#its tiny Tuesday

[bitchboi-gogurt]

my fucking stylus ran out of battery power this is what i get for drawing fucking grimace chussie😭😭😭

#goddammit #getting chevenge for his chussie #the chussie curse #i have an art project due tuesday😭 #chunter got his chevenge #since when have AAAA batteries existed??? #FOUR A's??? #its so TINY even

[atypi-cals]

I think im trapped in this mall...

(Edit by me. Original photo by my partner under the cut)

#idk what to tag this #photo edit #aesthetic #liminalcore #prism.exe #mall is international village mall in Vancouver #its. its so cool but it was so unsettling while we were there. there was just an empty hallway. with tiny drops of blood in it. #idk mall death makes me have a lot of feelings in general #but even more so when the mall is so. strange. there is not a single normal mall in Vancouver theyre all so weird. #ive been to west edmonton mall and that one was more normal than literally every mall i visited in vancouver on tuesday

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#well. today was a nice day of not doing anything but drawing really. theres an au where i went to art school and am a happier person lol #except not really bc im sure my head would ruin that too. anyway. its a shame i have to return to the pain tomorrow. i have so much to grade #plus a paper to write plus data to work with. a protocol to figure out. and an exam to study for and a final project thatll kill me #god. i also have to get ready for lab Monday. christ. and what shall i say to my therapist Tuesday? well we could try to tackle the deep set #looming issue that prevents me from getting better in our tiny 50min session or i could be like listen. just fucking listen. let me give u #the case 4 and against me having adhd so i can stop feeling fucking nuts. just like give me feedback. ya kno? #it would b inattentive bc im not hyper unless im losing my mind and bordering on hyp0mania. but my focus is something i cant control #executive functioning has always been a problem but now im so worn down im in danger of actual consequences. and its not just things i dont #wanna do. im not just anxiously avoiding. i cant start tasks and stick with them. i flip back and forth and get nothing done. i spiral #sometimes for hours. im not doing anything fun im just not doing anything. frozen in anguish. i dont even wanna think abt how much money ive #lost by not filling out reimbursement sheets which arent hard to do. theyre easy i just never do them. why??? i dont fucking kno. but im not #forgetful. im thinking constantly abt these things. i just cant make them happen. theyre stuck buffering. i do have memory issues tho #my short term working memory is like that of a literal child. so i cant follow complex instructions. i constantly need new info. constantly #need sound. spoken words plus music at the same time. but the main reason i need an answer to this is the reading issue. which is that im #dyslexic but also my thoughts r like an interfering frequency. without realizing ill b thinking and not reading. its a problem no matter #what im reading. its severely disruptive. i will physically read out loud to try to hold my attention in place and still get distracted by #my own head. do u kno how frustrating it is to read something aloud 3 times and not know wtf u just read bc u arent thinking abt anything #interesting u would rsther b reading but u can't fucking pay attention long enough. genuinely if its not adhd and i cant get medication to #fix my focus issues i dont kno wtf im gonna do. im so bad at reading and its extremely frustrating. but is it just dyslexia? idk what i #described doesn't fucking seem normal or like a reading problem. sounds like a focus issue. so riddle me that #idk ive got adhd on both sides of my family plus my focus fluctuates with ny hormones plus homones possibly induce hyp0mania. like i mean #ive got other issues which make a diagnosis difficult to parse but like i feel like that's decent evidence for possibly adhd? my friend said #she was always worried she had a brain tumor before she was diagnosed. to me ive always felt like my brain is full of holes. im missing the #parts that would let it operate correctly. the frontal lobe is just fucked. ugh. i wonder how much accommodation i could get from the #disability office if i actually went to them. i wont bc im fucked up and i dont think they could actually do anything for me at this stage #but alas im curious. ugh. y do i do this to myself? i kno y but not enough time for that in 50min. bad attitude mostly. half my brain #just craves death. the other half is just trying to tread water but its hard with someone trying to drown u. so its all fucked #unrelated

[painted-maypole]

Tiny owl ❤️

#tiny tuesday #my cat always stares at me like an owl #its cute but unnerving

[cheylouwho]

interesting convo about ao3 character tag numbers with some friends in the society today and it made me really consider how much ao3 is a tiny snapshot of the history behind sp fanfic. For example, Gregory only has a few hundred fics that feature him on ao3, but if we were talking FF.net or livejournal, sites that were more populated when he was more of a fandom staple (im looking at you, 2012, you beautiful bastard), I feel like the numbers would be Much higher

#its always interesting to think about this 25 year old fandom that has spanned every inch of the internet we know today #and the internet of the past #how much is lost #how much is modern fandom representative of 25 years of history #the truth? not much at all #we are but a tiny blip here and now #many before #many after #gettin thoughtful on a fucking tuesday morning

[ahauntedcowboy]

Y’ALL I FINISHED CROCHETING MY BLANKET FOR THE BABY GOATS

#eri's crafts #im so proud of myself!!! #its my first blanket ever #i think i probably would change the size dimensions a bit for the next one #but i started on like tuesday and finished it in four days #its very tiny for baby goats #but it looks nice!!!! #also the goats aren't due until next month aksdfhaksdf #im early but JUST in case #might make another one...👀

[lecliss]

I bet my neighborhood's property value is lower than average for my area from all the military practice bombing violently shaking the houses like once a week

#only just thought about this cuz the house just now shook harder than it ever has before #and i thought one of my uncles was the angriest hes ever been in his life and just slammed the front door #but no. its the fucking practice bombing #for the first time in my life it actually pissed me off #i know its kinda expected when you live in a military area. but like. there has to be line right? #personal #actually. i wonder if the houses around here were built to handle the shaking #cuz id be worried about old wood getting fucked up from that and then suddenly your house collapses #cuz the fucking us military loves to practice their routine for bombing tiny villages full of civilians on a tuesday morning 🙃

[museenkuss]

Tocade by Rochas? Nirvana Bourbon by Elizabeth and James? Whispers in the Library by Maison Martin Margiela? Lalique Le Parfum by Lalique? ✨💋🪞✨

Oh darling, thank you sm for these recommendations!!!!!! 💕💕💕💕 I’ve had the Lalique and MMM ones on my radar but nirvana bourbon is new to me and it sounds so nice! I think you’ve mentioned Tocade before & ever since I’ve been trying to hunt it down 👀 it sounds amazing & might be just what I need…

#✨💋🪞 #ask #Flakon #I’ll have to try the MMM on Tuesday. I think I’ve only tried Jazz Club before #we only have a tiny Sephora here and I REALLY don’t like the atmosphere #it’s very…tacky? maybe because it’s so cramped #so I usually just rush in & out of the perfume department when I really need something #I much prefer Douglas & Galeria for their layouts. they give most scents the space they need #BUT!! they also don’t have a few S has. so sometimes I’m forced to go into that cramped cellar of a store #with its ‘B is for…Burberry’ stickers and so on. #but I also just don’t like the colour scheme. the black/white/pink…hmmmmngh ugly. #and everything always seems a little. sticky. & you only encounter teens there. or American tourists. #plus I always feel like TikTok only gets their scents from there so it’s like. the FragTok store to me. good girl store. :/. #<- pointless rant #what I’m saying is: I’ll try the MMM 😭💕 it sounds really nice!!!

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

lol by far my favorite part of cohabitating is getting to pick Which Room To Experience Noise In, because i'm sure as shit not going to find anywhere that's Quiet

#text #personal #whine whine whine #mom just started watching tv #bro gaming #dad snoring in room next to mine #all completely inescapable #its dark its cold its wet its a tuesday night in fucking November its not like i can go anywhere to Escape #loud all day at work #loud in the car commuting back #loud here #my tiny kingdom for some goddamn quiet

[bunnyb34r]

Holy shit my fatigue is so bad today. Like I'm not "I need a nap ASAP" tired (I mean I could nap) but "holy shit I cannot be upright any longer I'm fucking exhausted" tired

Honestly suprised I was able to shower okay, but I did kinda have to hype myself up to do it :/

This shit sucks so bad... I miss having energy... I miss not feeling like shit every day

I haven't felt "healthy"* since I was 12. I think puberty was when my nervous system was like "oh so we're like permanently gonna be this stressed... oh" and just gave out bc that's when my cfs started. Never stood a chance

*I mean I didn't ever feel like a normal healthy child, but I felt a hell of a lot closer to healthy than now

#marquilla #is it the long covid? is it long covid part iii? is it 'It's March™️' (worst time of the year stress wise) is it bc my ptsd has been #triggered and shit the past week and my body is tired of that shit? am i sick? is it work stress? who knows!! (: #i was busting ass at work today bc i recovered like 1/4 my area then focused on labeling my boxes for inventory bc i only have THIS WEEK #to do it as far as i know (i think it starts when we get back from break) so im hauling ass trying to get my boxes counted and pulled #forward with nothing behind each other (except for my to be liquidated stuff bc i have several boxes...) and ive been throwing my spare #boxes away to avoid getting yelled at bc we technically shouldnt have that shit... and ive been kinda dumping clearance shit on the table #sgdggdd like i semi recovered it first but its $3 theyre gonna be destroyed anyway #i have about 2/3 of the second half to go still (first half is all done except clearance and NikeShitë bc tiny boxes...) so idk #and im worried ab everything going to liquidation when im on break bc like thats gonna be empty space on the table that i doubt anyone will #fill bc 'thats too haaaard [childrens]' but idk i just dont know #im just so stressed and tired i might go to the movies Tuesday bc Oppenheimer is back in theaters bc it won Oscars and I think ill go on #discount day so it's only $6 and ill see what the hype was ab but im skeptical of it being good tbh #anyways im fucking tired and i hate it

[liggytheauthoress]

good afternoon, all, how's everyone doing today?

i'm doing great, definitely not trying to resist the urge to keep beating myself up over forgetting what time my therapy appointment was today

#i had the date written down in two different places! #i had my alarm set for its usual time! #i was so proud of myself for remembering that it was on a tuesday instead of a monday this month! #there was just the teeny tiny detail of me NOT remembering it was also scheduled for an earlier time....

[chococookiez]

now that im recovering from The Covid my energy has come back with a vengeance.. i have near constant zoomies rn send help the weather's getting warmer over here for some reason and my body does Not like it

#and today on cookie's ramblings #got me dancing around my tiny ass room and shit #or sliding around downstairs #NO CAUSE WHY IS THE TEMPERATURE GOING BACK INTO DOUBLE DIGITS? #ITS 13°C ON TUESDAY. WHAT #gotta love england #eh maybe i can wear my leather jacket again

[piknim]

I broke my glasses and superglued them slighty wrong so now my vision is fucked up 😭

#like SLIGHTLY wrong #a very tiny amount #i dont understand how its fucking up this badly #they were already bad before this too so its double bad #ig im going to the eye doctor on tuesday

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#me: itll b done monday. itll b done Monday. no more of this experiment after Monday. #my boss Saturday morning: we made some changes to the end of the experiment. u dont have to take measurements sunday and Monday. youll do #it Tuesday and Wednesday. #me: ...i cant even. if i have to fucking do that. why would u do this to me? why the fuck cant i just fucking do it sunday/Monday? #im not fucking doing that. im not. fuck off. why would u do this??? is it bc my birthday is Monday so u think ill b sad abt being in the #lab? bc im im fucking not in the lab and this fucking experiment is still going ill spend the day crying and unable to do fucking anything #bc i just kno ill have to come back on fucking Tuesday and do this again #is it bc u think the post processing will take too long so u wanna split between days? bc i will fucking sit there all fucking night #on Monday if it means i can fucking get this over with. ugh. great start to this fucking day. fantastic #ive already emailed back like: um hey some of these changes make sense bc um what the fuck??? it doesnt make sense to offset my #measurements? so what thr fuck???? but like more polite and hopefully less frantic sounding. god. i hope she doesn't have a valid reason #for this. i dont wanna fucking do that and i will fight back #email. me. back. my fucking stomach hurts abt this >:-[ also i didnt get a lot of sleep and came in at like 6.30am #bc i forgot to measure prewatering weights over the 2 weeks. oops. so im maybe not that steady #but i fucking hate this idea. and im not saying i refuse to do it. but i fucking refuse to do it #well see if i hold out. agh. birthday present to me. i get to be selfish and end this project early. and by selfish i mean i get to protect #my brain a tiny little bit. a teeny tiny bit. except my apartment is now so fucking cold ill probably end up in the lab anyway #bc everytimr thry turn on the air in my building its like so so so cold snd i dont have temp control and i wont complain #unrelated #i need my answer before 5.30 or my head will explode

[painted-maypole]

I haven't posted anything original in months, but I've still been creating. Sometimes, the best thing you can do for your creative soul is to disconnect. Sometimes though, it's best to reach out and share. Only you can really know what's best for you, and at least in my case, it's constantly changing.

That all said, I hope you accept my art offering of this tiny bunny as I attempt to reach out and share.

#tiny Tuesday #its smol but has lot's of love to give #art #art journal #mini art #painting #watercolor #original content

[camptw1nk]

took a chance on a laundromat thats way closer to my house (10 min walk instead of 30) but only takes cash. The chance was it turns out a mistake

#i only got $20 out cause it never costs me that much for a load this size at the other one #and uh. $6 wash per machine and $4 dry for 20 mins #so i have spent $12 on these tiny machines to wash less than half my laundry it literally fit my work uniform some towels and Nothing Else #and i have to spend the last 8 on dryers and if they dont get dry in 20 mins thats too bad! #so now im faced with the dilema. add an extra 2 hours to this laundry run by going to the other one immediately after this to wash the rest #and maybe dry more of these if needed #OR do it after work tomorrow when i already feel exhausted #this is so upsetting wkshdkf its not a big deal but also $20 to barely manage to wash my uniform and a few towels is so #i only have another $20 until tuesday so its gonna be the rest of my money to do the rest of my laundry #and i just. do not have the money for this shit lmao #also this place doesnt have wifi and my usual place does #god i had to go out of my way to get cash in coins too this is very upsetting actually #also their machines automatically dispense detergent which i.. really do not like #ive been using specifically laundry sheets i hate liquid detergent #but its too late to back out now and thats put me in a Mood lmao