#just didnt want people to stop asking ;u;

[avalikesf19]

A Day at quadrant: LN4 (Part 2)

Author note: I don’t even know how to post anything on this and never wrote a fic but I hope this is good but I think it’s pretty shit and I haven’t finished it yet and if any writers want to use this idea you can for sure just @ me please oh and if you have feedback please let me know thanks xx

Also i tried to change my like writing style thing cause i feel like it was shit last time but yeah idk

Lando x quadrant fem reader

Blurb: reader is a member of quadrant, she games most of the time but also likes f1 along with her best friend Ria bish. She is friends with all members at quadrant and finds it a good laugh with all her mates, but maybe her view of someone in particular is more than a mate..

Warnings: sexualising, swearing, mention of a gun, leaked tape, sad distraught reader, friends to maybe lovers if I make it a series? Smut-ish? If I missed any let me know (I don’t know how to do warnings sorry x)

Well wasn't last week a fucking eventful week. You still cant stop thinking about Lando right next to you comforting you about what happened. You're starting to feel better about the whole issue and get some support from people online and all the other members of quadrant, but fuck that was just shit. You haven't been in any quadrant videos since, but you're in a better place now and probably need to start participating in them more.

Lando and ethan make the idea of quadrant meeting up at landos apartment and trying to train like him for a day. You aren't exactly looking foward to it but oh well, at least Ria is going. You text your gc back and tell them that you will do it too. Then, you get a message.

Lando: are you 100% sure ur okay to come back and film already? you dont have to if you dont want to.

Y/n: yep. I need to get in more videos and im feeling better anyways, thanks for asking.

Lando: all good

Well that was polite and unexpected of Lando to reach out, but whats more unexpected is for your panties to be soaked right now over 2 text messages. well fuck, oopsies.

That night all you can think of is Lando, it's a bit embarrassing to admit, but he was circling around your head like it was an f1 race. You decide to get your head out of it and call Ria to come over and have a chat, since she is your best friend after all. Shortly she pulls up to your apartment in Monaco, funning in bursting of excitement to see you.

"RIAAAAAAA!" you shout when you open the door for her. "Y/NNNN" she replied back. You give her a hug and make her a cup of coffee just how she likes it. You guys sit and chat about the f1 grand prix in Bahrain coming up, and how you hope Lando continues to have a good season with Oscar this year. "Did you see the chat about the new yt vid we doing" You ask Ria. "omg yes and they are bringing angry ginge in I heard" Ria replies back.

"STOP IT" you yell back laughing. You love ginge and his videos, who wouldn't? he's a very very funny bloke. "OMG i''m definitely coming tomorrow then to the recording are you kidding?".

Unfortunately time goes by when you're having fun, and Ria was the most fun, so she had to go a few hours later which felt like minutes. Besides you both need sleep for the youtube vid you're filming tmr at Lando's. You go to bed and try to sleep as much as you can, which didnt happen lol.

rise and shine love. It's already 6am and time to go to Lando's place to film. Normally you don't have to wakeup early as fuck but for the purpose of the video and "being Lando Norris" you had no choice. You get to his apartment after parking at the front and knock on the door, to which he opens. "hi y/n" he says nicely and gives you a hug. "So good to see you Lando, where is everyone?".

"first here mate" he says almost excitedly. "so what are we actually doing today like playing video games or some shit" you say. "haha your funny mate, we are lifting weights, eating what i eat, using the sim, and neck strengthening" he says laughing at you. "fuck r u taking the piss" you say laughing. "oh my days Landoooo do I look like an f1 driver" you also reply with. "well yeah thats the whole point of the video ya dumb fuck" he replied jokingly.

"hahaha get fucked lando nowins" you snap back. he laughs as you proceed to miss the chair you went to lean on making you flinch and stumble looking like an idiot. he is still laughing which makes you laugh too. "Lando norizz" u reply. "haha you think I have no rizz, funny" he replies egotistically. "yeah i do actually" you don't at all, in fact he hasn't even tried yet he has rizzed you up. "wanna bet?" he snaps out.

you don't have time to think before he pins you against the wall and just looks at you with those hot eyes of his. you can already feel your cheeks burning and your thong getting wet. "you say I have no rizz yet your cheeks are burning, and I bet those panties are more soaked than that porridge you tipped over the counter when you stumbled at my gaze, huh?" he grunts out.

what the fuck just happened, first how did he know and secondly did he just pin you against the wall. not the first time you want that to happen. you know what fuck it if we wants to be like that then he may as well be uncomfortable the whole video.

"how did you know about my tight, black lacy thong i'm wearing over my tight pussy hey? not your first time thinking about it aye?" you tease him, but whole walking over to him you see him looking uneasy.

why? because ginge was at the fucking door and heard that, and can see Lando's boner from a mile away. "well bonjour" ginge says laughing. "bonjour mate" lando says as he daps up ginge covering his boner and trying to ignore what just happened.

You already know this video is gonna be the longest set of your life..

sorry its a short one x

#lando norris #formula 1 #quadrant #ln4 #f1 fanfic #ln4 x reader #lando fic

[oysterself]

revoking everyones she/her privileges cause im getting real tired of cisgenders always calling me it and its pissing me off every time i hear it from anyone now

#meowing #literally was at the pharmacy earlier ordering a refill for my testosterone and the girl had to go ask another guy abt it or whatever and #he was like ask the patient what she wants to do its her choice (i didnt have enough refills on my prescription to get my normal amount) #like i guess youre not really wrong but take a hint dumb fuck if im ordering testosterone why would u immediately refer to me with she/her #atp it just always feels malicious like seriously can you guys not. at least ask for my prns like i dont like being asked feels like #im getting clocked but maybe break out the brain cells and stop being a fucking idiot FUCK I HATE CISGENDER PEOPLE YOU PEOPLE ARE SO STUPID

[unmanageably]

im off the thought that most of these warriors losses are due to coaching decisions (wrong lineups) and bad luck (injuries, dray out so no defense, random nba players turning into steph curry on the 3 line— grizzlies 3rd unit hitting TWENTY 3s on them today????) but today’s loss was just so indefensible and bad that its actually hilarious. the silly and stupid and pathetic 18 turnovers, icing out klay completely— just no one at all on the warriors trying to find him i mean 5 attempts until the 4th quarter are you serious— and then sitting steph and trying to run a “save us klay” lineup with 6 minutes left in the 4th when he’s ice cold due to your own offense choices its just very very hilarious. TJD butter fingers and Podz too many attempts not enough shots and a shit ton of fouling lol not their best game but i also think theyre just rookies and honestly have put a lot on their shoulders due to just. everything thats happened this year lol.

there’s things out of our control that we could be mad about (our lack of calls as usual and the 5v8 i mean the amount of FTA the grizzlies got esp considering we got to the paint more than they did so thats just ridiculous lol) but at the end of the day they didnt play hard enough and severely underestimated the grizzlies due to their injuries which was just. so so pathetic like whatever this loss the warriors truly did this to themselves

#when your own team gives u the ick 🕊️ #i think its funny how most people didnt even care to be mad anymore cuz theyre just so over this shit like omg #this team is so ass guys im crying #honestly not a big fan of podz at all and the way he’s playing has irritated me but i can still acknowledge that he’s just a rookie and #they ask way too much of him sometimes with these lineups i understand we’re plagued with injuries but draymond is back please stop giving #him ballhandling and playmaking duties when he cant find anyone for shit its ridic #klay thing really pissed me off but whatever we move #defense was… better but still sucked lol #at this point while i love and care for many of these players deeply this is just so unfixable get rid of everyone rebuild around the core #while theres still time and they still have a chance #i do think its funny how quick people are to point figures at the core being the problem when it is just so so far from the truth #rly just want them to rebuild around them and prove everyone wrong one more time #then i promise ill shut up forever lol. goddd i wont ask for anything else!!!!

[unganseylike]

every day i see posts on this website just chock full of antisemitic dogwhistles and i will open the notes to see if anyone has said anything about this. and there will be one comment nicely explaining this to op and then 20 replies telling that commenter they are stupid sjw piece of shit and should kill themselves . anyway i think anyone who believes themselves an ally to jewish people should 1) read up on dogwhistles 2) stop fucking using them 3) stop fucking defending others who use them

#if someone comments on ur post that u did a dogwhistle even if u didnt intend anything by it #just like. look it up and edit your post. stop attacking the usually jewish people who call attention to it #tumblr: oh boy goblins=antisemitism!!!! #actual jews: hey can you guys stop using the word elites an actual antisemitic dogwhistle actually linked to instances of violence #anyways yea half the time i comment on antisemitism on tumblr i get messages calling me a cunt. wld be nice if this stopped happening :) #and before ur like hey people use words and dont realize what they mean! sometimes dogwhistles are actually dogwhistles #case in point: a while back i saw someome w a little dodgy language in a post but still in a tumblr way #so i sent them an ask like hey btw this language can be misconstrued as antisemitic just want to lyk :) #and they told me im in a ‘filthy desert cult’ so. sometimes people do indeed use dogwhistles on here and im not crazy for #wanting the casual use of them on here to stop

[craycraybluejay]

throwback to when I was in elementary- I think 4th grade- and at Halloween, I was in my standard princess getup and there was this really pretty fellow dressed as the phantom of the opera- my favorite musical. I went to say hi and shake his hand, and he brought it close and kissed the back of my hand with a wink.

It was then I realised the power of a loli/shota/kodo. I remember trying to flirt with more adults after that, but I'll always remember that first guy, even though I'm an adult now

I would've killed to have experienced that 😭 who r uu tell me more stories

although i think if that happened to me i would have been crazy over it n probably went overboard,, i was a surprisingly not a very forward kid bc i knew i was like a dog w a bone when it came to anything i wanted. flirting turned to "dating" and feeling each other up right quick, anger turned to bridge burning and actual burning and destruction,, etc. If someone made the dire mistake of imbuing me with any sort of want it would be their problem 😭😂. give me a slice and i will make it my sole mission to have the whole cake. I've learned well to control the impulses involved but I still have the ambition to eat the world.

(also i feel like people do that stuff for the sole purpose of flattering the subject. in a lot of cultures its pretty regular that if someones dressed like a princess you act like shes a princess,, i should've dressed like royalty more.) (but ofc people on the recieving end sometimes like u or i get excited about it lolz)

#anon response #bro imagine if i was as open as a kid as i am now i wouldve been a total nightmare #'YOUNG MAN GET YOUR HANDS OFF MY COWORKER THIS INSTANT' #'STOP TRYING TO KILL YOUR CLASSMATE' #🥰 people were mean to me anyway i should've had more fun if i was gonna be punished even for doing nothin wrong #oh well still had a way crazier childhood than anyone i know by far #delete later #if people start being weird ab this #honestly tho i'd prefer y'all shoot me a dm if you have something that may come off controversial #for me to respond to #that way i can be a little less 'is this PR friendly' and worry less ab annoying assholes claiming i said things i didnt say #ive had people send me things i genuinely cannot publicly respond to #and while i am intrigued and really hella appreciative that they choose to share and WANT TO respond #i cannot and yall should be aware that it takes a lot of work to balance being 'authentic' and staying mostly unharassed on this site #but i do love hearing everyones stories and feelings and unique stuff so please dont be afraid to talk :3 #just know i cannot always respond to some asks for my own peace but will always accept dms #and know that i do read them anyway so if u just want me to see it and not respond thats ok too #i just feel super bad when i have juicy asks in my inbox i cant post

[jellyfishjunkie]

very sad 90% (not all) of my relationships (friendship and otherwise) is reliant on just me making the first moves, whether it be texting first or even starting and maintaining conversations when we r in person. it's kinda so depressing and exhausting.

#hush jelly #vent #idk is it too much to wanna feel wanted #and if i mention it change only happens for a short time #then it just goes back to the way it was #n people always say they just dont want to feel rejected #and its like.... #someone isnt always gna wanna talk to u/hnag out etc. #but why should that stop u from trying #idk??? like i know people dont always wanna talk!!!! i still reach out #i still send them silly posts #i still text to check up #or talk to try and start conversation #its not always gna work #and what #just cause i didnt feel like talking once #suddenly youll never intiate again #suddenly its just not worth the effort to reach out and recieve nothing ? #like do u even really care if u dont at least try? #i still check up on people i havent heard from in months #i know its hard sometimes to respond to people #but its always worth the effort for someone u care about #and is it really so much to ask that they extend you the same courtesy #i can think of only two people in my life who do this for me excluding family #thats depressing #and its exhausting for me #my own partner wont text me first #like girl.... #i knoe u wanna talk to me #you have said it before

[beomgyutruther]

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#snapped at my mom because im stressed about my preboard results and then i apologized and explained that i was rly stressed and accidentally #lashed out and she started saying that im always rude to her and taking my stress out on her ??? and that i never do this to my dad #and then she said i never talk to her about anything even though she's the only one who does everything for me yet i still dont talk to her #and well. maybe if she didnt tell my brother 'if u do this u will end up like ur sister in the future. u dont want to fail in life right ? #then dont do this' (nearly exact words) when she was scolding him . i mean maybe then i would actually want to talk to her #and it sucks because i cant rly talk to anyone irl about this because i still feel scared that they'll like. judge my mom #because i still love her a lot and dont want people to think badly about her #but its getting harder ! to exist here ! and the fact that i am constantly used as an example of what my brother should NOT be #especially when i work this hard partly because i want to be someone my brother can look up to #and to have that come from my own mother . it's really hurtful and makes me feel like nothing i ever do will be enough for her #not to mention the fact that i have come out to her 4 times and she still constantly asks me if it's just a phase #<- i thought that part was getting better but apparently not #but i've stopped expecting anything from anyone in that respect so it doesn't really come as a surprise lmao #anyway rant over i just needed to get that off my chest because i really dont know how long i can keep crying and then forcing my voice #to be normal so that no one asks what happened because wow it is taking a toll on me! who knew #do noooot perceive this

[khaotunq]

can I sue you for emotional damage for all the beautiful and gorgeous and just soulwrecking GIFs you dropped into your friends ask box? yes? thank you.

non, i'm gonna level with u. right now i would let you do literally anything you want to me.

that was not meant to sound as dirty as it does reading it back but. I guess.

ok so listen i'm fighting back tears on public transport because I so rarely get asks/anons and i have had an unbelievably bad day today so gimme a sec here

what I mean to say is yes.

(hey google how can I turn litigation into an elaborate and also maybe borderline aggressive marriage proposal)

#so it is decreed #ask post #anonymous #for rainy days #because i want to come back and cry about this for years to come #it's all very a lot #i'm so [gestures vaguely] about this ask #thank u non #i wish for u to have the most perfect and fulfilling existence #tbh for someone who doesnt fuck w the idea of marriage in any regard i sure do threaten it a lot #its no less sincere tho #if anything i think it goes to my credit #i dont want to be married i dont particularly even wish to cohabitate #so me offering to marry people is sort of me being like i would do it #i would do it for u #jesus christ jay go get ready to leave and stop adding tags to an already posted thing #i just worry that i didnt express my sudden and violent desire to protect this non for the rest of my life

[tortademaracuya]

It feels undeserving 👍

#once again thinking if i should like. not tell anyone #not tell anyone when the festival will be held nor my thesis defense #dont tell anyone absolutely anyone so no one can come see me #whyshould i make people waste time on seeing probably one of the worst things i have worked on #i feel. judged everyday. nothing is as good as it should be #this does not feel like a feat but rather a terrible shame #who cares about my degree i always feel like im being shamed when someone broughts up the fact im working on my thesis #i like what i study. dont get me wrong. and i dont think this in general. this is a me only issue and iknow that #and i know everyone would get upset with me #not like my mind cares haha the thoughts wont stop even if i try to be rational #i feel like such a terrible burden just asking for help. i feel like everyones thinking what a disappointment i am #i shouldnt need help. i should be doing this alone. and it should be way better than the garbage im making #last class the professors asked me 'why did u rate yourself so low? your work is fine' #i didnt even pick the low option i wanted. i picked a higher one to be generous with myself. i wish i had picked a 1. thats what i deserved #even if they say it looks good or that they r excited to see what i make. it all sounds like lies in my head #no one showing up is what i deserve. i shouldnt ask for help. i shouldnt celebrate anything #i wish people would yell at me and tell me what a fuck up i am #'the people that love you would be excited to help you if you would actually let them' #it all feels like a set up for showing what an idiot i am #haunted.txt

[puppyeared]

for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........

#MOTHER FFFFUCKER #to be fair. my doc said I could stop taking them while im on break since i wouldnt need to be constantly pumped on stimulants #im not sure if it was a side effect but i managed to take like 3 different naps in one day and STILL managed to sleep thru the whole night #at least 2 days into my break. the weird thing is i didnt feel more or less rested afterwards. but mentally i think im in a good place rn #to really put the level of awakeness im at rn i feel weirdly confident i could start one piece. also bc of that sick new opening it BANGS #the song is really good and im in love with the animation style. did some digging and it seems one of the lead animators is masato mori #but i could be wrong. it seems he also did some work on mp100 which could explain a lot lol.. he uses smear frames really well to convey #consistent movement and fluidity!!! someone else might have done color design but it works really really well esp with odas style!! #just love the overall vibe and aesthetic and id really love to study it and incorporate a bit of it into my art.. especially the thick #outlines which i think helps to separate characters and objects on screen. though i have to say the style is definitely more suited to #animation bc of the simpleness and smears. maybe that will help me explore shapes and perspective when i draw... i wanna get better #at drawing poses and angles but i have a hard time wrapping my head around space and using perspective guide lines NGHHHH #i wonder if it has to do with my dogshit ability to judge distance. not depth perception but like. judge how far smth is in metres etc #im also wearing an N95 for the first couple weeks back bc of the wave. absolutely NO BODY is wearing a mask its so fucking over #where im sitting ive heard 5 different people coughing probably not into their elbows!!! and im just. head in my fucking hands #there was a kid sitting a couple seats away in class coughing as he pleases and i wanted to grab him in a chokehold so badly. PLEASEE #ive been annoying my family by asking them to mask up and reminding them to bring masks when they go out and showing them news articles #but at least its working bc we ordered some KN95s and my mom is at least taking me seriously so. please dont be afraid to speak up abt your #health. take care of yourself and others however u can!! wear that mask indoors at your maskless friends house!!! stay home when u can!! #im wearing a surgical mask at home too bc my parents have '''a dry throat cough''' and they are so bad at coughing into their sleeves #also im pretty sure dry throat isnt transmissible bc my brother started coughing too so.. i also tested negative but they havent tested yet #im also not a doctor but i have to keep reminding ppl whenever i can that covid and flu work differently. covid is new and too recent to #have nearly as much research done on it. it seems its also compounding so instead of building immunity it weakens the body and spreads to #to other systems which might explain brain fog and muscle weakness. i remember someone early in the pandemic got infected and it messed up #their smell/taste receptors so bad that they cant eat most foods and that stays in the front of my mind when i think abt covid. christ #yapping

[oatbugs]

IM SO FUCKING PISSED RN . tonight was bad but good but bad

also ran out of tag space so rest of tags in rb

#the only other autistic person amongst my friends was like one of my closest friends and i just . ughh #basically we used to hang out a lot esp into sunrise etc and hed tell me abt his problems andnstuff and i just #had to delay my exam and thenfire and everything and i thought hed be there for me too and we all met up last night and i was like #hi i need to vent and he said . and i quote . get in line bitch . which was bad and also weird #he then proceeded to leave without a word after like an hour . and my other friends said he was just in a bad mood etc but whatever it felt #weird . and i texted him that night to check up saying hey u seemed a bit upset are u ok etc and he ignored it #while responding to stuff on the GC . and i was obviously upset bc he said that and proceeded to ignore the text etc #and what he said wasnt ok . anyway tonight we met up and he showed up super late and like . didnt talk to me the whole time despite making #direct eye contact and when we were leaving the bar i literally told him hey stop being a dick bro . like w a smile but like yh #and he kind of got rly upset and his first question was is this bc i talked to K and not you (K being one of the only girls in the group) #(who also treated me weirdly but whom i still care for a lot which he should Know) and i said no its bc you ignored my text after being rly #rude last night. meanwhile my friend with whom i had a kind of deal w for like . not smoking and stuff . took a long drag off a cigarette #and obviously i just saw it happen and his hair being too messy and idk it was like an instant heartbreak kind of moment like why would u #do this you said youd never smoke so i kind of just . looked at him and asked him why hes doing this and he looked back and kept smoking . #upsetting situation but the friend i was talking abt first took this as me walking away from him or whatever ?? like bro ? you see this #happening in front of you #anyway a bit later on into the walk i fall back w him and i ask if he wants to talk and he literally fucking #proceeds to say how he left that night bc his discord friends were doing smth better or whatever and he was standing behind me and i didnt #talk to him first and how he doesnt want to talk and hes sick of talking to people meanwhile im out here being a bitch #and as hes saying all of this hes getting louder so i tell him to not raise his voice bc our friends are in front of us #and i dont want this to be a fight i just wajted to talk to him and he blows up even louder like NO IM NOT GOING TO LOWER MY VOICE IM #TRYING TO MAKE A POINT and he keeps going abt how im being bitchy and he was just right there and i apparently ignored him or whatever . #and like i just let him talk bc i was like . hes not calming down so im gonna let him say whatever and then respond calmly . he then #proceeds to leave . just turns around and leaves w no chance for me to say anything #i had bigger concerns (i.e. drunk friend) but it was still so fucking confusing like ??? i texted u if ur ok and u ignored it why is it #now on me to approach u irl again ? what gives u the right to raise ur voice at me and call me a bitch ? #what gives u the right to be a dick to us but esp to tell me to get in line just bc ur friends are on discord and ppl are chewing too loud? #like what the FUCK bro. but anyway after that we went to a park and i talked to my friends friend and we had a lot in common and it was #like 1-3 AM but ppl kept coming and going and laying down and sitting on the swings and playing old music #and staring at the stars there were so so many stars . i checked up on my friend who smoked and made sure he was ok etc (S

[mmyneonlights]

:(

#dude. #finally got to talk with him #and we were good all night #and then we get in bed and he's like groping me n stuff. i am literally About To Get Naked. #and he asks me if trans men experience misogyny or misandry?? #so i was like uhhh. complicated subjet a lotta people fight about it. so he asked what do u think. #and i said it could go either way but i dont consider misandry a serious problemm #there is an issue in some spaces with people being treated poorly for masculine traits absolutely but it is far from oppression. #if someone says 'youre a man so you're gross' thats a dick move but its not oppressive. ig #and he completely shut down. stopped touching me and moved away #wouldnt say anything when i tried to ask him what was up except he kept saying its fine its fine #and then finally i got him to say 'i just didnt expect that answer' #and now hes all mopey and doesnt want anything to do with me #i feel crazy lmfao. is it not common sense that bigotry toward men is generally Not Serious like sure it's shitty but it is not oppression. #(on the basis of them being men. obvs men can experience other kinds of bigotry based on race/class/etcetcetc) #idek what to say. #im physically frustrated and emotionally frustrated and im hurt that he just shut down on me like that #like if he agrees that bothers me a little cuz feminism is something im passionate about and saying men are oppressed feels like its #belittling that #*disagrees i mean #but ultimately its fine. he can have his own opinions. but the fact that me having a different opinion from him made him totally shut down #on me is so shitty. and this is the second night in a ROW hes done this. i dont know what to do.

[yongseungkim]

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#shes so confsuing to me to the point the other week iw as like can we talk #not about my actual feelings but iw as sitting ther elike hello do u see me as someone close to u? #and like maybe an unfair question to ask but i also think we've gotten to a point where she wouldn't have necessarily lied also like #idk #i was like man im scared ive overestimated how close we are cuz i feel close to u but i have no idea how u feel about me #and she was like yeah id like to think we are close ive told u things ive told few ppl which yeah! #i know that ! #i think what was confusing for me too was like her actions and i was like this is a good thing of u but it also feels like #youd do certain things for anyone like things id maybe not #for her closeness she says is more emotional vulnerability than anything so for her sharing things is a sign #rather than doing things for people (?) #her nature is just someone whos very helpful very selfless person to the point where id wish shed think about herself a little more lol #convo was nice tears were shed on both sides but in the end idk if i said what i wanted to say #but also it has left me more confused cuz im like okay if we r close then why do u treat xyz person like this and not me #so funny to cuz she was like she has tiers of favorites not like u know rankings but idk i didnt fully tell her this #but to me her favorites are SO clear like #she tends to stick to whoever she feels closest to in a given group i think so #i started to ask her a bit abt it i was like uhh ik u said that u dont have favs but xyz person feels like ur no.1 and idk how to #really navigate that in a group setting (honestly i cant ever tell if im third wheeling w them like its to THAT extent) #and then xyz person came so the conversation stopped lol #or rather changed haha #rambles #dl

[straykats]

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#kats personal #man fr i just #1. i cant keep having the same fcking conversation all the time #its been two years please lets just drop it already #2. i know people mean well when they give me advice about stress and stuff #and most of the time i dont take it badly like im pretty chill w unwarranted advice #but theres a small handful of people who i just. please stop talking #like ??? ur acting like talking about my stresses etc is gonna solve all my problems #bro i AM talking about them. with a professional. but im not about to just divulge that info to u #ur literally my dentist idc if ur a family friend pls stop #i know u mean well but my guy please #and also. the assumption that stress is caused by uni??? #which links to poijt one. i cant keep having the same convo about my course change #dude told me to just take a semester off #yeah i did + thats not why im stressed #and i hate myself bc i know he means well but i just. really wanted to be snappy by the end of it #and he was saying like. oh stress might not seem much short term but long term its teally bad and you'll need to #go see prpfessionals and get meds and etcetc #and i was like 'yeah haja dw i know' and this guy was like #'if you know then why..???' he didnt finish his sentence but in that moment i was like #bro. idek what to say to that rn im so. #anyways 3. tjis money sutuation is taking its toll on me fr. its not even just my cousin. jts the fees for a fricken SPLINT and wisdom tooth #extraction which im putting off for now and getting a diagnosis #and then also my mum asking me for money and me knowing she will so ive been trying to accomodate but like #im going to scream #and 4. i was super tired and exhausted when she called me and asked for money but after i sent it #she was like #'thank you. i'll try not to ask you for help in the future.' #but knoeing her its like. #in a guilt trippy way. idk im so exhausted i have an assignment due tonight too

[ftmbruce]

why are strangers with no boundaries or common sense attracted to me like flies on honey

#nice people find me intimidating and never speak to me. strange old women who are higher than a kite for some reason think i want to stop #being alone and explain to them how google works while also not listening to me explain it. #u ask me to repeat myself a fourth time and im just gonna turn around and walk away. #she just wanted to delete her history bc she 'didnt want to know about that' and i was like ok just close the app or search for smth else #she was like shocked at everything in her history. she had googled lockjaw and looked st me said wtf is lockjaw and i said idk. google it #and i tapped it to google it and she was like no i didnt want to have that on the screen. #ok.