#janeway losing it

[lykegenia]

I've said this already in the tags on a different post but I can't stop thinking about Janeway after the Pathfinder project is successful and she starts getting reports from Starfleet HQ about the Dominion War. How inexorable a force the Jem'Hadar seem. How world after world is falling. How the casualties mount. The Maquis have already been destroyed and she can feel the grief from those of her officers who lost friends, but beyond that there's the knowledge that the destruction didn't end with a few rebels on the edge of Federation space. The entire Alpha Quadrant is tearing itself apart, and it's all so far away. Yes, her little ship has face Borg and alien power struggles and a Void without stars - they've lost friends too - but as the numbers keep coming in, day after day, impossibly high, what goes through her mind? Does she wish harder that she hadn't destroyed the array, so that she could have stayed to fight and do her part to save the home she so desperate to get back to? Or is some part of her soothed about her decision, knowing that by putting the needs of the Ocampa before her own, she likely saved the lives of many of the people now under her command? How do you deal with loss on such an abstract yet personal scale, and how do you sit and read the reports of lost battle after lost battle, knowing that it might mean the home you were so desperate for might no longer exist by the time you get there?

What if Voyager ends up being all that's left?

#star trek #star trek voyager #janeway #kathryn janeway #captain janeway #dominion war #i really would have loved to see some impacts of the dw on voyager's crew #not just one episode of b'elanna having depression before it goes away again #because how many of the crew are losing friends in the war? #does it bring the starfleet and the maquis crews closer in shared grief? #anyway this is a fancy way of saying voyager really should have invested in a counsellor program for the holodeck #my dudes you don't need irish stereotype village you need a psychologist

[hawkp]

Happy Threshold Day to all who celebrate!

#love loses #threshold day #tom paris #kathryn janeway #star trek voyager

[ilovefredjones]

i’m always thinking about how dal never knew his parents and the only mother figure he had sold him into slavery as a child and then it turns out he never even had parents, he was just a failed experiment. and then his next mother figure is simply a hologram of a famous admiral who then deceives him before ‘dying’. but the real janeway cares for him so much, and defends and advocates for him in court and wants him to join her crew

#this is not anti holo janeway btw i love her it’s just. as soon as they gain a parent they immediately lose her #sometimes i think about how they modified holo janeway so they could hug her. someone get these kids some parental figures STAT #just. dal having to sleep in the engine and literally being SOLD INTO SLAVERY #after never knowing who he even was #feeling so worthless his entire life #yet finally finding his purpose among his crew on the protostar #and being taken under THE admiral janeways wing #he justtttt. does such a good job at being captain #he cares for his crew so much #bc he knows what it’s like to be forgotten and cast aside!! they all do!! #and cares for them and protects them and just loves them more than anything in the world #and he’s no longer a failed experiment but a confident leader! who’s not alone anymore! #ohhhhh i love him #star trek #star trek prodigy #dal r'el

[bumblingbabooshka]

I think it's funny if every Voyager au has its own 'delta quadrant' and 'Maquis v Starfleet' circumstance that they're treating with the same level of seriousness and angst. Flight attendant Au but they're experiencing several long layovers and are from two competing airlines. High School Au but they're from different schools on a tense joint overnight trip.

#st voyager #I don't think it's NECESSARY but I do think it's funny #in the high school au Kes & Neelix do not go to either school they just snuck in and became part of the group #In the flight attendant au they are just passengers in for a wild ride #Janeway: I will die to get this plane back to California. We are not losing any more of our crew to the bus. #The Borg Queen is a greyhound bus driver btw (known enemy of pilots) #Harry left his clarinet at home before going on a school trip and Janeway's like DAMN IT.....(fist banging on desk) It's too cruel... #Janeway holding Tuvok's shoulders like 'It's ok Tuvok....we're gonna get you back home. You're gonna see T'Pel again.' #<- They don't have signal

[leohtttbriar]

#what the fuck. it only took one line-read for me to lose my absolute mind #might as well have said she's the king and she gives us mead and hearth! #goddddd #voyager #star trek #janeway x chakotay

[ronon-dex]

janeway about chakotay: "there is no-one on this ship I trust more."

#st voy #star trek: voyager #star trek #voyager #st voyager #kathryn janeway #chakotay #janeway x chakotay #absolutely losing my mind #there may be a mutiny and she's like chakotay has never done anything wrong in his life. ever. so jot that down

[lonely-night]

bonus:

#voyagereditmine #voyageredit #janeway x seven #j7 #star trek voyager #cant even think of a caption #janeway will return to seven over and over again no matter what #hell she even went back in time and changed the timeline for seven #when admiral said 'people who love you' #seven turned to the admiral and looking so surprised when she heard that #i think that is the moment seven suspected something - admiral's love for her #brb losing my mind #i have lost count on how many times she went after seven #I didn't include the scenes pre-lantent image ep #10 gifs certainly won't fit it all if i included previous scene before lantent image ep

[baylardian-1]

Some Liams! A few of these are inspied from @jellybeansarecool's fic Liam Squared I just love the idea of him being really clingy and quiet with his momma. <3 Ummmm and the rest are just kinda him putzing about and wandering and gardening. I think he'd be kinda quiet and maybe a little independent for his age, just kinda does his own thing as everyone watches him. And a lil backpack to carry Sneakers in. :)

#as i was drawing these i was imaging that he wouldnt be a very smiley/happy baby.... kinda a hard read... but idk if ill go with that haha #taking care of weird alien flowers and eating weird alien bugs <3 #absolutely DROWNS one of o'donnell's specimens in water lmao #very coddled baby hahah #My Art #Liam Janeway #First Splinter Timeline #Star Trek: Voyager #Threshold #AU #Kathryn Janeway #Human #Liam Squared #Jellybeansarecool #ummmmmmmmm idk #To Lose the Earth #MAYBE???? lol

[giffingthingsss]

Voyager Rewatch: 5x24 - Relativity

I don't care if history itself comes unraveled, I want to know why you're on my ship.

#voyager rewatch #voyager things #*braxton squints angrily* 'JANEWAY' #i love how completely innocent and unaware janeway is #while this poor dude is losing his mind cleaning up after her #relativity

[di-girls-dem-sugar]

Woke up this morning on the verge of a panic attack feeling like my world was about to collapse (normal anxiety things) and the only thing I could think was "this is probably how crowley feels right now" . What if you wanted to be happy and normal but neil gaiman said no

#good omens #watching GO2 and reading the st: voy novels in which janeway dies and chakotay almost loses his mind #no wonder i feel like this #shut up kayla #anthony crowley #side note this is why u shouldnt drink alcohol on lexapro ahaha

[matriarchinwaiting]

I’ll just leave this here. 👀💥

#*trying not to lose my shit over here* #seriously is she just speculating or is she hinting?? #because kate loves nothing better than spoilers #Kate Mulgrew #katemulgrew #Janeway #captain Kathryn Janeway #Captain Janeway #Kathryn Janeway #star trek voyager #star trek prodigy

[trillscienceofficer]

I said a lot of stuff about Tom but rewatching "Muse" yesterday I had a big moment of empathy for him because he was completely distraught over B'Elanna and Harry missing and I could only react with 'same 😭'

#the rest of the crew was also distraught... #tuvok not sleeping for days (then it was turned into a joke but) #janeway and chakotay both this close to losing their grip at the thought #that it might be too late for harry b'elanna #neelix saying 'the ship is so quiet without them' #scream... I almost forgive voyager just for this #voy

[bumblingbabooshka]

The parameters for 'winning' in this case are...questionable.

#Tuvok/Janeway #<- platonically...romantically...whatever <3 #Tuvok #Kathryn Janeway #bee doodles #Tuvok (infuriatingly): Hm? I was under the impression that the goal of such an activity was to bet on the WINNING dog. #(he gestures to the crew of Voyager) Perhaps I was mistaken? #Janeway: (alive despite a direct shot between the eyes) Now Now Mr.Tuvok ~ <- amused #st voyager #st voyager art #Tuvok stares dissaprovingly down at the losing dogs while Janeway tries to get them to join the military <- Hell Team #Chakotay has an 'I bet on winning dogs' shirt and he says its because he thinks you're ALL winners :) <- lie #<- He does not believe in Tom Paris

[thresholdbb]

Janeway’s pool skills are actually insane

#you know how much time she would’ve had to pour into pool to get THAT good #they like to mention her tennis playing but holy shit her pool skills #DO YOU KNOW HOW DIFFICULT THAT CRACK IS?! #the precision #I can’t get over it #lose my shit every time #I’ve hyperfixated on playing pool a few times before #like I’m decent but her game is INSANE insane #yes I’m the cloud posting again #yes I’ve seen the 2x pool shark mulgrew post and I want to take it home with me #how do I acquire a pool table #I want to become Janeway level of pool shark so I don’t have to go to a job #i need to download the show so i can visually make my argument because GOD DAMN THAT IS SO DIFFICULY #IT’S NOT EVEN RACKED RIGHT AND SHE STILL MAKES 5 ON THE CRACK #sonic shower thoughts

[ronon-dex]

a little sour that the ep where harry and b'elanna went missing didn't have more spicy conflict. tom flipping tables and being miserable and harry and b'elanna bonding and fixing each other's wounds. it's like they don't know me AT ALL

#st voy #st voyager #star trek: voyager #voyager #star trek #6x22 #b'elanna torres #tom paris #harry kim #you're telling me 2/3rds of the polycule got shipwrecked and the last one didn't lose his sht......... cmon #tom has gotten insanely mad for A LOT LESS #they had a scene focused on tuvok losing sleep over not being able to find harry and b'elanna #when he's quite literally the last person who should have got that focus #tom? chakotay? janeway? like damn! #i have to do everything around here ugh

[divinemissem13]

Lost and Found

Angstober, Day 26: The day I lost you Fandoms: Doctor Who, ST: Strange New Worlds, Battlestar Galactica, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, ST: Voyager Ships: Tenth Doctor & Donna, Batel/Pike, Pike/No. 1, Adama/Roslin, Tara/Willow, Janeway/ Chakotay AO3 link

four drabbles about losing someone you love and one about finding them

The Best Temp in Chiswick

I didn’t know today would be the day I lost you. 

If I had, maybe I would have done something differently. But then, knowing me, probably not. 

Maybe I would have let you choose our destination. Just one of thousands that you’ll never remember. 

Would you have chosen the future? The past? The present but somewhere else entirely? 

I’ll never know. I never asked. Too busy saving the galaxy again. 

Actually, no. 

You saved it this time. 

You were - are - the best of us, Donna Noble. But you’ll never know. 

You’ll just settle for being the best temp in Chiswick. 

Number Two

I remember the day I lost you. Actually, it was the day I realized I’d never really had you to begin with. 

It was the first time I saw you with her. 

I saw how easy you were with her, how she made you smile. And later, I saw how hard you fought for her - fought me for her. How far you’d go to keep her in your life. 

You won’t even commit to a vacation with me. 

But of course you won’t. That would mean leaving her. 

The day I lost you, I knew: I’ll always be Number Two.

Frak Pythia

The day I lost you should have been the best day of our lives. Instead, it was the worst day of mine… and the last day of yours. 

This isn’t the way it was supposed to go - and don’t start quoting Pythia to me. Frak Pythia! This may have all happened before, but it didn’t have to happen again.

You earned so much more than death. You earned the chance to feel grass beneath your feet, to see the sun and the lake and the mountains from our cabin. To wear my ring while you could still know its meaning.

Darkness

I lost myself, on the day I lost you. 

I cradled your lifeless, blood-soaked body in my arms and my whole world turned dark and … I’m not proud of what I did in the darkness. 

As it turns out, you were right to be afraid of my power. Of me. 

I’ve learned to control it, to keep the darkness at bay. But it isn’t easy.

But then, nothing is easy without you.

You are and always have been my guiding light. You kept me from succumbing to the darkness. In your memory, I will continue reaching for the light.

Vows

“The day I found you, I thought I knew who you were: a dangerous terrorist, a wild rebel, a criminal. Instead, I found someone else entirely: a man who is fiercely loyal, caring, thoughtful, and the other half of my soul. Turns out, I found exactly what I was looking for.” 

“The day we were pulled into the Delta Quadrant, I thought I was lost forever. I was willing to sacrifice my ship and my life because they meant nothing. I may have lost my ship, but I found a life and a peace I had never dared hope for.”

#angstober 2023 #angstober #the day I lost you #drabbles #so many fandoms #so many ships #i might be losing it #fanfic #i wrote this #ao3 link #janeway/chakotay #pike x batel #pikeuna #donna noble #tenth doctor #willow x tara #roslin x adama #canonical character death #cw: death