to get that performance out of him #daniel ricciardo

[bericas]

josé olivarez / yves olade (alt. version) / cab calloway / oscar romero

#twedit #sceoedit #tw #sceo #HI TEAM. I FEEL CRAZY #scott mccall #theo raeken #so its the first scene with scott and theo. scott recognizes theo but doesn't instantly trust him. scott is coming off of s4 #he needs people to be good because he knows he can be bad. there has to be redemption because he needs to be redeemed #his own goodness doesn't feel inherent and so believing in the good of others is how he can believe in himself #he worries love is violence. he still can't trust theo on sight. #he trusts him by that scene in 510 where he says his friends have left him and theo says he can get them back for him. #theo is why he has lost his friends. theo has made this happen. theo has made scott love him so he can best hurt him. love is violence #and then the hug which breaks scott open. the skepticism on his face vs the way he clings to theo with his chin pressed into his shoulder #face half hidden in the bulk of theo. the way his chin falls onto theo's shoulders the same way when theo impales him #the way theo nestles closes in both gifs. the way both are acts of violence in different ways. #so we have the doubt and the trust in the first set and the act that finally made scott fully trust theo #and the act that fully destroyed that trust in the middle #in the last pair we have theo back in the position where he needs scott to trust him. scott wants to. the slow rebuild of their trust #bc now theo is vulnerable and scott cannot help himself! he can't. but he still tries. there's only love and violence #and then the scene that shows scott is willing to trust him again. theo at scott's back with claws raised. #theo standing still instead of walking toward or walking away. #scott looks to theo and theo looks away. but he raises his claws for scott. the violence we must do #the end is the real beginning #(also with the yves olade quote that's not the one in the book but it is a version circulating! and it worked for this!! so!!!!)

[warlordfelwinter]

fucked up in the club thinking about how the elpis flower turns hope colored when everyone is excited about the warding scales but the moment the wol is alone in their room it's black again. and how only a few hours with their friends have it blazing so brightly colorful again

#presumably green is happy color #just the way it's always dark when fiver is alone with it #he's so.........hermes coded #the difference is he has friends he can trust and lean on and who understand him i suppose #instead of just telling him to try yoga or simply stop being sad #anyway now i'm just thinking about fiver trying to hide the flower when its black #one of the scions getting a peek at it #realizing it only lights up colorful when there's other people around and the group emotion is overriding fiver's #i mean they all already know he's depressed that became Extremely Obvious in shadowbringers #fel's ffxiv #endwalker lb #oc: fiver

[falldogbombsthemoon]

Yall haha, my dad made it so I have wifi access for one hour a day. which I can use from like 14 to 21 german time. So once my mobile data is dead, I will not be active that much ig. So please dont think I'm abandoning yall.

#vent following #its fucking ridiculous. im not a fucking child. neither is my brother #no idea what my dad wants to achieve through that. “so you can relaxe more” yeah no. being on the internet is my fucking coping mechanism. #there is nothing about relaxation there. also he did that so we'll to go sleep earlier. if it really was about that. #he would need to force me to sleep. you cant just change my sleep schedule by that #anyway its fucking ridiculous as i was on a good way of getting to sleep more early but if imma do that now he will think like #“wow. im such a good dad. i fixed all the problems my child could possibly have.” which is absolutely not the case #yk. ive always fucking struggled with feeling like people cant trust me. #and him not trusting my abilities to be responsible for myself is not helping #and then boom. im feeling shitty but wait haha my coping mechanism is currently set offline. #and like also im in extra stress atm bc school is fucking with me #not only are like a bunch of tests on the way but my fucking anxiety in school is getting so bad. #i cant sit in that facility without feeling like imma have a panic attack any minute #i am in need of fucking professional mental help. and at least one diagnosis. i dont want to do shit to myself. #but in this house hold. emotions are not talked about. feelings are suppressed and mental health is an illusion #i NEED to see a fucking psychiatrist. but i dont feel like i can to my parents about that. and technically i could go without them knowing #but someone needs to educate them. and i mentally cant be that someone #and guess whos sitting in their room crying and writing about that rn. not studying for their tests tomorrow and the day after. #i bet if my parents wouldnt have done that shit with my wifi i would be studying rn #quinns daily yapping post #rather #quinns personal hell

[mediumsizedpidegon]

thinking about Shang Qinghua as a calamity again...

#svsss #shang qinghua #technically counts as tgcf? #just the idea of sqh dying and coming back is so compelling because in canon he literally just going through the motions. he's given up. #he doesn't WANT to die (from mbj's hand– from cang qiong's fall) but that's all he sees. it's the only end he can imagine to his story. #so the act of getting him to the point where he WANTS to stay– where it doesn't matter that death has come to take him he's not DONE YET is #revolutionary to his character (his ‟character‟– his role as well) in of itself and requires some canon divergence to justify it #and it's INTENSELY interesting to imagine him getting there #Imagine: An Ding is cruel. It is cruel and inefficient and its cruelties only make it more so. Sqh is ‟awarded‟ with the role of Peak Lord #of An Ding (this crown of barbed wire). And sqh doesn't MEAN to change the plot but– it's awful here! It's so awful that it's OFFENSIVE #and before sqh knows it two years have passed and An Ding is a mess of growing pains: of infrastructure torn down and rebuilt #but it's... better. It's hard work. It undeniably sucks and makes sqh cry from frustration all the time! Balancing the fixing of all the #shit his shizun left broken while staying on top of his usual duties is a procession of sleepless nights and little pains. (perhaps sqh has #growing pains too. change is hard for all that it's necessary.) #and then– and THEN! He's on his way to a trade meeting or spying for mbj or something else: it's doesn't matter. #And however the stage is set sqh dies and– sqh's life is finally starting to NOT suck! yqy has been asking for his future plans and sqh has #been answering. qqq found a scrap of a picture book he wrote when he was a senior disciple and demanded he finish it because it #‟had potential to increase literacy‟! He has a second command that he trusts won't stab him at the slightest provocation! His life is busy #and more than a little hellish but it's HIS. He's changed things even he didn't mean to. #An Ding's HIS. he got rid of the assholes and poured so much WORK into the people left and then the people who came later. #All of it boils down to this: it's unfair. it's too soon. it wasn't supposed to happen like this. #and so sqh dies for the second time and screams himself back to existence if not life. #the system cracking beneath his teeth– puppeteer turned to power for the puppet to consume. #(So there is a ghost on An Ding for all that only the ghost knows it.)

[gregoftom]

this was homoerotic even for them

#tomgreg #they are PAINFUL tbh the way that greg was like you can trust me but the thing is tom DOES trust him #WHAT DO YOU THINK and greg says maybe you should and tom is like OK I'LL DO IT #LIKE??? LOL he trusts greg's council. he's unsure then greg says maybe you should and he's like ok!!!! girl #he also trusts greg to get drugs i mean yeah ken got some from him but ken didn't really care about its quality and took really bad coke lol #and is an addict/has previously been one and so far as we know tom isn't/hasn't and he would care about the quality lol #so he trusts greg to get the good shit #''but this is not a thing'' idk about that tom greg was originally expendable and now he's one of your fps lol #ALSO THE INTRICATE RITUALS OF TOUCHING HANDS. So good. and ''want it?'' ''thanks'' #i'm not sure if greg's the only dog here. you want it? huh! you want it! here you go! #the FAST written on the board between them when tom takes it!!!! the shots in this show A #again i'm not done but there'll be another post dooooont yall worry. great time for annoying people!!!!

[snekdood]

here's the thing about writing villains-

you're never going to get ppl to stop writing villains who want to control everything, who are evil for evils sake, who are manipulative and liars or whatever. who are just bad people who seem irredeemable- most peoples idea of a villain is whatever they fear most.

and just because there might be stereotypes about certain demographics surrounding these ideas doesnt mean they are inherently bad to have in your writing in general. the reason those stereotypes exist is because people wrongfully assume that a certain demographic is a certain way either through their own fears or from propaganda/conspiracy theories they're cooking up or have consumed-- which are all built around fear.

its normal to fear someone who wants to control everything. the problem comes in on whom you're projecting that on to and whom you think wants to do that. it's prolly not a good idea to make a villain- who wants to control the world and all of its money- jewish. its probably not a good idea to make a villain- whos a controlling manipulative abusive liar who will do everything to get their way in spite of who they hurt- someone with npd. it's probably not a good idea to make a terrorist-y type villain a muslim or of middle eastern decent. it would probably be a good idea to try to avoid adding stereotypes surrounding whichever demographic you're concerned about your character being misread as to your villain if you're already worried they're gonna be misinterpreted by uncharitable people online.

in my case, im making a vampire villain who wants to control everything. it would probably be really fuckin dumb of me if i added a bunch of jewish stereotypes to him along with that, considering theres a lot of antisemitism in how a lot of vampires in different forms of media were conceptualized and a whole ass conspiracy theory that jewish people already do control everything.

i dont think "wants to control the world" or even "secretly does control the world" is necessarily a bad place to start when creating a villain, it's all about what you do after that point. and its also all about keeping in mind different stereotypes/conspiracy theories/tropes/etc. around that idea that have harmed different people. it only becomes antisemitic if you draw the character the way antisemites draw jewish people, or add a bunch of conspiracy theory fueled ideas to the character, or add a bunch of jewish iconography around the character, or just make him in some way readibly jewish or just straight up make him jewish. the more you educate yourself on stereotypes/conspiracy theories/harmful tropes/etc. surrounding whichever demographic you're trying to avoid making your villain be misread as and actually avoid trying to make that character that way, i think the better off you'll be.

remember that those stereotypes/conspiracy theories/tropes/etc. all exist because someone wanted to make whichever demographic into a villain. those fears already exist in peoples minds, they just want a place to put them, and a lot of people will find a scapegoat to place them on to. it's not that those fears at their basic level are wrong or bad to have or wrong to use as a jumping point in your writing, it's that people sometimes project those fears on to other people, typically marginalized people, and again, for propaganda's sake or bc of their own fears of other people or whatever. if you avoid projecting those fears on to demographics targeted by said fears and thus avoid making your villain of said demographic in every way that you possibly can, the better off you'll be.

people will be uncharitable and read things in bad faith no matter what you do. if you're a creative, you already know the internet spends no time (and hardly any actual critical thought) in dismantling something they've deemed problematic, likely because they dont even like the thing they're critiquing but need to make it seem like its somehow a Moral dislike of the thing. ya gotta ignore it and have faith in at least some of the people viewing what you create to actually hear what you're trying to say. you also gotta take into consideration actual constructive criticism of what you create, because you might have a blind spot in this regard. try to avoid listening to people who seem off the bat antagonistic and demanding bc they likely dont even have a justified reason to be mad at you over if they're acting that way. if they have something they want to say to you bc they actually wanna change your mind, they're not gonna approach you apathetically, dismissively, passive aggressively, as if they know everything and are above you and are the most moral person in the room- people like that dont actually care if you change whatever it is you're doing and just want a self-justified reason to be mad at you that makes them look good for critiquing you, if they did want to change your mind they would try to approach you in the least confrontational way that that particular individual can manage.

ultimately, listen to people actually effected by these things so you know what to avoid and figure out how to not hurt them.

#i am by no means an expert on islamaphobia or antisemitism or anything. i dont think anyone is but the closer you are to being #effected by whichever -isms i think the closer u are to being an expert. so if anyone effected by said -isms more than I am thinks #im wrong about this i'd like to know. if im doing something harmful I want to know. so- unironically- please tell me if you #think something about what ive said here is wrong. i want to avoid hurting people and can only do so if ppl tell me how im doing it. #otherwise- if no one has any real genuine concerns of what im saying here-- i said what i said. #tldr; villain who wants to control the world? probably fine to make. #villain thats readibly jewish in many if not most ways and you made his motive controlling the world? most definitely *not* fine to make #whether that 'readibly jewish' means he's stereotypically jewish. he seems like someone who is plausibly jewish. or that his jewish-ness #is informed by a shit ton of conspiracy theories- doesnt make a difference. dont make a villain thats read as jewish in any capacity #with that motive. i'd only trust someone whos jewish + a good writer to be able to execute that in a productive & harmless way. #writing #the question isnt 'is writing a villain whos horrible in these ways bad' necessarily. its more like. whomst are you ascribing those motives #i mean obviously if you make a villain thats indistinguishable from how an antisemite might but just say hes not jewish... theres prolly #a problem. but thats why i say you need to actually EDUCATE YOURSELF on the shit surrounding x demographic so you know what to #avoid. the difference is you actually care enough to try to avoid it. shitty ppl are trying to find a way to do it w/o getting caught.

[speedyowl152]

Something i find fun, if Adrien and Félix are sentimonsters, is Adrien's feather allergy. Aside from the dramatic irony.

An allergy is where the body incorrectly labels an object as a threat, and the immune system reacts, or even dangerously overreacts, in ways which could be threatening to the person it's trying to protect.

If Adrien is a senti, then he's made from a feather, that's his soul. His allergy is targeting something that is already part of his being and biology. That means it's not an allergy, it's an autoimmune disease.

Allergies are genetic, as are predispositions to autoimmune diseases, and Adrien and Félix are genetically identical, though we don't know if Félix shares his allergy. It's possible it hasn't been activated yet. His odds of developing this could be heightened by a bunch of factors; illnesses, food, sunlight.

I'm excited to see if he'll share it or not, if being around duusu will be good for him (someone who understands, to befriend and vent to like Plagg is for Adrien) or bad for him (y'know, a health hazard).

Adrien having an autoimmune disease, maybe he's on immunosuppressants, maybe he's not. I think that could further explain some of Gabriel's actions, not justify them but make them make a little more sense.

After all, the feathers are in the rings, maybe that's a small part of why he hasn't been given his yet. Maybe it's part of why Gabriel has so little physical contact with him, he could give his kid a rash or worse.

If your kid has a weakened immune system and your wife is dying or gone, trying to keep that kid inside, reducing his and your own contact with people, especially other kids - because kids spread diseases like wild fire. I get it. It makes me feel really bad for them. Adrien doesn't even understand what his father's protectiveness is about, besides just losing Emilie. And Gabriel can't even begin to have that conversation with him without everything coming out. About why his feather allergy is such a big deal, about papillon and his wife.

Anyway I'm just thinking about how he ended up letting him go to school. About how he let Nino give him a party but absolutely would've been advising for it to be outside in the open air rather than letting a load of strange children into his clean house.

He really wasn't that bad of a dad at the start. But Nathalie's right, he's getting worse and worse. And I'm worried about how he'll cope and what he'll do without her, now that Adrien is the only close person to him that he has left. Beyond whatevers going on with Tomoe anyway.

#i dont like villains who are evil because theyre evil. theres always logic and understanding behind it #and i like how with miraculous you only need a few hcs for the villains to make sense and be human #chloe and lila are messed up from the absense of their parents. chloes spoilt and lonely #and lilas learnt she can manipulate her way to whatever she wants because her parents dont care enough to check. shes lonely too #and she gets rewarded everytime her manipulation works in her favour. its why she keeps doing it. #she makes friends the only way she knows how when she feels so different being constantly uprooted and neglected #félix has his life and freedom under threat. hes been working from the start to free himself #all while watching lb & cn destroy his kin everyweek. as his uncle controls his brother and keeps making new sentis to be sent to die #and gabriels the kind of person who simply cannot be trusted to hold power alone. and fundementally misunderstands other people #he doesnt know how to empathise and now he wields an emotion detecting miraculous he never needs to try. #its making him more and more self centred as his confidence is continuely knocked by children and time continues to pass without emilie #and hes managed to find a way to become even more alone #and nathalie just wants to do her best by the agrestes because shes come to love this family as if it were her own #and now shes realised enabling gabriel has only made things worse for everyone involved #i just. i like that stuff where theres logic beyond revenge on an accident or just sheer malice #where there isnt one root of all evil character #ml spoilers #ml s5e2 spoilers #ml s5e1 spoilers #evolution spoilers #multiplication spoilers #sentimonster theory #dont come at me to tell me im enabling abusers or being ableist or something okay #i literally have an autoimmune disease. i literally had 5 diseases at once last week. #i hate crowds and im crushingly lonely living in the closet at my parents #i will kin adrien and shove headcanons on him with hope itll end happily when they win as much as i please and you cannot stop me #hes immunosuppressed too i just called it ive manifested it get absolutely fucked #i wanna go to school/work and make friends and gain the courage to slowly claim back my identity for myself #and i will live that through a fictional 15 year old cat boy if i want. fight me. #own post

[dimitrscu]

i want malenia to have unbreakable poise… and all her attacks one shot you.. and she heals back to full, so to add insult to injury as you’re dying you see her health bar go back to 100%.. and then she tea bags you as the “you died” screen pops up and a laugh track starts playing

#look this is funny because the way some people talk about her fight you’d think this is how it actually is #‘malenia’s too hard so you have to cheese her to win’ imagine admitting that out loud to the internet #it’s the same vibe as that copy pasta #where that journalist said he used cheats to beat sekiro and didn’t feel bad about it #‘you cheated not only the game but yourself…’ lmao #tbh though i’ve noticed a bit of a running theme with these types of comments and it has a little less to do with the fight #and a little more to do with the fact she’s a woman #they say all the disgusting crap they can think of and it so obvious #the comments about her disability too are just… it’s exhausting at this point tbh #souls games bring out the best and worst in people #her fight is hard there’s no doubt about it #but the way they make out its impossible is so stupid #she has two attacks that can be difficult to deal with but there’s plenty of clips out there showing you how #and trust me if i can learn to do it then anyone can

[godsfavoritescientist]

As someone who is aspec myself, I love the idea of aroacespec Ford within the context of billford. *Especially* Ford grappling with a lifetime of bafflement about romantic and sexual attraction, and then feeling *some* kind of powerful emotion about Bill and getting excited about it like "this is it! This is the attraction thing that everyone always talks about! I'm finally experiencing it for someone, I'm doing 'humaning' correctly!!!" and maybe he's correctly identified it, or maybe its something else, such as queerplatonic attraction, or scientific fascination, but either way, feeling something like this for someone for the first time that feels more genuine than any of his attempts to feel heteronormative love in the past for an *eldritch god* is a whole other thing for him to grapple with, like, the internal confusion of "Why am I feeling this for the first time for a non-human entity? Does that cancel out the increased normalcy of me feeling This Kind of Love? Does it outweigh feeling Love and make me even weirder??"

And maybe, with any luck, this could end with Ford realizing that it *doesn't matter* what kind of love and/or affection and interest he and Bill have towards eachother, and it doesn't matter how much he conforms to society's ideals for what a human being "should be like." It doesn't *have* to be romantic for them to want to be together from now til the end of time. And even if sometimes their relationship might seem like it crosses into romantic and/or sexual territory, *they're* the ones who get to define it, and the multiverse is the limit. They don't *need* to confine the way they see their love for eachother to the human definitions and expectations for how people should feel and act within a long term relationship. And if humanity thinks that makes Ford less human, well, he doesn't fucking care, because what has the seemingly-always-just-out-of-reach ideal of "being human" that society has pushed upon him ever done for him except make him feel intensely isolated and unworthy? It doesn't matter if society hands him the title of "human" that they've cruelly dangled over his head his whole life or not. He is living the life he wants to lead, in the company of the person he cares for most, and that is all that truly matters.

#aroace billford #not gonna say anything either way on bill's sexuality because im very hesitant to call the nonhuman evil guy aro and/or ace. #and bills sexuality doesnt matter here. you dont need to define it in order to say 'bill enjoys spending time with ford' #ford really truly Does Not Care if bill is 'capable of love' or whatever amatonormative society is so obsessed with #Why Does It Matter if Bill is 'capable of love.' Why Does It Feel Like That's Sometimes Brought Up As Proof That He Is 'More Evil' #the fucked up things that bill Does are what make him evil in canon. not whatever people think he can or cant feel. #it feels like throwing ford under the bus when people say 'bill isnt capable of love' tbh #because wondering if oneself is 'capable of love' in the amatonormative sense is Such an Aspec experience #and tbh? having an intimate relationship with a being that isnt sure if he's capable of love sounds great! #ford can be with bill without worrying if he's loving bill 'the right way' or 'enough for bill to be happy' or whatever #he can just Be. and he can trust that bill is perfectly okay with literally any reasons ford has for wanting to be wifh him #he doesnt have to try and pinpoint what kind of feelings he has for bill because it doesnt matter to bill #and that is Such a Relief for ford #of course all of this is ignoring the fact that bill was only ever using ford as a tool to get what he wants #but im talking about prebetrayal fords perspective! these are his thoughts based on the info he had at the time! #its still very meaningful for ford! bill betrayed him but that doesnt erase the way ford felt prebetrayal #someone turning out to be a liar doesnt completely undo the things they made you realize about yourself while you were together #which also REALLY complicates fords feelings post betrayal. he cant COMPLETELY dismiss everything. #otherwise he would be dismissing the good realizations he had about himself too. #original post #tags essay #long post #kinda

[dontstandmedown]

Just started watching hannibal and i dont see what this guy is doing wrong. as far as i can tell he's just a gay man who loves to cook fancy meals for his friends

#Im enjoying it so far suprisingly! Im not big on crime shows usually bc all of the #A) intense copaganda #B) repetitive/boring narratives #C) graphic & often fetishistic depictions of violent crimes against women #And i mean hannibal does hit A and C-ish but the story is sooo so fascinating esp the dynamic btwn hannibal/will/abigail #They are sick and twisted #Will is interesting autistic rep as well im glad they leaned into the hyperempathy thing bc that shit SUCKS #and no one ever talks about it bc if you call yourself highly empathetic you sound like such an asshole. #but like it can genuinely be dangerous esp. for women bc it makes us more trusting & therefore more vulnerable to manipulation/abuse #I don't know how to judge the copaganda yet since ive only watched s1. So far its like. #The fbi is generally accepted as a force of good. criminals are all those regular people! And the fbi agents lock the bad guys up! #We'll add a throwaway line abt how law enforcement are among the most likely to be serial killers #And we'll have one of our FBI agents be framed for murder #but dont worry hes still one of the good guys. He works for the fbi how could he not be?! #Im oversimplifying things ofc. the characters are portrayed as flawed human beings and thus the bureau is shown to make mistakes #But as of right now the show had not explored the systemic issues w/ law enforcement #I hope this will change bc i think that would elevate the story so much #And from where I'm at in the story there's definitely a way for the story to move forward with this perspective (mostly with will's arc) #But this is american network television so. i have my doubts #Regardless it is super interesting to analyze this show (if you could not tell by my tag essay that barely scratches the surface) #lots to chew on for sure #<- im sorry i couldnt resist #hannibal

[randomszzz]

Joshua, Probably*: Life is pain and I’m under no obligation to make the afterlife any better.  In fact, it would be cruel of me to send you back without making sure you’re properly prepared for it, I’m doing you a favor.  A humanitarian like me loves people, after all.

#joshua #twewy #ntwewy #the world ends with you #Neo The World Ends With You #okay the humanitarian line is another day joshua who is definitely not Our Fucking Joshua but it fit too much to ignore #*Every thought about joshua needs to be accompanied by this as far as I'm concerned. I don't trust him and if I think something about him #its likely wrong he'll go out of his way to prove me wrong just to spite me #uh usually there's more coherent qualifiers but the only counterindicator leaping out aat me is using another day joshua #instead of ours which doesn't amount to much #I'll definitely look at this later and smack my head but in this second it pretty thoroughly checks out #prompt for this thought: joshua a bunch of reapers and players are suffering and being erased #joshua: here's me playing the world's tiniest violin #no but actually as immensely frustrating as it is why would joshua take exception to players or reapers being erased or suffering #its categorically worse in neo but its always been a part of the game and Joshua now believes they can overcome it #Joshua has faith in his proxies and the people of shibuya and wants to see them triumph. prove that they can. #if they suffer and some are lost along the way isn't that just life(death). nbd. he'd interfere if things took a turn for the worse #but THEY HANDLED THINGS JUST FINE #head in hands joshua why are you like this #even if he's just covering that he couldn't do anything (I don't really buy this explanation but acknowledge its possibility) #hes still so flippant to nekus face about what neku and his friends went through #neku's incredible he doesn't really respond to that line I don't know whether its better described #as acceptance or dismissal #Joshua: that was fine Neku: can I go home now #both I guess??? #hey like half my joshua thoughts made it into this tag dump ah the relief of not having to be coherent #Joshua Kiryuu