#ive come to this awful conclusion and i hate it

[coriphallus]

A little rant on patch 6 and the implications for bg3's future

Okay, bear with me for a sec its gonna go somewhere eventually. My first bg3 run (thats spammed here on this blog) i played ascended astarion/dark urge romance where i picked the reject bhaal and become the absolute ending.

as it was my first playthrough on release i was vibrating off mt seat and i didnt really have elaborate HCs or anything, i was just doing a quick evil run until the bugs get sorted out. i didn't think much beyond "yes this dude would want the shiny stones for himself"

first time i saw astarion enthralled, i was confused. he asked me to do it, he was quite insistent on it since the beginning of the game. i was confused for a couple of hours, digesting the entire game i just played. Then it hit me; the game was calling me out. it was telling me ive been stupid for not having seen this coming and at that point i felt awe.

it was right, everything pointed to this, it was right in front of my eyes all i needed was to connect the dots that the game laid out quite visibly and i was just too caught up to see.

'well my durge would never do that' didnt matter because thats exactly what the companions thought. Gale thought the powers of an insatiable weave wouldnt corrupt him, that he'd stay true to himself, shadowheart thought shar had blessed and her she'd guide her, that she could be her true self under her influence, astarion thought he'd be free, that he'd cherish the bond he'd made with the player but at the end of the day power reveals; and when that power is acquired through the corpses of thousands its quite evident that Absolute power corrupts absolutely. IT WAS IN THE FKIN NAME.

it was a shining bait i was so focused on getting my hands on that i didn't look back to see the mountain of corpses i had to step on to get there. the game was telling me 'HEY LOOK AT EVERYTHING YOU'VE DONE TO GET HERE, LOOK AT WHAT HAPPENED TO ALL THE OTHERS WHO THOUGHT THEY COULD ACHIEVE THIS, DO YOU THINK YOU'D HOLD HANDS AND SING KUMBAYA WITH YOUR FRIENDS AFTER ALL THIS?'

just as there was never an option where frodo could stab saurons flaming eyeball and sit on his throne with the ring on his finger and sam at his side, there was never an ending i could get my 'happy ending' the way id like it to. i wanted frodo to remain in middle earth and have some peace in the end, i didnt understand how he was 'too changed' to remain and sam wasnt when i first read the books. i was angry even, that i didnt get what i wanted. it wasnt like tolkien haphazardly put together an ending out of his ass bcs he didnt know what to do with the characters, its not that he didn't think while writing that the fans would hate it, he wrote a story that achieved its catharsis by reaching its narrative conclusion. it couldnt have done that any other way. it was deliberate. i may not have understood or agreed at the time but it was the story he wanted to tell, and it wouldnt be one of the greatest stories ever told if the writer wanted to please a 10 y/o like myself.

it was never out of character for my durge at all, i was just blissfully avoiding the NARRATIVE.

months later we get this absolute narrative abomination:

and all i can say is im worried.

im worried bcs this is a clear disrespect to the story they've written, im worried bcs if they can do off with huge plot elements and beats such as this just like that it shows a lack of commitment to their own plot and if a huge Point of the game can be treated like a minor mistake than what else can? was is just a lack of oversight that laezel gets killed under vlaakith? can it be waved off if enough vlaakith loving gith players come together and shout loud enough that they want to ride alongside their queen with their gith gf?

what part of the game is tangible to hold on to, and after two years worth of patches that are made to appease the fans at the expense of the story, will it still be the game i fell in love with?

i dont blame the fans for wanting, i blame the devs for delivering. that they could sacrifice the integrity of a pretty straightforward story bodes ill tidings for the future of this game.

yes i wanted this feature, but i was glad i wasn't given it. i may have been confused and slightly miffed that i didn't get to reign supreme with my evil bf, but i immensely respected the game that could call me out on it. i wish they could show the same respect to their own writing.

#bg3 #bg3 spoilers #baldur's gate 3 #patch 6

[themidnightcircusshow]

I am lowkey highkey obsessed with Thomas. He comes across as having a streak of earnestness in some things I read (it was either his knightly brotherhood agreement with Charles Duke of Orleans or his letter to Henry about how awful his situation in Ireland was) but I also like the hotheaded, reckless image of him. I think a lot of modern historians either overlook him because he wasn't around for Henry VI's minority or just tend to assume that the Battle of Bauge tells us everything about his personality and thus we end up at the hotheaded, reckless idiot image.

(also re: Henry; I think CGW says something like he could have been a good king but the way he became king meant he could never be a good king because usurpation left too great a stain on his character. That makes a lot of sense to me. Plus he got so sick just as he was starting to gain stability on the throne… you can almost sort of read this trend of Henry being like "time for kingly awesomeness! (a fun party ala Edward III; going on a military campaign)" and then ending up having another rebellion or health crisis. The dickhead was still doing it up to 1412 - he was going to lead Thomas's expedition! Until he couldn't…)

(I have written and re-written this so many times to try and clearly explain my view and I'm still not happy with it v.v)

I kind of like the mental image of Thomas as a hot head, but a hot head with a heart of gold iykwim. It really annoys me that we don't know more about him, because reading about his stint in Ireland and campaign in France knowing how much people wanted him to be heir instead of Hal really just... baffled me. The failure of those two things don't exclusively or even predominately fall on his head, it just doesn't explain why people were so ready to back him over Hal, who already had a quashed rebellion under his belt (it'd be easy to brush it off as just people really hating Hal, which they did seem to, but they also seemed to genuinely want Thomas). I think it mostly comes down to Thomas' strengths being in areas that weren't necessarily conducive to leading a country, the way Hal, John, and likely Philippa's were, but we only know of those strengths because we have been able to evaluate their and their successors achievements to examine what does make a good monarch.

CGW coming to that conclusion about Henry IV didn't make a lot of sense to me, because that book did a really good job at detailing all the ways Henry was ill-equipped to be king ^.^'''' A lot of it was definitely because of him being a usurper, like being unable to convince parliament to raise taxes because they would leverage his own promises against him, or his habit of basically never standing up for himself and then going too far in the other direction, realising how much he screwed up, and then swinging too far back again (see the Scrope debacle). And even without all the ways his being a usurper affected him, there are so many instances of him straining against the monetary confines he now has to live with (I understand why he wanted the Duchy of Lancaster to be kept separate from the crown. Terrible outcome, but understandable), or wanting to be on crusade and not being able to because he is king, or the trouble he went through for marrying Joanna because it wasn't a good marriage for a king... all of it very much suggests to me that again, the 'princely virtues' he was so often praised for over Richard did nothing to actually prepare him for running a government, and there is a lot that suggests to me he didn't enjoy it. I guess you give him more credit that I do

#Thomas Duke of Clarence #Henry IV #Asked and answered

[bulkhummus]

🌟WTNV 210🌟 LIVE REACTION LETS GO 💥SPOILERS💥

Oh man, the opener I’m gonna cry. Oh wow. 

CARLOS!!!!!!! 

He belongs to Night Vale 🥺

Dana’s a therapist AW lmao her not having no degree— lmao Cecil cutting himself off. 

ARBYS ITS A SHOE STORE IT WAS A FUCKING SHOE STORE ARE YOU KIDDING ME RN ARE YOU KIDDING thats so FUNNY

I swear to god if something happens to Carlos I’m having war flashbacks 

I swear to god if Carlos is gonna question his place in Night Vale I’ll throw up. 

Cecil I hate your GUTS ‘steves a big sweetie and ive always thoughts so’ you dumb bitch

MY ALARM CLOCK TELLS ME IM NOT ENOUGH 

JANICE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DO NOT INTERN  BAD — BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD — “get out of this radio station janice” im throwing up 

Tamika girl SHES 21?????????? im throwing up time really passed HUH

“IM …. WHATEVER AGE I AM” THROWING UP IM THROWING UP 

i swear to god carlos get to the radio station or im gonna smack you upside the head 

IS IT HIM 

DYLANNNN

carlos why do u …… why do u sound so sad 

No dont sound so sad abt ‘home town’ 

Stop it right now 

Stop it 

Why are you crying it better be happy tears or im locking in on your location finknor

Carlos………. i do love a carlos monologue … i DO love how serious he sounds ………………… so forlorn … so sad tho even though hes saying happy things… im so intrigued…..

YEAH UR HOME FOR 10 YEARS 

“he never will”  :( oh carlos 

YEAH OKAY YEAH YEAH OKAY YEAH YEAH 

MY SON WAS BORN HERE IM THROWING UP

MY HUSBAND 

Night Vale forever 😔

Carlos u didnt even kiss ur husband goodbye you FOOL 

ILL LISTEN BACK LATER DOEST THAT MEAN…… CECIL WILL HEAR what carlos SAID……. hmmmm

oh cecil it mattered to me so so much

UNIVERSITY OF WHAT IT IS 

WE’LL BE THERE SOON 

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

IN CONCLUSION: 

Im so CONFLICTED — I think I need a day to process but Carlos is definitely…. struggling, at least it seemed so to me. Very nice to hear Dylan after so long! Carlos’ monologue was lovely and so so bitter sweet. I think him putzing around was.. purposeful. I think Cecil making him a certificate was so so cute. do i think the real carlos may show up with the university of what it is — YEAH I DO

So much emphasis on Night Vale being his home makes me…… nervous. ESPECIALLY WITH THE UNIVERSITY OF WHAT IT IS COMING TO TOWN!!!!! THATS THE MOST EXCITING!!!!!!! CARLOS LORE!!!! yall we manifested i hope they follow through….

im curious how they’ll handle all of that with carlos being so close to cecil and all that…hmmmm 

ill write up more thoughts but the episode made me smile! and made me nervous! 

all of it feels very bitter sweet 

Feel free to tell me your thoughts!!! Im having many!!!

#wtnv spoilers #wtnv #welcome to night vale #wtnv thoughts

[kylejsugarman]

top 10 most hated movies go

oh jude u understand my haterdom :') in no particular order.....

"the open house": netflix's low to mid-budget horror movies tend to be resoundingly boring with occasional glimmers of cleverness but "the open house" is genuinely one of the worst modern horror movies. at least "the bye bye man" had some unintentional laughs: "the open house" is one of the dullest, darkest, most boring excuses for a film ever made. it doesn't even have an ending, as if its expecting its audience to have fallen asleep before then and absolving it from coming to a real conclusion. AWFUL.

"escape from tomorrow": im not the biggest fan of jenny nicholson and her content, but she absolutely nailed it with her video taking down "escape from tomorrow". its an embarrassing ego trip with no semblance of story or thematic integrity. how can u secretly shoot a movie at disney world and be such an incompetent filmmaker and storyteller that the most interesting part of said film is the overdubbing of characters saying "neosporin" to avoid getting sued

"spencer": truly dont understand what the fuck anyone was on in applauding this film. "spencer" is basically "the haunting of sharon tate" with an arthouse filter over it. kristen stewart isn't a genius, this film was a depressing and embarrassingly voyeuristic slog, and i hope we all die

"la la land": a circle jerk about old hollywood masquerading as an "ode" to the movies and old movie musicals. pasek and paul need to be barred from the industry for their horrendous songs and chazelle should be ashamed of this masturbatory piece of insubstantial garbage that frames white mediocrity and paper-thin romance as the pinnacle of cinema. also it's just racist as fuck

"split": m night has made some awful movies and i have problems with almost all of them, but jesus christ, "split" is truly fucking vile. even putting aside the obvious demonization of personality disorders and james mcavoy's laughable performance, it's a boring, uninspired slog with a screenplay written on a fisher play laptop. also the theme of horrific trauma being something that makes u Special and intrinsically a Survivor?? kys

"the polar express": this one's a little irrational, ive just always hated this movie even as a kid. the cgi isnt just creepy, its so muddled and lifeless that it can't distract from the interminable running time. this movie feels 4 hours long and its like getting ur teeth drilled the whole time.

"the sandlot": this movie exists solely for men in their forties to reflect on and say "they don't make kid movies like this any more". it is so unbelievably grating and pointless. im biased because baseball is my idea of torture, but id rather sit thru 16 hours of "minions" content than watch one scene of this kids' "classic".

"easy A": idk WHAT people see in this one. i dont find a single aspect of this film charming or clever or funny, it all feels so shallow and wink wink nudge nudge aren't we SO clever for turning THIS teen stereotype on its head?? there are a lot of "subverting ur expectations!!!!" movies from this era of late late 2000s-mid 2010s that i really dislike, but "easy A" is just the pinnacle of insufferable.

"the breakfast club": this might inspire some hate but i despise this film lol. i dont care that its a seminal work or whatever, it is so crushingly unfunny and boring and filled to the brim with unlikeable characters. in the same vein as "easy A", none of this film is charming or clever and even giving grace to the more Outdated aspects of this film, its a grossly obnoxious, unengaging flop that thinks it's saying Something.

"a serbian film": look. we could sit here for hours debating the necessity of this film and what it says about censorship, especially in eastern europe, but at the end of the day, this is a cold, uncreative shock film that indulges in its own depravity. im not above fucked up movies with depraved elements, but "a serbian film" seems manufactured, not created in its depravity. also it perpetuates the myth of the "porn to snuff pipeline", which is a huge issue with a lot of films of this ilk.

#odekirk #ask #syd squeaks #oh good this is so fucking long lol #anyway I LOVE being a hater

[one-abuse-survivor]

i really need to vent im so sorry. my sister is driving me to literal insanity. i dont know if im a manipulator or shes truly being a horrible person to me. i talk to my bf a lot. facetime pretty much all day every day, and she can hear me talking through the wall, mostly mumbles no words, but still noise, and she doesnt say anything. she games at the WORST times, honestly, at least we stop talking at 8/9pm, but thats when she starts gaming with her friends, screaming (yes. literal ear piercing screams from horror games) shouting and overall joyous loudness from her room. i put my headphones on and try to block it out, knowing shes just having fun and i need to put up with it. its been like this the whole year practically. the past week shes been getting closer to dad again. dad. the guy who hates me with a passion and mentally abused me for 2 years straight and never got a consequence for it. every. single. time. she hangs out with him, or games with him, she turns into this horribly mean snarky person who is so so rude. and ik im sounding dramatic but shes literally the opposite otherwise. but other than dad shes also got a new friend whos very judgemental and snarky so ig shes impressionable. but anyway the past week shes been very rude and mean to both me and my mum. mums a huge pushover so being mean to her is like kicking a dog, and i truly hate it when shes mean to her. cos mum loves her more than she loves me (its evident and shes told me multiple times i promise im not inferring it) so shes much more of a pushover with my sister 'everything has to be perfect for her'. i hate it. ik ik its jealousy but im dealing with it or at least trying to. so tonight she was singing horribly and ive not had a good day, im stressed, tired, and trying to sleep and here she is humming away purposefully sounding awful. i ask her to be quiet, continues, tell her to shut up, she continues, so i bang on the wall and i kid you not she slowly gets wuieter and quieter til its barely a mumble i can hear from her room and it makes me so unfathomably angry and i truly have no idea why. its like she knows every single button of mine and pushes them at will. so i texted her saying, why are you being such a dick lately its so annoying, to which she was like "i put up iwith you blah blah you cant put up with me blah' i told her to stop playing victim so she told me i need to learn to shut up and put up. a phrase straight from dads book. she knows it is and it throws me into a spiral ehenever i hear it and she knows!! so here i am angry af trying to calm down and not do something ill regret tomorrow, whilst shes happily downstairs making light conversation with dad. i hate it so so much. i did respond back, are you being sarcastic rn?? if not i dont want to speak to you ever again. and she said ok. ik ik its dramatic af but i just cant with her anymore she makes me feel how dad made me feel and i then react like a child, to a child. ik my responses are in the wrong, i really am sorry if i sound really childish or just plain stupid and im truly in the wrong, pls pls tell me if i am. i just cannot handle her at all lately shes literally been a demon lmao (jkjk) thank you for letting me vent to you, the safe space youve created really means a lot <3

hi im the anon whos mad at my sister, uhm - im very close to starting my period and have come to the conclusion that its the reason for the anger lol. Ik i do have some issues but i think it was mostly irrational anger when i wrote the vent, and not an acc issue, or at least thats what im really hoping is the answer lol. im super sorry about it, and i hope youre having an awesome day 💕

Hey, nonnie. I'm glad you could let out some of your frustration and anger here ❤️ I didn’t see your second ask until after writing the reply below, but I think all of it applies anyway, becuase we’re allowed to have days where we’re more irritable. I’m having a good day today, I hope you are too!

I don't think you sound childish or stupid, nonnie. It sounds to me like you might have had a trauma reaction toward her because of the abuse your dad put you through. Trauma reactions (ie. having flashbacks, going into fight/flight, becoming hypervigilant...) don't just appear when we're interacting with the people who abused us; they often also appear when other people do or say something that reminds us of the abuse. Your sister knowingly used a line your dad has used to hurt you before, so I think it is completely understandable that you had an emotional reaction that seems "dramatic" in retrospect. I can only talk from personal experience, but I've also done the same over text in the past, and it was always after something/someone sent me into a fight response.

And, nonnie, even if trauma responses don't justify our actions (they only explain them), I think it's fair to say that this situation with your sister escalated from both sides, not just yours. It wasn't you exploding at her out of nowhere. As you said, she was pushing your buttons, and she knew she was upsetting you, because you'd asked her to be quiet several times.

So yeah, if she makes you feel like your dad made you feel, I think it's understandable that you're having these big emotional reactions toward her when she oversteps your boundaries and purposefully pushes your buttons. You said you react "like a child" toward her, and I think it might be helpful to think about why your reactions feel like those of a child. Children—especially abused children—feel small and defenceless, and sometimes they lash out to protect themselves when this fear and defencelessness become overwhelming. So "reacting like a child" doesn't have to necessarily mean "oh I'm being so immature and stupid". It can mean "I feel threatened and helpless, so my body is having an instinctive reaction to protect me".

What I'm trying to get that is I think you ought to be a little bit kinder to yourself, nonnie. You're allowed to be affected by her attitude toward you. You're allowed to acknowledge that these reactions you're having aren't a flaw on your part, but a sign you're going through a lot of distress and your body is protecting you in any way it can.

I also think you need to be kinder to yourself about feeling jealous that your mum loves your sister more than you. Your jealousy isn't the thing that needs to be fixed in this situation. Your jealousy is a very appropriate reaction to a very unfair situation to you. You deserve to be loved and cared for and protected from harm as much as your sister. You never deserved to hear that your mum loves her more than you. You're not being selfish or childish by feeling jealous; you're just acknowledging your unmet emotional needs and acknowledging that you deserve better than this. And you really do. You deserve so, so much better than this.

Your emotions are allowed, nonnie. Your anger and your jealousy and your defensiveness when she's mean to you and your mum are all allowed. Please don't forget that.

Sending a virtual hug ❤️

#Ask #Vent #Abuse #Abuse tw #Abusive father tw #Toxic sister #Trauma tw

[habeascorpseus]

rundown of hermit!sam au

- after dream comes back to make a deal with sam and free him from the prison (by killing him and also doing some not-so-easily repairable facial mutilation) sam respawns in the prison, loses it, and immediately tries to escape

- upon reaching the main hall, however, he discovers a portal that shouldn't be there.

- sam is also desperate, so he runs through it anyways, falling into an unknown world on only two hearts and suffering from blood loss.

- upon falling through, he is immediately discovered by xisuma, who is confused, concerned, and slightly miffed about his afternoon plans being ruined.

- as it turns out, sam was told tales of xisuma in his childhood, an architect of the land and creator of beautiful, awesome things, his love and attention to the workings of the world so deep that the gods of their universe began listening to his suggestions on how to make the world more alive. an average man transformed to demigod status by his dedication and love for his craft.

- after sam realizes this, he immediately passes out.

- he comes to with water being splashed on his face by another creeper hybrid, who x refers to as doc

- sam was also told stories of doc in his childhood, although doc was always described as a monsterous man who wanted to defy the universe's will and paid dearly for it. the story of doc and dinnerbone turned to mythological fable about the importance of staying humble, with a fair bit of embellishment (such as the "doctor" that would steal the limbs and eyes of prideful children in their sleep, a tax for their hubris)

- sam's conclusion from these fables was that he didnt need to rock the boat or change the world. to him, doc's tale is the fall of someone who had it coming for daring too much. in response, sam is determined not to fall with his own wax wings (and we all know how that ends)

- sam didnt know what doc actually looked like. the tales all described him as a hulking figure with sharp teeth and eyes glinting with hunger. the first thought Sam has upon meeting the actual doc, however, is "wow. he looks a lot like me."

- in the present, x and doc seem to be struggling to figure out what to do with sam, so they decide to take him in (for now) and figure out what happened so they can fix it.

- in the meantime, sam is slightly scared of doc and also kind of hates him? because in the tales, doc shows no remorse for his transgressions against the laws of the universe. in fact, he seems rather delighted at them. whereas sam despises himself for rocking the boat and ending up falling hard and fast. something something meeting the devil and the devil looking an awful lot like you

i will speak more about this if people want to hear ive been thinking about this for Months

#habeas speaks #hermitsam au

[shessolovely-ao3]

Is there a way to report stories on a03?

There’s a story that popped up on one of my favorite fandoms and sadly is one of the most popular stories in that site.

(This is just me venting because I’m so furious this is happening on fandoms)

The tags made me sick. The story got so infamous that people started talking about it on other social media.

The story was so sick that people started to denounce it and make call out post on Reddit.

I wanted to report it because it really seemed like it was glorifying abuse. Some people made the argument that “it’s to cope, you can’t always tell what is behind people’s intention, is just fiction etc.” but like it got so bad that people started talking about it on other social media. Maybe it was just me but I could have sworn it really was glorifying abuse

And sadly it seems like the author was popular at fanfiction, one of the most popular stories of this particular fandom was made by them.

I got super sad because they had a “normal” version where they didn’t had any sensitive content, I thought the story was great and went to check other stories made by them and sadly they had a nsfw version of it and then I discovered they were the same person who wrote the other story.

And when I tried to report it some people started to belittle me by saying : “oh sure, you read one story of the author you didn’t like and then kept on reading their other stories! Hypocrite!”

And the whole point is that I didn’t even knew it was the same author at first!

But do this people know that a person has a certain speech pattern or a way of speaking/writing? This author kept on using certain words, certain speech structure that it was so noticeable they were the same person, which is a shame.

And this isn’t the first time this has happened. There are artist that I absolutely loved in certain fandoms. In which I ended up finding “alternate” accounts where they draw very awful stuff and them turning out to be “pro shippers”.

Maybe this may sound as an exaggeration but when I discovered this I felt so heartbroken. You know the feeling? where there is someone you look up to only to find our they are an horrible person?

Ironic considering something similar happened to Orel, he was incredible disappointment when he saw Clay’s true colors. I guess I can understand that feeling.

so i know theres a way to report stories but i personally dont know how to do that. i tried doing it with the cursed disgusting MO fic but then i opened it and threw up in my mouth a little when looking for the report button so ive been doing a media cleanse of sorts because jesus tap dancing christ i saw three words of that fic and they’ve burned into my brain and i hate it. 

venting is okay! im really sorry that we all seem to be having the same shared experience/frustrations when it comes to fics that glorify abuse or sexualize minors because obviously thats not okay. like i said to another anon, it’s important that people realize that using the excuse of “well you dont really know what their intentions are so don’t just jump to conclusions” is not always helpful and not always accurate or adequate. 

as for feeling heartbreak over finding out a fic writer or an artist is not who you thought they were... i get it. i haven’t had your particular experience since i haven’t always had time to become super dedicated to a fandom creator but yeah. it sucks to find out there are people who support or glorify certain things and you’re kind of just left being like... wait. wtf just happened and who tf are you? Its a shitty feeling so im sorry youve had that experience, especially with a fic thats become infamous in a certain fandom. 

#re: dani talks about things #im not sure which fandom it is so if i was supposed to pick up on that i have totally missed the mark on that one #but that sucks man #seriously #venting is okay though i dont mind that you did! #im sorry that i dont have a more direct answer as to how to report stories on ao3 #im still figuring that out myself

[reidsnose]

cosmically connected

overview: spencer has a sudden realization after having a conversation with you

genre: F L U F F

a/n: i just think this one is super cute hehe also it takes place like at the end of the work day and half the team has already gone home lmao

masterlist

"you really don't believe in soulmates?" Garcia pressed on.

"I'm a man of science! and science says no" Reid retorted.

"actually, science man, science says yes," you butted in, as you stopped packing up your things, pushing yourself off your desk in your spinnie chair to be nearer to them.

Reid turned in his chair to see the newcomer, letting out a breath he didn't know he was holding when you smiled at him.

"is that so?" he teased, cocking an eyebrow.

you loved when you had a bit of attitude with each other. a cocky side of Spencer wasn't a common occurrence, so when it appeared you felt your cheeks grow red.

"oh! y/n you told me about this the other day! i said you sounded just like boy genius remember!" Garcia giggled, shaking her hands in excitement.

"yeah i remember." you laughed.

"can you tell me!" Reid feigned exasperation as he grew inpatient.

"relax! I'm about to!" you chuckled before continuing. "basically, when the big bang, or whatever caused the creation of the universe happened, there was all sorts of molecules and space dust that was together at one point that broke apart. do you agree?"

"yes." he answered cautiously.

"and in the whole universe is made of those particles?"

"mhm."

"im gonna stop calling them particles because i hate that word so im saying space dust. but in that case, humans are made of said space dust?"

"hmm... yeah thats correct."

"so two people could be made of the same space dust that was once whole?"

"i-yeah i guess you could say that."

"in that case, these two are cosmically connected then. bound together from the beginning by the beginning. in other words:" you wiggled your fingers as some sort of tiny 'ta-da' for dramatic effect, "soulmates!"

Spencer's mouth opened. and then closed. and then opened again, but then closed back up.

"he's speechless! you left the resident genius speechless! and you proved him wrong!" Garcia chirped, flashing and award winning smile to you.

you looked at Spencer, watching the wheels turn in his head. never in your life had you met a person quite like him. you loved watching him just exist, everything he did brought a blush to your cheeks. your felt embarrassed to crush so hard on a coworker, but you were convinced he didn't feel the same so it didn't really matter. you enjoyed adoring him from afar if it meant you could at least be his friend.

"i cant believe it." he stated simply, looking into your eyes and feeling as though he'd been electrocuted. in a good way.

you giggled looking down for a moment, afraid to keep eye contact for too long.

"what do you say braniac? did i convince you?" you asked, looking back up to meet his gaze.

the way you looked at him, Spencer was sure he would melt. you gave him a sly smile as you awaited a response, and he felt his heart rate quicken. every moment the two of you had ever shared together flashed through his mind and he was hit with a sudden realization.

"soulmates are real." he confirmed, cracking a goofy smile.

but he didn't come to that conclusion because of your scientific explanation.

it was because in that moment, he was sure he had found his soulmate. you.

"yes!" you exclaimed and interrupted his thoughts, spinning around in your chair and tapping excitedly on his desk.

"science said soulmates! science said soulmates!" Garcia said in a sing song voice, pushing you around the bullpen in her office chair.

Spencer couldn't help but laugh as he watched the scene unfold before him.

"when are you going to tell her?" morgan asked, clapping the younger boy lightly on the shoulder.

"i dont know. never? and maybe not even then." he responded much too quickly, feeling embarrassed at his crush.

"come on man! you're a profiler you gotta know shes into you!"

"except for the part where she isnt."

"i cant wait to say i told you so."

"youll be waiting a while."

"ah but not forever, pretty boy. not forever!" morgan laughed before walking out of the bullpen with garcia.

Reid scoffed lightly and rolled his eyes, though a smile tugged at his lips at the idea of you liking him back.

"aw man!" you cursed at you phone, after standing up from your desk with your bag in your hand.

"whats wrong?" he inquired, hands gripping his satchel as he walked through the now nearly empty bullpen to your desk.

"my friends had to cancel plans," you sighed, setting your phone down.

"oh im sorry. is there anything i can do?" he asked politely, making your heart flutter as you walked towards the elevators.

"no not really, i just need to figure out what to do with all the cookies i baked them." you joked, trying to bring light to your slowly dimming mood.

"i can help you eat them. we could watch a movie, or i could read to you." he offered, cheeks glowing a soft red under the streetlight.

"i think that sounds perfect," you smiled, a sudden flush filling your chest. "you wanna just ride with me?" you offered, opening your car door.

"yeah sure." he agreed, smiling softly.

"so," you began as you pulled out of the parking lot.

"so," he chuckled.

"do you really believe in soulmates now?" you asked, curious on how you were able to convince him so quickly.

his heart thumped wildly in his chest, "yes. i think ive met mine."

you felt your face fall but only for a second, forcing yourself to be happy for him, "aww, whats her name."

"y/n." he answered, nearly causing you to crash the car.

you swerved to the edge of the road and pulled over.

"what?" you questioned, breathless from the sudden news.

"i said her name name is y/n." he said nervously.

"im so glad you said that because im positive mine is named spencer." you smiled, feeling a sort of warmth spread through your body that you had never felt before.

he smiled a wide, goofy grin before placing a soft kiss to your lips which you gladly returned.

#criminal minds #spencer reid #spencer reid fanfic #spencer reid x reader #spencer #reid #bau #cm #morgan #derek morgan #agent morgan #garcia #penelope garcia #soulmates

[deadwriter16]

This is for the bkg fanfic ask game: Kacchako fight and/or reconciliation

It is simple but it’s all I could think of..-

all good! a simple prompt is always good :)

ive never thought abt what a kcchko fight wld be like...i have a lot of bkdk fight ideas but not a lot for these two...but i came up with one in the end. this one is like just under 1k. i hope you enjoy!! <3

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It’s nine at night when Ochako finally gains the courage to knock on the door. It’s not that she’s scared, she just doesn’t want to knock on that door until she feels worthy of it. Her boyfriend is probably rubbing off on her, but his integrity is not a trait she wishes to be rid of.

Normally Bakugou would be asleep by now, but Ochako knows he stays up later when he’s upset for fear that the bad feelings might trigger nightmares. Bakugou has awful ones, and Ochako hates nothing more than waking up in the middle of the night to Bakugou tossing and turning, a don’t come, Deku, leaving his gasping lips. Hands trembling at the memories, Ochako sets her shoulders and knocks.

“Katsuki? It’s Ochako. Can I come in?”

There’s a muffled grunt from inside, which Ochako takes as the invitation inside that it is. Katsuki’s sitting against the pillows of his bed, fidgeting with a Deku stress ball she got him as a joke. Ochako laughs quietly at the sight; she loves moments when Katsuki isn’t angry. When he’s calm and soft, rhythmically squishing the stress ball with uncharacteristic tranquility.

Ochako hates that he’s only like this because of what she did. She knows Bakugou’s cycle of emotions: anger, then sadness, and then the calm before the storm starts once again. And Ochako has never longed more for the storm.

Ochako walks over to the bed and nudges Bakugou, who moves over so she can sit. She gingerly invites herself onto the bed, leaning back against the pillows and sighing. Ochako loves how secretly kind Bakugou is. Nowadays, at least. He’s really changed for the better, and nothing makes Ochako happier.

“Um, I wanted to say sorry,” Ochako starts, “for earlier.”

Bakugou just shrugs. “Ain’t your fault. You didn’t know.”

“Exactly, I didn’t know,” Ochako says, “I shouldn’t have assumed anything. That was really awful of me, and I’m so sorry I said all those things."

It’s their first big fight as a couple, too. Bakugou told her he’s going to visit his parents over the weekend, and Ochako had asked if she could come with. Bakugou had refused, immediately closing off and not explaining why he said no. Ochako had come to the baseless and wrong conclusion that Bakugou was ashamed of her, which escalated into a screaming match in the common room.

“You don’t know shit about my parents,” Bakugou had yelled, “I don’t fuckin’ want you to meet ‘em because of them, not ‘cause of you, dumbass!”

“How am I supposed to believe that?” Ochako had yelled back, “why are you so ashamed of me, Bakugou? Why are you ashamed that someone cares about you? Why are you so goddamn afraid of being vulnerable?”

“Because of my fucking parents,” Bakugou hissed, “because my old hag won’t let me be vulnerable under her goddamn roof, because that means I’m weak and being weak means I get hurt. So don’t act like you know shit about me.”

And then he’d walked out of the common room, and Ochako felt like shit. She went to Deku afterwards, who gave her a good scolding before telling her to give Bakugou some space and then offer a sincere apology. Ochako is so glad her best friend is the Bakugou-reader. She’s getting good at deciphering Bakugou herself, but having Deku around gives her a nice head start. So now here Ochako is, delivering her apology on Bakugou’s bed, unconsciously moving closer to him, seeking his warmth.

“I shouldn’t have fuckin’ yelled,” Bakugou insists, “it was my fault for gettin’ so pissed at you when you just didn’t know. Don’t blame yourself, ‘Chako.”

“But I shouldn’t have just assumed things like that!” Ochako argues, “I let my insecurities get the best of me, even though I know that you've never been ashamed of a damn thing in your life! When you choose to have something, you’re always proud of it. I know you’re proud of me, just like I’m proud of you. I should have realized there was something more going on with why you didn’t want me to meet your parents. Please stop insisting it was your fault, Katsuki. It was mine.”

Bakugou frowns, looking pained, “but-”

“Katsuki,” Ochako whispers, reaching out to place her hand on top of his, lacing their fingers together, “you are not always the one who hurts people. Sometimes, other people will hurt you. And you’re allowed to be mad at them for it. It’s not karma, you don’t deserve it. I was wrong. And you’re allowed to say that.”

Bakugou's frown deepens, and Ochako uses her free hand to smooth out the distress with her finger, watching as his expression crumbles under the touch. Sometimes it just breaks Ochako’s heart how foreign gentleness is to Katsuki.

“...Thanks,” Bakugou mutters under his breath, “I, uh, accept your apology.”

“I’m glad,” Ochako smiles, fully closing the distance between them to place her head on his shoulder. Bakugou wraps his arm around her shoulder, pulling her into his side and kissing the top of her head, resting his cheek on her hair. Ochako closes her eyes, relaxing into Bakugou’s warmth. “I love you, Katsuki.”

Bakugou doesn’t say it back much, and Ochako doesn’t expect him to. She’s getting close to fluent in her boyfriend’s language anyway, and she knows that his way of saying I love you too is in his actions. It’s in the way he holds her a little tighter, hooking a finger under her chin to lift her face up and bend down to kiss her. Ochako can’t help but sniffle a bit, because how did she get so goddamn lucky?

“How did I get so goddamn lucky?” Ochako says out loud, because she wants Bakugou to know how happy she is. For good measure, she leans up and kisses his cheek, letting her smile grow against his glycerin-smooth summer freckles.

Bakugou chuckles, soft and fond. “That’s my line, ‘Chako.”

#when soft kacchako #ugh i love them #bless them for existing #thanks for asking <3 #this one was fun! #my fics <3 #bkg ships ask game <3 #ask game #drabble #ask response #kacchako #bakuraka #bakuocha #bakugou x uraraka #dynavity #katsuocha #kacchako fic #kacchako fanfic

[randombubblegum]

just. okay. this whole parasocial twitter trashfire is so..... stupid. lol 😐 just the fact that it COULD have been a turning point for how awsten and the fandom interact but he just refuses to learn, refuses to change, and is in fact dedicated to ruining his own life? apparently???

like sure okay all the twitter parxies are going after this one suckup big parxie for being a shitty person, WHICH SHE OBVIOUSLY IS, but theyre completely letting EVERY OTHER PERSON who does the exact same shit as her off the hook?? and even like agreeing with and sucking up to them. these other “big parxies” do the SAMEEE SHIT and just bc theyve turned on their former friend (pretty indicative of what awful ppl they are to gang up on a friend to save their skins but i digress) doesnt mean they havent spent years doing the exact same stupid shit acting like awsten was their friend and overstepping parasocial boundaries and starting fights and drama in the fandom for clout????

and all this started bc awsten expressed negative fan interactions take a toll on him!!! and then what did awsten do immediately after chaos broke out in his little parasocial enclave? thats right, he pretended to give himself a matching tattoo w another “big parxie” who fights for his attention and thinks theyre friends 😐😐😐 like howww HOW do you not see you are causing your own problems!!!! how do you refuse to understand that you should not be close with specific fans and single them out for increased attention from you? do you actually not see that you are fueling these interactions by offering a reward for incessant attempts to get your attention? WHY do you refuse to understand that that is what fuels the toxic parasocial fandom that you claim to hate so much. are you genuinely that fucking brain dead? or are you just unwilling to examine and change your own behavior??????

so now what weve got is the dunces on parx twitter struggling (granted, closer than ive seen them come before) to reach the logical conclusion that everyone with a brain and basic understanding of parasocial relationships (or human interaction in general) has had for years: that awsten should not be singling out specific fans to make them feel like his personal friends because it gives them a god complex and allows them to run rampant in his already insane fandom. and people who see that and want the same attention will suck up to those fans and create this toxic hierarchy among chronically online individuals that then spirals out of control and the blowback then hurts awsten and parx.

and yknow what? it makes being a fan of parx unfun. it sucks!!! even here on tumblr where most of us (most. not all) are sane and understand fan boundaries and why unchecked parasociality is bad, im having a bad time!!! all i do is repeat the same logic, like a broken record in an echo chamber, and bc i refuse to engage w the weirdos causing shit on twitter it never reaches the ppl who need to understand it most. and it sours my view of awsten and quite frankly ruins the enjoyment of engaging w parx?!!??! like how am i supposed to keep writing my silly little fics we all have fun with when i KNOW hes out there on twitter as we speak digging himself a deeper hole. like bitch this is the grave YOU DUG and the fans youve enabled are just the ones to push you in

anyway i dunno its just really sapped my affection towards parx and i like cant enjoy anything they do lately lol :/ like ill see awsten get travis on stage and ill be like “ok cool......... anyway” and it sucks tbh. i want to like parx. i do like parx? but awsten genuinely makes it so hard to be a fan of him and his band lately it is insane -__-

#SORRY TO VENT ITS JUST BEEN RLY RUINING MY FUN THIS WEEK and thinking about parx has made me :/ #i dont feel its unreasonable to expect SOME maturity from these 30yos #like my bad maybe for thinkig parx fandom could stop being sooo awful for a sec but the members ARE OLD #older than me at least so why. mcyt ppl are way bigger AND more online and dont deal w this #neg

[iamkidfish]

leah x fatin (leatin) fic rec masterpost

HERE WE GO LEATIN ENDGAME XX

ALSO HAPPY EXTENDED BLOOPERS DAY WE WON GAYS

can you see me? (i’m waiting for the right time) by @toddxnderson on ao3

This was legitimately the second fic in the tag and when I read this the first time I didn’t even ship leatin (LOL-look how things change). Emotionally, this fic is a little bit devastating and both Leah and Fatin are 100% in character for me. The dialogue is so realistic that I can hear Sarah/Sophia saying it in my head- “I don’t make a lot of promises ‘cause I’m bad at keeping them but fuck, Leah, I can promise you that.”<< this line in particular WOW

Don’t get me started on how in-character it is to have Leah know/recite Richard Siken poetry to herself, I will not stop

Summary: Leah and Fatin can’t sleep; 1.5k (complete)

tethers by @ThanksForListening on ao3

GOD this is so so tender and introspective. Fatin talking about the cello with Leah, talking about the future, letting each other in??? IM in love

Summary: Leah and Fatin talk after Leah takes a trip into the ocean; 4.9k (complete)

my pain fits in the palm of your freezing hand by @Pootin on ao3

Maybe my love language is 1x09 fics, because here's another one. THE TENDERNESS of interacting when everyone is asleep, my sweet baby Fatin being awkward and nervous. CUDDLING (okay but who's more touch starved), soft!leatin

Summary: Fatin realizes something and Leah is oblivious as always, post 1x09 ; 5.1k (complete)

Halloween by @mtihae on ao3

BARK BARK BARK RELIGIOUS IMAGERY, you guys already know how I feel about religious undertones in fics and this does not disappoint!!!! I'm in awe, this honestly reads like poetry

Summary: Leah character study; 957 (complete)

find someone (to carry the sea)  by @beepbedeep on ao3

I love a motif and anything that involves appreciation of sophia’s hands is already EXCELLENT. Contains found family :’), featuring soft!fatin and healing from Trauma

Summary: Leah and Fatin and touch, ; 1.7k (complete)

I’ve been digging to deep (I always do) by @beepbedeep on ao3

the found family in this??? unparalleled. maybe I cry everytime I read the last line 

Summary: post-island, Leah writes a book!; 2k (complete)

maybe nobody loved you when you were young by @beepbedeep on ao3

Nobody talk to me I’m just thinking about the inherent romanticism of Fatin and Leah knowing each other their whole lives

Summary: Leah considers Fatin and the different versions of her, over time; 1.6k (complete)

here’s the thing, my youth is yours by @beepbedeep on ao3

TEASING! CUDDLING! BANTER! I will forever think about how Fatin calls Leah by her last name thank you very much

Summary: An afternoon after the island (spoiler: they’re in love); 2.1k (complete)

Basically just read all of the fics by @beepbedeep, also their fic tags are HILARIOUS

it’s so easy in this blue (where everything is good) by @trulyalpha (scoutshonour on ao3)

THIS WILL HAVE YOU HOOKED IMMEDIATELY!!!! THE CHARACTERIZATION, THE DIALOGUE, SHUT UPPPPP, I NEED MORE FICS IN FATIN’S POV

Summary: Fatin has a bad dream and Leah is there; 4.6k (complete)

come home to my heart  by @trulyalpha (scoutshonour on ao3)

POSSIBLY THE BEST THING IVE EVER READ???!! Shakespeare walked so this fic could RUN, PRE-ISLAND LEATIN NEED I SAY MORE, slow burn,,, don’t talk to me about Fatin falling in love with Leah, also Fatin x Ian brotp was something I never knew I needed?

Summary: Fatin and Leah meet in a class before the island-they still end up hating each other 57.7k (incomplete, but only one more chapter)   

time goes by and still i’m stuck on you  by @blinkaftermidnight (lostresidentevilpotter on ao3)

GRRRRR BARK BARK BARK LEATIN FWB, but gUESS WHAT?? They still fall in love

Summary: no-island AU, Leah sleeps with Fatin to take her mind off J***; 19.6k (complete) 

i get off this way (when i’m in love)  by @blinkaftermidnight (lostresidentevilpotter on ao3)

This is canon now, I don’t make the rules. Soft!Fatin taking care of Leah, I’d like to see it, perfect dialogue and in Fatin’s pov *chef’s kiss*

Summary: 1x09 AU where Fatin takes matters into her hands and Leah doesn’t take the pill; 10.9k (complete)

(Please Don’t) Love Me Back  by @blinkaftermidnight (lostresidentevilpotter on ao3)

Non-linear narrative, both Leah and Fatin’s point of view?? THIS FIC IS SO SEXY FOR THAT

Summary: Leah and Fatin, snippets of their relationship on the island; 9.6k (complete)

and it's like our world but we're the last ones left by @blinkaftermidnight (lostresidentevilpotter on ao3)

just go read it, trust me.

Summary: Leah and Fatin are idiots but they love each other, it just takes them a little time to see it; 97.1k (incomplete, but the next two chapters are coming in the next 48 hours)

In conclusion, just read all of @blinkaftermidnight leatin fics, you won’t regret it

If you’re still looking for fics, I’ve also written a few hehe

if i could save you from standing there (i would, i would, i would)

Summary: Leah and Fatin pine after each other, before and on the island; 7k (complete)

My Big Lesbian Island Wedding 

LMAO @blinkaftermidnight and I wrote this in like 5 hours, kinda crack, kinda not.

Summary: Leah and Fatin get ‘married’ one day on the island, just for the other’s entertainment, it’s not like they’re in love with each other. No, that’d be gross; 6.5k (complete)

#the wilds #the wilds!fic #the wilds!fic rec #leah rilke #fatin jadmani #leah rilke x fatin jadmani #leah x fatin #fatin x leah #leatin #leatin fic rec #IT'S FINALLY DONE #YOU'RE WELCOME EVERYONE #LITERALLY GO READ EVERYTHING ON THIS LIST #fanfic #leatin breakdown hours #enemies to lovers part 2 #the unsinkable eight #IM IN LOVE WITH ALL OF THE WRITING IN THIS LIST #my writing #fic rec #OMG HAPPY WILDS BLOOPERS SDAY

[madara-fate]

Ive seen people hate Gabi solely for killing Sasha..which i dont think is fair giving what happened before that..while i hate that sasha dies and did get aggravated at Gabi i understand.

That being said..

I actually hated Gabi from the first meeting.. All the other kids were likeable but she...just wasnt.

I cant stand her inability to realize.. maybe just maybe she was lied to her whole life..even Falco, Reiner, Annie and Bertholt were more open to it and started to realize maybe they were wrong..hell they even cared about some of the scouts.. Gabi was just a Marleyan wannabe that just wouldn't face facts even when she spent time with the kindest eldian people.

I know the other " warriors" had the same brainwashing and they did awful things, worse than Gabi, but its her mindset for me.. Thats what makes it worse she had the same brainwashing as the others but she was the most resistant to the truth.. So people saying its not her fault she was brainwahed..it not her fault initially but if she presented with the truth and still denies denies.. Then shes just reveling in her ignorance...

The other warriors, while yes doing awful things and following through with their plans, they still ended up sympathizing with the eldians and being like hey maybe they arent evil devils.. Hell you can see the inner turmoil it caused Reiner.

Plus the fact that Gabi seems to act above it all..like she isnt and eldian as well..like girl sit tf down and shut up🙄 if they are devils then you are too.. Nothing will change that..nothing will change the fact that with a bit of titan spinal fluid you change into one😒 like sis come on.

I also think i sympathize with paridis more is because for about 100 or so years they thought titans were some creatures coming out of nowhere to annihilate humanity🤷 they didn't know... But Gabi and the others did know..they knew eldians turned into titans and it was the marleyans that changed them, yet they still blame the innocent eldians for the sins of their ancestors. Even though Gabi is of the same race..its infuriating.. She's like the Uncle Rukus of AOT😂

( uncle rukus is a cartoon character on the show Boondocks, who thinks he's white with " re vitiligo" but is really black and he hates all black people, in case u didn't know lol )

I'm indifferent to Gabi, but I can't really say that I agree with this.

I cant stand her inability to realize.. maybe just maybe she was lied to her whole life..even Falco, Reiner, Annie and Bertholt were more open to it and started to realize maybe they were wrong..hell they even cared about some of the scouts

You're saying that Falco, Reiner, Annie and Bertholt were more open minded and started to realize maybe they were wrong, but Gabi did the exact same thing. In fact, it took less time for Gabi to come to this realisation than it did for Reiner, Bertholt and Annie, because they were only shown starting to question what they knew about the Eldians on Paradis after having lived with them for a few years. It obviously took Gabi significantly less time to reach the conclusion that the Paradis Eldians actually weren't so bad. She was also starting to form a genuine friendship with Kaya before the truth was revealed in the restaurant. So again, you're saying how the older warriors eventually came to care for the scouts, but the same can be said for Gabi as well. The older warriors came to care for their scout comrades after a few years, whereas Gabi was beginning to form a friendship with Kaya after a few weeks, if not days.

Gabi was just a Marleyan wannabe that just wouldn't face facts even when she spent time with the kindest eldian people.

Gabi did eventually face the facts though, and relatively speaking, when considering the level of her brainwashing, it didn't take her very long to do so.

People always tend to say things like "well Falco is her age and underwent the same brainwashing, so why can't she be more like him?", but that's like asking a struggling student who still tries their best, why they can't match the genius in their class who gets straight A's. Sometimes it's just something you're born with. Gabi is just innately more driven towards a singular purpose, much like Eren. However, people tend to forget that people like Falco who have that depth of understanding, are most definitely not the norm in that universe. Falco is the exception, not the rule. People can't just ask why Gabi can't be more like Falco, when the vast majority of perspectives in the series, are more aligned with Gabi.

Not only that, but Falco and Colt's own uncle, Grice, was part of the Restorationist movement with Grisha and Dina, so Falco had already been exposed to these opposing viewpoints long before we even first met him, and so was more susceptible to changing his views. And as if that wasn't enough, Falco was also present for Eren and Reiner's conversation where these topics were discussed, so he had a first hand perspective of the truth, Gabi didn't have that. If she had also been present for their conversation, it obviously wouldn't have been so easy for her to brush off the attack on Paradis with an "I didn't see it so it didn't happen" attitude. These things all contributed towards making it a lot easier for Falco to accept the differing perspectives.

Thats what makes it worse she had the same brainwashing as the others but she was the most resistant to the truth.. So people saying its not her fault she was brainwashed..it not her fault initially but if she presented with the truth and still denies denies.. Then shes just reveling in her ignorance...

But again, that's not actually the case. Gabi wasn't the most resistant to the truth, the only person who came to that realisation quicker than she did, was Falco. She was far more resistant to the truth than he was (partly due to the reasons I explained above), but that is not the case for the older warriors. Gabi denied it initially, but ultimately relented pretty soon afterwards. Compare that with Reiner, who responded to Annie describing the scouts as his friends, by saying how they were devils, not his friends. This was after having spent several years with them. He was confronted with the truth for several years at that point, and yet he still thought of them as devils. Therefore, among the Marleyan warriors, Reiner is actually the most stubborn one, not Gabi.

The other warriors, while yes doing awful things and following through with their plans, they still ended up sympathizing with the eldians and being like hey maybe they arent evil devils.. Hell you can see the inner turmoil it caused Reiner.

And Gabi did exactly the same thing... A lot sooner. Furthermore, Reiner only began having the split personality problem after having killed Marco. Prior to that, he had spent years with them, and yet was still very much gung ho about their mission and about the Eldians on Paradis being a filthy race.

Plus the fact that Gabi seems to act above it all..like she isnt and eldian as well..like girl sit tf down and shut up🙄 if they are devils then you are too.. Nothing will change that..nothing will change the fact that with a bit of titan spinal fluid you change into one😒 like sis come on.

I agree, but that is applicable to the vast majority of the warriors, excluding probably Falco and Tom Ksaver. Every Marleyan warrior or warrior candidate who aspired to be an Honourary Marleyan for whatever reason, knew that they'd be tasked with getting rid of the titan threat posed by the Paradis Eldians, and they were fine with it because they had been raised under the notion that they were separate from the Eldians on Paradis.

They were all taught from the moment they could think for themselves, that the Paradis Eldians were bad people, and that those on Marley were still tainted, but had a chance for redemption. It's easy for us as the readers and viewers to tell them to sit down and shut up, when we haven't experienced being brainwashed ourselves.

#Gabi Braun #Reiner Braun #Attack on Titan #Shingeki no Kyojin

[aliensunflower-fics]

In Defense of Salt AND Sugar: Aka ML Fandom pls chill out.

So I don’t talk much as those who follow me will say I tend to just stick to myself and my own things. HOWEVER, Ive gotten a lot of asks about why I write both Salt and Sugar for Miraculous Ladybug.

The short answer: Both salt and sugar are valid, fun, intriguing things to read and write and the point of writing is to entertain and be entertained.

The long answer: Salt isn’t inherently someone hating on your fav show and sugar isn't someone necessarily giving it a free pass either. Ya’ll are just dramatic as hell.

The LONGER answer:

I write salt because I LIKE Miraculous Ladybug, BUT the show has not lived up to its potential AT ALL. The show could be so much better and the characters are so flawed or full of holes that occasionally I feel FRUSTRATED and mad!

I hate that Alya a character who I was so excited about, gets shafted ignored, sidelined, or written like a jerk! She could have been this great detective working alongside her friend to unmask the villain, but instead she often comes across as pushy, obsessed with Ladynoir or Adrinette, and so damn easily tricked. Not to mention how when shes not gushing over her ‘ships’ shes pushed to the side and ignored. [or you know... LILA]

I hate that Marinette’s crush makes her do things that are so cringy and awkward i feel ill I hate that she’s constantly the only one making mistakes and ‘learning lessons’ when the show has all these other great characters that could use the spotlight and be the ones learning lessons. I hate that she’s so jealous and that she cant ever seem to catch a break as if the show is punishing her constantly.

I HATE that Adrien is a mary sue, how the writers say hes perfect and treat him as such, I hate that he gets to guilt Marinette into fixing everything and dealing with bullies, I wanted a funny, Ron Stoppable, naive boy who learns about real friendships and grows into a great partner. Instead he gets to be pushy and downright a jerk as Chat Noir ignoring his responsibilities, guilting Ladybug with his feelings, never taking no as an answer. He’s not a good role model for kids.

I hate that Chloe got built up to have a redemption arc several times only for the writers to decide that Chloe a teenage girl who needs some serious therapy [and actual reasonable punishment for her actions] is worse than Gabriel child abuse Agreste. She could have been a great lesson on compassion and growth and dealing with your own pain without hurting others. Instead the writers wrote her off completely.

And dont get me started on how the show treats Nino, Kagami, Luka and the rest of the cast. They may as well be a backdrop for the forced love square that we NEVER get a break from. Seriously I’m a sucker for romance but does it need to be EVERY damn episode?! Can’t we just get some wholesome friendship between everyone including Adrien and Marinette at this point like COME ON.

And i’m not even touching on the white washing, awful lessons on responsibility and forgiveness, awful lessons on well so much other stuff really, the guilt trips, the teacher, the fact that she show could be used to teach kids how to better handle negative emotions and the importance of open communication and not keeping quiet about injustice and/or your feelings but instead decided that the main priority should be a love square that gets force fed to us EVERY SINGLE EPISODE.

My point is the show has FLAWS. That doesn’t mean its the worse show ever and it doesn’t mean its not fun, and has a great premise and characters, and so when I write Salt I write it because i’m frustrated! Im frustrated with the show, with the characters, with the writing and so I vent that out with salt I write those characters as their worst selves because I cant stand how the show has decided to treat them and Im ANGRY and disappointed.

It feels good to write salt and to read it. It’s nice to see characters get called out for bad behavior, its nice to read about Adrien not getting the girl. Its nice to occasionally indulge in salt because it validates that the show is flawed and lets you get out that frustration.

BUT ON THE FLIP SIDE

Miraculous Ladybug is a lovely show. It’s a show that decided to give little girls a FEMALE HERO. And not just as a side kick or background character! No they made her the protagonist! Its so important to me that little girls see good well rounded female characters in media.

And even if the show is clumsy about it they are TRYING to build an expansive lore that tickles the theorist brain. And gets people invested in the world.

The show also made Marinette shy, and awkward, and clumsy something a lot of girls deal with during puberty as growing up can literally make you clumsier as your body adjusts. Having a character who tries to be positive and tries to find solutions who solves things with creativity instead of pure violence. Thats LOVELY for young girls to see.

Growing up I loved and admired Kim Possible, and probably would have loved Marinette, even if the shows not perfect I can admit its trying and I can see why people love it as much as they do! And why they write these fluffy sugary fics its the reason I WRITE fluffy sugary things.

Because even though I am frustrated and angry and disappointed with the show, I still see Alya’s potential and how great she is as representation to little girls who want a black female superhero so I write fluff where Alya’s loyalty, compassion, cleverness and her pursuit of justice are center stage.

I see how Adrien could be better and I want him to be better and I WANT him to be the naive funny comic relief the Ron Stoppable to Marinette’s Kim Possible. I want Adrien to grow and learn and spit in his dad’s face I want him to overcome the abuse and be happy. To show people that neglect and abuse doesn’t mean you will get stuck like that forever, that you can overcome that and be a better kinder person.

I want Nino and Kagami, and Luka and Chloe and the class to grow and get attention and have funny moments I want to laugh and make other people laugh! So I write prompts focused around comedy and shenanigans and where the characters get to be fun and silly and make decisions for themselves!

SO IN CONCLUSION:

I write salt AND sugar. I see the value and merit in both sides of the coin, and I respect how other people see the show. I know its easy to get angry with other people in the fandom who see the show differently then you do but please can we put down the weapons and just BREATHE.

Someone who writes salt might LOVE the same show as you, and they might in fact love it so much that they vent their frustrations in angst and salt and cracky fics. Let them vent about how they wish the show was better, leave their tags alone or block them if you cant stand to see it. But dont attack salt writers for ‘hating on your show’ when they might love it just as much as you do but want a way to vent out their feelings.

On the flip someone who writes sugar might NOT be forgiving the show for its flaws, they might see all the same flaws as you but decide to take that frustration and write fluff and fix it fics and sugar because they want to indulge in a version of their favorite show where everything is just... OK. Where everyone is well written and happy and the character development sticks. Stay out of their tags let them have their sugar, they aren't writing it to hurt you just like you don't write salt to hurt them.

So ENOUGH. Enough hunting each other down, enough sending each other hate, enough filling each others tags. Let people write SALT if they feel angry and vengeful and disappointment, let them have their tags, let them explore the dark side of the characters, let them rant and rave and be HURT when the characters they love upset them with their actions. Its not your place to tell them to stop, to tell them their feelings are invalid, to tell them that ‘adrien is sweet sunshine boy how dare you’ or ‘alya would never’ or ‘i hate your marinette leaves dupont au’. Just leave it be, heed the tags, and let it go.

AND ENOUGH. Enough hunting each other down, enough sending each other hate, enough filling each other tags. Let people write SUGAR if they just want something to feel happy about. Let them makes coffee shop au’s, let them make fix it fics where everything is just happy without needing 8 pages of backstory for why everything is just happy. Let them squeal and gush and talk about the ship they like and the fluff they see. Its not your place to argue with them that the show is flawed, its not cool to ruin their fun by accusing them of not understanding the flaws, to tell them ‘umm actual this character shouldn’t get to be happy’ or ‘wow this is so shallow’. Just leave it be, heed the tags, and let it go.

PS: Now with that said and done. I do have one final message for everyone - If you write/enjoy pedophilia, if you sexualize KIDS. Then get the fuck out of fandom spaces, stop fucking following me, and do everyone salt and sugar a favor by LEAVING. Your pedophilia and child sexualization aint wanted, aint ok, and I will fight you.

PSS: IF YOU HATE WHAT IVE SAID ABOUT SUGAR AND SALT FINE OK I RESPECT YOU REGARDLESS. ENJOY THE SHOW, STAY CLASSY, DONT HURT PEOPLE BECAUSE THEY HAVE A DIFFERENT OPINION.

#its just me #ml salt #ml sugar #adrien salt #adrien sugar #alya salt #alya sugar #chloe salt #chloe sugar #miraculous ladybug #marinette dupain cheng #adrien agreste #alya cesaire #class salt #class sugar

[softwarmfur]

ok. cough cough hackkk. ahem. midam enthusiasts. cage discussion enjoyers. chuck observers and likers. irl religions spn fans...ive called you all here tonite bc ive got a smackerel of shit i need to discuss. the last of the caffeine from the cherry coke i had earlier is taking its swan song (ha, ha.) dive thru my bloodstream right now. my hands are shaking so hard i can hardly type.

anyway, first thing on the agenda is: as a person who believes in God, something that i enjoy and also hate having to think about it, if God is thee ultimate creator, then all versions of God that exist in fictional media (such as supernatural) are just hollow facsimiles of him. Thus making Chuck (and all other representations of the divine in media) a demiurge of sorts. bc if the media. well. exists. then in this little fake story universe, he is a god. completely unaware as to the real nature of his existence. I’m referencing the gnostic system of thought in which there is an all-powerful creator who at some point created a demiurge that never became aware of its creator. It made the known universe, thinking itself to be the original god. Much to think about in terms of ‘Chuck isn’t actually god” theory. whatever.

second thing on the agenda: ive recently come to conclusion that caffeine, while fucking me up if over-consumed, does focus me and elevate my train of thought for a beautiful but brief period of time. the caffeine high i’m experiencing right now is coinciding with the natural waxing of my midam obsession, creating a beautiful eclipse of drug-induced frenzy and autism. my god i love being alive. on to the main point: i consider myself to be generally neutral when it comes to things such as midam one-or-two body truthing, beautiful room truthing, the timeline of their love story, what their relationship dynamic is exactly, etc. but overall i am ultimately a believer that adam let michael possess him out of a sense of combined fear, awe, and duty. michael, being michael, put adam ‘away’ for the stull cemetery confrontation and while still retaining a cold and callous attitude and a general sense of angelic entitlement, fully intended to fullfill his promises to adam once he was done using a vessel. thus, he was reluctant to let adam come back “online” when he was in the cage. once adam realized what had happened, he was understandably furious and refused to interact with michael. however, the cage has a way of bringing people together, namely, by being mind-numbingly, oppressively still (boring), to the point that adam and michael sort of sought each other out naturally and eventually repaired things between each other.

However, i have to wonder about THE very beginning of their work relationship-  Adam being approached by zachariah as a potential/eventual vessel for michael.

Related to this - sam and dean actually didn’t meet their brother until the fifth season, which kind of fucks me up if i think about it too long. we were TECHNICALLY introduced to the character or rather the existence of adam in the fourth season via the iconic “Jump the Shark”, but that ended up being the ghoul who had killed and consumed adam and his mother, which is super fucked. Would sam and dean have ever learned about their brother if it wasn’t for the ghouls’ family desire for revenge? as a bit of an aside, it does make me chuckle to think of dean and sam never meeting the ghoul, and then being contacted about adam during the fifth season with no prior knowledge of him. i’m imagining zachariah calling dean and being like, “we have your brother, come to this building in california if you want him back alive, yadda yadda” and dean just repsonding with. what the fuck? man, sam’s sitting literally directly to my right. in the car. is this some kind of a joke? fuck off. then he hangs up on zach and makes a comment to sam about angels being dicks.

on a sadder note, i’m trying to remember how long the period of time was between adam’s death and sam and dean’s first meeting with the ghoul. if my memory serves me right, it was some months before the ghoul could finally reach them. it makes me unmanageably upset to think about the Milligan’s little home sitting quiet and unwillingly abandoned, the air going at first stale and then foul with the smell of their remains coming through the tunnel system. Did Adam have any friends? a romantic partner? did they try to look for adam and his mother? did Kate’s nurse co-workers worry for her? are they still worried? or are adam and his mom afforded no one to give a shit about them because they’re side characters chuck cooked up to keep the story interesting? do their lives begin and end with their involvement with the winchesters? is is sad or funny to imagine adam, youthful adam, alone in a locked room with an archangel, looking up in the utmost terror, and completely misunderstanding the beast’s request for him? Adam can’t help it, he’s only human! very funny to me to think of Adam hoping he won’t get smiting for saying this, but, um, he’ll have to politely decline Michael’s request for “his body”, as he’s very sure michael has a very lovely personality, but he’s never slept with a non-human, and most certainly never with an angel. And, is it, like, a virgin Mary thing? Does he just want adam as some kind of holy womb? And if that happens is the birth going to be all fucked up, like the chestbursters in the Alien movies? Unnecessarily torturing myself by asking, well, is Adam trans? Is he filled with guilty rage and grief at the thought that god wants him pregnant? or, touching on what i asked earlier, would adam say he has to decline because he already has a very devoted boyfriend back home in minnesota who, by the way, is probably still worried sick over his whereabouts right now. On the flip side, would it be more in-character for michael to quickly rectify what he meant exactly and tell Adam he needed to possess him to defeat the devil, or for michael to take Adam back to minnesota in spirit and show him how his boyfriend is just beginning to move on from his death, and how adam suddenly returning to him would just screw him up further? You see, little one? what has died is meant to stay dead. allowing you to return to your life would just be...messy. the only reason you’re back on earth right now is so you can host me. If michael goes with the second option, is the minnesota he shows adam to convince him actually what’s happening, or is it a false vision hastily whipped up to nudge the human in the ‘right direction’? Or is it perhaps BOTH? Is michael aware, to some extent, of the ‘levels’ of creation chuck has made? does he know Adam didn’t exist until chuck needed new material? Does he know that the winchesters are the main characters, or from his perspective, Very Important to the plot? does he know that his father creates all people real, but some people are more real than others? does he know how real he is? does he reveal to adam the true nature of his old life in minnesota, how it’s a shoddy fabrication implanted in him by his father? Was adam’s consent based purely off a coerced existential crisis? Was adam’s consent desperate and confused? Did Adam even consent, or did michael just annihilate his entire sense of self to the point where Adam wasn’t even a ‘person’ anymore, just a self-aware plot device, and michael no longer needed a ‘yes’ to enter him? Would Michael knowingly push Adam to the asymptote of his own nonexistence just so he could bypass his father’s pesky consent rule? In any universe where he does do this, it’s never, ever, personal. (back to the whole Michael is a huge entitled dick until he has to make pretty with adam in the cage thing - does it ever weigh on adam, later on in the relationship, that, up until he and the archangel irreconcilably crossed paths, all of Michael’s interactions with humans were likely only ever transactional - brief bursts of light and terror, a bat snatching a moth out of the night air, a quick meetup to secure Michael’s access to their body. Is adam, in a way, sort of the prostitute michael fell in love and settled down with? If Michael ever interacted with humans before him at all...)

Pretend i didn’t say all that, up until i mentioned Adam’s possible partner back in Minnesota. when i think of Adam rejecting Michael on the grounds of “I have a boyfriend!” not only does it make me giddy, i think of the moment after in which michael immediately thinks out loud, “What does that have to with ME? I’m trying to banish my brother, the devil, and bring paradise to earth, and you think your boyfriend who doesn’t even know where you are will be concerned if I ride your meat for a day or two? Oh my god i didnt mean it like THAT i meant if just highjacked your vessel long enough to cage Lucifer-OK, OK, i came on a bit strong, I’ll admit, but PLEASE let me in man You gotta.” Are we feeling better? Think about that funny tiktok audio excerpt in which TisaKorean exclaims, “Man, I don’t give a fuck, I’m tryna get up in the club! I’m tryna go crazy, dawg!” Just imagine it, please.

Anyway. this post has become...unreasonably long, so I’ll cut things off here and wish you well, if you managed to make it this far.

#teehee this is deranged fan behavior...im not sorry about a word of it though. #i might as well tag this? it kind of became a whole ass dissertation so #midam #michael spn #adam spn #chuck shurley #midam dynamics #michael and adam #long post #just a general brainstorm of ideas surrounding michael and adam's unknowably complex relationship. and other things. #so insane how i could KEEP WRITING AFTER THIS...caffeine got me going CRAZY. #seriously off the shits. god help whoever's near me if i ever finally do actual cocaine. #forreal i havent done a huge long adamichael centric post in a while...i need to consume drugs more often i think. #ALSO SORRY IF THERES ANY ERRORS IN THIS....I REMOVED AND SWITCHED SOME PARTS AROUND POST-TYPE..

[merlinssaggyyfronts]

BBC Merlin Rewatch:

01x01: The Dragon’s Call

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FIRSTLY THE FUCKING DESCRIPTION LMAO “Merlin, a young country boy” COUNTRY BOY AHAHDHSNDH IF ONLY YOU KNEW!!! ITS LIKE SETTING SOMEONE UP FOR DISASTER BUT THEN AGAIN THEY WERE SO LIKE I MEAN-

aw look at merlin all happy and smily, walking into camelot like he isnt going to witness the death of his best friend/king and basically everyone he loves

LOOK AT HIM HES SO HAPPY!!! HE DOESNT KNOW YET

“like everyone, he must live and learn” yo shut ur bitchass up lizard man u literally tried to murder everyone in camelot that one time

“his name: traumatised 😍😍”

AH YES THE OPENING!!1!1!-!-! AHHH THE AMOUNT OF HAPPINESS I FEEL HEARING THE OPENING

fuck ur bitchass uther no one likes u

“i pride myself as a fair and just king” sir didnt u like basically kill ur wife... and thousands of peo- OH MY GOD MORGANA BB ILY

oh jesus okay hes dead um chile-

“when i came to this land” wait i thought he was raised kn camelot brb i forgot im an idiot wait,,, does this mean before this it was the du bois family on the throne of camelot?? also, mired in chaos? u mean like.... before ur wife died and everyone was living peacefully? ....okay

“merlin, seeing a person who's been stated had been studying magic get beheaded: [a magical being himself] ah,, welcoming.” -my gf

“since the great dragon was captured” ....so did no one think about where they put a dragon?? a captured one at that. ud think he’d be more smart but nah he just left a random ass dragon under his castle like THAT is going to end well

YUHH MARY COLLJNS HATE HIM!!! YELL BABEY YELL!!! “you took my son!” YES MURDER HIM OMG I CAN FEEL HER PAIN

“a son for a son!” omg why couldnt u have killed uther bb ur the perfect villain i love u ur literally just a loving mother i-

OOOOO GAIUS

.....why is there a bunny mask in there

why is thERE A BUNNY MASK-

why didnt merlins eyes glow when he dragged the bed to gaius to save him

also whats this slomo magic why didnt he do this after this why did season one haveso much magic and like every other season was just everyone throwing it back

like i get instinctual magic but like.... if its instinctual wouldnt it happen more especially when his powers get stronger-

gaius: what did you just do?!

also gaius, five seconds later: i know what it was!! i just wanted to know where you learned it

merlin: 😐

merlin, about his magic: i was born like this

gaius, who knows full well warlocks exist: impossible!

(are warlocks naturally born knowing how to use magic without learning? i mean if u have to learn magic like a sorcerer then whats the difference between a warlock and a sorcerer cuz wouldnt sorcerers atleast have to have some magic in them to actually cast spells? am i dumb or do i just not get it)

wait so merlin arrived in camelot on a wednesday

merlin, walking into camelot: it is wednesday my dudes

merlin: [witnesses an execution] aaaAAAAAA-

“someone that might help him find a purpose of his gifts” oh honey he’ll get something mUCH LARGER THAN THAT-

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oH MORGANA

SHUT UR BITCHASS UTHER SHE WILL KILL YOU-

“the more brutal you are, the more enemies you’ll create” oh the waY SHE PREDICTED THEIR FUTURE OO

ah bless u lady helen/mary collins we love them spicy villains

...why do you have a dressing table in a tent

[watches mary collins murder lady helen] i never snitch on dadd- ...someone pls delete me

merlin, about his instinctual magic: i just do it!

gaius: ...lord have mercy what did i just sign myself up to

what ever happened to sir olwen did he die from accidentally overdosing

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oHHH THERE HE IS THERE HE IS THERES MY BOY!!! MY LIL PRAT MAN!!!!

merlin looks so offended, oh god i could watch this whole scene for HOURS

oooOOOO YES MERLIN FUCK HIM UP!!! SHOW HIM WHOS BOSS

“do i know you?” “im merlin” “so i dont know you” ugh theres already sexual tension

“i would never have a friend who could be such an ass” “or i one so stupid”

also them, ten years later: “i use my magic for you arthur, only you” “just hold me” “i cant lose him! hes my friend!” “thank you..”

“tell me merlin, do you know how to walk on your knees?” OOOOH THE BOYS ARE FLIRTING

NOT THE “would you like me to help you?” SIR YOU ARE FLIRTING SO INTENSELY AND DONT EVEN REALISE IT SIR DO YOU KNOW YOURE FALLING IN LOVE

im convinced atleast half the knights with arthur were like “ayo thas kinda sus bro 😳😳 ayo 😳😳”

arthur: tell me merlin, do you know how to walk on your knees? would you like me to help you?

merlin: ....i really dont know how to answer that

imagine being paid to throw fruits at colin morgan omg id be so thrilled

OOOH HERE COMES OUR QUEEN GWEN!!! MY LOVE MY EVERYTHING YES ILY

gwen: well, arthur looks like one of those, save the world kinda men... and you dont

merlin, 1500 years later, having failed his destiny: well i mean you’re not wrong

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gaius: uther banned magic a long time ago

merlin, flabbergasted as if he wasnt raised on tales of the death of his kind every day in the kingdom right next to his: why?!?!?

gaius: the dragon is imprisoned where nobody can free him

merlin:

(that is the face of someone knowing full well hes going to free that dragon. look at him. he’s already made up his mind.)

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[sees merlin and arthur in the marketplace] oh heres he is again heres the lil bitxh ooo theyre about to FIGHT

god hes flirting so hard without even realising it, oh my god

“i could take you apart with one blow” “i could take you apart with less” um sirs this is a mcdonalds drive thru 😃

arthur: ahah, you’re in trouble now~ 😏😏

i had to pause cuz wHAT THE HELL WHY DOES HE SOUND LIKE THAT-

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....yall are yelling very loudly, um, arent there guards near yall? people passing by? please relax

“im just a nobody, and i always will be” OH IF ONLY YOU KNEWWW

“if i cant use magic, i might as well die” ....well, ive got a surprise for you-

“maybe theres someone with more magic than me?” like... a whole dragon? i mean if you say so 👀

merlin about why he was born like this: if you cant tell me, no one can!

a fucking dragon, basically every magical creature and the druids: WELL-

the camelot guards are so stupid how the hell is this kingdom still standing

how does kilgharrah know merlins name? in prophecy hes known as emrys (and we see basically every magical being call him emrys and not merlin,, i think). so how does he know? did he stretch his neck long enough that he could somehow hear merlin? is it cuz theyre kin? is it cuz merlin and gaius were yelling so loudly that kilgharrah could hear them all the way in his cave? ig we’ll never know 🖐

merlin: where are you?!

kilgharrah:

kilgharrah: without you, arthur will never succeed.

merlin: ....oh look, im already paranoid

the amount of sadness i feel hearing kilgharrah say “none of us can choose our destiny, merlin. and none of us can escape it” is INSANE cuz in season one you can SEE merlin trying to escape it. hes doing his damned best trying to have some control over his life. and then in later seasons you can see the light slowly drain from his eyes as he becomes just another toy for the gods to be entertained by. he realises he cant control a single thing about his life so he does the one thing he can: protect arthur. and he loses SO MUCH because of it! its not fair, he deserved so much, and when he finally got everything he could ever ask for, it was taken away from him by his own mistakes.

arthur, seeing morgana in a beautiful dress: god have mercy 😍

uther: .....um

the way they set arthur and morgana up as if they arent gonna make them siblings i- what the fawk 😄

person A, who knows arthurian lore: oh no! arthur is going to have an affair with morgan(a) and have mordred! oh no!!

person B, whos seen merlin: oh no in this show its worse

person B, knowing full well theyre siblings: much worse....

gwen: who’d wanna marry arthur? 🙄

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gwen, getting crowned queen of camelot: well fuck

hhhnghnh yes queen sing them to sleep yes murder his bitchass (and fail but like its the thought that counts)

on a sidenote tho this is such a fun way to murder someone, id try this

the absolutely OFFENDED “FATHER!” and the horrified look in arthurs eyss when uther announced merlin would be his manservant is PRICELESS OMG

oh the way uther unintentionally plants the first seed of his sons love story omg 😍😍

Conclusion: this episode is a 10/10 greatest episode with so many iconic scenes omg. mary collins u will forever have my heart for unintentionally kickstarting merlin and arthurs relationship destiny. i loved the whole thing and oh GOD does it already hurt knowing full well how the show ends

#this was a RIDE #eli’s merlin rewatch #yes i have to say everything that happens in the episode pls leave me alone #01x01: the dragon’s call #merlin #arthur pendragon #uther pendragon #morgana le fay #morgana pendragon #guinevere #guinevere pendragon #gwen #gaius #kilgharrah #lady helen #mary collins #bbc merlin

[thesharondefenseleague]

Ive seen a few people be like i dont get it other ships were unlike without the ship or either character get as much hate as Sharon or SteveSharon.

And I think people are forgetting the time period context Sharon was at the peak of her unpopularity.

I saw another anon point out the difference between ship wars between now and then which is definetly a factor but another thing was the whole queerbaiting thing. At the time Civil War came out Sherlock and Supernatural were still very big in fandom especially on tumblr. And both those shows queer baited alot ( especially Supernatural) and the fandoms were finally starting to catch on that the creators were exploiting their completely valid desire to see gay couples with huge epic storylines without ever planning to deliever while also acting like it was just coincidence they had queerbaiting at all, completely unintentional.

Its easy to be like ugh course they were what did you expect but queerbaiting to this degree not necessarily something this audience were used to and most of this audience were young and genuinely optimistic and not jaded bout representation in shows like these.

They lashed out at the fictional canon love interests ( if only they didnt exist we would get what we wanted which wasnt true but thinking that the writers just preferred a diff ship to yours less awful a realization than writers baited you) and they didn't always come to the right conclusions bout what was and wasn't queerbaiting. Basically any popular ship where the 2 the two guys had a compelling dynamic explored was called queerbaiting if either ended up in a relationship with a woman especially if that woman wasnt as well explored.

By the time endgame came out while queerbaiting wasnt always properly used the frustration was directed usually not as often towards the female love interests but the authors. And so were just frustrations about the romance in general. Not that ship or character hate didnt exist but it wasnt as intense as it was when the writers got no critique.

TLDR

So while people didnt like Steggy in endgame the culture of responding to that and the frustration with that couple was different than when SteveSharon became a couple

I was so out of the loop when Endgame happened I didn’t even know there was a Steve/Peggy and Steve/Bucky ship war until I read it on r/HobbyDrama a year later.

But you’re right 100% on the context of tumblr when CACW and the popularity of queerbaiting (with all the misogyny, racism, homophobia that came with it) and how that influenced hatred of Sharon. (Also how fandom treated Sam, though I’ve seen more defense of Sam at that time more than ever.) Now we are all older and know that our frustrations come with a sloppy creative team (as in writers/directors/executive producer, and not the other creative behind-the-scene parts, who all do great), we’re calling it out properly. And also seeing how badly this has gotten out of hand with just how many people at Marvel have a hand in this mess.

But always remember: the MCU never queerbaited anyone. Someone queerbaited themself.

~Mod R