#ive been cleaning around the house

[milk-boy]

sometimes i lose sight and forget love is the answer.

#im ill and in a cafe #feel like i can barely keep my eyes open #but needed to be out of the house to know whether i was ill or not #im grateful for the people around me #im grateful for my money #not feeling too grateful for my runny nose or droopy eyes but i still love and care for them because i love and care for myself #today has been difficult because ive felt upset and was holding on to it because something happened that triggered me #and was getting stressed about cleaning and stuff #just spiralling generally lol #but im happy im out of the house #it's a beautiful day #it turned from being sooo cloudy to being sunny so i might do a little walk just round some trees #because i love trees so much #i find them so incredible and beautiful!!!!!

[crimeronan]

this is kinda delayed bc you did that rundown of your original fiction inciting characters a while ago but. I love the like final fantasy vibes of it all, with the kinda gritty realism and the way holy powers can be more of a metaphysical parasite than a blessing. there’s something just so fucking tasty about when superhuman power is physically too much for even those of us built to handle it and I love your spin on it and if? when? you end up actually writing/releasing this story I’m gonna lose my goddamn mind <3

thank you so much!! it's been really nice to funnel all my autoimmune feelings into the OCs lol. i'm hoping i'll be able to make more progress on a draft and can get it critiqued by my writing group and then look into publication. woo!

#replies #i'm still structuring my life around the fact that im not gonna die #ive been doing a lot of stuff before focusing on writing like. walking around. cleaning my house. riding trains #but fingers crossed #autoimmune tag #original fiction

[keepinventory]

i feel like such a prissy princess whenever i mildly complain about doing things after work -_-

#👽 < text tag #i got home from work 2 hours ago & my feet still hurt because my whole freakin' job is running around all day doing shit #& i come home & the first words out of my moms mouth are “So do you feel like doing any mopping today? :)” #my mother. who. does not have a job. like i feel insane complaining about household chores but also IM TIRED!!! #why are you asking ME to mop ?! i dont feel like im allowed to LEAVE MY ROOM NOW unless its to CLEAN!! I NEED TO MAKE DINNER!!!! #also “feel like” Fucking feel like ?!?! that's so goddamn rude. ive been OUT OF THE HOUSE ALL DAY #but No i didn't mop because i just didnt Feeeeel like it. God. like i dont know what the proper etiquette in this type of situation is #but i dont like whatever the fuck is going on here. its weird and strange

[healingheartdogs]

If any of my followers know mouse behavior or follow blogs who do, I have a question. The more active, stronger of the two mice babies I'm taking care of does this thing consistently when I take him out for feeding and I'm wondering what it means. I've also observed him doing the same behavior with his sibling whenever they find each other in their cage before they cuddle pile so I thought it was play or greeting behavior but I'm curious if that's actually what it is. The other mouse baby does not display this behavior toward me/my hand, only toward the sibling.

So when I take them out to feed them I usually keep my hand cupped around them like a wall blocking off most directions except for a little opening where I place the brush with formula on it to limit their ability to wander off and get distracted from the food. The stronger mouse baby, when I do this, presses itself into my palm, rolls over onto its back, and starts lightly kicking at my hand with its feet while rubbing his face against me. It doesn't make any distress sounds or try to nibble at me or anything, just kicks me for a bit then cuddles up to my hand and eats. When I move my hand away while he is doing this little kicking display he follows after my hand and continues trying to do it until he's apparently satisfied and ready to eat.

These are abandoned wild white footed mice babies who have not yet opened their eyes, for context for people who haven't seen my previous posts about it. I don't know how species specific mouse behavior is and I know these guys are not generally kept outside of labs so this might be a long shot, but I figured I'd ask y'all since Google seems to have absolutely no clue what I am looking for.

#their behaviors are so fascinating #interacting with them during feedings amd cage cleanings and seeing how they interact with each other has really made me want mice a lot #they are so tiny and so young but already so clearly different after some time watching them #their cage is on my desk so i can keep an eye on their condition constantly and that means i mostly just stare at them ngl #watching them be mice and be cute #ive already been looking at enclosures to buy so i can get some domestic mice friends after I wean and release these little ones somewhere #somewhere NOT NEAR OUR HOUSE because Selene's sister does not like mice around and has traps everywhere in the upstairs apartment #which is how we ended up in this baby caring mess in the first place #and i am not saving these dudes just for them to end up dying horribly in one of her traps

[bitegore]

TOMORROW PLAN:

get up around 12-1pm (doable)

eat the leftover tacos (doable but they taste awful :/ )

go to a location - i guess ill ask my dad to drive me to a cafe or something and give me like $10 to get a meal?

work on lining that one commission (this will take several days)

come home around 11pm (doable)

work on some other thing because taking that long to work will definitely hurt my hands

get to bed around 2am

repeat

#red rambles #i need to get out of the house to get my work done. ive learned this. also frankly i just dont want to be here #forgot how frustrating it is to spend time around my dad when he doesn't feel like i'm doing 'enough' with my time #doesnt matter that im doing everything at once - getting the charms thing started and my learner's permit renewed and commissions and just #finished finals - its never enough because i dont look like im physically idk hauling ass or whatever #so every time he walks into a room i'm in and he's in a bad mood it's this and that and am i doing x and y and z and also school this and #that and when am i gonna get a job and i should clean the house and #anyway im sick of it already and ive been home a week.

[aturnoftheearth]

grief coping via taking care of people and cleaning akdjfkfjksjd

#my uncle died last night (my mom’s brother-in-law) and my mom has been such a mess thinking about her sister #and we’re all a little spooked bc he was not much older than my parents and apparently died from a massive heart attack and my dad is uhhhh #under a lot of constant stress so yeah i think we’re all a little spooked #anyway ive been cleaning the house ever since and asking my mom if she needs anything and zooming around etc

[thesundanceghost]

the older i get the more i realize growing up with an obsessive mother and older sister really skewed my idea of what a clean household looks like

#do i absolutely need to clean my house right now? yes. #looking around is it actually the pig sty ive been making it out to be? no #would my mother string me up for ever letting it get this bad? yes #they have like. fucked me up for life. like holy shit the amount of shame i have around a house that honestly is totally functional #and liveable

[thestamp3d3]

having a man baby for a brother is the worst thing that can happen to a girl

#bc MANNNN #listen. i love my brother #me and him have gotten a lot closer over the past year #but like #he doensnt. do anything around the house #my mom is one of those boy moms who love their sons to the ends of the earth and hate their daughters #and so my mom cooks FOR my brother nearly everyday like at least 4-5 times a week right #and she almost never offers me anything its all just for my brother and NO ONE ELSE #but then he'll be the one to eat everything...AND YET IM THE ONE MADE TO CLEAN THE WHOLE KITCHEN TOP TO BOTTOM!!! #im telling u my mother has never once asked my brother to lift a finger #so recently ive been more stern about it lately like today my mom cooked for him and i tell him that he has to clean the kitchen #the dude cleaned and put away maybe 3-4 dishes before he started complaining and my mom YELLED AT ME TO HELP HIM #and so i did i did the rest of the dishes i just made him put them away #but jesus man its like....i help him all the time bc i felt guilty for NOT doing it and just sitting there #and i asked him im like 'when im cleaning the kitchen by myself when ur the one who ate do u feel guilty at all' AND HE SAYS NO!!! #HOW ARE MEN RAISED LIKE THIS BRO I DONT GET IT

[lepidopterium]

!!!

#spent all day in agony in bed because my fucking parents keep dragging us around on this awful vacation to whatever suits their whim w/o #asking us what we want or even showing any care for how we're doing or adjusting #i didnt want to leave the house of my aunt in cairo. i have privacy there and its closest to what im used to living in #i can tolerate the heat wave there despite my antidepressants. and im genuinely happy and at ease #but now im at the aunt who lives in the country and. bless her i love this aunt but i cant function here #the water is polluted and spending most of the vacation out here dried up my hair and skin badly. not to mention i havent been drinking #enough water because i can only safely drink bottled water which is expensive #and truly ive been trying to make the best of things but im trapped. i cant go anywhere. im always physically uncomfortable bc i #cant get used to living in the country like this. im surrounded by people who act friendly and sweet but still dont take no for an answer #whether it be forcing me to eat meat or like in the case of my baby cousin sticking to me bc i listen to her talk #and im scarred from being forced by my family out here to apologize to my mother (and they tried to get me to hug her) after SHE pulled a #knife on me and the aunt from cairo had to wrestle it out of her hand #i feel ill listening to cousins i looked up to as a kid talk about gay people and effeminate men the way they do #and i cant be at ease bc as a woman i have to act and dress in a way im not only used to but despise #ultimately ive had to mentally erase who i am and my needs so i can get through the day to day here #bc i cant go anywhere. i cant eat or dress how i like. i have limited access to things that bring comfort. i can barely communicate. #i have no privacy. and i have to act polite and happy no matter how i feel. and im physically ill from this heat #i cant even use the bathroom out here. no ready access to clean water either. i dont even have these basic things #and im trying to sleep but everyone is in this fucking room and the lights are on and theyre all chatting so i had to bury my face in my #sleeve and just quietly cry because im exhausted and there's nothing i can do about it but endure #i want to go home. i want to at least be back in cairo where i feel semi normal. #im sick and need to shower with warm. clean. water #i can't keep enduring nonstop daily discomfort on the most basic level. and i have no where to go #and i feel like a baby for complaining. but there is nothing for me here. and i can only survive here by pretending im not here and just #letting things happen BUT. im at my limit by now. #she pulled a fucking knife on me and then they made ME apologize. she was going to kill me. #im all alone. i want to go home. #plus everyone keeps touching me. i cant get any space. everyone keeps talking to me about marriage and kids and then getting upset when i #say no. i dont want that. i mean it. its not a joke. i dont want that. why wont they stop fucking bringing it up. why do they insist it's #wrong of me to want otherwise. barely have a glimpse of who i am and already im teetering on disdain from jokes that are actually serious

[kil9]

aauauauuougghghs i need to move out 👁👁

^^^ [CHEC IT OUT] i need to move out moodboard (available now !!!(

#99.txt #my mom is like ''you seem upset with mee :('' yeah cos straight up like i think i just hate u now #when i got covid it was MY problem i stayed in my room. i wore a mask any time i left. i even wore gloves to the kitchen. #to make sure she didnt get it (and she didnt !!!) and i even cleaned the whole house while i had it lol. and still kept it away from her #so now that she has it guess what !!!!!!!!!!!! everyone guess what !!!! its STILL my problem !!! #i stay in my room ! i use the basement toilet !! i have to wear a mask outside my room at all times !! #and wash my hands so much im gettin rashes because she just goes around doing whatever touching whatever ? #coughing on whatever because she doesnt give a shit !!!! #i made it my mission when i had it to keep her safe #and now that she has it its ''well if you wanna keep safe thats your responsibility'' like ??????? #i promise you the thought of making space for another person & accommodating or compromising has never occoured to her once #its all ''well its up to you !!! good luck !!!!!'' yeah fuck me i guess #and she keeps bothering me asking me to help her with shit still !!!!!!!!!!! #''how do i find my documents on the computer ive had for 10 years :('' are you stupid ?????? are you dumb for real ??????? #and she puts me in the situation where. im busy clearly busy with my own shit #but she feels SO entitled to my time that she will just insist that i drop everything and do something for her #if i say no or have a slightly unenthusiastic response its ''oh youre SO mean to me youre SO mean. no one will want you :('' ...ok. #but if i ask for help from my own mother once in a while its ''wow you ask so much of me you know youre not a child anymore :\\\'' #yeah. i know. i dont think ive been helped with anything by a parent since i was like 15 years old #''why are you mad at me ven you seem mad at me :('' yeah . i think like you just kinda fucking suck

[orcelito]

anytime people complain about golfers (like real golf, not mini-golf) i think of my rich ex step family where we’d take family trips down to south carolina and every trip without fail there would be a day where all the men would go golfing and all the women & children would just hang around the house. which like i was 100% fine with, i was perfectly happy just hanging out and swimming in the pool or whatever. 

but like. in hindsight. what a fucking Rich Person thing to do lmao

#speculation nation #oh god do i got STORIES from having rich step family for a time #my ex step mom was Not rich. the only one from the family who wasnt (she wanted to be a school teacher) #so our lil family unit was the only relatively normal one there. and god fucking Damn the passive judgement was insane #some of them were nice. but some of them were such judgey assholes #gotta love the uncle who gave his kid a fucking uhhh like mac laptop back in the year of like 2009 ish where they were Real expensive #i mean theyre still expensive but ya kno #or maybe it was an ipad. or maybe it was BOTH at different times. i barely even remember. #whatever you've read about rich people is true. these were relatively nice rich people and it was still true. #i did enjoy the benefits tho. like hanging out in a private movie theater next to the sauna (which was also connected to the hot tub) #same house had heated bathroom floors and ipads installed into the walls as system controllers. still fucking insane. #and there i was in this basement fucking around with my homestuck blog and watching mirai nikki and listening to some GOD awful mashup music #i did not exactly fit into the rich scene. as you could imagine from how i am today. #certainly gave me some experiences tho. ive been around both rich and poor lives alike. #and Let Me Tell You i am always MUCH more comfortable amongst the poorer sides #rich shit is just so scrubbed clean of imperfections. i always felt like a giant zit. #better off where i am lol. have Some nice things but i dont ever want a mansion. Thanks

[especiallyhaytham]

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#personal rant bc this just made me so fking mad #so my roommates never clean up after themselves around the house #ive yelled at them multiple times telling them im not cleaning their shit #bc when i tell you there is garbage and clutter everywhere that stays there for weeks #it literally drives me insane i dont even use the rest of the house anymore #i just stay in my room #anyways ive been on vacation all week #and a week before i left one of my rm's decided to trim the bush out front #and just left a huge pile of bush detritus on the front lawn #i get an email this morning from the landlord #saying what the fuck is on your front lawn get rid of it #and i was like.... #YALL #they literally left a huge stack of dead branches in the middle of the lawn for 2 weeks #like dude its hot maybe if you get tired and come back to it the next day sure #not 2 weeks #freaking ridiculous #im moving out to my own place in a few months anyways #this shit has been on my nerves for a year and it ruined my relationship w my rms #anyways this has been long im just so incredibly pissed about it #slobs #act your age ffs

[gay-4-space]

Learned how to change the locks the other week and nothing is more tempting right now while I'm pissed at my sister and she's out of the house

#oreganol #personal #eyeing the vacation keys rn #this is bc its just the two of us this week to watch the house & animals and she has not been helping around the house #and got pissed at me for asking for help #not even something difficult #i asked if she could take the dogs for a walk instead of me tonight since she was a) already heading out the door to go for a walk #and b) i was in the process of cleaning the kitchen #shes been doing the mornings and ive been doing the evenings #and ive missed the last 2 evenings since ive been exhausted after not sleeping well #and she hasnt walked them on teusday or tthursday since those are the days our dog walker comes #so i asked her to do slightly more and she got pissy with me

[heartshaped-lou]

#im nine years old its summer im in my gran's little beach town im eating the freshest peach ever the air is clean the sky is suoer blue #ive got seasalt all over my body ive been walking around either barefoot or with flipflops for like two months and im watching two cats play #with each other just outside the door of our house and im wsiting for my friend to wake up from her afternoon nap so we can go play together #at the park in the main square #we will take turns pushing each other on the swing #lifes good #Spotify

[aubergineranger]

not my mum getting pissed at me that i took a nap when im unemployed... because 'why would i be tired its not you did anywork' 💀

at least my brother took my side on this one but damn it hurt so much more from her lol when i told her before i felt like shit for not having a job she was always like 'oh but you cook everyday and do chores!' but now i forget to fold the laundry once and suddenly she's pissed at ME because my step dad went into the house with dirty shoes???

#ive been actively looking for a job too but who cares i guess lol #pissed me off too cause ive been working on her christmas gift for the last couple of days 💀 #ive really been wanting to move out to my dad's lately but he's broke as hell lmao #((and also so sooo messy id be spending all my time cleaning up and i cant do this anymore)) #also also also: she pissed me off so much cause she always acts like shes such a badass feminist girlboss #but never ask my stepdad and brother to do anything around the house #but i (a girl) gets scrutinized if i forgot to wash the dishes immediatly we finished eating.. #she never asked anything of my cousins when they came to live here #even when neither they or my brother had job/went to classes... #anyway rant finally over lmao #rant