My mom was like "You need to decide on what you wanna do for your birthday!!!"
And then I nearly cried cause I realized I'm gonna turn 20 and she had to calm me down. She's trying to cheer me up about it and I'm just like- fuck.
I'm nearly 20 and have never been on a date, don't know how to drive, have so much trauma and can barely cope with anything. It feels like just yesterday I turned 16??? How??? How am I almost 20??? Where is my life??? Where is the joy??? What happened???
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Why can't we have a batman is the spirit of Gotham au?
He already is, in meta, in character, in theming. Him and the joker. He is so very built upon what Gotham is made of, and Gotham builds from what he needs in turn, the setting of his story.
What if that is the reason he can take damage that would permanently ruin a physical career and come back? What if that's how he's managed to maintain his no-kill streak to such an extent? What if that's how he manages to maintain such high maintenance and all consuming identities?
For the heart and soul of a city containing all extremes, the richest nobility and the lowest of the poor, the cruellest villains and the most compassionate heroes, orphaned children and ancient lineages, a city rooted in fear and madness and grit-teeth determination and hard won kindness, what better choice could you find than Bruce Wayne?
But what if he wasn't alone in that? What if Gotham has sunk to such a low because its spirit is damaged and corrupted?
For the heart and soul of the cruellest city in the dc universe, the most unrelenting and uncaring, the one that practically laughs at your pain and suffering as you try to make it through another day, what better choice than the Joker?
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Me to myself, after seething over a random stranger on the internet not liking Astarion: Ok I need to calm tf down, he's literally not real, everyone is entitled to their opinions, you're almost 30 years old, you've never given a fuck about what anyone thinks about fictional shit before WTF ARE YOU BECOMING WHAT IS THIS EVEN
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An interesting thing I noticed at Geek Girl Con is the sheer difference in the number of people who recognized 98 Vash as compared to Sakura Con.
My working theory is that the demographic for GGC trends quite a bit older than for SC, and so I happened across a lot more people who were in the first wave of Trigun fandom decades ago.
This is honestly one of my favorite parts of this fandom -- just that it's Been Around, technically for longer than I've been alive. I see trimax art from 2013 reblogged and it just gives me warm fuzzies. This community survives. I'm so happy to be a part of it.
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TW d**th and existential crisis kinda
I have just watched a video about a show called "The midnight gospel" and its made me think a lot. growing up I didn't understand that life was short and I had a period in my life where I constantly had panic attacks about death and it made me really scared. I wouldn't know how to carry myself and it made me feel so small. but watching that video and rethinking on my life has made me feel less scared. I know deep down that I'm afraid of death. everyone is to some point but man I think I get it. being into fossils and other things that's have lived and died has shown me that ill truly never be forgotten at least in the way that is the existents of human beings. my name will be said one last time and that's the scariest thing I know that. but I know we as a people, as a species will leave a mark on this world for a long time and I'm ok with being forgotten. I know who I am and what my purpose is and that's ok. is my purpose something that will bring in lots of money and ill be able to survive off of it. no, never but do I know that what I do makes the people around me feel seen and make people know that they are loved, yes. my purpose in life is to be there for people and to make them aware that yes we die but living is the most beautiful thing a person can do. just existing is a wonderful thing and that we need to live in the moment and be at peace with ourselves. death is something that the human mind can not understand because it can not understand not existing. that's ok we will all in the end come to terms with it in our own time.
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