#jordan suaste

[illustratinglaura]

Wowwowowowow I found my story from his lyrics.

#jordan suaste #sleep #Spotify

[1000-year-old-virgin]

Jordan Suaste - 100 Boys

#jordan suaste #100 boys #music #lgbtq #2023 #SoundCloud

[flawless-imperfections]

16 July 2023 song of the day

#song of the day #body #jordan suaste #2023 #Spotify

[misfithive]

If the world ended tonight x Wilmon

#young royals #wilmon #if the world ended tonight by jordan suaste #simon eriksson #omar rudberg #prince wilhelm #wilhelm x simon #edvin ryding #wilhelm young royals #misfit edit #young royals season 3 #young royals edit #young royals season 3 spoilers

[ashedflower]

This is not my post, I'm only spreading it. and now it's your turn.

#Body - Jordan Suaste #quotes #dont give up yet

[halsinswhire]

It's going to be okay (sample)

Halsin x gender neutral reader

Warnings: Angst to fluff, past ass*ult, past abusive relationship, kinda unintentional self harm, Halsin is a big softy (yes this is a warning)

Summary: You tell Halsin part of your past when he finds you upset

Should I keep this going or start on a new idea?

Tears fill your eyes as you run into the forest away from everyone's prying eyes. You keep running until you find a spot far enough away from everyone where they won't hear your crying. As you stop and take in your surroundings you realize there is a beautiful pond not too far away. Walking towards the pond, tears now running down your face, you decide this is a good space to be alone. Sitting by the edge of the pond you finally let your sobs escape your throat into the open air. Not realizing exactly what you're doing, or registering the pain, you start to hit your thighs as hard as you can. "Why can't I get over this? When does it stop hurting so much?" You scream. The sound of a branch snaps you out of your trance-like state, and you turn around to see Halsin close behind you. He walks towards you slowly and sits down beside you. "I felt the need to check on you when you ran off, would you like to talk about what it is that's upsetting you?" He says. You think for a moment, 'should I tell him?', but decide against it. Shaking your head you say "no it's- it's silly I'll be fine. Just give me a moment." Halsin does not believe you for a moment, but decides not to push the matter yet, instead staying seated beside you in case you change your mind. "Nature's gifts sure are beautiful, sometimes I sit out here just to observe." Halsin says. You know he is just trying to distract you, but for now you allow it to work. "You've been to this spot before? It's beautiful." You say. Leaning your head against his shoulder you let out a long sigh. "My problems are not yours, they are mine to deal with." You say. " My love, let me be here for you. You can rely on me."

#Spotify #halsin x reader #bg3 fluff #bg3 #bg3 halsin #bg3 angst #halsin #halsin fluff #halsin angst #past abuse #mental health

[elysianrey]

In my body I'm a disaster

I break down when you shake the ground

Every time I stand to leave my cage

In my broken body I stay 

• won’t let go: black match • a different kind of love: son lux • dark side: bishop briggs • smells like teen spirit: malia j • king of shadow: kat cunning • middle of the night: elle duhe • the loneliest: maneskin • renegade: big red machine, taylor swift • hurricane: tommee profitt, fleurie • can’t pretend: tom odell • secrets and lies: ruelle • broken: palaye royale • numb: elderbrook • if the world ended tonight - stripped: jordan suaste • i need my girl: the national • where your secrets hide: klergy, katie garfield • 

listen to the rest here

note: I am forever indebted to nanna.arts on insta for bringing this intimate kanej scene to life in the most beautiful way. it accompanies the playlist i’ve created perfectly and I cannot thank her enough. I will continue to update the list as I find new music! I hope all of you authors, artists, and shippers enjoy. x

#kanej #kaz x inej #kaz brekker #inej ghafa #six of crows #shadow and bone #freddy carter #amita suman #leigh bardugo #kanej playlist #grishaverse #kanej fanart #not my art #commissioned art #nanna.arts #please do not repost this art

[ilovebokutokoutaro]

𝐋𝐢𝐥𝐚𝐜

Minho x reader

Warnings: ED, don't read if mentions of eating disorders could trigger you please don't. Throwing up, angst, comfort (i just want to tell you all you're really freaking pretty and awesome).

─┉┈◈◉◈┈┉

"trust me, why don't you just trust me? You're the only beauty, show me more."

─┉┈◈◉◈┈┉

Minho loved you, he loved everything you did just as much too, he loved watching you speak, he loved watching you smiling at the things you liked, he loved the way your eyes shimmered brightly when you looked at him...and just everything.

But minho specially loved watching you eat, he knew your relationship with food wasn't the best but you had been doing better and so maybe he thought letting it go wouldn't do anything bad.

But minho didn't need to specially know that comments like "she's so thin", "she's so pretty", "i wish i was like her" only ever drove you to edge, he thought that maybe you'd feel better about yourself if you heard such stuff.

What he didn't know was the looming darkness enveloping your head in a warmth that'd slowly burn your body into nothing but bones.

He didn't know the haunting silence that made it's way to your heart as loud screeches as you stared at your reflection, it appeared you could never see the beauty minho carried in his head, the beauty you were.

Your fingertips trailing your collarbones as you breathes in a sharp sigh, knuckles so cleary visible only you could see the thickness that blinded your view, you were getting unhealthily thin.

Minho had been out for a month and you felt horrible for being like this, you weren't a kid he should have to arrange meals for, to make sure you ate well, you weren't.....you never wanted to be a burden to him.

And it didn't help as you walked your way to work, after 3 days, too scared to show your face anywhere.

Summer had recently started and you hated the fact you had to show your body to people, open for them to judge. So you wore a thin oversized and full sleeved shirt, a lose pair of pants to hide the shape of your body.

But it was to no avail.

"you're getting too thin, y/n! You need to gain weight.." a coworker of yours mumbled and you could already feel the one bite you took coming up your throat. "Y-yeah?" You chuckled awkwardly as they went on and on about what you should and what you shouldn't do.

God you wanted to die, you had barely eaten 5 bites and you already felt so full, but you were scared.

Scared that if you stop eating they'd pick on you again and so you ate, only to sit in the toilet 15 mins later, throwing up everything you had.

Forcing your fingers in your throat as you bit down hard, throwing up everything you've had since morning, a dull ache followed through your tummy to chest, the back of your throat and tongue aching as if you had been beaten down.

Your jaw felt stiff and painful as you got up, shivering as you saw a woman standing near the sink with a worried expression.

"A-are you okay?" She whispered cautiously and you mustered up the best smile you could, "yeah ofc! Just had something bad for lunch so my stomach acted up hahaha don't worry!" You cheerfully explained.....well as cheerfully as you could...

"okay..." She stuttered still a bit suspicious but you laughed and left, forgetting to dry your hands as you pinched your skin.

The rest of the day went by easily and you sighed as you walked back to your house, yet again alone. Wishing minho would be back soon, taking small steps and soon you were cautious of how you walked, what if you looked weird walking because you were so thin?? What if your body looked uglier than it used to??

What if you- your thoughts were interrupted by a sudden urge to throw up, you hadn't had anything yet, and you had already thrown up everything you ate in the morning.

You speed walked to your apartment, sweating through your shirt as the heat came to you.

And it wasn't before you were back in your bathroom throwing up water as you wheezed. You should eat. You should eat. You should eat. You should eat....you shouldn't eat, you shouldn't eat, you shouldn't eat.

"oh god i really do hate myself..." You chuckled, tears wetting your cheeks, small cries slowly turning into loud sobs as you wrapped your arms around your head to stop the thoughts. Even just for a moment...just for a second.

"why am i like this?!" You complained, standing up to look at yourself in the mirror. God you looked horrible, dark circles making you look like a zombie. And then you walked out. Eating whatever came into sight.

Crying as you stuffed yourself with whatever food you could find. Too ugly, too thin, too much. You were too much for anyone.

And you ate more the other day, ignoring the guilt bubbling up at the pit of your stomach. You felt sick. You felt really sick. Sick of yourself, sick of everyone telling you how your body should look like, Sick of hating yourself for breathing, sick of being so ugly and unworthy.

And you waited, waited and waited for someone to pull you out of the hell hole you've jumped into.

Talks with minho got brief as he got busier with his schedule and you with eating and throwing up alternatively.

And there was only so much you could take....as you sat on your bed, wishing to be dead as the images of your body flashed in your head over and over. God it was haunting. You had gained weight. A lot of it, or that's what you thought.

"I'm so sick of myself" you cried loudly, tears blurring your vision over and over no matter how hard you tried to wipe them away.

"I'm sick of feeling like this minho, I'm too ugly for you, I'm too much. Why are you still by my side? God... aren't you tired of me? Aren't you.....why do you even love someone like me?" You sobbed and you could hear a sharp breathe coming from the other side.

"y/n.." he sounded sad, maybe disappointed. Was he disappointed in you? Was he crying because of you?

"I'm sorry.." you sobbed out again and you could hear every little breathe he took. "Listen...baby you're not too much and ugly? God. I've never ever seen someone as pretty as you ever, if only-" he took a deep breathe "if only you could see yourself the way i see you, if only i was there to hold you right now...but I'm not, so stay for me, please if you can't love yourself, take care of yourself for me, i love you, i love everything you do, the way you look at me, how pretty you look when you smile, you look so pretty even when you're crying even though i hate seeing you in pain. You're so goddamn pretty y/n i don't understand why you would ever think I'll get tired of you....i could never. I may not understand what you're going through right now, but i love you and I'll always be here for me whenever you need me. I- i love you so much!!" He exclaimed and you cried back a loud "i love you so much too"

A smile adorning your face, even when tears stained your pretty cheeks as you talked to him untill your couldn't keep your eyes open.

Maybe it was going to be hard, maybe you're not worthy of anything but minho loved you, and that's all that mattered. You weren't just your body. You were wayy more than the shape your hips took or the way your tummy rolled or the chubbiness of your cheeks, you were wayy more than what your body looked like and minho made sure you knew that.

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This may not be accurate or fit into what you feel but this is how i feel so i wrote it accordingly. Also hope that all of you know how absolutely precious you are, how pretty you all look when you're happy and i wish you all eat well. I'm so proud of anyone suffering through such and god i love you all so much too💞💞

#skz minho #lee minho angst #minho angst #minho icons #skz angst #skz imagines #tw disordered eating #eating disoder recovery #skz #skz x reader #stray kids #straykids minho #Spotify

[bigmilk-13]

I want to scream this song to all the people at my Catholic Polish primary school as loud as I can to get some shit across-

BEING CALLED GAY ISN'T AN INSULT

why do people use it as one and also get offended when being called gay? Like tf-

Sometimes I wish I could go back to England so I wouldn't have to hide who I am.

In England I bought myself an ace flag pin, a lesbian flag pin, a he/them pronouns pin and non-binary pin too. I had all of those on my lanyard at my secondary school freely SO WHY CAN'T I HAVE THEM HERE?

#lgbt #lgbtq #lgbtqia #lgbtqia+ #lesbian #asexual #nonbinary #he/they #catholiscism #i don't understand #why can't i be myself? #see this is why i'm an athiest #i need more polish queer friends #anyone wanna talk? #Spotify

[illustratinglaura]

Sirius all dolled up and dramatic.

Inspired by Starry Eyes and Champagne Nights by ThePuppeteer28. @silence-between-seconds

#sirius black #marauders era #sirius #starry eyes and champagne nights #sirius art #padfoot #SoundCloud

[alt-king]

Recently, I made playlists for my favourite Ac Valhalla characters, and I thought I would share some of them with you all. I also asked my friend @troublemakingrebel if they had any song suggestions they thought would fit certain characters and they gave some great songs! So I may have stolen a few of them for myself. 😚

And we'll start with our favourite rat man; Ivarr

Very simple, the name is why it's in Ivarr's playlist 🤣 But it's also a great song with a heavy beat (but not too heavy) that I think fits Ivarr perfectly. I can imagine this playing in background while the vikings stormed and plundered their way across England.

Another one that probably speaks for itself. I just really like it and I can totally imagine Ivarr preforming a blood eagle whenever I listen to this.

Only recently found out about this one from my friend @troublemakingrebel and I am absolutely obsessed with it. The whole song just screams Ivarr and I can invison so many things with it. It's *chefs kiss*

Ivarr is not only a King himself, but also a King Killer, so he's probably made a few people bow before him before. I like to imagine he's sitting on the fanciest of thrones, his face and axes covered in blood while the bodies of his enemies and the Kings he's killed are fallen around his feet. A crown also sits lopsided on his head and he's just proud of his work and everything he's done.

Might be a bit surprising, lol, but I imagine this to the whole Sciropescire arc. Ivarrs manipulating, saying "looked what you made me do" to Rhodri while they fight or Ivarr blood eagles him, making him feel responsible for everything that happend. And as much as I hate what canonical happend in game there are quite a few songs that fit perfectly with it.

I can also imagine this song during Eivor and Ivarr's battle when Eivor finds out the supposed truth.

A more of a sadder one, and one that is more related to what happens to Ivarr in my own story/Au.

I have so many more songs in my Ivarr playlist than just these ones but obviously I can't add them all, lol.

#Spotify #ac valhalla ivarr #assassinscreedvalhalla #ivarr the boneless #spotify playlist

[nerves-nebula]

Hi Nebula, I was wondering, have you listened to "Child I Will Hurt You" from Crystal Castles, "Body" by Jordan Suaste, & "Giver" by Sarah Kinsley? The songs remind me about your TM(N)T au. With "Giver" particularly, I kept thinking about how the song mostly relates to Donnie's experience with CSA (to clarify, the song isn't (exactly) about SA - just that it makes me think of what happened to Donnie and his perspective).

What do you think? ^_^'

Ranked:

Nope never heard it before. Not really my thing

Also not really my thing but I liked the way it picked up near the end

This one’s a bit closer to what I like, but it probably won’t enter into rotation

Ultimately tho I’m just flattered you think of my story enough that you’ve got songs you associate with it

#nnstuff #ask #music #asks are sweethearts

[unknowntoyou2205]

I'm more than- Halstead sister

Info: y/n, a DNA forensic student in university, is the youngest sister of jay and will halstead. On the way home from college one day, she is attacked by a guy intelligence has been looking for, but will she tell the truth?

Warnings: mentions of rape, brief description

Relationship: Will x Jay x reader sister.

Feeling a little nervous publishing this with what it surrounds

… I'm more than I'm more than I'm more than

Y/n Halstead laughed as she and her friends spoke of one of them nearly fainting at the sight of fake blood around a life like dummy which portrayed a scene.

"You know you won't be able to do that if you work on an actual scene right." Y/n stated to her friend who just rolled her eyes. "Listen, I had an off day alright, I can handle blood." Her friend stated, throwing her hands in front of her in exasperation. "Sure you can." Y/n agreed with a laugh as they reached the corner they split up at.

Y/n waved at her three friends as she watched them cross the road before turning down to the alleyway which lead to her apartment. She sighed and threw her hands in her pockets to protect them from the cold when she was suddenly grabbed from behind. She screamed and clawed at the arm which surrounded her throat, trying to escape. She gasped in pain as she was pushed against the concrete wall.

… Body, let me see your body Take off all your makeup and your clothes Trust me, why don't you just trust me? You're the only beauty, show me more

"Shut it and this will end quickly?" A rough voice spoke to her, grabbing her bag and throwing it away from her. "Please, leave me alone, take my money, my phone, anything, just please, dont hurt me" y/n begged as she tried to fight him. "Shut up, I dont want nothing off you, dont want to hear you." He stated as he pushed her head to the wall and tried to get rid of her jeans. "No please no, stop please." She cried, trying to kick only to be forced onto the ground.

She screamed as he continued his assault on her.

… You're not a dime a dozen Oh, your skin is golden Let me show the whole damn world You're one in a billion The only thing you're missin' Is some tape over that mouth.

Y/n cried as she stayed lying on the ground, refusing to move as the unknown guy got off of her. She placed her hands over her head as a source of protection, preventing her from seeing who it was.

"Dont fucking move till I'm gone." The guy told her, pulling her hair so her head was off the ground before leaving her.

Y/n cried as she lay on the ground, unable to move with the pain she felt. Slowly, she reached for her Jean's as sits up, winching at any small movement. After sorting herself out she just sat on ground, head down crying. She looked up when heard footsteps, half afraid it was her attacker coming back.

She looked away when she realized it was her neighbour who crouched down in front of her. Turning her attention back to the woman in front of her, she watched as she spoke, unable to hear anything over the ringing in her ears. She jumped when she felt a hand on her shoulder, before looking down in shame as she refused to look at woman in front of her.

"Hello ambulance please, there's a young girl in distress here, looks like attacked. Thank you."

Y/n glanced in the direction of her woman when she heard the word ambulance. Afraid to startle her, the woman kept her distance as they waited before flagging down ambulance when the sirens were heard. The woman walked towards Sylvie and Mills as they get out and go towards her before nodding and grabbing their back board and medical supplies bag. As they tried to help y/n started to fight them, not seeing clearly on who it was.

"No, please no." Y/n cried, afraid of someone touching her. "She's in too much distress, we need to sedate her." Sylvie stated to Mills who nods and grabs the needle from the bag. "Please, I don't want them to know, please." Y/n mumbled as she started to drift unconscious.

… Body, I'm more than my body You can pack your things up, buh bye, just go Body, I'm more than my body Don't owe you a thing, no, not at all

"What we got?" Maggie called out as sylvie and Mills wheel y/n into med. "20 year old female, found in alleyway close to apartment, likely to be assaulted, had to be sedated as she was distraught when we got there, found by woman who says her name is y/n" Mills recited as Maggie, Ethan and Conor help bring the patient to trauma bay. "y/n?" Ethan asks as he recognizes who it is. "Bring will down, tell him its his sister." Conor stated to Maggie after moving y/n from the board. "Also call Natalie, if she has been assaulted we may need to do rape test." Ethan told the head nurse. "On it." Maggie nodded before pulling the curtain and heading to her desk, paging Will on her way.

… I'm not a toy to play with Not just a sight to see and My mind is worth its weight in gold I'm not a dime a dozen I know I'm worth this, more than You will ever know

Will rushed down into the ER after getting paged. She looks around to see that the ER wasn't that busy and his patients had no change in them. Glancing around, he sees Maggie at the nurses station and rushes towards her in confusion.

"I was paged" He asked her when he reached the area. Maggi looks at him before nodding her head towards the staff area. "Maggie what is going on?" Will asked impatiently when Maggie wouldn't answer him. "Will, I need you to remain calm alright." Maggie stated, putting her hands up in front of her in a calming motion. "Maggie what is it?" Will asked impatiently. "Will, your sister came in via ambulance today." "Y/n, what, where is she? Is she okay?" Will asked, pushing past Maggie to enter the ER to look for his sister. "Will wait, she's unconscious right now but Connor and Ethan are looking over her now alright. Look, she's in bay 4 but for now hang tight." Maggie tried to explain as Will ran a hand through his hair. "Can I see her? Maggie I need to see her." "Will you can't see her right now, not until she's cleared for visitors you know the drill. She's an adult and therefore doesn't need supervision." "Maggie..." "Will try it and I will have you off the floor for the rest of shift." Maggie warned, pointing a finger at him.

Will sighs and sits on couch, putting hands on his face, rubbing his eyes in frustration. Maggie rubbed his shoulder in encouragement before leaving to work on more papers.

Touch me, you just want to feel me You just want to share me You don't care at all Trust you, why don't I just trust you? You just want to use me Now I know Body, I'm more than my body You will never get me, buh bye, just go

Y/n groaned when light shone into her eyes, blinking rapidly as sge turns her head only to see a heart monitor. Her eyes widen as she realizes where she is and sits up rapidly. She groaned when she seen the drip in her arm before snapping her head to the door when footsteps were heard. Ethan came into her view and she watched cautisly.

"Hey, your awake." He smiled, staying near the door in case. She smiled weakly, wringing her hands together. "I'm going to call Natalie, she's going to be taking care of you, I'm glad to see you awake."

Y/n stares ahead of her as memories of what happened to her replays in her head. Tears come to her eyes as she realizes it had actually happened and wasn't just a bad dream. She jumps when she hears nock on glass, seeing Natalie come into the room.

"Sorry" Natalie spoke sympathetically, " how you feeling y/n?" Natalie smiled softly as she walked in. Y/n shrugs and looks down slightly. Natalie clears her throat and moves towards the bed. "I'm just going to check you over, is that okay?" Natalie asked, waiting for y/n to nod hesitantly before moving closer. The two stayed in silence as y/ns vitals were checked, y/n watching with glossy eyes. "Alright, your all good, I just have some questions I need to ask you, alright?" Y/n nodded, glancing up at the doctor. "You had to be sedated due to being in distress, can you tell me why that was?" Natalie asked. Y/n shrugged and remained silent. "Y/n I just need to know so I can help you. Did somebody hurt you?" Natalie asked again, trying to get an answer from the younger Halstead. Y/n looked up and over Natalie's shoulder to see Will looking over at where she was being treated. "Y/n please, I can't help you if you don't tell me, did somebody touch you?" Natalie asked again, desperate to help the girl she had known since she was 16. That's all it took for y/n to burst out crying. "Y/n, what happened?" Natalie asked, coming closer and pulling y/n into a hug. Y/n choked in tears as she clung to Natalie. "Y/n, I need to do a rape test on you? Do you consent to that?" Y/n froze as Natalie said the word she dreaded to hear or say, realizing that it was real. "It will help as evidence against the guy should you take it further. And I can be sure that no internal damage is there." Natalie explained, rubbing y/n's arm gently, pulling away when she jumped. "Yes." Y/n spoke in a whisper, not recognizing her own voice. "I'll be back shortly, do you want visitors?" Natalie smiled weakly before leaving as y/n shook her head no.

I'm more than I'm more than I'm more than My body

Will watched in the distance as Natalie spoke to his sister, before standing up when she started crying. He opened the door of staff room to go to her when Maggie sees and quickly pulls curtain and close door before stopping him.

"Maggie please..." "Will no, I promise as soon as you can you can go." Maggie persisted, placing a hand on his chest to push him back.

Will sighs and leans against desk, rubbing forehead before looking around, only to see Jay.

"Jay." Will called ,gaining attention of his brother. "Will, hey. What's up?" Jay asked, turning to face his brother after finishing talking to Sharon. "You don't know?" Will asked, confused. "Know what?" Jay asked his brother in confusion. "Jay, y/ns here in hospital. She was brought in earlier." "Wait what, is she okay? Where is she?" "Bay 4 but Maggie won't let me see her yet, she's not clear for visitors." Will sighed. "To hell with that I'm going to see our sister, which ones bay 4."

"Ehh, where do you two think your going?" Maggie asked, stepping in front of the two brothers in frustration, knowing what they were about to say. "Maggie, where's my sister?" Jay asked ,looking around to see if he could see her face. "Jay, I am going to tell you the exact same thing as I told Will, you can't see her yet, as soon as you can I will let you know. For now, don't you have a job to do." Maggie stated in slight annoyance. "My sister is more important then my job." "Well you can't see her so either do your job, or go wait with your brother. Try see her and I kick you out of the hospital, that goes for both of you." Maggie stated, pointing at them both. Jay turned and looked at his brother. "I'm actually here for a possible assault so I'm going to see how were getting on." He stated before turning to leave.

Will turned his attention to Natalie as she came out of the room where his sister was.

"Maggie, can I get a rape kit brought down here please, ASAP." Natalie asked, causing Will to look at her. "Nat, what's wrong with y/n?" Will asked, gaining his brothers attention once again. "Not now Will, I'll explain later." Natalie spoke, moving away from him and towards the folders. "Natalie you just ordered a rape kit and I'm supposed to just let it go as if you weren't just in with my sister, what the hell happened?" Will spoke in exasperation, trying to make a point. "Will seriously, drop it. Your sister is twenty years old, I do not need to tell you anything. And the rape kit isn't for her" Natalie stated, lying to him before moving away towards another patient. "Can you at least tell me if it's okay to see her." "Not now." Natalie shook her head before leaving the two Hallstead's to sigh in frustration.

I'm more than I'm more than I'm more than My body

Y/n lay on bed as Natalie did the test on her, April standing by for help and to reassure the youngest Halstead that she wasn't alone. The room was silent as the test was done, the doctor and nurse not believing that it happened and the patient fearing the nightmare would never end.

"Alright, all done. Bring these to forensics so they can test it, see what they find." Natalie spoke to April, placing the blanket back over y/ns legs before giving April the bag of evidence. April nodded and left, closing curtain and door behind her. "Are you hungry, thirsty? I can get something sent up to you if you would like?" Natalie asked the young girl as she stood up, taking off her gloves. "No, I'm okay." Y/n spoke softly, still afraid to speak. Natalie sighed and moved closer. "You know this wasn't your fault, you didn't ask for this." Natalie spoke. "Do my brothers know?" "No, but they have been impatiently waiting around since you came in, breaking Maggies heart they are." Natalie joked, trying to get y/n to ease slightly. "I know they won't hurt me, but, I'm scared, even those who I know and trust I feel like I can't." "I can't imagine what your going through, but just know that there are people here for you." Natalie spoke softly, causing y/n to look down slightly. "Erin and Kim want to ask you some questions if your up for it." Y/n nodded and looked up at Natalie who smiled at her kindly. "Yeah, I suppose I should."

Y/n looked down again as she heard the door open and Natalie talking before two pairs of footsteps were heard.

"Hi y/n, are you okay to talk?"

I'm more than I'm more than I'm more than My body

Will came out of a patients room before seeing Jay standing near exit. He moved closer and stands beside him, seeing him looking at y/ns area.

"Hey, any news?" Jay asked. "Nope, haven't heard a thing since last spoke to Natalie, how's your case?" "Burgess and Erin are talking to the victim now." "God, I can't imagine taking that case." "I'm glad we haven't had to deal with that close to home." Jay stated, glancing at Will before turning back to y/n's room as he loked on in confusion.

Seeing his brothers confusion Will turned in the direction Jay was watching to see Burgess and Erin leaving y/n's room, Natalie following close behind. Jay looks at Will and the two walk closer as the three women talk.

"Erin, what's going on?" Jay asked as he and his brother stop in front of the three. "Nat?" Will asked, turning to his college and girlfriend "I thought y/n wasn't up for visitors, why were they in there." Erin and Natalie looked at each other before facing the two Halsteads. "Will, Jay. There's no easy way to say this but, y/n has been assaulted by a man outside her home around lunch time." Erin explained to the two brothers carefully. "That's why you couldn't see her, because we weren't sure what way she would react." Natalie explained as Burgess moved away from the group as a message came through. "So she was raped, my sister was raped." Jay stated in shock as Will ran a hand through his hair in disbelief. "I know it's hard to hear but you have to be there for y/n now. She needs you more than ever." Natalie stated as Kim came back. "Forensics got results back from the rape kit, we're looking at the same guy we've been looking for from the other women." Kim stated as she came towards the group. "Okay, let's get back to intelligence, Jay, I'll let Voight now hat your hear with your sister." Erin stated. "Thanks." Jay stated ,still in shock of what he heard. "Can we see her now?" Will asked, wanting to be there for his sister. "I'll ask her if she's up to it." Natalie nodded before moving towards the door which had y/n behind it.

I'm more than I'm more than I'm more than My body

Y/n looked up with fear as she heard the door open before relaxing when she seen Natalie pop her head in.

"Hey y/n, Will and Jay are outside, are you up to seeing them?" She asked softly, not wanting to spook the girl before smiling when she nodded her head

"Okay, she said it's okay. Just be cautious, keep your distance, let her come to you." Natalie explained before opening the door fully and allowing the two boys in.

Will and jay look at there sister, hearts breaking at how broken she looked. Y/n watched as Will took a seat and moved it away from the bed to allow distance as y/n watched the two as they moved.

"Hey, how you feeling?" Will asked, only for Jay to elbow his stomach as y/n looked down. "Right, silly question, sorry." Will answered, waiting y/n to speak. "I'm sorry." Y/n whispered, causing both boys to look at her. "You have nothing to be sorry for, it's not your fault. This shouldn't of happened so don't blame yourself." Jay spoke, shaking his head in disagreement. "No, I know, I'm sorry I can't go near you. I know you wouldn't hurt me but I am scared." Y/n cried, afraid she was disappointing them. "It's okay, you don't have to apologize, we'll get through this, together." Will stated, causing y/n to nod and smile slightly at the two.

I'm more than I'm more than I'm more than

Six months later, Will and Jay stood with y/n outside the court room, preparing for the trial against y/n's rapist. Thanks to y/n's fighting they had gathered sufficient amounts of DNA to discover who the guy was. Now, all y/n had to do was stand in front of the jury and explain what happened, while looking at her attacker in the eye.

"We'll be sitting behind you if you need us." Jay stated, still keeping distance as y/n hadn't felt comfortable enough to allow men to touch her yet. "You've got it, just look at us if you need encouragement alright." Will stated, smiling at y/n who took a shaky breath as Erin came towards them to bring her to the court.

Y/n looked around as they entered the courtroom. The doctors and nurses of Chicago med (Natalie, April, Maggie, Sharon, Conor, Ethan and Dr. Charles) as well as those from intelligence (Antonio, Kevin, Adam, Kim, Mouse and Trudy) had come to show there support as well as the paramedics who brought her to med, Sylvie and Mills. She refused to look towards the guy who was being held as a rapist as she waited for the judge to come forward, before standing up as the case began. She looked down as the information of her case, as well as other women who had been attacked by the same man, was recited to the court, before looking up when the man was brought to the stand.

She watched as he looked out to the crowd with no emotion, listening to the charges as he pleaded not-guilty. Her mouth opened wide as he looked at her as he came down from the stand, grinning at her with a sick smirk before he was pulled to sit down. She turned back to face her brothers who smiled and nodded at her in encouragement. She turned back as the judge called for recess so the Jury could come to their verdict.

Y/n sat outside the court room as Will and Jay spoke to their colleges about the case. She looked up as she heard someone clear their throat.

"It's okay, there's too much evidence there for them not to give him a sentence." Erin spoke softly, gaining the attention of the rest. "Yeah, if it was me he'd be somewhere no one would find him." Jay muttered but Erin shot him a glare before they were called back in. "That was quick, Does that mean something bad?" Y/n asked Erin frantically. "It doesn't mean anything yet. There just ready to announce the outcome." "God I feel sick." Y/n stated as they headed back to the courtroom, standing as the judge came back in.

"Has the Jury come to a verdict?" The judge asked, looking at the Jury. "We have your honor." The speaker announced. "Carry on." "For the assault against Ms. Abigail Roche we define the defendant, guilty of this charge. For the assault against Ms. Sophia and Amelia Dunne, we define the defendant guilty of this charge. And for the assault against Ms. Y/n Halstead, we define the defendant guilty of this charge." The speaker read out, causing y/n to sigh in relief and Erin to rub her back. "The defendant has been sentenced to life imprisonment. Court dismissed." The judge stated, hitting his hammer before everyone stood up.

Y/n sighed in relief and smiled at Erin as they gathered there stuff before leaving the court room. The two walked out of the building to see Jay and Will standing near the car, waiting for them. Jay and WIll smiled at them as they came towards them.

"Hey, it's all over now." Jay smiled, placing a hand on Wills shoulder as he also smiled. Y/n smiled before running towards the two, pulling them into a hug. Erin smiled as she watched both brothers tear up as their sister hugged them for the first time since her assault.

"I'm proud of you." Will smiled, "Can I have another hug?" He asked, causing y/n to wrap her arms around his neck in a proper hug. "We are always here for you, don't ever forget it." Jay spoke as y/n hugged him again. "I love you." Y/n smiled. "I love you too." Will and Jay smiled, glad to have their sister with them.

#Spotify #one chicago #Chicage med #Chicage pd #Halstead brothers x sister #halstead x sister #will halstead #jay halstead

[allthegaynamesaretaken]

I need Jordan Suaste to know they ruined my life when they released the song "Body". Every time I've listened to it, always against my will, I've already run out of my 6 hourly Spotify skips and suddenly I'm sobbing on the floor in my mom's kitchen.

#lgbtq #trans #lgbt #transgender #nonbinary #genderqueer #asexual #queer #lesbian #sad #im so sad and this song only makes it worse #literally sobbing rn

[splishsplashyouropinionistrash]

Andrew Minyard Character Playlist

Hello, my loves! Some of you might know that I'm a huge music nerd. I have approximately eight (8) different AFTG playlists, and I decided I wanted to share some of them with y'all.

My Andrew playlist is my pride and joy, my baby, the love of my life. I spent multiple days cultivating this bitch.

Anyway.

For this playlist, I drew a lot of inspiration from Andrew's meds, his apathy, his general vibe, and his relationship with Neil. I relate to his character a lot, so I'm very proud of this one.

Andrew Minyard #3

“Andrew Minyard didn't look like much in person, blonde and five feet even, but Neil knew better. Andrew was the Foxes' freshman goalkeeper and their deadliest investment.”

feel something ~ Bea Miller

Numb to the Feeling ~ Chase Atlantic

Twisted ~ MISSIO

Happy Pills ~ Weathers

xanny ~ Billie Eilish

Cigarette Daydreams ~ Cage The Elephant

Arsonist's Lullabye ~ Hozier

I Hate Everything About You ~ Three Days Grace

I Found ~ Amber Run

love song ~ YUNGBLUD

Happy Face ~ Jagwar Twin

die first ~ Nessa Barrett

Aimed to Kill - Chill Version ~ Jade LeMac

It's Called: Freefall ~ Rainbow Kitten Surprise

Bang Bang Bang Bang ~ Sohodolls

Riptide ~ grandson

Angry Too ~ Lola Blanc

Ain't No Rest for the Wicked ~ Cage The Elephant

Twin Skeleton's (Hotel in NYC) ~ Fall Out Boy

Kill Somebody ~ YUNGBLUD

parents ~ YUNGBLUD

Happy Little Pill ~ Troye Sivan

True Love Is Violent ~ Allie X

I Always Wanna Die (Sometimes) ~ The 1975

Boulevard of Broken Dreams ~ Green Day

Medicine ~ Daughter

Love Me Like You Hate Me ~ Rainsford

Drugs & Candy ~ All Time Low

Strawberries & Cigarettes ~ Troye Sivan

Tag, You're It ~ Melanie Martinez

Teenagers ~ My Chemical Romance

Afraid ~ The Neighbourhood

Monsters ~ Seafret

BLOOD ~ MOTHICA

Broken ~ Lund

pretty poison ~ Nessa Barrett

LAST CIGARETTE (feat. Au/Ra) ~ MOTHICA, Au/Ra

The Beach ~ The Neighbourhood

Lost It To Trying ~ Son Lux

High Enough - Slowed ~ K.Flay, xxtristanxo, Slowed Radio

Little Dark Age ~ MGMT

Hellboy ~ Herizen

My Stress ~ NF

Smother ~ Daughter

Devil May Cry ~ Mako

Feel Something ~ Jaymes Young

Triggered ~ Chase Atlantic

for him. ~ Troye Sivan, Allday

Overdose ~ grandson

drugs ~ EDEN

Mouth Of The Devil ~ Mother Mother

i wanna die ~ Nessa Barrett

Numb ~ Linkin Park

Medication ~ YUNGBLUD

madhouse ~ Nessa Barrett

forever fifteen ~ MOTHICA

i Don't Even Care About You ~ MISSIO

Body Terror Song ~ AJJ

Mr. Forgettable ~ David Kushner

Body ~ Jordan Suaste

Broken Crown ~ Mumford & Sons

Mind Is A Prison ~ Alec Benjamin

One Day ~ Lovejoy

Call Me What You Like ~ Lovejoy

Brother ~ Kodaline

Imaginary Illness ~ Call Me Karizma

Eat Your Young ~ Hozier

I Did Something Bad ~ Taylor Swift

Brother ~ Madds Buckley

You First ~ Paramore

Mama ~ My Chemical Romance

Blood // Water ~ grandson

Me and the Devil ~ Soap&Skin

Mum ~ Luke Hemmings

We'll Never Have Sex ~ Leith Ross

Villains Aren't Born (They're Made) ~ PEGGY

Jesus in LA ~ Alec Brnjamin

Neil's Playlist

Kevin's Playlist

#aftg #tfc #all for the game #the foxhole court #andrew minyard #aftg music #aftg playlist #aftg music recs #music recs #playlist #splishsplash music