linnnn hellooooo <333 i got my septum pierced on saturday and its soooo cute but i cant smush my nose into my teddy bears like i usually do when i sleep😔😔😔 or do anything with my nose tbh :/ and it tickles A Lot
also cant help thinking about aaron being soooooo frowny when you get a septum piercing because he cant kiss you how he wants :( of course he can give you many careful kisses, being careful of squishing your healing nose but he's sooooo pained one tipsy evening </3 jack is at his aunt's and you and aaron decided to drink a bit and when you two get tipsy, you're sooooooo kissy and it's always messy and sloppy and your noses are always smushing against each other but when you lean up to give your aaron as sweet wine flavored kiss he holds your chin steady to give you a soft kiss :( you whine because you wanna make out with him!!!!!!!!!!! and he hums "lovey, your septum is still healing, we've gotta be careful" and you whine and settle for his sweet soft kisses because you love how much he cares for your nose and how it heals :')) <33 when it finallyyyy heals, he of course buys you some more cute jewelry and is sooooo happy he can bring back his other, less soft kisses!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cries i luv he :')))
hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii jess-jess 🥰🥰🥰🥰 EEEEK!!!! i’m glad the piercing went well, WAHOOOOO!! 🥳🥳🥳 i bet it’s soooooo cute!! i hope the healing is going well and speeeeeeedy so your teddy bears can resume being Smushed 😌❤️
PLSSSSS 🤭🤭🤭🤭 aaron was soooooo sweet and supportive when you were getting the piercing done <333 letting you squish and squeeze his hand to your hearts content and murmuring how brave you are even when your eyes get a little teary 🥺🥺🥺 aaron is so sad that he can’t kiss you like he wants to :((( he would never ever want to hurt you so of course he’s going to be so careful with you but :( he loves kissing you :( it feels like it takes foreverrrrrr for your nose to heal :((( and there are so many times when you forget that your nose is sore and you Smush your face against aaron’s chest or into a smooch and ending up in a fair bit of pain or! sneezing a million times in a row because your piercing is ticking your nose 🤭🤭🤭🤭 but!!! as soon as you’re all through with your healing, you and aaron plan a little date night on a night when jack is going to willifer’s house where you guys are gonna get all cute n dressy and drink some yumyyyyyy wine before you make out foreverrrrrrrrrrr 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 and aaron keeps murmuring against your lips how much he missed you which of course makes you giggle like crazy because it’s not like you guys haven’t at all, you just haven’t been able to kiss like this!!!!! but you missed him too so its okay 😌😌😌🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗
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re-sorted my earring box today and thought i'd take a pic of some of my favs. made some, found some, love every one of them! weird earring supremacy, baby!!!
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I think what people don’t understand about having a narc parent is how isolated you are and how they make you feel on the daily. I had major oral surgery today and I woke up in a dark house tonight.
She literally raised me with the belief that she’s terrified of a completely dark house. And because of that I would make sure a light was turned on for her. Whether she was inside the house yet or not. This woman left one light on and it’s where she was today before she left.
The entitlement and inconsideration is part of daily living with her. But I’m supposed to stay with her because she’s scared to be alone. I’m supposed to not want anything for myself. I’m supposed to not DO for myself because she doesn’t. Imagine your entire life they make you a caretaker and they complain every minute of every day about you to someone so you can’t even trust other adults in your life. And you can’t count on your parent either because they let you down often but expect the world from you.
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pasta, I just thought about this, and broke my own heart:
if you think about it,Cyro def took a bunch of pics of Jane, to have some pictures for her adulthood, to look back and can think how at least she had somewhat of a good childhood.
but Cyro only found her in her teen years.
which conclusion: both Jane and Matt don't have baby pictures of themselves.
Or pictures before they become adults, from Matt side, Foggy def took pics, but Jane side? Even tho Jane ex-partners took any, it wasn't the same as Matt's.
This is absolutely true, and it really is heartbreaking. Ciro did take a lot of pictures, and he keeps them with him in family albums (hoping one day he can share them with her), and he did his best to make up for what she missed - cheesy posed family photos, a couple birthday shots, opening Christmas presents, but like you said, those were only a few years of her life. He had her from 16-18 and that was it. There are no other pictures that Jane knows of, no baby photos, no 1st birthdays and family get togethers, no christmas pics of her getting her first bike. It goes back to just how much was taken from her - any culture or heritage her family might have, languages, holidays, and yes, photos too. She'll literally never have an album like that to show. If she has kids with Matt, there'll be no pictures she can compare to their faces. There will never be ridiculous, silly restaged photos of her at 2 and her now. She'll never know what she looked like then.
As for Matt, at best might have a few left but there wouldn't be many I don't think, and while he'd probably keep them just because you're supposed to, he ultimately would have very little to remember those early years with or to show to others. Certainly not with his childhood at the orphanage (I imagine the nuns and Lantom, while well meaning, were probably too busy to focus on making sure they took pictures for him of milestones, either because they didn't think of it or because they'd just assume they'd mean nothing to him).
Both of their pictures would come much later. Foggy I guarantee has a ton of them, especially from college. Jane has a few in her memory box, but even those all look like different people, different identities, and it's difficult to recognize her in each pic with the way her hair, makeup, tattoos, clothing, and eye color (contacts) all change. So in that way, you're right. Even when her exes early on took photos, they weren't of her. And that means other than the photos she has with Ciro, she doesn't really have any photos of of herself, not really. They were taken more for her to remember her friends and lovers in those shots; not whatever identity she lived at the time.
Which is another reason the photo she takes with Matt means so much, and why that scene is sort of heartbreaking in hindsight, why she was so shocked looking at it. That was the first time since she was 18 that she allowed a photo to be taken of the real her, a photo that wasn't posed or calculated. And it's the same with Matt. For once, he was letting someone take a photo of all of him, all of his facets - the Devil and Matt Murdock both, vulnerable warmth and sweat from his run. Even in the past, when he was with people who knew, there were no pictures like that. It's another reason he wanted it in the apartment. He can't see it but he can touch it and remember what it felt like, remember the way they both felt. And he wants her to see it too, and hopefully one day get the same feeling looking back on that photo that anyone else might looking at photos of them as kids, playing in the sprinklers or riding bikes with their parents or just having fun.
It may not replace all the baby photos they don't have, or all that they've missed out on... but it's a start.
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One thing that goes crazy is those distant screaming calls for help you can hear in the background of off to the races. Like the whole basic premise is this lolita inspired dynamic between this young lonely girl and this much older man where she swears that nobody else in the world would even have her except for him and this in itself is a feat because she’s ‘crass’ and has a ‘broke down life’ etc and the whole thing is entrenched in denial. He loves her in spite of all these things wrong with her, all he asks is that she does what he wants, he’s like an omnipresent figure for her - watches her in the bathroom, getting dressed etc. and the almost hyperbolic way she describes herself smitten with him and how she believes she needs him, she’s nothing without him, the dependency borders on the paternal. It’s not that she’s unable to leave it’s that she believes she has nowhere else to go, he’s made it so she’s so enmeshed that she simply thinks she could not survive without him. he’s ‘saving’ her from herself and she’s in even more debt to him for it (sorry that im misbehaving!!!) and imo she’s almost a parody of herself bc she doubles down on this narrative that’s she’s a seductress and insane and crazy and she needs looking after by this mature older man when in reality she’s so troubled, under constant observation but she twists it so it’s like she’s running away to be caught by him rather than to escape. And in the end her calls for help can barely be heard under the passionate repetition that he’s her one true love
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