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dailynnt · 7 months

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AGAINST THE RULES

Combination: JungkookxWoman!Manager

Characters: Jeon Jungkook, Girl Reader, Kim Taehyung, Park Jimin, Min Yoongi

Rating: 18*.

Genre: ⚤ Get.

Tags: from friends to lovers, alcohol, drunkenness, Jeonguk idol, reader girl, disreputable, dirty talk, smut, passionate kissing, drunken sex, unprotected sex, multiple orgasms, refusing to orgasm, pussy eating, finger orgasm, "daddy kink" .

Samri: "You consider me sweet?" - Jungkook suddenly asked you. You were taken aback. "Um... I think I've always thought you were sweet, haven't I?" - You joked. But at that moment, your joke (or your truth) was taken differently. Jungkook came closer to you. You could just see his big chest in front of your eyes. When you looked up, you realized that Jungkook was very, very close to you. "So does that mean you like me?" - His voice was low. Your eyes turned into nickels. "Jungkook!" you shouted. "What are you talking about?" - You wanted to run away from Jungkook, but in a moment you were pinned against the wall. There was no way out. Controlling yourself and not getting feelings for any of the memebers was the number one task. Besides, you're not allowed to do that. The company rules strictly forbid it. But it was with Jungkook that you had the hardest time. Because he always showed special feelings for you, and you stubbornly thought that he was just being caring. You thought that right up until this moment.

From the author: Hello, guys. So I finally finished it. The story turned out to be quite long. Please read it to the end. I have to admit that this is the dirtiest thing I've ever written. I also have to say that I'm still a bad writer, so don't get mad at me for making mistakes! I remind you that English is not my native language, so there may be inaccuracies in the text or grammar. By the way, this story is completely fictitious and does not claim to be accurate. I don't know what duties BTS managers have, so this is completely my imagination. I hope you enjoy it!

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"Waiter, another bottle of soju!" you hear very close to your ear. Jungkook's voice rings in your ears, and it goes through you, making you flinch. Jungkook leaned slightly towards you to shout, thinking the waiter would hear him better. Near bar next to the guy who was serving your table, bustled over to bring you another bottle to order.

You were sitting at a large table with the entire Bantan group and several managers. You were the BTS manager for their tour activities. You were in charge of their accommodation, food and leisure activities during the world tour. You also had to keep track of their schedule and make sure everything was on time. Some organizational issues regarding the concerts or its details sometimes fell on your shoulders as well. But despite working almost 14 hours, you couldn't say that you didn't love your job. Since you were an energetic and sociable person, you felt like a fish in water at this job.

You worked with the boys from BTS for almost two years. Despite your young age, you successfully passed the interview and proved to be quite competent in your work. You had good organizational skills and coped well with the challenges you faced almost every day.

You found a common language with the memebers right away. They were all responsive and attentive. Despite the popularity of the BTS, they were just ordinary guys to you. You spent a lot of time with them and they were almost like family to you. All seven guys were like older brothers to you. But sometimes you scolded them when they broke the schedule or did something for which you had to punish them. This usually only happened to three of the memebers. The fans called them "maknae-line". So Jimin, Taehyung, and Jungkook often did different things, so they were the ones you paid the most attention to. As for the professional work, you had no complaints; these three were the best. Your work began backstage. You especially had to keep a good eye on their behavior after the concert. And when it came to the celebration, you had to be especially attentive. Because the Mackne's liked to have a good time, and when they were drinking, like all young guys, they often like to do something.

Tonight was such an evening. After the third day of their concert in Chicago, the guys wanted to celebrate the end of their performances in that city. The guys invited only the closest members of the staff team, and of course you were among them.

Maybe it was a coincidence or some simple luck, but it turned out that there was a Korean restaurant not far from the hotel. Of course, everyone wanted to go there. You were the one who found this restaurant.

It was getting close to midnight. Tomorrow at 12 o'clock after breakfast, you and the rest of the BTS team are scheduled to leave for Los Angeles to continue the US tour. You looked at your watch for the third time in a few minutes. You were nervous, because everyone at the table had been drinking heavily, and they had probably forgotten that they had to wake up early tomorrow to leave for the trip.

Jungkook, who was sitting next to you, noticed that you often looked at your phone. He noticed that you only turn on the phone screen but don't click on it anymore. He concluded that you wanted to end the meeting. But he didn't think he'd had enough to drink. And the party was in full swing. You all had arrived at the restaurant just a little over a couple of hours ago. Jungkook didn't want to end the party.

"Manager," Jungkook called to you. He leaned over your ear. You flinched at his hot breath on your ear.

"What is it, Jungkook?" - You asked awkwardly Maknae. His closeness confused you. He seemed so big against you. He put his hand on the back of the chair you were sitting on. Jungkook was very close to you. And you tried to ignore your heart, which was beating fast.

Jungkook was a year older than you, but you agreed with him right away that there would be no formal language between you. Taehyung also wanted you to talk to him informally, but the fact that he was three years older still didn't allow you to erase the boundaries of respect and the rules that were established in Korean culture. That's why it turned out that Jungkook was the only one you talked to informally.

"Why do you look at the time so often?" - Jungkook asked. "Do you really want to end our celebration?"

"That's my intention!" you confessed. "Tomorrow we have to go for Los Angeles at noon. How long do you think it will take me to get all of you?" Jungkook chuckled. He knew you were right. But yours group hadn't been sitting down in restaurant very long.

"Yes, it will be difficult. But Manager, I know how organized you are. You'll definitely be able to handle this task." - Jungkook praised you. You knew exactly why he was doing this. He was probably trying to convince you to stay longer.

"Yes, Jungkook, I can handle this task. But we'll stay here until 11:00 p.m., and then we have to go back to the hotel." - Jungkook frowned a little.

"Why are you doing this to us? Don't we deserve to rest? We work so hard during our concerts." - Jungkook asked. You wanted to answer him that it was for their own good, but you were interrupted by the arrival of a waiter who brought more alcohol. Jungkook immediately lost interest in you. He turned away and joined the others who wanted to drink.

The celebration at the table was going very well. Everyone had a good drinking and discussed the last three concerts. You barely participated in the discussion, occasionally laughing at the jokes that were being made in the company. After drinking a lot of Coca-Cola, you had to go to the bathroom. On the way to the bathroom, you looked at your watch. It was 23.20. Everyone was supposed to leave for the hotel 20 minutes ago. You were determined to disperse everyone after you returned from the restroom.

The restroom in the restaurant was far from the main hall where you were sitting. To get there, you had to go down to the basement. The interior of the restaurant reminded you of home. The style of the whole restaurant perfectly reflected the culture of Korea. You went down to the basement and headed for the women's restroom. Despite the late hour, there were a lot of customers in the restaurant. So when you entered the women's stalls, you had to wait.

When you finished your business in the restroom, you intended to return to gather everyone to go home. Out of the corner of your ear you heard two girls talking about how it might be difficult to get a taxi at this time, as there is usually a lot of traffic at this time.

You came out of the restroom and on your way to the stairs, you ran into Jungkook. You almost literally ran into him. Or he it was you? He grabbed you by the shoulders, almost hugging you, trying to stop you both.

"Where are you going in such a hurry?" - He asked still holding you in his arms.

"Oh. Jungkook, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to knock you down. I was in a hurry to get to you all."

"To us?" - He asked again.

"Yes. I heard it might be hard to get a taxi. We should all go to the hotel now." - You said. It was only then that you realized you and Jungkook were hugging. You gently pulled away from his embrace.

"Who told you that?" - He asked. His eyes were half open. You noticed that Jungkook was a little drunk.

"I heard it from the girls in the restroom." You paused, looking at Jungkook. "Did you going to the restroom? I won't keep you here. I'll go tell everyone that we're leaving, and you just finish what you need to do and come back.” - You wanted to leave, but Jungkook blocked your path with his hand. You froze for a moment.

"I was actually looking for you." - Jungkook said, still holding his hand to stop you from leaving. You took one step back, indicating that you would stay.

"You were looking for me? What for?" - You asked with interest. Standing in front of Jungkook in the empty corridor, you couldn't help but notice again how big and tall he was compared to you.

Jungkook had a good male figure. To be honest, you thought he was the most attractive of all the memebers. His broad shoulders and tall stature filled the space around you.

"You seemed sad to me. I was wondering if you were okay?" - Jungkook asked. He was always so attentive to you. You smiled tiredly.

"Oh. Jungkook, you're so sweet." - You said. "I really appreciate your concern, but I'm fine. I'm really just tired." - Jungkook watched you the whole time. His eyes roamed over your face. "Her face is so pretty" was only in his head.

"You consider me sweet?" - Jungkook suddenly asked you. You were taken aback.

"Um... I think I've always thought you were sweet, haven't I?" - You joked. But at that moment, your joke (or your truth) was taken differently. Jungkook came closer to you. You could just see his big chest in front of your eyes. When you looked up, you realized that Jungkook was very, very close to you.

"So does that mean you like me?" - His voice was low. Your eyes turned into nickels.

"Jungkook!" you shouted. "What are you talking about?" - You wanted to run away from Jungkook, but in a moment you were pinned against the wall. There was no way out.

"Manager, don't you think we have some chemistry?" Jungkook didn't touch you. But his hands resting on the wall in front of your head caught you in a trap.

"Jungkook, you seem to have had a lot to drink. Why are you suddenly talking about this? Or did I just happen to be the most attractive person here?" - Jungkook smiled at your words. He didn't answer. You noticed with horror how he was looking at your lips. You were afraid that he would have the courage to kiss you. Somewhere deep down, you wanted him to, too.

Controlling yourself and not getting feelings for any of the memebers was the number one task. Besides, you're not allowed to do that. The company rules strictly forbid it. But it was with Jungkook that you had the hardest time. Because he always showed special feelings for you, and you stubbornly thought that he was just being caring. You thought that right up until this moment. You were worried that if you were caught with Jungkook in that state, your job would be over.

"I didn't really drink that much." - He was quiet for a moment. "Manager..."

"Let go of me, Jungkook. We have to go. If someone sees us together they might get the wrong idea! Let's not cause any trouble!" - You said sternly. But it didn't work on him. Your seriousness made him laugh. "Did I say something funny?" - You were angry. Jungkook chuckled. You realized again how close he was to you. You could smell his perfume.

"You're so beautiful when you're angry." - Jungkook said through his laughter. "I love making you angry." - You tried to calm down, but all you could think about was how you was going to get his ass handed to him tomorrow.

"Manager, I've been wanting to talk to you about us for a long time. We've been spending so much time with you lately. I started to notice that you're always around me. We're always sitting next to each other and we talk a lot about topics unrelated to work. I started thinking about you. It seemed to me that something was happening between us. You know, like we're attracted to each other." - You stood there as if mesmerized by Jungkook's words. Analyzing everything he said, you concluded that you really do spend a lot of time with him. But your work is directly related to the Bantans. You have to be around them all the time. But you didn't consciously notice that you were around Jungkook the most.

"Jungkook... I don't think this is the right time. Let's talk to you tomorrow. You'll be sober and we'll take our time." - You suggested to the guy who still had you trapped.

"I don't want tomorrow. I want to discuss this right now." - Jungkook came closer, pushing you tighter against the wall.

"Jungkook!" you cried out. "Let's do this. We'll go to the hotel and talk." - You were trying to save yourself somehow.

"Promise?" - Jungkook's big eyes shone with hope.

"Yes. You have my word." - With that, Jungkook stepped back, releasing you.

***

The situation with the taxi turned out to be true. For everyone to get to the hotel, you had to call at least three taxis. But hailing even one was a real hassle.

After a while, and after all your repeated attempts to hail several cars, you managed to order a taxi. Since you were the most sober of them all, you controlled who would ride in which car. You successfully packed the first car with some of the memebers, namely Jin, Hosok, Namjoon, and two of your colleagues.

The next car arrived right after the first one left. After gathering everyone else, you watched them all get into the car. Yungi took the seat nearby driver’s. Taehyung and Jimin took the back seat, leaving only one seat left. You and Jungkook looked at each other. And you realized that there was not enough room for the two of you. Jimin, who was looking at you at that moment, also realized what was happening.

"Come on, Jungkook-ah, sit down and the manager will sit on your lap. That's the only way we'll fit." - Jimin suggested.

"Oh no." You immediately said. "If you don't mind..." - You asked the driver. "Will you take the boys and come back for me?"

"Or come for me. I'll wait for, Manager you go with the boys." - Jungkook said. But the driver refused to you two.

"I'm sorry, miss, I can't come back for anyone. I already have an order. So get in the car and let's go. You're holding up my work." - You didn't have much choice, so you had to sit in Jungkook's arms as Jimin had suggested earlier.

As you were leaning on Jungkook's lap, the car started moving. Jimin, Taehyung, and Yongi were discussing something vigorously and loudly. All you could do was think about the situation you were in. Sitting in Jungkook's arms was comfortable, as much as you didn't want to admit it. You tensed up thinking that this would make your seat easier. Jungkook held you with both hands. One of his hands supported your legs, which you placed between his and the Jimins'. His other hand held your waist. You could feel his body heat and smell his perfume and wondered how much longer you would have to endure this torment. You were just remembering how Jungkook had pushed you against the wall of the corridor when you heard him whisper in your ear.

"Manager, relax. You're so tense. I'm not going to bite you." - You looked back at him. His eyes were sparkling and a smile was playing on his lips.

"It's okay," you smiled awkwardly. You stopped talking. Laughter and loud conversations continued in the car, and you asked the boys to be a little quieter because it might distract the driver. The boys quieted down and started talking more calmly.

The trip from the restaurant to the hotel took a maximum of 15 minutes, but given the traffic on this Saturday night, the trip took a long time. You were in traffic and you looked at your phone. It was almost one in the morning. You blocked the phone in frustration and looked out the window, trying to assess the full scale of the tragedy.

The boys were discussing something and you didn't listen to their conversation. Jungkook made a joke and all three of them, including him, couldn't help but laugh. You were about to scold them again, because you noticed how nervous the driver was, when suddenly you felt Jungkook's hand slide down below your waist. It was right on your buttock. You froze, unable to believe what had just happened. Jungkook was laughing so hard at his own joke that he buried himself in your hair laughing. He was shaking with laughter and you were shaking with him. You wiggled in his arms, thinking that he would think that you were uncomfortable sitting there, but he didn't even notice.

"Guys, please calm down. The driver is already nervous, and you're making noise." - You was nervous. All four of boys tried to calm down. A few seconds later, the car moved off.

As the car continued to move, the members calmed down and continued their chatter. But Jungkook was not going to take his hand off your ass. He liked it so much that he started stroking you. You got angry and leaned over to Jungkook and whispered in frustration.

"Jungkook, if you don't take your hand off my ass in a second, you're going to get a good beating." Jungkook smiled slyly. He smelled of alcohol.

"Your ass is so good. I think it's just perfect for my lap." - His words made you feel hot and nervous, worried that Jimin would hear what Jungkook said. But luckily, when you looked at Jimin, he was busy arguing with Taehyung.

"Jungkook. I'm warning you. You're literally walking on a knife's edge today." - You wanted to take away the hand he was holding on your buttocks, but Jungkook grabbed your hands gently. He grabbed you with one hand, the one he used to hold your legs. You jerked your arms a couple of times and felt him grabbing you tightly. So, to avoid attracting attention, you calmed down. "Okay, Jeon Jungkook. I'll take care of you at the hotel."

"I'll look forward to it."

***

Jungkook was hot. The alcohol coursing through his veins gave him a feeling of absolute freedom of action. He felt like he could do anything. Right now he wanted to be close to you. He liked the way you were sitting in his arms. He remembered holding your waist and stroking your ass. He could still smell your perfume in his nose.

There were thousands of thoughts going through Jungkook's mind, and almost all of them were about you. Jungkook had liked you for a long time, especially on the outside. You had big eyes and a pretty oval face, and your lips were plump. He couldn't help but like you, and in his opinion, many people must have liked you. The thing that fascinated Jungkook the most about you was your eyes, they were a gray-blue color. He thought he could look into your eyes for hours. This unusual color of eyes for his nation attracted him like a magnet.

Jungkook's normal days were so busy that there was no time for any romantic relationships. But everything has changed since you started working for the company. At first, Jungkook was a little embarrassed when he saw you, but after you spent more time together, he realized that you were a very comfortable person. You understood his humor and he liked yours. You were caring and attentive. Over the past year, you became noticeably closer. You often spent time at the company, or went out to lunch together, or rode home together. Jungkook felt comfortable with you and you with him.

Jungkook trailed behind Jimin and Taehyung. You walked with Yoongi, who asked you about tomorrow's schedule. You talked to him, but your mind was far away. You were nervous because you knew you had to talk to Jungkook. But you were determined that it wouldn't be today. Because Jungkook was drunk, and there was no point in talking to him. And the topic of the conversation was not exactly pleasant. You were nervous that you were being too intrusive, so Jungkook thought you wanted more than just a working relationship. But that wasn't the case. You were really attracted to Jungkook like a moth to a light, and you admitted it, but you should have been more careful about your behavior. You blushed at the quick memory of sitting in Jungkook's arms and what he did afterward. Emotions were raging inside you. You realized that your feelings for him were out of control, but you should realize that nothing could happen between you. Jungkook is an idol who can't have a relationship. And you are his manager, who can't have a relationship with a subordinate in any way. So you're determined to talk to Jungkook tomorrow and work things out.

The guys and you got into the elevator to go up to your rooms. Jungkook was behind you. You could feel how close he was again. The guys were drunk and joking around, their laughter loud. You tried to act calmly, paying attention to Jimin, who was laughing loudly, but you noticed in your peripheral vision that Jungkook was looking at you, and you felt hot. He was literally staring at you. And of course, Jimin's sharp eyesight caught it.

"Jungkook-ah, stop staring at the Manager like that. He seems to have a crush on you." - Taehyung and Yoongi were now looking at the two of you with interest. You let out a loud exhale.

"Jimin! Don't talk nonsense," you said, a little annoyed. You were tired and really wanted to rest after a busy day, so you were in no mood for jokes.

"Why do you think that I say nonsense?" - Jimin was indignant. He walked over to Jungkook and hugged him around the neck. "Just look how handsome Jungkook-ah is. You know what a desirable bachelor he is. You have a great opportunity to get an international playboy." - The boys giggled. Jungkook laughed too. The way Jimin advertised him was always hilarious.

Luckily for you, the elevator arrived on the floor where the memebers' rooms were located. Your room was one floor up. You got off at the floor with the guys to make sure they would all end up in their rooms and not go out.

You could barely get Jimin to go to his room because he was winking and throwing ambiguous phrases all the way. The last person you had to take to his room was Jungkook.

You walked to his room in silence and stopped.

"Good night, Jungkook. Tomorrow at 10:00 you have to be ready. So get a good night's sleep." - You squeezed the words out of your mouth.

"I thought you were coming to my place. We were supposed to talk. You promised me." - Jungkook stared at you with his doe eyes.

"Um... yes, I did." - You confirmed. "But it's very late and you need to get some rest. Can we postpone this conversation?"

"No Y/N. You have to keep your word." - Jungkook unlocked his room door with his key card and opened it with a gesture inviting you in. You looked at the open door and then at Jungkook, who was waiting for you to come in. You were hesitant to go in. After checking that no one was there and that no one was following you (because you had a feeling that Jimin might do something like that), you hesitantly entered Jungkook's room.

You went inside and stopped almost at the entrance. Your legs felt like lead. Jungkook, who came in after you, almost bumped into you.

"Come in, Y/NI!" said Jungkook somewhere above your head. After waiting a few seconds, he passed you and went deeper into the room. You felt your heart go into overdrive. It was pounding so loudly that you were afraid Jungkgook might hear it.

Jungkgook's room was spacious in white colors. In the middle of the room was a large bed that was neatly made. The room smelled nice, but you couldn't put your finger on what it was. You thought it looked like chocolate.

Jungkgook was standing by the table, which was located near the window. You noticed a bottle of alcohol in his hands.

"Are you going to drink again?" - You asked, sounding annoyed.

"Will you drink with me?" - Jungkook answered your question with a question.

"No," you said and watched him open the bottle and fill the glass. He took one sip and looked at you. When your eyes met, you felt the blood rushing in your ears. You don't know how long you looked at each other, but it seemed like a very long time. You thought about what you had to say to him. For a split second, you wondered what Jungkook was thinking. You wanted to read his thoughts.

In fact, all Jungkook could be thinking about as he looked at you was how he was kissing you. The way his hands explore your every curve. But he needs to control himself. But at that moment, his thoughts were so obscene that he wished he could make them come true as soon as possible. Even though he was drunk, he couldn't force you into any kind of contact. He would wait until you let him.

"Jungkook!" you began, wanting the conversation to end quickly. "Are you sure you want to talk now? I still insist that we talk tomorrow!"

"No, let's not put it off. We have to settle this matter." - Jungkook replied. You exhaled loudly. Jungkook took a few more short sips.

"Okay. I'll tell you how it really is." - You say. The famous Korean nodded in the affirmative. "Of course, we spend a lot of time with you, but you realize that this is my job. I have to be there for you almost 24/7. Somehow, it turned out that we hang out together the most, but I think it's because we're almost the same age and I consider you interest..." - Jungkook looked at you dispassionately, playing with the glass with the half-finished whiskey in it. "Don't get me wrong. We can't have any kind of relationship with you because it's against company rules. If anyone even finds out that I was in your private room at this time, I could get in trouble." - You sounded serious. Your eyes couldn't look at Jungkook directly, so you looked anywhere but at him. You also thought back to the moment in the taxi and warned Jungkook that if he ever touched your ass again, you would kill him.

Unlike you, Jungkook didn't take his eyes off you. It was like he was mesmerized. He didn’t heard half of what you said. Because he was busy looking at you. You were wearing a black top and a long-waisted skirt. Actually, the skirt wasn't too short, it was just above the knees, but as far as Jungkook was concerned, who kept his eyes on your legs, it showed enough of your slender legs. Over the top was a summer raglan that covered your shoulders. Jungkgook looked you up and down and concluded that you were too attractive for him to stand there and just stare at you.

After he finished the last sip of whiskey, he put the glass on the table and walked over to you. You were silent as Jungkook approached you. You reflexively began to move away, wanting the distance between you to remain the same. Because when Jungkook was at least a few steps away from you, you felt calmer. You guessed that you might like to feel his closeness and you might give in.

Unfortunately, you couldn't move far away. The ominous wall was almost behind you.

"Manager, why do I feel like you're afraid of me?" - Jungkook asked you. He stopped when he was close to you again. You didn't know it, but Jungkook really needed to be as close as he could be.

"I'm not afraid of you, Jungkook. I just feel comfortable when you keep your distance." - You admitted. Jungkook's eyebrows flew up at your words. Surprise graced his handsome face. You were looking at Jungkook and losing control. Your eyes fell treacherously to his lips. The silver piercing on his lip glistened as it caught the light from the lamp. Jungkook leaned toward you. Your faces were separated by a few centimeters.

"Could you go against the rules of the Manager?" - He asked.

"Yes. But not in your case." - You were adamant. Outwardly, yes. But in your mind, you were already imagining what Jungkook's lips would taste like.

"Why not? Who will know there's something between us?" - He said. Unbeknownst to you, he came even closer.

"It's too risky. You already break the rules too often, Jungkook. And in our situation, it's even worse. Don't think only about yourself and your whims. You need to realize that the connection between us could cost me my job." - You hoped that what you said would have an impact on Jungkook.

"I understand everything. But what am I supposed to do? You're driving me crazy!" He almost whispered the last words. "You walk around me all of you caring. You bring me food all the time and make sure I eat on time, you wait for me to come over for company, you call me when I drink like you know me like the back of your hand and control how much I've had. You wear those short skirts to drive me crazy. You joke with me about sleeping on the same couch and think it goes unnoticed?" - Jungkook was quiet for a moment. You listened to his deep breathing, the sound of which made your heart beat faster. "Do you have any idea how hard I'm working to control myself? I could have gotten close to you many times, and as you can see, I really thought about you. I know you might get in trouble. But damn, Y/N am not in my right mind anymore. It's hard for me to be around you because all I can think about is you. You're constantly in my head. Whenever you appear somewhere, I want to look only at you, listen only to your voice. I always want to touch you. Even now you are so close to me, and I cannot touch you. Because I respect your space. But you know what? I want to kiss you so badly." - Jungkook confesses. He approaches your lips but doesn't kiss you. You can almost physically feel his lips on yours. "You have to give me permission."

"Permission?" - You whisper. "Do I have to say something like 'green light'?" Jungkook chuckled.

"You can say it like that. It doesn't matter to me. I want you to be completely sure of what you want." - Jungkook said this against your lips. His hot breath , whiskey-scented breath burned you.

You felt like you were about to fall over because your legs didn't want to obey you. Suddenly you forgot all the words you had said earlier. There were thousands of butterflies in your stomach that made you tremble. You couldn't even imagine that Jungkook felt the something way about you. All the two years you've been working closely with the Bantan’s, you've been trying not to feel feelings for anyone. But let's be honest. When you met Jungkook, you almost fell in love with him at first sight. You tried to act like a professional, so your behavior seemed cold. But the things Jungkook said a few minutes ago unconsciously showed you that you also wanted to be around him as much as possible. Your job was a great cover for your true feelings.

Standing in front of Jungkook now and feeling all the warmth of his body, you realized that you wanted to take that risk. It was so dangerous, but Jungkook was what you wanted right now. Breathing heavily, you said, "If you want to kiss me..." - Jungkook stared at you with his big, coal-black eyes. "Do it. Kiss me!" - You breathed out. Jungkook didn't waste a second when he getting the so-called "green light" from you. He covered your lips with his. His lips were warm and soft, and the silver earring contrasted, giving a bit of coldness. His tongue touched your teeth, asking for permission to go deeper into your welcoming mouth. Seeing no reason not to let him, you opened your mouth and Jungkook's tongue intertwined with yours. He kissed you passionately. His tongue danced in time with yours. He occasionally caught your tongue and sucked on it. It was an interesting sensation. You could taste the whiskey Jungkook had recently drunk. You couldn't decide whether it was the passionate kiss or the whiskey on his tongue that was making you drunk.

You were still pressed against the wall. Jungkook put his arm around your waist, and the further you two deepened the kiss, the lower his hands went. He put his hand under your skirt and grabbed your ass. He squeezed it in his hand, deepening the kiss. From this contact, you felt a growing excitement somewhere in the bottom of your stomach.

Jungkook finally pulled away from your sweet lips. He continued kissing your neck. He left chains of short kisses, savoring every inch of your skin. As he kissed you, he whispered compliments under his breath. "My sweet, you are so damn good." - He said, and a little too enthusiastically, he left a few gaps. The slight pain you felt when Jungkook left the hickeys on you made you even more excited. You felt that your underwear was already wet. But you weren't the only one who was very excited. Jungkook's bulge pressing against you through his pants indicated that he wanted you too.

After leaving a few red marks on your tender neck, Jungkook decided that it was too hard to stand. He took your hand and led you to the bed. Jungkook kissed you passionately once again using his skillful tongue, and after moving away half a step, he grabbed the bottom of his T-shirt and decided that the clothes were becoming a big obstacle between you. He took off his shirt, exposing his upper body. You looked at his perfect abs and toned chest. His right arm was covered with tattoos that attracted all your attention. You had long dreamed of looking at those tattoos in more detail. His body was so beautiful that you felt yourself blushing. You wanted to sit down because your legs refused to hold you up.

Jungkook looked at you intently as he continued to undress. His gaze radiated absolute lust. He licked his lips as he undid his belt. You felt the blood boiling in your veins. You felt yourself getting hot. Jungkook smiled slyly as his pants fell to the ground. The guy was left only in his boxers. His bulge was so big that you gasped. He was like a Greek god standing front your eyes. Jungkook clearly liked your reaction because he laughed smugly.

"I look pretty good, don't I Manager?" he asked with a hint of pride in his voice as he approached you. You tried to say yes, but Jungkook didn't let you, he leaned down and kissed you. His wet lips met yours again, and his tongue plunged greedily into your mouth. Your head was spinning and you knew you wanted more. Jungkook straightened up and now you were looking up at him from down to up. He took your chin in his hands. He brushed his thumb across your lips.

"Did you know what, Manager? I feel like I could kiss those lips forever." - You don't even have time to react to his words, because with one sharp movement you find yourself on your feet. You stand front him. And when you look into his black eyes you realize that they completely absorb you. You realize that Jeon Jungkook has to get you completely.

He reaches for your riglan and takes it off. "I think it's getting in the way of both of us." - He comments on his actions. Following the riglan, Jungkook takes off your top, leaving you in your bra. After his hands reached for your skirt, he undid the zipper and it fell down. Jungkook noted to himself that your black underwear looked too sexy on you. He imagined that when he seen you many times before he hadn't even realized that you wore such sexy underwear. For a moment, he reminded what you looked like in the morning before the main rehearsal of the concert. You were wearing mom jeans and a shirt. Pretty simple clothes, but it must have that underneath was something exactly like what you were wearing now. You were so fucking hot.

There was something special about Jungkook undressing you himself. You really liked it. In a matter of seconds, you're standing in front of Jungkook without a bra. He keeps his eyes on your breasts. He can feel his erection growing and his boxers getting very tight. You feel goosebumps cover your entire body when Jungkook reaches out and touches one of your breasts. He gently squeezed it in his hand, playing with the nipple. He leaned down and took one nipple into his mouth and then the other. His tongue caressed your pink buds. Jungkook sucked on one of your nipples. You felt a pain that increased your excitement.

After he finished with your breasts, he pulled you to him. "So, do you like hard or soft sex?" - Jungkook asks you with a sly smile. You follow every movement of his plump lips.

"And which one do you prefer?" - You ask instead of answering. A laugh escapes Jungkook's lips.

"Oh. I like it hard, but I can be quite gentle." - Jungkook says. "But I want you to be comfortable, so you have to tell me if you don't like something." - Jungkook gently leads you to the bed, and then you're on your back, pressed against his muscular body. Jungkook kisses your neck and your desire grows. You spread your legs so that Jungkook can fit comfortably between them. His cock is pressing against your pussy and you want him to fill you up as soon as possible. "So what do you say? How do you want me to treat you, baby?" - Jungkook asked you again.

"You can treat me however you want!" You finally answer.

"Ahhh! You shouldn't talk like that. If you let me do too much, I can't promise you that I'll restrain myself."

"I'm interested in what you have to offer me." - You say. Jungkook pulls away from your neck and your eyes meet.

"Are you sure?" he suddenly says seriously.

"Absolutely. Do whatever you want with me." - You repeat. Jungkook smiled ominously.

"Fine. But honey, if you feel uncomfortable, please tell me." - He says affectionately. You nod in affirmation and Jungkook pounces on your swollen lips again.

Just when you're losing the taste of his honeyed lips, Jungkook pulls away from you to free you from your panties, which have definitely become superfluous on your body. His knotted fingers penetrate under the elastic and he slowly pulls them off. And after a few very long seconds, you find yourself completely naked in front of Jungkook. His eyes are focused on your pussy, and you see his eyes go completely dark. He lets out a moan so low that you think you might have imagined it. But no. He really did it. You meet his gaze and smile shyly. No man has ever looked at you with such eager eyes.

"You're Y/N's fucking dream." - Jungkook says in his low voice that radiates absolute excitement. You blush at his words and quietly glad to yourself that he hadn't turned on the lights in the entire room earlier. The only source of light was one of the floor lamps by the table.

Jungkook asks you to lie up higher on the bed. You listen to him and lie down comfortably almost at the headboard. Jungkook takes your legs in his hands and gently spreads them apart. He thinks he should undress completely, but he's so eager to taste your juicy pussy that he postpones this idea for later.

He moves closer to you and lowers himself against your chest. Jungkook wants to kiss your breasts again. And when his wet tongue rests on one of your nipples, you moan. Your moans are the best melody for Jungkook's ears. He continues to kiss your breasts, and then goes down covering your body with many kisses. And when he finally finds himself at the level of your welcoming pussy, he grabs your buttocks in his hands. "Open your legs wider for me, baby." - Jungkook asks. Again, you obediently do as Jungkook says.

You fall apart into a thousand little pieces when you feel Jungkook's tongue on your clit. He runs his tongue over the sensitive center a few times, and then he completely engulfs your clit in his mouth. Your moans become stronger in direct proportion to Jungkook's tongue movements. He skillfully moves it up and down, making you feel a growing orgasm. You can't lie still as Jungkook kisses your pussy. Your hands ball up into fists, you squeeze the fabric to somehow relieve the insane sensations that Jungkook's tongue gives you. You realize you're getting close when Jungkook suddenly pulls away from you. You look at Jungkook and see that his entire beard is shiny. Your juice is running down his chin.

"Did my sweet girl want to come without my permission?" - He says as he licks the rest of your cum. Jungkook smiles slyly as he crawls over to you and kisses you. You can taste yourself as Jungkook's tongue rushes into your mouth. "Can you taste how sweet you are?" - He asks you.

"Yes!" you say, looking at his lips and breathing heavily.

"You're such a little whore. I knew it." - Jungkook says and returns to your pussy. He kisses you gently down there and then orders you.

"You won't cum until I tell you to!" Jungkook looks at you carefully. "If you do it without my permission, you will be punished!"

"Yes, darling!" you say, with a fake submissiveness.

"Say “yes Daddy”!" Jungkook asks. You are surprised by his request. You've been afraid of the word because you've heard so many bad stories from your friends who used daddy's kink and it didn't work out well. You had to admit that you liked it when a man dominated you during sex. You didn't have many partners. And almost all of them were boring in sex, but the man who was your first partner was a dominant. He was the one who provoked your passion for this kind of behavior during sex. In the case of Jungkook, you felt his strong influence on you from the very beginning.

You wanted to obey his every demand. And when you heard him ask for "daddy's kink," it was as if you felt the spark inside you reignite and grow stronger. You wanted Jungkook to absolutely dominate you tonight. Your senses told you to trust him completely. So without hesitation, you accept his request.

"Yes, Daddy!" you moan these words and lick your dry lips. Jungkook lets out a growl or a moan and leans against your center again.

He works magic with his tongue. With each passing second, it's getting harder and harder to hold back your orgasm. You're trying not to fall apart, so your moans turn into whimpers.

"Jungkook!" you cry. "I... I can't hold back anymore." - Jungkook doesn't stop what he's doing and continues to kiss your delicious pussy. He turns his gaze to you to admire what he's doing to you. "I really can't take it anymore! Let me..." - You beg. You start to tremble all over. "Jungkook let me come!" - You almost scream. Jungkook takes a second to say.

"Call me 'Daddy' if you want me to listen to your requests!" - Jungkook says. While he is talking to you, he has replaced his tongue with his finger. Your torture continues, but now with Jungkook's fingers.

"Daddy. Please let me come!" - Your pleas excite Jungkook more than ever, and he feels very tight and painful in his boxers. His balls are straining and he wants to shove his cock inside you.

"Okay, love. Come on, do it for me." - Jungkook leans down to your pussy and engulfs your clit with his tongue. He sucks it lightly, but it's an incredible gesture for you. You almost instantly come on his tongue and Jungkook feels your clit twitching. The orgasm given by Jungkook sends you straight to heaven. Bliss spreads through your body and you clutch the sheet until your knuckles are white with incredible feeling. You instinctively want to move your legs to facilitate your orgasm, but Jungkook holds you with his hands, preventing you from doing so.

Finally, he rises above you, and you still can't calm. Jungkook smiles smugly as he wipes the rest of your juice off his face. He licks his fingers, which had traces of your cum on them. While you were trying to calm down, Jungkook took off his boxers. He stand out front the bed and you saw his big, thick cock drooping down. You knew for sure that Jungkook was going to be big, because the bulge that was hidden under his black boxers told you that you should get ready. He was erect and purple. A large thick vein ran through his entire cock. Jungkook took his handsome cock in his hand and rolled it a few times. A few beads of cum fell from the head.

Jungkook was approaching you. As he crawled toward you , you could see his cock springing. You opened your legs to allow Jungkook to get in position. When he lay on top of you, you felt his cock touch your cunt. A surge of desire made you wet again. Jungkook kissed you. He also kissed your tender neck.

"Jungkook?" you suddenly called out to him. He purred without taking his eyes off your neck.

"Mmm?"

"I want to make you feel good too. Let me suck your dick." - You say and feel Jungkook's lips stretch into a smile.

"I've been wanting this that for so long." - He says, looking at your beautiful face, holding his gaze on your lips. "If you knew how many times I've imagined those beautiful lips wrapped around my cock." - Jungkook touches your lips with his finger. "But I think we're not going to do that tonight. Because my desire to fuck your desirable pussy is stronger." - You smile. Jungkook is acting possessive, but you have the feeling that he only wants to satisfy you.

"But I want you to feel good too. Just like me." - You say.

"I feel very good. I've never felt so good before." Jungkook replies and your lips are one again. He slides his fingers inside you and you feel the pleasurable feelings start to build up again. He moves his fingers intensely, setting a certain pace.

"Do you take any birth control?" Jungkook suddenly asks.

"No" you answer.

"That's too bad. I don't have any condoms." - He worries.

"I'll go to the pharmacy later and buy some pills. So don't worry." - You reassure him.

"Are you sure? I can do it with my fingers. I don't have to enter you!" - Jungkook says. But you don't agree.

"I'm 100% sure. And I want to finally feel your cock inside me!" You say. After you say that, Jungkook get out his fingers from you and positions himself near your pelvis. He throws your legs over his shoulders. His purple head is already at the entrance. Jungkook can feel how wet you are as he starts to gently insert his cock.

"You're so wet for me!" - He says in a low voice that turns into a whisper. "So fucking tight."

New sensations fill every inch of your body. As Jungkook's cock gradually fills your cunt, you feel pain. You haven't slept with a man for a long time, and you haven't had such a big cock inside you never. The pain of his penetration is not terrible, but rather blissful.

When Jungkook is completely buried in you, he freezes, giving you and himself time to get used to it. Jungkook swears at the sensations your pussy gives him.

"Fuck. You're so tight, baby. I could cum just from coming inside you." - Jungkook whispers into your lips. He gives you a quick kiss and gets comfortable to start fucking you. Your head spins as Jungkook starts to move inside you. At first, his movements are riddled with pain, but after a few minutes, the pain is replaced by bliss. You start to moan and Jungkook speeds up his pace.

Your body was covered in a thin layer of sweat, just like Jungkook's. You grabbed Jungkook's biceps and every time he pushed his cock deep and hard into you, you squeezed his muscles.

"Do you like feeling my cock inside you?" - Jungkook asks you, not slowing down. You moan loudly, trying to express your pleasure to him. "Tell me, love. Did you want me to fuck you to the point of insanity?" - Jungkook's movements become sharper and deeper. He reaches your uterus and you almost go crazy with these feelings.

"Yes! Oh yes, daddy. I love your cock so deep inside me. I want that you to cum inside me." - You say.

Jungkook wants to change his position. He pulls out of you and you regret it. He asks you to turn over on your stomach. You end up on your knees and your back is bent. You spread your legs so that Jungkook has better access to your entrance. He adjusts himself at your entrance with the head of his cock against you. With his free hand, he strokes your back, drawing patterns.

When Jungkook enters you again, you hear the sounds of your wet pussy. You're so wet that he can slide into you perfectly. Jungkook makes a few thrusts to get to know where your G-spot. And when a loud moan escapes your lips, he knows what he has found. Staying in the right position, he presses his beautiful muscular body against you. His breath burns your ear. Jungkook finds your clit with his fingers and makes a few strokes.

"Are you ready, love?" - He whispers. "I'm going to fuck you really hard!"

"Yes, daddy. Fuck me really hard!" - You beg. Jungkook grabs your earlobe with his teeth and bites down lightly.

Soon Jungkook straightens up to fulfill your request. He begins to move deeply and somewhat roughly inside you again, knowing that this is how he will give you the most pleasure. Wet sounds come from your pussy as he slams into you with each new stroke. Your moans are loud and your eyes roll with bliss. You feel your pussy clenching every time he enters and leaves it. You feel the wave of orgasm rolling over you. You bite your lip to keep your moans down.

"Come on, my love. Do it! Cum on my cock!" says Jungkook. And you do it. You come all over him. You moan a long moan to announce your orgasm and Jungkook hisses "yes" without slowing down. He fucks your pussy so hard that he comes himself. After a series of hard thrusts, you feel Jungkook's hot cum filling you. His cock pulses inside you releasing his semen. Jungkook stops and you hear both of you breathing heavily. He stays inside you for a few more seconds and then pulls his softening cock out of you.

You collapse onto the pillows, catching your breath. Your throat is dry and your body is shaking. You roll over onto your back and meet Jungkook's gaze. He looks at you and then comes closer to kiss you. He hangs over you and you hug him around the neck.

"If I had known you were so beautiful when you cum, I would have done it a lot sooner!" - Jungkook smiles slyly. You are embarrassed to hear such a compliment. Jungkook gets off you and sits down next to you. He puts his hand on your hip.

"How do you feel?" - Jungkook asks, breathing heavily.

"I'm fine!" you reply with a shy smile. Jungkook smiles back at you reflexively.

"Do you want to take a shower?"

"Oh, yeah. I need to do that." - You want to cover your body with a sheet, but when Jungkook notices, he doesn't let you.

"What are you doing Y/N? Are you trying to hide your beautiful body from me?" - Jungkook lies down next to you and grabs your arms. They are trapped right above your head. "Don't ever do that again. I don't want you to cover up." - You smile again, embarrassed.

"Okay, Daddy. But you have to let me go, it's almost 3:00 in the morning. I have to go back to my room!" you say. Jungkook looks at your lips.

"I don't think you're going back right now. I have a new desire to fuck you again!" You are shocked. Jungkook was so insatiable.

"Jungkook you can't be serious. You just did that. Do you want to leave me completely exhausted so we can't leave for Los Angeles tomorrow?!" you protest. You try to get free and find yourself pinned down even more.

"I don't know when we'll be able to do this again. You weren't enough for me." - Jungkook leans down to your chin and moves his nose along your jawline.

"Jungkook... I really have to go." - You sound a little disappointed. Jungkook finally gives up and after one last peck on the cheek, he lets you go.

Jungkook sits in just his boxers and watches you get dressed with pleasure. When you are fully dressed, he walks you to the door. You are about to walk out when Jungkook grabs your arm. You watch as he literally fights the urge to not let you go.

"Y/N, we don’t really talked about us. What do you think about everything that happened?" Jungkook's voice is serious and depressed.

"Uh... yeah. We really didn't talk. I..." You try to find the right words. "I don't want to rush things, but I'm thrilled that this happened. Let's analyze everything and talk in a more relaxed atmosphere."

Jungkook nodded his head in the affirmative.

"Okay, baby. Whatever you say is fine. I'll wait until you're ready to discuss it again." - You stop talking and you feel the air thicken around you. You don't understand why it's suddenly so uncomfortable. But then Jungkook pulls you into a hug. You lean against his strenth chest.

"I don't want you to leave." - He says above your head. "I won't be able to sleep now." - You smile.

"I don't want to go either. But I have to get to my room without anyone seeing me." you said.

"Did you like it?" - Jungkook asks.

"Are you really asking me that?" - You say flirtatiously. "How could I not like having sex with Jeon Jungkook?" - The guy laughs from your words. When he stops laughing, you relax. "I am in awe of you!" - You say and lift your face to Jungkook's. He kisses you, but differently. This kiss is gentle and careful. And you feel the butterflies come to life again in your stomach. You're enjoying Jungkook's lips, but no matter how much you don't want to end it, you have to. You pulled away from Jungkook and left him in the room and finally walked out.

You don't remember how, but you got to your room quickly and quietly enough. When you went inside, you didn't turn on the light and sit under the door. You felt euphoric in every fiber of your body. Sex with Jungkook. It really happened. You couldn't even imagine that it would ever happen. But it happened and you had to deal with it somehow. You didn't know how you would behave later in the morning when you saw Jungkook again, but you knew one thing for sure: you were irrevocably and completely in love with Jungkook. And you had no idea what to do about it.

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Mira Park Knows What We Dream About ( Hyperallergic )

John Yau

In her art, Park is in touch with our collective anxieties about a future that seems to darken with each passing day.

SEOUL, South Korea — After spending a few minutes with the work in the exhibition Mira Park: Interlude at Art Space Boan 2 (August 27–September 18, 2022), I felt like Alice in Wonderland. Having wandered into a non-commercial gallery space, which I later learned is part of Boan1942 — a guesthouse, art gallery, café, and bookstore rolled into one — I became engrossed by the different liminal spaces that Park evoked in black and white paintings as large as 6 by 8 feet, ink drawings approximately 12 by 12 inches, sculptures of animal and human anatomy, such as tentacles partially buried in sand, and black and white animations, including one projected on a wall. Later, when I looked at Park’s CV, I saw that she had titled a 2015 exhibition The Rabbit Hole (at Booknomad a. space), which both confirmed my initial impressions and made me curious about alternative spaces in Korea.

In a conversation with the show’s curator, Jeonguk Choi, I learned that Art Space Boan 2 hosts exhibitions, but does not represent artists. This and a conversation with the young artist Eun Sol Kim, who is Minouk Lim’s studio assistant, suggested that there is a thriving alternative, non-commercial art scene in Korea that is very different than the pipeline of MFA to commercial gallery situation that exists in parts of the United States. Both Park and Kim, who are not represented by commercial galleries, show regularly in alternative spaces, which is almost unheard of in the United States.

Park’s paintings are essentially large drawings done in black acrylic on a white ground. Precise lines and dark areas made by a dry brush convey shading, volume, and different types of rough surfaces. Park depicts a stage-like setting populated by body parts (hearts, hands, legs), covered in sheets or masked, as well as oddly dressed individuals of different ages, creatures such as deer and swans, observers looking through telescopes or taking photographs, and numerous participants, many of whom are engaged in inexplicable activities: a barefoot young woman dragging a boulder; a uniformed figure sweeping up what appear to be paper stars. The architectural setting of each scene is different, as if to say that you cannot step into the same dream twice.

I thought of the observers in the paintings as surrogate viewers and the individuals whose faces are unseen as the limits of our curiosity. How much do we want to see, in a visionary sense, and how much of the world’s commonplace reality can we actually look at without turning away? Fairy tale tropes and the disturbing sights of everyday commingle.

We have fallen down a rabbit hole into a world that we witness but cannot explain. The different activities occurring throughout a painting do not coalesce into an overarching narrative. Rather, Park uses her settings to seamlessly connect scenes, creatures, and characters inspired by fairy tales and writers such as Charles Perrault, the Brothers Grimm, Marie-Catherine d’Aulnoy (who coined the term “fairy tales”), and many others not known in the West, along with Surrealist artists (for instance, René Magritte), early Renaissance painters such as Pisanello and his masterpiece “The Vision of Saint Eustace” (1438-1442), movies and television — artworks and mediums that transport the viewer to another domain. The presence of modern devices in Park’s work helps situate her scenes in our contemporary world.

The sinister and miraculous occur simultaneously in Park’s fully realized, imagined worlds. In the drawing animation “Interlude” (2022), a 4-minute 20-second video is projected on one gallery wall above “Cut Off Senses,” a sculptural installation consisting of identifiable and unidentifiable ceramic body parts partially buried in a bed of sand. Are these body parts remnants of an unknown catastrophe? How does this work link with the video playing above it? At the beginning of “Interlude,” which has an immersive soundtrack by the composer/sound artist Hyemin Seo, a curtain rises on a field of black lines, which is followed by a barren landscape littered with broken televisions, large blinking eyes embedded in the ground, and candles with swaying flames. The scene zeroes in on the television in the center of this landscape, its screen projecting moving black lines, signaling it is on the fritz. Soon its screen fills the entire view and transforms into a watery world in which the faces of two women float, eyes closed. Ducks and lily pads surround the faces. Eventually everything drifts out of the frame, leaving only the water, which slowly fills with different-sized rocks. Snakes enter from the edges, linger briefly, and then leave. These and the episodes that follow seem linked, but not necessarily logical nor decipherable.

The rising curtain and television we enter suggest thresholds we have crossed. Have we left reality or are we entering a heightened version of it? What is this other world that greets us? Park’s work raises questions the viewer is unable to answer. Is the watery world meant to be the unconscious, the place of dreaming? Or is it evidence of a deluge that has flooded the world? Do the two dreaming women signify a desire to break the patriarchal constraints governing the world’s various societies? Asking these and other questions pulls us deeper and deeper into the artist’s world without offering an answer or key. This is what I found so powerful and convincing about the work. Park is in touch with our collective anxieties about a future that seems to darken with each passing day.

박미라는 우리가 어떤 꿈을 꾸는지 알고 있다. (존 야우)

박미라 작가의 작업은 하루하루가 지날 때마다 더 어두워져 가는 것만 같은 미래에 대한 집단적 불안을 건든다.

서울, 대한민국 __아트 스페이스 보안 2에서 열린 박미라 작가의 “막간극(Interlude)”(2022년 8월 27일-9월 18일) 전시를 보다 한순간 마치 내가 원더랜드에 들어온 앨리스가 된 것 같은 인상을 받았다. 전시가 열린 이 비상업 갤러리가 게스트하우스, 아트 갤러리, 카페, 책방으로 이루어진 복합문화공간이라는 것은 나중에 알게 된 사실이다. 전시 공간을 부유하듯 걷다 보면 박미라 작가가 그린 183 x 244cm의 흑백 페인팅, 30x30cm의 잉크 드로잉, 모래에 일부가 묻힌 촉수와 같이 동물과 인간 해부를 보여주는 조각들, 한쪽 벽에 프로젝터로 상영되는 흑백 애니메이션 등의 작업을 마주하게 된다. 그때마다 각각의 작업이 구축하는 중간지대로 빨려 들어가는 감각을 느끼게 되었다. 이후 박미라 작가 이력에서 2015년 북노마드 아트 스페이스에서 열린 “래빗홀"이라는 전시의 제목을 보고 내가 이 전시에서 느꼈던 첫인상이 정확했음을 확신하게 되었다. 이와 동시에 한국의 대안공간들에 대해서 궁금증이 생겼다.

이 전시의 큐레이터 최정욱과 대화를 통해 아트 스페이스 보안 2라는 공간은 전시를 개최하지만, 전속 시스템이 없다는 사실을 알게 되었다. 더불어 신진 작가이자 임민욱 작가의 스튜디오 어시스턴트인 김은솔 작가와의 대화를 통해 한국에서 대안적인 비상업 아트씬이 번성하고 있다는 것을 알게 되었다. 대부분 MFA 석사 과정에서 상업 갤러리로 이어지는 미국의 아트씬의 공식과 같은 파이프라인과는 매우 다른 형식이다. 박미라 작가와 김은솔 작가는 현재 상업 갤러리 소속이 아니며, 대안 공간에서 꾸준하게 작업을 선보이고 있다. 이런 케이스는 미국에서는 매우 드물다.

박미라의 페인팅은 본질적으로는 흰 배경에 검정 아크릴로 그려진 커다란 드로잉이라고 할 수 있다. 마른 붓으로 그린 섬세한 선과 어두운 부분들은 명암, 양감, 다양한 거친 표면의 질감을 표현한다. 박미라 작가는 신체의 부분들(심장, 손, 다리)이 종이나 마스크 등으로 가려진 채 놓인 무대 연출과 같은 상황들, 다양한 연령의 사람들 혹은 사슴과 백조 같은 생물들이 비전형적인 의상을 입은 모습, 구경꾼들이 망원경으로 무언가를 보거나 사진을 찍고 있는 모습, 설명할 수 없는 활동을 하는 다양한 참여자들 등을 그린다. 설명할 수 없는 활동이라 하면, 맨발의 젊은 여자가 돌덩어리를 끌고 있다던가, 유니폼을 입은 사람이 종이 별과 같은 것을 쓸고 있다든가 하는 일을 말한다. 각 장면의 건축적인 설정은 모두 다르다. 마치 똑같은 꿈을 두 번 꿀 수 없다는 것을 말하려는 듯하다.

나는 그림들 속 관객들이 대리 시청자이고, 얼굴을 볼 수 없는 인물들은 우리의 상상력의 한계를 의미한다고 생각한다. 시각적인 관점에서 우리는 얼마만큼을 보고자 하는가? 그리고 실제 현실에서 우리가 고개를 돌리지 않은 채 직면할 수 있는 것은 과연 얼마만큼인가? 동화 속 자주 등장하는 기호들과 일상 속 불편한 장면들이 뒤섞인다. 우리는 우리가 목도하고 있지만 형언할 수는 없는 세상으로 통하는 토끼굴에 굴러떨어진 것이다.

한 페인팅 안에서 일어나는 각각 다른 사건들은 하나의 통일된 내러티브로 수렴하지 않는다. 박미라 작가는 동화, 샤를 페로, 그림 형제, 들누아 백작부인(‘fairy tale’이라는 단어를 만든 사람)과 같은 작가들 외에도 서구에서 잘 알려지지 않은 초현실주의 예술가들(이를테면 르네 마그리트), 걸작 “성 유스티스의 비전(1438-1442)”을 그린 피사넬로과 같은 예술가들과 영화와 텔레비전에서 영감을 받는다. 이들의 공통적인 특징은 관객을 다른 차원으로 이끄는 예술작업과 매체라는 점이다. 이런 영감들을 기반으로 박미라 작가는 장면, 생명체, 캐릭터를 만들어 그녀가 설계한 무대에 매끈하게 엮어 낸다. 박미라 작가의 작업 속 등장하는 현대적 디바이스는 작가가 만드는 장면들에 동시대성을 부��한다.

박미라 작가가 오롯이 구현한 상상 속의 세계에서는 악하면서도 기적적인 것이 동시에 일어난다. 4분 20초 길이의 드로잉 애니메이션 작업인 “막간극(2022)”은 “잘려진 감각들”이라는 조각 설치 위로 상영된다. 이 조각 설치에는 세라믹 신체 토막들이 모래에 묻혀 있는데, 그 부위를 특정할 수 있는 것과 없는 것이 혼재되어 있다. 이 신체의 파편들은 어떤 재앙의 잔재일까? 이 조각 설치는 그 위에 드리워진 비디오와 어떻게 연결되는가? “막간극"의 도입부에 작곡가이자 사운드 아티스트인 서혜민이 만든 사운드트랙이 관객을 빨아들인다. 검은 선의 들판 위로 커튼이 올라간다. 이윽고 부서진 텔레비전이 이곳저곳 흩어진 황량한 풍경, 바닥에 박힌 커다란 눈이 깜빡이는 모습, 불꽃이 일렁이는 초로 이어진다. 장면은 중앙에 놓인 텔레비전 스크린에는 기계가 고장 났음을 보여주는 검은 움직이는 선들이 틀어져 있다. 전체 씬은 그 텔레비전 스크린 속으로 점점 들어간다. 전체 화면을 가득 채우고 나면 스크린은 물이 가득한 세상으로 변하고 두 여자가 눈을 감은 채 둥둥 떠다닌다. 얼굴 주위를 오리와 연잎이 감싼다. 모든 것들이 프레임 밖으로 떠내려가고 나면 물만이 남고, 그 물을 다양한 크기의 돌들이 채운다. 가장자리에서 뱀들이 기어 나와 잠깐 머무르고, 떠나간다. 이 씬들과 그 이후 씬들은 유기성이 있어 보인다. 하지만 그 유기성은 논리적이거나 해독할 수 있는 류의 것은 아니다.

걷혀 올라가는 커튼과 우리가 들어가는 텔레비전은 우리가 통과하는 경계선을 암시한다. 과연 우리가 현실을 벗어난 걸까 아니면 더 증강된 버전의 현실로 들어선 걸까? 우리를 맞이하는 다른 세계는 무엇인가? 박미라 작가의 작품은 관객에게 대답할 수 없는 질문을 던진다. 영상 속 물의 세계는 우리가 꿈을 꾸는 무의식을 의미하는 것인가? 아니면 세상을 휩쓴 대홍수의 증거인가? 꿈을 꾸는 두 여인들은 세상의 곳곳을 지배하고 있는 가부장적인 구속을 깨고자 하는 욕망을 상징하는가? 이런저런 질문들은 던지고 있자면 우리는 작가의 세계로 점점 더 깊이 빨려 들어가게 된다. 그리고 그 세계는 그 어떤 정답도 해답도 주지 않는다. 바로 그 지점이 이 작업의 힘이자 설득력이라고 나는 생각한다. 박미라 작가는 하루하루가 지날 때마다 더 어두워져 가는 것만 같은 미래에 대한 집단적 불안을 건든다.

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