Today I was checking the date and realised: basically 10 days till May.
I said it out loud; “10 more days.”
“Until what?” My boyfriend ask
“May” I answered.
And oh Boy, was it difficult to hold my tears. Cause I had a huge déjà vu. Exactly one month ago I was sitting at the same spot. Realising it’s only ten days till April. Only ten days till i finish the “extra month” I gave myself to get skinny.
And here I am. Same situation. 30 Days later. Haven’t weight myself in a long time, cause I can feel I gained and i am too afraid to have the scale telling me...
Same situation. Probably fatter and hell, I feel like I can’t do anything right. I want to disappear and be forgotten so badly.
Bjj, but the game gets their facts right. Kaley gets a panic attack mid game and leaves since drugs can make you paranoid, Iggy doesn’t get amnesia instead he’s extremely hurt (maybes he’s dead), Beef is dead because nobody can survive lava, the Mario Bros scene isn’t in since the area was not unlocked for them yet, and Dieter has bone cracking sounds since he’s too thin to function.
"The organism is called actinobolina, and it showed up in a paper that a ciliate scientist sent to James titled "Protozoa of Especial Interest from Van Cortlandt Park, New York" written by Gary N. Calkins. The paper was an old one, published in 1901. And if you haven't been able to tell yet, we love old papers like this. They're often written in a way that feels a lot more casual than the way academic papers are structured today. It can feel like you're reading somebody's journal entry or a travel blog that just happens to contain important biological insight."
Journey to the Microcosmos- Actinobolina: A Tiny Predatory Porcupine
As you can see Journey’s record sales went through the roof when Steve Perry joined. Their most popular and sold album is with no surprise “Escape” but all the other albums with Steve Perry also sold millions. When he quit after “Trial By Fire” the album sales steadily went down and hit an all time low with “Generations” in 2005. “Revelation” is their most sold album with a new vocalist, but it’s assumed that it’s because of all the re-recordings of classic Journey tunes. Journey has been constantly on the road for about ten years (before the pandemic ofc) so they have been working very hard with a tour schedule even crazier than in Steve Perry’s days in the band. I can only imagine that, that must have taken its toll on Arnel Pineda and been hell for his voice, thankfully he has gotten a good break now and sounds better than ever. It’s been ten years since the last album; Jon Cain has said as well as Neal Schon that new music is about to be released, so we will just have to wait and see won’t we.👀
Hmmm, not an easy question, in general and particularly in these times, I suppose. Yet on the other hand, these are probably the times to actually sit down and think about death. To feel into the thoughts and acknowledge the emotions that come up as you do. To confront our fear of death and break through the illusion that it is.
Leg day is done. Didn’t finish the whole workout but that’s ok, I have it my all and got 2/3 the way through. My body was telling me to stop so I listened. Soon enough, I’ll be strong enough to complete the workout with ease!
Spiteful Punks: dolls and douchebags part one by Madeline Fay.
This book is only for those over 18 due to its adult nature and possibly triggering themes.
Tillie is seventeen and she has only known darkness in her life, apart from when her Uncle was still alive, he treated her better than anyone else, but the abuse she has suffered at the hands of said “family” is horrific and has caused her every kind of pain imaginable. Her father is the President of an motorcycle club and he is the one which has instigated most of her pain and created the nightmares of her abuse which relives at night, that is until someone who cares about her helps her to escape, so she crashes her bike, hitches a ride to the nearest city and heads to an address where she is told she will be safe. She has to do this in disguise and fabricate a story to go with her actions, but she finally feels free and the day after she turns eighteen and makes it to the address, her life is about to change.
Her arrival is unexpected and unknowingly she causes a bit of upset, but she is told to make herself at home and help herself to anything she needs, she decies the frst thing is going to be to get something to eat, but just as she is about to eat it, she hears footsteps in the hallway and fearing the worst, she grabs a kitchen knife and confronts the person, however, the young man she finds isn’t anyone she knows, but he is just as dangerous. Even as he is being threatened by Tillie, he has the same tinge of darkness and madness as she sees in her own eyes and as he brandishes his own knife hidden in his boot, she is confused by the fact that she is aroused by the whole scene and even more confused when a second young man approaches from behind and just increases the sensations in his own way, a light to the other’s darkness. They introduce themselves as Logan and Trey and these confused feelings come to a head when the next morning she realises that the suite she has slept in isn’t as secure as she hoped when Logan enters the shower with her and they end up in a passionate embrace, but as a meeting is called with the household and another young man, her world is about to be turned upside down.
Once the truth of where she has escaped to comes to the fore and she is told that she will be attending the local school and that the young men are told that she is not to be let out of their sight, they must escort her everywhere and that she will be meeting the fourth member of the young men’s group and he will have her schedule ready for her to collect, after this revelation, the names of the mysterious third and fourth young man are revealed as Nicholas and Dalton. Will Tillie be able to figure out her feelings about the four young men and whether she will be accepted into thes new life despite feeling like an outcast? Will she be able to keep her sanity in this new type of cage, or will her darkness break through and destroy her once and for all? This is a thrillingly dark romance which is unpredictable, hard hitting and keeps you guessing until the end.
Life, death, and hope.
Why does everything turn out to be a lifetime's trajectory for us, why is what we inherited thrown away, why did we decide to kill ourselves, without understanding that something more powerful could annihilate us?
The Bridge, second Chapter
by Ariadne Gallardo Figueroa
On Earth in the present time of history Citlali, Sofía and Zila wait in the gynecological office of the assisted pregnancy laboratory; They do not say a word they are nervous and expectant when the doctor enters and points out:
– Mrs. Citlali will have to stay to perform some tests, it is something simple, basically the…
Nice 4 mile run today after a much needed weekend of relaxing. We ran downtown and then stopped to get brunch and coffee to go right after!
Today is the hubs last day, and just 5 more days for me! After that I’ll be off the radar for a while, with just some scheduled posts. But it’ll only be for a few weeks, and I have lots of plans for when I get back, so please be patient! ❤️
This is a piece I've been playing with in mind for a little bit, and while I think I've finished with this version, I'm not ready to leave the subject matter.
For some reason, I can't stop thinking about the Diamonds and Toads fairytale. That's the one where your classic poor, beautiful, good, and abused heroine gets "blessed" by a fairy (witch maybe?) and has jewels and flowers fall from her lips everytime she speaks. Her evil stepsister (another classic) gets cursed to have snakes and toads fall from her mouth everytime she speaks.
This fairytale always bothered me, even as a child, and I felt sorry for the fates of both women. I've been playing around with drawing them and I haven't really been satisfied with the outcome yet. I do really like elements of this version which is why I decided to share this piece, but I don't think it represents exactly what I'm looking to show. Still haven't figured out what that is, but it's a journey!
I have a few articles surrounding “Raised On Radio” in my notes. This one is from last year surrounding the firing of Steve Smith and Ross Valory when they were fired for the second time. It takes a look back to “RoR” were Steve Perry answers if he regrets firing and replacing them, why he did that and the direction “RoR” went in.
March 5, 2020
“Flashback: Journey Fire Bassist Ross Valory, Drummer Steve Smith in 1985
Journey let go of their drummer and bassist this week, the same two guys they fired during the ‘Raised on Radio’ sessions 35 years ago
By Andy Greene
Journey fired drummer Steve Smith and bassist Ross Valory earlier this week after alleging they attempted an elaborate boardroom coup to seize control of the group’s finances. The news was shocking to fans of the arena-rock band, but to Smith and Valory it must have felt like a horrible case of déjà vu. That’s because they were also fired in tandem back in 1985 when the group began work on Raised on Radio and replaced by future American Idol judge Randy Jackson and a series of studio drummers.
The ’85 move came at the direction of Steve Perry. When we spoke to him in 2018, we asked if he had any regrets about it. “I don’t know if I regret it,” he said. “We tried to record that record at the Record Plant in Sausalito and spent quite a bit of time doing that. While I was doing my Street Talk record, Jon [Cain] and Neal [Schon] had gotten together and started sketching some ideas. The ideas they came up with were more R&B-based. Now, I don’t know why they were, but they certainly had more pocket to them.”
“Jon Cain had just gotten a drum machine and built a studio in his house,” he continued. “Raised on Radio had a tendency to be a little bit more R&B than anything we’d ever done before. … Everybody was going through changes at that time, a lot of changes. We brought in Randy Jackson on bass after trying for a couple months to cut the tracks. We cut a lot with Randy Jackson and Larrie Londin and Jon and myself and Neal. We basically recut the record in ten days.”
When all was said and done, Steve Smith’s drum parts remained on just three songs (“Positive Touch,” “The Eyes of a Woman,” and “Why Can’t This Night Go On Forever”) and Valory’s work was nowhere to be found. And when they hit the road to support it, Jackson and drummer Mike Baird took their places. (Here’s the video for the Raised on Radio leadoff single “Be Good to Yourself.”)
“That was very painful and I took it pretty hard,” Smith said in the Journey Behind the Music special. “I really pride myself in my musicianship. That was very difficult for me to deal with.”
It probably became a little easier to swallow when Journey dissolved at the end of the Raised on Radio tour in 1986. When they re-formed in 1996 to record Trial by Fire, both Smith and Valory were welcomed back into the fold. Smith, however, balked when the group wanted to hit the road in 1998 with Steve Perry soundalike Steve Augeri. He was replaced by Deen Castronovo, but Smith returned in 2015 when Castronovo was sidelined by personal and legal issues.
Smith’s return meant that four fifths of the classic Eighties Journey lineup was intact until this week when Smith and Valory were fired for a second time. They’re now down to just two fifths. A long co-headlining tour with the Pretenders begins May 15th and the band has pledged to have a new drummer and bassist by that point. The obvious choice is to bring back Castronovo, but he has commitments with the Dead Daisies that he may be unable to get out of. It’s less clear who might come in on bass, but Neal Schon worked with Marco Mendoza in his recent Journey spinoff group Journey Through Time and he seems like a possible candidate. It’s interesting to note that the alliances in Journey seem to always be shifting. Schon and Cain had a nasty feud a few years ago, but now they are firmly united against Smith and Valory. Maybe the drummer and bassist can respond by starting their own version of Journey, but without the name rights it would be tough to sell tickets. That would change if they could recruit Steve Perry, but that’s an extreme long shot since he wasn’t even interested in touring to support his 2018 comeback record Traces. Whatever happens, Smith and Valory can at least go down in rock history as the only rhythm section to be fired as a unit at two separate points in history.”