#jesus christ im so sick of this

[ef-1]

burn your village | female rage playlist

#f1 #lewis hamilton #behold I share with you: witch!lewis #the drivers this man has had to contend with seb (❤️); nico; alonso; masa; max like JESUS CHRIST I KNOW YOURE A WITCH #it was v important for this to be dicordant and jarring #that was the most fun part tbh switching & subverting the tonal snaps #this is going to be a lidol series bc I went through my female rage paylist and thought wow... could definitely formula-one-fy this #im trying to be nonchalant but right as i started enjoying making this that STUPID article about lewis doubting himself came out - #and I almost unalived SICK AND TWISTED #anyway literally forever in awe of him. #that one clip from monza 2017 was v important to me bc how the fuck did Lewis take the championship lead from Ferrari IN MONZA #who scripted that. and all the booing and it was so. fucking? much? #always thanks to xavier who is attentive & constructive & insightful & understands every motif even if i am sure they are known only to me #and meg who is always lovely and kind when i send her literally the most BUSTED drafts that are 80% black screens

[scalproie]

Hey nrs can we have

nrs: we have ermac as dlc in mk12

the ermac as dlc in mk12:

#babygirl your mask better fuck unconditionally bc they obliterated your swag im sick to my stomack im so sorry #I DIDNT EVEN REGISTER HIM AS ERMAC AT FIRST #jesus christ #tagging later #mortal kombat #ermac

[lover-of-mine]

I know no one gives a fuck about Oliver's actual ability to play basketball but the way he handles the ball, it's not the way someone playing it for fun or who tried to learn for a part plays, he actually knows how to play and I saw about 10 pictures and a video and I feel like I'm gonna die and when the episode drops I might have a stroke.

#basketball is my thing dude #you dont understand #the amount of below average dudes teenage me had a thing for because they were good in basketball and that made them hotter for me is #embarrassing #like legit theres nothing hotter for me than a guy being a good athlete and being good at basketball gives him more points #because it was my sport growing up #Oliver is already a solid 10 #i cant do this #i legitimately feel like im gonna pass out #i am sick tho so maybe its unrelated #but I'm hyperventilating #jesus fucking christ #thoughts thoughts thoughts #911 spoilers

[fizzytoo]

just two friends in the gym they might kiss

#ts4 #ts4 gameplay #sims 4 gameplay #postcard legacy challenge #i hate gay people so much it's unreal #rua has such pretty sincere eyes it makes me SIIIICK #im sick to my stomach i hate pretty people‼️‼️ #adrien ask him out or something youre pissing me off. “adoring sentiment”.... like i said i hate gay people so much it's unreal #i just want the best for my bro 😞 even tho the way he’s looking at me makes me want to kiss the moles off his face ☹️🤞🏽 #adrien getting all sentimental in the gym is making me lose me mind. he’s just like me and i didn’t even do it on purpose #rua asking for workout tips bc adrien “looks so good” and adrien's like #ofc i do this this and that.. instead of thinking this man is flirting w me... lol like we're friends even tho we did boink that one time #also jesus christ adrien in the third pic .. exactly rua me too #AND THE SECOND PIC‼️‼️‼️ RUA HE IS ABSOLUTELY NOT LOOKING AT YOUR EYES #adrien his eyes are up there 💥💥💥 #postcard: gen3 #queue #sim: adrien herrera #sim: rua kamealoha

[butchdykekondraki]

literally woke up like this

bc the first fuckign thing i heard was caramelldansen and had the fear of god put into me

#[ren] #im so fucming sick i literally didnt even realize i fell asleep. jesus christ

[unsettlingg]

I am foaming at the mouth on my knees begging to GOD. I AM SO UNWELL. The sight of this man and I am in SHAMBLES. A SINGLE piece of that man. A CRUMB. I have dug a hole to bury myself in my own grave and am rolling in it. Truly irredeemable

#oh jesus christ the crimes id commit for him #i am so embarrassingly down bad for him #i am UNWELL. SO VERY UNWELL #sick and disgusting the way i want to climb him like a tree #ill just sit here and cope by getting it out in my fic #sigh #if i met him irl id be unable to speak and turn to dust. truly I would be irredeemable #anyways #just choke me im begging on my knees #jk....... unless #eddie munson #Joseph quinn #stranger things volume 4 #stranger things #eddie munson is so hot

[spaciebabie]

the thought of making you scream is enough motivation for me to draw

#spacie splains #JESUS #JESUS CHRIST #HEAD IN HANDS HEAD IN HANDS #IM GONNA BE SICK #OUOUOUGH IM SO FLUSTERED MY HEAD HURTS #HAS ANYONE EVER EXPERIENCED THIS EVER #HAS ANYONE??? DONT ANSWER THAT #THIS IS SOOOO FUCKING FUCKED UP THIS IS REALLY REALLY FUCKED UPO

[silenthillbunni]

im the one society marked as avoidant yet im always the only one who wanna fucking talk things thru. y'all are a fkn joke!!! im sry but u rlly are 💀 im the avoidant one. the one scared of conflict nd afraid of talking.... yet im always the one staying and begging to talk while the other one just leaves or is a wall nd refuses to talk abt it 😹😹😹😹😹

#im sick nd tired of it #sooooo many ppl say they wanna talk #nd blah blah fucking blah #it's never ever true #!!!!! im so sick of ppl jesus fucking christ #im sick of society telling ME im the sick one the distubed one #im the one w a personality #w a personality disorder lmao*** #yet every one else are x100000 more avoidant than me #it's a joke!!!!!! absolutely fucking ridiculous #i barely have patience w ppl anymore bc all they do is blah blah blah but 1% of what they say is actually true #yeah yeah blah blah you're just wasting air atp maybe just stfu #dont say things u cant stand for #god im so fucking angry like????? why is it so hard for y'all to fucking TALK. say what u mean!! say what u wanna!!!! #talk things our instead of running away like a dumb fkn coward everytime smth gets a bit tough #or it's more like everyone have these extremely high nd uttainable expectations nd demands of u #nd if u dont live up to them suddenly you're trash nd they dont even want to talk abt things #bc you're not the perfect little thing they made up in their head #ugh fucking yikes people are so incredibly infuriating #i wish i could just find my ONE person nd then just go off nd be w them nd not bother w everyone else jfc #ok i obvi cant speelll when im angry whatever

[warlordfelwinter]

watched the lion the witch and the wardrobe on a whim for the first time in years and MAN that cgi holds the fuck up

#that movie is still so good #the creature design! #the animals! #theyre so expressive but in ways that feel so natural to animals #the centaurs and fauns and mermaids and all the monsters and everything just look so cool and unique #my one quibble is the cheetahs on the front lines #yes they're fast but cheetahs would be dog shit in a battle they would be instantly obliterated #there's a reason they dont really fight other animals to keep their kills #they dont even have strong enough jaws to snap their preys neck they have to suffocate it #they shouldn't be in an army #the leopards and tigers and such I'll allow #personal #i know it's not THAT old of a movie but 2005 was almost 10 years ago #its just still a really good movie #one of those where you can tell someone actually gave a shit about making a good movie and not just a buck #jesus christ hang on 2005 was almost TWENTY years ago #there you go brain you got there eventually #listen im sick ok and 2005 shouldnt have been 20 years ago

[the-knife-consumer]

I feel like im.about to vormit 💔💔💔💔

#this school year the absences policy is so strict.... mom says if i feel bad then i shouldn't go but even if its excused they can just. #take away my credit if im sick too many times. so im tempted to just go and if i throw up than whatever i guess. #god but the speech they gave to justify cracking down on things out of people's control.. #like. 'ever since covid hit we've seen a huge spike in absences and skipping school will not be tolorated 😡' WOAH! craaaazy bro! #i womder WHY there could be a huuuge spike in absences... Crazy! hey while youre at it. #maybe you could use some context clues! are there any CONTEXT CLUES in the scentence that you JUST NOW spoke. do you hear yourself. #jesus fucking christ. nightmare school. #im considering getting a ged bc. ive already used two of my nine allowed absences for the entire year. fucker #etemophobia tw #nooo and then the 'we are one big happy family and our wonderful students mean so much to us 🥺' right afterwards. #okay. then fucking act like it.

[cult-of-the-eye]

TW rant (mentions of trigger, overstimulation)

Actually fuck this, this has been the third time I've been fucked over by Spotify ads and I'm furious. I'm listening to music as a coping mechanism, I am overstimulated and I need my fucking comfort playlist but no I'm gonna get a loud as fuck, insanely grating royal army ad and I know Spotify has no way to know how I'm feeling but it's just courtesy for trigger warnings at this point. Please. Please. I'm not asking for much. I can't have another day ruined because I got triggered by a FUCKING SPOTIFY AD. The others were objectively sensitive topics!! And absolutely no warning. I know I could pay for Spotify premium but that's not the point. I shouldn't have to pay to get to somewhere everyone else is just normally. I don't want to have to pay for Spotify premium to avoid this. I preferably don't want to have to avoid it at all. But here we are I guess. I'm just so tired. And I know other people with these issues are too.

#tw rant #mental health #ptsd #overstimulated #spotify ads #triggers #im so sick of this #jesus Christ #rambles #anyway rant over

[cavalrysystem]

Don't you just fucking love when your mother expects you to know where every dish she owns is because "you're the one who puts away dishes" and then she just refuses to admit she likely either gave said dish away or got rid of it?

Don't you fucking love when your mother or other parent expects you to constantly be okay with being a parent stand-in when they don't feel like being a parent for the kids they decided to have?

Don't you fucking love when your expected to cook dinner almost every night because your mom is "just so exhausted from work" and "doesn't feel good" despite being a fucking senior in high-school and on top of that being expected to watch your autistic siblings and not being allowed to complain about being stressed ever in your life?

Don't you fucking love when your parents refuse to do anything about the fact that you're burning yourself out trying to keep up with school, your siblings, the dishes, cleaning the house, and taking care of yourself all at once?

Don't you just love it?

(This entire post is using the word love in a sarcastic way)

#leo cries #vent posting #vent post #tw parental issues #parent issues #shitty mom #shitty dad #shitty experiences #childcare is exhausting #being a student is stressful #i am on the verge of killing myself #but am I allowed to complain? #of course im not #because oh my parents have it so much harder!! #DONT TAKE IT OUT ON ME #i get youre human and yoh get sick and all mom #but jesus fucking christ im not here for you to just shift your obligations as a parent onto #ill cook for myself and mom will be like “why arent you cooking for the everyone” #Because its not my fucking JOB?? #Hello?? like #why do parents constantly expect the older children to just swoop in and parent when they dont want to #motherfucker THEY ARENT MY KIDS

[crxwes]

some guys 🤠

#crow's art #digital art #doodles #sketches #jesus christ its 4am. im i. i. i. #(cries and gets sick thinking abt how i gotta wake up at 4:30am tuesday) #miguel rivera #mariana rivera #abigail rivera #eric miller #connor #august lazarre #i always forget to give him the scar but i think its so funny so.

[stupid-dyke]

I can tell i am now experienceing actual real sleep deprivation and not just the omnipresent idiopathic hypersomnia fake sleepiness that my stupid lying body never shuts up about. I can tell because I am fallijng asleep in class regardless if I take my medication and I feel like everything is so, incredibly stupid and horrible, and everyone giving me homework or telling me to do anything is attacking me. And I can;t hold a conversation. And people are noticing my strange manner and pointing out that I seem wrong. And yet here we are AGAIN I have AGAIN stayed up late AND not gotten any work done. And on top of that I broke my fucking glasses tonight because I left them sitting on my fucking bed. And I'm freaking my parents out by crying over the phone and also I think I actually injured my shoulder last week its been hurting for four days now. and I'm so sad and mad at myself for not sleeping and not working but I can't work because I havent slept and I cant sleep because I havent worked. And every single time I get in a bad time like this my dad worries im going to die because i was suicidal for like a week in 2019 and then he gets mad at me for worrying him and I feel so so so guilty. Im so so sad.

#and I dont want to fuckign sleep even though i really need to and I spend every fucking seconf of every fucking day being sleepy #because even when I get enough sleep im still FUCKING sleepy so what is the FUCKING point. Why not just NOT FUCKING SLEEP. #Im so fucking sick of myself and my body and my pain and my stupidity. #AND ITS SO STUPID BECAUSE HERE I AM MISSING ALL MY ASSIGNMENTS SCARING MY FAMILY WEIRDING OUT OTHER STUDENTS AND MAKING MY PROFS HATE ME #BECAUSE IM FUCKING SLEEPY. stupidest fucking sounding reason on earth to have a fucking crisis. #no one ever hears me say im sleepy and thinks oh thats really serious i really want to help you now its literally just annoying to ppl #haha wait til you have kids or get older or a full time job ha ha #cool I am fuckign terrified of the future because I know how mad everyone gets at me when im too disabled to do what im supposed to #and I know its going to get to a point where I can't and there will probably be no one left to help me. I'm almost certainly going to outli #outlive my parents and my sister and even if i ever get married ill probably also get divorced so I'll be all alone #friendships aren't safe becuase you can love someone so much for 5 years and she just tells you one day she doesn't want to be burdened #by you anymore and you never hear from her again #its a dark scary fucking world and you want me to be passionate about a field of study or something?? jesus christ can you all just fuck of #I dont want to go to grad school i dont want to work i dont want to live alone i dont want to live with my parents forever #my head hurts so much goodnight guys sorry for ranting its literally fine im literally just really sleepy sorry for being melodramatic

[zeawesomebirdie]

Only took a week and a half, but guess who finally actually feels sick with covid 😔✌️

#i should know by now that my specific flavour of chronic illness = a delay in symptoms #i *should know this* by now #ive only lived with it since 2016 #i shouldnt be this shocked #force i feel disgusting #jesus *fucking* christ this is so *stupid* #wait a moment #vent post #realised i probably ought to tag that... #but ugh #at least now i know what the strange 'new' fatigue ive been feeling is 🙄 #and now i know why i cant seem to write #ughhhhhh #>:( #i swear im fine really i am #i just havent been *sick* sick since 2020 #completely forgot what it was like #i would take the worst of my usual symptoms over this *any* day of the week #blegh #my one consolation is that this means i can continue reading fic to my heart's content #and that i *dont* have to quote unquote go back to work #(work being. writing. and whatever else i usually do) #(nit that i had the cognitive function for any of that before this anyway.....) #ugh #okay thats all my complaining for the day thanks for listening #im sure ill be back to normal soon #in the meantime: im genuinely going to compile a superb@t rec list #not sure when exactly at this point in time #but soon #love yall

[the-real-list-of-ominous-threats]

I'll make you live in the American south.

#GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE #I guess florida is only like technically the south but it is bad in a different way #jesus h christ i hate it here #this is truly the darkest timeline #yall know EXACTLY what it is im referring to and im going to be fucking SICK if it goes through #ofc thats going to impact the whole country not just the south but the south is so predominantly red that they feel way less safe