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ANOTHER DAY WITHOUT YOUR SMILE…
BUT I HAVE YOUR PHOTOGRAPH… TO FEEL YOU BY MY SIDE… TO SMILE… TO FEEL HAPPY.
ANOTHER DAY JUST PASSES BY… WAITING FOR YOU.
BUT I HAVE YOU IN MY THOUGHTS EVERY MOMENT… TO FEEL ALIVE.
IT HURTS SO MUCH… A VERY HARD PAIN TO BEAR.
BUT I HAVE YOU FOREVER IN MY HEART… TO SOOTHE MY SADNESS AND MY PAIN.
I WANNA BE LOOKING IN YOUR EYES.
I WANNA BE THERE FOR YOU.
SHARING IN EVERYTHING YOU DO.
I WANNA… GROW OLD WITH YOU.
I JUST WANNA… YOU.
Somehow there are so many things in my head that I cannot concentrate on anything. It’s just one big blurred mess.
I’m unsatisfied with everything i do, or don’t.
I don’t like reading anymore, no movie, tv-show or music seems appealing anymore. Every conversation seems fake and just so unnecessary. Even spending time with someone that’s company i really value feels off and just odd.
I am very scared of failing academically, yet I cannot get myself to study. I just know that after I did it I’ll feel better and it ain’t that bad. *Arghhhhhhhrhhhrhrh*
I don’t know what to do with myself. I am so annoyed by all this.. i just want to be angry, scream, punch something and let it all out.
There’s nothing, not a single drop of energy to get out of bed. Couldn’t get up to brush my teeth in a couple of days.
I don’t even know what my goddamn problem is?! I thought I’ve been through the worst, yet it just reappears occasionally.
I’d say I hate it, but if I hated it that much I’d do something against it, right?
gerrymichael wip for tmp day!!! this is ib/collab with @/lem0ndu2t on instagram! we’re both drawing gerry doing michaels makeup :D gotta go listen to tmp now