#ive been so out of touch

[theoldkyokodied]

Uploading all my Tomgreg art at once from the past few week before season 4 hits, who knows in what kind of mental state i'm gonna be once it does :')

#tomgreg #succession #dont even talk to me i started watching this show when i had nothing to do at work and now i watch it with averiel my good friend averiel #and we are going to watch s4 together and i feel physically ill from bein so excited #so ya thats what ive been up to... anyway. i love these idiots they desever nothing but the worst (affectionate) #im also a tomshiv lover btw. im the one who yells 'THIS IS HOW TOMSHIV CAN STILL WIN' while they are actively losing on screen #thats the kind of person i am #dont look at me (lying on the floor) #okay i was not going to say stuff in the tags and let the art speak for itself but i NEED to point out details in the wine Painting.. #i put a lot of work into that one. thinly veiled metaphors and symbolism yknow.. #greg is gripping the stem of the wine glass with his full fist. tom and greg are dressed in the same outfit (sock garters included) #greg look appalled but he is not doing anything about the spill. tom is fondly pouring greg more and more wine. he is doing him a favor #i colored the red wine the same way i would color blood :) oh and tom is not really touching greg #only holding the chair in place. greg is making himself look smaller than he is like usual #oh and @ the person who said that it's the inverse of the tom and nate scene i love the way you think. i did not think of that before #but god. yeah. i actually thought about the scene change from when roman uhh.. christens his office in s1. the one with the coffee machine #i always go insane at that cut. this is not exactly the same since it's more.. about emotions but yknow.. it can be.. the same...

[s0fter-sin]

something happening on a mission, something personal that has soap spiralling; panic and rage making him reckless, thoughtless, and ghost has to draw the line

“you’re compromised johnny; you know what that means?”

“you’re not pulling me out,” soap immediately snarls. he turns on him and ghost barely recognises him; venomous fear turning his eyes to unyielding ice. "you're not sidelining me; i need to be in this-!"

but ghost has never been afraid of venom; spat or dripped straight from bared fangs.

he snakes out a hand grip the back of his neck, jerking him in a rough shake. "if you can't think, you can't be a soldier," he growls and he flinches like he's been struck.

his lips quiver as they twist in a sneer and he wrenches, trying to free himself of his hold.

ghost doesn't let him.

"it means you give your body to me because your head ain't fucking attached to it anymore."

soap stills, body trembling beneath his hand as he sucks in shaking breaths.

he tightens his grip, pulling him closer and digs his forehead hard into his. “it means you give yourself to me so i can have the weapon that you are and use you the way you're meant to be used."

the ice in soap's eyes fractures.

ghost’s voice drops to a whisper, spoken only to johnny, not this facade of vengeance and pain, and wills it to reach him through the glaciers.

“so i can keep you safe ‘til it’s done and i can bring you back.”

#in my head its bc graves abducts his sister and is using her as hostage to draw him out knowing ghost will always follow him #but the intensity and intimacy of saying ‘you cant trust your mind not to betray you so let me be in charge of your body until you can’ #after what happened to tommy he could never deny johnny his right to save his sister #but its bc of what happened to tommy that he knows he cant let him do it alone with only his rage to guide him #hes more likely to get himself killed and ghost wont live through that #so he has to balance it #and the only way he knows how is to completely shut down soap’s mind until hes no more than instinct and muscle memory #if he cant think practically then dont let him think at all #reduce him to a place where he can only follow orders #and when its finally over and his sister is safe and graves is dead #only then will he drag johnny back up to the surface #he’ll do it even if it means dragging him kicking and screaming back to humanity #instead of letting him sink in the depths where nothing hurts. theres no fear down there. no pain. only order #and thats the risk ghost took sending johnny to that place but he only did it bc he would stop at nothing to bring him back #and help him through the after #the breakdown. the rush of panic and rage and relief and anguish johnnys been supressing on his order #it was his word that turned johnny into a ghost #and its his touch that brings him back to the man #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #we’re a team. ghost team #cod #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghost x soap #ghoap #simon ghost riley #ghost cod #john soap mactavish #soap cod

[valeffelees]

some quick snowbaz sketches for the soul :)

and also this lmfao

#been trying some new things lately #usually i do baz's hair up in a front middle part #bc ive always found it kinda fun and cartoony looking #but it was making his face look really fucking weird here so i tried drawing it down and back #+ parted to the side of his widow's peak instead #and i think i like it a lot better this way #ive also been trying to add more texture to his and simon's hair #to help make things a bit easier when im colouring #and i feel really fuckin good about how that turned out #like i have such a hard time drawing simon's fringe but i really like how it looks here #im also trying to overcome my fear of eyelashes lmfao #(and my general lack of confidence with drawing characters touching/interacting) #so yeah lots of fun new things happening here at the ''god i want to get better at art so bad'' club #n e way -> #carry on #simon snow #baz pitch #snowbaz #sketchbook apocalypse

[suburbanbonfire]

i think about your art every single day. when i first joined the hockey fandom here on tumblr i immediately went to look at the kraken tag and your art was the first thing to pop up so i’d like to thank you for being part of endearing me to this fuck ass sport <3

humbly requesting if you feel like it……..

one of the deweys from the wild

forever Dewey <3

#this ask was so unbelievably cute and touching #that i was like 'im going to save it for a rainy day' #that was a mistake as it turns out #if you wait for a rainy day in hockey that day will be the players being rehomed #im so so sorry for your loss if it helps in looking them up ive now been endeared to them as well #connor dewar if you're reading this im free on tuesday #connor dewar #brandon duhaime #minnesota wild #toronto maple leafs #colorado avalanche #my art #requests #hockey art

[omegalomania]

twitter but make it 2005

#fall out boy #a little less sixteen candles a little more touch me #a little less sixteen candles #*mine #*art #id in the alt text #thank u carly for sending me this meme so i could procrastinate on comic work and draw it #and yes i did draw this all from scratch for. some reason #ive been in Such a 16c mood lately no idea why

[sea-jello]

ALOS 200 DTIYS!!

@morrogatari HOLY FUCKING SHIT IM FINALLY DONE HERE IT IS CONGRATULATIONS ON 200 OKAY TIME TO YAP

its not as interesting or dynamic as the one i showed you earlier but okay let me explain this. so i have her holding her hands up to her eyes in the see no evil gesture right BUT you see how shes still looking through her fingers BECAUSE you also said she still sees everything. boom best of both worlds or whatever. i wanted to add the blindfold so i sorta have it covering her mouth alluding to the speak no evil gesture?? idk i just wanted the funky eye blindfold. i tried to make it look directly at you AND shes also looking directly at you cause she sees everything,, you see what i did there,, uuhuuhhh you see. i dont really have an explanation for the glowing eyes in the bg i just thought they would be cool and i did end up covering her dogs i aint learning how to draw bare dogs. i also tried to make it a sort of higher angle her robe and the hair behind her is spread out on the floor i hope that came through. one thing im unexplainably proud of is the chains LOOK AT THEM

AND THE FABRIC SHADING I THINK I CAME IN CLUTCH its a little messy cause i could not find a reference for the LIFE OF ME anyways more versions below of course

no shading and without the black hands and legs cause lowkey i forgot they were darker until the end

also look at what i was fucking doing with the rendering. i don’t know where i learned this from but i set it to overlay (the orangey one) and i just put more green over top

AND in true jello fashion

here’s my camera roll 💀

#IM SO SERIOUS WHEN I SAY I WAS JUMPING UP AND DOWN CAUSE I WAS DONE #GRAAHAHAHHHH ITS NOT EXACTLY THE VISION PERFECTLY BUT ITS STILL NOT BAD HEY #ive been working on this for. how long #a month maybe right when you posted it when was that #to be fair i hammered out a good portion of it in like two days and then didnt touch it for weeks #like last time lmao #i dont know anything about the fic so unfortunately i cant hide more references in there #i got nothing to say in the tags this time ive already yapped everything out #CONGRATS AGAIN ALO!! BIG TWO ZERO ZERO #i have another math quiz tomorrow lmao #ninjago #lego ninjago #the preeminent #ninjago the preeminent #ninjago dtiys #alo200dtiys #eyes cw #idk just in case #jellos scribbles

[nosfelixculpa]

right in front of his tteokbokki

#creations #gifs #kdrama #kdramas #the uncanny counter #the uncanny counter 2 #netflix #so mun #kim woongmin #kim ungmin #im juyeon #srry romanisation of ungmins name is weird so he gets two #ive been meaning to gif this scene since i saw it too its so fuckig funny i love them #hes so genuinely scandalised #ig thats what happens when u grow up together nd then one day two of u kiss #nd u r forced to see it in a weird pov #also lov that the inclusion of ;what is it this time #implies that he touches them nd then freaks out bc he can see shit he doesnt want to often

[good-beanswrites]

An 0309 drabble for an anon ask I got a bit ago :) Thank you for being patient, I really enjoyed writing this!! It's actually a little moment I've wanted to write since I started Milgram fic, but never got around to it. (I mention his injured eye, but don't actually describe anything)

“Stop moving around so much.”

“Don’t tell me what to do.”

“I mean it. You’ll make things worse.”

Mikoto watched as the intensity in Fuuta’s gaze flickered between fire and fear.

He had a doctor’s kit laid out on his lap. Recently, Shidou had his hands full with Mahiru’s treatments and having intense conversations with Haruka, so Mikoto wanted to give him a break. With none of the injuries actually healing as they should, the prisoners were caught in an endless loop of changing bandages and checking for complications.

Shidou was grateful for the help. Many of the others tolerated Fuuta in the same way they spent only the necessary time around Mikoto. They smiled and placated him, acting like he’d gone mad all of the sudden. Whatever was making the others avoid the two of them, it drew the pair together. Mikoto was finding he enjoyed Fuuta’s company. Something about him was rather… charming. 

“Me? You’re the asshole that will make things worse. You’re no doctor! Fuck you.”

Eh, maybe he had gone mad. 

He took comfort, at least, in the knowledge that Fuuta was growing more comfortable with him. He sure had a special way of showing it, but Mikoto didn’t brag about being a people-person for nothing – he picked up on the way Fuuta sought him out during the day, pretending to be involved in his own activities. The way he struck up a conversation, then acted as if it had been Mikoto’s idea to come over and bother him. 

Therefore it was exciting, though not surprising, when Fuuta allowed Mikoto to help treat his injuries. They had only done it a few times, but today brought a whole new challenge. 

“I’m not performing surgery or anything. Shidou said it just needs some basic disinfecting.” He flashed his usual grin. “I have a steady hand – I’m a photographer, you know.”

Aside from Shidou, Fuuta hadn’t allowed a single person to look under his eyepatch. 

He remained unamused by Mikoto’s smile. For better or worse, he could always tell when it was forced. “It’s not like I have any proof of that. You could be awful at it, for all I know.”

“First chance I get, I’ll request a camera and prove it. Want me to take a picture of you first?”

“If you haven’t already messed up my face…” Fuuta’s focus was glued to the hand carefully reaching towards him. 

Mikoto pouted his lips. “Shidou trusted me enough with this. And you must have, because you agreed earlier. So If it’s not about me… You’re not scared, are you?”

There were some things that Fuuta didn’t stop to see through. He sputtered in surprise. “Hell no!” He lifted his chin, finally taking his attention off Mikoto’s hands. He stared defiantly. “I can take it.”

Mikoto felt a bit guilty for resorting to foul play. But not that guilty. “Good. Now hold still...”

He got right to it. One hand held ginger hair out of the way, while the other pinched the corner of the eyepatch. Fuuta’s good eye darted nervously around the room, avoiding the other's close-leaning face. Mikoto peeled it away swiftly, gently

As a horror movie buff, the injury didn’t faze him in the slightest. As someone who’d grown close to Fuuta recently, he felt a wave of anguish at the sight.

Fuuta squirmed. “It’s nasty, isn’t it…”

Mikoto reached down for some supplies. He considered mustering up a smile and saying there was no need to worry so much, but it would have been pointless. Times like these, it was kind of a relief when someone else could see right through him for a change. 

“It looks like it hurts.”

“Tch, I don’t need any pity from you.”

“I was going to say, you hide it well. You’re tougher than the warden gives you credit for.”

His cheeks flushed red. “I – I don’t need any flattery from you either!”

“Don’t need anything from anybody, huh?”

Before he could come up with a retort, he hissed through his teeth in pain.

“Ah, sorry.” Mikoto immediately retracted his hand from where it had been dabbing alcohol onto the injury.

Steeling his expression, he muttered, “it’s fine.”

Mikoto tried again. He made sure to move with even more steadiness, his face drawn up in concentration. He saw Fuuta’s features flinch when he touched him, but he stayed still. The two were silent, now, as Mikoto worked. Leaning his face so close made the short task feel much longer. The reddening in his cheeks didn't subside.

He expected Fuuta to snatch the fresh eyepatch away the moment he unwrapped it – he was shocked that Fuuta let him adjust it into place without a word.

“Alright. You’re all set.” He started packing up the kit.

“Listen, don’t tell the others. About my eye.”

Mikoto squinted. He gestured to the right side of his face. “I hate to break it to you, but the big patch kinda gives you away.”

“You idiot! I just mean, don’t tell them what it looks like.” He pulled his hood down over his hair. “I don’t need everyone trying to steal a look at it like I’m some sort of freakshow.”

“Hey, of course.” Mikoto gave him a smile, the kind they both knew was genuine. “I’ve got you.”

Fuuta nodded. He turned his face away, his fingers lingering over where Mikoto’s had just been. “... And… thanks.”

#milgram #fuuta kajiyama #mikoto kayano #0309 #thank you so much for the request woo!!! #lmao it leans more 'serious intimate' than 'sappy romantic' - i hope thats okay #and yeah! i was actually planning to have a chapter in thermoregulation where yuno treated his eye #but every way i envisioned it wouldnt fit right with the tone of the whole thing #so ive been considering other characters and mikoto works So Well -- i was really glad to finally sit and write it out with him!! #its just... having someone as paranoid and ashamed as fuuta actually letting someone close enough to see/touch his most vulnerable injury.. #it Gets me man 😭😭😭 #and mikoto is also showing a very open side of himself - he has someone who trusts him despite everything thats going on with him/john #someone he doesnt need to preform for -- someone who truly trusts him #;--; #im torn between picturing the prisoners staying away from mikoto t2 or him self isolating while they all still really like hanging out #i went with the first option here but it changes depending on the fic LOL #anyway i hope you enjoyed!!!! #the two start out sitting really far apart and awkward but by the end of t2 with mikoto treating him regularly they start sitting like that #meme where the girl is putting on the others makeup LOL #drabbles #what if i keep procrastinating on school writing and i just write milgram fic forever and ever huh

[lord-shitbox]

im never not thinking about how ferry planned for like a dog to be the last song in pafl. after EVERYTHING, and what i hope will be a happy or at least satisfying ending for the characters, the LAST sentiment in the series is Temnova saying she knows Dmitry will come back to her someday, maybe not soon, even if it takes him decades, she knows he WILL come back to her...

#shitboxposting #parties are for losers #pafl #THAT IS ONE HAUNTING ENDING im so touches the wall slides down into a little heap and wails... #just realized strike 3 came out four years ago & ive been listening to pafl for four years. bro

[viciousewe]

finished my first colorwork sweater!!!!

( @trashpandacraft was right it probably could do with one more blocking sesh but tbh it's Good Enough and I was excited to wear it and also my blocking set up is in the most inconvenient place possible so.)

#wow I thought the colorwork part took a long time.... #i had to undo the the neckline for the front and back because the armseye wasn't deep enough #and then I made up the sleeves as i went because they didnt match the pattern anymore #but I also messed up the sizing (got my inches and centimeters mixed up lol) #but that just gave me a cropped sweater which i like so i didnt go bacl to fix that #and even tho i went down a needle size the stitches came out a touch loose and the fabric where there is no #colorwork is quite mesh like #so i have to wear a cami under when im at work but i do that with all my pullovers regardless of fabric so thats no biggie. #but the pros now. #the linen and silk are so comfy for my bad body heat managment ass #i will be wearing this sweater in the summer. (atleast at work) #the sizing is perfect in spite of The Problems #i feel much better about having to undo so much of it (neckline and half of one sleeve as well as restart the ribbing 3 times #the v neck is cute. ive been on that turtleneck grind for a while now i forgot how nice v necks look on me #knitting #yarn #sweater #handmade #handknit #handknitting #hand knitting

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i love haircuts. i cant stop petting the back of my skull

#ITS SO FUZZY!!!! #ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE IVE BUZZED THE BACK!!! #im so smooth and streamlined... like a Seal... #Yes my head is cold. oh but i feel so so free #and! AND! it will make wearing hairnets so much easier & more comfortable #it was very funny tho #the stylist gave me the rundown on what she did #and added that she kept it kinda soft looking to give it a more Feminine feel while still being a masc haircut #as i stood there. in my pin-covered vest. Not Giving A Shit lmaooo #like thank you??? i am going to make it look masc as fuck anyway #i Do appreciate her attention to detail tho! she was very thorough! #it should grow out nicely until i trim it again #absolutely unprompted #tho i miss my lil' sideburns... i let her buzz the sides/back a bit too short... #when will they return from the war... #man i love getting my hair cut tho #i usually Hate it when anyone is in my space bubble but... sigh. its nice #i can just sit and space out while my hair gets cleaned up <3 #its odd. i dont like being touched Except for when its my hair - which i am extremely particular about. i contain multitudes #SIDE NOTE TONIGHT I HAVE HEARD MY FIRST FROG SYMPHONY #opened the back door and!!! Frogs!!! whoa! there's Creatures out there!

[guardian-angle22]

The 126 + hobbies/interests | TK & sports + music (pt. 2)

#911 lone star #tk strand #the 126 + hobbies/interests #jock!tk is so canon - fight me #its interesting that 3 out of the 4 of these were from one episode lol #also just cause I'm claiming music is an interest for tk does NOT mean I think he has good or relevant tastes here LOL #'can't hold us' came out in 2011 bro #why is this discussion happening in 2021?? #but I love that its twice in that episode you see TK turning to music when he's stressed #he's also nervously fiddling with his hands in both those scenes #god i love those little touches so good #my gifs #its been awhile since ive made one of these hobbies/interests sets!

[hopezzy]

ZeeNuNew x 漫游JOURNEY

#zeenunew #cutie pie the series #cutie pie #zee pruk #nunew chawarin #liankuea #after sundown #the next prince #the next prince the series #thai bl #thai actors #these slayed so hard #also ive been so busy the last few months that im suddenly terribly out of touch with dmd stuff but these were sitting in my drafts #i have very vague ideas of how naughty babe filming has been going but i need to catch up somehow ugh lol #for now tho i will just stare at these the second is my favorite #my posts

[skunkes]

what they dont tell you about being incredibly introspective is that you'll think you're done making realizations and then you'll just make more realizations always all the time forever

#dude. guess who just found out the reason he's incapable of imagining himself in a good relationship #is bc he's never witnessed any growing up. #my parents dont have a relationship i would want #only one of my siblings is married and her husband sucks. other has never dated while ive been alive (im much younger) #+ my other sibling had. a strange relationship i wont mention details of but this was also like 5 yrs ago and he hasnt dated since #i have very few close friends and none of them dated as we grew up either #or even with some its like. i wldnt want your relationship lol... #the only Good relationships i see are online from ppl i follow. and then i cant trust em bc we only see the Good Parts #so like. do they even exist... i dont think so.... #if i wasnt starved for physical touch id consider throwing in the towel permanently #but idk maybe ill buy one of those pillows with the arms that wrap around you #and a few more **** and try and cope with it in kenland or al's farm forever #talkys #im still 100% serious about ppl who have good relationships being lucky bc i feel like #the chances of finding someone you mesh with and are attracted to and can communicate with. are so slim. #i can barely ever find someone meeting one of many requirements. i can barely make friends. etc

[soldier-poet-king]

Need more stories abt middle aged and old people finding love & patnerships. Tbh. Like obvs there is so much more to life and it's not important in the grand scheme of things and like most days I am thinking of bigger and better things but also I love romance and if I am not properly kissed at least once in my life like. What.

#the duality of fran #DONT LOOK AT ME I'M CRINGE #oh mitski we're really in it now #not really. we interrupt my exsitential rambles about the human soul (good) #to briefly pine and be selfish (bad) #i will return to the good shortly #i would just. be so good at love. at specifically that kind ofkf love and devotion #i am. so devoted. so all consuming in my heart. so loyal and intense and wonderful #yeah i have. a lot of problems and fears and insecurities. maybe so #and i crave touch the same way i fear it. like a kicked dog. my family is not affectionate #and YET #ugh disgusting. yknow that richard siken line. u know the one #anyway. back to things that matter. have to dig out my crochet hooks tonight #i swear im gonna get this mfing beanie done over the holidays #since i cant knit anymore bc rsi #i need to do SMTHN good #i cant just embroider even if its pretty #i need to create For Others #bread and roses. but lately ive been just roses #marry me. qpr me. smthn. idc just SMTHN #blegh. dont look at me

[emahriel]

tfw you're not sure if ppl are being particularly annoying or you're just nearing that time of the month or both

#em: txt #i am tired y'all lmao #i'm in such a bad mood so ive been crafting since 10am and it's 8pm #everything is annoying #i need to go out and touch grass but it's been raining #i need nature to heal so it can heal me in return