im gonna be real with you guys, im not leaving tumblr. i made accounts in other places but i dont think i can leave this place, not after 6 years here and not after gaining a big following being the only thing that lets me get enough money from commissions to get by lol. i'll always be on discord to talk to my friends but otherwise either this site dies or i do. whatever happens first
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i appreciate having a better family doctor now. really, i do. it's a relief to be listened to and taken seriously.
but she has (indirectly, through specialist referrals) given me five chronic illness diagnoses in the last three months. f i v e. like, okay, that's good, it's ENOUGH SLICES!
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u know the thing about raves is i like. fall in love with every other person i see. there was a fucking gorgeous goth girl right next to me doing that slow goth dance style while everyone else was going wild i was like Mesmerized. also sorry this makes me feel like a creep but theres just so many hot people i kept being like O__O
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so when i had a disaster to clean up i went and made it 100x worse so i could clean everything more deeply-- basically all i would have needed to do was replace the book shelf and theres a significantly more mentally ill me that wouldn't even have done that much so I'm a little proud. we're alright 👌 tho probably nothing wouldve gotten done if i had to work more than one day since all this shit. and getting the trombone-- that makes me wanna get this place all cozy and nice so it'll be even more fun to learn and appreciate time spent with it.
but its been so much damn work these past few days and I am just so damn burnt out and exhausted now bc I've not done much other than try to make my space livable-- i havent been able to even set my computer up so now that I can walk around a bit without dying I think i deserve to play vampire survivors. and I'm fucking going to. even tho i feel so much guilt seeing the total playtime add up like theres so much useful shit i coulda been doing instead theres hundreds of hours logged into a goddamn game. really have to work harder on this recreation-guilt thing huh
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so. um. 👉👈
hi guysies.
Ig I should just say like. Hi
I haven't been posting here as much cause. Idk. Might be depression? I keep thinking its cause I've been so busy, which also wouldn't be not untrue, but these past, like, 3 weeks I think so far? I've had some free time but I haven't cause. I dunno, then again, I haven't been doing too much in general? I gues, besides very mandatory things, hell I've even been lacking in my regular skyrim hours of playing.
That, and as said, I get super melancholic when I remember just how sad and bittersweet it is that t0h is. Actually legit over. The show and experience, that is.
Oh all that and also becuz my headphones broke! Fuck! That's like number 2 in my bare necessities for when I post, do almost anything really! It's seriously been painful this past month going without headphones holy shit. Dude I've been scratching at the bit for some relief for headphones, I NEED music legitimately. Even right now, as I'm typing this on my phone, my music is on low levels.
But yerp. Its been. Rough. Really rough. I really do appreciate yall, everyone of yall. Have a sweet week everyone, ✌️!
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