#jules rants

[smilingbuckley]

So I was gonna stay away for a while but I need some advice on something and insta isn't really the place to go to.

About a year ago, I put all my old Teen Wolf fics on anonymous. They were Sterek fics (I think also one Scisaac fic?) And I was about... 15? I think? When I wrote them. Anyway, at that time, I wasn't aware - or maybe I was but didn't care yet, I don't remember - about the age difference between the characters being problematic. As I got older, that changed. At first I stuck to fics where Stiled was 18 or older, but then I just let Sterek go. I kept my fics up because I still spent a lot of time on them, BUT. Then someone on Twitter made fun of me for them. They started vague posting about me and judging me. I ended up putting everything anonymous because I didn't want to deal with that. I was like 15 when I wrote it. I don't ship it anymore. I moved on.

But now... I hate that my ao3 statisrics aren't correct. I think its about 40 fics, give or take? And I miss them being counted in my total works. And, again, I put so much time in them. I had fun writing them. It was my escape during some horrible times.

But that person on Twitter made me feel so ashamed, and I don't want to go through that again. I've been bullied enough in my life.

So now, I don't know whether I should ignore the impulse to remove them from anonymous collections.

I won't write Sterek again, I don't participate in that fandom, but I also can't ignore that that fandom was my safe space for a really long time. My first ever English written paragraph was a Sterek one shot on wattpad. I still feel some nostalgia. And it is a part of my fanfic history.

Anyway, basically I'm asking, what would you do?

Also, I wanna repeat again, right now I don't really ship them anymore. I love their dynamic, but I've turned it into a love for their friendship or relationship in general. I do not support any underage characters in relationships with adult. I've learned as I got older.

#Jules rants

[julessworldd]

The fact I can think of plots for chatting on character Ai but not for fics 🥴 I can literally make a whole fic series for them but not on google docs. Like how??

@valeskafics you have a Jaime idea? Or even a Robb @foxyanon hbu my love 😂🫶🏻

#jules rants #random thoughts #foxy anon #wifey bel

[ineffably-splendid]

"No inkling of a love story before this episode" (ep. 2.06)

I'm sorry, but did we watch the same tv show? I genuinely don't understand people who watched series 1 and where like "yeah, this is a totally conservative, good christian show. There's nothing queer at all in any of this."

All the insanity of the whole plot/premise is totally acceptable, but omg how DARE they love each other.

#THEY ARE JUST REALLY CLOSE FRIENDS #I also look at all my friends the way Az and Crow look at each other sure #how dare two supernatural entities who had only each other for 6000 years fall in love #they are just the bestest of friends #NO ROMANCE AT ALL #certified buddy Comedy #who could have seen this blasphemy coming #because the rest of Good Omens is SO HOLY BLESSED HEAVENS #jules rants #heresy #good omens #good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #imdb #stupid reviews #reviews #ineffable husbands #aziracrow

[stealyourblorbos]

Welcome to my dumpster fire of a blog, lovely people 🥰

#jules rants

[tiasgarden]

ya’ll bella ramsey and joe locke are only days apart in birth...

i think its a sign for them to star in a project together.  two of my favorite british people.

#jules rants #i love the two of them and together would be iconic #bella ramsey #joe locke

[many-but-one]

Realizing I haven’t been the host our whole life was weird, yeah. But not surprising. We’ve had four main hosts and several minor ones over the years. Easy pill to swallow.

Realizing I split from the host that went by the dead name (dead name split into me (Jules) and Aeron) was weird too. But not surprising. I remember the pain of that split. It was fucking horrific. I didn’t know I was part of a system then. I didn’t realize I went dormant for a while. Amnesia for amnesia lol. Again, not a hard pill to swallow.

Realizing that I have never identified with the body, the body’s name, or anything about the body was weird but not shocking. The body is AFAB, I’m non-binary. I go by Jules now. Cool! Uhhh. Wait, what do you mean I’ve internalized the body’s appearance as my own to the point where I thought the body’s appearance was my own despite the rampant dysphoria I felt every second of every day? It’s not just because I’m non-binary?

Haha nope🙃 Turns out my inner appearance is nothing like the body and I never knew because I never purposely looked at myself in the IW and for some reason my brain dudes didn’t think to like mention that? Even casually? Like nobody could have made a comment about my ears being elf ears? Or my blonde hair and purple eyes? Not once???? Do you brain bastards (/affectionate) not realize how much inner turmoil the idea of fucking ear dysphoria has given me for years?! That I wailed over the fact that I couldn’t afford purple contacts for astigmatism because those shits are fucking expensive? You couldn’t have told me I was so fixated over the idea of needing purple eyes is because in the IW MY EYES ARE FUCKING PURPLE?! Thanks. Thanks guys😂

I look at Aeron now and she’s the one that maintained the appearance of our old host that went by our dead name but apparently I just kinda booked it in the opposite direction looks-wise LOL.

(I want to make a note this is completely lighthearted, I’m not actually angry. Mildly frustrated, yes, but not angry. I’m sure they had their reasons. I mean, all of the above things mentioned are pretty new concepts to me so they’re probably trying to move slowly so I don’t lose my fucking marbles lol.)

-Jules

(Did my own little picrew under the cut. :) Feels weird to see Me for the first time ever, externally.)

(Picrew link)

#jules #jules rants #did alters #did osdd #personal post

[washingtoncapricorns]

Is there a reason that these thumb looking dudes feel the need to be negative on every goddamn post about women athletes? Like ok we get you hate women but don’t you have better things to do with your time than call Sue Bird a nobody?

#Jules rants #why do men

[yunirgo]

i rlly wish steve was holding me rn

#jules rants

[supernovalevi]

playing through me2 on Gwen and got to horizon. Dude I always want to agree with Kaidan when I play paragon because he is right. I wouldnt trust him if he had died and got frankensteined back together by a terrorist organization so why should he trust shepard

#jules rants #gwen is just like yup i agree this sucks total balls and i want out of this but here i am (: #kaidan you are so right to be distrustful #im more upset about the options shepard has in the conversation #kaidan has every right to be angry #and shepard is like ohhhhughghg youre so emotional kaidan #anyways kaidan did nothing wrong

[noahkahansversion]

i cry over the haas boys constantly, cry about lance stroll, cried about logan, cried about the carlando podium, cry about daniel being outshined by yuki, cry about liam lawson not getting a seat even when he was outperforming yuki, cry about lewis and nico, cry about lew to ferrari, cry about every mention of jules, like im such a crier

-this was my rant to my friend about a tiktok i saw saying they cried over the drivers a lot, and just yeah. of course i cry over the drivers all the time. i cry over everything.

AS WELL!! I watched the Melbourne grand prix last night, it’s the first race I’ve ever watched and honestly? I’m so happy my first race was a non redbull win! It was so so cool, and the ferrari team all singing the italian anthem together at the end? like driving me insane this sport is so gorgeous guys. i just love it so much. also go aston martin, really sucks about the fernando penalty but did kinda look like he was breaking early. george russell crash 😭 the panic in his voice over the radio calling for a red flag? so so heartbreaking, i was so scared for him. i’m really proud of haas for getting two cars in the points, slay for yuki for getting points, shame for williams after all they’re shit about taking logan out of the car just to not get points, and then more horrid pit stops for stake/kick/sauber whatever they’re called! and alpine, driving their tractors.

#lance stroll #carlos sainz #lando norris #lewis hamilton #nico rosberg #nico hulkenberg #kevin magnussen #haas #logan sargeant #williams #daniel ricciardo #yuki tsunoda #jules bianchi #ferrari #redbull #carlando #liam lawson #red bull racing #formula 1 #formula one #f1 #f1 rant #melbourne grand prix #alpine #fernando alonso #george russell #mercedes #aston martin #stake f1 team #kick sauber

[clinicsharmartia]

TW MENTIONS OF SEXUAL ASSAUT AND ABUSE

I’m going to try and say this as clearly and as loudly as I possibly can through a screen because it really needs to get to some people. 

If no one from the original team you were playing with is defending or supporting you, maybe it’s because they know stuff the public don’t, and maybe that ‘stuff’ is evidence of guilt. 

If Mendy is truly, honestly and thoroughly innocent, don’t you think people like Aguero or Stones, or hell, fucking Guardiola himself would be speaking out and supporting him? Does that not seem plausible? People who have spoken to him on less than two occasions and young, impressionable players are the only two groups of people who are singing praise about Mendy. Really, in your heart of hearts, don’t you think that sounds suspicious? 

I’ve seen some people try and compare this to the Neymar case and that is the most vile thing you can do in my opinion. I didn’t like Neymar, I still very much don’t, but whenever I think about what happened in 2019 my heart explodes with sympathy. These braindead imbeciles using a reverse case to try and justify this is disgusting. What happened with Neymar simply cannot be used to justify this as not only did he provide hard, concrete evidence that you can still find on the internet, but it also turned out to be reversed, where HE was the one experiencing the assault and violence. THIS IS NOT THE SAME! And the fact that people are using this horrible experience to try and prove a point is appalling!

And you know what else is absolutely heinous and appalling? The fact that not even 24hrs before Dele Ali spoke out about the sexual abuse he experienced as a child, as well as other forms of hidden abuse that was caused by his mother and other adults in his life. How many footballers did i see openly supporting him? Three. And how much media coverage did this interview get? Well for me, I don’t have twitter so I can’t say anything about that over there, but I do have other social medias and I can say with full certainty that I have only seen eight videos in support. Eight. I had more hours of sleep last night. 

The same people that are preaching for men’s mental health and for men abuse victims are the same people who said nothing in support of Ali. If you are one of those people reading this I want you to look at yourself and ask how that works. 

And to the people who are reading and, like me, doesn’t think this affects you. Take a look at the list and count how many of your favourites are on there supporting him, because you will be heartbroken and empty. 

#benjamin mendy #man city #manchester city #joao felix #jack grealish #virgil van dijk #robert lewandowski #paul pogba #jules kounde #memphis depay #football #women’s rights #femenism #rant

[smilingbuckley]

Anyone else avoid fics where Shannon Diaz is still alive? Idk, I just hate her so much. She called raising her disabled kid exhausting and focused more on finding a cure than figuring out how to help her kid live in a world that doesn't accept him. She was so blinded by his disability that she couldn't see the kid behind it. And then it was just easier to abandon that kid. But then she had to force her way back into his life when she was contacted again, not owning up to what she did at all. And I think she was also planning on leaving before she died, if I remember correctly?

So yeah fics where she and Eddie co-parent make me laugh because Christopher deserves a better parent than that ableist deadbeat mom.

'But Eddie left too', Eddie never left because of Christopher's disability. He was in the army and wasn't ready to be a parent, but when he got back he owned up to it and NEVER treated his kid differently because of his disability. He was afraid of being a dad, not Christopher's disability. And after that he always made sure Christopher knows he's loved and that even with his disability he can do what he wants, even if it means they'll have to figure out a different way.

(I am saying this as a fellow disabled person who was also called exhausting by their parent. Specifically, my mom said she didn't have a life because of my disability because of how she needed to adapt to it. It's not like I chose to be disabled? YOU chose to have a kid, own up to your responsibilities. If you can't take care of a disabled child you shouldn't have children in the first place because disabilities aren't just genetic.)

#jules rants #shannon diaz #shannon diaz hate club #911 #ao3 #911 fanfic #buddie fanfiction #buddie #eddie diaz #christopher diaz #i got so much hate for this opinion on twitter #because oh noo shannon is pretty so its ok #'but she was young' that doesn't excuse ableism my friend #fuck Shannon Diaz #and not in the good way

[julessworldd]

The fact I have a chance to go to PNW after Christmas is so mind boggling. Going with my favorite aunt too! 3 years later I have the chance and I’m praying and manifesting that I can go and get out of Tennessee for a week 😫 first time she went I was graduating hs and my parents made me stay to get my diploma. It was the summer and it was so pretty! I’m gonna freeze to death but anything to go to my dream state

#personal life update #jules rants #washington state #PNW trip

[the-monologues]

Why is the whole Twisted series fandom potraying Josh as some dumb guy? Like that man is a freaking doctor. He is damn smart alright? Just one case of him being mad at Alex for playing chess with Christian and everyone is behaving as if Josh has a brain of some teenage 13-year old boy.

He went through a lot of shit, man. Now if he just behaves tad bit goofy, people are like let's behave Josh is dumb and has just two brain cells.

#twisted series #josh chen #alex volkov #twisted hate #ana huang #rant #booklr #booktok #bookstagram #fictional characters #ava chen #jules ambrose #rambling monologues #ramblings #romance books #books

[stealyourblorbos]

Watching "Spirited Away" in 4k is the best form of self-care.

#jules rants #spirited away

[many-but-one]

Love how I post a question on the r/DID subreddit that I feel would be best suited there rather than here, regarding the relationship between two alters internally and someone immediately comments “THEYRE ABUSIVE!!!!” Like……okay, did you not fucking read what I just typed, man? I’m not worried about their dynamic, I’m worried about actions they are doing currently, neither doing so with malice or a desire to hurt the other. I am not a fan of posting questions on the DID subreddit because people generally don’t give good commentary, and I have just never felt like I was taken super seriously in anything I’ve brought up there. The question was regarding reenactment of trauma between two consenting adult alters, who, like I said, are not doing so with malicious intent. I was expressing my concern over their actions and my main questions were “Has this happened to you? Should I tell them to stop? And how do I bring this up to my therapist?” This person literally didn’t answer any of the above and instead just said that the perpetrating parts were abusive. Sigh. Idk why I even tried.

#jules #personal post #jules rants #vent #did osdd #TW reenactment #tw CSA