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kingmaker-a · 11 months
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Not Friends | Jeong Jinsoul
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Mafia AU
Universe: Infinite possibilities
Car Thief Jinsoul x Assassin Reader
Warnings: Alcohol, mentions of illegal activities consistent with Mafia AUs.
Word Count: 2.1k
Genre: Fluff
Premise: Years had been shared between the two of you, long before she ran The Akira Slide, she was your car thief best friend. Long before the legend of Strider echoed through Tiger Clan halls, you were her awkward best friend.
Even on the roughest days, you'd be there for her.
It’s not often you find yourself dragged into the orbit of Jinsoul, at least not like this. Her gaze lingers over you with a drunken haziness. There’s the briefest glimmer of a smile, a joy so bright it competes with the blinding casino lights.
You slump into the chair opposite her with a tired yawn. Was this how she felt being at your beck and call at every hour of the day or night. 
“Does Lippie know you’re here?”
The question almost feels like an afterthought to her, responsibilities were nothing but a foreign concept to her alcohol addled brain.
She twists slightly under your gaze, “hm? I told her I had clan business to take care of.”
Her gaze lingers over the casino, the other patrons knew better than to sneak more than cursory glances at the two of you.
“Aren’t you gonna drink?”
You scoff, “and who would drive you home?”
Her jaw hangs open for the slightest moment, surprise etched into knotted eyebrows. A giggle trembles across her soft lips, a pointed thumb to the back rooms. "Rebel said I could crash here."
You roll your eyes, "what about your car?" 
"It'll be fine, plus I can always start a new project…" Her eyes twist over you, like a shade of colour in a monochrome world. 
It's a brief soft moment, wordless and drifting. You don't usually feel vulnerable or out of place but underneath the heat of her gaze it's impossible. 
Her eyes whisper like gentle fingers over each bump, each scratch and bruise. 
You were fine… You were always fine. Still, your suit was off kilter, messy and unprofessional. 
Unbecoming. 
You'd lost your tie in the midst of a struggle, an improvised weapon for a messy time. 
Better than the time you had to use a shoelace… or a straw for that matter.
"What about your car?" 
Suddenly everything feels normal again and there's a stone wall between the two of you. A smile bristles across your teeth. "At home, where else?" 
Her brow weighs heavy, lost in the touch of your words, "so you walked from?" 
"Construction site down on southside… One thing lead to another and I'm here."
That was a simple way to put it, she didn't need to hear about you playing magical cars. 
Or being implicated in a kidnapping attempt. 
Or having to settle a debt with the Han Mafia. 
Or having to fight Black Family. 
There is something slightly off kilter about her gaze, worn away by the abrasiveness of recent days. Still there's an almost ephemeral, haunting edge that lingers on the tip of your tongue. 
You can't quite place what it means, but it's almost a misplaced worry. 
There's a hesitance that bounces in her fingertips, as they dance ever close to your face. 
So close, yet so far out of reach. 
A gloved hand grips at her wrist, your gloved hand. You tug her tender reach away with a reaffirming squeeze, mustering the best smile you can. 
Bruised and bloodied. 
"I'm fine, really I am." 
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Only now do you feel the weary edge in your bones, heavy with the weight of sin. Still you hold her on your back, despite every complaint your muscles make and the rain that drips down your face, creeping into every fiber of your dress shirt. 
Your blazer a haphazard attempt at shielding her from the worst of it. 
Despite the chilling cool breeze of the night air and the encroaching dampness that pervades your clothes, there's a blazing unabating heat that sparks every nerve in your body. 
Your skin bristles as she nuzzles deeper into you, her soft lips whisper across the bare skin of your neck like the honey soaked kisses of a lover. 
Her hands snake into your dress shirt, dancing just shy of your collarbone in a desperate plea for warmth or grip. 
Regardless, your heart chokes and sputters under her electrifying touch, your mind dances coyly with thoughts un-had; better left un-had. 
You fight through every fibre of your aching tired flesh, slowly hauling the two of you up your stairs. The garage is almost an afterthought as her lips whisper over your neck again. 
A drunken hazy murmur. 
"When did you get so strong Stride?" 
A smirk-lined huff parts your lips, "probably, after the second body I had to clean up?" 
She nuzzles once again, the conversation makes it easier to focus, to ignore the sparks that fly at every caress. 
Still, you can't help but feel a frown pressed against your skin, an imprint of her lips. 
You pause in your strides, your muscles ache less than the worry that weighs against you. 
"Sorry."
"It's alright… I just realised you've changed a lot."
You haul her through your front door, dancing across wooden floorboards with a practised ease; avoiding every creaky board. Still your keys bang lightly against each other, as you do your best to shift them back into your pocket.
A delicate dance to avoid waking the living embodiment of chaos that was your dog; Doki the ever loveable rascal was an added weight of responsibility you didn’t need in this delicate moment.
Still, you pause as she slips ever so slightly, an aching groan of your biceps pulls her back into place.
"For the better I hope?" 
"Mm, yeah yeah of course," Despite her positive words, there's a disheartened weight to her words, melancholic and dry.
You slowly shift her weight off your back, placing her on your couch, a dull singular lamp light barely fights against the dark. 
There's an anxious pace to her eyes, as a frown paints its way across her lips. Only now, do you feel the void of air against your neck. 
You crouch down next to her, holding her gaze at eye level. 
"What's up?" 
"I-..." Her lips purse. "I miss how we used to be… Before all the mess."
"You mean before having to deal with Weaver and his lot?" 
The experience had affected you both differently, unsavory methods were your bread and butter after all. 
"Before Doki,” her features twitch, like each syllable is painful, “that's when you started changing."
Your features twitch and knit together begging for an elaboration. 
There's a decadence to behold in her hesitation. Unspoken words whisper at the edge of her lips just out of reach. Her eyes linger against yours twisting with turmoil. 
She releases a held breath. 
"Do you remember the nickname JK gave us when we first started?" 
You fail to see the relevance, yet you can see the waxing nostalgia that practically oozes from her lips.
"You were Carrot and I was Stick," you stretch your neck to the side. "Why?" 
It was lame, yet paradoxically cool. 
"We used to get paired up a lot huh?" there's a lingering reminiscent fog to her tongue, there’s a strange beauty to her caught in the basking flare of light. 
It was rare for her to not say what she thought.
"Well, yeah." It's as obvious as day to you. "Social situations aren't my strong suit, even Rose knows that."
"Aggressive negotiations are far from mine," there’s the slight quirk of a frown that tugs at the edge of her lips. "How is Rosie anyway?" 
A smirk lines your lips even as your eyes roll. 
"Annoying as ever, she keeps inviting me to social events to help me meet people."
You can't help but notice the way her grip tightens against a cushion, with an almost desperate strength to fight against escaping sand. 
A weird phenomena for sure, like an imposter that had taken the place of your best friend. 
She melts slightly under your narrowing gaze, perhaps she had more to drink than you thought?
“You have gotten more sociable lately.”
Her words almost feel wrong and unnatural, a foreign biting edge. You tilt your head to the side, trying to piece together what the hell was up with her. 
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
A deepening frown burns across her lips, a gust of wind in the form of a sigh, stressed and tensed like years of weight finally made apparent, it rattles against your bones.
“You used to need me.” 
You’d been through a lot in your years together in the clan, clashing blades, howling explosions and echoing bullets.
3am joyrides in a stolen car, laughter on the edge of her lips even as some bangs against the boot.
Nothing cuts or bites as deep as the twisted scorn and pain in her words. Your gloved hands grip at her calloused hands. A heart palpitating tension chokes at your core.
“Soul, you’re my best friend… I always need you.”
Even as the frown remains painted on her lips, you catch the slightest bloom of relief. Still, you realise you don’t hangout like you used to.
You adjust yourself, pulling yourself close to her even as she takes up all the couch. Your legs breathe a sigh of relief as you stretch, you lay your arm on her side brushing her bicep with a reassuring thumb.
She bristles slightly at your touch, even if the silence hangs in the air for what feels like centuries… It's comfortable.
“So… meet anyone lately?”
Her eyes roll with an annoyed smile, “who are you Rosie?”
Your hand clutches at your chest with an exaggerated grimace, "Hey now, I remember distinctly consoling someone whenever they had problems with their love life."
Tubs of ice cream and liquor had dotted your shared youth, lingering into the eves of young adulthood. 
She bites back a smile, another roll of her eyes. "I somehow remember scoring a date for my absolute loser of a friend with a certain wonderful lawyer." 
And she's been a wonderful asset ever since, even if a prickly thorn of curiosity when it comes to your love life. 
Someone would think you and Rose had never been lovers before. 
A laugh parts through your lips, a twisting jubilance gnashes at your teeth. “Your friend sounds like a catch.”
There’s the tiniest wiggle of her finger, tutting and taunting “I’m a catch.”
It’s almost habitual the way your hand interlocks against hers, a refusal. A cocky smirk lines your teeth, dances across your lips as you roll your eyes. 
“Yeah, sure you are chief.”
She pulls you closer with an annoyed grimace, a tight knit dance you’re unable to avoid, your muscles ache as you try to fight back. You catch the glimmer of her competitive edge glistening in her eyes, as you roll through a slow back and forth.
A smile tugs at your lips as your fingers crest her side, eliciting a barely hidden giggle as you tickle deep into her side.
A swift kick to your shoulder is your just reward as you crumple and roll, pulling your would-be assailant with you. Air echoes and sails from your chest as she lands on you with a thud.
Laughter bounces from her lips as a groan escapes yours. Her alcohol stained breath tickles your nose with ribbed jubilance, her hand still clutched, intertwined with yours. 
Her eyes linger against yours, a flash of surprise or perhaps even realisation as she inches closer, like she’s counting every individual eyelash, you can almost count each individual fleck of stardust lost in her eyes.
You hear the slightest creak of the floorboards, your senses honed to a razor-sharp edge. Yet they fade into nothingness as you hang on to every word.
There’s a hesitation, an anxiety that quivers on the edge of her lips as her lips purse.
“I know this might be dumb considering we’ve been friends for longer than I can remember…” her eyes narrow against yours, each beautiful individual fleck bounces with trepidation, gone was the hardened criminal, reduced to nothing but a hushed whisper.
The air is electric under her touch, as you hang on her silence, curiosity clawing at your chest and into your heart. 
“How come we never gave it a shot?”
You pop a smirk like you’d cock a gun or sharpen a knife, razor-sharp and witty. You lean dangerously close, a whisper away from her own features.
You fight desperately against a nervous dry gulp.
“Simple, you never asked.”
She devours you the moment the words leave your lips, leaving no moments for hesitation as her lips meld against yours. Your hands rake through her hair as you pull, tugging her closer with a hungry edge. 
It burns deep like a ravenous forest fire as her teeth bite against your bottom, searing her smile into every inch. The taste of honeyed sweet alcohol lingers on every inch of her lips, even if you could somehow get drunk off of her taste.
You knew it was her who was truly intoxicating.
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panda-writes-kpop · 25 days
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Sweet Grape Slushie ~ Jinsoul
a/n: i'm still not over pjo s1, so you're getting another fic that can help cure the brain rot (ps i'll get back to requests after i post the dami b-day fic and work on the other march birthdays for idols and friends).
also, if you aren't aware, the slushie title comes from a prompt list I made a year(?) ago. Feel free to check it out below if you're interested!
tw: sad vibes for a sweet fic but it's okay bc I make the rules :), single parent! reader
Summary: You were a mortal. Jinsoul was a goddess. Your child was the best of both of you. Maybe it's time that the two of them meet.
♡ Masterlist ♡ ▪︎▪︎▪︎▪︎▪︎▪︎▪︎▪︎▪︎ ☆ Prompt List ☆
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It wasn’t fair.
To you, to her, to your child.
Her child.
To be a child of a goddess is to be blessed with glorious purpose and unending strife. To have a mother you have never met and another parent who is struggling to cope with day-to-day life.
Sometimes, you wish you hadn't gone to that stupid aquarium and met a beautiful woman who captivated your mind, body, and soul. She was ethereal, among other humans, but you would learn that she was, in all seriousness, out of this world.
Things were good between the two of you for a while. Jinsoul was everything you could've asked for in a partner. You were together for years, and you wish you would be together right now.
Maybe you wouldn't be such a complete fucking failure if she was right next to you.
You can imagine her sweet smile as she wraps her arms around you and cuddles into your side.
"C'mon, babe, we can figure this out. It's you and me. What can't we face together?" She'd softly whisper into your ear as you sigh.
"Parenthood, apparently." You mutter as you look over at your child.
They patiently await for you to return with not a clue in the world of your internal dialog. They'd have to know about Jinsoul one day... why not now?
You weren't really mad at her, and if you were, it didn't last long. She was a goddess who had much more important people to deal with. Jinsoul didn't need your emotional baggage as well.
You just wanted her to send a sign that she was thinking of you two. Something that says "sorry for leaving a baby on your doorstep and deciding to never see you again!".
You're probably asking for too much.
Against your better judgment, you grab a nearby matchbox and light a match before dropping it in a half-drank milkshake. You said you were going to pay the bill, as your excuse to compose yourself before having a mental breakdown in front of your child, but only empty dishes greeted you at the hostesses' desk.
You hear rain gently knock against a nearby window as a small tear runs down your face.
A bell rings, signaling the entrance of another guest.
Soft footsteps approach you until someone stops to your left.
"You came." You say, looking directly at your child.
You don't need to hear her voice to know that she's right there, but you find yourself relaxing when Jinsoul addresses you.
"You called."
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huhjxn · 10 months
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NEWJINS: [40] bad intentions?
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sweetenerosy · 8 months
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hiii i just finished reading your fics and i saw your requests are open so can i request jealous loona hcs please? 🤍
thanks for being here and reading my stuff! 🫶🏻💖
notes and warnings: fem!reader, a little nsfw
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heejin
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more possessive and protective than actually jealous
doesn’t get jealous too often or too fast, she’s just like super chill most of the time
oh but when she does…
gets angry when jealous, mostly not at you tho
might be a little grumpy towards you, however
she’s super competitive so to get control of the situation, she’d show off to the other person with her muscles or voice or something
or if the other person is trying to impress you with something, heejin would definitely show you & them how she can do it better (even if she can’t really)
the sex is the best when she’s jealous😩
again, she’s suuuuper competitive
she’ll release some pent up anger and absolutely ruin you, all while telling you how no one else but her could do this
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jungeun
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jealous all. the. time.
you could just be talking to someone and she’d be off to the side somewhere like 😠🤨😒🙄
gets jealous over every little thing
but i feel like if you deliberately tried to make her jealous, she wouldn’t care
normally doesn’t confront you about it
she’d just wait till the whole thing blows over
if she does tho she’ll just whine and maybe cling to you a little if you’re alone
but even then, she wouldn’t outright say that she’s jealous, she’d probably just hint at it if anything
she’d most likely literally just whine tho.
another thing jungeun would do is talk shit to her friends about the other person behind their back
the stuff she’d say could get pretty harsh and mean
& if she’s extremely jealous, she’d also talk shit about them to you and how they’re good for nothing and how she’s better and so on
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jinsoul
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a bit similar to jungeun except she gets jealous much less
she can be a bit… dense? about stuff like that so most of the time, she wouldn’t even notice anything
sometimes she’d notice that she’s feeling upset but couldn’t put her finger at it
but by the time she’s done sorting her feelings out and establishing that she is, in fact, jealous, the whole situation might already be over
jinsoul would also repress jealousy often, especially if she feels like it’s without reason
there’s no reason to stir up a fight when both of you could just be happy
she just wants everything to be harmonious & peaceful
normally wouldn’t confront you about it either, but if she does then it’s in a straightforward & matter-of-fact way, although she might also be pretty whiny beforehand
but again, she rarely ever does, she just bottles it up over time
so you’d need to reach out to her every now and then, otherwise she’d probably get a little depressed over time
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yerim
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ugh there’s no way of knowing what’s going on in her head ever.
sometimes she’d get jealous over nothing, other times you’d have to get jealous For her because she just would not
it’s a bit infuriating, but (mostly) not deliberate on her side
yerim is pretty possessive tho (never forget her scorpio moon!)
so if someone tried to take what’s hers, for lack of a better phrase, she’d get upset
usually tries to lead your attention to her and away from the other person by inserting herself into the conversation or telling you to “come look at this totally awesome thing over here”
mostly gets jealous when people she doesn’t know/doesn’t know well flirt with you or you with them
like, she doesn’t know if they could potentially be a threat or not and that’s scary to her
whether she confronts you about it or lets her steam off somewhere else or bottles it up is also always different, though she mostly chooses the first or last option
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chaewon
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gets jealous from time to time
it depends on her mood, like if she’s not having a good day to begin with, she’d get jealous more easily
chaewon would be jealous of emotional connections you have with someone that’s not her rather than flirtation or touchiness or something else
unless she feels like you don’t have deep conversations with her at all anymore, she’s super chill about it
like, she doesn’t give you a hard time for it or gets angry
she also never talks about it with you
if she notices that she’s getting jealous, she’ll just distance herself a bit from you for a while and tries to find a distraction
she tends to bottle up her emotions too, but i don’t think she’d ever really explode
not unless she feels like she’s completely lost you emotionally, then she might unload, but to another person instead of you :(
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okayeojin · 2 years
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loona reaction to accidentally revealing your relationship
☁️ :: mainly angst
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♡ :: heejin 희진
as heejin was excitedly talking to her fans on vlive, giggling amused at the way the comments would go crazy as soon as she did something as innocent as simply brushing her hand through her hair or biting her bottom lip as her eyes skimmed through the comments. a little "oh!" left her lips as a viewer pointed out a few new additions to her drawings neatly taped on the wall behind her. "yes! i added some recent pictures i drew lately" she exclaimed as she rolled with her chair closer to the wall and carefully removed said drawings from it, with the intention of showing them to her fans. "i've been drawing traditionally a lot, actually" she explained, resting the drawings on her desk. "but i have some... fairly recent digital pieces as well" she continued as she pulled out and unlocked her tablet. smiling at the screen she finally chose what to show her viewers, pulling out this pretty landscape view she had worked on for the last few days. flattered by the positive response, she felt like showing more, sliding her fingers on the screen in the wrong direction, accidentally revealing what many people immediately recognized was a portrait of you. you were wearing the same outfit as the most recent music show you and your group attended to... and overall some kpop fans would have recognized you regardless. her eyes shot wide open and her expression didn't really leave any doubts to the viewers. something was definitely up between the two of you. "that's...! they're just... i just admire them a lot and..." she would ramble before changing the subject and attempting to keep her live going, but the comments were not letting her off the hook so easily... so much that she eventually had to end it, and with a shaky sigh and teary eyes proceeded to text you.
♡ :: hyunjin 현진
hyunjin acted without thinking. and the shocked expressions on her members' faces or the stern look from her manager, and complete silence that fell over the whole room should have made her understand that she had messed up big time. it was a live interview, show, kind of thing, and the hosts were this group of over middle aged men, thinking that making fun of young girls is somewhat entertaining, and crossing many many lines while doing so. during a specific moment in the show, the girls were all called together to take a picture with the mcs, who didn't even think before grabbing some of them by their shoulders and pulling them closer. hyunjin was one of them. and she quickly pulled away, faking a smile. "oh what happened?" the host tried to joke "you have a boyfriend or something? is he jealous?" he continued while laughing in her face, at which she replied "yes, my s/o wouldn't be happy seeing you touching me like that", storming out of the set. unprofessional, she knew that. but she couldn't bear it any longer. you, who were watching the live from your phone, had your mouth wide open, not a single idea in mind about what you were supposed to do at that moment, until you got hyunjin's call. "i have to figure things out with the company about what just happened. i’m really sorry, love".
♡ :: haseul 하슬
she was peacefully on vlive, probably in her own dorm room with no supervision from any of the staff or even her manager -who was however watching her live just to keep the situation under control. she was answering questions from the fans, giggling and scolding her own members for leaving comments lovingly making fun of her, she even sang some songs that were requested by the viewers. she was having so much fun that she almost forgot she had invited you over at a certain hour, when she was almost sure she would have finished by then, but it wasn’t the case. she soon heard your voice on the other side of the door; you were surely being entertained by some of her members while she was still finishing up her live. she got so excited at the thought of going out with you, that she made a rookie mistake: she said her goodbyes, she thanked her fans for keeping her company, and she swore she had ended the live, but she stood up so quickly that her hand slipped and never properly clicked. she ran to greet you and loudly exclaimed “i missed you so much!! oh my god come here” and kissed you just loud enough that it was clearly heard by the viewers. then her phone would start going off with calls from her manager and she would get so confused but soon understand the situation and you could see her face going pale in an instant.
♡ : yeojin 여진
you had spent the whole afternoon together, drinking milkshakes while sitting in front of the ocean on the beach. you had cuddled the whole time and taken so many pictures as well, especially yeojin. it was a time so dear to her because for the very first time in months her schedule was free, no promotions, no fan meetings, no interview, no radio, no variety shows... she almost couldn't believe it was real, spending time with her s/o like this, without anyone's from her company supervision, without having to leave at a certain hour. "you look so good like that!" she exclaimed, snapping a picture of you, "oh my god the sunset! pose like this for me!" she continued, moving around to get your best angles. you chuckled, covering your face from some of the sand she was accidentally kicking around while moving, "let's get a picture together instead, you have enough of my face in that phone, i think" you suggested, extending your arm to invite her next to you. snapping a quick picture together, you admired how cute you both looked sharing the smallest peck on your lips, making yeojin shriek in embarrassment. "don't you think it looks good?" you asked, "i might post this!" you joked, to which yeojin surprisingly replied "you can". you raised both eyebrows at her "huh? this could be very risky for you, i don't want to ruin your career...", getting interrupted by your girlfriend "you have your profile on private anyways, right? here, i'll do it" grabbing her phone which was connected to your instagram account too, posting it and closing the app. "ther-" not even one second later, she got a call. from her manager, which instantly made her heart drop. you watched her expression with a puzzled look on your face, wondering what was happening. "i i accidentally uploaded the picture on the loona account and it got immediately taken down by the company, but 300 people had liked it already and there's probably screenshots around" she cried into your arms as you did your best to comfort her.
♡ : vivi 비비
for the first time after a while she had decided to do a live all by herself in her own vocal room, showing her fans new paintings she had worked on or planned on doing, and she would cutely get closer to the screen to see the comments, before pulling back and giggling, and then answering. "when was the last time i went out with the members?" she read the comment out loud before puffing her cheeks and glancing upwards towards the ceiling for a second, clearly trying to recall the event, then letting out a "oh!" of realization and pulling out her phone, fiddling with it a bit before showing it to the camera she was streaming on. "this is a picture i took last week when i went out to drink with loona 1/3... subunit hangout" she giggled while zooming on the faces of each member present in the picture. she stopped chuckling all of the sudden, her heart stopped and her face visibly turned pale as a notification popped up on the screen, big enough for every viewer to see. from: the love of my life; <are you still up for that one date you promised me~? 💕>. the chat was going so crazy that she thought the whole app would freeze and stop working, or something... she was furiously giggling and looking around for any help, trying her best to cover it up, "that's my,, my friend yeah they.. they are joking, i mean-" but the sheer despair on her face was way too much to hide, and the tears welled up in the corners of her eyes weren't helping her case at all. then suddenly the door to her room opened just enough for only one hand to be seen, inviting her to step outside and she closed her live in a hurry, apologizing profusely in a shaky voice.
♡ : kim lip 킴립
it was a dumb mistake. very dumb. and she could never forgive herself for potentially ruining your life, other than completely destroying your privacy. she was doing a live for her birthday, and it was now well past midnight, reason why she couldn't stop yawning to save her life, apologizing every time she had to cover her mouth to release another one. but she had promised to stay up at least until two in the morning, and considering she had no schedules whatsoever the next day, she wanted to keep her promise with her fans. and despite some of them complaining that she should rest and go to bed, she wasn't letting go of her little personal challenge to stay up a bit more. "don't worry guys, we can uhm... listen to some music, i will stay up" as if she hadn't been playing songs for the last three hours already. then a comment caught her eyes, "what time is it?". it was written in english, meaning it was from an international fan with a different timezone, most likely. after reading it out loud, she pulled out her phone and pointed it directly at the camera, turning it on and showing the bright screen to her viewers. maybe it was her lack of sleep, or the fact that her hand was covering part of the screen, but her reflexes weren't fast enough and her brain didn't process fast enough that her lockscreen was her cupping your face and kissing you right on the lips, your cheeks puffed and all. it was a cute picture indeed. but not in that particular moment, when she suddenly realized and pulled her phone away from the camera and clutched it with both hands, resting it against her chest. her lack of explanation was loud enough for anyone to put two and two together (although the picture of her kissing someone on the lips was a very clear indicator that she had a romantic relation with someone), and at that point she cleared her throat and said awkwardly "it's 2am, time to go bye!", and turned the live off to plop down on her chair and cover her face with her hands, defeated.
♡ : jinsoul 진슬
jinsoul loves you. she loves you so much she is literally unable to take her eyes off you. and despite how romantic it sounds -and it is- it can indeed end up causing you two some troubles, especially considering the type of industry you both worked in, how demanding and scary it can be. that being said, it happened from time to time that your groups had a comeback at the same time, often meeting on the stage of music shows. you'd look so hot with your makeup done, you hair all pretty and your stage outfit so sparkly, you'd steal all the spotlight. at least to her. that one episode in particular was no different. while the winner groups' member were doing their speech, her eyes were constantly pointing in your direction, and she wasn't even being subtle about it, since her members would occasionally pinch her side to get her attention back. once the encore began, and everyone began moving around and greeting one another, she took it as a chance to swiftly make her way to you, ignoring gowon's hand trying to keep her in place. you ever so slightly bowed to each other as to not raise any suspicion by being to friendly or whatever, and she gently grazed her hand against yours, causing your blushing to increase. it's not until you both got off the stage that she decided to be bold about it and steal a little peck from your lips, which caused you to gasp loudly and look around frantically, as other idols who were able to see what went on looked at you weirdly. jinsoul simply chuckled, unknowing of the fact that you were indeed caught on camera, at the very corner of it, but it surely didn't go unnoticed by some viewers...
♡ : choerry 최리
as affectionate as she is, she would still try her best to behave around you, especially in public. she would literally teleport to another dimension away from you if she saw someone holding a phone, afraid of the possibility of being caught even just staring at each other. and it would be extremely painful to her, especially considering how one of her favorite activities of all time was clinging to your arm for as long as possible until you physically have to remove her. this time she really couldn't refrain herself, and the consequences of such a tender moment would probably haunt her for the rest of her career. you would usually spend your time with her and the rest of loona by passing off as part of the staff, so it wasn't weird for you to be "caught" with the girls during some of their schedules. this one time, however, choerry was incredibly worn out after a particular mv filming day that took so many takes to finish, that as soon as she saw you she wrapped her arms so tightly around your neck and her lips immediately found their way on yours. unconsciously behind caught on accident by one of the makeup artists filming an instagram story that got posted without much of second look, or review of it. as soon as the video began circulating, she would become insufferable, blaming herself to no end, even advising you to break up with her because she "ruined your life". tell her it's not her fault ):
♡ : yves 이브
she's so romantic. she has heart eyes whenever she looks at you and she can't even control it. bless her. however, because of this exact reason, the two of you could rarely ever hang out in public, since it'd be hard to believe you were just a friend of hers or a staff member. even when she sang love songs on stage, her voice was so filled with such emotions that not even her fans would believe that "she was thinking of orbits while singing". she is so full of love. it was after one of their stages that she was complimented about her voice, and the host commented how "it seems like you really resonate with the lyircs, huh? are they perhaps dedicated to a special someone or...?", he would inquire. yves would get so defensive it would be obvious she was trying to hide something. "oh no! haha, i mean... you know, friends and family, huh- my members yeah, and overall everyone who has supported us along the way" and she would start rambling to the point where one of her members had to stop her by physically placing a hand behind her back to prompt her to slow down. there would be a lot of speculations about who could be this "special someone" of hers, and it would get so stressful to the point where she felt like she couldn't do a vlive in fear of slipping up on her own words. until it happened. she got a call during a live while she carelessly had her phone on the desk with the screen facing up, and the word "love♥️" shined brightly on the screen. as she grabbed the device so fast it almost slipped out of her hands, her face turned as pale as a ghost and she began clumsly trying to explain herself, "that's haha it was my huuuh cousin-" but none of the viewers were buying it, so she had to quickly turn the live off and called you in between tears, apologizing before you could even ask what was wrong.
♡ : chuu 츄
she would constantly keep you on edge, jumping up on you from behind, hugging you unexpectedly, holding your hand while the possibility of being caught was still there, and if she happened to be needy enough she would even be so bold to kiss you somewhat publicly. your stress levels would be through the roof, to be honest. there wouldn’t be many rumors going around at first, nearly everyone was aware of her bubbly personality so her linking arms with someone other that her members wouldn’t be too big of a shocker. at least not so much that her agency had to make a statement or what not. she even went as far as to introduce you to her fans on live, giggling and telling her viewers about the way you’ve been friends since high school and still keep in touch. which wasn’t exactly wrong, except for the fact that you’ve been more than friends for a few years... it was during one of those lives that it all went downhill. you had been sitting behind the camera, looking at her and silently giggling from time to time at her antics, careful of not being caught by the viewers. but i guess you were looking a bit too adorable to her, reason why she just couldn’t wait and told her fans she had to go to the bathroom real quick, and therefore she had to momentarily mute her mic. except that she didn’t. and the sound of smooching was loud and clear to everyone. of course it didn’t take her too long to figure out what had happened as soon as she sat back down on her chair. immediate response was to shut down the live, get up suddenly to go talk to her manager, while ignoring your yells asking her what was wrong.
♡ : gowon 고원
she was at a radio interview when it all took place, her and the rest of the girls were each asked to describe their ideal date, and haseul suggested that gowon replied first. giggling at the request, she excitedly adjusted herself on her seat before leaning slightly closer towards the mic and began replying, explaining how bad she wanted to have a picnic in a field of pretty flowers, but the weather hadn't been on its best behavior to do so. the whole time her mind was wandering to you, thinking about how much you had begged her to go on a picnic, as you liked being outdoors so much. almost forgetting where she was, until the radio host asked her "ah so you like flowers?" to which she mindlessly replied with "ah my partner really loves th-" and as her breath suddenly cut short and her heart began pounding so hard, she started frantically looking at her members for help and comfort. they were trying to give her reassuring glances, sharing looks with the radio host too, who immediately caught on to what was happening and broadcasted the next song. gowon soon enough took off her headphones and stood up to call you, not even caring that the rest of loona was shouting her name. she profusely apologized to you on the phone, loudly crying into the speaker.
♡ : olivia hye 올리비아혜
she could not, for the life of her, explain how it all happened. she was careful, she has always been careful. protecting you was what had always mattered to her the most, as long as your identity and your own career was preserved, it wasn’t important what happened to her. not a single glance in your direction during music shows or music awards, not even a single reaction to your performance. it was fine, she would shower you with compliments and feedback about your stage once the night was over, maybe backstage, maybe on your way back, through messages, or phone calls. sure it was hard, you craved affection and she also felt guilty for having to ignore you more often that not, but what could she do... her job required this sort of behavior. it all went downhill during a vlive with the rest of the yyxy members, during which one of the fans asked if they had any other kpop idol they looked up to and why. she wasn't sure if she should've said it, but regarless, she said your name. and lowkey went on a tangent about how good you were at your job and how she liked the way you danced and performed. her own members started playfully teasing her, "ooh it looks like hyeju has a crush" and gently elbowing her. hyeju just chuckled in embarassment and before she coule deny it a flood of comments appeared before her eyes. <what? she's dating y/n?>, <omg haha this is crazy>, <i dont think they'd make a good couple actually>, <no way y/n managed to pull hyeju hahaha>. rather than being anxious about her relationship being exposed, she was getting more and more pissed by the second at the comments saying she was too good for you, and the ones badmouthing you. she stood up slamming her hands on the table, startling her members. "the one that's too good is y/n, you have no right to speak about them, so get their name out of your mouth. it's none of your business if we're dating or not!" and stormed out of the room, not wasting a second to call you, more angry than upset.
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Bump in the Road
Idol: Loona
marshmallow: Hi! I really love your works and ur one of my favorite writers in this app🥺 I'm not sure if request are open or not. But can I request loona 13th member maknae having a special stage performance (with other idols) for MAMA. And she's so nervous and not satisfied with her dance. And she keeps messing up due to how nervous she is. And she struggles to manage herself due to their heavy schedules that would end late at night, her homeworks and her dance practice with the choreographer making her overworked and eventually passing out in the practice room. If it's too hard for you. It's okay ig🥺♥️ It's been on my mind 24/7 
A/n: i was honestly not sure which song to pick at first but this seemed fitting. also i apologize for the delay and i hope you like it!
Word count: 4.8k
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Being an idol didn’t mean you stopped feeling starstruck whenever you were in the presence of other idols. As a matter of fact, it’s because you’re an idol that gets the chance of meeting others in real life that makes you even more nervous when you step into the practice room your manager directed you to.
Your members couldn’t come with you due to their own schedules, but they all wished you well for your preparation in your special stage for MAMA. You were a nervous wreck being around Itzy’s very own Choi Jisu and then (G)I-dle’s Nicha Yontararak due to them being your seniors, but you were even more nervous when you were fully introduced, Weeekly’s Park Soeun coming a little later than she intended and darn was her energy overwhelming you.
They were all very friendly, but given the fact that you were the youngest in this little unit made you squirm, sitting a little farther away before Jisu noticed.
“Y/n, come on, we’re not going to bite you.” She giggled while waving you over, noting the awkward air around you. “Lia is right, there’s no need to be so shy.” Nicha agreed with a kind smile. “If you want, we can just sit and talk before actually discussing the distribution and choreography.” You shift a little closer to Soeun as she happily beams at you.
“I promised the unnies that I would take care of you, so don’t worry.” Soeun tells you, throwing her arm around your shoulders once you were near enough and pulling you into a warm hug. “Sorry, I’m just… a little nervous.” You tell them and Jisu coos before poking your cheek. "Hey, we're all friends here. There's no need for that." She says in an attempt to cheer you up, but it does little in easing your concerns.
There were a whole lot of expectations on your shoulders due to this performance, but aside from that, you had upcoming tests to think about, too. Thinking about the amount of homework and studying you had piling up, you weren't sure if you would be able to do a good job with this.
But you're able to put those on pause as you begin to practice with the other three idols. The steps weren't new, you already recall most of the parts since you've watched Blackpink's performance a handful of times. But that didn't mean it was always easy.
"Welcome home! How was practice today?" Chaewon was the first to greet you with a smile as soon as you trudged into the dorms, exhausted after a long day. "It was fine, we're almost done." You reply as you take off your shoes and change into your house slippers.
"You look tired." Jinsol notes with a pout when she sees your posture. Though she has bad posture herself, she knows that you were always making sure to fix your own. This time though, she sees the way your shoulders are hunched, your bag strapped to only one, making it droop lower than the other.
With a weak smile, you wave off her concern as you head for your room. "I'm okay, just going to clean up and then do some last minute studying." You inform them, making the older woman's pout deepen whilst Chaewon only frowned. "Be sure to get some sleep." She tells you and you can't help but giggle a little. "Says the one who stays up until four in the morning."
"Hey!"
With one quick goodnight, you enter your room and change into more comfortable clothing before hopping into bed. With your desk lamp turned on, you cast your eyes around the room and smile a little to yourself when you see your roommates all sleeping peacefully in their beds. With that in mind, you keep any possible sound to a minimum as you start on your homeworks.
Since some of them aren't due for a while, you prioritized the ones that had a closer due date. Though you do get stuck on a few of them, especially with your essays since you weren't too sure about your grammar.
You don't even notice the rustling of the sheets from across your bed or the figure peeking out. You only know that someone's awake once your bed dips and a warm body presses against your side, nuzzling your shoulder.
"What are you still doing up?" You hear the sleepy voice ask, her eyes still shut as she laid her head against your shoulder. "I'm just finishing some homework, unnie." You say quietly, gently petting her hair as you lean into her.
Though her warmth was tempting, you quickly turned your eyes back on your papers while she pulled you impossibly closer. "It's late and you had practice the whole day." She mumbles into your shoulder and you hum in agreement before answering. "I'm almost done with this. I'll finish the others tomorrow." She makes a noise of content, though doesn't move to leave your bed.
While you hurriedly finish off your homework and put your materials away, you take a peek at the girl beside you before giggling and then turning your lamp off. She wakes a little at the movement but when she sees that you're getting ready for bed, she only smiles before snuggling closer to you. There's a mumbled goodnight from her and you close your eyes while allowing her to wrap herself around you.
"Goodnight, Yerim unnie."
..
"Unnie, I have to get going." You complain when Haseul continues to fuss over you, her brows pinched together as she made sure you had everything. "I just want to be sure that you have everything." The leader explained while checking over your homework.
When she deems it okay, she finally hands them back before patting your head as Kahei hands you a lunchbox. "Good luck today and don't push yourself too hard, alright?" You give them a tiny little salute before turning to leave the kitchen, only to collide into another person.
"You're leaving already?" You're held by the shoulders to not lose your balance by the group's resident rabbit. Heejin looks at you with a smile and you mirror it with a nod. "I don't want to be late for school, unnie." You answer and she purses her lips a little before nodding her head in understanding. "You have to head straight to practice after, right?"
When you nod one more time, she sighs before taking your hand and bringing you back to your shared room. "Uh, unnie?" You call out and she only opens up the box she has beside her bed before slipping a few packs of bread inside your bag.
"I'll try to come and visit you later to make sure you eat. Lip unnie said that you shouldn't be skipping meals so I'm making sure you have something to eat in between breaks." The first girl explained and you can't help but smile at your members' thoughtfulness. "Thank you, unnie."
Heejin lets you go with a big hug and the rest of your members present at the dorm all bid you farewell when you exit the dorms.
You're able to keep the smile on your face for a good portion of the day. But halfway through your classes, you start to feel your exhaustion taking its toll on your body when you can barely keep your eyes open.
Every class is like a battle of pure will when your pen starts to slow down in its note taking and you have to force your eyes to stay open. Though when the bell rings to indicate that your class is over, you jump a little, startled awake and forcing you to look up at the board.
People were already exiting the room, and when you look at the time, you move out of your seat to gather your things before heading out. Given you didn't have that many friends at school since Yeojin graduated.
It wasn't as though she were your only friend, but since the incident at your last school, you weren't particularly quick to be friends with others. Most of the friends you made were a year older and have left, but you did have at least three people you considered friends in your class.
You were just far too busy to get to talk to them at the moment with your tight schedules.
"Y/n!"
A squeak comes from you when someone calls your name, the sound of a car honking accompanies it. Looking behind you, you see Hyunjin waving happily at you with Jiwoo next to her. They're both grinning and waving you over.
"What are you guys doing here?" You ask curiously and Hyunjin opens the door for you to hop in. "We came to pick you up. Let's go, you don't want to be late." Hyunjin says when she takes your bag as Jiwoo reaches over to hug you, overly excited as she gives you a little shake.
Hyunjin makes a face, given she's stuck in the middle before pulling you both apart. "I'm right here!" She complained and you beam before pressing a kiss to her cheek. The cat gives you a push, but you can see the way she tries to fight off her smile.
"You guys didn't have to come all the way here." You tell them and Hyunjin ruffles your hair whilst Jiwoo pouts. "But we wanted to! You've been very busy and we wanted to see how you were." The older woman explained before pointing at your manager. "Oppa said we could drop you off but we can't stay too long."
Hyunjin pats her arm in a comforting manner while the man in the front chuckled. "I told you already, you have your own schedule today." He reminds and Jiwoo groans in protest. "But my maknae!"
"Our." Hyunjin promptly corrects, making laughter bubble from your throat. "It's not fair though! Ten minutes isn't going to hurt anyone!" Jiwoo went on and your manager could only sigh while shaking his head. "You know the rules, Chuu."
But said woman only huffs in disdain before turning to you. "Can't you make him?" She pleads and you coo a little at her expression before reluctantly denying her request. "Unnie, you're gonna see the performance eventually."
"Plus, maknae is going to be home later so it's not like you won't see her again." Hyunjin adds, though she admittedly did want to spend a little more time with you. "But she always comes home when I'm sleeping. Choerry only woke up that one time and got to cuddle."
You smile softly at the older girl before taking her hand as you rest your head on Hyunjin's shoulder. "I'll go to your bed tonight. How does that sound?"
By the way her whole face lit up, she was more than okay with that offer.
..
"Are you alright, Y/n?" You look behind you when Nicha comes walking over, a worried look on her features after she's noticed how you were constantly reviewing your practice. "Yeah, I was just checking to see if I could improve anything, unnie." You explain with a puff of air. "I feel like I need to practice a little more."
She blinks at your words before crouching down to place a gentle hand on your shoulder. "Take a deep breath for me." She suddenly instructed and you're a little confused as to why, but seeing the look on her face had you obeying, sucking in a deep breath and then slowly letting it out.
She adds a squeeze to your shoulder before finally sitting in front of you. "We still have some time to practice, but don't overwork yourself." She states softly. "Don't be so hard on yourself, okay?"
Her words stick to you throughout the entirety of practice. Even though you were trying to keep a clear mind, you still couldn't help but think about how you had to be perfect with the choreography. The small suggestion from the choreographer had you assuming that you weren't doing as well as you had hoped and the other three idols with you looked a little concerned when they noticed your silence.
"Yah, Y/n! Are you okay?" Soeun asked when she walked closer to you, spotting the frown that's beginning to form on your face. "I'm sorry, I was just thinking a little. I suddenly remembered my homework." You cringe at how lame that sounded, but she looked more than understanding. "I forgot that you're still in school."
Taking a quick look around, the older girl turned back to you with a kind smile. "Mind if I have a look at it?" She stretches her hand out to you and you quickly panic a little at her offer. "Oh! You don't have to, unnie. It's okay!"
But she waves your worries away. "Come on. We're a team, that means we help each other." As reluctant as you were, her persuasion manages to get you to grab your bag and show her the remainder of your homework. So while the four of you were on break, Soeun opted to sit by and help you as you worked.
"What's all this?" Jisu asks when she and Nicha finally decide to check on the two of you. Soeun points to you before grinning. "I'm helping Y/n with their homework."
You're too busy thinking over what you're doing to even notice the two older women. It's only when Jisu sits beside you to look over your shoulder did you snap out of concentration.
"Don't mind me. Keep going." She urges you to continue with your work before you turn back to your paper, sighing softly as your brows pinched together. "I'm stuck." You mumble quietly, a pout visible on your features and she can't help cooing at your expression before pinching your cheek. "What's the problem?"
You bring up the essay that's barely put together and Jisu carefully takes it from your hands. You watch as she reads what you've done so far and Nicha sits beside her to check too. "This is good, maybe try avoiding writing too much?" She suggests while pointing to one part. "You can be concise without dragging on details." Nicha agrees and you nod your head, noting their suggestions as you start to write again.
The three of them help you figure out the rest of your essay before you collectively remember that you had to go back to practice. You remind them of the time and it's not long before everyone is back into positions and trying again.
That's how the next few days follow. You manage to do bits of studying in between your practices, but eventually you find yourself growing more and more restless. One time during your breaks, you had to take a look around before frowning when you saw how the other three were able to flawlessly go through the choreography whilst you still stumbled every few times because of how your mind would constantly flit back to your homework.
You begin to feel bad whenever you had to ask the others for help, and you felt a little worse when you had slipped next to Jiwoo that one night as promised and had her cling to you the rest of the night.
You knew they were worried about you, too. It was clear whenever you came home much later than you should be. Sooyoung had to carry you to bed once when you bumped into her in the hallway to your room. She saw just how tired you looked, and with how your body sank into her embrace when she wrapped her arms around you, there was no way she would let you stay up later to study some more.
"Y/n doesn't look too good." Hyeju muttered as she brought her mug to her lips. "They were dead asleep when I checked on them." She added softly and Yerim sighed loudly while sinking into the couch. "She needs to sleep some more." She muttered while glancing at your shared room. "I can't wait for her to graduate. That would be a big weight off her shoulders."
"Wait, doesn't Y/n have school today?" Yeojin asked, confusion clear on her face when she checked the date and Hyeju gestured towards Jungeun and Kahei as they busied themselves in the kitchen. "The unnies said that one day wouldn't hurt." Hyeju answers quietly while staring down at her drink, quietly contemplating on what to do to possibly help you.
Yeojin takes that time to get up and check on what the older members are doing. However, as soon as she reaches your door, it bursts open and you stumble right into her in a hurry.
The two of you end up sprawled on the floor before you're scrambling to your feet, pulling the other up with you as apologies left your mouth in a frenzy. Yeojin had to place both her hands on your shoulders and looked you in the eyes, the best her height could let her.
"Y/n, inhale." You blink but quickly do as she says, inhaling deeply. "Now exhale." Again, you follow her instructions and slowly breathe out, earning a smile from the second maknae. "Good. Now why do you look so panicked?" She inquires and the worry is back as soon as she does. "I'm late for school."
When the words finally leave your lips, Yeojin lets out another breath before taking your hand and then pulling you to join them on the couch, never mind what she was planning to do in the first place.
"You're not going to school today." Hyeju informs you once you're seated and you blink a couple times, making your present roommate giggle. "We can't have you skipping practice but the unnies said you could skip one day of school so you could rest a little." They see that you're about to protest, so Hyeju quickly shuts you down before you can try. "We already asked our managers and they said you get a free pass today."
"... But my homeworks?"
"Already taken cared of." Haseul enters the room with Jungeun before petting your head. "Lip and I went to drop your homework off." She answers before placing down her purse. "We've also talked to some of your teachers and explained the situation so you don't have to worry too much." Jungeun adds when she sits next to you and stretches her legs.
Even with your older members' assurances, you still felt a little queasy with not being able to do these things yourself. You appreciated the help, of course, but you just couldn't seem to sit still.
And Yeojin was quick to notice.
"Y/n, it's just one day. You'll be headed for practice in a couple of hours, so don't think too much about it." She tries to reason and you glance at her before taking in another deep breath just as Jungeun places a hand on your knee, warm and comforting.
For the remaining hours, you sit with your members, doing your best to partake in conversation. Jinsol manages to calm you in the process, pulling you into her arms and cuddling you on the couch while Heejin and Chaewon talk about the brownies the latter had prepared a few days prior. You dozed off somewhere in between the conversation and Jinsol was more than happy to let you nap before you had to leave again.
"Y/n! How are you?" Jisu asks cheerfully when she sees you enter the room and Nicha gives you a quick hug. "I've been alright." It wasn't entirely true given your exhaustion, but they didn't need to be bothered by that. Your performance wasn’t too far away so you didn’t need any more distractions.
Soeun happily bounds over to you, nearly tackling you in a hug when she’s within arms reach. “I can’t believe it’s almost time! I’m going to miss hanging out with you!” She whines and you smile a little while patting her back. “We can still see each other after. Just text me and we’ll set a date.” You promise, Nicha nodding in agreement. “Yeah, Y/n is right. We can still hang out when we’re free.” She agrees while ruffling your hair and Jisu's face brightens before she's searching for her phone and holding it up.
"Let's take a picture!"
Neither you nor Soeun could decline as the two older girls each gave you a hug before taking the picture with the two of you giggling. Jisu plans to take another one once the performance is over, but the picture she managed to take now was perfect on its own.
Right after that, you all fall into routine and start practicing. Polishing was important and you kept a critical eye on your movements to make sure that you were doing everything right. Since you felt like you'd been slacking off, you made sure that you put extra effort into this practice since you wouldn't be meeting on the weekend. You had your other schedules to attend to and you needed to practice for Loona's performance too.
You're nearing the end of the performance, but right as you hear your part before the beat changes, you're hit with a wave of nausea. What caused it, you're not too sure but you're off your feet in seconds.
You had to shut your eyes and focus on your breathing. Your ears were ringing and the girls' voices were all muffled. You could only feel as if your head was placed on someone's lap and trying to ground you back, but due to your worn out state, you find it hard to get your eyes to open again.
By the time you come to, you were surprised to see your dimly lit bedroom. Slowly sitting up, you examine your surroundings before confirming that you were at the dorms.
"Hey, you." A soft voice gathered your attention and you found Sooyoung standing at your door, concern plastered all over her features. "How are you feeling?" She asks while stepping inside, a tray with food and water on it that she places on your bedside table.
She takes a seat next to you once her hands are free and your brows pinch together. "My head hurts a little, but… how did I get home?" You ask quietly, earning a sigh from the older girl before she's ushering you to lean back. "Chuu got a call from Lia. She said you passed out so Vivi unnie and Choerry went to pick you up since they were on their way back." She explains and you instantly grow quiet when you remember that you were with other people.
"We told you to take care of yourself, Y/n. What happened?" She's not mad. Even though she wants to scold you, her expression screams anything but anger. She's genuinely worried about your wellbeing and she wants to make sure that you're okay.
And that only made you feel worse because you know that the rest of your members felt the same.
"I…" Sucking in a deep breath, you pull your knees to your chest. "I was nervous…" You finally say aloud. "A lot was happening at school and I didn't want to fall back while making sure I did well with the performance too." You weren't the best when it came to time management, but the added pressure only made things worse for you.
Sooyoung could see the stress piling up and she could finally understand what you were going through. So with a sigh, she brushed your hair from your face before cupping your cheeks. "You need to take breaks in between. I know that you want to be perfect, but the truth is there's only so much we can do as people." She says firmly, ensuring that you're listening to everything she's saying. "You've been doing your best and that's what matters. You have people around you who are supporting you, so let yourself lean on us too."
Withdrawing her hands, Sooyoung gives you a small smile when she stands up. "Be more careful with yourself, alright?" When you give her a small nod, Sooyoung leans down to press a gentle kiss to your forehead. "Sleep tight, kiddo."
While it is still a bit of a struggle to get rid of your habit of pushing yourself to the limit, your members make sure to watch you and help you relax to the best of their abilities. Your roommates make sure to get you in bed on time while Yeojin and Heejin opt to help you with studying to ensure that you understood the things you had troubles understanding before.
They make sure to keep a pace that they're sure you could follow and Jinsol is soon joining in, more than happy to be a helping hand. Plus, she would shower you with praise whenever you managed to grasp the concept they were teaching well.
Kahei makes sure you're eating properly. While she knows that it wasn't your intention, the girls figured out that you were forgetting to eat your meals on time. When it's time for lunch, she either calls you to join her and some of the other girls or brings the food to you if you're too busy with homework.
She knows that the girls helping you study will make sure you eat.
Everything runs smoothly from there, and without even realizing, it was finally the day of your performance.
"Y/n!"
Your body was thrown back a bit by the sudden force of someone colliding into you. And when you craned your head to check, you couldn't help but smile when you recognize Soeun's face. "How are you feeling?" She asks when she pulls away and you see Nicha and Jisu over her shoulder, both approaching you with smiles on their faces.
"I've been better. The unnies made sure I rested over the weekend." You tell them and Nicha beams before pinching your cheeks. "You better have. You made us worried during practice." She scolds lightly and you smile apologetically. "I know, and I'm really sorry for scaring you guys." You apologize before Jisu squeezed your hand.
"Well, seeing that you're all good now… ready to take the stage?" She asks carefully and you grin at all three of them. "Let's show them what we're made of."
The sound of fans cheering and fellow artists clapping as the platform rose and the spotlight found your figures. You inhaled to calm your nerves before raising your head, smiling when you spotted your members among the sea of people, and they all grinned back with a few waving happily.
As the familiar sound of Forever Young by Blackpink began to play, the screaming only grew louder throughout your performance as you all executed each step right. Weaving through each formation while you sang to your heart's content, the four of you enjoyed the stage while basking in the attention everyone gave you.
Glancing at each other, you threw smirks at the crowd. "Your girls are the revolution!"
If you didn't think the crowd could get any louder, that moment definitely proved you wrong as the roar of the crowd reached your ears. You could see a handful of other artists enjoying the performance too and you were more than relieved up until you reached the last pose with Soeun throwing an arm around your shoulders and Jisu wrapping her own around your waist.
While you did follow a majority of the original choreography, the four of you decided to have your own fun with the ending, and it looked like the perfect fit with how hyped up everyone had gotten with your performance.
Once backstage, the four of you are in another group hug, congratulating each other on a job well done. "Let's take a picture before we have to go!" Jisu exclaimed, excitedly pulling at Soeun's arm while Nicha hooked her arm with yours as you smiled at the camera, feeling much lighter now that the performance was over.
While you were nervous at first, the process did help you gain some new friends. But even when you were meeting them outside your schedules and getting over the nervousness of being an idol, you know that you always had people you could count on.
At the end of the day, your members would always be there to cheer you on and support you no matter how hard things might appear.
"Good job, kiddo! We knew you could do it!" Jungeun clapped your back before giving you a hug right before Jiwoo barreled into you and squeezed tightly. "You were so cool! I didn't know you could rap like that!"
"Good job, Y/n. We're really proud of you." Haseul beamed while pinching your cheek and Yeojin bounced happily while shaking your arm. "And to make it better, you're finally graduating next month!"
Yeah, you were more than content with yourself this time.
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c4llezz · 2 years
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HATE MYSELF
Requested: Yes. Hi there! Would it be okay to ask for a Jinsoul x idol!reader imagine; they've broken up(courtesy of Jinsoul lkl), but years later they see each other again(either a song collaboration or being on a show together) and Jinsoul realizes that she still likes, dare to say even loves them. But wouldn't it be selfish of her to ask for them back when she's the one who broke them up in the first place? Whether it is a sad ending or happy one is up to you, but there's the idea
JINSOUL X IDOL!READER
TW: Not sure if there's one
Genre: Angst, mini fluff at the end
Word count: 1.9K
(Kind of) Inspired by Tate McRae's song hate myself
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Expect mistakes, happy reading!
Jinsoul knew your relationship wouldn’t last. You were both trainees and if any of you (or both) debuted, it was going to come to an end one way or another. You were in different companies though, she didn’t know if it was better or not. You didn’t have much time to spend with each other, but no one was going to know about you two and it was easier to hide your relationship from your companies.
Everything was alright, yes you had your fights here and there but it was good. Then one day the company told her she was going to make her debut, the first person she told was you and you couldn’t be happier. You invite her for a dinner celebration at your house, she accepted but left you there waiting. Jinsoul apologized telling you her boss had made her stay to talk about what she had to do, you told her not to worry and that you understood.
When she made her first appearance in the “Every day I need you” MV you send her tons of messages congratulating her, even when you couldn’t use your phone. Then it was her birthday and you tried to plan something for her, but both of you were busy. And when Singing in the Rain came out you send Jinsoul her birthday present, it was a blue beanie with her name carved on it and a small raining cloud.
She was overwhelmed with her work and when you spent time together she was always too tired to do something. You didn’t mind and let her sleep in your bed sometimes, or just listened to what she had to say about her day. You weren’t perfect, no one really is, but Jinsoul thought you were the closest definition; caring, kind, hard-working, smart and to top it all you made her happy.
She was getting too attached to you and she was scared. Jinsoul started to shut you out, whenever you asked her if she was alright she would answer “Yeah, just thinking” or “Yeah, just tired” which weren’t lies, but it was an excuse to not talk with you. She could see how you started to get tired of it, so she started ignoring you telling you she was busy or had plans with her members. She was hurting you and she knew it, maybe you deserved someone better. You had enough and tried to talk to her one night, but she ruined everything. She remembers it clearly.
“Look, I understand. You are busy, you have a contract and we can’t go out whenever we want because it’ll ruin everything.” You said, “But if you’d like to keep this going you have to put some effort here, a relationship is based on two people, not just one.”
“I’m trying my best, ok?” She started a little bit aggressive “I don’t have time with all the things I have to do!”
“I know!” You sighed trying to calm down not wanting to start an argument “I know. I just think we need to communicate more, especially you.”
Jinsoul took that comment really bad “Me? I think I communicate really good” you were about to clarify what you had meant but she didn’t let you “You know what, I think is better if we just break things off” The both of you were shocked by the words that came out of her mouth.
“W- What?”
“If you think we aren’t working we should break up” she was angry. Angry with her company for not letting her rest. Angry with the industry for all the things she had to hide or change. Angry with you for being so understanding, if she was in your shoes she’d already ended things the moment you told her you were debuting. And especially, she was angry with herself, for not being good enough for anyone around her, for being selfish and hurting you.
You shook your head “No, no. That’s not what said”
“Well, that’s what I’m saying” she wasn’t thinking at the time, she let the anger take over her.
You waited for her to say something, tell you it was some sick joke, that she didn’t mean it. When it didn’t come you nodded “Ok then, if that’s what you want” You started to walk to the door, before you opened it you turn to her for the last time “Good luck” you send her a sad smile and then walk out of the place she was living at the moment. Jinsoul didn’t have time to process what had happened with you because just a few months later her group was finally complete and debuting.
She never heard from you again until your company announced your solo debut. She felt proud, you had worked so hard for it and now you had the opportunity to live your dreams. Then all the memories of you supporting her when she told you about her debut came to her and the happiness she felt was replaced by regret and guilt.
Every time you had a comeback, the same feeling returned with thoughts of you hating her. She couldn’t blame you if you did, she broke your heart, she pushed you away. But you had a beautiful soul and you’ll never hate anyone, no matter how bad they treated you, you held no grudges against them. She had to hate herself for you.
Jinsoul felt like her heart was going to come out of her chest. Her company told her she was doing an OST for some K-drama with another artist, that artist being you. She thought she had already gotten over you, but when she saw you again she was proven wrong.
Yes, she had seen you before through her phone, but seeing you in person, talking with who she hoped was your manager, took her breath away. You had matured since the last time she saw you, your features looked sharper and your hair was dyed with a silverish tone. You looked beautiful.
She was so caught up in her mind that she didn’t see her manager walking to her with you by their side. “Jinsoul, this is Y/N. You will work together on the OST.”
You extended your hand for her to shake “Nice to meet you” you said as if you were strangers meeting for the first time, had you forgotten about her? She looked up into your eyes and noticed you moving your gaze to your hand, signaling for her to shake it.
With red ears, she did “Sorry, nice to meet you too.” Then someone from the crew started explaining what you were supposed to do. She didn’t pay any attention, just sneaking glances at you, hoping you would look her way. You didn’t, too focused on what they were telling you.
When the small meeting ended your manager started talking to you, Jinsoul watched as you nodded your head answering something back. Then you turned to look at her and she turned her head faster than the light, closing her eyes praying you hadn’t caught her staring at you. No more than 30 seconds later you were by her side.
“Hi,” you said “So, my-”
“Hi” she interrupted after getting out of her shocked state from seeing you sitting beside her “Sorry, sorry. You were saying something and I interrupted. Wh- What were you saying?” She could feel her face starting to burn.
You weren’t annoyed by her actions and even chuckled at her behavior “Just that my manager is talking to yours to schedule our meetings. I hope you pay attention to this since you were quite distracted before” you say teasingly, then proceed to add a quick “No offense” thinking you sounded rude.
Her eyes widened. If you knew she was distracted then you knew she was looking at you all the time. Now her face was on fire, her ears, cheeks, and nose were bright red “Sorry, I’ll be focusing all the time. I swear.”
“You don’t have to do that. It’s ok” When you smiled at her she felt as if she was going to melt. Gosh, how had she missed that smile. No, she hasn’t, she hasn’t missed that beautiful bright smile, at all. You heard your manager call your name “I have to go. Nice seeing you again.”
“Yeah”
She couldn’t stop thinking about you and all the time you had been spending together didn’t help. Even if you physically changed, you were still the same gentle person she had met. You were so nice to her, never bringing up the past, something she was grateful for. You were also nice to all the staff helping you on the project, (no that she wasn’t) buying them coffee when it was too early in the morning or food when it was late in the afternoon.
All the feelings she had buried down were climbing up again, like a zombie trying to get out of their tomb. The zombie being her feelings and the tomb being her heart. She wanted you back, but it was selfish for her to think about it when she broke up with you. But then again, you seemed to still like her too.
That made her think about everything again. You were both idols, if people found out about your relationship they were going to ruin it. You wouldn’t have privacy and both of you would get hate comments regarding the topic. She wasn’t going to put you through that. So she distanced herself again, only talking to you about the song and if you tried to ask about any other topic she would give a short answer and then change the topic to the song again.
But this time you weren’t as calm as the last time she did it. “Stop,” you said angrily “Stop doing that.”
“Doing what?” she asked, dumbfounded by your sudden outburst.
“Pushing me away! I’m getting tired of your behavior, Jinsoul. Can’t you just talk to me like a mature person? If you don’t want to be here you can leave. If you don’t want to be friends again I’m not going to force you, but stop giving me mixed signals.”
She shook her head “Is not that”
“Then what is it?” You rolled your eyes when she didn’t answer and stood up ready to walk out of the room, but she grabbed your wrist.
“I’m scared. I’ve always been.” she started “I was getting too attached and I knew I was going to get hurt if something happened, so instead I hurt you and I’m really sorry for that.” She sighed “I don’t understand why don’t you hate me, I do. I hate myself for everything I did to you, and I’m selfish and arrogant and a coward. I don’t want you to get close because I’m scared of what could happen if I told you I still love you.”
Your eyes widened at her words “You… love me?”
“See, I knew I shouldn't have said anything” she turned to look away.
“Hey” you gently grabbed her chin for her to look at you “I still have feelings for you too, but I don’t want this to be like it was before. Is going to take time, but we can work on it, together. Communication is the key and if you want this to work you have to do your part, okay?”
She nodded “Can I kiss you?”
You snorted and shook your head “Small steps”
She gave you a smile “Right, sorry.”
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aww-alice · 1 year
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LOONA x fem!Reader - Princess of the Sun
A poem in which the sun princess Y/N has to make a decision which moon princess to marry. <3
warning: suggestive
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The princess of the sun opens her eyes
She shines upon the world, she brings the sunrise
The darkness of the night makes way for her light
As she is ecstatic for the events of tonight
A ceremony long awaited
A galaxy of days and nights will be created
As the Sun and the Moon entangle together
And golden rings signify their “forever”
Although first , she has to choose
With which princess the ceremony ensues
For the moon’s princess isn’t just one,
They’re twelve, and they all love the sun.
.
Is she going to choose princess HeeJin?
The one who’s hand is always reaching
Bringing Y/N’s fingers to her lips
And kissing them softly, causing an eclipse .
.
And if not, will it be princess HyunJin?
With whom she truly loves indulging
In countless, abundant pleasures
The one who makes her feel so treasured ?
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She could go for princess HaSeul,
The one who takes her on adventures in the castle
And any time that princess Y/N would cry,
She would fill up with stars the entire night sky .
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Ecstatic for her choice is also princess Vivi,
With whom she entrusts herself so freely,
Since there’s never any hint of doubt
Cause that’s what true love is all about .
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At that moment, in her mind appears princess Yeojin,
And all the countless moments they spent watching
Over the whole endless Universe, and yet
It’s only princess Y/N that she wanted to get .
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For princess Kim Lip, she feels a great adoration
As she introduces her to so many sensations ,
Especially in the crystal moonlit abyss
As their lips lock into an eternal kiss .
.
And then, there is princess Jinsoul,
The one that adores to take control .
Of Y/N’s pretty body, leaving moonlight on her skin
Always and forever lighting a fire within .
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In her heart sparkles princess Choerry,
Glorious, celestial, like a fairy .
Her lips taste like candy, her fingers taste like cherries,
Princess Y/N is her sunshine and the one she wants to marry.
.
Princess Yves’ adoring eyes appear in her mind
And the burning desire when their hands entwine .
As graceful as Yves is as she is kind,
She loves to tell princess Y/N “You’re mine.”
.
She touches her lips as she thinks of princess Chuu,
There aren’t many things as pretty as those two .
Lips softly pressing against each other, oh yes, it is true,
That to make princess Y/N happy, there’s nothing Chuu wouldn’t do.
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Princess Gowon, her moonlight shining,
On the sun’s princess, their destinies aligning .
All the things she whispers in Y/N’s ear
Makes sparkles all around them appear .
.
And finally, princess Olivia, the one
Who always melts the heart of the princess of the sun .
The one with which she’s spent the most nights together,
The princess that swore she’d adore her forever .
.
And finally, she’s made the decision.
It is time to uphold the tradition.
“Are you ready, princess Y/N?” asked the Cosmos, “With your decision as to who you’ll marry?”
“Yes, dear Cosmos,” Y/N smiled gracefully.
“I am ready.” 💖☀️
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gaypeople4itzy · 1 year
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Rest bubble
with Loona’s Jinsoul
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wordcount : about 0,7k
warnings : None :o pure fluffy fluff !!
Your eyes opened softly as you began recognizing where you were. Finals were coming next week and you had spent the last few days craming your brain with loads of information it struggled to remember. Absolutely stressed out, you had been barely talking to your desr girlfriend, who was growing worried of you. Being the understanding person she is, she waited for a little while before deciding you needed an official break
At your door yesterday evening, she had somehow managed to convince your parents to let you sleep over at her place, them too thought you needed to rest, at least for a night. So you left the house with barely anything, as Jinsoul happily carried your stuff she had packed previously, while you were too focused on studying to notice her roaming around the room
After walking and talking for a while, she suddenly stopped. Putting your stuff carefully on the ground, she turned to you and took you in her arms. Patting your back gently, she spoke
“I’ve been so worried about you, you know that my love ? I’ve missed you a lot”
You let out a small laugh, it was only a few days after all. You leaned in to kiss her, not before apologizing to her of course, letting her know that your mind had been wandering about her that wholeeeee time !!
Happily taking one of your hands in hers, she took your stuff with the other, and continued moving towards her apartment. Her parents had been out on vacation for about a week, so you two would have the place to yourselves that night !
Bringing you inside, she offered you dinner as you thanked her a thousand times, grateful to get to spend time off with her
It wasn’t very late when you began feeling tired, your eyes closing by themselves when you felt her reassuring arms around you. You were put to sleep in no time
Now you were laying down, the bed empty. You were wondering where Jinsoul had gone, though you felt like you needed to rest more. You barely had energy left as you had not has a proper night of sleep since the weekend
You fell asleep once more
Woken up by the smell of donuts, you were met with a platter of sweets and the beautiful face of your girlfriend, a wide smile all over her face. Still barely awake, you leaned in to kiss her, feeling at ease whenever her lips were on yours
Curious about how long you had slept, you asked her what time it was. You were a little surprise to realize it was already the afternoon, you had needed this nap more than anything
In an attempt to get out of the bed, you shifted to your side and put your feet on the ground. Though quickly enough, you were stopped by Jinsoul, insisting on having you spend a day in bed. There was no time to work, just time to take care of yourself today. And how were you supposed to say no to such an offer ?
Jumping back in bed, you let her take you in her embrace while she peppered kisses all over you. Feeling just so warm despite the cold outside, you decided to let yourself relax for a bit. Time went by fast as she fed you the breakfast she had prepared and played games with you, letting you win just to see your pretty smile (her words). The evening came by fast and you found yourself asking Jinsoul if you could stay just one more night, to which she responded
“If it were up to me, you would never be leaving this place again.. Of course you can stay my love !”
Resting in her arms as she ordered your favourite food and put on a movie you liked, tonight sounded like much more fun than technical studies
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justalonelybitch · 2 years
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Deceptive Facade
Gowon x F!Reader
Genre: Angst
Warnings: Mentions of cheating, ed, depression, anxiety, cyber bullying.
Word Count: 7.5k
Buy me a coffee
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You lay bored on the couch, legs draped lazily over Chaewon’s as you watched her play a video game with Hyejoo. “Are you sure you don’t want to play?” Your girlfriend asked kindly, patting your leg to capture your attention. Your eyes flickered to the TV in consideration, “no thanks, I’ll just wait until you're done.” Humming at your words, the younger girl was quick to focus her gaze back on the screen, a small pout on your lips at the lack of attention received.
Huffing, you unlocked your phone, uninterested as you scroll through social media. Chaewon sneaks small glances at you every now and then, smiling amused whenever you sighed out of boredom. Raising an inquisitive brow when she caught sight of a shy grin plastered on your lips. Pressing pause on the controller she pinched your leg, a squeak slipping past your lips as you feigned an expression of pain.
Managing to wriggle herself between you and the couch cushions, she lay her head lightly on your shoulder. “Whatcha looking at?” She tilted her head at the blush that suddenly flushed your cheeks. “Nothing,” you mumbled shyly under your breath, burying your face in her hair. Humming, Chaewon swiftly stole the phone from your hand, unlocking it with ease. You whined in protest, but did nothing to stop her, only hiding your face further into her neck.
A smile graced her perfect lips at the video displayed on your phone, it contained a ship edit of the two of you. “So that’s what you’re smiling about,” Chaewon laughed. She tilted your head up to meet her gaze, looking at you with a teasing smirk rested on her lips. “Stop it!” You whined, cheeks flushed red. Refusing to give her the satisfaction of seeing you flustered, you covered your face with your hands.
“Yah! Go be gross somewhere else,” Hyejoo complained. Not a second later a cushion was soaring towards you at lightning speed, smacking you square on the forehead. “I will get you back for that one,” you pointed a finger at her, hair a mess from the flying pillow attack. “Whatever, now leave me be.” The youngest in the room said annoyed, however you could see the faintest fond smile tugging on her lips.
Still in a fit of giggles beside you, Chaewon rose to her feet, dragging you up from the couch with her. “I’m hungry, let’s get food,” she said randomly, dragging you through the dorms. “Bring back something for me!” You heard Hyejoo’s shout echo around the halls. “So, where are we going, Wonnie?” You asked, ruffling her hair.  “I don’t know yet, but you're paying,” she stated simply as she pulled her shoes on.
“You’re lucky I love you,” you muttered under your breath, hand slipping into hers as you exited the dorm. “Please, you’re the lucky one here,” she grinned mockingly, lacing your fingers together. The cold air nipped at your skin as you stepped outside, a shiver running down your spine. Clinging to Chaewon’s arm in search of warmth, you basked in the comfortable silence of the still night. Gaze wandering up to the starry sky, moon graciously illuminating the path before you.
The faint buzzing of your phone pulled you back to reality, your leaders name popping up on the screen. “Yeoboseyo,” you said, Chaewon looking at you with curiosity swirling in her eyes. “Y/n-ah, where are you? It’s late,” Haseul said sternly. “We’re just going out to get some food, unnie. We’ll be back soon,” you said, flashing your phone screen to your girlfriend. “Okay, just make sure you stay safe.” She said, hanging up after telling you to bring back a few snacks for your members.
“Everything okay?” Chaewon asked, to which you nodded, sending her a smile. “Let’s go!” You cheered, skipping down the streets as you tugged her along with you. “You don’t even know where you’re going,” she chuckled, proceeding to follow you blindly anyway. “I want ice cream,” you decided upon reaching the small convenience store near your dorm. “Sounds good to me,” your girlfriend agreed, happy as long as you were.
With a mask covering most of your face and the darkness that enveloped you, worries of being mobbed by fans remained a distant thought. As a precaution you pulled your hood over your head, placing your cap on Chaewon’s. She looked up to you with a sheepish smile, pink tint on her cheeks barely visible in the dull lighting. “Cute,” you mumbled, unable to resist the urge of cupping her cheeks with your palms. The look in her eyes hypnotising you, urging you to lean closer, entranced by her loving gaze.
You looked over your shoulder briefly before pulling your mask down swiftly, leaning up to press a lingering kiss to the younger girl's cheek. Lips lightly brushing the corner of her mouth, but she didn’t pull away from your touch, instead sighing contentedly. “Someone could see us,” Chaewon pushed you back reluctantly, pulling your mask up to your eyes “Let’s go then,” you exclaimed, excitement clear in your tone at the thought of ice cream. Your eyes crinkled into crescents, a tell-tale sign of your gummy smile.
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The two of you shuffled back into the dorms, lingering grins plastered on your lips. Haseul greets you at the door with a relieved sigh, reminding you not to go out too late next time. “We got ice cream,” you held up the plastic bag filled with frozen goods. Your leader shook her head, an amused smile forming on her features at your deflection of her worry.
You gasped as two bodies came bounding towards you, snatching the bag from your hand as they inspected its contents closely. “No bread?” Hyunjin whined, looking at you with a deep frown. “It’s for your own good, this is an intervention.” You smiled innocently, the cat-like girl complaining endlessly. She gripped your shoulders, shaking your body with a pleading look in her eyes. 
“I’m kidding Hyun, here.” You pulled out a second bag from behind your back, watching realisation settle on her face. “You’re the best Y/n!” She beamed, scurrying off with Heejin hot on her tail. “Yeojinie, we got your favourite,” you said in a sing-song voice. Reaching the maknae with a smile, you wrap an arm around her shoulder. “I thought we weren’t allowed,” the youngest furrowed her brows in contemplation, thinking back to your manager's harsh warnings about dieting.
“I won’t tell if you don’t,” you raised your pinky, mischievous grin on your lips. Laughing, Yeojin laced her pinky with yours, a fond smile tugging on the corners of your mouth as you left her to the sweet treat. “Jiwoo unnie!” You called, summoning a squeal closely followed by rapid foot steps. A pair of arms wrapped securely around your torso in a crushing hug, a taller figure appearing behind her. 
Patting the Jiwoo’s head, you reached into the plastic bag once more, struggling in the iron grip she had you in. “Sooyoung unnie,” you greeted, tossing an ice cream to her, which she caught effortlessly. “She doesn’t need anymore sugar,” the older girl groaned playfully as you handed one to the girl in your arms. Yelling out a ‘thank you’ Jiwoo broke out into a sprint, chasing after the older girl who tried to make a desperate escape.
Chuckling, you made your way down the hallway of rooms, knocking on a colourfully decorated door. “Just a minute!” A muffled voice yelled, door swinging open not a second later. “Oh unnie, you’re back,” Yerim greeted you with a toothy grin. “You still like this flavour right?” You asked with furrowed brows, holding up the packaged goods. The younger girl nodded eagerly, eyes gleaming with anticipation as you handed it over to her.
“Did you get me one too?” Jinsoul asked from her bed, looking at you expectantly. “Of course,” you beamed, Yerim moving to the side so you could fully enter the room. “Ah, my favourite! You really do know us well Y/n-ah,” the older girl pressed a kiss of gratitude to your cheek. “Keep it down, some of us are trying to sleep,” a tired Jungeun muttered from the bed across the room. Glancing at the older girl, you sent her an apologetic smile.
“Sorry unnie, should I put yours in the freezer for later?” You asked, keeping your voice low, trying not to disrupt anyone else. Rolling over, Jungeun nodded exhausted, sending you a thumbs up in appreciation. “Good night unnie’s, Yerimie,” you saluted playfully, closing the quiet door behind you. “Next stop kitchen,” you mumbled to yourself, trudging sluggishly to your destination, fatigue overcoming you.
“Why are you still awake?” You asked Kahei curiously upon seeing her standing sleepily in the kitchen. “Shouldn’t I be asking you that?” She chuckled, watching you as you placed the remaining ice cream in the freezer. “Did you want yours now?” You asked, pouring yourself a glass of water. “I’m okay,” she shook her head, eyes drooping shut as seconds passed, failing to fight off her exhaustion.
“But seriously though, why are you awake?” You pressed, gulping down the remainder of your drink. “I’m just cleaning up here, I’ll go to bed soon, I promise.” Sighing, you hummed in thought, looking at the drowsy girl before you. “You go, I’ll finish up here,” you smiled, staring her in the direction of her bedroom. “You should sleep, it’s late,” Kahei said softly, not giving up yet. Unable to stand the sight of her so drowsy, you pushed further.
“I’m full of energy, you need to rest, it’s been a long day.” You insisted, hiding the drained look that begged to break out on your face. “Okay,” Kahei agreed reluctantly, patting your shoulder thankfully before traipsing up to her room. Your muscles aching in protest as you wipe down the counter, body spent from a tiring day of rehearsal. Sighing once you’d finished, a content smile on your lips at the thought of finally snuggling into bed, curling into the welcoming arms of your girlfriend.
As quietly as possible, you creaked open the door to yyxy’s room, following the familiar path of darkness to Chaewon’s bed. Lifting up the covers, you slipped into bed, hands reaching out in search of the younger girl. Your arms snaked around her waist, nestling your head into the crook of her neck. Even in her unconscious state she pulled you closer, hand resting securely on the small of your back. The comfort of her presence helps coax your eyes to flutter shut, her shallow breaths lulling you into a slumber of your own.
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“Y/n, Manager unnie’s calling for you!” Haseul shouted from the kitchen, your arms unwillingly leaving their place around Chaewon’s neck as you rose to your feet. “What did she want?” You question inquisitively upon reaching your leader. “She said you needed to stop by the company,” Haseul said, furrowing her brows as she read the text through once more. “I’m sure it’s nothing,” Heejin assured you, side hugging you as she sent you a sympathetic glance.
“When do they need me there?” You asked, gaze flickering to your watch. “Manager unnie said she’s outside, so I presume now.” Haseul said, worried glances of your members landing on you at the suddenness of it all. Nodding along thoughtlessly, you headed for the doorway, pulling your shoes on in a hurry. “Do you want company?” Kahei asked, unsure about the untimely nature of it. “I’ll be fine, but thanks anyway unnie.” You smiled confidently, waving goodbye to everyone before exiting the dorm.
Your manager greeted you by the car, the solicitous smile plastered on her face not helping to sooth you building anxiety. Gaze was stuck to the window the entire ride, you tried to stop your mind from running free with endless horrible possibilities. “We’re here,” your manager spoke, pulling you from your thoughts. Inhaling sharply, you slipped out of the van, heart thumping in your ears. Vision blurring, you steadied yourself on the car, shaking your head in hopes of stopping the sudden influx of intrusive thoughts
Following closely behind the manager as you entered the establishment, eyes widening as she brought you in the direction of the CEO’s office. “Hello Y/n, please have a seat,” your boss greeted you on arrival. “Hello,” you bowed, practically shaking with nerves. “I’ll get straight to the point,” Sunhye said bluntly, pushing over a stack of papers towards you. Eyes bulging out of their sockets upon seeing countless photos of your and Chaewon suspiciously close.
Hands curling into fists at your sides, you clenched your jaw tightly. You could practically hear the sound of your teeth grinding against each other, suddenly feeling a rise in temperature within the room. Wiping your dampened forehead nervously, your gaze was fixated on the image before you. Audibly gulping down the bile that began to fill your throat, leg now shaking uncontrollably. Nails digging painfully into the palm of your hand at how tightly you had coiled your fist.
“This is just from an employee of Block Berry Creative, but if they can find and capture all this, imagine what dispatch could get.” Your CEO said sternly, gaze briefly flickering to the photos in your hand. “Luckily we’ve come up with a solution to stop any scandals before they can start.” Your boss paused, leaning back on the chair, sending you a smile. It only made you fidget with unease, your whole body tense.
“I just want you to know that I support you all, but we have to do what’s best for the company and your image. So I managed to call in a favour with an old friend, it should both boost Loona’s fame and cover up any absurd rumours.” You bite your lips harshly, frown etched on your face. “You are to date Bang Chan, the leader of Stray Kids. You’ll go on a date today,” your CEO said, leaving no room for any protests you had. Your teeth piercing the delicate flesh of your lips, the words ringing in your ears as a metallic taste filled your mouth.
“I’m sorry Y/n, but this is how it had to be.” You clench your jaw in frustration, standing from your seat abruptly, heading for the door. Overwhelmed by the burning bomb of emotions that threatened to burst. “Oh and one more thing Y/n,” Sunhye said, halting you just as you reached for the handle. “This chat will stay between the two of us, things will only be harder if you tell anyone, including your members. It would ruin not only your career, but all of theirs.” With that you rushed out of the room, eyes glossing with unshed tears that you desperately tried to hold back.
You ran through the companies halls, chest tightening as your heart pounded in your ears. Stumbling straight into an unsuspecting body, two strong arms gripping your shoulders in support. “You alright there?” The anxious male spoke, steadying you before dropping his arms to his sides. Nodding dumbly, you looked up to your ‘saviour’, eyes widening at the familiar face. “I’m Chan or Chris, nice to meet you,” he tried to fill the silence, awkwardly scratching the back of his neck.
“Y/n,” you rasped, voice wavering as you tried to fight off your feelings. “Oh, you’re my girlfriend!” He attempted to joke, making you wince. “Sorry, I know it’s not an ideal situation,” Chan chuckled nervously. “Come on, you two are scheduled for a date,” your manager appeared out of nowhere. She ushered you towards the car in a rush, listing off the day's schedule at rapid speed,  as you nodded along, black expression plastered on your face.
You were to go to a quaint cafe, forced to act like you were charmed by Chan’s goofy smile. Going out of your way to act like a lovey-dovey couple whenever you sensed a flashing camera. Wishing that it was Chaewon you had the luxury of spending your time with instead, but remembering your CEO’s words from earlier only made you push those thoughts to the back of your mind.
You had to admit, Chan wasn’t actually bad company, and he kept trying his best to make you genuinely smile during the ‘date’. Even so, you couldn’t help but let your anxiety take over, fiddling with your fingers as you imagined everyone’s reaction to your ‘betrayal’. Some part of you hoped that maybe they’d understand, but after being given strict instructions not to inform them it was all a guise you knew that was only a dream.
~~
You didn’t know how long you’d anxiously paced up and down the hallways of your building, but by the time you’d gathered the courage to enter you instantly regretted it. Everyone was gathered in the living room, peacefully watching a drama as they passed around snacks. They looked so happy, something you knew was bound to crumble in a few minutes. Your chest panged with guilt as you set your gaze on Chaewon, thoughts of her devastated reaction to your ‘dating’ news filling your mind.
Observing them from a distance as you stood tense in the doorway, left you with a lingering feeling of doubt. You wished this was some kind of sick joke, but you knew better than to trick yourself into the false pretence of happiness. “Y/n?” The crunchy voice you always longed to hear halted your swirling thoughts of destruction. You couldn’t meet her eyes, unable to face her, knowing that you would break if you did. “Are you going to join us?” She asked, patting the empty spot beside her. Nodding stiffly, you shuffled forwards at a painfully slow pace.
Once you were seated her arms were sneaking around your waist, head resting on your shoulder as she reached for your hand. Your whole body tensing at her touch, the guilt that plagued you becoming unbearable. “How was your meeting?” Chaewon whispered in your ear, sending a chill down your spine. “It was-” your voice came out shaky, but you were cut off by the obnoxiously loud dings that resounded around the room. Every phone going off at once, your chest tightening at the sound.
Your members all reached for their devices curiously, screens lighting up the dark living room. You didn’t dare copy, staying unnerving still as you awaited the chaos, breaths shaky. A series of gasps floated through the eerily quiet room in unison, several pairs of eyes burning holes into your head. “Is this true Y/n?” Your leader was the first to speak up, her tone indistinguishable. You bit your tongue, words caught in your throat as your eyes glossed over with fresh tears.
“It’s fake right? You’re not really seeing someone else are you?” Chaewon asked insecurely, desperately trying to meet your gaze, a glimmer of hope in her eyes. Clenching your jaw, you blinked back your tears, inhaling sharply. “It’s true,” you said bluntly, the words leaving a bitter taste in your mouth. “You’re lying right? This isn’t you Y/n,” her voice cracked, tears now freely streaming down her cheeks. She tugged at your sleeve, wordlessly begging you to look at her and tell her this was a cruel prank.
Sighing, you finally turned to meet her gaze, knowing this was the only way to convince anyone. Your eyes a pool of emptiness as you looked blankly into her shining ones. “I’m dating him,” you said simply, tone emotionless, another string of gasps coming from your members. Your facade began to slip when you felt her disappear from your grasp, hand slipping out of your own. Feeling like your skin burned, her touch now a distant tingle. Catching a glimpse of the look of hurt and betrayal that crossed her face before she ran off to her room in tears.
The rest of her sub-unit follows closely behind her, but not leaving without glaring daggers at you, even the usually cheery Jiwoo. “How could you do that unnie?!” Yeojin shouted at you. The girl who’d once looked up to you with such love and admiration now staring in disbelief like a stranger. She stormed off without another word, Jungeun and Jinsoul shaking their heads at you before disappearing after the maknae. A conflicted looking Yerim raised herself from the couch, in a daze of confusion as she retreated to her room.
“Why?” Heejin mumbled bewildered, Hyunjin looking at you with narrowed eyes. The cat-like girl pulled the older girl down the hall as she threw you one last glare over her shoulder. The silence was deafening, only you, Haseul and Kahei remained, the two observing you carefully. “I don’t understand,” your leader sighed incredulously, dropping her head to her hands as she thought about what this would mean for the group.
The oldest patted her on the back gently, glancing at you with a frown gracing her lips as her forehead creased. “I’m disappointed,” her words felt like the final blow to your heart, it took all your hand in you to hold back your cries. Saying nothing in response, you ducked your head ashamed, thick locks hiding the tears that streaked down your face. Their light footsteps echoing down the quiet halls as they left you alone to dwell on how your whole life had crumbled before your eyes in the span of a day.
Clamping your hand over your mouth, you desperately tried to muffle your sobs, managing to reduce them to pathetic whimpers. The look of heartbreak on Chaewon’s face replaying over and over in your head, torturing you for being the one to deliver the final blow. The love for you vanished from her eyes, replaced by pain and heartache. “I’m sorry,” you mumbled brokenly into the still silence of the room.
Your phone began to vibrate in your hand, lighting up as dozens of notifications filled your screen. Each comment more hurtful than the last, countless hateful words targeted at you. You couldn't help yourself from getting lost in their malicious threats, tricking yourself into believing you deserved it after all the damage you’d caused. Retiring to your room with eyes glued to your phone, unable to stop yourself from sinking further into the depths of self loathing.
You could barely make out the sound of muffled voices through the wall, pausing in front of yyxy’s door. Shaky hand reaching for the handle, words that would expose your CEO stuck on the tip of your tongue. Snapping out of your moment of weakness, you screwed your eyes tightly shut, willing away your tears. Spinning on your heel you shook your head, blocking out the distant sobs that you recognised as Chaewon’s. Instead you retreated to your deserted room.
Taking in your surroundings made the distinct lack of your usually joyous maknaes laughter all the more daunting. Your once shared room was now cold, lonely and abandoned, Yeojin having opted to keep her distance from you. Not only had you lost your lover, but all the people you cared about most. Letting the darkness take you, your eyes drooped, chills running down your spine at the wind that whooshed through the ajar window.
You continued to beat yourself up over everything, collapsing on your bed with a thud. Not bothering to pull the covers up, you lay lifelessly on the mattress, stuck in the black hole that was your mind. Unable to bring yourself to sleep, you stared aimlessly at the ceiling as hours ticked by. The night was met by an agonisingly slow sunrise, the familiar golden hue only reminding you of all the times you and Chaewon had woken up in each other's arms to watch it together.
The barely audible sound of footsteps caught your attention, hearing the first sign of life in hours. You were unsure if you were ready to face anyone, not like they’d be thrilled to see you either. Decidedly, you pulled an oversized hoodie over your head, wincing at the loud creak your door made as you hesitantly pushed it open. You could feel eyes on you from afar, but you didn’t dare look up.
Anxiously fiddling with the strings of your hoodie, you ducked your head down making a beeline for the fridge as you brushed past your observer. Parched, you immediately gulped down the glass of water you’d poured, quenching your thirst. A shuffling from behind you making you reflexively turn around, met with the harsh glare of Hyejoo. “I hope you’re happy,” she spat snarkily, tone venomous.
“You don’t deserve her,” she continued, pushing your buttons. But you only bowed your head in shame, taking everything she threw at you. “So you’re just not gonna say anything?” Hyejoo scoffed unamused, crossing her arms as she eyed you critically. “You’re right,” you muttered under your breath, the wolf-like girl furrowing her eyebrows in confusion. “I don’t deserve her,” you sighed defeated, brushing past the younger girl, rushing back to the confines of your room. Crashing into another lingering figure in the hallway, you apologised quickly before disappearing behind your door.
Hyejoo looked at Sooyoung in confusion, uncertain on what had just occurred. Both girls eyeing your closed door, heads tilted as they tried to work out your sudden change in attitude in comparison to how cold you were last night. Glancing back to each other they shrugged it off, neither speaking of the incident. Although  the questions remaining on their minds didn’t magically vanish, they were pushed aside, instead focusing on the heartbroken Chaewon curled up in bed with Jiwoo. Taking care of their members was their number one priority, if only they knew how much you craved that same comfort.
~~
Nothing was the same after that fateful day, whole group interactions hostile, everyone tense. You had tried to stick to the sidelines, watching them run around like crazy from afar during breaks in practice. To you it was clear they could go as if you never existed in the first place, eyes stinging at the thought. The only time problems seemed to occur was when your name was mentioned and they were reminded of the fact that you were still a part of the team.
Sitting alone in the corner, you busied yourself with monitoring the practice video, chastising all minimal moves you got incorrect. “Y/n!” Your manager's voice caught your attention over the chaos, effectively silencing everyone in the room as they looked at you curiously. “You and Choerry need to do a Vlive, fans are starting to comment on your lack of appearance in videos.” Nodding stiffly at her words, your gaze briefly flickered to Yerim, the frown she wore pained you. 
“Anything else?” You inquired, uncomfortable with all the silence. “You're scheduled for a date with Bang Chan tonight,” you winced at her words. Quickly masking your expression of distress, you trailed behind your manager as she led you to a studio, Yerim hot on your tail. The quietness of the room lingered even with you gone, your members sharing a look of questioning. Although, they all shrugged off how your supposed date sounded much more like a business event. For it hurt too much to think of it, talking about it would only summon more tears to Chaewon’s eyes.
They continued to practise, going over the choreography until it became muscle memory. While in your studio, you and Yerim sat a fair distance apart, talking mindlessly to orbits. The younger girl was surprised by how good you were at acting like everything was fine, almost fooling her for a moment. She found herself stumbling over her words, to which you shot her a reassuring smile like you’d always used to. The lines between what was real and fake became blurred to her.
Glancing nervously at the swiftly moving comments, a few nasty ones catching her eye. All of which directed at you, ranging from judging your talent, looks and an alarming amount being death threats. Looking at you with furrowed brows, she caught a glimpse at your smile faltering, indicating that you had indeed seen them too. You recovered quickly, but your actions only made Yerim more uncertain. How many times have you successfully hidden your emotions in the past?
A part of her still cared for you, displayed by a look of sympathy. However, she was quick to remember the hurt you had inflicted on Chaewon, instantly swaying her. No matter how hard she tried she couldn't justify your actions, thoughts of Chaewon’s sobbing into her shoulder snapping her out of it. You had cheated on her, it was that simple. But Yerim couldn't help the feeling of doubt that lingered with her.
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The members present scowled as you left the dorms in a hurry, all dolled up for your ‘date’. Patting Chaewon on the back in consolation as she stared at the wall dejected. Nothing made sense in her life anymore, without you it felt wrong. She awoke every morning to the same painful nightmare that was her life, disappointed in herself for craving your touch. She hated that she still harboured feelings for you, especially with the circumstances of your relationship's untimely end. So instead she channelled those emotions into hatred towards you.
Chaewon knew that her friends were doing their best to comfort her, trying desperately to get her to crack a genuine smile. But to no avail, she wouldn’t budge. She was miserable, angry that you’d made her feel this way, but seemed to be coping with it fine yourself. Most of all, she missed you. Your contagious smile, melodious laughter, lovable personality, oh she longed for it all. Living in the same apartment only proved to make not run into your arms as she cried over your harder.
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“So how are you really Y/n?” Chan asked, your friendship having blossomed amidst all the mess. Halting in your step, you looked up to him curiously. “What do you mean?” You played dumb, smiling innocently. With concern written on his face he placed a hand on your shoulder, forcing you to look him in the eye. “Right now, it doesn’t seem like you have anyone to lean on. So I want you to know that you can talk to me, I’ll listen and I promise you I won’t judge.” Chan offered, holding his pinky up to you with a dopey smile.
Your lips trembled at his words, months of pent up emotions flooding your eyes. Sniffling, you connected your pinky with his, a watery chuckle slipping past your lips. “Now, tell me what’s been bothering you.” Chan said sternly, so you did. He paid careful attention to everything you had to say, sympathising with your situation. Most importantly he made you feel heard, he was exactly what you needed. A good friend.
He insisted on walking you all the way to your dorm, making sure you were safe before you parted ways. You watched him as he rounded the corner, disappearing off into the darkness of the night. Entering the dorm as quietly as possible, you cringed as the door creaked. Slipping off your shoes swiftly, trying to avoid any possible confrontations, you rushed for your room. Coming to an abrupt stop outside it, the sight of an ajar door opposite you peaked your curiosity.
Straining your ears, you made out a few mumbled here and there, but nothing clear. “Would things be easier if she just left for a while?” Jungeun’s voice rang in your ears, your heart stopping. Having heard enough, you took your leave, her words replaying in your head like a broken record. You sat still on your bed, knees curled into your chest as you let it sink in. ‘Maybe they would be better off without me,’ one final thought remained.
A light tap on your wooden door had your eyes widening in shock. ‘Was this really it? Were they going to ask me to leave?’ After years of friendship you were easily able to recognise who it was, Haseul’s head popping through the gap in not a moment later. “Can I come in?” The gentleness of her tone surprised you, but you couldn’t seem to wish away the negative thoughts. Receiving a hum of confirmation from you, she stepped into your room.
Planting herself on the edge of your bed, Haseul took a moment to really look at you. Her brows knitted together at the state you were in, eyes puffy, with dark circles beneath them. The lack of sleep was clear as day, and the way you presented yourself was so broken and reserved. A shell of your former joyful self. Deathly pale skin looking like you hadn’t seen the sun in years, your figure alarmingly thin. 
“I in no way support the decisions you’ve made recently, especially those that have hurt others.” Haseul started as you fiddled nervously with your hands, expecting the worst. “But as your leader it’s my job to check in on you, and quite frankly you’ve seen better days.” You took a second to let her words sink in, a look of shock reflecting on your face. “I may not be able to give you comfort as a friend right now, but as a member, I’m worried about you, Y/n.” She spoke calmly, composed as usual.
You couldn’t bring yourself to burden her with your problems, not after all she’d been through. You wanted to free them from all the drama, and the hate that now came with being associated with you. There was only one way you knew how. “Thank you Haseul-ssi,” your use of formalities made the older girl frown. She was fighting off pulling you into her arms, knowing that it was no longer appropriate. “But you should really be with Chaewon instead,” you smiled sadly.
Opening her mouth to continue, Haseul was cut off before she could even get a word in. “I hope you don’t mind, but it’s getting late, so I’m going to sleep now.” Based on the dark rings under your eyes, your leader could tell you weren’t going to sleep a wink, but there was nothing she could do. Nodding in defeat, Haseul lifted herself from your bed, reluctantly heading for the door.
Slipping out of the darkness, Haseul was met with the concerned gaze of Jinsoul. “Nothing,” your leader sighed in frustration, the usual playful look on Jinsoul’s face long gone. Even after everything, as you older member she still felt as though it was her responsibility to take care of you. “I’ll try again tomorrow,” Haseul said, unknowing of what was to come.
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It was early the next day when the company called, ordering the girls to come in as soon as possible. All too exhausted to notice the missing member when arrived, eyes blinking away sleep as they all filtered into the meeting room. All bowing sleepily at their CEO, watching with droopy eyes as the boss took a seat at the large circular table. “You know I don’t like beating around the bush, so I’ll just show you this.” Sunhye clicked at the remote, an article now displayed on the TV screen.
“This will be published in the next hour, I just thought I’d give you a chance to hear the news from me first.” All twelve girls were now wide awake, eyes stuck to the headlines of the post. ‘Loona’s Y/n put on an indefinite hiatus due to ongoing mental health issues.’ “She came in this morning, saying that she needed to go back home for a while.” The silence was deafening as they let the news register. A mix of emotions looming over the girls, you once would’ve called them home.
They hadn’t forgiven you, but moving forwards without you was unthinkable. Unsure of how to proceed they all sat stiffly, suffocating in the eerie silence of the room. They wanted to know if you were okay, and be there to comfort you. Although, cheating on Chaewon was unjustifiable, so instead they turned a blind eye.
The rest of the day passed by at an agonisingly slow pace, all members lazily lounging in the living room. They found comfort in being together as a whole group during hardships, but it would never be the same without you there. They’d survived fine without your presence for months, but now that you were really gone it was different. No one stopped Chaewon when she retreated to her room sniffling, not having the heart to go after her either. 
They weren’t oblivious to the fact that they played a part in your plummeting mental state. But they didn’t know what to do, if only they knew of the true reason behind all the drama. A heavy knock on the door startled them, some flinching at the abruptness. Sooyoung jumped to her feet to see what all the fuss was about, expression morphing into a scowl as she opened the door. “You shouldn’t be here,” she practically growled, protective instincts on full display.
“It’s about Y/n,” the leader of Stray Kids pleaded, sighing in relief as Sooyoung reluctantly let him in. Exclamations of irritation flowing from the girls mouths, eyes narrowed at him. “Have any of you heard from Y/n?” He asked, anxiously pacing around the room, ignoring the pointed glares sent his way. “Aren’t you her boyfriend?” Hyejoo snarked, uncaring that he was older. “Isn’t she your friend,” Chan bit back, a look of guilt washing over their faces. He didn’t mean to be so harsh, but this wasn’t a joking matter.
“Not after what she did,” Hyunjin spoke up, crossing her arms over her chest defensively. “You mean after she saved you from a career ruining scandal?” Chan asked rhetorically. “Please, if anything she created the scandal,” Heejin fired back unamused. He looked around the room incredulously. “Wait..What do you mean by she saved us?” Jungeun asked, voice shaky, as if already putting the pieces together in her head.
“Our ‘relationship’, the whole cover up,” he said simply, realisation hitting them like a train. “So you’re saying that you two were never..?” Kahei questioned, eyes wide at the revelation. “No, Y/n and I were never together, I thought you knew.” They all shook their heads in disbelief, unable to contain their shock. Heads all snapping to the loud creak that came from the hallway, Chaewon’s trembling body in full view. 
“I need to see her,” she mumbled quickly. All twelve members jumping into action, pulling their shoes on at lightning speed, rushing off to your home. Flooding your phone with texts, receiving not a single response. “Call the company, tell them not to release the statement yet.” Jinsoul ordered Heejin, already on the phone with their manager, begging her to drive them all to your place.
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You were peacefully unpacking your suitcase, already feeling much calmer in the comfort of your own home. Phone laying discarded on your desk, having died over an hour ago, you didn’t care enough to charge it. Your parents had welcomed you with open arms, happy to accommodate you for as long as you needed. A weight lifting off your chest as soon as you entered the homely environment, the first genuine smile in what felt like years tugged at your lips.
Your door suddenly slammed open, a pair of arms encircling your waist before you could even spin around. An all too familiar scent wafted around the room, your body stiffening in realisation. “I knew it wasn’t true,” Chaewon’s sweet voice reached your ears, your heart almost bursting at the first time hearing it in months. Her strong grip on your waist told you that she didn’t intend on letting go any time soon, your body finally relaxing in her hold.
“Why didn’t you just tell me?” Feeling your shirt dampen, your eyes widened in alarm, quickly turning to face Chaewon. Her hurting as a result of your actions was never something you wanted. Tears cascaded down her cheeks, springing you into action as you swiped them away with the pads of your thumbs. “I’m sorry,” you apologised, eyes glossing over. “Don’t apologise, just stay with me,” she bawled her eyes out. “You still want to be with me?” You asked astounded.
“Of course I do, I love you,” she smacked your shoulder, collapsing into your arms. “Just promise me you won’t lie again, even if you're trying to protect me.” She pleaded, voice muffled as she pressed her face to the crook of your neck. “I promise,” you quickly stated, squeezing her tightly. “It pained me to lie to you,” you frowned, tightening your grip on her. “I forgive you,” she whispered, lifting a weight off your shoulders, finally at peace.
The faintest knock on the door triggered a groan from you, unwilling to pull away from Chaewon just yet, still deprived of her touch. Soon all of your members were entering your cramped room, barely fitting in. “We’re sorry Y/n, we should’ve noticed sooner,” Haseul was the first to speak. “It’s not your fault,” you assured them quickly, never wanting them to blame themselves. “Still, you shouldn’t have had to go through that on your own,” Jiwoo said, pout evident on her lips. Yerim, no longer being able to hold herself back, leaped straight into your arms.
“Stop looking at all those hate comments, they’re stupid,” Yerim said. The signature bright smile resting on her lips, your heart swelling with joy as you nodded. She may not have been able to comfort you then, but she vowed to do her best from now on. Yeojin was quick to join your hug, a frown present on her face. “I wish I had known,” she said. She couldn’t bear the thought of you spending all your nights curled up alone in your shared room.
“It’s okay Yeojinie, there’s nothing you could have done.” You reassure her, words directed at every member. “Yah! We’re supposed to be comforting you, not the other way around,” Heejin complained. The two younger girls make way for the older girl to press an affectionate kiss to your cheek. Hyejoo looking at you guiltily from the sidelines, not knowing exactly what to do. Sensing her gaze, you turned to her with open arms, gentle smiles gracing your lips.
Rushing into your arms, the wolf-like girl sighed in relief. “I’m sorry, I hope you know I didn’t really mean what I said.” She whispered to you, feeling a pat on her back. “It’s okay Hyejoo-ah, I’m glad she has someone to stick by her.” You whispered back, glancing at Chaewon with a fond smile. “I should’ve been there for you too though,” she said regretfully. “Don’t beat yourself up, there’s no way you could’ve known.” She nodded hesitantly at your words, releasing you to give the others a turn.
“I missed you,” Jinsoul dragged out as she draped her arms around your neck, leaning down to press a kiss to the top of your head. “Me or my gifts?” You asked teasingly, earning a smack on the butt. Shaking her head in amusement, Jinsoul pulled away. Your gaze wandered to the more hesitant bunch, Hyunjin stepping forward bravely. Surprising you with the speed in which she wrapped you in a hug, no words were spoken, but she made sure to squeeze you tightly.
Ruffling Hyunjin’s hair, you glance at Jungeun over the cat-like girl's shoulder. She approached you cautiously, grasping your hand. “I want you to know that Loona isn’t Loona without you, we need you Y/n.” She spoke sincerely, tears springing to your eyes. The words you’d longed to hear since the scandal broke out. Fighting off your tears, you snaked your arms around her neck, vision blurry. She held you closely, letting her words settle in before she released you.
“Please come to me in the future, I want nothing more than to see you happy, Y/n.” Sooyoung let tears fall freely down her face as she pulled you into her embrace. “I know I haven’t been the best unnie, but I promise I’ll be there for you.” You nodded, into her chest, a few stray tears staining her shirt. Although she didn’t complain, only holding your tighter. The oldest of the group finally takes her turn with you, immediately pulling you into a warm hug.
She didn’t say anything, only holding you, pondering as she tried to find the right words. Decidedly, she pulled back slightly, cupping your wet cheeks. “You’re very brave, Y/n. I could never be disappointed in you,” she said softly. That was the last straw for you, a sob creeping from your lips as your eyes welled with fresh tears. The rest of Loona joined in, huddled together in a group hug.
Chaewon right by your side, wiping away your tears as she pressed a kiss to your cheek. “I love you too,” you whispered to her, remembering you hadn’t had the chance to say it back earlier. “I love all of you,” you smiled through your sobs, hearing a tearful chorus ‘I love you’s’ in response. Your heart swells with pure happiness, eyes glossed over with tears of joy.
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Want It To Be
Idol: Jeong Jinsol (Loona)
anon: Hi, could you do a Jinsoul scenario where her and the female reader have a friends with benefits relationship but Jinsoul start to have strong feelings for the reader and she's afraid of ruin everything? Thank you 😊
Word count: 2.7k
Warning: smut obviously 💀, pining, unrequited love, jealousy, alcohol, slight breath play, Jinsol has the need to claim you
A/n: this was messy and i apologize. smut is not a strong suit 💀
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Your silent pants and gasps fill the room as you watch Jinsol hover above you, her lips leaving a trail of wet kisses along your neck while her fingers continue to move in and out of you. The way she curls them has you holding back another moan while clenching at the sheets and there's no denying the amused chuckle that you hear when she pulls back just to look down at you.
"You have to keep quiet or the girls will hear you." She muses, but all you can muster up is a weak glare. "You're infuriating." Your retort is cut off by another moan when she adds another finger and your back arches off the bed, earning yourself a few more kisses to your chest.
But Jinsol is quick with silencing you with her other hand when a finger slips between your parted lips.
She shushes you with a giggle before that familiar glint is back in her eyes. When she nudges your legs further apart, you know that it won't take long until you come undone for her.
She knows the drill, so she only hisses when you bite down on her finger to stop another loud moan while she lets you ride out your high. She keeps you still until she's sure you're okay before finally withdrawing to collapse next to you.
"Stay the night." She mumbles through her exhaustion and you turn your head to look at her, unsure. "Is that such a good idea?" You question, because even though she wasn't living with the members didn't mean they were that far away.
They were still literally in the same building.
"It's late and I'm sure no one minds." She giggles and you give it a moment to ponder before shrugging your shoulders and then turning on your side. "I'll leave in the morning, don't worry." You yawn out and Jinsol purses her lips while curling up beside you.
You don't have to, she wants to say, but keeps quiet as she watches you finally succumb to your exhaustion.
Jinsol watches you for a moment, frowning to herself when she remembers the arrangement you both had. It was great, it helped her relieve whatever stress she was dealing with while also helping you with your own… but that didn't make it any easier when you were more than just a fuck buddy to her.
You were a friend before it began and, while she wasn't expecting to, she ended up developing a small crush on you the longer your hook ups lasted.
There was a tenderness in your touch when you allowed it, but she also loved the eagerness and the recklessness when you were both so wound up after a long week. The kind look in your eyes whenever the two of you would see each other outside was always enough to melt her heart and your smile always managed to make her heart race until her words were a jumbled mess.
She's tried to kiss you countless times, but she plays it off well like the way she does with all of her members. But she'll admit that it hurts when you reject her as often as you did in public but allow her when in the privacy of either her room or yours.
She's in trouble and she knows it. Because you've both talked about how nothing would change between you and yet here she was, imagining what it would be like to be yours and vice versa.
"Unnie, are you okay?"
Blinking out of her reverie, Jinsol sees Yerim staring at her, pouting when she had realized that the older girl wasn't paying attention to a word she was saying. "Sorry, I was thinking about something." She quickly excuses and Sooyoung raises a brow at her friend while she leans against the table. "I hope you and Y/n didn't stay up too late."
Her eyes widen a little at the statement, but Sooyoung is able to squash down her fears as she continues. "You guys never run out of things to talk about so I wouldn't be surprised if neither of you get any sleep at night."
Oh, if they only knew how you kept each other up.
"Speaking of Y/n unnie, I saw her leave this morning. She said she couldn't stay too long since she had work." Hyunjin spoke up, informing Jinsol about your departure and the older woman nodded with a faint hum, hiding her displeasure when she masked it with a smile. "Yeah, she's gotten really busy lately so I told her to just sleep here last night." She explained, making Sooyoung nod in understanding.
"That was a good idea. Y/n works really hard so I wouldn't be surprised if she was too tired to go home." Grinning at her fellow '97 liner, Sooyoung patted her on the back. "You're a really good friend." Haseul added and Jinsol laughed, albeit a little forced.
"Of course I am."
Even when it hurts, a friend is all she really is.
"Unnie."
Jinsol looks up after a few more calls, having spaced out, and Jungeun sighs before taking a seat in front of her. "You've been acting weird recently." She states while crossing her arms over her chest and then casting her friend a worried look. “Did something happen with Y/n unnie?” She inquires and Jinsol’s mind momentarily goes blank before she hurriedly denies the assumption. “Y/n and I are perfectly fine!” She defends and Jungeun doesn’t seem to buy it when her eyes narrow on the latter. “Unnie.”
Biting the inside of her cheek, Jinsol let out a sigh before she looked around, making sure that there wasn’t anyone around to hear their conversation before she let her shoulders drop. “We’ve been okay, uh… maybe fooled around for a couple nights.” She finally confesses and Jungeun's eyes widen a little at the admission.
"You're-"
"We're not together!" Jinsol quickly interjects, twiddling her fingers. "Just… we just hook up and act like it doesn't happen." She mumbled quietly and Jungeun was quick to understand that there was more to it.
Because if it was nothing but supposed harmless fun, there was no way Jinsol would look this disheartened admitting it. And figuring that part out made Jungeun’s expression soften.
“You like her, don’t you?” Having it actually verbalized and out in the open had Jinsol shrinking into herself, bringing her knees to her chest as she nodded her head. “... I’m not supposed to though.” She whispers and Jungeun sympathetically places a hand on her knee. “Why not? You guys are close and I'm pretty sure it isn’t likely for you guys to like each other.” She tries, but Jinsol only shakes her head.
It was impossible.
Unthinkable.
You’ve both made it clear that this was all harmless fun.
She was an idol. You were just a friend who was willing to take away all of her stress and burdens.
It was an unspoken rule.
She couldn’t be in love with you. You clearly weren’t.
Not when she finds you surrounded by others who were obviously not her and asking for your attention. And contradictory to when you pull away from her attempts to kiss you, her heart drops when she sees the woman next to you grabbing your chin to press a lingering kiss against your cheek.
If she were seeing this from a different angle, she would have assumed that you were actually kissing this woman. But even if that were the case, she couldn’t get upset.
She didn’t have you. She couldn’t.
So, she watches from the other side of the club, her friends happily chatting around her while the only person she sees is you. Her fingers tighten around her glass the longer she watches, and it doesn’t take long before the woman you’re with is pulling you along and Jinsol has to roll her eyes when she sees where you’re headed.
In a dirty public restroom? Seriously?
She scowls at the notion of someone taking you in such a place. Didn’t they know how to take care of a gem? You deserved to be somewhere neat, somewhere you could be comfortable. You deserved to be worshiped in a place where she could properly hold and adore you the way you deserved to be.
Not some disgusting club.
“Unnie, are you alright?” She doesn’t even bother looking at Heejin when she knocks her drink back to grab another one. “Cheery.” She mutters, ignoring the burn that goes down her throat when she takes another shot and Haseul has to slow her down before she goes overboard.
She constantly checks for you, her patience running thin with every passing minute. With one last drink, she knows she’s had enough, both of waiting and the drinks.
As soon as she catches a glimpse of you exiting the restroom, she doesn’t hesitate anymore, even as she sways a little on her feet. She marches over with enough confidence the alcohol has given her before she’s inserting herself in between you and the woman you were just with and the flush of your skin and disheveled clothes makes her a little angrier, both at the woman and herself.
“Can we go?” She asks, though she doesn’t even give you time to respond before gingerly taking your hand and then leading you out of the club and getting a cab to take you to her apartment.
“Where we goin’?” She barely registers your words, both with how your speech has basically gone to shit from the alcohol and how her own ears were ringing.
You only get your answer when you find yourself in front of her door, and that same droopy smile reaches your face when you realize just where exactly you were. So as Jinsol tugs at your hand to enter, you happily oblige and accept her kiss when she shoves you against the door as it shuts.
Her kiss is hungry, needy, demanding and territorial. But you can’t exactly register anything except the taste of her lips before she starts mapping at your skin while she begins to undo the buttons of your shirt.
“Who was she?” She mutters against your neck and you whine as she nips at the skin. “I asked you a question.” She growls out and you gasp when she presses her knee between your legs. “I don’t remember.” You choke out, gripping her shoulders and she huffs before looking at your face.
Remembering you with the woman again made her anger flare up before she’s peeling you away from the door and leading you to her room, a pattern engraved in both of your minds. And once she’s sure her bedroom door is locked, everything else is out of her head and all that remains is you.
She doesn’t hesitate undressing you, making sure her lips press against every inch of skin exposed and she hums when you start to squirm. The way her breath ghosts over you sends a shiver down your spine and she wonders just how good that woman made you feel.
Or if she made you feel good at all?
“Tell me… who were you thinking of when she was touching you?” She whispers when her fingers trail a path along your thighs and she smiles to herself when she feels you trembling by that alone. 
Surely only she could do that to you.
“I-” She cuts you off when she snaps your underwear against your skin and quirks a brow, daring you to lie. “Who?” She asks again and you swallow thickly before finally answering her. “You.”
She falters a little when you manage to make eye contact with her through hooded eyelids, but the admission manages to spur her on, a satisfied smirk creeping up her lips when her warm hands press against your thighs, forcing them apart and refusing to let you move further.
“Is that so?” She whispers, and you’re not sure if you were just imagining the fond look in her eyes or if it’s been there this whole time. But if you were in a sober state and asked, she’d probably tell you then and there.
Instead, Jinsol makes quick work with both of your clothes, discarding everything on the floor and her kisses begin to move south. The gasp that’s torn from your lips and the moans that come spilling after makes her wonder if the other woman heard the same things she’s hearing right now.
God, she hopes she enjoyed it while they lasted because there was no doubt how Jinsol always craved to hear them even when they were so familiar within the walls of her room.
“Sol, please.” She snaps out of her train of thought when she hears your quiet begging. Fuck, if you just knew how much it drove her mad when you uttered her name like that.
But she wasn’t in her proper mindset right now.
Unlike all the other times she’s had her way with you, she takes her time this time just to make sure you feel her on your skin until the next time. To make sure that the only one you can think of the next time you even decide to have sex with someone else would still be her.
“I want to see you.” She husks out when her lips reach your stomach, a grin on her lips as she dips the tip of her forefinger into your heat and your hips buck up, needing far more than what she was giving you. “Be a little patient for me, beautiful. We have all night.” She chuckles and she intends to draw out every moan and every pretty sound from your lips.
And she does take care of you, making sure that you feel good with every touch, every kiss. Even when she finally sinks her finger inside of you and your back arches off the bed, she dips her head to capture your nipple between her lips, watching your expression all the while.
She marvels at your beauty, the sweat coating your skin and your mouth falling open. When her name is all you can utter, her pace quickens before she’s adding another finger, causing your toes to curl and clutch at her shoulders. “Did she make you feel this good?” She asks with a grunt, tongue flicking against hardened buds before her lips find their way back up your neck.
You whine when she pulls her fingers back, much to her amusement, before she uses her other hand to lightly caress your hip. “You’re always so eager for me.” She hums, breath fanning against your cheek as you pant heavily, eyes screwing shut when she eases her fingers back in and her own moan fills your ears.
And it doesn’t take long before you can feel her warmth against your leg, straddling it before slowly grinding against you. Your throat grows dry and she smiles down at you even as she continues to buck her hips while thrusting her fingers into you again.
Your hands find their place on her hips, pulling her closer and she can’t help but moan louder, leaning forward until her forehead knocks gently against your own. She starts to move faster, a little more desperate while your moans rise in volume and she just needs to hear you calling her name.
And as though you could read her mind, her name comes tumbling from your lips in a breathy pant. “Sol, more… please.” She sucks in a deep breath, steadying herself before she’s plastering another smirk on her lips. “Whatever you want, beautiful.”
It doesn’t matter that you both lose a little sleep tonight, not when you looked so peaceful by the time Jinsol wakes up the next day.
It didn’t matter that she couldn’t tell you just how selfish she wants to be. At the end of the day, you still looked for her touch, her lips, her praise.
She may not be able to hold you in public, but she’ll make sure that you never forget her even when you weren’t even hers to begin with.
You were a drug; you weren’t good for her, but damn was she addicted to you.
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zeonove · 2 years
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PAIRING: hyejoo x jinsoul x fem! reader ; words: 720
CATEGORIES: loona, hyejoo, jinsoul, smut, trio¿
A/N: IT'S MY FIRST TIME, I'm sorry if the narration is horrible or other things that are not coherent or I don't know, ugly.
A/N 2: hyejoo blode and jinsoul with blue hair
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— y/n unnie! thuth or dare? — began a game for the least of all, hyejoo. the three of them were sitting on the floor in a circle doing nothing fun, the trio playing "boring" childish hand games.
"umm... dare." - you answered confidently. you knew in advance that she would do something racy, that characterizes her, being a sassy.
- well... give me a kiss with tongue for more than ten seconds...? I don't know. — this type of questions in a joke tone is common and it is because the great trust that exists between you gives rise to that they do it between you.
— no problem for me on that, but I need jinsoul to count the seconds. — the named just nodded her head, that was enough. you approached the one who suggested the challenge and without giving the matter much thought, you kissed her.
it is an extremely good kiss, her lips collided so well between yours. you loved to feel the softness of them. even when sometimes when you kiss her, her red lipstick is impregnated.
- hey, time is up! I hope I am be the next one or they can forget about me.— the girl with blue hair joked with a laugh. jinsoul's voice made them separate from the kiss.
"you're fucking jealous, jindori." - you smiled and instantly understood what wanted so you approached her, ignoring the rules of the initial game. jinsoul was not going to resist, in fact she take you for the neck to get closer to her body.
jinsoul's lips had an exquisite taste, like alcohol with some fruit. inexplicable, but delicious. I really wanted you to kiss her, she kissed you with such enthusiasm that you couldn't control her and of course, she wasn't going to miss the opportunity to try to touch any part of your body.
you weren't going to stop her, it doesn't bother you that she's so horny. actually doing it with her is amazing, she's so good and hot.
but, what about hyejoo? your intention is not to leave her aside. she looked at them attentively, although she had her eyes direct to you, guessing your every move, you decided to look at hyejoo, maintaining eye contact. she smiled at you, her gaze emanating intense lust. you weren't going to last long without touching or feeling her, they both knew it well.
you don't know how, but you had jinsoul on top of you, she is very cunning and mischievous. however, the blonde should not be left out of this frenzy of crazy hormones. both looked at the minor as if it were a kind of invitation for her to join the journey. she understood and approached both of them.
the blue-haired girl smiled coquettishly at the youngest, she got off your lap and climbed on top of hyejoo, you don't know if she was conscious or not, but hyejoo lay down on the floor.
—um, hyejoo... you have beautiful boobs.— she brought her hands to the younger girl's tits, massaged them to her liking and then started rubbing her nipples on her sweater since she didn't even mind wearing a bra. hyejoo wasn't afraid to keep her from panting.
you approached both, placed closer to the body of the youngest of her. not to be left behind, you began to undo the buttons of the shirt that jinsoul was wearing, you left a long line of kisses from her jaw to her neck. all this while she kept playing with the blonde and her nipples.
you unzipped her pants, her panties were already fucking wet. you put a hand inside and reached her clit, rubbed it with two fingers and she moaned, arched her back and her head went to the ceiling with her eyes closed.
you looked at hyejoo, her boobs were so tempting. your desire to suck one or both was inevitable, you bit your lip and without waiting much longer, you brought your mouth closer to one of her breasts without stopping fucking jinsoul rubbing her clitoris faster now.
they both moaned at the same time. you love having them at your mercy, you liked that they always want to have sex with you and no one else. without a doubt, this afternoon went from being boring to something better than expected
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huhjxn · 1 year
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gangplanksorenji · 2 years
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Stay
Pairing: LOONA Jinsoul X Male Reader
Word Count: 1598
A/N 1: Hallo! It's me, again! I planned to do a quick fluff for Jinsoul to complete the OEC unit, so here it is! Enjoy and stay safe Orenjdeul! <3 A/N 2: Quickie and unedited, also I swear this is a fluffy one kek !! Trigger Warning !! : Mentions of Alcohol
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“Woohoo! I love being close with her, not gonna lie…” Jinsol exclaims as her heart becomes soft for Yerim whenever talking about her. 
The ambiance around the rooftop, late at night is something you’ll ever want. The lights around the table as late night talks fill up the air, making noises as it makes you smile, also happier whenever you’re with Jinsol. 
You’d never expect this once Jinsol texted you to come over yet here you are, three bottles of soju on the table as shot by shot, all of you are getting kicked by the strong taste of alcohol. This was just supposed to be a short visit to bond with Jinsol for a short moment yet Yerim and Jungeun convincing you for a little while is something you can’t deny.
“Unnie is a real joker, not gonna lie… Always scaring the hell out of me, recently yesterday.”
“Yuh! I didn't scare you yesterday! My voice was just too loud!”
“Well, you scaring us is never new, admit it…”
“I know, I know, but you’re always dying to see me…”
You smiled and got flustered at that statement of hers. It’s true though. You’re always wanting to see her and always feel soft whenever you’re by her side. 
“Yah! You texted me to come over and you know I can’t deny that because you’ll keep spamming me messages…”
“That’s not true b-but you’re blushing.. You’re blushing!”
“N-no, I’m not…”
“Yes you are!”
“Stop denying it, you are…”
The sudden cold tone of Jungeun never fails to put a shiver down your spine. You seem powerless to defend given the fact that the three of them say your cheeks are getting red in front of their naked eyes.
“O-oh okay, I admit it. It’s true, I wanted Jinsol all along…”
“See Unnie? That's easy, tch…”
Once again, a sigh of defeat escapes from your mouth as they giggled right after. 
“You’re so cute…”
“You too, Soulie…”
The third bottle is now opened as you pour their glasses with the grapefruit-flavored soju as all of you say “cheers!” right after.
“Ugh, this flavor tastes good…”
“It does Unnie, do you want some more?”
“Maybe later Lip, I’m feeling weird right now…”
You then engaged and started more talks as the cold breeze can be felt within your sweaters as you felt light headed right after.
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“Ah, fu- that’s funny Yerimie…”
“I know right…”
Jinsol’s laughters were your medicines as her smile is contagious and always her best features alongside herself. You weren’t drinking that much as you feel a knot in your head as it hurts worse than earlier. You weren’t that type of guy who drinks that much and yet here you are, competing alongside them on the ones who can last yet you don’t want them getting drunk and getting a hangover the day after while they’re practicing. You can’t stop the inevitable as their faces get red, signaling them getting drunk through time. Jinsol’s face was redder than the others as she drank more than what she could handle.
After a few minutes, Jinsol then gave Yerim a favor as you’re not liking what she could ask.
“Yerim-shi, can you pour more at my glass?”
“Sure Unnie…”
As Yerim is about to pour Jinsol’s glass with that soju, you stop her as Jinsol’s face is getting red, alongside her eyes and her body weakening from the alcohol she took. 
“Stop it Yerimie, she’s drunk, she can’t take it anymore..”
“Just don’t mind him, pour in more…”
As Yerim is about to pour in the soju again, you stopped her and this time, raising your tone.
“Stop it Yerim, I said don’t pour some, she’s drunk as hell, can’t you tell?”
“I m-mean s-she wants mor-”
“Don’t mind him Yerimie, I said pour in some more, listen to Unnie…”
As your blood boils between the both of you, Yerim is unsure of what to do as she pouts right after, anxious on what could happen next.
After that little fight brought by the alcohol you two have taken, Jinsol then took the initiative to get the soju bottle from Yerim’s hands as you held it too, letting the both of you use force while handling the bottle.
“Let go of it Jinsol…”
“No, I want more and I will put in more…”
“No, Jinsol, stop it..”
“No you- *grunts*”
As the both of you grunted about the bottle, Jungeun immediately held the two of you back as she dont want what’s happening, she didn't want the two of you going too far.
“Stop! The both of you, hand down the bottle! We won’t drink anymore! Both of you are drunk and out of yourselves!”
“I’m not out of myself, I’m just telling Jinsol to stop drinking because you may have a hangover tomorrow, all of us!”
“Awww, are you concerned about me? How fluttering this could be, tch. I want more and I-”
Jinsol then fell down to her legs as you luckily catched her in your arms, thanks to your reflexes. She fainted and it is obvious because all the soju she drank as your eyes scanned her visuals and left in awe of it. Jungeun and Yerim are in shock as they helped you carry her but you refused for the assistance of the two girls. 
“Are you sure you’re good, Oppa?”
“I’m fine, I can carry her to her room…”
“Okay then Oppa..”
Thanks to your workout for the past months, you are able to carry Jinsol to her room without a sweat. You then smiled at her sleeping face as her purrs can be heard while you’re in her arms.
“I told ya, you can’t handle such, tsk tsk..”
You then laid her down in her bed to give herself a rest from what the day offered to her. It’s always been a tough day being an idol and you understood her. The dance practice of almost an everyday schedule, practice on vocals, attending on such variety shows and a lot more. You never had enough time to show your affection towards her and so as she does to you. Both of you and your busy schedules have been a real struggle and a pain in your relationship yet the both of you are determined to be in contact with each other, online or offline. Now you’re here, on her side, not wanting to let her go but you have your own schedules to do and responsibilities to fulfill.
“You’re so beautiful when you're sleeping…” you whispered onto yourself as you caressed her hair and kissed her forehead. Her sweet tangerine perfume alongside the smell of soju never fails to make you allured and to be with her onto your arms. You want to stay longer but you really need to go until a murmur stops you from doing so.
“Thank you, please stay…”
Is it her voice? A husky one surely belongs to her and no one else as she regains consciousness. She then held your wrist with all of the energy she could in order to stop you from going away from her. Force is never an option as she pleads from refraining you from leaving her. 
“Please stay, please stay, please stay with me…”
“Jinsol, I got work to do tomorrow and I can’t be late…”
“We just met today, I haven’t even bonded with you for like a month or two then will it end like this?”
“No, it’s not like that Jinsol, it’s just-”
“Then leave me then, I don’t need-”
A quick peck of your lips to her cheeks is enough to make her stop from her rants as she blushed right after.
“Does that say enough?”
Silence is the response you received as you also expected it from her. Those are one of her weaknesses and you’ll use it against her with no hesitation. She is far from the chic and charismatic woman you knew on stage as her half-opened eyes, almost forming a squint, is evident from her eyes.
“N-no…”
“You’re blushing and stop saying you’re not…”
“It’s from the soju…”
“No Soulie, admit it…”
“Fine…”
She then pulled you for a embrace as you’re genuinely flabbergasted upon her act. This is something new and you love it. She is never like this whenever she’s by your side but you’re not complaining, but rather cherish a newfound act from her.
“I want to be with you, please…”
“A-are y-you good Soulie? I s-said don’t d-drink that much…”
“I’m good, I just want to savor this moment of us being together, y’know…”
Still dumbfounded and fazed, you deepen the hug as you show affection towards every second that counts. 
“You feeling cold?”
“Nope, but I want it just like this, please stay…”
A genuine smile painted on your face as you caressed her hair and her cheeks right after. 
“I will, don’t worry Soulie…”
You then kissed her forehead as you cuddled in her bed as you noticed that her audible snores can be heard, signaling that she fell asleep while being in your arms.
She looks really adorable and beautiful while sleeping as your genuine smile radiates again. Not so long after, you also fell asleep close to her, your nose can smell the scent of the shampoo she used earlier.
The night is definitely getting deep as Jungeun and Yerim finished cleaning as they watched in the distance, smiling from the sight of the saccharide air that fills the room.
“Let’s cuddle too Unnie?”
“Yerimie… tch..”
“I’ll always love you, no matter what happens.”
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tbzloonar · 2 years
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KISS, KISS, I WANNA KISS.
PAIRING son hyejoo x gn!reader. WARNINGS hyejoo swears like once, reader is like a complete sunshine, also reader was kinda chased by a student who was annoying her? but its kinda vague GENRE fluff & maybe friends to lovers? slight college au WC 886 words. A/N requested by the lovely @ilovechanhee here. i did way too much for the descriptive writing LMAO my bad. also pls reblog if u can<3 tumblrs algorithm is kinda ehhh
prompt #17: “quick, kiss me!”
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HYEJOO WAS EXTREMELY BORED.
Maybe it didn't show on her face—wait, never mind. Who was she kidding? It always showed on her face, at least that's what people always told her. But hey, people were quick to judge, most without even trying to get to know her. As soon as she walked through the campus, many students were intimidated, yet minded their business. Although sometimes she couldn't help but listen, listen to what other students were thinking of her. The comments that were made—both the good and the bad, "oh she's so pretty," "yeah, but she seems a little mean, I mean she's mostly glaring at people half of the time."
But what could she possibly do? It was just how her face naturally looked like when resting it, and as much as she tried to change it when she was younger, she soon gave up, and tried to ignore whatever was coming her way. They call it the RBF, short for "Resting Bitch Face", but Hyejoo feels like that's a little too mean, especially for something that she personally cannot control.
Hyejoo ran out of things to do on her phone, sighing as she put it away into her pocket. She went back to looking at the people walking on campus, either walking to their lectures or going home. She wished she was at home right now, laying on her bed and falling asleep on her favorite pillow. In fact, her lecture ended almost hour ago, yet her lovesick self had decided to suddenly act out and promise you to wait after your extra session ends.
She had heard you complain about it, but you still wanted to go, as you had many questions to ask the professor, as always. Yet that didn't mean you still didn't find it a bit annoying. She told you that she'd wait for you beside the main gate, and treat you for some treats in the nearby cafe, since you've worked very hard today—her words, not yours.
You happily accepted with a grin on your face, making realize that the suggestion she gave impulsively might not be as bad as she might of thought that would be. You were one of her closest friends in university, maybe her only friend, she felt like the rest of the people she interacts with on a daily basis felt like acquaintances. You were one of the only people who didn't give up on her, always walking up to her with that same smile on your face.
Now that she thought about you more, she was starting to miss you, wondering when that damned session was going to end.
As if on cue, your figure appeared from the main gate, catching Hyejoo's attention almost immediately. She quickly raised her hand up and waved, trying to catch your attention as well, when your eyes finally met hers, they lit up.
"Hyejoo!" You huffed, trying to regain your breath, you looked like you were in a hurry. "Just the person I was looking for."
Before Hyejoo could respond or say anything, you went up to her even closer than you were before, making her almost choke on her own breath. She was trying her hardest to not look at your lips, and to keep her focus on your eyes. But she failed miserably when your next words shocked her.
"Quick, kiss me!" You whisper shouted.
"W—what?" Hyejoo stuttered on her words, and internally smacked her forehead while she imagined how foolish she might have looked right now.
"Please," you tilted your head as a sign for Hyejoo to look behind you, as she looked and saw a student, trying to look for someone. Hyejoo frowned before she quickly realized that that student was looking for you, and that student was the exact reason you were running. The student's eyes stopped on your figure and they tried to walk towards you.
Hyejoo knew she had to act fast, she grabbed your shoulders and stopped suddenly before she reached your lips, looking back at your eyes to ask for permission. You closed your eyes slowly, as if to say yes, and waited for her lips to land on yours. 'Fuck it,' Hyejoo thought to herself, 'it's now or never.'
She softly and gently placed her lips on yours, and you immediately responded. If this is what romance movies and books meant by the fireworks that people feel when kissing another person, then she was definitely experiencing whatever that feeling was. She felt like she was standing on a cloud, she felt light, as light as a feather. She couldn't explain the amount of happiness that she felt bubble up inside of her—or maybe those were the butterflies in her stomach— when she finally realized that she was kissing you, her friend—no, her crush.
After about half a minute, the two of you soon pulled away, staring into each others eyes. You didn't care about being looked at, you didn't care about the other students walking by, you didn't care about the person that was following you a while ago, you two felt like you were the only people in the world.
No words needed to be said to describe the feeling you two felt for each other at that single moment.
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sweetenerosy · 1 year
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Can I request a G!P Loona reacting to reader getting nipple piercings?? -🌸
loona reaction to gf’s nipple piercings;
notes and warnings: not all members, fem!reader, nsfw, g!p loona, lq pics, not really proofread
hi, thanks for your request! i’m sorry i’m posting this so late, but i’d never thought about this before so it took me quite some time to come up with something even remotely useable. i do hope that this is what you had in mind, if not, i’m happy to redo your request! 💝
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heejin
heejin had never really thought about it before so it’s safe to say she would be surprised. at first, she’d be a little… worried, maybe? she’d ask questions like “didn’t it hurt getting those?” or “doesn’t it hurt now?”
but once you assure her that it does, in fact, not hurt anymore, she’d be happy that she’s got a new excuse to touch your tits. heejin’ll be twirling your piercings around in no time and i feel like she’d sometimes need to be told to stop like she’s just such an eager and giddy puppy.
other than that, i don’t really think she cares too much about your piercings. sure, they look nice on you but you’d look just as good without them so it’s not like a major turn on for her, but heejin does find them very hot.
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jungeun
now she! she’d love them! she’d get so turned on seeing them through your shirt if you’re not wearing a bra and honestly, just knowing that they’re there.
just like heejin, she’d nearly always have a hand on your breasts to play with your piercings, though unlike heejin she wouldn’t try to find sneaky ways to do it even with other people around. she would usually do it when you’re cuddling; just imagine being on the sofa, sitting on her lap with your back pressed against jungeun’s front, feeling the comforting warmth of your girlfriend… and a set of long fingers twirling around and flicking your pierced nipples.
this wouldn’t go on for too long, though, before you’d feel her grow rock-hard behind you. jungeun’s so super into your piercings, she’d often get hard just seeing them through your shirt, so i guess you should think twice about not wearing a bra around her.
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jinsoul
jinsoul would be kinda like heejin, except not as eager and giddy. she’d be surprised when you first show her that you’d gotten your nipples pierced. she’d wear a dopey smile while *intensely* staring at your breasts. she’d lift her hand to touch them a few times, but ultimately wouldn’t do it out of concern that it it might hurt, so she’d just “touch” them with her eyes, instead.
i don’t think she’d be super turned on by or interested in your piercings. sure, they’re nice to look at and honestly really cool, but nothing life-changing to her like they pretty much are to jungeun (again, she looooves them). she would once in a while think to herself something like ‘🤔wow… my girlfriend has nipple piercings… that’s pretty hot!’
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yerim
oh she’s another one that LOVES your piercings. they’re not only cool and incredibly sexy, but yerim would enjoy the fact that she’s the only one that gets to see and touch them.
she usually wouldn’t even do so much as look as your piercings, or your breasts for that matter, when other people are around, but trust me, when you’re alone, yerim would be all over them. if things are getting heated, she’d also not be afraid to suck your nipples and bite down on your piercings, of course, yerim would always make sure that she doesn’t seriously hurt you, but in her mind, a little pain never hurt anyone…
her favourite thing is playing around with your piercings while having sex. just imagine yerim pounding into you, one hand always on your hip to keep you in place and control your movements, the other one squeezing one of your tits while her thumb twirls around its piercing. 🥴
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chaewon
i think she’d be really excited about or rather by your piercings at first, but they’d become like a normal thing to her later on, like they’re actually a part of your body, if you get me. that doesn’t mean that chae would like them any less though, she’d often find herself playing around with them when you’re alone and she’s not doing anything that requires her attention (since most of it would be paid to you).
although she does find your piercings really sexy, she wouldn’t exactly get turned on by just them. i do think she’d enjoy you being naked around her, not only when you’re having sex, but like when you’re changing in front of her, for example. chaewon gets off on the fact that you’re comfortable enough to be naked around her, the piercings are a very welcomed bonus.
another thing she’d do is trying to spot your piercings through your shirt, even when you’re wearing a bra so you might catch her staring quite often…
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