#jen just seems like she’s stuck in her ways idk

[cloveroctobers]

• JENIFER “JEN” MARLOWE •

IG Info/bio: @/justjenw1n | 220k followers | Fashion | just a LUVer who owns a lovely blog that you’re more than welcome to check out here... astoldbyjenmarlowe.co.uk 🪞🛍🪄

22 (24) (25 in 2021) years of age

From London, England

Her family has French origins

Tends to visit once a year mainly with her family

For her 18th bday, her parents also sent her to Paris with her bf that she’s been dating since she was 14

they broke up since he wanted to stay in Paris to pursue his dreams and she felt like she needed to be back home...which she felt Paris was not

Extremely close to her parents, some may say a little TOO close...

See, I feel like jen comes from a family that spoils her where her parents did everything and took care of everything for her. She had the privilege and didn’t have to work too hard to get things she wanted so that made her a little bit different than a few of her friends, hell—even her bf

Didn’t have to work until she reached her twenties

She also didn’t have too many friends because her parents felt like her cousins and/or her sibs were really only allowed to hold that title

However her parents had some sort of a soft spot for her when they allowed her to date her bf at 14 since he came from a nice background...

And to have at least 1-2 best friends...

I can’t decide if I see her having 3 other sibs with her being the second eldest, or her being the eldest with a younger sister? I can also see her being a only child too? Idk y’all can decide

Because her family is a tight knit one, she values everything they say and do...which is canon/evident

She got her thigh tattoo in Paris and even thought about asking her parents permission but her bf talked her out of it

she later showed them that night while he was in the shower. Her mother openly disapproved saying it was, “unladylike or unclean” while her father was more lenient towards it 

Her mother even scheduled her for laser appointments but this was one of the things jen was sure of, she loved her tattoo and she didn’t want to erase it from her body which led to her mother not speaking to her for about a month—even tho they live in the same household

I feel like she looks more like her dad with her mom’s hair and smile

Got into fashion due to her maternal grandmother who seemed to live a extravagant life as a old time actress, she always had and owned the finest of things

Jen loved having sleepovers there, it felt like she had her own personal Liz Taylor inside of her nan...but better!

Definitely found inspiration through Liz Taylor, Kate Moss, Victoria Beckham, and Naomi Campbell

she had no clue what she wanted to do in life (she never had to think too hard about it until now, it’s true what they say about your twenties) and she made the choice not to continue thru with uni & I’m not going to make her out to be the stereotypical “dumb blonde” I think she did well in school—so she kinda just chilled after it was all over

Her first job at 20 was probably working in retail where she learned all about the bs you put up with but she loved clothes! That never changed

So she decided 6 months into her job that she was going to make a fashion blog

she made one separate from her tumblr but kept it under construction since she needed to brain storm what exactly this blog would entail

It didn’t take too long to her to figure it out by how she wanted the blog to look then discussing pieces from celebs/models then slowly discussing her own wardrobe + advice

She didn’t immediately gain success for it —altho she did have a good 1k people follow her thru her tumblr where she also provided the link to her separate blog... but she worked/works hard at it, hoping one day it’ll get her somewhere and that maybe she can get paid for it too?

Retail fucking sucks and people are horrible twats so when she was approaching 21 she deff quit with her parents still hammering...more so her dad on what she needs to do with her life but she found happiness in her blog and no one was going to take that away from her —not even her parents

‘What’s the use of working if it doesn’t make you happy?’ She thinks but again! she has the privilege of living under her parents roof and not having to pay bills so she didn’t have to worry too much rn she knows they’d never kick her out right?

she has two bunnies named “bugsy” and “Lola”—u know the reference right?

I feel like she values the flinstones & jetsons because it was something her dad loved watching as a kid and still does , probably has the dvds showcased in her room that she watches when she feels sad

Seems like a smiley person but when she’s sad? It kinda sucks to see cause she turns into a whole different person and she always seems happy with a smile so wide that turns her eyes squinty

If she disagrees with something, she’s 100% giving her opinion whether you like it or not? Wrong is wrong. But when the shoe is on the other foot? She hates being wrong LOL or doesn’t view herself being wrong. Doesn’t take accountability well...at all!

She’s also showed her ass by being a gossiper and fake as hell with Allegra about mc with the whole, “let’s pretend like we’re there for her” if you’re not fucking with somebody just say that or SHOW it sis cause that snakey shit will come back to bite you in the ass (I forgot about this lol as I’m replaying)

she’s all “mega resting bitch face” until she breaks out into a large smile

Libra sun? + Virgo moon? + Gemini rising?

I feel like she only knows what she wants when it comes to relationships but not with the rest of life?

Lol she was very determined with levi in the beginning, explored shit with jake, (I can’t remember if that was after you/mc showed a interest in him or not in that route? I’m doing a talia/Rohan route rn But that’s kinda foul if she’s smiling in ur face and then boom goes and does what she wants but hey that’s the game right? Fck that tho) and then stood by Tim after only some time?

She wasn’t feeling him in the beginning either cause he thought she was too posh for him and snakey which he’s right to some degree but she’s also right if she finds him too immature for her liking

To you jim? Ten? Stans— Idk what their ship name is but it probably wouldn’t have worked out in the long run either because I don’t see both of them wanting to change themselves completely to satisfy the other. (Tim tried) Sure if you’re showing unhealthy behaviors and are open to diminishing that for yourself then trying to work on your relationship then that’s great! But they already started from the jump not liking each other’s personalities/characteristics....

And hey! Ofc I know people grow to like things they might have disliked about you in the beginning but you can also find yourself not fully accepting it in a relationship and that doesn’t mean you didn’t try

+ it’s been hinted at that they’re not endgame & if you love yourself some Tim not platonically then this works in ur favor. if not? Then you can keep them endgame by all means! For me? That endgame shit is a no! For those that don’t gaf about either of them that’s fine too lmao

YES I feel like they were both hurt over the breakup and it probably happened right around the holidays or either a couple of months after Christmas/New Years 2019

Jen is probably the type to keep checking up on her ex, not necessarily talking to them but finding out who they’re with now

and if it’s Tim with mc she’s definitely gossiping about the shit with erikah and Allegra or making shady tweets or posts on IG for sure

“5 outfits to wear when you run into your ex” type posts on her blog looool

She hopes if she runs into Tim, she’s looking her best and she would 80% go up to him & mc/his new girl if not mc and be all huggy with him and holding conversation before she even thinks to acknowledge mc/new girl and when she does it’s a shady convo with fake smiles

Absolutely loves watching housewives so she was prepared for that moment if it ever does come

Her parents openly didn’t like Tim which made him feel like shit since it seemed like jen never defended him in front of them but again, she values her parents opinion and always wants their stamp of approval that’s just the way the girl is/ was brought up

She owes them everything but deep down knows that in her relationship with Tim she could have been a little more understanding of his needs like he was with her love for her parents...but she’ll never admit that

Doesn’t get over breakups as easily as it may seem like her exes do in her opinion.

It sure didn’t take long with Tim to date mc/new girl months after they broke up! Which was like a slap in the face

The ex bf she spent time w in Paris who looks like Matthew Noszka is now engaged, lives in AMERICA—& of all places??? California to be exact, and just released his debut album!! She knows which songs are probably about her, it’s a nice album she screamed about it for hours into her pillow and cried for what felt like weeks

Lost her voice over that breakdown too

Her mother even went as far as sending a nasty letter to this ex bf’s new address...since ya know? jen’s dad is a private investigator & all!!! but dad had no knowledge of this being done

She’s still fond of Levi and jake but not like in love with them? Like she thought/felt she was with Tim but she still considers them her mates

Maybe in 2021 she’ll be open to dating again and hopes erikah and Allegra will be her wingwomen when the time comes BUT she’s focusing on her blog rn and it’s the best it’s ever been!

She had the show to thank for that now that she has a manager and is getting paid for running her blog now! That’s right this girl is officially employed!

“At least one good thing came from the show ;) 🧽🥐🥂” type of tweets

There’s never not a moment where she’s not connecting her posts whether thru ig or Twitter to her blog: astoldbyjenmarlowe.co.uk!!!

Both erikah and Allegra talk a little shit about that together...WHEN they DO talk, the pair only really socialize when jen initiates it but if one pisses the other off?? they’re going to gossip about it with the other forsure

She doesn’t look that tall to me? Taller than erikah? 5’2-5’5 the 5 is pushing it for me? Maybe? lol I’m still deciding between her and Allegra far as height and I’m too lazy to go back and see what I put for her

Hates straightening her hair, that pin straight look is not cute to her. She loves having waves and body to her hair

Get her eyebrows micro bladed since she doesn’t have much hair up there to begin with

Adores French cuisine, always has since she was a little girl. Bisque used to be her fav back then and all that she would eat

Loves spring season especially pastel colors when it comes to her wardrobe

The type to say one thing and do the complete opposite

I feel like she probably has a little bit of lisp and it’s not really noticeable until she says some words, she’s insecure about it and thought it had something to do with the structure of her teeth and begged her parents to get them fixed but it literally had nothing to do with them

Yet she still got colorful braces in middle school even tho her teeth were pretty straight. She didn’t have to wear them for a whole year, thank goodness

Went to speech therapy to help

Has stacks of fashion magazines even from the early 90s all over her room: her night stand, her vanity, her closet, underneath her bed etc...

Adores the Hadid sisters, Rosie Huntington-Whiteley, & Georgia May Jagger

Makes the best white chocolate chip (that’s right, white not just regular chocolate) banana bread but cooking/baking? Isn’t really her thing

Early riser

Loves yellow: yellow phone case, yellow laptop, yellow room, yellow tulips, yellow shades, etc...

Getting Prada shades was probably one of the best things that happened to her, s/o to her nan for granting her this wish

Words of affirmation is her love lanaguage, this girl is a talker and a bit of a thinker too I mean duh? She runs a blog

Likes bright colors on her toes but nude and clear polish on her hands?

Loves a good mascara but she also loves magnetic lashes but is trying her best to grow her lashes out rn! Thanks to erikah for sending her some good ol’ coconut oil!

Smokey eyes? Set her up

Gets a belly ring, and two more tatts one in between her boobs and the last on her ankle & that one she shed a tear over!

Maybe she’ll start changing her physical attributes more so than the way she carries her life at first? (Or ever) She’ll cut her hair below her collarbone to the top of her chest, and maybe she’ll try a light light LIGHT brunette (she loves being a natural blonde) with blonde highlights? Who knows

loves espadrilles and wedge sandals

Loves going wine tasting and visiting vineyards, if she’s vacationing? You can bet ur ass she’s looking for a vineyard to visit

Deff a lightweight

Here’s her unpopular opinions on s2: Thought Felix was a wannabe Tim and hates the fact that he follows her, thought graham was unattractive and said so to Allegra who snickered, thought marisol’s clothing choices were rather boring,

didn’t feel 100% bad for Hannah but disagrees with the way Gary and noah spoke about her + the way Gary tried to slide back over to Hannah on her comeback episode

but doesn’t feel like Lottie is wrong for choosing Gary after Hannah left

isn’t a fan of priya but is glad she’s doing fashion since jen strongly believes in if something isn’t making u happy then u need to let it go

Thinks Hope should have won and cannot tolerate Bobby. Feels he’s WORSE than Felix,

would be open to dating Ibrahim or Carl from that szn

has spoken to Harry from s3 due to his drunkenness and actually made a friend out of him? But low key wants to get to know seb? Take that info as u will 👀

Her anthem: Michelle — SUNRISE

#litg #litg jen #litg tim #litg mc #litg oc #litg erikah #litg Allegra #litg Levi #litg jake #litg headcanons #litg headcanon #litg moodboard #happy new year lol I I’m back at it? #personally didn’t hate her but also wasn’t crazy about her after she said that shit cause it’s like? I can’t trust anything u say #yet Idk why I feel like Allegra will try to regrow herself first over jen #jen just seems like she’s stuck in her ways idk #litg2 #litg s2 #litg3 #Litg harry #litg seb

[thisdreamplace]

What do you think of soul contracts? It really calls my attention how we were shaped a certain way, we were born in a specific family, we are given a name and we didn't consciously choose that... and then we come across an awakening, and everything changes radically. I know and believe that there is no such thing as fate or that our futures are set in stone because we can consciously change it. Maybe it seems like I'm on a certain path, but I can change it. But what if our souls signed a contract to live this experience in this way? What if we think we have a choice, but in reality all of this was planned? And all of the things we are manifesting were truly written in our destiny because that's the experience our souls signed up for?

Idk if this makes sense, but I may be starting to believe in soul contracts. And it would explain soooo much, especially about our experiences since we are babies/kids.

Okay no because wait a minute. I'm not really into "soul contracts" like I don't really know about them specifically? But to be honest I'm pretty sure I lowkey agree with them? Because on a level I like agree with what you said. I do think our true self made a choice to come here into this human body and like... experience life in this way. Like, I don't know this shit is lowkey wild. Like.... okay. Like I definitely don't think our situations we are born into are random? I definitely don't think the assumptions we pick up along the way are random? Because if they were random, then our desires should be popping up in front of us within seconds because we said so. But no. Every desire is leading us back to remembering who we really are, and with that remembering can sometimes come a lot of difficult emotions and sometimes difficult circumstances to work through. And like... Jen is always saying how our Godself made a deal to come here. And she says how she remembers to not take the tough moments so seriously, because she knows her Godself made the deal to come here and experience that. So yeah, like our Godself chose our "battles" essentially. Which mean our Godself chose our overall experiences. And this is why our Godself knows the way to a desire and we, in the human mind, do not. And this is why our desires are God given. Because we... on a level... are just a character our Godself is playing. lmfao It's not US, human us, writing the script. It's our Godself. This is why everything goes back to your I AM-ness. And this is why everything goes back to your inner world. Your human self is of the 3D world. omg And when manifesting, many of us think from the human self. But the whole point is to change I AM. That's a little off topic but I decided to type it so I can remember it for later lmfao

Okay so then that being said, I think I agree with you again how it's like perhaps we do think we have a choice. When we really don't. Because lowkey like.................. all of this shit goes back to surrender. So if we have to surrender do we really have a choice like? Like, really think about it. If we have to go through this journey, for our desires or not, either way it's the same thing. This whole journey is about us surrendering. I mean let's be real. We have to look at the 3D and be sitting there saying "that's fine, everything is perfect. I am where I need to be" no matter what it shows. Okay so if everything is perfect and you're where you need to be... then essentially you don't actually have a choice? You just have to consistently accept shit. And like I get it, like through acceptance we choose love and through love we are brought closer to who we truly are. And that's like the whole point. But, having to see everything as perfect and trusting in where you are in a journey, is essentially what you do when you don't have a choice. You surrender. lol

And it's like, yeah okay. We can put this into practice. But then it's like how quickly shit clicks in your mind and how quickly you're about to really accept the concepts is essentially... not your choice. So we're sitting here thinking we have these choices but in reality, no. Because if everything is always happening perfectly doesn't that automatically mean we don't actually have a choice? Like if I make the choice to commit to this journey at whatever specific time I finally decide to it, I think it was my choice. But no. It was really my Godself laying that desire upon me and fulfilling it...... Because like, even if Jen is saying how her Godself signed her up for all of this.... and if our desires are inevitable. Then yeah. We don't actually have a choice? And even if you changed your mind about a desire or no longer wanted something, it wasn't you who changed your mind. It was your Godself. bruh. Also, I guess that stands to reason why this whole freaking journey is about remembering who you really are and coming from a place of I AM... AKA Just observing your experience as a human, rather than consistently being so stuck in the illusion of the 3D drama. BRUH.

I also think that perhaps this is beyond the human mind's ability to understand. And perhaps I just went down this rabbit hole for nothing and I'm all wrong. lmfao But I mean, it's still an interesting topic. And it honestly makes a lot of sense to see life in this way, in my opinion.

I'd love to hear more of y'alls opinions on this if you're into sharing. :)

#i am

[inmyarmswrappedin]

hello you probably already talked about this but why did you drop robbe season?

Hi anon! 🧩 I have mentioned it before, yeah, but I don’t mind talking about it in a bit more depth.

Admittedly Robbe’s season was already a hard sell for me before it even premiered. I have watched every Eva season, and that has always given me an indication of how things are going to go for the Isak season. Like, even though remake teams tend to go all out for their Isak season, and try harder than with their previous seasons (and I don’t think it’s controversial to say remake teams know their Isak season will majorly increase their viewership, even fandom has pointed this out as a reason Skam NL should’ve stuck it out for VDH’s season), you can already get a good idea in s1 about what they want to keep from Skam and where they’re going their own way.

I love Eva and I also tend to like her remakes. Honestly, I find Eva’s story really interesting, Jonas a good character when handled well, and I’ve generally enjoyed getting introduced to yet another iteration of the girl squad. I like the familiarity of the story beats. I also think how Jonas’ ideas are handled is a good indicator of how politically minded the team is, and how they plan on using their platform. 

And the thing is, despite all this, I found Jana’s season a struggle to get through. I had to try twice because I couldn’t get through the first time. At first, I thought it was because the writers had been super lazy with the adaptation. I loathe what they did with Jonas’ character, how little Jens knows about social justice. I was really put off by how, since they couldn’t write Yasmina into parties, they gave the drink throwing moment to Luca instead, but then more or less kept to the original storyline. Even back then, I was really concerned by how aggressive they made Moyo during the cabin trip clips. But then a friend binged the season after me, and brought up how terrible the pacing was (with Friday clips being moved to other days, destroying the momentum Skam builds through the week), how most of the actors sounded like they were literally reading from a script, and the utter spam of meaningless social media pics (with very few texts to go with it). And so I realized that this season I generally enjoy bored me, because Wtfock is generally just slapped together carelessly. 

Another issue I had was... Well, I’m not sure this comes across given my rabid love for David, but I actually think Skam s3 is as close to perfect TV as it gets. I don’t think this is a season that needs fixing. And as the Isak seasons succeeded each other, I realized I didn’t care for an Isak season that pretty much just took Isak and Even and put them in another country. I prefer the Isak seasons that did something Skam s3 never did, because they were never going to improve on Skam s3, and to do the same thing would just remind me how much better the acting, the music, the photography, the writing, etc. was in Skam. So I was hoping that maybe Wtfock’s Even would be a moc and they’d touch on racism for a change. However I knew the chances of Wtfock casting a trans man or a moc for their Even were slim to none.

But at the time it was kind of unthinkable that there would be an Isak season dropping, and people would not watch. And I in particular was a bit of a completionist, like I haven’t watched most Noora seasons, but I’ve watched all of the Eva seasons, and all the Isak seasons except for the last few episodes of Lucas L’s. These days I’m comfortable not tuning in (esp after trainwrecks like Arthur’s or Kato’s seasons), but at the time it felt kinda wrong to not give a season a chance, you know. Besides, a lot of people whose opinion I trust said s2 was great! Zoe and Senne one of the best noorhelms, if not the best! They really had fixed everything that was wrong with noorhelm, their social media game was so good, etc... I mean, you were there for s3 I assume, you know how people were hyping Wtfock at the time. And, for instance, Druck majorly improved in s2 after a more or less okay s1, so it’s not like remakes had never fixed their shit before.

So I started watching, but right away, I didn’t like the way they introduced Noor. She almost kinda seemed like the actual love interest in how cool she was, and how happy Robbe was hanging out with her that first night. I posted this, speculating about why Wtfock would introduce her that way. I should note that I posted that link on twitter as well, and Bram Renders liked my tweet... not too long after his tweet complaining about fans who read too much into the show would surface. 😂

Since I enjoyed writing that post, I thought I’d post weekly reaction posts in the style of Nat (@lightsandlostbells) and some others. The problem is that I’m just really good at procrastinating (I’ve been promising reaction posts in the same style for my favorite Skams seasons for... years now lol). And I wanted to keep my reactions fresh, so I stopped watching in real time. My plan was to watch the clips when I had enough time to write. This was like... Middle of week 2, I want to say. At the time, Sander hadn’t even been introduced yet!!

Even though I wasn’t watching, I still followed Wtfock-related accounts, like translators and subbers, so I still kinda knew what was going on. I was actually really let down by the way Wtfock didn’t take advantage of having Robbe and Sander in the same location for an entire week. Like, Sander was sticking a sandwich in Robbe’s mouth in a ~sexy way a few hours after exchanging their names, and yet it all kinda simmered down? No tension over social media really. Idk, I just feel like if Isak and Even, or Cris and Joana, or Matteo or David, had been stuck in the same house for an entire week shortly after meeting, Skam, Druck and eskam wouldn’t have let us forget about it for even a second. 

In the end, I never did write those posts, and I ended up washing my hands off the season because the tone of the discussions around the show was legit starting to get to me in a bad way. Like how LGBTI people were attacked for disliking the gay bashing scene. Or the discussions over whether the shower scene had gone too far or if Julie Andem had exploited Tarjei Sandvik Moe just as much. I disliked Moyo but also disliked the way white fans were writing about him. And the Britt bashing was just so gross. I was getting irl upset about a season I wasn’t even watching or following, so I put it out of my mind. 

#ask #wtfock #Anonymous

[itstittycitybaby]

Run, Rabbit, Run Rabbit, Run Run Run (Val x fem! reader)

A/N: ayo ayo here’s something from my ao3 acount (TheLovelySinner)!! this is from my val one shots that I’m thinking of making into a series?? val is from the game outlast and its spooky month so here we are.  idk if this will be a series I just kinda wanna write about it lmao

soulmate au

Warnings: violence, gore, angst. This is outlast after all. Read with caution.

The coffee in the office tasted like shit. It was cheap but your boss insisted that it was good. “It’s either this, or no coffee!” The drink barely did anything for you and you needed a boost me up right now. You snorted as you cradled the shitty styrofoam cup in your hands. “What’s so funny?” You glanced up at your coworker, Jen. Her brown eyes bored into yours. They seemed to soften in concern at the dark bags under your eyes. “Nothing,” you murmured, nursing the cup to keep your finger tips warm. “Just thinking about how shit the coffee is.”

Jen hummed. “You’d think they’d give us something better. We do so much of the dirty work.” You nodded. The gray and white plaid trousers you wore were a bit wrinkled at the thighs. You followed the black lines on the pattern to the black boots you wore. Being an investigative journalist was tough. What was even worse was the damn coffee they offered, but it would do.

“You’re always fixated on it y’know.” You shot your head up. “Hm?” Jen huffed. “The coffee. It’s all you talk about.” “It’s the only thing that keeps me going.” She didn’t say anything, but her black heels tapped the floor impatiently. The chair outside your boss’s office was hard and uncomfortable. It really dug into your ass. “I can’t wait to get out of here and have a smoke.” Jen didn’t reply but you could feel the judgement radiating off of her. You couldn’t bring yourself to care. 

The wolf tattoo on your wrist stared back at you. It was an ugly thing really. Its lips were curled into a snarl and its gaze was predatory. At first glance it looked like a stupid tattoo a teenager got years ago and their adult hated themselves for getting. However, it was a soul tattoo. It bloomed when you were sixteen, two years earlier than it should have been. God, you haven’t even met your soulmate and you already hated them. 

The sound of your boss’s door opening made both you and Jen’s heads perk up. Your boss was a balding man with toad like features. He couldn’t seem to care about anyone else but himself. “Come on in.” You hissed as you rose from the chair. It was an awful thing really. The sound of Jen’s heels clicked behind you and you dreaded the moment the door shut with a click. Your boss was insufferable but at least your work partner was there with you.

Mr. Boyce sighed as he slid a manilla folder towards the two of you. Jen, being the ambitious and determined worker she was, picked it up. You stared at the clock behind his head. Tick tick tick. “Oh my god,” she gasped softly as she looked inside its contents. All you could do was raise a brow in reply. “This will be a tough case,” your boss started, folding his hands together. Mr Boyce’s chair looked funny compared to your his size. “But we need you two to investigate it.” “What’s it about,” you muttered dryly, eyes flickering over to the folder. There were a couple of documents, but nothing else. Weird, you thought, there’s usually a photo.

“Who is she,” Jen asked softly. Her brittle hands handled you the folder. You didn’t miss the way they trembled. Mr. Boyce shrugged. “Dunno. She’s a Jane Doe. Was pregnant too.”

“UNIDENTIFIED BODY FOUND...”

“Holy,” you muttered. “She was so young.” Your boss nodded glumly. You scanned your eyes through the article but nothing. There was hardly any information about her. 

“I want you to to look into it,” your boss said. “Are you sure this will be safe?” Jen’s voice sounded so broken. He nodded, “You’ll be flying to Arizona in one of the ‘copters. A couple of men will be there with you. Besides the pilot.” You clutched the folder tightly. “When do we leave?” Jen whipped her head towards you. “You’re really taking this?” “We don’t really have a choice. This is our job Jen.” She didn’t say anything.

“Next week,” Mr. Boyce replied. “I expect you two to find something to break this case.” “Yes Mr. Boyce,” the both of you agreed in unison. “That being said, you’re dismissed.”

The grass tickled her legs. It was brown and dry during the winter, causing irritation on the skin. There were trees surrounding the field. It seemed to stretch on aimlessly. Val shivered; it was cold compared to Arizona’s blazing heat. If the trees weren’t such a dead giveaway, Val would know that it wasn’t Arizona from the temperature. Her long gray robes swept past her as she walked through the never ending fields. She felt a sense of dread at being stuck in a place such as this. Just, where was she?

There was another figure. Their back was turned to her. Val’s sandals crunched underneath the grass. In her heart she knew it was them. The bunny. A white dress pooled around their feet. Their posture stood tall as they gazed into the unknown. Slowly, they turned around. Their features were blurred and hidden. Val couldn’t make any sense of it. She towered over them, but they didn’t seem afraid. “It’s you,” she spoke softly. “Bunny.”

As if one cue Val’s soul mark started to throb. On her right wrist was the mark of the bunny. Its features were frightened and if it could it would hop away. The bunny didn’t say anything but they raised their arm. There, the wolf stared into Val’s soul. It was scowling. 

“Funny,” they suddenly spoke. The bunny’s voice was feminine and delicate. Their dress clung to their body. There were two bracelets on their arm. They were silver, and one was a little below the bunny’s shoulder. The other clasped nicely on their lower arm. They looked like an angel. “I never thought the wolf would be so...soft.” Val tilted her head. A gust of wind swept up their dress. The bunny slowly walked up to Val. Her figure was intimidating and they couldn’t help the sinking feeling of wanting to run. The irony almost made them snort. They really were a rabbit in their soul. “It’s time to go,” the bunny whispered, looking into the bright gray skies. Their voice sounded broken and sad. “Wait!” The bunny turned towards them waiting patiently. “Who are you,” Val asked. The dreams they shared were the only solace that brought Val. She didn’t want it to end so soon. They didn’t say anything for a few moments. Val clung to the silence like it was her life line. “You’ll find out,” they finally answered. “It’s time to go..they need you.” Val’s blonde brows furrowed. “That doesn’t mean anything.”

The bunny didn’t say anything, though Val swore she heard them mutter “see you soon” as she woke up.

#outlast #outlast 2 #outlast 2 val #val x reader #x reader #reader insert

[calypsoff]

Seven. Part 2

I am still angry; I am so angry at everything. Pushing the motel door open, it banged on the wall harshly, I am angry at that bitch and she is still here following me, the fucking nerve “TJ, take Seiko and take her into our room” Barry said behind me, turning around facing her. Seiko is still here in front of me “let’s speak like adults, did you cheat on me with Rihanna?” she is being deadass “do you know how crazy you sound right now? Me? Rihanna are you crazy. I ain’t cheat, you are losing your mind. Either way we are over” I pointed between us, I want her gone “Seiko, let me speak to him yeah? Then we can take it from there” Barry stood in front of me “speak to your damn friend, he has lost his mind. I wish he never took me to see that bitch!” Seiko is fucking crazy, this toxic bitch is actually bringing out a shit side to me “just take her yeah, I will come to the room when he has calmed down, when everyone has calmed down” I feel so stressed, I feel her voice is ingrained in my mind and it’s not because I dislike her but because I have been trying to hide away from her mostly, I feel I am at this crossroad where I keep making stupid jokes to make it seem like everything is ok when it’s not, it’s really not. I see pictures and I am like I could have that but she’s just up there, top tier “so shall we finish what we started, you came back and said nothing really happened, all was good and shit. What the fuck? I am trying to comprehend this; see in High School I thought you both dating like I saw it. We all would be hanging out but you two would be stuck together, like twins. Then you would play her off because we would tease you but wow, she actually admitted to loving you or love you now?” turning to Barry “yeah” I breathed out.

Sitting on the bed across from Barry “she loves me, she said she loves me, and she said it twice. I think twice but I didn’t say it to her, I mean I just went there to see what is up. I didn’t expect to go there to see her, to sit in that SUV and feel what I did with her. My intention was not sex, I promise it wasn’t because we never had sex that time, even thought you assume. Robyn at the time, I tried it and she wasn’t ready, she didn’t want it. I was ok with that, but she left, I always thought it was me. But y’all ran with the fact I did when I didn’t so yeah, she said that she was scared at that time, she was a virgin she lied to look cool I guess, but it’s like. When I was looking around the apartment, I stood in the bedroom overlooking central park. I felt her there, I felt her every time near me. She did initiated sex, and I think she knew that I wouldn’t after I told her I thought it was my fault but without even thinking, without even trying Barry, I made love to her. It happened, it just happened, and I couldn’t control it at all, I just felt the connection go deeper then me knowing my school friend. Like I was holding her hands having sex with her, looking into her eyes. Bro, it’s bad. And then she got me angry on the last night, and I was like fuck it. And I fucked her without even caring and I hated that. Because I think I hurt her in a way, not sure but I laughed it off. I don’t know bro. I am in this mess” I laughed; Barry stared in shock “I need a moment” he said.

Barry really meant it when he said he needed a moment, this nigga is thinking hard “so you made love to her without you even realising?” nodding my head “so what is the deal, why are you still here then?” I laughed “it’s not easy Barry, like people think I should jump and go to her because she is Rihanna and she’s got money. Yes she does, but I am a man bro. I haven’t seen it first hand, but I looked at every picture on her Instagram and she lives that life niggas want, man. She is taking pictures with the biggest rapper out there, private jets, driven everywhere, five star apartments. You know? And there is me, borrowing off you to get there and I still owe you eight hundred dollars, I need to be in line with her to be at her level. She is so unreachable to me; my fear is that. My fear is that I can’t reach her, and I want to reach her, but she’s above me no matter what words she tells me, no matter how she says I am not that, she is. She is there but I can’t get to her, I am just stuck” it takes a lot to admit to it, and I have verbally now “you seemed pretty sad since you have come back, TJ even said it must have gone bad, but it has gone bad I guess, you have formed this feeling with her. You can’t explain it, but we know, we both know. But I see it, I get it. Like Rihanna is out of our reach but I don’t think she is out of reach for you bro, I think she loves you like you said so I think maybe you should take it slow. If you want to make some easy money I would say drug deal but then you just ruining your chances. Ok let’s take it out of the equation, let’s say you go to her as you. What would she treat you like?” I paused thinking, sighing out “good, I know Robyn would treat me good. She just wanted me to give, and I couldn’t. I uhm, I just closed off and got angry at myself. I paid for this fancy meal she took me on, we argued again then” Barry chuckled “nigga, get her pregnant. Be a stay at home dad, that is the plan” I laughed shaking my head “but I know you, you feel bad. I can’t believe you roughed her up in bed? Was you that bad?” nodding my head “I think I was; I was angry. The hug was cold, I tried to catch her attention by holding her hand, but things were sore between us, so yeah. I have a lot of shit to think on” rubbing the top of my head “she loves you, and if we being real you do too” putting my head down.

Staring at Mel laughing to myself “eat your damn breakfast bitch!” I spat, Mel put her hand up and got up from the chair “she is suffering bad” Leandra said, watching her run off. She deserves it, I had to drag her ass back to the home, not only that she started drinking when we got back again, I don’t know why she was trying to go all out, maybe something is going on with her “so girls, did you all have a good night? Are you all staying with me here? I have the River Island meeting, bitch is about to design some clothes” I clapped my hands together, I am so excited “of course, we can just discover London while you do that. But I was speaking to Monica, she said that she is so proud of you. Something you always wanted to do, to design clothes” I am actually nervous and excited about this venture “Jay Brown is coming tomorrow so that will be fine, that nigga be making me work! Like nigga please. I need to breathe but yeah, I got that venture and then album, and then tour. It rolls on like that. Make that money” my phone started to vibrate on the table, frowning looking over “uh” why is fuckyopictures trying to facetime me through Instagram, that is odd but will ignore it “who is that huh?” Leandra peaked over to see “nobody” waving her off, the call stopped. I am not giving him any facetime privilege; he lost that one a while ago. Going onto Instagram, tapping on my inbox and ignoring the amount of random shit that is being said, tapping on fuckyopicture, he doesn’t even message me on this anyways.

Badgalriri:

???

Pressing send and placing my phone on the table “very secretive I must add, I really don’t understand why are you being this way” rolling my eyes “its that skinny man she likes, erm. Christ? Chris? Whatever. He is a tall skinny man with a tiny little nose” Jen is such a bitch “shut up, please ignore her” Jen just cackled “oh is it that Christopher, oh ok. You both getting on?” she winked, looking at my phone, he has messaged back.

Fuckyopictures:

Did you enjoy when we met last time? Was the sex good?

Badgalriri:

You got a fucking nerve

Fuckyopictures:

So did you?

Badgalriri:

Why aren’t you just normal!? Seriously, you text me dumb shit like that. This is why I don’t bother, and don’t bother facetiming me either.

I am literally over him, like he’s just full of shit and at that moment my phone started to ring, he has a nerve to call me also “what?” I answered “because I didn’t want to answer your facetime now you calling me? What? You’re going to ask me something stupid now” I snapped, I snapped because I am sick of it, he can’t have a normal conversation with me “I didn’t facetime” he said, I sniggered “you did, you tried to facetime me on Instagram, just because I followed you don’t mean you can use that privilege to contact me on there” the phone line went silent “that isn’t me, the bitch is on my Instagram. You didn’t say anything to her, Barry you better get her before I do” what bitch is he on about, then I realised “oh, your girlfriend huh. Ok, well this is fun. Well have fun with dealing with that. I am eating breakfast, bye” disconnecting the call “girlfriend? Oh my god, what drama have you got yourself into” placing my phone on the table “short story, Chris has a girl that he refuses to get rid of, she doesn’t trust him, has his passwords. We had sex and I guess she knows and is messaging me on there, I am now waiting for a shade room post on me whoring myself” Leandra cackled “fuck me, girl you having sex with regular hood niggas now? I mean ok you knew him before, what happened? You know this is going to blow” I shrugged “I stopped caring, I did care but I stopped. I didn’t text her anything that confirms we did anything so there is that” she can go and cry into a pillow or some shit, I don’t care.

New Year’s Day and I have nothing to do but just rest, me and the girls are re-watching Bridesmaids, but my mind is not really in it, looking down at my phone and it’s like he knew I was going to text him because he has text me first.

Twin:

Sorry about her messaging you, she doesn’t have my passwords anymore. We split….

Robyn:

That is nice to hear, she sounds like a psycho

Twin:

She is…. So when can I see you again?

Robyn:

Idk………. I am here for two weeks now and then Miami. I am unsure when I will be near the vicinity, I have my album to work on and this clothing deal I did. Couple of shows around there too. I will let you know when I need a service

Twin:

Lmao! Uhhh well when you can fit me in your busy schedule I don’t want to service you but I would like to see you but I guess you too busy for me

Robyn:

Busy yes but you can call, hope you had a good New Year anyways. Least you started it being single! You didn’t even like the girl anyways but I full on expect some drama to appear with that.

Twin:

Just remember me when you can make time….. like I did you

I am not even sure what he wants me to do, fly over to him when he has half assed done things. Now possibly got his psychotic ex speaking to the blogs with the notion that Chris and I had sex, it’s not a lie I am busy, but I am not going to put myself out there like I did before. I will probably be able to pop over to see him when I go back to the US but I will mention that closer to the time I guess, let him sweat it out but it will be for sex I can imagine.

#Chrianna FF #Chrianna #Chrianna Fanfiction #Fanfic #Fanfiction

[sarcasticace]

wait why is AME b2 so bad??

Under the cut because this gets long and kinda rant-y, sorry

 - The writers should’ve never implemented double elimination. It helped this season feel different, which was something this book needed to be successful, but it only made it feel like the new characters left way too soon. Maybe it’s just me, but I feel like we hardly got to know most of them. I get that it was so there was never an odd number of contestants, but they could’ve done something like… winner is exempt every other challenge or something.

 - I am convinced the writers DID NOT know what to do with Ivy or Vince. Particularly Ivy. They kept switching between the 2D villain Adam-mancers love to petty hate to this really compelling (at least imo), complicated rival character.  They should have stuck with the later AND they should have paired Ivy with MC at least once, leading to addressing her betrayal from last season: letting players forgive Ivy and move on (and rekindle their romance if players did that last season) or remain bitter towards her. But mostly pairing MC and Ivy in a challenge for the drama. It boggles my mind that both Ivy and MC are in the same season, but no one bothered to pair them up. I vaguely remember it was one of the reasons S10 didn’t tank. I might be remembering some details wrong, but in-universe, didn’t fans tune it to see that sweet MC/Ivy drama? Any good showrunner would have taken advantage and milked the hell out of it by doing whatever they can to put the two in the same room. I guess Carson being portrayed as incompetent subverted that, but Carson is a fictional character so that doesn’t count. If the writers weren’t going to fully take advantage of the Ivy/MC dynamic, they should have cut Ivy from the book entirely.

 - The partners. This was such a brilliant idea, but omg did they fuck it up. Why did they ONLY pair MC with Slater, Vince, and Adam. I mean, of fucking course it’s Adam, but they should’ve made it so the contestants got new partners AFTER EVERY CHALLENGE. Not when Carson felt like it or something came up. And MC should never have been paired with Adam (or Mack and Derek for that matter). It should have been Ivy (for the above reason) and all the new characters especially if they were committed to the idea of double eliminations. That way players get to know the characters one-on-one before they’re gone. Obviously, Adam is gonna stick around till the end because he’s one of the LIs and he’s on the cover. Also because of the whole proposal setup. Making him one of MC’s partners is a waste of time when you have new characters that will be leaving way before him. Diamond scenes aren’t going anywhere. That’s where they’re putting LI character+romantic development nowadays. MC, Adam, Mack, and Derek seem to have formed a friends group. They interact the most and there are several entire chapters where those three (+Jen) are the only characters to appear. What’s the point? Just pull a Total Drama and bring back the old contestants in a season 10.2, but switch up the elimination order. Having said that, yes, we do get to interact a lot with Eden/Heath and Kiara, but not characters like Yvette and Rowan. Maybe it’s just me, but I felt like I knew more about Ryder, Lina, and Han in their short time than any of the new All-Stars. These are winners and VIPs of previous seasons. They should have something to offer! If the new characters mean nothing then why waste the assets. Take Yvette for example… she’s a mom and willing to use her kids to guilt people into not voting her off. Enough to make players dislike her, but besides that moments and a few single lines, she’s a throwaway characters. And to prove my point, PB didn’t even wait for AME2 to finish before recycling her character model for a minor patient character in Open Heart. I don’t care about PB reusing assets, but can they stop being THAT lazy for five minutes.

 - There’s the fact that they didn’t do anything creative with partners outside of the ones involving the MC. Particularly the ones for the LIs. Vince, for example, didn’t get paired with Adam AT ALL despite their history. Just like with MC/Ivy, why would any showrunner worth their salt not want to capitalize on the drama between Adam and Vince? Same goes for the actual writers of this book. Why even have Adam around if not to spice things up with Vince? 

 - And since we’re on the topic of Vince… why did he not have that big of a role? I mean, on one hand, I kinda like that he’s just a diva and annoying. I’ll give B2 that much, they subverted my expectation of Vince being the main villain of this book, but in all honestly… they should’ve went with that route. It would’ve been exciting if MC would have to ally with Ivy in order to defeat a worse contestant. Then I was expecting Slater to be the secret big bad and Vince would be a red herring, but again… nope. Vince is just a diva and Slater plays rough. Those aren’t bad things, but they were also disappointing… much like the entire book. I know they didn’t want to copy what they did in the last book, but having this book’s finale just include your friends/LI rather than having it you vs. your rival is kinda lackluster imo.

 - One last thing about Vince… he almost seriously injured Adam in one of the earlier chapters and it’s never brought up again. Ever! They could’ve included a scene later on, like B1 had with Zeke, where MC could decide whether to reveal they saw Vince mess with the controls and that’d sway the opinions of the jury house and affect whether or not they’d listen to him. But of course that’s not what happened. This is Choices so consequences are only every applied to the MC. 

 - This “dating Jen” drama should’ve been done in full back in B1, but only for players actually romancing Jen. No offence to the other LIs, but Jen was the most appealing. Having a forbidden romance with one of the producers? Narrowly avoiding getting caught and risking your chance of staying on the show? It’s way more interesting that Adam/Mackenzie all of a sudden falling for MC just because. We know PB has the coding power. They could’ve and should’ve done it If they’re gonna have multiple endings for RoD, of all books, then they should commit to a standard for their books and should’ve coded AME A LOT better. Hell, they should’ve just outlined the whole series better, but we ended up with… this.

 - Also they need to do something with Mack’s backstory… her family is poor? She wants the prize money to put her sister through college. And yet she ONLY ever sabotaged Ryder then fell in love with MC and did nothing dirty for the rest of both seasons. If they weren’t gonna make Ivy a complicated rival character, they should’ve just cut Ivy all together and given that storyline to Mack. This is mostly a B1 complaint, but it follows through to B2 because they don’t commit with Ivy and don’t do much�� with Mack. They introduce her family, which was interesting, but idk she lost a lot of appeal for me in B1 when she fell head over heals for my MC for no reason. Mackenzie’s route had “slow burn” written all over it, but they neglected her. Either Mack should’ve been the rival LI or they should’ve cut her and made Adam fully customizable (like Hayden) then have Ivy fill the role of second female LI.

- Again with Mack… her complaining about cheating is really funny and kinda OOC. Like I mentioned before, she literally sabotaged Ryder because he was a jerk and she wanted to win. Did the writers forget about that? This was just one of several points that shows the writers did not care about their own story and characters. 

 - Also they needed to do something? … anything… with Derek. Poor man, he’s the only LI who gets how this show is played. He deserves better. I don’t talk about Derek much, but I honestly love this man. He’s just dull. He needs… anything. Give him anything. Like the only significant storyline they gave him, that I can remember, is his show-mance with Ivy and that was more Ivy’s storyline than his.

 - And Bianca being friend-zoned despite PB bringing her back. Really? PB must know a lot of fans like her. At the very least a lot of tumblr fans. Idk why they wouldn’t want to capitalize on that. Did they really think it wasn’t a good idea to give her a few diamond scenes? Did neglecting her again make them more money? So instead of giving Bianca… literally anything, they give Slater, a completely new character, a couple of diamond scenes and let players be a little flirty with him. 

 - Having Eden/Heath and Kiara getting into an accident was a good twist, I was genuinely worried about them, but I gotta laugh that it took them both out of the competition. I mean, it makes sense. They were seriously injured. Realistically, they wouldn’t be able to compete, but their elimination brought the final 6 to MC, the LIs, Vince, and Ivy/Slater. Determinant 5 of 6 contestants are from S10 and one has been in 3 seasons, 2 of which he quit. That’s so dumb. Like… were there ANY in-universe fans who saw this and thought this show was rigged? I mean, more than fans normally would about reality shows?

 - How did Mack, Adam, and Derek even get on this show? At first I thought MC was surrounded by celebrities. Bianca was a model, Han was an athlete, Ryder was a pop star, etc etc. I assumed everyone else were celebutantes or something and MC was the odd one out who got lucky when they stumbled across Whitney and Jen. But nah, Mack and Adam (and I think Derek too) are just college students who applied for the show to pay for tuition??? If they’re not famous or didn’t come from fame, why did Piper invite them to compete in the first place? What was so special about them that drew her attention. This is a minor complaint, but it’s just weird to see each of the LIs come from regular families like MC. Not that what we got was bad, but like… did they win a contest or something? What’s the deal? Idk if it’s in a diamond scene I didn’t pay for, but it really should be a free piece of characterization. It would’ve made me care more about the LIs and make them more memorable. 

 - Does anyone think the friendship/ally status does anything besides determine who votes for who at the end of the season? Why would they implement the friendship meter from ES if they don’t use it for alternate dialogue? Because they know most of the characters won’t be in the next book? Probably, but still. I can’t tell if Adam hating MC is any different then Adam being MC’s ally besides him voting for them at the end of S10, but even then, that doesn’t make sense because he has ample reason to not vote for Ivy. And yet he still votes for Ivy if he’s anything lower than ally. Again, mostly a b1 complaint.

 - Someone had a great idea (I forget who, but please message me) that the LIs should be an auto vote and for the rest, whether or not they vote for your should be based on a percentage. The higher the relationship status, the higher the chance. Friends being 75%, neutral being 50% or lower, dislike/hate somewhere around 20 -15%. As an idea.

And that’s the major ones, I’m sure there are more other people can tack on.

#ask #anon #AntiAme #but also #America's Most Eligible #cause im bitter and i love this series

[its-ashley-95baybe]

Can anyone tell me how they even got together at first place? Like even religiously they gave different values and I honestly still don't understand why Val is with JJ. I always saw Val as someone more authentic with himself. This val that I'm seeing is not the one that we were used to seeing years ago, he's just sad and everyone can see it. He's not happy with his choices in life, and I hope that soon he really makes something about it and tries to really find himself again.

Someone told me that she always had Val on her radar and when she broke up with her ex that’s when she started to flirt and whatnot. Honestly I never seen her as the type until she was backstage with Z while her and the fam was filming their tour video. I believe Val was payed off cause there’s no way he feels that guilty about what he’s done. This is the man who landed Amber Rose(granted that relationship was a little sus but eh). I thought his career after the show would be bright but it seems like he’s stuck because he knows Jen’s success stems from him and somethings he just wants on his own…idk but this relationship is just toxic. From beginning to now.

[cydie]

Maroon 5 Assignment??

6:50am

I had a house (house plan) headspace? got the building directly next to mine and turned it into a crisis centre

Crisis centre had “cubicles”  2 rows of 5 and stuck back to back

I arrived later and Bel took me around the floor and there was more of the floor but the main part was the cubicles and the tv area

We got to the cubicles and Bel was explaining them like “so what happens is we register them and then they sit in like that

and i went “Ohhhhh thats what you mean about cubicles i see” - so she’d told me beforehand at a previous time nd i was referencing it - idk if this happened in the dream earlier or if this was assumed knowledge

and then she took me around the lounge area - i think Jen was there, and i think Chantelle was too??? (wow chantelle hahaha jfc) and Bel says something like “this will be the only time we see you hahaha!” and lowkey uncomfortably i went “yeah haha”

and she assigned me a place i could sleep and i went “wait, can i just pop next door” and she was like “huh. yeah. i guess that works.”and i went to the big door and closed it because it was open and some kids were like “thank god i dont have to listen to cats yelling bc now theres a door” and i guess i had like 5 cats cos they jumped onto the door and there was this flap on the centre right of the door that i tried to push back but that open flap part (that was like a sticker peeling off) was just a broken old part of the door????

it didnt matter anyway, after i got into my house i closed all the open doors and going into the bathrooms and rooms and i went into the first bathroom on the right and that had a door that led to the crisis centre so i closed that

i went back out and walked around

idk where the kitchen was like i knew there was a front section

the house was on the second level so idk if the bottom level was mine or a carpark but it was acknowledged that my house is 2nd level but level 1 was never explored or thought about

i walked around to my room and the back part - so i guess the first bathroom to the right had like a bathroom part and another part

skip forward a bit? must have been the next day - oooooooooh thinking back it gives me hospital vibes lmao the ward was definitely different but it does give me the same vibe as children’s in robina Oh man thats so weird i havent thought about robina for ages and i was just recently reading Aly posts on tumblr and reading about how i made a post like 4 years later cos i hadnt used the tag in a while and NOW im having this dream with HOSPITAL vibes????

anyway next day, introduce 3 more characters

so right now, Belinda - Steve is assumed to be around, and YAC crew - I saw them in my peripherals so Jen and Chantelle i guess, maybe James was around too but i didnt see him but he had to be cos hes always free 

and background characters (people in the cubicles), and even more background, a few randoms walking around looking like they work here??

3 new characters - introduce Sarah (Lee? pretty sure that was her surname lmao unfortunate) (in previous dream we were talking about Jana??? and I was going to say “actually I saw Sarah kissing Jana in grade 3″ so now Sarah is in this dream) and Sarah was dating.... someone I didn’t know but lowkey reminded me of Charles To and a frog (irl reference froggy tea), and someone else I cant name rn - and Brad

All 3 were sitting in the front balcony bit - i came out and i guess we travelled or took some young people with us on maybe it was a trip??

we had a hotel room but it was ?? similar to my bathroom in my fictional house in this dream

and we had an assignment 

idk what everyone else’s assignments were but it was some performance i guess

Sarah wasnt a part of my assignment group - but she was dating Charles I guess?? anyway our assigment was to sing about something - present theory and research??? - and i suggested we sing something from Maroon 5 but in a ballad and i was like yesssss perfect love ballads and charles agreed so thats what we worked on but we had to replace the lyrics and it felt like we really did leave this to the last minute but we were only assigned the assignment like 2 minutes ago

went back to the hotel room where i had a shower but idk if i actually had one or whether it was assumed and timeskipped over it or if its a chunk of the dream i cant remember

i remember in the bathroom (irl im trying to use all the body wash up so i can start using the big one) and in this bathroom, the 2 ? tier shelf on the right of the sink had like bottles and a medium bottle of off brand gift body wash and my 3 tier shelf i have irl was there on the left of the sink but a bit smaller than i have now and the bottles in there were bottles i used to have but used up irl 

running late, bc of my shower? we ran all the way down and began performance and ? my hosue was there too so i guess the bathroom was a part of sarah’s house

anyway the assignment went fine - timeskip to an hour in?

natural disaster???? the diner we were in holding the get together ? flooded? with something but it wasnt water but it was the same viscosity and had the same slow moving effect with people and objects but i could breathe fine so either we all developed gills at the last minute or it was something else

? it seemed like we were part of a show like that whole thing was part of a bigger show

we were acting like we were in a play - a performance

7:20am 

drew the floor plan and remembered there was a part in betweent he assignment where we werent finished but i was doing talking and charles had the lyrics down???

#dreams #personal

[mcfiddlestan]

Hi. I’m just curious why do you hate Jennifer Aniston? What did she do? 👀

First off, thank you for the giggle. I checked this while sitting in one of my history classes and it made me laugh because it was very unexpected.

Second....I will answer this, but I will preface it by saying when I say I “hate” a celebrity/actor/musician/anyone famous, I obviously don’t know that person personally IRL so hate is a probably too strong a word to use and I’m basically saying I dislike this person’s supposed talent/reason why they’re famous or they did something that irked me and now I just don’t like looking at them or supporting anything they do. (Except for Stacey “Fergie” Ferguson. I have a right to hate her since she almost ran me over when I was like 11 or something. And I spoke to her once at a hs football game and she was a bitch to me.) I know that sounds extreme, but I’m a passionate person and that’s just how I am.

So, explanation. When Friends premiered on September 22, 1994, I was 12yo and excited about this new comedy on NBC, a channel I watched pretty sparingly. We were ABC people (my parents put the news on every night during dinner so no one was really distracted by the tv and it was always ABC).

When I saw the people in it, I knew who three of the actors were: Courtney Cox - the chick from the Bruce Springsteen video who was also Alex’s girlfriend on Family Ties; Matthew Perry - the jerky dude from She’s Outta Control (a hilarious Tony Danza movie from the late 80s) and that one episode of BH90210; and Jennifer Aniston - the chick from the Leprechaun movie.

I love Friends from the start. I watched it religiously and when I started high school and had to miss watching it in real time because of marching band practice, I taped it — on VHS — to watch when I got home. My favorite Friend has often changed from season to season and over the years, but in the beginning, Rachel Green was my def fave. It had to do a lot with her clothes. I loved the way they dressed her in the beginning with the cute skirts or shorts with dark tights and chunky shoes. Idk. 90s style was a thing and she did it well.

Then the ultimate happened. My favorite actor, the love of my life since I was 13, the guy all over my notebook (my bedroom walls were reserved for *NSYNC and JC Chasez, haha), Mr. William Bradley Pitt, started dating my favorite Friend. I was mostly excited because he’d finally moved on from GP (yeah another actress I “hate”) and Jennifer was definitely an upgrade. When they got married I cried and I saved the People magazine they were on the cover of. I didn’t know what shipping was yet but I shipped them and I shipped them hard and the best part was that it was REAL.

I consumed every bit of media these two were in, bad movies and all. (They both had some stinkers in their early careers). And then Mr. & Mrs. Smith came along — and I was even more excited because my Favorite Actor and my Favorite Actress, who I had been over the moon about since I first saw her in Gia, were going to be in a movie. Together. Side by side. As a married couple. And assassins. I could not write fanfiction better than this.

Then everything started to happen pretty quick — the rumors about Brad and Angie, Brad and Jen’s marriage on the rocks, blah blah blah. Like I said, I consumed everything about Brad and Jen, and Angie and everyone else I enjoyed in entertainment. This was also back in the days when I religiously read Us Weekly and other supermarket rags. So there is not a lot about these people, or this triangle, that I’m not familiar with.

My love affair with Jennifer Aniston started to take a dive after the announcement of the divorce came. I was and I wasn’t surprised - I was because they’d just been on holiday with the Cox-Arquettes, photographed arm in arm; I wasn’t because neither seemed really happy or comfortable in the marriage. (I say this because of comments either or both made in print interviews or on red carpets during the time they were married). What made me start to not like her were some of her comments about Brad and their marriage and I chalked that up to her being of course hurt and angry at the situation. I’m not saying Brad didn’t play his part in all this, nor Angie. He’s not perfect, I know. But when ppl start to irritate you, you start noticing things about them that you didn’t before and for me with Aniston, it was her acting and how basically she’s played the same character in everything she’s been in since Friends. Everything is a variation of Rachel Green. (Also, this is just my opinion. No one has to agree; but I have actually seen professional critics say the same thing. Just saying.) I think she really enjoyed being America’s Favorite Victim for awhile and played it up until it started to wear on her and follow her in every relationship she’s had.

After awhile I just added her to my list of People Whose Movies I Refuse to Pay For. And I’ve stuck to that. I haven’t seen a Jennifer Aniston led movie since The Object of My Affection and Picture Perfect — which are the only two movies of hers I still watch lol. I just love Picture Perfect. And if you’re curious, yes, I still love Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie. Yes I still watch their movies. I’ve been a little iffy with Angie after some of the stuff she’s pulled with the kids and the stuff she’s said against Brad in public, but in the end, I still adore her work as an actress (she is literally my second favorite fictional character of all time on the big screen - Maleficent!) and I’ve always identified with her struggles with her father, her mental health, and her sexuality. As for Brad, I still think he’s one of the best actors of his generation, he’s a brilliant producer, and I’m proud of him for recognizing his addictions and working on ridding himself of them.

I will say my distaste for Jennifer has waned a lot the past few years. Mostly cuz I just don’t care anymore. And I did enjoy her essay in the Huffington Post about how being childless was not the worst thing in the world. So kudos there. But sometimes I watch her in interviews and she’ll say something and I roll my eyes and flip the channel.

I hope that answers your question, anon! And thanks for asking 😊

#anon #la’s ramblings #dont @ me for this yall #ive had a long one-sided relationship with all three of these people #i was very firmly #team angie #for a very long time #pretty sure i sided with her because i hated that she got all the flack for brad and jen divorcing #and was painted as the other woman #but brad only got the hits from jen #eh #in the end they are rich and famous and dont care about my opinions #im a hollywood junkie #i do not apologize

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Recent Observations/Response to Comments (SUBMISSION)

About Leah and the money thing: Corey did indeed discover money was missing and Leah had various explanations for it. He never took her to court so my guess is either she put the money back when she got her next MTV check, or he didn’t want her to be prosecuted, since it’d probably be pretty harsh. Here’s the Ashley’s report: http://www.theashleysrealityroundup.com/2015/11/11/teen-mom-2-star-corey-simms-is-not-taking-leah-messer-to-court-for-taking-twins-money-report/. Considering the conversation she had with Jeremy about their account being overdrawn, I believe it. He said his paycheck went direct deposit and he had to make a new account, one she didn’t have access to, because as soon as his check hit the bank she’d spend it. Jeremy’s a jerk but I wouldn’t tolerate that bs either. As far as how she has money now, a, it seems she’s stopped spending a ton on pillses, and b, aside from the 6 figure MTV salary, she also gets an absurd amount of child support for Addie. To the anon talking crap about Corey not worrying about the wheelchair: insurance companies are notoriously difficult to deal with and he DID call them many times. The process takes the amount of time it takes and there wasn’t anything he could do to rush it. And after ALL that drama from Leah over it, (even though Ali had a borrowed wheelchair, it just wasn’t pink the way Leah wanted. Psssh.) what happened right after she got it? She allowed Gracie and Addie to play on it and it promptly got broken. Barely heard a peep out of Leah about that. When Ali first started physical therapy, she showed tremendous improvement. Then Leah started missing appointments all the time. Corey told her he got a call saying she’d missed so much that they were going to drop her if it continued. He tried telling Leah this and that if she ever couldn’t take Ali all she had to do was text Miranda, his dad, step-mom, any number of people. Leah screamed in his face and accused him of turning things around on her when he wasn’t trying to get the wheelchair. It was all ridiculous, Leah was being so unreasonable. If she were that concerned she could’ve paid out of pocket and been reimbursed.

I really hope that’s a spray tan Nathan has. If he’s laying in the tanning bed that much he’s going to have SO much skin cancers to be removed.

I can’t figure Simon out. Idk if he’s just in love with fucking Farrah or what. Or maybe they’re just playing it all out for a storyline. In any case, it was very odd of him to be there for the ‘date’. If Asaf wasn’t such a blatant fame seeker and more mature, he and Farrah would be great together. Should probably let that go though; she’ll suck all his natural joy right out of him.

As much as Cate and Tyler love each other (and I think it’s more of a safety thing with them at this point. Like they’ve been together so long and their lives are so intertwined, they’re both just too lazy to mess with separating), they resent each other too. Ty resents Cate for feeling stuck. He knows the ones ('fans’) who still love him do only because he’s stuck by Cate all this time. Every teenage girl’s fantasy. “See, they did it! That will be us!” He feels responsible for her and resents never playing the field. Cate, in turn, resents him over Carly. She wanted to keep her and Tyler said he’d leave. Now he’s gone and ruined any contact with Carly. Cate has the selflessness of a mother in saying she didn’t care if anyone else got to see or hear anything. Tyler was willing to give up all contact in order to be free to speak his mind. I will say this: Cate shot herself in the foot. When Teresa called and said she didn’t want Carly discussed on camera or their conversations, Cate literally hung up the phone and recounted the entire conversation right then. Um, didn’t Teresa JUST say don’t do that please?! They’ve been asked nicely, told sternly, and now are being ignored, yet they still do everything B&T asked them not to. Their lack of growth is showing more and more. Them thinking Carly will come to them at 18 is so weird. Like, wouldn’t you hope she’d be moving into a college dorm at 18? And leaving Nova so long with Butch! I noticed one of the first thing he asked was, how much money did you leave me? Gee, wonder why he’d ask that. Duh.

I’ve thought Ryan was on something ever since his wreck. He was bleeding pretty bad from a head wound and refused to go to the ER. Had a friend come pick him up. I figured then he was worried they’d do a blood draw and find stuff in his system. But I also think Maci is a hypocrite. Alcohol is just as bad as pills. Especially when she admits they drink too much and it gets bad. There’s three kids living there. That’s not good. I hate it when people are like, I do this and this, but I don’t do THAT. And if Ryan or his family ever brought up her excessive drinking on the show, Maci would be livid. It really wasn’t her place to put it out there. Then again, given the amount of alcohol bought, she was probably drunk. Let’s face it, they all do some sort of self medicating. Yet another reason why a person in their 20’s needs to be active, to have purpose outside of children.

And to the anon saying Jen Edwards sold out. No, she really didn’t say anything. She said she and her husband do have a side and they’ll tell it when they’re ready. Big deal. It’s easy for people to say put your child out; it’s hard to actually do. Especially when it’s your only child. We’ll see how Maci feels if one of her kids ends up in a bad way, God forbid. Millions of people suffer from addiction and it’s time the shame and stigma around it stopped. It can happen to anyone and it only makes people want to hide it when they know they’ll be looked at differently for the rest of their lives.

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What are your thoughts on the main characters from The Halcyon?

Damn that’s a very difficult questionto answer hahaha

(I’m so happy you watched it!!)

First, that’s not the question but, strangely, it’s very difficult for me to pick a fave in that show (okay except Adil butit’s the major inappropriate crush on Akshay Kumar talking. But he’sperf amirite???). Also, I’m no good at analysis, especially onsomething I love because I see everything in brightpink-Barbapapaland-mybabiesareperfect colours. (the matter iscompletely different when I dislike something. There, I’m allanalytics, in cold hearted b*tch mode and can dissert for HOURS)(thisis the main reason why I still haven’t finish my thesis on RosamondLehmann, I can’t analyze her work while swooning every twowords)(wait I’m lying because I’m pretty sure I could write a 3000words essay on how Adil is a Good Man.)(who am I kidding Icouldn’t)(I’M SUFFERING FROM A HEAVY CASE OF MENTIONITIS)(did Imention Adil?)

Regarding Mr Garland, I love howf*cking intelligent and let’s say eeerrr mysterious he is. I don’twant to be repetitive but what I love the most about The Halcyon isthat, despite the flaws (it’s sometimes slightly soapy?  Andmelodramatic ? The first episode is a bit messy?), thecharacters are not complete clichés (with a few exceptions maybe). I don’t know, maybe I’m absolutely blinded by my love for the show. I feel they could have been monolithic 1940s clichés but they have more depth than what you mightthink. For example, Betsey is far from the brassy-letshopinbed girlwe might think she is. She is a free spirit, a bad ass, a good friendand yet very fragile (imho?) They all have good and bad in them (okay maybe Lord Hamilton senior has zero good qualities but heeey AlexJennings does it so well!!), and that’s one of the majorreasons why I loved the show. Mr Garland is also a good example of« seems quiet, extremely reliable and efficient but heyyyysurprise motherf*ckeeeeer » hahaha. I love that he is caring and a good guy with a dark side.

  I think Lady Hamilton is a fascinatingcharacter. Hashtag the struggle. And it’s deeply heartbreaking to mewhen she realizes who Assberville really is. She is a terrible humanbeing with few redeeming qualities, but she has been betrayed somuch, lost control of her life, tries to maintain what’s left of saidcontrol and she is kind of stuck in her aristocratic snobbish world.She is the product of that world, and I really hope there will be aseason 2 because I need to see the aftermath of the finale on hercharacter (and I low key ship her friendshipstyle with Mr Garland).Olivia Williams is such an amazing actress too, so maybe that’s why Ifind her that fascinating. (The scene where she talks about Gone Withthe Wind with Billy and the others is hilarious I need to gif that).I GIVE MAJOR FIGS.

The only major character I don’t reallycare for is Freddie, he is a bit bland? Like. He is hot af butalso super not spicy/salty/peppery/give me more jalapeno/pass the mustard? Idk I told you I can’t do thisthing hahaha i’m so sorry. I wasn’t that invested in the whole lovetriangle to be honest, nor the characters. I like Emma and Joe, but Inever got really invested in their storylines. Joe’s interesting, andhe has some great moments though (the monologue at the end of episode4? 5? DAMN).

Let’s end this with my baby Toby. Okay,that’s my heart speaking but he is just… He too, is the product ofhis upbringing (something I think tumblr often forgets when reactingto characters), and the fact that he has to deal with “Hi I'm thesecond son” situation. He is at times a snobbish prick  butidk I tend to find him all the excuses in the world (not regardingthe way he treats Adil at some point though. Oooh the ego…),because he has to deal with so much. He has such a difficult relationshipwith his father, sometimes his mother, the world in which he lives,and his sexuality. I’m just…  (andhow amazing is it that he goes to Mr Garland ?? this wasawesome). Idk maybe it’s because I know what it is to deal with afamily that’s dysfunctional af, but I relate on many levels. And Edward Bluemel did such a wonderful job. 

“Minor” characters wise,I was really into Peggy, Sonny and Max. Loved their storylines, butI’m gonna stop here, it’s getting really long and boring. And thereis absolutely zero depth to this post.

Overall, I think they are well written, and the cast did an astounding job. What I love most is the details. the micro expressions. the quick glances. the hands. I just love it.

I’m sorry. I didn’t answer well,did I? Stay tuned for more incoherent babbling about TheHalcyon. hahaha (and more English mistakes youhouuuuuuuh)

#withasideofpixiedust #i should have written this drunk #thank you for asking me!! #and again i'm sorry