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lokisransom · 2 years
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FMNSHHDHS that jotun loki one shot,, my heart 💗💗❤️🤍💜💚💜💖💗🧡
can i request a part 2? one where readers gever is gone and they’re all better. during their last days of being sick loki requested they’d keep their eyes closed while he shifted in his jotun form, and everytime they said they love him, so when they’re better loki gets the courage to open up to them about his heritage and backstory etc. just a bomb of fluff abt loki telling his beloved abt his jotun form. and reader is just so fascinated by the beautiful god in front of them :33
I'm so glad you enjoyed it!
id also like to apologize for taking so long, its just been hard to find time to sit down and write but I'm looking forward to future asks :)
part 1|
word count: 1.8k
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it had been five days sense your fever reached its all time high and every night sense then Loki had gotten you to close your eyes so he could keep your temperature down, it'd been pretty much fine for two days now but Loki wanted to be entirely sure the fever was gone.
you'd decided that tonight was going to be different, there would be no closing eyes, no hiding and you were determined to get him to do it willingly. you didn't want to promise him that you closed your eyes just to go back on that promise. you knew he was fragile and that doing something like that would ruin what you have.
so you sat him down after making supper, and you told him what you wanted. you explained to him that you didn't want him to feel like he had to hide, especially from you. he hesitantly agreed and it was clear that he was worried about what you would think, no matter how long you spent trying to reassure him, he wouldn't listen because you hadn't seen the monster he deemed himself. you understood that there was only so much you could do before he showed you but you knew that either way you'd find him absolutely stunning because he would always be your Loki. you just wished he'd see himself that way.
you'd agreed to close your eyes while he shifts as long as he'd let you open them again. the two of you headed back to your room so Loki would be at least a little more comfortable even though he was terrified about the situation he'd got himself stuck in. within his concern for your wellbeing he managed to forget what a curious being you are.
he knew that if you reacted badly to him he'd have no one but himself to blame, he'd been a fool to think he could turn what he is into anything good or useful.
he was now regretting not thinking this through, his heart was racing as you pulled him into your shared room. he felt so exposed knowing that in a few moments your opinion of him would change drastically, that minutes from now you would leave him because of what he is.
you could feel his hand tremble in yours, you knew he was scared but you'd never seen him this worried before, not when he woke up from nightmares or when him and Thor were fighting or even when him and Tony started all out brawls.
him showing this much fear of himself made you wonder who said something to him and what it was they said. even with how scared he was to show you, you knew it would be okay because he was Loki and you loved him with your entire being, you loved everything that made him who he is including the things he feared or hated about himself.
once you convinced him to sit still you hopped into his lap so you'd be at eye level with him. he was trying to hide the lost puppy look in his eyes but was drastically failing. it hurt you to see him this afraid of who he is but you trusted it would work itself out in the next few hours.
you placed your hand on his cheek brushing your thumb against the scars and freckles he had once been self conscious of, reminding yourself that if you can get him to love what he saw as flaws then you can probably get him to at least tolerate his other form.
"you know no matter what I'll always love you, right?" your words came out in a whisper, your voice hoarse from the emotions swirling around you.
Loki nodded "and I, you my love" his magic projected itself when he was scared, you could see the green glitter-like flecks in the air, falling like snow. he was still shaking but he seemed less hesitant which was encouraging.
Loki leaned forward resting his forehead against yours and closing his eyes. he pressed his lips to yours in search of comfort. you kissed him back and ran your hand from his cheek down to his neck, rubbing soft circles into his skin.
pulling away you both open your eyes, his filling with tears. he nodded at you, closing your eyes you snuggled closer to him. you could feel the ridges rising under your finger tips, the temperature of his skin dropping with every breath. after placing a gentle kiss against his chilled neck you leaned back on his lap with you eyes closed.
"may I open my eyes?" you raised on of your hands to his cheek where you wiped a tear.
"its not to late to go back, w-we don't have to do this... but if you're entirely sure and you cant be convinced to not do this then it seems i have no choice" his breath shaking throughout. he'd never been so conflicted about something before and he was absolutely terrified of making the wrong choice.
"if you really don't want me to see you I wont look but this has to change at some point. I'm not willing to go the rest of my life without seeing my loves truest form" you didn't want to feel like you were forcing him and you didn't want him to feel forced.
"I wont do anything if you're not ready, Loki. I want this to be your choice, not just mine. I need you to want me to see you" you could feel his glitter landing on your skin along with the raw power radiating from him. his magic was mixing with both of your tears at this point. neither of you wanted to make the wrong move or force the other into something that would leave them uncomfortable. after pausing for a few moments Loki had calmed down and decided to speak
"okay." he whispered, sounding more confidant in his head than he did out loud
"what?" you were still making sure your eyes were closed and you weren't expecting him to make that decision. you were honestly expecting him to tell you to get up and give him some time to himself.
"yes, you can open your eyes. there's no point in putting this off and hiding wont help anything" is what he said. what he meant is that its better for him to be rejected now for who he is than it would be later when you've taken over his every thought, even though that isn't far off from now. he'd rather rip off the band aid now than wait for it to rot from the inside out until it destroys him.
you nod gently, mainly to yourself seeing his reasoning. you eyes flutter open, pupils blown wide as you take in his form. the ridges you had been feeling glowed a pale white, almost like scars. they created a pattern that seemed to flow throughout his body. his skin sparkled with the green glitter that was still falling around you.
your gaze moved from his neck to his face and from his face to his hair, his hair seemed to be the only thing he kept across all forms and genders. small horn rested just below his hair line, they looked smooth and before you knew it your hand was reaching out to touch them, Loki almost stopped you before you could touch them but he stopped himself, letting you explore his body.
his horns were just as smooth as they looked, while running your finger tips along them you noticed Loki started to relax, his breaths were getting longer and deeper, his muscles were no longer tensed and he seemed to lean into your touch.
"a-are they sensitive?" it took him a moment to come back to reality and process that you asked him a question and what it was
"hmm?" he seemed so out of it but still relaxed "o-oh, yeah they kinda are, I thought you'd be to freaked out by them to ever touch them though" your brows creased at him, it truly puzzled you that he couldn't see his own beauty, he looked ethereal. his skin looked like ice crystals in the way it reflected light, he was glowing and when the light hit just right his skin danced with rainbows.
"freaked out?" you lightly chuckled "no honey, you define perfection. i could spend the rest of my life tracing these lines and admiring your horns. you glow in the light and cast no shadows in the dark, I can officially say that there is nothing about you I don't love and that I'm more obsessed with you than I've ever been"
after hearing your tangent he decided you were his forever, you'd be the home he comes back to, you'd be his safe place and his queen, with you by his side he knew he could do anything. he also knew you'd always be there to pick him up, that you'd never tire of him. he just couldn't put it into words.
he lurched forward, pressing his lips to yours and holding you to him by your neck. when you reacted your hands moved to his neck and horns by themselves, Loki noticed you seemed to really like them and for that matter him in this form.
pulling away he rests his forehead against yours, your thumb brushing over his horns again. Loki drops his head to your shoulder, nuzzling into your neck. the main source of light had changed over the last few moments. neither of you had realised how late it was getting. Loki yawned against you, seeming to know your thought process. you kissed his head and leaned back from him.
"we should go to bed honey, you've had a long day." you kept you voice as soft as you could, hoping to not startle him at all. he pulled you back to him with his eyes still closed and stood up, carrying you to bed. he flopped down on the bed and started shifting back into his Asgardian form. he felt your eyes bore into him so he opened his eyes. you looked a mix of confused and unhappy. he raised his eyebrow at you.
"cant I have my ice cube?" your soft voice warmed his heart, within the next breath he was blue again. he loved everything about you and it took this level of fear and reassurance for him to realize. when you spoke again it startled him.
"can you stay this way? even if its just when were alone?" he nodded and pulled you closer to him.
"yes my love, if it means I can sleep" his half hearted attitude made you smile and all of the days stress melted away.
"yay"
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vbecker10 · 2 years
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I'm Here (Part 2 of 2)
Part 1 here
Pairing: Jotun Loki x gender neutral reader
Warnings: touch of self doubt, bit of angst, fluff and happiness as promised
POV: Y/N pov & Loki pov
Summary: After a string of terrible blind dates, Loki is pushed into trying online dating and despite his doubts, he meets you. The two of you become fast friends and soon you find yourself falling for him completely. After a few months, Loki begins to ask if he can visit you but every time he does, you come up with an excuse to keep him away. Eventually, Loki decides it's worth the risk and goes to Norway to see you, but will you be excited to see him?
Word Count: 4k words
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(Y/N POV - the next day)
You come home after work and kick off your shoes as you sigh loudly. You check your phone again and throw it on the couch, Loki still hasn't responded to your last message and why would he. Sinking into the couch, you put your hand over your face and feel the tears begin surface again, you were so tired of crying but you couldn't stop. You can feel your heart breaking into pieces, Loki had finally given up on you and you only had yourself to blame.
(Y/N POV- the night before)
When you told him he couldn't come, he said you he understood like always and then he quickly changed the subject. Everything seemed fine, he had just gotten back from a mission and you were thrilled he was safe and you could to talk to him again. After about half an hour or so he told you he needed to take care of a few things and he would talk to you as soon as he was free. A few hours later he finally sent you a text, but you weren't expecting it to be this.
"Y/N, can we talk about why I can't visit you? I want to understand. I care about you so much, you know that, and I want to be with you. I want you to be mine and I thought you felt the same. Please, just tell me the truth, why don't you want to see me?" the message said and you could feel your chest tighten.
Your fingers ghosted over the keypad as you tried to tell him what was going on in your mind. Your inner voice screamed, telling you that you weren't extraordinary enough for him... he was an Avenger. You didn't deserve to be loved or cared for by him... he was a prince. He would leave as soon as he realized you were beneath him... he was a god. You were deeply in love with him but you the voice would tell you that you would never he his.
You try to respond but you can't get your thoughts together. It must have taken you too long because your phone chimes again and your heart sinks. "I'm sorry I keep asking, I won't bring it up again," you can barely hold yourself together when you see those words.
You stare at the phone, your hands shaking slightly and you write back, "Loki, I'm sorry." He didn't reply to you again that night, you laid awake holding your pillow tightly as you cried and cursed yourself. When the sun rose, you were still awake and there was still no response.
(Now)
Your phone chimes and you pick it up, smiling through your tears when you see a new message from Loki. Maybe he hadn't given up on you completely, you hope when you open the text.
"Hi love," it says and you wipe your eyes, letting out a small sigh.
You reply back quickly, "Hi Loki, I've missed you. I'm so sorry about last night."
Those stupid dots appear and disappear several times and your anxiety starts to rise. Was he going to end things officially, is that why he messaged you? No, you try to reason with yourself, he called you 'love', he wouldn't if he was upset with you, would he? You bite your lip and wait for him to finish typing.
"I missed you every second. I'm sorry I didn't respond to you last night, I have a surprise for you but it took a bit longer than I thought," he replies.
"A surprise?" you ask curiously. He had a sweet habit of sending you small gifts when something reminded him of you or he saw something he thought you would like. What kind of surprise would have kept him from talking to you for so long, you wonder.
"I'm here," he types and your mind freezes.
You stare at the words, finally writing back, "Where is here?"
"I came to see you," he texts back and you put the phone screen down on the table quickly.
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You pace back and forth at baggage claim, waiting for a response. Peter had told you not to come but after Y/N wouldn't explain why they didn't want to see you, you bought the first ticket you could. You couldn't wait any longer, you needed an answer.
(LOKI POV)
After a few minutes without a reply, you text again, "Y/N, I know you told me not to come but I want to talk to you, please answer me."
You feel yourself holding your breath as the message remains unread. You wander slowly through the airport and take a seat at a random gate. You put your face in your hand, realizing maybe you had made a mistake. Y/N didn't want you here. Your phone vibrates and you open it excitedly but it's a new text from Peter. You sigh, not in the mood to tell him he was right, you lock your phone again.
You feel something bump into your leg and you look up, seeing a happy couple walk past you. The man apologizes to you with a smile, his arms wrapped tightly around his partner's waist. You nod to him and sit back in the seat, looking at your phone again. You unlock it and decide to send another text.
"I'm sorry for whatever it is I've done to make you not want to see me. I'm going to try and book a ticket back home," you hit send and stand up. "I won't try to visit again, but we can still talk if you want to," you text, feeling your heart tear in half.
You make your way to the ticket agents and stand at the back of the line, your phone on your pocket. Each time you move forward, you lose a piece of hope until you finally reach the counter. You purchase a ticket to go back to New York and lean against a wall, taking your phone out again. The messages you've sent are still unread. "My flight is in an hour, I'm sorry I came," you type slowly then rest your head on the wall.
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(Y/N POV)
You sit on the couch, your arms wrapped around your knees as your phone continues to chime on the coffee table. You put your head on your arms and cry silently as your thoughts keep you from responding to him. Your phone chimes again and you wipe your eyes with the back of your hand, slowly reaching for it. You see four new messages and you take a deep breath as you open them. You read the last message and stand up quickly, he was leaving. Suddenly your only thought is that you needed to stop him. You click on his image in your phone and do something you've never done before, you call him.
Racing to put your shoes on and grabbing your keys, you hear the ringing continue. Please pick up, you say out loud and finally you hear him answer. "Y/N?" he asks in a low voice.
"Loki, please don't leave. I'm sorry, I'm coming. Please wait for me," you say quickly as you get into your car, breathing hard from crying.
"I'm still here love," he replies and you start your car. "Take your time Y/N, I'm not going anywhere," he tells you in a soothing voice and you let out a small laugh between tears. You had hurt him yet again today but he was still worried about you as he told you to drive carefully. You hang up and try to focus on the forty-five minute drive you have ahead of you.
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(LOKI POV)
You call Peter and let him know Y/N is on their way, he sounds so excited for you and he wishes you good luck. You purposefully leave out the part where Y/N ignored you for so long you bought a return ticket. It just isn't something you want to talk about right now. You decide to sit in the waiting area for about half an hour then you make your way towards the exit.
Standing outside by the line of cars waiting to pick up friends, family and loved ones you begin to search their faces for someone you had never seen. You start to feel your hope fading again when you realize its been over an hour since Y/N said they were on their way. Had they changed their mind at a red light or were they here and still unwilling to meet you, you can't help but wonder. You close your eyes and lean against the facade of the building, trying to hold onto your last bit of hope that they will be here.
"Loki?" you hear a voice call to you.
You open your eyes and stand up straight. "Y/N?" you ask, coming face to face with them for the first time. They nod slowly and smile, their eyes are red and their cheeks are streaked with tears. Without thinking, you move quickly, pulling them close to you as you wrap your arms around them tightly. Their body is tense but you feel them relax against yours as they exhale deeply and grip the fabric at the back of your jacket.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Loki," they mumble into your chest and you shake your head. You release your grip slightly and touch their cheek, wiping away the fresh tears.
"Look at me love," you say softly and they look up cautiously. "You're here now, that's all that matters to me," they nod again and wipe their eyes on the back of their hand.
"I'm such a mess right now, this isn't how I wanted you to see me the first time," they say as they look down again. They pull at the sleeves of their jacket and you smile at how cute they look when they are awkward.
You take one of their hands in yours, running your thumb over their knuckle and they look up at you again. "I think you are perfect Y/N," you tell them, then you lean down and softly kiss their forehead. You are afraid if you move too quickly they will run even though you desperately want to feel their lips on yours.
They blush and you stroke their cheek again, wiping the last of their tears with your thumb. "Norns, it is so good to finally be close to you. To hear your voice, to see your smile, to hug you tightly. I've wished for nothing else since we began talking."
Y/N smiles and looks up at you, "Thank you for not listening to me."
They hug you tighter and you want nothing more then to never let go of them. The two of you stand with your arms wrapped tightly around one another a few moments longer and then they pull back slightly. You can feel yourself tense up, worried about what the next steps are now.
"Um.... so, did you get a hotel or...?" their question trails off.
"I wasn't honestly sure what to do about my sleeping arrangements. If you are more comfortable, I can get a room somewhere nearby," you offer.
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(Y/N POV)
You pull into your driveway and turn off the car, looking over at Loki you smile nervously and he squeezes your hand. "Well, here it is," you tell him and he looks out the window at your small, one story house. You get out of the car and begin to worry he is going to regret not staying in one of the high end hotels in the city. He's probably used to such lavish and extravagant things whereas you're idea of luxury was using your dishwasher instead of washing dishes by hand. "I know it's not a palace or a super high-tech skyscraper but-" you start.
"It looks like a home," he says, then he looks back at you and smiles. He takes his bag and then holds his other hand out for you. You interlock your fingers with his and you instantly begin to feel calmer. "Shall we?" he asks and you nod before you can change your mind.
You open the front door and as you let him in you feel extremely thankful you are a naturally tidy person. Keeping your hand in his, you give him a quick tour of your home, guiding him through your living room into it dining room and kitchen then finally your bedroom. He walks over to your bed and he runs his long fingers over the soft green blanket he had sent you. You watch his face light up when he looks around the room and sees all the things he sent you displayed proudly. You cherished every gift and you were glad he could finally see how much you loved the books, the stuffed animal and the postcards of various places in New York you had wanted to visit.
Loki sits on your bed and looks over at you, his smile fading slowly as you sit next to him. He sighs and places his hand gently on your knee, you put your hand over top of his.
"Can we talk about why I wouldn't let you visit?" you ask quietly and he nods. You take a deep breath and look at the floor, unable to look in his eyes. After a moment or two, you finally open up to him, telling him all your fears and negative thoughts. You feel the tears slowly building again and then his hands touches your face softly making you look at him.
"I wish you had told me this before," he tells you in a caring voice. He shifts to be closer to you, one arm around your waist and his hand still on your cheek. "You are everything I have ever wanted and more. I would never change a single thing about you love, you are perfect in every way," he tells you and you begin to smile but you notice a sadness in his eyes.
"Loki, what's wrong?" you ask.
"You aren't the only one who has doubts about worthiness," he says and you ask what he means. "There's something I have not told you, I wasn't sure how to. I'm not... I'm not who you think I am, I'm not an Asgardian," he tells you and you look at him questioningly. He lets go of you, bringing his hands together to fidget with his fingers. You sit quietly and listen to Loki as he looks at his hands, telling you about Odin, Laufey and Jotunheim. When he finishes, you put your hand over his and he finally looks up at you.
"I'm sorry you had to go through all of that, you didn't deserve to be taken or used by them. But Loki..." you make sure he is still looking at you. "None of that changes how I feel about you. I'm sorry Odin made you feel like you were a monster but he's wrong. You are kind and patient and loving, you didn't deserve to have him as a father."
He smiles a bit and then he lifts your hand to his lips, kissing it lightly. "Besides, I don't think I could tell an Asgardian from a Jotun if my life depended on it," you joke but he shakes his head.
"You would be able to tell," he says and you ask how. He is quiet for a moment, then he gestures to himself and says, "This is all an illusion... I've never shown anyone what I truly look like."
You keep your fingers intertwined with his, "I would love to see the real you but you don't have to if you aren't ready."
He looks worried but says, "I want to show you, I just don't want you to be afraid of me."
"I could never be scared of you," you tell him and he nods.
He looks down at his hand in yours and his fingers slowly turn the most beautiful shade of blue you have ever seen. The color gradually moves up until his arms, neck and face are blue as well. Thin ridges form in intricate patterns on his arms and face. When he looks up at you, his eyes are as red as rubies. Without even thinking, you slowly reach out with your free hand and trace one of the raised lines on his cheek.
"Is it ok?" he asks and you smile back at him.
"Of course it's ok Loki. I told you, you are not a monster. You are stunning and you have the most striking eyes I've ever seen," you tell him and he smiles. You feel yourself lean forward suddenly and you press your lips to his quickly, before pulling away and hiding your blushing face in your hands.
He looks at you almost as if he is in shock and then he chuckles a bit. "Not in a million years did I think you were going to kiss me first," he says, the smile on his face growing.
"I didn't think I was going to do that either," you say from behind your hands.
He laughs again and reaches to take your hands away from your face. You lean back as you laugh and end up with your back on your bed. You feel the space on the bed next to you sink and you lower your hands slightly to see Loki lying on his side next to you. He props himself up on his elbow and he smiles warmly at you. He touches your cheek lightly and his skin feels cold but not uncomfortably so.
He looks at you for a moment, his fingers tracing your jaw as you look up at him and says, "Y/N... there is one more thing I need to tell you." You feel yourself holding your breath, unsure what his last secret could be. "I am completely and utterly in love with you," he tells you as you look into his deep red eyes.
You exhale with a smile and say, "Loki, I am madly in love with you. I have been since we first started talking."
You place your hand on the back of his neck and gently pull him towards you. He presses his lips to yours, softly at first then you feel him put his arm around your waist. He shifts onto his back and pulls you on top of him, never breaking the kiss. One of his large hands rests on your lower back, holding you tightly to him while his other hand cups your cheek. You feel his tongue run across your lips and you open your mouth, moaning softly as his tongue meets yours. Your fingers run through his long, raven curls and you bite his lip lightly as you finally break the kiss to catch your breath.
"Y/N," he kisses your nose softly, "I still can't believe I'm here with you."
You rest your head on his shoulder and listen to his heartbeat with a smile. "I can't either. I've dreamt about laying in your arms for so long, I never thought it would actually happen," you tell him.
He kisses the top of your head and runs his fingers up and down your back. "You're stuck with me now," he jokes but you shake your head and hold him tighter.
"You're going to have to go back," you say quietly.
"Not yet, we have two weeks love," he reminds you of how long he told Stark and the team he would be away. "We will figure this out. I'm not going to be able to stay away from you for very long."
You nod hopefully and close your eyes. You aren't sure how long you two stayed like that but you must have fallen asleep. Loki's strong arms are still wrapped around your body, holding your back to his chest as you both lay on your sides. You readjust a little, pressing yourself closer to his body and he smiles in his sleep. "Y/N..." he whispers softly, and you kiss his cheek before closing your eyes again.
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(LOKI POV - the next morning)
You open your eyes to an unfamiliar loud beeping and groan. "Sorry, it's my alarm," Y/N tells you as the turn it off.
They kiss your cheek and move to slide out of the bed but you keep your arm around them. Pulling them back to you, you shake your head. "No, stay," you mumble.
Y/N giggles and says, "Loki, I have to go to work. I'll tell my boss I need to use my vacation time for the rest of this week and next week but I have to at least go in today."
You groan again but know they are right. You couldn't really expect them not to go to work, especially since you had come without warning them. "I'll be home around six, ok?" they tell you when you loosen your grip to let them out of the bed.
"I like that," you smile, sitting up a bit.
"Like what?" they ask.
"You coming home to me," you tell them as you get out of the bed.
Y/N smiles as you walk over to them. "I like it too," they say, you put your arms around them. Leaning down, you kiss them and then go into the kitchen to make coffee for both of you while they get ready.
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(Y/N POV - night before Loki leaves)
Loki lays on his back and you curl up against his side, resting your head on his chest. You put one arm around him and he holds you close. You look into his glowing red eyes and smile. You were so happy he felt comfortable enough with you to remain in his Jotun form while you were in the house, you wanted him to be himself completely.
"I love you," you tell him as he shuts off the light.
"I love you too," he says, placing his fingers under your chin to tilt your head towards his. He kisses you and you kiss him back. "Goodnight love," he says and you can hear the smile in his voice.
You tell him goodnight and close your eyes but you know sleep will be hard to come by tonight. It's your last night together for who knows how long, months most likely but how many? Three... four? Would it be another six months before he can come back? You don't want to think about how much it will hurt to see him leave so you try to focus on all the memories the two of you made while he was here.
You remember when you came home from work the day after he arrived. You walked through the door and there were candles all throughout the living and dining rooms. A large vase of fresh flowers sat in the middle of the table and there was soft music playing. He greeted you at the door with a warm smile, wrapping his arms around you as he kissed you and told you he missed you. He kept an arm around your waist as he took you to the dining room, pulling out your chair like a true gentleman. He had cooked dinner for the both of you and you admitted to him that you were shocked he knew how to cook.
Over the next few days, the two of you took several trips into the city. Visiting museums, bookstores and even seeing a movie. You had taken him to your favorite park and he told you about the gardens on Asgard. No matter what you did or where you went, Loki never let go of you. He always held your hand or kept his arm around your waist and you loved every second of it.
At the beginning of the second week, it began to snow so you stayed home together. You lit the fireplace in your living room and curled up on the floor in front of the couch as Loki read poems and short stories to you. You would close your eyes and listen to the sound of his voice as you played with his long hair. When the snow got higher, you had a snowball fight then built a snowman before coming inside for hot chocolate. You taught him how to make smores and they quickly became one of his favorite foods.
The more time you spent with him, the deeper you fell for him which you didn't think was possible. Loki was the most amazing person you had ever met and you were terrified to say goodbye to him.
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(LOKI POV - night before you leave)
Your eyes flutter open and the room is still dark. You listen, trying to figure out what sound woke you. Feeling Y/N shake slightly in your arms, you realize they are crying quietly.
"Y/N, love are you ok?" you ask in a whisper. They sniffle and you can feel them shake their head 'no'. "What's wrong?" you ask but you have a feeling you know.
"I don't want to do this. I can't say goodbye to you," they say quietly. Y/N rolls over so they aren't facing you, trying to hide their face in the pillow. "What if you can't come back to visit again or..." they don't finish their question.
"Y/N, I don't want to say goodbye to you either. I would stay here forever if I could," you tell them honestly. "Look at me," you say softly, putting your hand on their shoulder as you sit up. They roll back towards you and you lean down, kissing them deeply. "I love you more than anything and I promise we will be together," you say. You hadn't figured out how it was going to work but you knew you would do anything to be with Y/N.
"I love you too Loki," they tell you but you can hear the sadness in their voice.
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(LOKI POV - two weeks after your trip)
You sit in your armchair by the window, reading a new book, trying to distract yourself from how much you miss Y/N. As much as you enjoyed the phone calls and video chats, nothing would compare to physically being with them. You found it difficult to sleep without them cuddled against you and waking up alone gave you an empty feeling.
Your phone vibrates on the side table and you smile. "Hi Loki, I missed you," the text reads.
"Hi love," you type back. "I missed you too. How was work?" you ask, knowing it was a little after six there.
There is a pause for a few minutes then you get another message that simply says, "I'm here."
"Y/N, where are you?" you ask, standing up slowly, putting your book on your chair.
A picture loads and you nearly drop your phone. Its a selfie of Y/N smiling as they stand in front of a large steel and glass building. You recognize it immediately, it's Stark Tower.
You make your way down to street level as quickly as possible and see Y/N waiting for you just outside the doors. You throw your arms around them and hug them tightly, lifting them off the ground. Y/N giggles and you set them back down, still holding them. They reach up and touch your face softly then guide your lips to theirs.
"What... what are you doing here?" you ask, you are confused by you can't stop smiling.
"I didn’t want to say anything because I didn't think it would work out but... I applied for a job here a week or so before you came to visit," they point towards the tower. "And they called me a couple of days ago."
You can barely believe what you are hearing, "You... you're going to work here? And live in New York?" you ask in shock.
They smile and nod then say, "I haven't actually had time to look for a place yet-"
"Move in with me," you say without even thinking.
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Y/N reaches up and kisses you, their hand on the back of your neck, your hands still firmly around their waist. "I would love to," they answer.
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thehiddlebum · 10 months
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I’m cold as ice, but in the right hands… I’ll melt
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Summary: Loki is afraid to show you his true self, for the fear of scaring you away. You are the only person he could call a friend, and whilst everyone else thinks of him as a monster, you think quite the opposite…
Warnings: Angst, self-deprecating thoughts, touch starved loki, lots and lots of soft loki, language, hurt/comfort, fluff
Pairing: Jotun!Loki x female!reader or GN!reader
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You had been living with the rest of the Avengers for a few months since you joined them and Loki had joined them around the same time as you.
You can remember Thor arriving back at the tower and hearing his booming voice down the corridor, shouting “Isn’t it wonderful here Brother?! You’ll love it!”
You knew who he was as you could remember his attack on New York, but you weren’t one to judge.
You knew that there must have been a deeper reason to his actions, you were very good at reading people.
The rest of the crew definitely were not thrilled that Loki would be joining us, but you held no grudge to the man because you had never met him before.
Who were you to judge a book by it’s cover?
You were more of a loner yourself, and you weren’t that close to the others but you didn’t feel excluded.
You mainly chose to be on your own, it brought you comfort.
But sometimes it also brought you loneliness.
At first, you never really saw Loki. He would simply stay out of the way in his chambers, not that you could blame him.
He knew that everyone basically hated him, and you understood why.
But you couldn’t help but feel a pang in your chest when you saw him scurry away upstairs when someone other than you would walk into the room.
You had noticed that you and him were often both up at around the same time every morning, being the first ones awake.
And as you both made your coffee in the kitchen, you would steel little glances at him and offer him a small smile.
You could tell every time that he didn’t know what to do, you could see his mind working as he stared down at his mug of coffee.
Maybe he thought he was being tricked?
That you were only being nice to somehow hurt him?
That definitely wasn’t the case, you just wanted to show him that he wasn’t alone and that he had a friend.
Words were never exchanged between the two of you in the beginning, Loki always not knowing what to say to the beautiful creature in the kitchen and you not having the confidence to speak up.
But that eventually changed when you worked up the courage to ask him if he wanted his usual cup of coffee when he walked into the kitchen after you.
“That would be lovely, thank you.” He said and you were stunned by his beautiful voice.
You smiled at him and started making it for him the way you have watched him do it in the past, eventually placing it in front of him at the breakfast bar where he sat.
He thanked you again and you both sat in comfortable silence for a while, neither one of you knowing what to say.
That was the first breakthrough with Loki, you knew that he was definitely a tough one to crack but you were so intrigued by him.
You couldn’t believe that voice came out of his mouth, it was something that you wanted to hear more often.
You needed to hear more often.
Your wish was granted over the next few weeks as you started to see more of him, he would come into the kitchen more frequently during the day and scan the room until his eyes landed on you.
You wondered what he could possibly be doing in his room all day and were curious enough to ask Thor to see if he knew anymore, “He may be reading in his room or he could be in the library, he always did love a good book!”
“The library?” You questioned, “I didn’t know we had a library!”
Thor told you what floor of the tower the library was on and you immediately headed down there, shouting a quiet “Hello?”
You didn’t get anything in reply to tell you that someone was already in here, so you walked in and you were amazed by the size of it.
There were numerous rows of bookshelves, and the room was dimly lit with lamps all over the place.
It had a small area in the middle with a few fluffy beanbags and a coffee table, it looked so cosy you could have cried.
You wondered up and down the aisles looking for a book to start now and you nearly jumped out of your skin when you saw a figure sat on the floor, leaning against the bookshelf with his legs crossed and a book in hand.
He flinched at the sound of your footsteps and immediately looked up to meet your gaze.
“Oh— I’m sorry! I didn’t know anyone was in here…” You said and you turned back around ready to leave.
“No it’s quite alright… you can stay if you wish.” Loki said and you smiled, taking a seat on the floor opposite him.
That was how your relationship with him grew, once you got talking about the books you were both interested in, you would talk for hours.
You would meet in the library at the same time everyday, and it quickly became the highlight of your day.
It was almost like a safe-haven for the both of you, no one else would ever come in so you could just talk and be with each other for hours on end.
Although there was one time when Thor came down in search for the two of you, saying that you had been missing for hours and everyone was starting to get worried.
Time didn’t exist in the library, not for you and Loki.
You would talk about random things from your favourite books to recommendations for the other to read, you even brought your annotated copy for him to borrow one day.
“You’ll love it, honestly. I got it years ago from my favourite bookstore down the street, I must’ve read it a thousand times!” You said and he laughed at your exaggeration.
“Well I think you must show me this bookstore, I don’t think it can top ours.” He smirked as he used his hands to gesture around the room.
“Oh I’m not sure… I’ve been going to it since I was a little girl because I grew up here in New York, but it’s not far from here! I’ll take you…” You said and you saw his facial expressions drop.
Oh.
“You’re from New York and you still wish to speak to me?” A bitter chuckle escaped his lips, but you saw the sad expression linger in his beautiful green eyes.
“Yeah, why wouldn’t I?” You looked at him knowingly and he stared right back at you.
“I’ve noticed that people aren’t that fond of me around here, but who can blame them?” He shook his head as he looked down at his hands.
“I don’t blame you,” You said to him and he turned to you in shock of your words.
“How could you not blame me? I was the one who brought down an army from space,” He chuckled and you could see the pain in his eyes as he recalled the memories.
“I know there was something else going on then Loki, because from what I’ve seen with my own eyes… you couldn’t hurt a fly.”
His eyebrows raised in surprise and you felt your heart shatter just a little bit more as you looked at this beautiful, broken man before you.
“You clearly don’t know me then, Y/N.” He looked into your eyes.
“No I don’t, but I want to.”
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That moment was a month ago now, and you and Loki were more close than ever.
Your daily library time together was still going, and it brought you both so much comfort.
It was your escape from everyone else and the outside world, and that’s what Loki loved.
He would actually be excited to wake up in the morning, because he knew he would be seeing you.
That was until today, when you were sat in your usual place on the beanbags waiting for him.
You stuck to your normal time of midday and Loki was usually here at bang on the hour, he was probably just running late.
Today was an extremely hot day in New York, with the forecasted heatwave hitting and it was sweltering.
Not to mention that the air conditioning in the tower was broke so Tony had been trying to fix it all morning, but obviously his room is his top priority.
You waited another hour for Loki to show up as you didn’t want to leave and miss him, but he never came.
You decided to go and search for Thor, maybe he knew if Loki was busy with something else.
“Hey Thor, have you seen Loki? He was meant to come to the library at 12 but it’s gone 1 o’clock!” Thor gave you a big bear hug like usual and you laughed.
“No I have not seen him today lady Y/N, but if he is not with you then I imagine he is in his chambers!” You nodded and carried on walking until you reached Loki’s bedroom door.
You knocked quietly, cautious of startling him or waking him if he was asleep.
“Who is it?” You heard his voice speak up, but it was different than usual.
It was more hoarse? Strained?
“It’s me Loki, are you alright?”
A weak voice answered back, “I’ll come to the library tomorrow Y/N, just… leave me alone.”
You knew something was wrong because his voice was always so perfect, now it sounded like he was in pain.
You panicked at the thought of him being hurt, “You don’t sound ok Loki, please just let me in and I can help.”
“No you can’t! Nobody can! I don’t want you to see me like this Y/N…” His strangled voice turned into a soft whisper.
“If you’re hurt or sick Loki then I don’t care, I just want to help you.”
“I am sick! Sick in the head for thinking for just one moment that— that I had a friend…”
You could actually feel your heart breaking at his words and you knew you needed to get to him.
“Loki… open the door.” You whispered softly and you heard his footsteps get louder.
“You’ll never see me the same way again Y/N, you’re going to treat me just like the rest of them do!” You heard a quiet thump on the other side of the door and you reached for the door handle.
“Open the door, love.”
It was silent for a moment until you heard the click of the door opening, and you slowly pushed it open to reveal Loki sat on his bed with his back to you.
“Loki…” You approached him slowly and laid a hand on his back, but he jumped at your touch and that’s when you saw it.
His skin.
It was blue.
Your eyes widened in amazement as the soft colour suited him so well, that was until you realised he was visibly shaking.
And his forehead was dripping with sweat.
You reached out slowly and carefully with one hand and rested it on his forehead, and he looked terrified as you touched his skin.
“Loki… you’re burning up.” You could feel that his skin was on fire, and you knew it wasn’t normal.
“I-It’s too hot… I had to turn into my Jotun form, Stark said the air conditioning was broken.” He opened his eyes and you bit your lip at the bright red colour.
The colour made his eyes even more intense, and you found yourself looking at him with so much love in your eyes.
“Oh Loki… I don’t know much about this, I’m not sure what to do!” You panicked slightly but tried to stay calm for him.
“I need to cool down… heat is torture for me— for a Frost Giant…” He told you and you looked him in the eyes, resting your hand gently on his bare knee.
You realised he was in a T-shirt and shorts, “Let’s get you out of these love, they’re only making it worse.” You said in a soft whisper and he looked at you with shock in his eyes.
“W-Why do you even care? Why bother helping me? I-I’m just a monster! Can’t you see that?!” He raised his voice but you didn’t budge from your place kneeling on the floor in front of him.
“No I can’t see that Loki because you are not a monster, you’re beautiful. And I’m going to prove that to you,” You cupped his cheek gently and stroked his soft blue skin.
You lifted his big arms up and pulled his top carefully over his head, and he released a big sigh as his top half was now bare.
“I’m gonna go and fetch some things to help you love, I won’t be a minute.” You said and as you stood up to leave, you felt a cold hand wrap around your wrist.
You looked down and saw the fear in his eyes, gently stroking the stray hairs out of his face, “I’ll be back, I promise.”
You made sure to shut the door behind you and you took off on a mission to find Tony.
“Jarvis? How long until the air conditioning comes back on?” You shouted whilst frantically jogging to the elevator.
“Mr Stark is still fixing it Miss L/N, shall I get a message to him for you?” His voice sounded over the speakers back to you.
“Yeah, tell him I’m coming to kick his ass unless he turns that fucking air conditioning back on!!” You pressed the button to the floor where the common room and kitchen was.
You ran straight to the freezer in the kitchen and grabbed as many ice packs as you could carry, and ran to Tony’s suite upstairs.
“Tony?! I swear to god if you haven’t fixed that damn air conditioning—
You barged into his room to see him typing away on his laptop, “Ah Y/N, polite as ever!”
“Please Tony, it’s killing Loki… you call yourself a genius when you can’t even fix something as simple as—
“Relax rolo, it should be back on any minute now. Now please, hurry on back to Reindeer Games!” You rolled your eyes at his sarcasm and headed back for the door, but before you left you reached over and grabbed his fan.
“Hey!!” He yelled out and you couldn’t help but laugh as you ran away with his electrical fan that he had plugged in.
You made it back to Loki’s room as quick as you could and you found him laying on the hardwood floor, his head lifting when he heard you.
“It should be coming back on anytime now Loki, but I got ice packs and I kind of also stole Tony’s fan… but he doesn’t even need it so!” You placed everything on the floor in front of him and he sat up slowly.
The cold air of the fan made Loki sigh in delight as it blew directly at him, and you handed him an ice pack to put on his forehead.
He lay on the floor for as you gently placed ice packs on his body, he hissed at the feeling at first but then it started to help with his temperature and you saw his body ease.
As if on cue, you heard the whirring of the air conditioning unit above you kickstart and cold air came rushing into the room.
“Oh my god, I swear I was about to kill Stark!” You mumbled under your breath.
“Loki? Do you feel any better?” You asked him, leaning over his shivering body.
“I’m cooling down, b-but it may cause me to become too cold after so much heat…” He said quietly and you took the ice packs off of his body, sitting him up on the floor.
“I’ll be here, you’re safe with me Loki.” You placed a delicate kiss on his forehead and he sighed at your touch.
You could feel that his skin had cooled down very quickly, so you helped him sit on top of his bed and he tugged on your arm for you to join him.
“Please… stay.” He pleaded and your heart melted for him.
“Of course, Loki.”
You layed back on his pillows and he slowly began to lean into your side, his head falling on your shoulder.
You closed your eyes for a moment and when you looked back down, his skin had gone back to a pale white instead of blue and his eyes back to green.
“Oh Loki…” You pulled him in closer to your body let him rest his head completely on your chest as you ran your nails up and down his back.
In that moment you swore to yourself that you would prove to him just how special he was to you…
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Omgggg imagine Loki riding your thigh😭💗
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A/N: Sub! Loki????? SUB! LOKI?????? Any takers?
Pairing: Loki x GN! Reader
Warnings: 18+ SMUT.
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It came to your notice while fooling around with the Jotun prince, when your hands were roaming all over each others bodies, exploring between passionate kisses and mingled breaths.
A soft purr that escaped his lips upon a gentle tug of his raven hair, that encouraged you to drop your hand down to his slender neck and give it a squeeze. Though his eyes closed, every cell in his body was begging for more.
After that Loki willingly let go, allowed you to take over, he was completely at your mercy, accepting each touch each caress hungrily.
Slotting himself between your legs, his hips moved against your thigh slow, hesitant at first, as if he were unsure of your reaction.
“Go on. Ride my thigh like the good boy you are…”
A restrained moan sounded from Loki’s throat as he got his answer, holding you to him as he chased his climax.
Rubbing his cock against your soft skin at a steady pace, his face hidden in the crook of your neck as little moans and grunts of pleasure filled the room, every brush bringing him closer and closer to the edge.
You weaved your fingers through his hair, whispering praises against his ear, revelling in the way his thrusts turned needy, precum leaking from his cock.
Sheets wrinkled as his fists clutched them tightly, his orgasm washed over as his hips faltered, crying out your name like a prayer, he came, spilling his cum over his abdomen and your thigh.
Loki curled up against you, still panting as he came down from his high, leaning into your touch as you nuzzled against his hair, murmuring what a good boy he’d been.
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divine-knight-hand · 9 months
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Writer Self-Rec Fics Ask Game
Rules: writers list your top 5 favorite fics of yours and then send this to 5 writers! :)
OMG! Clem, hi!!! <3
I’m definitely using some serious brain power here, because I’ve never thought of recommending my own fics to people before, but I would love to play this game~
Okay! Here goes:
Worshiping the Masterpiece (Loki Laufeyson x Female Reader) - Loki’s lover finally gains the courage to ask him about his Jotun form. When he lets her see it, she takes the moment as an opportunity to help him do a little confidence building… by kissing… and touching… and praising…
This one is probably my favorite work of mine so far because it was an idea I used to be super obsessed with. I finally found the courage to bring it to life and it’s been receiving so much love and kind words. That was very encouraging, and just made me fall in love with it all the more.
Mining Pains (Haley sdv x Female Reader) - After reaching level forty-five of the mines, it’s time for Pelican Town’s favorite farmer to fight for the safety of her wife, Haley.
This is just a little fluff piece that I wrote. It came out so sweet that it ranks pretty high among my favorite works.
“It’s Not Safe Here!” Chapter 1 (Michael Afton x Female Reader) - Y/N, the financial advisor of the popular themed restaurant, Freddy Fazbear’s Pizzeria, finds herself in the darkness of the establishment way before her shift. Now that she knows a little too much about what really happens in these walls at night, she has to figure how she can help her boyfriend, Michael, uncover the secrets of the restaurant’s true purpose before he has the chance to take one risk too many...
I specified Chapter 1 because that’s my favorite chapter so far. “It’s Not Safe Here!” was originally supposed to be a oneshot, but once I finished it, the idea for a series came to my mind, and I couldn’t stop the flow of ideas. It was also the first smut fic I ever wrote. It was also the only work I’ve ever written that was beta read. 😅
Dream Sweet (Loki Laufeyson x GN Reader) - Late at night, Loki has a silent observer. Fluff ensues.
This little thing I wrote was the result of a bad day I was having. It was a little piece of comfort for myself, and I ended up being proud of the way I wrote it. I also happened to have Dream Sweet in Sea Major by Miracle Musical stuck in my head at the time, so I incorporated that.
Now You’re Mine (Loki Laufeyson x Female Reader) - A competitive sparring session leads to spicy times with Loki.
I originally wasn’t so proud of this piece because I was worried it looked a bit rushed, but I ended up hitting post anyways. I’ve gotten so much love from everyone who has read it so far that I’ve grown just a little more fond of it.
So, those are my self-recommendations. If anyone does decide to check them out, I hope you enjoy! And thank you again to Clem for including me on this ask game!
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tokoyamisstuff · 2 years
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Masterlist: Loki x Reader
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💀 = Angst and/or Adult Themes 🌸 = Fluff 💌 = Personal Favourite 🔥 = Smut 🎵 = Song Fic / Contains Lyrics ✅ = Finished Series ❌ = WIP/Hiatus
Each and every Work has it's own detailed Warnings listed.
Series
Burning Passion 💀!!! 🌸 🔥 💌 x Fem! Mutant! Reader ❌ Soulmate AU where the first word your Soulmate will ever say to you is tattooed somewhere on your skin. 
A Bright Future  💀🌸 x Fem! Reader ✅ You are pregnant with Loki’s child. How will he react?
Dark Side of The Moon 💀 x Fem! Avengers! Reader❌ Dr. Strange teleports you into an alternate reality where Loki rules over earth. (18+)
A Thousand Years 💀🔥🌸 x Fem! Enhanced Bodyguard! Reader ❌ You’re blessed with the power of reincarnation and Loki is searching for you over and over again.
Scandal 💀 🌸 Jotun! Loki x Fem! Asgardian! Reader ❌ Loki doesn’t know about his Frost Giant heritage and casts you out when your child is born one of them.
Four Seasons 🌸 x GN! Journalist! Reader ❌ Describes daily scenarios at the Stark Tower, where you casually visit your boyfriend Loki. [Part 1] 
Tender 💀 🌸 🔥 💌 x Mute! Reader An overly affectionate Y/N melts the heart of touch-starved Loki. 
Oneshots
[Read here] 💀 🌸 Jotun! Loki x Dark Elf! Reader Jotun! Loki shows you his true form for the first time. 
[Read here] 🔥 💌 x Fem! Avengers! Reader Loki catches his s/o masturbating (18+) 
[Read here] 💀 🌸 x Fem! Avengers! Reader Insecure Loki thinks you’re embarassed of being his girlfriend. 
[Read here] 💀 🌸 x Fem! Reader During the events of Thor 3, Loki disappoints you yet again. Will he be able to redeem himself?
First Kiss 💀 🌸 x Royal! Fem! Reader Loki tries to kiss you, but you reject him since you think he’s only playing with you.
Beast Inside 💀 🔥 💌 Jotun! Loki x Nymph! Reader Loki goes into heat and won’t stop until you’re pregnant with his child. (18+)
First Date 🌸 💌 x Fem! Barista! Reader A very awkward Loki tries to get you to like him while you’re on a double date with Steve and Bucky.
Afterlife 💀 x Fem! Reader Loki reacting so his s/o’s death.
Nocturnal 💀 🔥  🎵 Demon! Loki x Fem! Reader Demon! Loki is haunting the Reader. (18+)
Meant to Be 💀 🌸 x Fem! Light Elf! Reader Reader is promised to marry the God of Mischief.
Chilling 💀 🌸 Jotun! Loki x GN! Reader You want Loki to show you his Jotun form, but he refuses.
This Is New For Me 💀 🌸x Fem! Sorceress! Reader Loki doesn’t know how to approach you and cuts your hair off so you’ll notice him.
The Other 💀 🔥 🌸 x Fem! TVA! Reader Loki finds out about your past abusive relationship. (18+)
Dangerous Obsession 💀🔥Human! Loki x Fem! Nurse! Reader Loki is locked up in a mental hospital and soon loses himself in the infatuation with Nurse! Y/N. (18+)
Drabbles, HC’s, etc…
[Read here] 🌸x Fem! Reader HC’s of what would it be like to be Loki’s s/o
[Read here]💀 🌸 x Fem! Reader Loki comforting his s/o who feels let down by a friend. 
[Read here] 🌸 x GN! Avengers! Reader A not-so-serious Loki x Reader story told through random incorrect quotes.
[Read here] 💀 🌸 with unspecified Gender Child! Reader Reader is Lokis child and fears rejection after coming out as trans. 
[Read here] 🌸 x GN! Reader Fluff Alphabet with Loki.
Sweets and Snuggles 🌸 x Fem! Reader Loki comforts his s/o on her period.
Drive 🌸 x TVA! Reader Loki tries to get close to you, but you're wary of him.
Admiration 🌸 x Chubby! Fem! Reader Loki finds his crush in a delicate situation.
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writers-block246 · 2 years
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Loki: Mortals are pathetic! All of them are inferior to me!
Y/N walks into the room
Loki: Okay. Most of them are inferior to me!
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asgardwinter · 2 years
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can i request some jotun loki fluff? :3 after a hot and overwhelming summer party tony threw reader just wants some ice cuddles from their bf loki :D. and if it’s ok maybe loki is like 6”5 in aesir form and like 7”5 in jotun form?
this was my first time writing jotun loki, so i hope you enjoy the blurb, anon :)
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summary | There were two sides to your love and you made sure to enjoy both of them.
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pairing | Loki x Reader
warnings | a lot of dialogue, slight alcohol comsumption, fluff, insecure Loki, fluff again because that’s the soul of the blurb, Loki in his jotun form too
word count | 728
author’s note | it’s weird to write summer stuff when my city is fucking cold in the middle of april (this tropical country thing is bullshit). as always i do not really describe very detailed appearances, but Loki is for sure taller than the reader in both forms :)
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It wasn’t that you hated the summer, your problem was only targeted at the whole “Summer Party” Tony decided to throw. To add to the problem the whole cooling system was…unavailable.
In the middle of summer.
Unfortunate events apart, you started the night smiling and dancing with Wanda and Sam, enjoying the refreshing drinks a bit too much so you had to sit down for a while or you could fall from all the spinning combined with the alcohol. But as you calmed a bit from all the rush you could notice how hot it was inside the room, how sticky your skin was and how uncomfortable you felt.
The good news was that you were great at sneaking out of the party, getting to the corridor with only one thing in your head: a cold bath.
The terrible news was that the bath did not solve a thing in your situation and as soon as you put on the most light pajamas you could find you were all sticky again because of that damn climate.
“What caused you to come up here, my love?” Loki asked.
You jumped, startled by his presence sitting on the bed with that perfect suit still on — you couldn’t even think about wearing something that thick.
“It's too hot in here.”
“So let me accompany you back there.” It was really simple in his head.
“I’m not talking about the room.” You grunted. “I’m talking about the compound as a whole.” You dropped yourself above the bed, not liking the feeling of the sheets under you.
Too warm for your taste.
“I have no idea how you’re handling this suit in this type of weather.” You looked at him with curiosity. “But you do look very good in it.”
“Darling, can’t you truly see how I manage to keep myself this collected?” You shook your head and Loki held a laugh. “I am a god.”
“Go fu…”
“Just something to lighten up the mood, forget it.” Loki said in between his laughs at your offended face. “I am a frost giant. I have cold skin in the most literal sense.”
“Oh.” Everything was placed together in your head, finally making a lot more sense. “You’re a lucky one aren’t ya?” You huffed, completely annoyed at how unfair it was.
“You look adorable like this.”
“Melting?”
“Annoyed.”
Your eye roll was enough of an answer.
“But you could do something to help me not melt.” You. Were. A. Genius. With your best pleading face and grabby hands you were ready to follow with the plan. “Cuddles, please?”
“I don’t see how physical contact is supposed to help.”
“When it comes from a frost giant…” You trailed off.
“What? No. I don’t think it is a good idea.”
“Loki, please.” You made your best pleading eyes. “I don’t feel well, just hug me, my giant.”
“No.”
“Why won’t you…?”
“I do not wish for you to see me like that.” Loki cutted your line, turning his back to you like he wanted to hide.
“Like what?”
“In my… most natural form. I don’t want you to see the monster under the surface.” His voice was breaking and you hated it.
You dragged yourself out of the bed, walking to his shrinking form and carefully placing your hands above where his were hiding his face. You slowly tugged them away to look inside his eyes seriously.
“I don’t want you to talk about yourself like this ever again. Do you understand me?” He looked away from your face and you repeated yourself to make sure. “Do you understand me?”
You didn’t notice the changing in his features right away from how focused you were on his eyes. Loki grew even taller, his skin grew colder and his eyes went red, his face and hands were all in a light tone of blue. You decided that was your favourite shade of the colour.
Your smile was not what Loki was expecting.
“Do you understand me?” You asked me one more time, this time lower but equally serious about the matter.
Now Loki nodded his head. He did it slowly, but he did.
“Now just jug me please because I’m all annoyed at the weather and you’re a personal air conditioner.” You begged, dragging him to the bed. “But an air conditioner that I really really love.”
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lokisransom · 2 years
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eeeep i love that clingy loki oneshot! it’s so sweet :))
can i request reader having a fever that isn’t going down, so as a last resort to make his lover feel better loki changes into his jotun form for the first time in front of reader. reader relaxes immediately at loki’s cool touch. they mumble an “i love you” in a tired voice and it makes loki feel so relieved
Thank you so much! this is an amazing idea
word count: 586
warnings: none
you had a fever. of course you had to get sick now, just before some major missions and some of Tony’s parties, which you sadly had to opt out of. Loki had been trying to get your fever down for about 24 hours now, Bruce was on a mission and Loki didn't trust the doctors on the compound so the two of you just stayed on the floor stark had dedicated to not angering Loki or stressing him out (mainly for the sake of keeping the compound standing). 
Loki, being the anxious person he is, was kind of freaking out now. it was unusual for you to be this sick for this long, you’d been sick for about a week but before today you’d managed to keep your fever down. he’d been shifting to his Jotun form every night for a few hours once he knew you were asleep and then changing back before he himself went to sleep.
you had constant hot flashes and body aches, nothing you took was helping today. it was fine for the past few days but something about today was just not going well and both you and Loki were tired of dealing with sickness.
Loki had been partially debating using his Jotun form to cool you down in hopes you could both sleep but he was still terrified of you judging him, he knows that’s not who you are as a person but the fear still stands.
Loki climbed into bed with you, handing you a bottles of water and some Advil in a last ditch attempt to help your ever before he decides to shift into his Jotun form. After waiting about an hour and not seeing any improvement Loki sighs.
“could you come here, my love?” you find the softness of his tone shocking, he sounds almost defeated. you sniffled yet again and shook your head.
“its to hot lo, I cant” Loki, letting his head hang forward, sighed. he really didn't want to do this but he couldn't let you suffer.
“please, just for a moment. I need you” Loki knew exactly how to get to you, he knew the puppy eyes killed you and that with that tone you could never say no to him. 
you paused but crawled over to him. he wrapped his arms around you and pulled you over him to make sure you were touching as much of him as possible. 
“I need you to close your eyes for me, love. I know its an unusual request but just for now... please?” you pressed a kiss to his shoulder and nodded, closing your eyes. 
he slowly started shifting, making sure to keep himself from giving you frost bite but as he did that he felt you finally relax against him, you'd been so tense and tired for so long that Loki felt like he could breathe again, knowing you finally found relief. After some time had passed he spoke again.
“you need to sleep darling” he kissed the top of your head when you snuggled closer to him, he took that as you agreeing. after your breath had slowed and he was sure you were asleep you shocked him by mumbling out a few words.
“I love you Loki” just a couple syllables, but what you'd said had been earth shattering to him. your words were slurred and he didn't think you were really awake but hearing you say those words was all the reassurance he needed. 
“I love you too”
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Jotunnary | Day 11 - A hobby
Pairing: Loki x masc!reader
Word count: 1.1 K
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Birds chirped outside your window, and you knew you were getting late to your next training session with the Queen. Asgard not using clocks or watches made you hysterical. They measured time with just the sun, in this century, and that seemed to suffice for them.
You've tried to get used to your new life. Thor said his mother could train you well enough so that you could be accepted into the Avengers properly, and not just because your father was one of them. And, fair enough. Because Tony could make you a suit and send you to battle, but as he said to the spider boy, if you're nothing without the suit you shouldn't have it.
And you were nothing without the suit.
The trouble about staying in Asgard for a couple of months was that you managed to, somehow, do the exact thing Thor told you not to.
You got so close to Prince Loki, it was ridiculous. Thor asked you to keep your distance because he was nothing but trouble for Midgard, yet the first one to ever introduce you to the wonders of Asgard, to take you touring around the Palace's libraries, to show you the best places to where get your daggers, to talk for hours on end about anything and everything, was Prince Loki.
It wasn't so strange you had fallen into some sort of a crush with him. You knew it was unachievable, but your heart didn't care about it anyway.
You turned around and walked back into your room, to get your training suit and head back to the quarters. But as you stepped in, you found Loki sorting through the stuff on your desk and Sif sitting on your bed.
"Hey!", you protested.
"My, the man can paint!", exclaimed Loki, grabbing your sketchbook. He flipped through the pages avoiding you, while you insisted on taking it away from him. He came across one specific drawing of his own face and stopped on it, admiring it with a smirk. "You chose your muse wisely, I see".
"Now give that back, you...", you tried —and failed— to take it away from his hands once again. Sif laughed.
"Why do you hide it, little apprentice?", asked Sif, grabbing the sketchbook from Loki's grasp and flipping through. "You're excellent. You might even get a job in the Palace for this one. Weren't they looking for painters, Loki?".
"They are", he smiled, and you growled.
"Give me my book back. I'm not here to work as a painter, I'm here to train with your mother and then leave!".
Loki ignored your explanation.
"I'll be delighted if you'd do me again. Come on, what do you say? Do me", he asked —almost begged with his eyes.
"I won't do you again, my prince", you sighed in frustration, finally getting to your sketchbook and tossing it to the bed. There was no point hiding it anymore.
"Come on. You've only done me once! And it was magnificent! You should do me more, even daily, I'd say! I'll pay and all".
"Are you still talking about the drawings?", intervened Sif with a smirk. You blushed and frowned, punching Sif's shoulder lightly, and Loki laughed teasingly.
"Why don't you want to draw me anymore? Is it no fun when I'm aware of the portrait?".
"It isn't", you joked. "Now, seriously. I need to get ready for the next class and you being here doesn't help me much", you explained, arranging your training suit and making the bed.
Sif nodded and left before you had to say it twice, knowing damn well how difficult your life would be for the rest of the week if you were late to Frigga's classes. Loki, on the other hand, took his time to leave and roamed around the room, observing the details. You haven't had much time to make a personalized bedroom out of the chambers they've given you —you've been there for less than a month—, and you knew you would be gone in a little matter of time. Still, nobody that knew you could doubt this was your room.
It wasn't highly decorated or anything. But your books piled up against the wall, from the corner to the middle, and you developed a system to check the ones you've already read —piling them vertically or horizontally. Loki was bewildered at the sight before him; the amount of books that not only caught your interest, but also managed to already be read, in so little time.
"When do you read? You surely wouldn't have enough time, with my mother's lessons and all".
You shook your head.
"There isn't such a thing as no time to read. I steal time from the night or the mornings".
Loki smirked.
"Much like myself".
"Oh. Well, you do strike me as the avid reader type", you said, and Loki chuckled. "What?".
"It shows you're midgardian".
You took your time to answer.
"Ouch?".
"No, no. It's just that... you mix formal and informal ways of talking. It sounds funny", he explained.
"Oh... well, actually... I actually talk like this in Midgard too", you explained, changing your shoes for boots. "My first language isn't English, so I might mess up a few things".
"Oh, I see", he nodded. "Then why do you speak English?".
"Because you do".
"I don't".
You blinked a few times.
"Sorry?".
"I use Allspeak. You can talk with tranquility in the language you were born into, I won't tell the difference".
"Oh, I see. Well, in that case...", you said, and changed into your own language, to see if he noticed, "I shall speak in my mother tongue".
"Yes", he nodded again and didn't show a trace of a change in his understanding. He really was a God, you chuckled to yourself. "Fine, I shan't keep you any more. You go get ready for your classes, and I'll see you... at dinner, I suppose?".
"Yes. Until dinner, my prince", you smiled, and he chuckled. "I'll bring the sketchbook, and you can pretend you don't know I'm making a new portrait of you, yes?".
Loki smirked before leaving.
"See you then".
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lokisprettygirl · 2 years
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Complete Masterlist : Loki x female reader (18+ Minors DNI)
Rules for Requests
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Thanks for reading and liking my stories, you guys have no idea how much it means to me ❤️
A love like this. (Smut, Fluff)
Summary : Loki makes the most of the time you two have before you leave for work.
What does loki taste like ? (No actual smut)
Summary: Drunken Girls night at the tower makes you reveal how divine and delicious loki is
Choosing her (Angst, Fluff)
Summary : Loki's childhood sweetheart sigyn comes back and you know you're going to lose the love of your life.
His baby Part 1 , Part 2 (Angst, Fluff)
Summary : You think you're pregnant with Loki's baby and he freaks out. He ends up saying unimaginable things.
What's your type? Part 1 , Part 2 (Fluff)
Summary: You and wanda discuss your taste in men and it's definitely not the mysterious charming man named loki.
Use me as you please (smut) Part 2 Part 3 Part 4
Summary : When loki gets mad, he loves to take it all out on you and you absolutely love it
I'm yours (angst, fluff)
Summary : when you catch loki flirting with a supermodel at Tony's birthday bash. You snap.
Break up with your wife, I'm bored (smut)
Summary : You want to sleep with Mr.Laufeyson and nothing will stop you from doing so, not even his wife.
Happy diwali : Loki x Indian Reader
Not Good Enough (Angst) Part 2 Part 3
Summary : When loki finds you and thor in the library,laughing and hugging each other, he knows he's losing you to thor just like everything else in his life, but is he right this time?
Patience is a Virtue (Smut, Fluff)
Summary : Loki teaches you a lesson in the importance of patience
What's love got to do with it? (Angst, fluff, smut) Part 2 Part 3
Summary : Your boyfriend Loki proposed you, you said yes and he became your fiance overnight. Your family overjoyed with the shocking news, invited him over for weekend trip to your family's farmhouse. Awesome right? Only problem is you do not love him
Say Something (Angst)
Loki's Birthday (Fluff, Smut)
Summary : Just you pampering loki on his birthday the way he would want.
Would Never be her (Angst, Fluff) Part 2
Summary : You found a portrait of Loki's ex wife in his chamber and she looks awfully alot like you. But it's not you.
That's DB Cooper (Fluff)
Summary : Your grandmother sees loki on tv and recognises him as the man who hijacked her plane in 1971.
Irreplaceable (Angst)
Summary : You lost your husband to death, but then you met him. Loki.
Soft Puppy Love (Fluffy Smut)
Summary : Loki hides himself in a shell when he makes a mistake, but you know exactly what he needs in such moments of insecurity.
Bred by a Jotun (Smut)
Summary : You meet a captivating stranger in the woods and can't help but give him everything he asks for.
Cookie monster (Fluff)
Summary : Loki loves watching you eat your cookies so one day you decided to offer him.
Kiss my boo boos (Fluff, Little smut)
Summary : Just another Loki is mean and a menace to everyone but that one mortal fic. You’re that mortal.
Down with Crush (Fluff, Smut) Part 1, Part 2, Part 3
Summary : : You’re an avenger and Loki have a crush on you, but he’d never express his feelings to you. But your thoughts infiltrate his head every waking moment, to find the relief he ends up on Tumblr every night to read Y/N x Male reader fics.
The Bodyguard (Fluff, Angst, smut) Part 1 Part 2
Requested (Loki x female reader) (oneshot)
God of Dentistry (Fluff with a little smut)
Soft Dom Jotun Loki (Fluff with Smut)
Depressed Reader (Loki x Gn Reader)
Worthy (Loki x Indian Reader) (Fluff)
Reader breaks into Loki's lair (Smut)
CEO Loki x Secretary Reader (Smut, Fluff)
Loki x Virgin Reader (Smut, Fluff)
Loki's First Holi (Fluff)
Soft Loki HC
Soft Dom Loki HC
Loki x Pregnant reader HC
Sarcastic Friends to lovers (Smut, fluff)
Soft depressed Loki (Fluff)
Super shy Reader x Loki (Smut, fluff)
Loki x Reader with KP (Fluff)
Professor Loki x Student reader (fluff, smut)
Loki's First Valentine HC (Fluff)
President loki x reader (Smut)
Soft Loki x Reader with period cramps (fluff)
Loki x Steve's ex wife reader (Fluff)
Loki x Indian Reader wedding (fluff)
Little Fort of Love (Fluff)
Loki Saves Reader from Grandmaster (Fluff, smut)
Loki x Plus size Reader (Smut, Fluff)
Loki in Little space Hc (Fluff)
Jealous Loki x Female Reader (Smut, Fluff)
Loki being a noob in the kitchen HC (Fluffy soft lo)
Soft Loki Scared of Hair cutting (Fluff, Smut)
Loki x Reader with Long Nails
Love scar
Loki x Reader with strict parents HC
Loki x Reader with Long Nails HC
Prince Loki x Maid Reader (Fluff)
Loki with a Sweet Tooth (Fluff)
Loki x Reader with Perky breasts HC
Pick me Choose me Love me (Sub loki Smut)
Dom/Sub Loki being Jealous HC
Dancer Loki x reader (fluff)
Loki x Empath Reader (Fluff)
TDW Loki x Reader (Angst, fluff)
Soft loki x Doctor Reader (fluff)
Loki x insecure Reader (Fluff, smut)
Loki x Reader Breakup(Angst)
Loki x Reader with Smol Boobies (Fluff, Smut)
Loki x Tiny Reader ( Fluff Smut)
Loki catches reader pleasing herself (fluff smut)
Loki makes reader jealous (fluff smut)
Series
Love is Selfless, It's kind - (fluff, angst, smut) (Complete)
Summary :You help loki in the confectionery aisle at the store you work at, confused and wondering what to buy for his girlfriend.
Love in the time of Uncertainty (angst, smut, fluff) (complete)
Synopsis : You're a waitress working a dead end job, when you start suffering from a chronic pain, one of your regulars Misha who's working as an assistant to Doctor Loki Laufeyson suggests you to see him. It's love at first sight for you but he doesn't feel the same, he never sticks around the same place for long but when a global tragedy strikes, he's forced to deal with the aftermath. Your paths cross again, will you be able to break the wall he has build around him? Or he will break your heart once again.
Hit me Baby, One more Time (Smut, angst, fluff) (Complete)
Summary : You're dragged unwillingly to watch a WWE match but your life is about to change entirely.
Mystery of Laufey Manor (Horror Romance)
Summary :  In 1972, A mysterious but charming Englishman stops by your Spice Shop in Brooklyn, New York. The masked stranger captivates you instantly, a journey of love and the horror ensues. Your life would never be the same again.
The Possession (Sequel to Mystery of Laufey Manor)
Build me Up Break me Down (Angst, fluff, smut)
Summary : After the attack on New York, you get hired to watch over the prisoner responsible for the attack, a job that was supposed to bring the stability back in your life might upheavel it even more as Loki tricks you into releasing him from the cell. Where does this journey with the Ruthless god of Mischief would take you?
Dom CEO Reader x Sub Loki
Grow as we go (angst, fluff)
Summary : You have lived with Loki since you were 15, he annoys you to the core and you hate him but is that all there’s to your feelings about him?
Hear me Now (Jotun Loki x Female Reader) (Au) (18+)
Summary : In 1983, Life seemed like a meaningless endless journey, your job as a cleaning lady wasn’t exactly adventurous but what will happen when you come across a being who finally speaks to your soul even when he doesn’t say a word.
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Short Drabbles
The petrichor (Sad..very sad)
Y/n messing with Loki
Loki's hair
Loki being loki
Lifetime with Loki
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27. “I’m cold” - “Here, have my jacket”
Main Masterlist | Flufftober masterlist
A/N: I'm back uwu Here's one of the missing flufftober prompts :3
Pairing: he/they Loki x gn! Reader
Word count: 289
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You closed the balcony door with a sigh and then ungracefully threw yourself at the small bench in the corner. You really wanted to go home because the party had been boring, but Natasha- who was supposed to be your driver- was nowhere to be found. 
You shivered when the cold wind hit the back of your neck and cursed yourself for not bringing your coat with you. To be honest you would rather sit on the balcony, freezing than go back to this chaos of a party.
“I see that this hiding spot is occupied.” A familiar voice greeted you and you couldn’t help, but smile for the first time this evening. 
“There’s plenty of space for the two of us.” You said and patted the spot right next to you. Loki was happy to obey your little request and sat down. Neither of you knew what to say, but the silence wasn’t awkward at all. It was nice actually. 
Everything was so peaceful and quiet- except for the music coming from the inside of the building. You felt the wind on your skin again and hugged your chest to warm yourself up.
“Are you okay?” The god asked, looking down at your shaking body.
“Yes, I’m just cold.” You explained, moving your hands up and down your arms for some friction. 
“Here,” Loki stood up and took off their long coat. “Have my jacket.” The trickster put it on your shoulders before you could protest
“Aren’t you gonna be cold?” You opened the jacket like a blanket and hugged your friend, embracing the both of you in the warmth of his own coat. 
Loki didn’t have a heart to tell you that Jotuns don’t mind the cold.
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queenjosielaufeyson · 3 years
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MASTER LIST
Loki x Stark!Reader College AU
Loki x Stark!Reader Royal AU
Loki x Reader Variant AU
Mob Boss!Loki x Reader Mob AU
Dad!Loki x Reader Modern AU
Pet Dad!Loki x Ace!Stark!Reader Ace AU
Jotun!Loki x Reader Jotun AU
Pirate!Lady Loki x Princess Reader Pirate AU
The Moment When:
Loki Met Y/N
College AU Royal AU Variant AU
Mob AU Modern AU Ace AU Jotun AU
Loki Fell in Love With Y/N
College AU Royal AU Variant AU
Mob AU Modern AU Ace AU Jotun AU
Y/N Fell in Love With Loki
College AU Royal AU Variant AU
Mob AU Modern AU Ace AU Jotun AU
Loki and Y/N Got Together
College AU Royal AU Variant AU
Mob AU Modern AU Ace AU Jotun AU
Loki and Y/N Said I Love You (TBD)
Loki x Reader Text Blurbs
You Sure? Wanna Date?  Badness Level  Lesson Learned? 
Back Off Running Away Pretty Princess
Loki Series
Loki’s Queen Complete
Monsters of my Invention
My DR
Meeting Loki
Loki Headcanons
Mornings
Nightmares
How Loki Would React 
Being Called Pretty
You Opening Up About Your Past
Your Song
Couples Costume
Being Called Bean and/or Noodle (TBD)
One Shots Outside The AU's
Something Blue Loki x Reader
Couples Costumes - Miscellaneous
Company- Sherlock x Reader 
Chameleon Circuit Spencer Reid x Reader
You're Enough Loki x Ace!GN!Reader
Not Fanfiction Works
Loss of a Friend
Once Upon a Murder
Bloody Slipper
Death of Oliver Excerpt
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loki-stories · 3 years
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𝐿𝑜𝑘𝑖 ℎ𝑢𝑟𝑡/𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑡 𝑜𝑛𝑒𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑡
Pairing: Loki x GN Reader OneShot
Summery: You comfort Loki after what happened in New York
Warnings: Panic attack, Loki falling off the bifrost (suicide attempt), mentions of torture
~ A panic attack rendered him upon the hard ground, rocking back and forward and sheltering his face with his hands. His thoughts had become so scattered that normal functioning was impossible. He caught flashes of memories, of things he’d forced himself to forget.
Loki’s arm was straining to hold onto Gungnir, and his blood pounded in his ears, every beat marking how many moments he had been hanging over the abyss. If he let go, then that would likely be the end of him.
“I...I could have done it father!” He cried, looking up and silently begging his father to tell him that he could have done it too, to tell him he was good enough. He was too afraid to trust his own instincts for he feared that he would decide on death for himself, so he clung onto the hope that was his father, and for some scrap of approval. A nod, anything. For once in his life, surely his father would tell him he was enough...
“I could have done it,” he cried again, “For you, for all of us!”
“No, Loki.”
He looked up, shock freezing him in place, at the low and calmness of his father’s voice, despite the heavy disappointment that lay there. Odin was disappointed in him, again, and he even had the indecency to be calm about it, as usual.
So his father thought him that weak, after all.
He isn’t my father, he reminded himself.
“Loki!” He heard Thor call out to him, but he’d made up his mind.
His grip slackened, his fingers easing off Gungnir, and he fell...descending into an unknown abyss. Away from light, away from anything good, anything he’d ever known.
He fell further and further away, deeper into the dark parts of space.
It certainly hadn’t been misnamed. It was so dark here, so so dark, and he feels as if the darkness is bleeding into his lungs, filling him with it.
His eyes sting, tears streaming, and so he closes them.
He’s reverted to his Jotun skin.
He feels colder. He wonders whether that’s because he’s in the middle of space, or because he’s a frost giant. He decides he doesn’t care.
He wonders as he falls,
how far he will go
before it all ends.
He sees you first, as the panic attack subsides. You approached him slowly in the cover of night, the cold white moon and New York city’s distant twinkling lights the only luminosity around you both. You wore a long coat and hood against the chilly air. Your shining eyes surveying him cautiously. Cautious, but not afraid. He thought. How interesting.
You had only your sword strapped to her back, but that was a necessity, and you were otherwise not armed.
He wondered how he looked to you, standing out in the cold, a little way from the city he’d destroyed today, while trying to take it over, trying to prove he could. He stood in the shadows, and he knew he must look dreadful; that beast had beat him into the ground, and his forehead was still bleeding. And the muzzle wasn’t flattering either, (or comfortable.) He knew he had dark bags under his sunken eyes from dehydration and lack of sleep, and his paled skin still had the many marks of his torture. If that wasn’t enough, the cold had brought a light blue tint to his skin, vaguely showing his heritage.
“Loki,” you said softly, and his eyes snapped back to you. You certainly didn’t sound angry. Or disgusted. That was also interesting.
Stay away from me. He would have snarled, if he were able, but both would know he didn’t mean it.
“Why did you do this?” You whispered. He didn’t reply. He couldn’t, he was wearing a muzzle. Was you that stupid? He thought. Maybe it had been a theoretical question.
You had been working with S.H.I.E.L.D. for many years, and you’d met Loki a handful of times when he came to earth representing his father and Thor. The two of you were good friends, and he wrote you letters sometimes.
Over the last few years you’d started working with Jane Foster and Eric Selvig and Darcy Lewis, and had met Thor when he was banished to earth.
And then Loki had sent down the Destroyer in his anguish, and you hadn’t even had a chance to talk to him. Then he showed up here a year later with his army, and you’d been recruited by the Avengers to help stop him.
Reaching out slowly, you lightly touched his arm. He flinched, and your eyes met. “Are you hurt?” You whispered. He was, in more ways then you thought. He just narrowed his eyes menacingly in response. It didn’t seem to shun you, even when he let his Jotun form take over completely, red eyes bleeding into blue skin. You definitely didn’t seem frightened, he saw. He didn’t think he could deal with your disgust. Your eyes widened, but you weren’t shocked. He looked different, yes, but having heard about his Jotun heritage, you had expected this. And he was actually very beautiful with blue skin.
His cheeks reddened in colour at the intensity of your stare. You seemed to be looking him over quite thoroughly, searching this skin he wore with her eyes.
“I did not realise how beautiful you were like this.” You whispered softly,
and it caught him off guard. He hasn’t expected that. His head turned to her sharply, eyes narrowed. He hoped you meant those words. Because that meant that you weren’t repulsed by him, right?
He didn’t know why he wanted you to approve of him, you were just a mortal after all. But maybe if you thought he was enough he wouldn’t need the approval of Odin or Thor or anyone else. Maybe then he’d be enough. What was he thinking? It was those shining eyes of yours, he thought. They’re distracting.
Am I? He asked quietly in return, only his thoughts giving away his inner feelings. There was no anger in his message like he’d hoped. Jeez, he hated being vulnerable.
“You have no idea.” You replied, reading his mind like you always did. An interesting power, you had. You touched his face gently, your fingertips brushing his skin.
He shivered, involuntarily leaning into her touch. Slowly, you lifted her other hand to his cheek, and he felt the click of a key as the muzzle was taken off his face, the sharp mouth guard coming away from his chapped lips. He frowned, watching you cautiously.
You smiled at him gently, leaning in, inches from his face, and softly brushed your lips against his. He gasped, and his eyes fluttered back to yours. You smirked in response, maintaining his eye contact and kissing his jaw with the same soft passion. It felt so foreign to him, but oh, it was glorious. Despite his desire for her touch, he pulled away.
“What are you doing?” He hissed.
“Kissing you.”
“Why would you want to kiss me anyway?” He tried to shout, hoping you’d jump. Instead, you looked back up at him calmly, but your eyebrows were creased with concern.
“I’m a frost giant, remember? I’m a monster. I tried to kill everyone. I—”
Oh, how he wished he could have remained impassive like always. It was so simple, he’d done it all his life. It was impossible for people to read him, everyone had also thought so.
Even the torture hadn’t gotten him to break down, not properly.
And yet, here you were, a mortal, standing before him with no weapons or any sign you indicated to harm him, and he broke down crying. It was the worst humiliation, he thought, to be so vulnerable before you and with such little prompting. But in seconds you’d wrapped her arms around him and held him to you gently, whispering to him that it was alright, and that you was so, so sorry. That made him feel a little better, the aftershock of the panic attack fading away with your touches.
“Why?” He whispered.
“Because you are worth it. You are enough. I’m sorry I never told you so. I’m sorry I didn’t realise how much you needed to hear it.”
He just clings to you, soaking up your whispers that it’s going to be okay.
Maybe it will.
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