Prompt- He thinks he found someone better than her, but is that the case really?
Pairing- IdolYoongi x Reader
Genre- Angst (So much of it), fluff
Type of AU- DivorceAU, MarriageAU, InfidelityAU
Word Count- 1.4K Words
A/N- hello!! after a loooong-ass break im back with this heavy-ass chapter! i hope you guys are still interested in my story hehe so sorry for making ya’ll wait so long, i had a lot going on but anyway, ENJOY!!
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You don't know how long you've been sitting here. Your tears have dried long ago and your breathing has returned to normal. All the pain is now gone and all that is left is numbness. You knew the divorce was coming but what you didn't know was how deeply it would affect you. No matter how hard you try, it feels impossible to move on from him. You hate how hard you've fallen for him over the years. Sometimes, you even question if you should've fought for your marriage but then what is the point?
When you think about it, you can't recall the exact moment you fell in love with Yoongi. In real life, it's not like they depict it in movies and dramas. You don't just look into someone's eyes and fall for them. Even if you do, it wasn't the case with you and Yoongi. You both were always a part of each other's lives in one way or another. At first, you went to the same school but you weren't classmates and didn't know each other till grade 9. As soon as the both of you were put together as a pair for an assignment for Literature, you clicked instantly. It was when you became friends you learned that he wasn't a fan of expressing how he feels and instead, likes to write his thoughts and feelings down. While doing the assignment you just knew that Yoongi would achieve great things in life because of how talented he was. Even as a 14-year-old, the way he spoke and dealt with things, in general, conveyed a lot of wisdom and maturity. Those were the traits that made you fall for him.
It wasn't until the final year of high school when Yoongi finally mustered up enough courage to ask you out. After that, it was all pretty much an extremely blissful experience up until now. You both hardly ever fought with each other as you and him both always believed in communicating like adults instead of conflicts. Maybe having no problems at all, all those years, was the reason why you are having such a hard time accepting what he's done to you. It came to you as a shock that anyone, no matter how strong-headed they are, can't get over it easily.
You are so lost in your thoughts that you don't even hear the door opening. It isn't until Soojin places a hand on your shoulder that you become aware of her existence. You look up at her to witness her small smile transforming into a mixture of a deep frown of concern and shock. No words are uttered as you jump up from your seat and hug her tightly, the only sound echoing in the room is the sound of your heart-wrenching sob. Soojin wraps her arms around you and rubs your back gently. She doesn't ask you anything. She just lets you cry your heart out in her arms. She knows you need it.
After what feels like hours, you finally start to calm down slowly. Your heavy breathing slows down and your sobs turn into sniffs. But the pain is still the same, why doesn't the sharp pain in your chest and the pounding headache you have, lessen like your cries? Why has it been constantly growing? Why can't you just not feel anything? Lord knows how much you don't want to feel anything. You despise yourself for emotionally depending on a person so much that it has almost brought you to your own demise. As much as you'd like to get over him, there is still a small part of you that wants him to realize what he's doing and run back to you so that you can be in his arms again. And you really hate that part of yours.
But little do you know, your small wish has started its journey of becoming real. While you spend the entire night on the couch with Soojin by your side, half-asleep because of exhaustion but half-awake because of heartbreak, Yoongi spends his at Mirae's place. But not in the way his recent-past-self would've liked. He spends it having another dreadful "talk" that he's had to have in the past couple of months. This one is slightly less gut-wrenching but nonetheless, quite difficult.
After the phone call, Yoongi had immediately rushed to Mirae's house, dying to pour his heart out and desperately wanting to get it over with. Mirae opened the door with a nervous smile, which indicated that she knew what is coming. Yoongi tried to give an apologetic smile back but it resembled more to a deep frown. Tears fell from his eyes as his eyebrows furrowed into an expression filled with pain and sorrow. An "I'm so sorry, Mirae." instantly left his mouth as he launched into a rant with a wavering voice that went something like,
"I do care about you a lot. Trust me, I really do. And I love you too, but I am not in love with you I'm sorry. I really thought I was. I thought this is what I needed. You really felt like a breath of fresh air. I thought I was ready to leave everything that I've worked for, everything that has always meant so much to me. But I can't. I'm so sorry but I really can't. You are such a great woman and you deserve everything you want in life but I can't give that to you. I need to go back. I know I don't deserve it. I am such a huge dickhead for playing with your feelings and my wife's. I don't deserve either of you. But I just-" He took a deep breath before continuing, "I need her. I need her so bad. I know you don't want to hear this, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything. I never wanted to hurt you. And I don't want to repeat what I did to Y/N, with you. I was so cold to her. I told her I didn't want her anymore and I made her feel like shit. I watched her wail in front of my eyes and I didn't do anything and I regret it so much. And so, I need to end this. For your good. And I need to fix everything with Y/N. Once again, I am really, truly sorry, Mirae."
And that brings us to now. Both Mirae and Yoongi are sitting on the couch in Mirae's lounge with at least an arm's length distance between them, clearly very uncomfortable after Yoongi's apology from 10 minutes ago. Mirae hasn't said a word acknowledging the said apology. Just a small "come inside, please." It's making Yoongi nervous, to say the least. He opens his mouth to ask her what's on her mind but she beats him to it, finally speaking in a very small voice, "It's okay, Yoongi."
This reaction stuns Yoongi greatly because he was expecting screams and sobs, not this. Anything but this. He looks up to find a pained smile on her face. She continues in a tone that indicates that she's holding herself back from crying, "I knew it from the beginning. We were not supposed to last long. I'm surprised we even came this far. I always knew this was wrong. It felt wrong. You always claimed that you were over Y/N, but you weren't. Even though you kept your tone cold and emotionless whenever you mentioned her, I could see the love you have for her in your eyes. I knew you love her more than you could ever love me. I could see it but I chose to be selfish. I chose to be selfish because I'm so in love with you and I hate myself for becoming the person I became because of it. I never wanted to be a home-wrecker. I am truly not that person. You're right about everything, I do deserve better. I will forever be guilty of what I did to Y/N but I don't deserve this either. No woman does. I know you're trying to become a better person too. Both of us need to. And so, I am letting you go. I wish you all the best with Y/N. We hurt her a lot and I hope she finds it in her heart to forgive you because you're right," Mirae takes a pause. Her words hit Yoongi so hard, it feels like he's having yet another revelation. More tears fall from both his and Mirae's eyes when she completes her sentence,
"You really do need her."
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Kinktober Day 16
WORD COUNT: 1.1K
PAIRING: Jin x GN!Reader
WARNINGS: Smut, hand job, use of toys, edging, swearing, cumming
Whimpers and moans left your boyfriends lips as you looked up at him, smirking as you pumped his cock in your hand. Sweat was dripping down his forehead as he looked at you needily.
"What's the matter, baby? I thought you wanted to cum." You smirked at him knowing just how condescending you sounded right now. Of course, Jin wasn't allowed to cum. After the stunt, he pulled he was lucky you were even edging him the way that you were. Hands slowly massaging the lube into his cock as you knelt down in front of him.
"Shit," He moaned out as you began to rub the head of his cock with one hand, slowly twisting your wrist as he grunted louder. Hips bucking into your hand wildly.
"Y/n...S-Shit!" He moaned louder as you began to move your hands faster.
"Oh, baby you sound so cute when you whimper just like that for me." You cooed reaching beside you for the toy you'd brought with you. Smirking as his hips bucked into your hands all the more.
"Nuh-uh," You moved your hands away from him completely. Taking out the bottle of lube and dripping more onto his cock, gently massaging it in with one hand as the other poured slowly.
"You know this never would have happened if you hadn't teased me today," You told him as one hand-pumped him and the other played with his balls, enjoying the way his face screwed up whenever he let out a moan.
"Sorry doesn't cut it," You reminded him as you began to twist your wrist one again. Using both hands to massage his large cock, mouth-watering at the sight of him but you weren't going to let him have your mouth. Not when he didn't deserve it,
"Look at that, your twitching so badly baby." You laughed as you pulled your hands away from him once again.
Taking the fleshlight toy out from beside you and pushing it down onto his cock, only to pull it off him completely when he moaned. Repeating the action three more times until you began to push it up and down his cock.
Watching the way Jin would roll his hips up to meet the toy,
"Y.n please don't stop, don't stop." He begged over and over as you continued to use the toy on him, twisting it a little as you had been with your hands. Jin's moans growing in octaves as he moaned out your name.
"Faster," He whispered as you began to pump the toy around the head of his cock but never moving it away from the tip. Grunting as you shook your head at him, he was in no place to demand anything from you and he knew that.
"Oh baby, you're so cute when you let out little moans." You breathed, laughing a little as you began to move the toy up and down his cock faster. Letting him hit as deep as he could into it and listening to the way his moans grew louder and faster until he grunted.
"Nope." You teased removing the toy and staring at him as he let out a whine of disgust at you, feeling so close only to have it ripped away at the last second.
"Fuck you," He hissed as you looked at him,
"You wish baby," You breathed blowing a small amount of cold air onto the head of his cock.
"Y/n...Please," He begged as you began to take him back into your hand, pumping him wildly as you looked at him. Smirking as you locked eyes with one another, his eyes filled with neediness as you pumps him, hips bucking and legs shaking. He was closer than before and you knew it,
"You wanna cum?"
"Yes! Yes please," He cried out as you continued to pump him in your hands with great speed until you felt him twitch and ripped your hands away. Letting out a small moan you watched as he shut his eyes, whimpering as he felt the urge to cum slowly disappearing as you let go of him.
"Maybe you've been good," You whispered slowly easing the toy back onto his cock, enjoying the way his hips rolled to meet it.
"Maybe I could let you cum," You whispered again as you began to move the toy up and down him quickly moaning out loudly as if you were the thing he was being fucked with.
Curse words began to fall from his lips as he begged you to let him cum, looking at you as he grunted loudly. Hips lifting away from the mattress and into the toy until you pulled away. Letting his cock slap against his abdomen while you let out a small giggle.
"Or maybe I won't." You breathed out as he growled at you, watching as you began to take him back into the toy once again. This time moving the plastic thing up and down slowly as his eyes rolled the back of his head.
"C-Can't hold back," He moaned out as his hips began to lift up from the bed once again, moans filling the air as he began to feel the familiar build up in his gut,
"Ask nicely." You breathed out as he looked at you, eyes locking with yours.
"Fuck, please! Please let me cum! Please Y/n." He grunted as your hand moved the toy faster around his cock. Moans and whines leaving his lips as he continued to beg over and over again.
"Say you're sorry for teasing me," You whispered as you began to move the toy slower this time,
"I'm sorry! Fuck! Fuck I'm sorry! I'm so fucking sorry please let me cum." Giggling at him you began to move the toy faster around him, letting out small moans once again as he grunted. A small twitch from his cock and you pulled the toy off, pumping him with your hand this time.
Watching as hot stripes of cum shot out of his cock, rolling down to your hand and onto his abdomen as you giggled.
"So much cum," You breathed as you continued to pump him. Cum still drizzling from the head of his cock from all of the edgings you had been doing to him.
"Fuck," He grunted rolling his head back once again as you began to clean him up with your tongue.
"Do you think we could...Try that again sometime?" He blushed as you looked back up at him, nodding as he chuckled breathlessly against the sheets.
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