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moonjxsung · 2 months

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STAR IM DEVASTATED so i have a priv twt acc right w some irls and this stay from stayville req-ed me a long time ago and i was soooo happy that i was mutuals w someone from stayville and i THOUGHT everything between us was cool? but today they unfollowed me and removed me as a follower and im devastated i dunno why they did that :((( i don't think they had a problem w me saying nsfw stuff cuz they previously tweeted things like "cancelling someone over saying smth nsfw abt an adult is stupid" and also ive seen them interact w nsfw minsung posts so i dunno if me tweeting smth like "i wanna suck flxs cock sooooo bad" couldve made them wanna break the mutual??? i dmed them too and i was like "heyy is there a reason you don't wanna be moots w me anymore </3" and not even minutes later they turned off their message perms and im devastated. its STUPID bcs they'd barely interact w me Sure but it felt nice to have a stay be my friend on my priv twt that's usually just for my irls and i </3 it's ironic that they did that too bcs just earlier today (before they broke the mutual) i noticed that my followers went down (i have a very low amt already. like. 25. not even joking) and i tweeted "yall dont wanan be friends w me anymore </3" bcs like. my followers are QUITE LITERALLY only my irls + a skz writer so i was (i think rightfully??) alarmed that the number went down!!!! man im just Sad about it and SIIIGH i know i shouldnt care so much bcs at the end of the day they're just a person online but the least they could've done was dm me back and explain why and GHFSDDSJHFKJADDSDSAAAAA you get me!?!! also im sorry i dropped this on you randomly feel free to ignore LMAAOOAOAO can i be 💫 anon? thank yew <3

(Adding 💫 to the anon list!!! Also fun fact that’s my favorite emoji of all time. Slay)

I feel like I’m the LAST person who should be giving advice abt this bc one of my mutuals and a very good friend of mine who I’d been talking to every day randomly blocked me on everything this week after me literally being there to console this person for every little thing and playing into this pretend homoerotic friendship we had even though she was clearly looking for another boyfriend and would get mad if I even called another girl pretty (???) I wish nothing but the absolute best for her but like…. The double standard is WILD. to not provide closure to a months-long friendship is just genuinely a very mean spirited thing to do imo.

(If she’s reading this, best of luck with everything and I hope you know I cared for you a lot more than you think I did. I distanced myself because you were clearly looking for someone to fill a void in your life that I could simply not fulfill, and I didn’t want to lead you on, nor be kept around like I wasn’t allowed to talk to other girls either. Regardless, I hope you know I used to sleep with my phone on full volume in case you called, and I deleted a page worth of poetry in my notes app for you I meant to deliver on your birthday. I also deleted your number so I have zero way of contacting you, but I will always be here if you need me. Take care and I love you always, I hope you still see me when you look up at the moon)

It’s not the first time I’ve lost an internet friend to the magical world of blocking, but fortunately the attitude I’ve developed towards it is that none of this is real!!! These are people on the internet miles away you’ve never met irl and they have no real impact in your life whether they remain following you or not. I’ve lost internet friends nearly a decade ago that I don’t even remember anymore. Better ones will come along!!! Especially stays! This fandom has so many beautiful remarkable people who are actually worth following and they wouldn’t cut you off like that. Sending so many positive vibes your way and I KNOW that the universe will send you some better mutuals. In the meanwhile I will be your internet bestie and I would never unfollow you for nsfw content or without some form of an explanation. And I also want to suck Felix’s dick. 🩷🫶

(I love you, don’t be so hard on yourself!!!! You’re wonderful, angel 🩷 anyone would be lucky to be moots with you)

#💫 anon #ask

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echoalyssa · 11 months

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hello! Can we get a part two of this ask? Thx! “Hey, sorry to bother you but I was wondering if I could make a request for Jaden Hossler or Chase Hudson where he cheats on the reader cause he thinks him she is cheating on him when she's actually planning a surprise b-day party or something like that...”

Authors Note: After like a year long wait... here it is! A warning, I am into veterinary terminology but I am not certified and this information and order of events may be incorrect. I apologize in advance if it is. This is part two but can probably be read as a standalone. I have linked part one below!

Read part one HERE

It's been two long years away from Chase. At first it felt like the end of the world. You'd laid on your bedroom floor unable to move. It had felt like your heart was being held in an iron first. The breakup had broken you... until it hadn't.

It was true what they said, time heals all. It had taken longer than. you had expected, the whole thing was public. Even months after the videos released there were still edits and DM's and YouTube videos about the split. People monitored that type of thing, when you had unfollowed him they had noticed immediately and it was blown out of proportion.

Now though, two years later, you had moved out of LA and into Murfreesboro Tenessee, a much smaller town that allowed your healing to complete.

You had deleted all social media, gotten a regular job at a regular animal shelter and basically fallen off the face of the earth.

It was nice, just being able to focus on the animals and the gym. You were living for yourself and yourself only.

It was funny though, you'd changed your phone number but even before that most people dropped you. They had chosen to stay out of the drama completely rather than take sides.

After all this time, you couldn't say that you hated him. Even after what he did to you. You had done the same thing back anyway. Occasionally you would think about him, but it was a brief fleeting thought before you were losing yourself in a book instead.

Well... until today.

It's storming hard and the dogs are howling. Most of them scared of the thunder. You're running around checking that the dogs are safely locked into their kennels. The last thing you needed was one of them getting out.

It was being busy like this that really helped you. Several of the staff had called off, opting to stay out of the storm. You didn't call off for anything though.

You make it out of the dog sector and start to cross the lobby to the cats.

Halfway though, the front door to the shelter busts open.

"Help! Somebody help me!"

The voice makes you freeze in your tracks, you know that voice. How could you ever forget?

You turn slowly and there he is.

His hair is plastered to his forehead because of the rain. He's filled out more and he looks taller. He's in a short sleeve t-shirt so you can see that his tattoo sleeve is finally finished. His eyes are still just as mesmerizing as before.

He's holding a dog in his arms, the front of his shirt soaked in blood. The dog is limp and you can see that his leg is not facing the direction it should be.

"Please. Nowhere else is open. I found-"

He freezes because he's recognized you.

You'd changed your hair color, grown it out, and were decked out in shelter gear and rainbows but he knows it's you.

You choose to help the dog first, surging forward to take the dog out of his arms. Your fingers touch his arm and he inhales sharply.

The shelter vet had already gone home for the day but you were trained in pain management, splints and tourniquets.

You shove the two double doors to the clinic room open, laying the dog on the table.

He follows your worriedly.

You turn to dig through a cabinet for all the supplies that you might need. An IV, a fluid bag, a vial of the pain medication.

This dog was going to bleed out if you didn't act fast.

Your first move is to administer the shot. You'd have to move his leg around a lot and it was going to be excruciating. It wasn't going to kick in immediately but it was better than nothing.

"Is he going to be okay? I got here as fast as I could!" He's hovering over you way too close for you to work.

You turn to face him, voice steadier than your heart.

"Chase." You pause to get his attention. "You need to let me work. Grab my phone and call Marcia. Tell her it is an emergency and I'm applying a tourniquet to stabilize him."

He nods, scrambling with the piece of technology. Having something to do seems to steady him somewhat and allows you to apply the tourniquet.

Lastly, you shave down the leg that would have to be operated on and insert an IV to hopefully hydrate him.

The meds have kicked in and the dog is beginning to fall asleep on the table.

"That's all I can do. Now he just has to wait for Marcia."

Chase doesn't respond so you turn to look at him.

He's staring at you.

"Its been so long." He says it as a statement so you don't respond, waiting for him to continue. "You dropped off the face of the earth."

Again, another statement.

He wrings his hands together nervously.

"I looked for you."

His words make something in your heart stir. You pause for a long while and then suddenly say, "Your shirt is trashed. We have some extra shelter volunteer shirts."

You walk away from him to search through the closet for them.

When you turn around with one in hand your mouth goes dry because he's pulling his shirt up and over his head and wow. He had certainly filled out. The muscles in his back ripple and you force yourself to look at his eyes instead.

You hand it to him and your fingertips brush again.

"How have you been?" His voice is almost a whisper.

There's no way to deny that this is a question not a statement and so you are forced to answer.

"Ive been good." It's a short answer considering everything.

He nods, cracking his knuckles.

"I missed you."

That one hurts.

"I never got to tell you how sorry I was. The snake I... you put a lot of thought into it and I never should have doubted you. You never gave me a reason to not trust you."

You nod. There was a lot of nodding going on in this conversation.

"I should have been better for you."

"It's okay." You finally say, your voice is barely above a whisper.

"It's not okay. Can you ever forgive me?"

"I forgave you a long time ago Chase."

Your words make him smile, almost too much.

"I want to try again."

You shake your head at this, "No, Chase. There's too much hurt and I gave that all up. The social media, the drama, that's not me anymore."

"I know!" He tells you, "That's okay. We'll make it work."

Except how would that work? He would have to give up his career or you would have to go back into the spotlight and that was not something that you wanted to do.

"I don't think I can Chase. I have a life here, I don't want to go back to how it was."

He steps forward, reaching for your arm and you pull away from him.

"Let's just start over then. Get to know each other as friends. I'm here on vacation anyway!"

"You're in Tennessee on vacation?" You ask skeptically.

"Well... I have a show in Nashville. My album is trending! I was driving through when I found the little guy."

Your heart is beating wildly and your head is telling you it's a bad idea but deep down in your heart you know you want to. So when Chase reaches out to shake your hand, you let him.

"Hi. My name is Chase. What's yours?"

"Y/N. Nice to meet you Chase."

#chase hudson #lil huddy #lil huddy x reader #lil huddy imagine #chase hudson imagine #chase x reader #chase hudson x reader

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cloudcountry · 6 months

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I'm sorry to admit this, but I have unfollowed during the rook reblog spam. You post so much that I can't keep up, so I don't think I'll be refollowing, it's a bit overwhelming. Especially since I feel the need to keep up with the blogs I follow... Would.. would it be a bit more reasonable to ask that you tag me whenever you write for Twst and if there's any posts you'd like me to see? (no need to @ asks from me since tumblr should notify me if you answer my ask) I don't want to make you feel like you need to change the way you post, but I do still wanna be moots, but I want to find a way to not overwhelm myself... I feel like any way I word this just comes off as rude. Though I do have a question regarding the reblog spam of the same post 100 times in a minute... what point does that serve? From what I understand, reblogging is more motivating to likes as it means more people will see that post. But part of a post getting seen is those who follow the reblogger and the tags. So if there's no tags, then its likely only your followers will see that post. Thus you'd be spamming the same people the same post which wont help with getting it out to more people. I'd think it could help to reblog at different times along with covering all the relevant tags possible, otherwise... it just seems like there's a better chance of annoying peeps that could otherwise like what was reblogged and potentially follow the original poster.

yeah i noticed that a few days ago actually!! i figured my posting was why too ^^ i was thinking of making a taglist though so yk just let me know which characters you'd like to be tagged for and i can do that

honestly ive been debating turning my side blog into a reblogs blog since i do have a lot of conversations here with reblogs that can bury writings nd stuff. but its also a hassle to switch to a whole new blog just to have a convo so ive been reluctant to do that but i get i can try it.

also the spam reblogging thing is just for sillies are far as i can tell. like i usually do it as a joke to show enthusiasm, i never thought about it that way. especially with teh rise of spam reblogging in the twst fandom to get the ratios to look better because the twst fandom SUCKS at reblogging in general.

#axvie <3

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petewentzisblack1312 · 2 years

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do you have any thoughts as to why fob, despite being very anti-racist, are so associated or friends with racist bands or people?

hmmm youd have to specify which bands and people youre talking about

when it comes to like 21p they first came out of the closet as antiblack with their silence on the ferguson riots and joshs nerd lives matter tweet well after fob went on tour with them, and idk when that taco bell song surfaced. the association comes from a lot of fob fans being introduced to 21p with the save rock and roll tour, and with the fact that theyre an emo act, so theres gonna be a fair bit of overlap there. petes still following them both but i think hes under way more scrutiny on social media so if he unfollowed either of them people would immediately notice and talk about it because people do that all the time constantly.

with post split panic, first of all panic got their start specifically because of pete so theres always going to be that association, plus its still on dcd2. i think a lot of the racist stuff brendon has said has been controversial hot takes he thinks will get people talking about him. any press is good press etc etc. not to say he doesnt believe the stupid shit, i do think he did genuinely think being "transracial" in the rachel dolezal sense was the same as being transgender because hes not a well read or curious individual whatsoever (btw did he ever rescind that statement. i dont recall), but its like a different beast. also ive noticed that the only person in the fob vortex who still follows brendon or patd on instagram is pete, and pete owns the imprint hes on, and again, hes thee Fall Out Boy. so i think thats a case of entaglement.

i cant think of other bands which are associated with fob besides like also being alt acts in which case the alternative and even the hardcore and punk scenes are just like bonkers racist all the time so thats not on them. as for people, i dont know who specifically you may be thinking of but my best guess is either its one of their rock n roll heroes (courtney love) or they do not have the clout to refuse and then deal with the politics that would follow. cowards.

#dils declares #i considered adding an mcr section but then id get crucified by mcrblr for criticising their guy.#mcr arent racist theyre just a bunch of not-racists which is like. not good enough but fine.

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feralnumberfive · 1 year

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ive been following you for a while & didnt notice your dni so i wanted to ask - do you want me to unfollow you?

i don't ship the Hargreeves together, and would say that generally i don't ship much of anything since im ace/aro. . . but i don't really mind luther/sloane? like i get that its kinda weird but i approach it in generally the same way that id approach diego/lila or allison/raymond or even klaus/dave in that i dont really care about the ship itself but characters in canon are made happier by their s/o so im not upset by seeing the ship or interacting with it but yknow.

if u want me to unfollow ill do it no problem, sorry for the inconvenience

Great question anon, you've really got me thinking on this one. I'm going to let you decide what you want to do because like I said in my previous ask, I don't really know how to feel about Luther/Sloane either. I view them as step siblings but it feels different from any of the Umbrellas x each other. Do I still view it as a form of incest? I guess, but I'm being completely honest when I say I just don't have strong feelings about 100% opposing them. Maybe this is going against what I've been saying on this account, but I can never stop people from shipping characters.

I've shared some strong feelings in the past and may have hurt others with my thoughts about shipping within TUA, as every fandom does have issues with ships. My issue is just with viewing the shipping of the Umbrellas as incest, which is already something debated in the fandom. I'm not going dive into this controversial topic at the moment, but my own thoughts aside I have seen people with adopted siblings within the fandom become uncomfortable with the Umbrellas being shipped because in real life it doesn't matter that their sibling is adopted, it's their sibling. So it just all becomes a matter of opinion when it comes to what you consider incest in TUA.

To me Luther and Sloane are step siblings, but then I also think about how they weren't raised together as siblings, but in this alternate universe Reginald is still their father so I believe it connects them as step siblings. On top of this, Reginald has something to do with the creation of all 43, or 16, children so does that connect them as their father besides him being their adoptive father? I don't know, and maybe we'll get an actual answer in the final season, but besides that Luther and Sloane feel different to me.

I really and truly appreciate you reaching out to me about your concern, anon. I have decided that I'm going to go ahead and remove that dni from my bio now. I think I'll go about my own way of trying navigate the fandom with this issue (which it's an "issue" to me not just something within the fandom) instead of having a big ol' dni in my bio. I'm still not 100% sure how I feel about Luther and Sloane, but my views on shipping the Umbrellas with each other and Sparrows with each other still stand as it makes me uncomfortable.

Everyone has their own right to be comfortable on the internet, so I will let you decide on what you would like to do. You are welcome to stay, and again I appreciate you for coming to me about this. If you would like to leave though, thank you for sticking around for so long ❤️

#you guys make me think and I like that because even I don't really know what I think most of the time #luther and sloane give me mixed feelings #anon

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friedloverballoon · 2 years

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heyyy man. sorry if this is kinda personal but i noticed that me n you have kinda gone through the same thing opinion wise lol and was just wondering- i noticed that once i rlly exited most all discourse groups, my dysphoria got like. much less severe. ive been dysphoric for years and years, but its honestly never been worse than when i was in groups that said that you Had to have it to be trans (which i still believe just. idek) and made me feel like if it lessened at All then i shouldnt transition and just. i was all over the place lol. ive been id'ing as trans for Years bc of my presumed dysphoria but even the nicest people of these groups honestly made me kinda feel like i was faking since it wasnt that bad All the time🧍🏻but no yeah anyways im doing muchhh better now that im not so ingrained in discourse stuff and i was jw if you had a similar experience at all? ofc all of this is null if youre not trans KSBSKS but im not sure so! i hope youre having a good day🤍

HI i went through an entire week forgetting about tumblr and it was amazing, but I'm back again

I actually just now realized that you're the same amazing dude who defended me at the very beginning of me falling into that discourse stuff, and I didn't even know it because I started following lots of people since then for some reason, and yeah, really nice to see you again. I had to go back to the old controversial™ post to see if it was really you and I was so weirdly glad to have been right, hello again old friend :) I never unfollowed you or anything, I was just so caught up with tumblr shenanigans since we first met that I lost track of everything

I feel the exact same way you did, and it was kind of a long time coming with me stepping away from the discourse stuff, but tumblr is an awful place for discourse. It's so easy to either get stuck in an echo chamber or you will get several people angry at you, not a great experience either way

To answer your question though, I definitely felt a giant weight off my back after it all. I do still have some discourse stuff recommended to me, and I'll share a thought about it here and there, but I really just had to be tolerant and remember to agree to disagree and whatever. I think even being "too far" in my own side gave me that same feeling of making sure I didn't cross some line, even though, like you, I still hold the basic opinion that dysphoria is required to be trans, especially since looking more into biological factors and all that, although it's just… I think you understand what I mean, right? Like there are expectations to be met or something. I really think it's just bad for you in general, I haven't felt so free since my random post blew up in April.

(No idea if you want this to be public but I always post my questions unless someone tells me not to so… heyyy)

Either way, sorry this took so long to post, I had like thirty five different people having a weird conversation under an old post of mine and I got too many notifications

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arjunasearth · 1 year

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Insta Detox: Day 14

Logged in into IG yesterday for about 5 minutes. Felt an instant overstimulation again. Checked certain profiles of ppl I personally know. Nothing really interesting. Not very interested in watching Stories again, watched a few and instantly got bored. Didn't post anything nor had the urge to. Lets me reflect more about my relationship towards the people I whose profile Ive been checking out. Basically only girls. 2 girls living in my hood (they literally moved here), one of them was once a best friend for me (But not I for her, though). The other girl has a hairsalon right around the corner.The third girl also used to be a friend of mine but we stopped seeing each other after a conflict, yet we got over it and still follow each other, communicating every now and then (digitally). I haven't seen all of them for years, yet they really don't live that far away. Maybe a clear sign to meet up with one of them? I honestly don't know. I feel like our lives became too different and everyone is following her path, what is good and mature. On the other hand, none of them seems really to care about me that much neither , so maybe I just let it be and see what happens. Interestingly enough, I haven't seem them in person around my hood since they moved here but Ive been watching their stories almost every day, what felt kinda unreal to me, considering the fact, that we are not even real friends anymore. Tbh, a part of me misses the time we had together in our friendships and I think basically that's all there is to it.. also noticed that following them has been very one-sided (with 2 of them) as I was regularly checking their stories out while they were not checking out mine as frequently or not at all (Why would you follow somebody then, though, because you simply 'know' each other? Makes me want to unfollow them tbh.) Made me feel like a stalker in a way, although I know that I am not. But it's like watching parts of their life from a background position , without real interaction or trust. Makes me think a lot. Also about how they WANT to be seen, to perform, to polarize in a way.

I am thankful for this platform and the possibility it gives me. Being able to openly reflect about my feelings and thoughts towards IG without the need to perform. I can simply write my soul out as I always do. An open dialogue and also a constructive monologue in a way. I am honestly thankful for cutting my IG-consumption drastically, regulating it and protocolling it properly for the first time since I am doing this. The biggest difference I noticed so far has been in my concentration level, which has enormously increased since I stopped using IG on my phone or logging into it on my pc every day , every 2-3 hours. It's crazy . I also feel the urge to write more digitally on tumblr and go into other creative digital and non-digital tasks.I am also realizing more and more how much of a performative culture is surrounding me and that It almost became a sort of addiction for so many people to fragment their lives and perform these tiny bits to a digital audience. Of course I am aware that I am doing the same thing , yet not on such a large scale as big 'Influencers' do. IG is more about purely posting pictures and videos, while the writing part is definitely limited in comparison to the other aspects.On tumblr, it is pretty equally distributed and writing has been my biggest passion anyway. Privacy is mental health. Proper privacy is self-care. Not oversharing everything is self-care, as well. Moreover, when I regulate my digital performance, I do not have the urge to share everything or to capture everything after all. I am able to enjoy the moment again, being more aware of it. And if i wanna take a picture, I'll just do it. I can share it whenever I like, whereever I like. I don't HAVE TO share it instantly. It's an option, not an obligation. That's the difference.

#reflection

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baekhvuns · 1 year

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But the fact I even got my American friend who never watched the ACTUAL football and calls it futbol (I banned the word soccer - meanwhile I call American football - futbol lmao) and got excited. She said the final was entertaining. Right, honestly it's sad to see some top players go or lose their strengths. PSG has great players, it's good to have a mix of young stars and experienced legends, but sometimes the more experienced ones aren't doing too well, so even though it's weird seeing them on the bench sometimes they gotta be sacrificed. Lots of people were unhappy that Madrid was keeping the "old" players instead of introducing new faces, but guys like Benzema were clearly capable and we won CL after all.

I'm also a huge tennis fan, idk if you're into it, but both Roger and Serena retired this year, painful 😭💔

The San overlooking the stadium is really so so pretty. Please Pique stay away 😭 normalise blaming everything on Gerard. I'm a fan of Spain NT and I remember him fucking things up a few times. We RM fans laugh that he 100% has an anti-Madrid Twitter account, cause he always talks shit. He'll have more time to commit to hating on Madrid during his unemployment era. 😊

Btw recently I was like "where the hell is Suarez at" but he's playing at home :o

I'm not that into Ronaldo anymore for multiple reasons, but I used to be a stan kayusuahakshuakavs. Now we gotta fight Baek 🥊

Listen I was betrayed by a few players who decided to go to Barcelona, Fabregas, recently my guy Bellerin (I like him more as a person than a footballer, cause we have mutual friends same with a few other ex-Arsenal players 😭) and speaking of French footballers, Griezmann idk what was he doing in Barcelona, I like him but he consistently plays for my enemies Atletico, Barca 🔫

There was a moment years ago when my fave French club was Olympique Marseille, but that was a short-lived love affair. Idk know why I liked them. Not Karim unfollowing almost all French players?! My man Varane is safe from his wrath though haudhsjdgagajaha

And Wooyoung would be a menace on the field 😭 throw Suarez into the mix for biting

Literally, every guy in a manhwa is based on Hwa can you believe? Now let him be the lead in an adaptation.

I think Jongho is winning the battle, Shownu might be in the military, but he's harmless. It's between Jongho and Seulgi then

Damn Eric get a new producer cause wtfff 🤡

A few Shinestars talked about the Hwa thing, but it's always hard not to sound delulu, though even my non-Hwa biased friend (the one who got wrecked by him during the concert 👀) noticed he doesn't have that many opportunities to showcase his skills. I know he's popular and people love him, he's not mistreated or anything like that, but idk I wish he could do more. Mingi is similar, though he was out for a while, but still. Maybe Hwa's too humble 😭 but my guy, please volunteer more if that's the case

Hey, hey he can do both Lego and Dior or whatever, he has the duality after all! At least we're not fighting over model Hwa, he's still on thin ice for me 😅

I hope LSF goes darker! Btw I've been obsessed with their song No Celestial as well as IVE's My Satisfaction

I don't know whether it's April 2nd or 4th I can't count for shit, but aksuuauahauaajajaaaaaaa!!!

I keep forgetting the cb is next week, it still didn't register, I hope we get another movie-like teaser

Happy holidays! I'm not really celebrating, but I got the best gift please HE'S SO CUTE I'M GONNA KMS the reindeers and the kitty 🥺🥺🥺🥺

Big brain

🦌👀 sexy reindeer

I... won't say a word, but I could say A LOT

Me when none of my gifts were that blonde Ateez guy :/ rigged - DV 💖

hi hello!!

no bc i literally do not get the american way, i've been taught to say football since the beginning but here, everyone says soccer, i was so confused when i heard it and tried correcting them BUT NOOOO,, and what i call rugby is called football by westerners??? I DONT GET IT,, no its sad to see the once insanely talented players beginning to grow old and worn out their skills 😭😭😭 the new era of players arent as eye catching as the ones before,, yeah! it's sad and weird seeing legends be benched, ronaldo ofc, sometimes they are just benched bc they're "old" but they're still good and its just sad seeing their expression where they wanna play but arent allowed too 😭😭 my entire family was raged when ronaldo got benched JUST BC U SCORED SM GOALS WITHOUT HIM IN ONE GAME DONT MEANT IT WILL CONTINUE 😭😭 tbh imo its good that they kept them bc they;ve polished them into what they are today and the attachment they have w the club it'll be hard to get used to the new ones like pedri and gavi WHEN I HEARD XAVI AND INIESTA SAY THEY WERENT AS GOOD AS GAVI AND PEDRI WHEN THEY JOINED MADE ME WANNA THROW HANDS AT THEM

I'm also a huge tennis fan, idk if you're into it, but both Roger and Serena retired this year, painful 😭💔

im not an avid follower but sometimes matches are usually on so i will watch it! always happens to be someone from an australian team too, but im more of football and cricket (only when its ind vs pak fbjbkk) person

IT REALLY IS SO SO PRETTY, normalize wanting gerard to wanna retire every month bc it geels nice to see the news again idc he'S A SNAKE !! LMFAOOO I WOULD NOT BE SURPRISED IF HE DOES TBH FHBJBFH he's a full time hater, part-time player,,, i am wondering what will happen between rm and ronaldo and mourinho, bc ronaldo wants to play till 41, and honestly mourinho is the only one who can make him do that in finesse

Btw recently I was like "where the hell is Suarez at" but he's playing at home :o ///// I'm not that into Ronaldo anymore for multiple reasons, but I used to be a stan kayusuahakshuakavs. Now we gotta fight Baek 🥊

YEAAAAAAAAH HE IS, A SHOCKER everytime i see him all i see is his teeth 😭😭😭😭 u think his kids get bullied bc their dad bites ppl 😭😭 i will turn into a ronaldo stan at the next wc, i do want him to hold the trophy now that messi has, it only makes sense for him or neymar (bro is suffering, did insane good at copa but messi fjhbkhb read somewhere that he’s like the king who was never crowned bc he’s mostly forgotten, his stats are ignored so hard it mAKES ME UN POCO LOCO) to hold it next,,,it’ll be amazing to see the top 3 players of our gen to hold them, messi pls let them man 😭😭😭😭😭😭 LMFAOOOO ITS ON SIGHT,, mayne in the near future it’s the 3 messi’s v ronaldo jr that would be insane

oh???? u know him???? NOW WHO DO U NOT KNOW EVERYTIME IM SURPISED U KNOW SOMEONE FAMOUS WTF IS THIS, DROP ALL THE NAMES U KNOW U CANNOT KEEP DOING THIS,, no what was greizmann doing there 😭😭 it's so random,,, LMFAOOO tbh his presence in the french team makes the team sm better, sometimes i be thinking that he's the captain and not lloris 😭😭 lloris didnt save a single penalty what went on with him 😭😭

SHORT-LIVED LOVE AFFAIR FDHBJFHB LMFAOOO HES IN CAHOOTS W THEM, PROLLY WILL ATTACK DESCHAMPS DBFBDM,,, ik he has beef with greizmann and lloris but its so messy to watch it all go down 😭😭😭😭 STOPPPP I FORGOT HE'D BE SUAREZ TOO PLS THIS GUY WOULD BE A NIGHTMARE FOR TEAMS 😭😭😭😭 A RAMOS, NEYMAR AND SUAREZ MIX GTFOOO

Literally, every guy in a manhwa is based on Hwa can you believe? Now let him be the lead in an adaptation. /// I think Jongho is winning the battle, Shownu might be in the military, but he's harmless. It's between Jongho and Seulgi then

i actually believe it's all shinestars writing these webtoons under a pseudo,,, 1 hour of jongho dying of shyness in front of seulgi when,,, shownu breaking that axe when cutting wood still has me going crazy FORGET JONGHO SEULGI, KAI AND SEULGI

Damn Eric get a new producer cause wtfff 🤡

yeah 😭😭 bc daehyun posted about it too 😭😭😭😭

yeah!! he rly doesn't, i hope he does in the future,, yeah exactly he's not mistreated or anything maybe he's just shy and wants to let his other members shine before he gets the chance BUT HOPEFULLY HWA COLLABS IN 2023 !!! YEAH PLS VOLUNTEER MORE AND MINGI TOO,, sometimes i think the two are the same when it comes to things like this, they took humble and kindness to the next level dbfbf

Hey, hey he can do both Lego and Dior or whatever, he has the duality after all! At least we're not fighting over model Hwa, he's still on thin ice for me 😅 //// I hope LSF goes darker! Btw I've been obsessed with their song No Celestial as well as IVE's My Satisfaction

HE NEED TO DO ANYTHING NOW, FROM BASKIN ROBBIN ADS TO PARIS FASHION WEEKS 😭😭😭😭 imagine one day he's live and he;s in paris for dior but he's doing a lego live in his hotel room 😭😭 GIVE HIM A SECOND CHANCE!!!! omg no bc no celestial is so so good, their discography so far is >>> impurities is also very good!! haVE NOT HEARD THE IVE ON EYET BUT I WILL

I don't know whether it's April 2nd or 4th I can't count for shit, but aksuuauahauaajajaaaaaaa!!! //// I keep forgetting the cb is next week, it still didn't register, I hope we get another movie-like teaser

ITS IN APRIL AND THATS WHAT MATTERS 😭😭😭😭 HES FINALLY COMING 😭😭😭😭 SHINEE TOUR COMING 😭😭,, wait it's next week??? time flew by so fast the euro tours coming too 😭😭 i hope the mv is movie like too! it looks like they're about to perform pink venom

Happy holidays! I'm not really celebrating, but I got the best gift please HE'S SO CUTE I'M GONNA KMS the reindeers and the kitty 🥺🥺🥺🥺 /// Big brain

happy holidays to u too! HES SO CUTE AAAAAAAAAAAAA !!!!!! AND THESE,, forget big brain what is this fbkbj

🦌👀 sexy reindeer /// I... won't say a word, but I could say A LOT

NO. THANK U! NO SAY IT SAY IT RN, THIS IS EVIL HWA, THE TALENT OMG 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Me when none of my gifts were that blonde Ateez guy :/ rigged - DV 💖

RIGGED INDEED WHERE IS ATEEZ'S 6'1 BIG BOY AND HIS 5'10 COUNTERPART

what is this 🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️

a-anon

pls do this dhfhef + also someone needs to date this guy 😭😭😭 do u rmr his talk with eric where he said he keeps the lights on at his home so when he comes back its like someone’s waiting for him 😭😭 eunwoo too 😭😭🤚��

#✉️ : ask #dv 💖 anon

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merridelicious · 2 years

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in 2020 I started talking to someone online. I don’t remember how I found her (maybe a dating app?) but she was really sweet and we talked a lot, for around two weeks straight I think. but something felt wrong. I knew I wasn’t going to fall in love with her. and I was still cold and still prone to breaking connections easily and leaving people in the dark without explaining why. one day I just stopped replying. I never unfollowed her on instagram though.

today she posted photos from her wedding. I had noticed her posts about dating someone who seemed really good for her, and today they were married. they looked really happy, and I looked at the pictures of them together and thought- that’s why. that’s why it felt wrong. that’s why I knew even if we started dating it wouldn’t quite be right. I liked her and I thought she was smart and funny and pretty, but there was someone else she was meant to find. I can see it just from looking at them. they’re better than we ever would have been together.

things like that give me hope. what is not meant for us will show itself. it’s rarely been that obvious, and maybe that means she’s one of the lucky few of us to be on a clear path to someone. so many times I have asked the universe to place me on that path again.

I asked before. the year before my first love kissed me for the first time, I was handing my heart over and asking to be given love. I didn’t recognize it for what it was when it first appeared, but it was patient and it stayed anyway and it showed itself when the time was right. maybe some things are meant to happen and maybe sometimes you just get really really lucky. maybe sometimes you have to ask for yourself, and then give it. I don’t know how anything works.

but I want to be that happy when I get married. she’s so happy- they are both so happy. and I would rather have to wait a while after asking again, if it will bring me anything like the first time it answered, if it will bring me anything like how happy she is.

(- do you talk to the universe too? does it answer?)

ive been left before by people who thought i deserved better. i can’t even tell you how much it hurt me, when i wanted them, and only them.

to be frank, i thought it was a fucking lame excuse to explain being in love with somebody else.

but if there is a bit of truth in the ‘someone will love you better’ theory (which i highly doubt), i hope it will be you, because you have another chance to, this time around.

i do talk to the universe, but in my own stubborn way. sometimes you could mistake it for prayer. most of the time, it sounds like begging—please, please, please let me get what i want this time.

i believe in certain magical times of day, when i make wishes. i try to pretend that i don’t want something as badly as i do in the hopes that the universe will let me have it, if only i don’t look so desperate. i think i am afraid to want this. i think i am afraid to want you.

waiting for anyone is hard, you know. waiting for you is even harder. i am forever crossing my fingers, whispering in the darkness, writing you back into orbit.

just yesterday, you joked about luring you out of the house, about me having to blackmail you into seeing me. if i had misinterpreted that joke, i would have been extremely hurt. but i didn’t, and i wasn’t.

when i get married, assuming it’s for love and not just tax benefits, you know who my first choice is.

#asks #love letters #part 14 #ive been looking for this one everywhere #ref #host posts

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scabsdriesflakesandheals · 2 years

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m dropped me around this time last year, a few days into the school year. i had been feeling really. weird about them for a minute and like they were distancing themselves from me. they made a post like “sometimes i think im too gentle pushing people out of my life.” i tried to hug a mutual friend and. they just stared at me.

so i had a bit of a meltdown and finally got the courage to message them and i was really freaking out, and i said “hey i might just be being paranoid but was that post about me?” and. the essay i got in reply was basically just. “yeah, actually. you freak out too much. bye”

and i just. sat there for a few hours after they unfollowed me and such listening to i miss you by blink182 for whatever reason. on loop. song is a little triggering now, good song tho.

i just fell apart a bit after that. i had already been sitting alone every day for a year previously, and now i didn’t even have one of my best friends anymore. i just retreated into myself. i made a friend that year but she went to inpatient just before i dropped out of that school. i was a mess. i would check their blog all the time, send them anons, i always did look up to them and sort of follow what they did. they led me into ace and mogai exclusionism (not one for the highlight reel to be sure, but i just chameleoned my opinions and thoughts to be like theirs.)

the previous year had been a shitshow too, a friend straight up died, i got broken up with from a super turbulent and stressful relationship, i was trolling people online trying to get them to send mean asks to fuel my low self esteem. i would vye for sarahah asks and then publicly rant about them or deny the nice things people would say. i would straight up tell people they were lying to my face if they said they loved me or that i was cool or whatever. it was just a Bad time.

i felt completely betrayed and abandoned by the entire world, it seemed like. i got paranoid about other friends i hadn’t talked to in a while plotting against me and/or talking behind my back, and i just isolated myself further. i was cvtting daily and ditching school in favor of sleeping all day at my grandmas or dads. i switched schools and then continued ditching all the time, i felt like a ghost. no one would notice when i left, no one would ask any questions when i said “oh my moms picking me up” and would walk to the mall to people-watch for a bit before. going and sleeping all day.

i genuinely thought i was going to kill my self that year. i didn’t have a plan but it was always on my mind. i wanted it to be bloody and awful so everyone would understand how i felt, to even try to externalize the pain i would have to be sprawled in pieces along the highway, i felt. i wanted to show everyone who told me they couldn’t or didn’t love me exactly what that was doing to me inside. but i didn’t.

i’m still here. and now m and i are in contact again. i don’t know if i’ll ever be as close to them as i was, that’s fine. it felt like closure, but i never did really process what happened. i feel like another group is distancing themselves from me. ive felt like it for a while. but i can’t help but think that i’m just projecting. i don’t want to be wrong about it, but i don’t want to be right about it. i don’t want them to act sorry and fall over themselves trying to make me feel welcome again, but i don’t want them to say “yk? you’re right. we don’t like you anymore.” i don’t want to face it. i almost don’t even want the answer. i kinda just want to leave and see if anyone notices. but i don’t know what id do if they didn’t.

im just so scared bc i know im too much and i know i say weird things and i talk like a robot and don’t go on vc much because im socially inept. i was on once and i was like “omg i haven’t heard your voice in a while it’s so deep now!” and got the exasperated reply “well you’re NEVer in vc” like. yeah im not. maybe if i felt like anyone cared i would more often. im just. i don’t even know how to confront them about it. i just want to shrivel up.

#long post #personal #suicide tw #trauma

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kingreywrites · 2 years

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so since ive gotten like. a few questions that are basically the same about my opinion on the salt marathon im gonna say it here:

- yes you can agree with some points of the marathon it happens. Considering the sheer number of criticisms they're making, you're gonna find a few things in it that you agree with. TTS has a lot of issues, you noticed them, I noticed them, and a broken clock is right twice a day etc etc

- no need to ask me to decide if you're still a moral person or whatever (???) i am very much not a judge and i genuinely don't care about doing that (also don't beg me to not hate you? what do you think i'm gonna do, shoot you? just because i'm angry about something doesn't mean you can act like i'm absolutely unreasonable?)

- if you think the few things you agree with are a good reason to share their content then ill come back to what i first said which is: unfollow me. I don't care how mad you are at TTS / Chris / the fandom or whatever, if you think that saying stuff like "fascists = terrorists = abusive parents = cults = serial killers = cassandra because they are all mean bullies" is something you want to encourage and share, then you're gonna have to take responsibility for that, because it's a dangerous thing to say, and spreading it because the post also said ur fav didn't get enough screen time truly is not a good reason for me

- while im here the obsession with calling female characters bitches, finding family ties where they don't exist just to call ships incest, and the general gross way they keep insulting again and again members of the crew (and Chris Sonnenburg especially) just because they disagree with them are also things you're sharing by sharing their posts. And that's only part of the things the marathon says, but I know there's even more worrying stuff that are in it. You don't have to like and reblog, you're choosing to interact with this one specific person, why would you expect people to think "oh they probably only agreed with one point, not the whole post"?

Anyway. Stop asking me about it, I've been clear, and also I'm not your mom, you're gonna have to decide what to do by yourself.

#aka the leave me alone post #if you send me asks about it they'll be deleted #ive waited a few days for it to die down but ive gotten one more ask earlier and ive got a lot of annoyance to exteriorise #anyway. im gonna go make gifs and write and also block people more liberally <3 peace and love #tsm

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yumpty-dumpty-inactive · 2 years

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oh my god guys please

this is literally the 7th time

tw:: mentions of online harassment/cyber bullying/telling someone to h4rm + k1LL themselves

can I stay at 550 for more than a single day? you all think no one notices when you unfollow but when you’re (at least compared to everyone else) a smaller blog, we do notice. I’m not asking you to adore me and follow me forever, but it really stings. this is no joke the 7th time I’ve reached 550 only to fall down again, and it doesn’t feel nice. if I were anyone else, i wouldve reached 600 by now, did you realize that? please, just consider how much this stings,, because it no joke really starts to hurt after the 7th time. and all of you keep telling me to take my time with my break, but what’s the point if people keep leaving my blog? at this rate by the time I’m fully back I’ll have lost everyone that follows me. I log in and instead of seeing my blog growing, it’s dying. this is one of the reasons i want to quit, honestly. it’s because even though I’m barely scraping by as is, Ive got hate coming in left and right, and half of the people in my inbox are telling me to k1ll + harm myself and go fuck myself. I’ve got people telling me my works are shit compred to koi, moo, hazel, catte, mika,, etc. people have called me disgusting and repulsive, and there are people leaving, gossip happening (most likely at least), and I can’t fucking take it. in everything I’ve ever done I’ve always come in last place, and I thought when my blog began to grow that it wasn’t gonna be like that in here, but I’ve been proven wrong once again, I guess. no matter how hard I try people still tell me to get my shit together and I’m trying. I’m trying so fucking hard and I still am achieving nothing. all of your support is highly appreciated, but don’t expect my time on genshinblr to last much longe. at this point, I really can’t take it much longer. it’s too negative and depressing.

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fashionbitchgd · 3 years

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Check in tag

Thanks for tagging me @alldayxia 🥰

1. why did you choose your url?

GD is my ultimate bias and his fashion sense is one of the first things that I noticed in him so fashionbitchgd :)

2. any side blogs?

Nope

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

I've been here since 2013

4. do you have a queue tag?

Nope

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

I wanted to keep up with SNSD during award season in 2013 and I hated twitter so tumblr seemed like a viable option lol

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

No particular reason. I was just browsing this old blog (bigbangicons I think) and I thought that pic looked sassy and cute lol

7. why did you choose your header?

I actually wanted the cool graffiti art that's on the side of the peaceminusone nike's box but since I couldn't find a good pic of the side of the box I just picked some cute graffiti that I thought had a similar vibe :p

8. what's your post with the most notes?

Idk I think it's an old post about Harry Potter that I made back when Crimes of Grindelwald came out. Or the one American Horror Story post that I made pointing out plotholes in ahs apocalypse. Idk which one has more notes rn

9. how many mutuals do you have?

A whole freaking bunch bc every time I think my dash is too empty I just go and follow back everyone that follows me lol But mutuals that I actually interact with theres like 4 or 5 idk

10. how many followers do you have?

881

11. how many people do you follow?

409

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

lol yes

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

Some days I spend the whole day logged in here, some other days I log once reblog 30 things and leave, and some days I don't even come here so it really varies

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

No because when I see something that bothers me I just unfollow or block :p

15. how do you feel about "you need to reblog this" posts?

I hate them, kinda makes me not wanna reblog tbh

16. do you like tag games?

Love tag games 💜 (ive been taking a lot of time to answer but I still love tag games)

17. do you like ask games?

I do but the few times I reblogged an ask game post I got ignored so now I'm too afraid to reblog them lol

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

@chaelinsbitch has tumble famous vibes lol

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

Not really

20. tags?

@happycoincidences @happygirl327 @pinktop-s @mint-hint @clgzb @starlight-linguist @kingandqueenwang optional as always :)

#tagged

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