#just fuck my productivity I guess

[lucabyte]

i feel like people are sleeping on the occam's razor situation of how buckwild it is to outright accuse a guy of being a clone of your friend even if you DO have a lot of circumstantial evidence. there's other options is what im saying. they could just be like. a guy. that's a sensible deduction. you should explore that deduction. ignore my shirt that reads I <3 RED HERRINGS.

i still think odile has the correct theory on lock but she's smart enough to know it needs like... a real smoking gun to be able to bring it up without sounding insane.

anyway. (mirabelle voice) i know its rude to speculate but has anyone else noticed the grieving? they seem to be grieving. does anyone have any thoughts on the grieving? i have some thoughts on the grieving.

#[isabeau voice] am i insane or does sometimes loop talk like they might have killed their whole family. is that just me? just checking. #nille design highly inspired by @kiwibrain's since its the one that imprinted in my mind. liberties taken since i didnt look @ reference #anyway i have a lot more thoughts on this? i guess ill hide them in the tags...? scroll down i suppose. #isat #in stars and time #isat spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #isat act 6 spoilers #isat loop #isat siffrin #isat bonnie #isat nille #isat fanart #in stars and time fanart #doodlebyte #---------------------------------------------------------------------- #anyway the extra thoughts. are literally just my general thoughts on postcanon. (and thus are the context for all of my postcanon doodles!) #which is i think nille joins the party before loop reappears for a start (either from a period of nonexistence or just wandering around) #and that like. i think the party should be able to integrate loop as a completely new person. because they are! the secrecy isn't great but #They and Siffrin shuffle into different ecological niches in the party (eg. i think sif is more squeamish after it all but loop isnt) #and while it's not *exactly* what Loop wanted they get that beggars can't be choosers. and its pretty good #(i am glossing over how i think loop's reappearence drags both them and siffrin into a massive behavioural backslide and is likely a bit #distressing to watch go down. cycle of argument -> lovebombing -> normalcy -> repeat. etc etc. but since they are no longer literally #stewing in the worst pressure cooker of all time they do resolve it via productive conversation on their own time. its fine) #the party well-meaningly tries to deduce things from loop's vagueries and are able to pin down the DEAD FAMILY vibe pretty quickly. #but eventually the question of their prior identity falls by the wayside because well! they're just their friend loop! (also change belief) #as for how The Truth Come Out... this is what i mean by The Isabeau Torment Nexus(tm). which is that i think... isiloop should almost occur #BEFORE isabeau knows who loop is. he's just genuinely charmed by them eventually and tries to close the open end of the polycule #which FREAKS LOOP THE FUCK OUT because thats just too genuinely sick and wrong. and obviously w emotions high its not a great confrontation #ANYWAY told u i had more thoughts. if i were normal itd be a text post but.

[yourlocalabomination]

Tick Tock, Teddy-Bear.

#the bastards box wasn’t enough I had to trap this fucker in a hour glass #IM NEVER RENDERING GOLD AGAIN IN MY LIFE I DIDNT LEARN THE FIRST TIME- #anyway guess who’s not dead. sorry I disappeared for a hot sec as you might be able to deduce this one took a while #also life happened lol. I was doing this inbetween uni work a social life and being ill. #I’m not going to reveal how long this one took because I’m genuinly ashamed I put so much time into drawing Ted fucking Spankoffski #just know this might be the most amount of time and effort Iv ever put into a artwork in my entire life #I’m not too mad about it actually because I wanted to make one final big artwork before I turn 20 #ted spankoffski #theodore spankoffski #starkid #team starkid #starkid productions #starkid fanart #fanart starkid #time bastard #starkid time bastard #time bastard nightmare time #nightmare time #starkid nightmare time #hatchetfield nightmare time #nmt #hatchetfield #hatchetverse #hatchetfield universe #fanart #my art

[skitskatdacat63]

Some matador studies :)

+ ref pic I like but couldn't even attempt to draw 😭

#its funny how your brain can randomly turn on #no one saw it (i hope) but i posted some other matador sketches last night #MAN they were not great imo. i only kept one of them for this post lmao #like i was referencing pics and it was just not working in my brain except for the one #and then i came back to it just now and boom suddenly i could ref poses very well?????? #istg i either struggle so bad and have to trace the pose to check shapes and its a whole ordeal #or like now i randomly can look at pics and get the pose down pretty well #not perfect obv but i drew these all in like 50 mins so ????? pretty good no? #just having a severe matador moment #like i wanna draw more of the AU but i need to study poses first #something i actually really dont do a lot cause its often frustrating #but wow these were quite fun! #not worrying abt the end product yknow #i love matador pics so fucking much #bcs you never have to worry abt: is this unrealistic? is this too flamboyant? #cause man the pics are fucking insane #i think the legs are my favorite? theyre all just very slayful i guess. idk how to describe it #but it always feels like a dance #anyways! maybe more matador nando soon #i think i said before but ah....really wanna draw him bloody #catie.art. #matador au

[if-th3n-else]

And I'm not blind, Disney has Doctor Who now, suddenly it's called Whoniverse, they bring back the guy who brought the show back to life in 2005, we have David Tennant, who's arguably the most popular Doctor of New Who, back and when he's about to die (again) suddenly the Doctor bi regenerate leaving us with David's part still alive. And we all know Disney likes to milk the cow for more money. So now they can expand their lore for more and more money using David's to do so. And I'm a major fucking hypocrite this time cause I will watch David as the Doctor for all eternity. But yeah. I know it's for that exact reason.

HOWEVER we could just have the parallel universe Tentoo x Rose series we all crave 😔

#dw #dw spoilers #doctor who #but i think Billie isn't interested by big ass productions anymore #which is all in her honour #guess i will never have them back 😭😭😭 #mind you im watching everything for free if you know what i mean so Disney won't have my money #just... let's hope they don't lunch dw merchandise otherwise I'm fucked 🤡

[juney-blues]

i need to get injected with whatever fucking chemicals my broken brain isn't producing on it's own because i am so sick and tired of being crushed under the weight of a couple managable tasks, each going undone, until they all add up and i have literally thousands weighing on me each day

there was stuff i wanted to do last week that i didn't do, so now i want to do it this week, in addition to whatever comes up this week that i wanna do

the stuff i wanted to do last week? why of course that includes the stuff i wasn't able to do the week BEFORE last week

oh and naturally the stuff i wasn't able to do the week before last week, includes the stuff i couldn't do the week before that

and the stuff from the week before that? well i'm sure you get the picture.

"surely the solution is to just do the things as they come up", a particularly naive member of the audience might suggest

and YEAH.

you'd THINK it'd just be that simple, huh?

you'd fuckin THINK.

#juney.txt #vent post #i guess #man i just want to do my hobbies #read some comics i KNOW i'd enjoy for sure #reread things i DEFINITELY know i'd enjoy rereading #but most days i'm just incapable of anything higher energy than girl-rotting #endlessly scrolling The Sites while i've got some videos on as background noise #until whoops it's an hour until i have to go to sleep and it's far too late to be any kind of productive #there's no fucking way i;m getting the same 24 hours in a day the rest of you assholes are getting #i'm getting robbed

[the-kipsabian]

"why is kip sabian wrestling orange cassidy again they do it too many times"

this is the fifth match in over a year. you think thats too much? just admit you hate good chemistry and love and shut the fuck up

#this is why i dont read twitter ive made a mistake ough #just. this is just a bad take? its not even one on one on friday it hasnt been since the botb title match. over a year ago #and pre injury stuff shouldnt count yes that feud was a little bloated but that was 2020 to 2021 and plagued with injuries #i think we can forgive that you know #but like. saying 'they are wrestling too many times' is like? do you even watch the product? #so everyone else can have a long term story and multiple matches but not these two who genuinely work amazing together in the ring?? #im sorry im mad its just. im finally getting something after literally months and people complain and say its 'too much' #fuck you #wrestling musing #the dislike and hatred wrestling fans have for kip is just mind boggling to me like. i dont understand #whats fucking wrong with you #counted my matches wrong also but only if you count the battle royale as one. i guess you do since it had the cuddle moments but yeah #five is still a single digit and one handed number. too many my fucking ass

[dont-offend-the-bees]

Wooooops I let my brain atrophy again

#I started the day without a plan and the folks have been out all day #so instead of doing anything productive/creative I just rotted #I did some stretching at least #but it really doesn't feel good atm #genuinely my muscles haven't bounced back from that weird virus I had in Feb #and I probs need to work em out a bit more to start building the strength/flexibility again but it's hard and unpleasant and i don't like it #baby steps i guess #anyway horror of horrors folks are staying out even longer #so i have to feed myself without supervision #and who knows how long I'm gonna put that off #I don't feel very hungry rn but I should orepare food before I start feeling the hunger #but if I can't feel the hunger I cba with food #fuck my stupid baka life #think today's a bit of a write off #mr. bees speaks

[databent]

why the fuck is it that some people cant seem to acknowledge that people can just... be disabled. not through any fault of their own, not because something "happened" to them, just because, you know, sometimes people have disabilities. like, come on

#.pdf #rd #kd #just a warning these tags are long. like. really incredibly long. i had thoughts. #sorry for the vague ass post i'm just upset about some stupid shit my dad said yesterday. #namely: outright telling me that he doesn't believe i have non-24 (circadian rhythm disorder). #and that even if i do he doesn't believe it's possible for it to actually be a lifelong and disabling condition. #*also: this post isn't meant to imply that disabilities that did have some inciting incident are more accepted or anything. #it's just that i'm frustrated with the “you're disabled? why? what happened?” sentiment a lot of people seem to have. #nothing happened to cause my disability. i'm just like this. no i can't change it. what the fuck do you want me to tell you? #i'd guess it probably has to do with society's focus on work and productivity and career-mindedness above all else. #and when someone comes along that doesn't fit in with the way things are structured it just doesn't compute. #because the idea of people who can't dedicate their entire lives to working is so fundamentally contradictory to their view of... i don't- #-know. meaning in life? fulfillment? that they feel a need to reject the possibility altogether. #this is mainly when dealing with invisible disabilities from what i've seen. because i think there's a tendency to view visibly disabled- #-people as belonging to a different category altogether. which of course is its own issue but i'm not visibly disabled so i don't feel- #-like it's necessarily my place to speak on that. #anyway. i just want my struggles to be acknowledged as real. because they are. and i need people to understand that I Have A Disability. #albeit one many people don't even believe could be real because there's a sort of belief that circadian rhythms are purely a product of- #-external forces like sunlight so “you can't possibly have yours be different and have you tried just going outside more?” sigh. #sorry i also just remembered my dad telling me he doesn't believe i can have something so rare because the chances of having it are too low. #which is some ridiculous logic to me. rare doesn't mean it's impossible. some amount of people have to wind up with it regardless. #i just lucked out i guess. #n24 tag

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#its so weird. i feel like march 5th went on for more than a day somehow. i guess that's just bc we were awake for just abt all of it #my dad wanted to start doing things immediately so he was calling and scheduling all day. we went to the funeral home we went to the store #and it was weird bc as we were moving around it was like wow we r a 4 person family now. this is it. and theres so much to do after a person #dies. or at least there is when they were loved so much and jesus christ my mom was one of the best ppl a LOT of ppl knew. she did so much #for so so many ppl. and with her childhood she had every reason to b a fuck up but no she was kind and selfless and amazing. her mother is #trying to bask in the attention of her death when its like: truely go fuck urself. her being such a good person has nothing to do with u. u #treated her appallingly. fuck off. and fucking everyone knows it. god. she is a product of her grandparents kindness. and it sounds like her #dad was amazing like her. but he tragically died in a car wreck when she was 3. she was in the car. no one in my mums family believes in a #god now. too many bad things happened to the shining gems in a collection of wild alcoholics. but its not all bad. my family's staying close #my dad is taking it hard bc this means hes alone now and my mum took care of so many things bc she was so smart and he feels so dumb. he #feels he didnt deserve her. hes working on giving more hugs now. and hes using us to anxiously talk things out the way he did with mom #which is good. i cant imagine if this happened when we werent 3 adults and he was windowed with 3 kids to raise himself. and its funny. were #saying things we never would have told her. we looked thru pictures of her and she was so so beautiful. a total smoke show. my parents were #a cute couple who produced cute kids. and my mom had trouble communicating and being affectionate tho we knew she loved us there was #distance. theres a pic of my dad pulling her close and shes being tippef towarf her while standing away and thats indicitive of their #relationship. they were 2 partners who lived together independently and that worked but its sad bc my mum couldnt b vulnerable in her #expression. ppl r being so kind tho. ill be in ohio now for like 2.5 more weeks as the funeral stuff shakes out. we have to have 2 bc she #grew up away from her and so many ppl loved her in both locations. she was a popular lady. its so weird to b here on pause. but i feel clear #in my head. i think this will change a lot of my outlook on life. its nice to focus on the person she was and not the horrible 12hrs where i #saw her half dead. i cant imagine how awful it was for my sisters and dad to see her downslide into death. she didnt expect this to b The #Fever that killed her but it did and now she'll never finish a million things. and the house is full of pill bottles and all her junk and #unopened amazon packages and a truck with the fuel left on empty. bc she was an absent minded goofball. ay. well miss her so much #unrelated

[homophyte]

there is a rapidly evolving rhetoric against transgender cowardice that is deeply shaming nd it worries me a lot

#myposts #'medical transition invariably and always will expose u to harm and violence and if it doesnt ur not doing it right' #'medical transition is the single most important thing u can do u have to do it' #what do u mean the first statement makes u hesitant to participate in the second. theres no hesitating in transgenderism #idk man. doesnt seem productive #from like an access barrier perspective or a. compassion toward other people perspective #no consideration for like abusive situations or any other reason someone might not engage w medical institutions #i see ppl who say this act like others are criticizing it because theyre 'forcing people to transition' but tbh #my concern is actually more like. youre making transition seem undesirable and scary and like it will be a negative #ur making it seem like its a loyalty test that is awful but needs to be done #instead of actually promoting it as life saving and vital and doing the political work that entails #ie actually addressing access barriers or abuse or medical trauma or anything really #i guess its easier to sit on the computer and tell other ppl theyre not good enough and especially ahvent suffered enough #making it a point of shame to not be doing X while also portraying X as bad and scary and not doing work to undo the things that make it so #is a bad combination? i think? personally? #its just a bizarre way to talk abt something so positive. as if theres no positives about it. #you just have to do it anyway. for reasons. huh #personally what gets me is that its literally like. yeah if youre a coward theres no room for you. we wont protect or help you. #if youre scared fuck you. heres XYZ reasons to be scared. aww you got scared?? loser #thats what gets me. whats that for what does it accomplish #i mean what is accomplishes is shame but. personally im on the side of the transsexual coward

[moinsbienquekaworu]

Housemate is letting one of her rabbits walk around at night again :/

#girl he's cute but that means i gotta leave the lights on #i can guess she's not asleep because there's light in her room and her smart tv was still pinging my phone with the casting notif #but like. you can let your own pet rabbit wander around the house with your door closed! #he's your bunny! you didn't say anything about it! #not even talking about the risk for the lil guy because this is in spirit a student house #like i'm the only full time student but we're all at that student-ish age and living consequently #by which i mean there's lots of crap on the ground that doesn't get cleaned often #the bunny is not safe walking around. he isn't. also i keep almost tripping on him #and it stresses me the fuck out personally to have to keep the lights turned on all night across the house #just because jasper's out and rabbits don't have night vision and i don't want him to be alone in the dark #but also there are for real screws on the floor of the bathroom just hanging out #like. this is not a house that is safe for rabbits to roam free around. it just isn't #and she's filled the only shelf in the bathroom with more hygiene products than anyone else #and and and and. she's a shit housemate i won't miss her when i leave to go back home #man i can't wait for the day i am not sharing living space with her. i like my other housemates! #mostly because they pick up after themselves #and they're aware that when they make a mess they have to take care of it afterwards #she just kinda does stuff and then doesn't think about it #if she lived on her own i would not give a shit but it's impacting my day-to-day life as well! #ARGH #anyway #wow i have a ramble tag now #england adventures

[qulizalfos]

hello liza i hope ur concussion gets better soon pls don't die ❤️❤️❤️❤️ ily ily sending you heated blankets and spring water okayyyyyy 💕💕💕💕💕

HELLO BEE MY BELOVED thanjk you so much!!!! as of right now i can confirm that i have not died yet (or gone into a coma?[thanks for that google<3]) and do not plan to<333333333 but fr i am feeling a lot better!!!!!! ilysmmm i recieved the blankets and water btw and i am cherishing them forever MWAH

#it's not my first rodeo 😎😎😎3 month old liza walked so i could run #also!!! #im guessing this was a product of the concussion #but i had a weird dream where tumblr got another update #and it was boat themed for No Fucking Reason #people colloquially referred to tags as “bodies of water” #and shitposts like “ship wars just reached another level” were getting super popular. #staff would randomly terminate accounts being like oh no! your boat sank :) #lizaasks #bee tag #you are so sweet tysm #<33333333333 #thank u for the stoned fw pic as well i appreciate it a lot💛💛💛

[lord-squiggletits]

I know there are as many religious good guys as there are religious bad guys in IDW, but I think I pinned down the reason why it feels like the most prominent religious figures are all bad guys and it's pretty much due to the worldbuilding.

Maybe my memory of the comics is just really bad, but the religious worldbuilding in IDW is....kind of trash honestly. I'm not sure there's a single religion or religious custom that doesn't exist solely to further the plot along. Like, it's one thing for the Camiens to worship the Primes and that causes a lot of stuff in exRID/OP, but what does that worship actually look like? What are their holidays, customs, religious texts? What about "spectralism" which basically the only thing we know about is the Festival of the Lost Light and some hippie color coding and aura shit? Like sure, there are characters who are religious and their beliefs come into play sometimes, but it honestly feels (especially in MTMTE) more like their religiousness only exists when it's relevant to the plot and it's just kinda. Disappointing eh. Lacking in worldbuilding. Plus the more religious a character is the more it's written as their entire personality and the driving force making them evil so it just kinda made me cringe to read honestly.

#squiggposting #i think there might be more 'religious moments' than i remember since it's been a hot minute since i read #but i remember during my first read/while liveblogging it was something that disappointed me #i know it's probably unfair or whatever but it still makes me cringe so hard #that the reason tyrest suddenly became a religious zealot was because he got shot with a brain altering bullet #and his religious fervor is almost literally just a product of him being brain damaged and delusional #like oooooooooooooooooooooooof it's so fucking cringe lol #i'm not sure if i'm making sense honestly. it's not so much the NUMBER of evil vs non evil religious characters #but it's more like. the more prominently religion is part of a character's personality or motivation #the odds of them just being an evil guy shoots up to almost 100% #also then there's dr/ft who's a fucking clown and 'spectralism' is just some half baked hippie shit i can't take seriously #guess my problem isn't with IDW so much as it is with JRO lol #anyways not an objective analysis i might be wrong on some counts that was just my feelings as i read #and also i just don't like it when the worldbuilding around culture only exists when it comes to plot related stuff #it really makes the world feel less lived in/realistic when it's established that there are multiple religions #but then as far as actual customs- beliefs- texts- philosophies- etc there's hardly anything #so the good guys may be religious but there's not much about what their beliefs actually entail and how they impact their daily life #and on the other hand the bad guys are screaming about how they're god's chosen all over the place

[sanguith]

I had to look up "causes for carbon monoxide inside home" online because I kept being reminded that CO detectors are common in america for personal home use but I could genuinely not think of a single reason why carbon monoxide could form inside someone's living space unless they had a fireplace on at all times and terrible ventilation, but then I remember how non-electric stoves are so common in america and everyone has cars in a garage that is directly connected to the house or whatever and it made sense

#i think i've seen exactly one (1) gas stove in my entire life btw and it was in an old camp site and the stove was ancient #they're just not a thing here #isn't that fucking terrifying?? just. gas leaking out and you're setting it on fire #and they are still being produced! what is the benefit of a gas stove versus an electric stove??? does it consume less energy?? #i guess it's less expensive and heats up faster #but. do you really need it to heat up that fast. i think even induction stoves are just a bit too much even if they're convenient as hell #and... you need to buy like. fuel for it. separately. what if you run out of fuel in your stove. doesn't it cost more long-term #are power shortages so common that it's a genuine benefit?? i have a simple electric stove and cheap camping cooking gear if the power goes #and the power has never gone out. granted i do live in an apartment. but still #someone please explain #and don't even get me started on the carpeted floors that require sooo much maintenance to keep clean and a bunch of expensive products

[officialbillhader]

When i was 13/14 i made the most basic ass tumblr feminist post that ended up getting 400k notes (if you were on tumblr in 2014 or so you probably saw it lmao) and obviously it wasnt nuanced in any way like i made the surface level claim that women can wear makeup if they want bc they are doing it for themselves and thats not to say they cant wear it if they want its to say its impossible in our society to wear makeup for yourself. I only bring the makeup part up bc 1. My views have changed obviously and 2. I remember as this post was going around someone anonymous sent me an ask and said she was starting to interview for jobs/going into the workforce and she didnt want to wear makeup but was scared of how thatd affect her. All i could say at the time was, im just barely a teenager ive had no job so i cant say anything then some blanket advice i think. But now im 22 ive had multiple jobs and i want to take her by the shoulders and yell to the thin air that if shes up for a job that socially (or even forcebly, like soriorities do) requires her to wear makeup, IT ISNT WORTH IT. Itll never be worth it! Being forced to wear makeup, a bra, nice feminine clothes, always have plucked eyebrows, never a hair on your legs WILL NEVER BE WORTH IT. Ive got an office job right now where i can roll out of bed and throw on a hoodie and jeans and i love it. I wouldnt give it up for a $10k/annual raise and im being so serious. Im not a doll to be looked at. Im not a dress up toy. Im a girl who didnt have any clothes that truly, fully fit her to wear to the literal interview. They were bordering business formal at best. And im HAPPY.

Makeup is a farce. Whenever i see girls who have it CAKED on their face to the point i cant see their skin anymore i get so sad. Makeup can be fun, it can be cool and pretty on special occasions, its great for costumes, but lets face it, when you feel like you have to wear it everyday (no matter how little or subtle), youve never once put it on for yourself. The minute you let your bare face show enough that you get used to it, youll find yourself so so so much prettier than you ever did, and if youre anything like me, will start to despise how you look in heavy makeup (anything more than mascara and eyeshadow, if we're being honest). No job is ever worth losing yourself enough to forget how you actually look.

#awesomepie3221 #ive just been thinking abt makeup lately i guess #i still have so much from when i was teen and got obsessed with (female) beauty bloggers #and then my dad worked for sephora for 2 yrs and kept getting these GIANT boxes of sample prroducts my gosh #ive thrown away so many sample products over the years #i gave away a fuck ton too #most of its gone. i think all the samples are

[theygender]

As an afab nonbinary butch who's trying to gain muscle without losing weight the sexism in the exercise industry makes me fucking see red. Just found an exercise program that boasts being entirely based in science and has the sources to prove it with well-controlled, recent, and relevant clinical studies backing up all of their stuff and as someone who's pretty well-versed in scientific research and fed up with fad-based pseudoscientific bullshit in the health industry I was fucking ecstatic. They had a little quiz you could take to find out which program would suit your needs the best so I filled it out and when it asked me about my goals I selected "I have a low amount of body fat and want to build more muscle" and it took me to a program called Strong. Great! ...Except as I read into it I kept finding references to "burning stubborn fat" and other similar shit. Scrolled down to the FAQ and found a question where it explained that this program was different from their Build program bc Build is "better suited for those who are skinny and at a relatively low body fat" ...even though that's exactly the option I selected in the quiz. Turns out they have three options for males: one for people who want to lose weight without focusing too much on muscle mass, one for people who want to become leaner by focusing on both weight loss and muscle mass, and one for people who want to gain muscle mass without losing weight (Build). But for females, they've only got two options, and neither one of them are designed to help you gain muscle mass without losing weight. I would ask why tf it's ALWAYS assumed that women have to want to lose weight but I know it's fucking sexism

#is the diet industry REALLY so pervasive that companies are deciding to just lose out on money #by not making products for people with weight goals they dont think women should have?? #they literally made a program for men who want to gain muscle mass without losing weight #and then just decided that would be the ONLY one they wouldnt adapt to fit women as well #my guy ive struggled with being chronically underweight my entire life and i only JUST managed to reach a healthy weight at the age of 25 #i only just got to where i dont pass out from standing up or getting too hot or doing light exercise anymore #i am NOT trying to become underweight again #why is it so fucking unfathomable that a woman might not want to lose weight #rambling #considering trying the mens program but my only concern is that ill likely have different nutrition requirements and etc #being a non-hrt afab person #i emailed their support to ask about it. guess ill see if theyre able to give any sort of satisfactory response #to which one would work for a 'female' who doesnt want to lose weight or 'improve my curves'