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al1cemadn3ss · 9 months
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No matter what i do someone will always see me as an addict
When the see my arms they will see my bad habits
The scars i have go up and down and side to side
The track marks are fading but the scars are hard to hide
People look at my body and see that ive lived
I've been through hell and back but i still try to give
All i want is to make them all proud
My addictions were digging me into the ground
Am i able to control this monster forever?
Its the hardest thing I've had to endeavor
Every day i keep trying to believe in myself
I never imagined i'd destroy my own health
~kh
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anaaxiety · 2 months
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(not mine, found on reddit)
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famousfor15 · 1 year
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Kurt Cobain and William S. Burroughs. The Burroughs quote below still rings true for me even though I havent used heroin since 2015. I still have that "Spidey-sense" that tells me someone near is holding.
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bluebeansm30 · 3 months
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all these 30s gona kill me before I'm 30 Ⓜ️
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lostxinxmemories · 4 months
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theaddictspoetry · 7 months
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It's a weird feeling-
Feeling like you never belong here,
That you're not made for the world
I simply feel too much.
Words pierce at my skin,
People leave, and everything caves in.
Constant wonders,
Of what its like to be normal...
To not have to stay so busy,
Just to be sane...
Whats in my brain? Whats all this pain?
I search everywhere i go, in everyone i meet,
For a cure. An antidote.
Just something to free me,
even for just a second-
Hoping to free myself of my insanities.
@theaddictspoetry
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blodcrims-mania · 6 months
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danielleelizabethhh · 3 months
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12.27.23
10:33pm
It’s been a little over 5 years since I’ve done IV drugs, every now and then I’ll notice my track marks randomly and it quickly brings me back to those times where I’d waste hours and hours trying to get my shot. Sometimes it feels so real and unbelievable that I was even that way, I hate to say it but giving up drug use has been so challenging because that’s the only way I knew how to cope with whatever life decided to throw at me, better yet it helped me forget how real feelings are and that being in this 3 dimensional world is so challenging for sensitive people like myself. Grieving drugs is unlike anything else, until you have first hand experienced what that feels like there’s nothing else to relate it too. It’s like a part of myself died when I made the decision to change my life around, and I’m grateful I did. I’m just saying that sometimes I struggle with day to day things, like loving myself or wanting to escape reality because I feel so misunderstood and different from a lot of people. I don’t work a program, meetings were never my thing and to be honest it’s way too depressing for my liking anyways. I guess I just have a lot on my mind tonight and needed to write some shit down, so here ya gooooooo :)
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echoesofadream · 2 months
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my best most favorite songs in kpop are
oh! my mistake - april
girls like us - twice
love talk - wayv
bang - after school
likey - twice
you calling my name - got7
wrap me in plastic - momoland
lovin me - fifty fifty
so bad - stayc
why not - loona
love dive - ive
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xproblematiquexx · 4 months
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Yesterday I was fucking ready to go. When I put that needle in to my vein, just a couple of seconds..then it hit: 💥
I remember my heart beating so fast I was scared it would jumped out of my chest! And all that tingling from my feet to my ears!! Breathing was accelerating and then everything got slower and slower, somewhere in my head I realised that I dropped the syringe. Then I was like: wow I’m dying. But I didn’t care much.
I got back to my senses some time after, and I was so confused it took me a while to figure out what the fuck happened!
PS: never use alone
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lola-from-the410 · 1 year
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Btw how was your first time on heroin? When? Where? Why? With whom?
I think I have told this story before on my blog but here’s the loooongggg version. So in 2016 I started a new job and one of my coworkers was a friend from high school I used to “party” with a lot back in the day. I don’t wanna blast her business all over the internet so I’ll just call her R. R & I rekindled our friendship quickly, we would get off work late, around midnight, and I would always go back to her place to hang out. She lived a house with a bunch of roommates, I think there was like seven maybe? It was like a mix between a trap house and a hostel, people were always coming and going and there was lots of drugs around. Her and I had done pills together in HS, and started dabbling in them again. For about a year both of us were able to keep somewhat of a handle on things but one of her roommates was a heroin addict and she tried it a couple times with him. I knew what she was doing and initially told her it was a bad idea but I was also using pills more and more, to the point I would have very mild withdrawal symptoms ( I wouldn’t even call it dopesick because I could still function, I was just super uncomfortable.) For some background, I was living with a long term partner who worked at the same place as R and I, despite this R & I started hooking up on a regular basis (yes, I’m a terrible person and I do not condone cheating) This is what I consider the start of my so called “spiral into addiction.” I kinda knew it was inevitable that I would end up trying dope but I held off for a few months after R started using it regularly with her roommate. I can’t remember why I eventually gave in but it was around October that I told R to get a couple bags for after work. We went back to my apartment as my partner was working a night shift and wouldn’t be home until morning. I think I started with half a bag, sniffed it then waited a half hour and sniffed the other half. It felt amazing but I also got extremely nauseous and threw up several times. I don’t know how to describe it because I felt simultaneously the best I had ever felt in my life but also like I could puke at any second. R and I stayed up until 5 am talking about who knows what, just dumbass high rambling probably but I remember thinking at the time she was my soulmate(she most definitely is not) then she went home and I sniffed another half a bag. By the time my partner got home I was puking again but I claimed I had “food poisoning.” I nodded out for a few hours before meeting up with R and getting another bag before work. Within a few weeks I was physically dependent on heroin, I used IV for the first time on NYE and by February I was a full time IV user.
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pure bliss straight from hell🖤
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anaaxiety · 1 month
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shmingleping · 7 months
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Speedballs on loop.
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schodydonieba · 8 months
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trzeźwość jest dla mnie cierpieniem
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lostxinxmemories · 6 months
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“Błędów raczej nie naprawiam, raczej je ponawiam..„
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