#just ignore

[neonross]

IDk i don normally vent it doesnt make sense cuz i was upset while making this

errr- oof-

#small vent #just ignore

[acewithapaintbrush]

I hate being an anxious "always waiting for the other shoe to drop, always considering the worst case scenario" type of person cause that means even though I didn't give the guy in front of my door who was claiming to be my gas provider any signature or infos that he didn't already have and even though I won't know if it was a scammer before I can call the provider tomorrow I am now convinced that I'll be robbed blind tomorrow and a complete emotional mess

#I didn't sign anything and he had all my info already so I think maybe he was legitimate #If he wasn't legitimate then he had a lot of personal data like birthdate and email etc etc about me #AND THAT WOULD BE CONCERNING FOR A WHOLE DIFFERENT REASON #Just an anxious mess right now #Didn't give him anything and still anxious #Make it make sense brain #Pray for me that the provider tells me tomorrow oh yeah we are sending people around #If not I gotta call the police or something #Guy gave me his phone number so I could get in touch so another reason why it's probably ok like y would he do that if he was a scammer? #Gah idk I'm stupid and anxious and angry #Just ignore

[virtie333]

Let's check off my recent stressors that are concluded/relieved

Jackson's surgery☑️

Truck died ☑️

Truck 'rehomed' ☑️

Receptionist on vacation so I have to work her shifts ☑️

Get new car ☑️

Deal with winter driving ☑️

Tension at Chester's barn ☑️

Constant worry about money (this one will never get checked off) ☑️

I am hoping to have the truck gone by tomorrow, and the snow is supposed to end then, too. Chelsea will be back on Thursday, so hopefully I'll get my preferred night shifts again, although I will admit doing reception when it's the off season isn't too bad.

Here's hoping I get to work safely tomorrow morning AND the dude I've been trading texts will all day actually comes and buys the truck like he says he will. I have another guy interested if not, but I just want it over.

#personal #just ignore #just putting down my thoughts #it's what blogs are for right?

[slytherin-paramour]

Having one of those days where my brain is telling me that I'm just a shit excuse for a human being and want to break down and cry and just not exist anymore.

#personal #just ignore #can't vent to anyone irl so I'll post it here

[bananastarion]

Just cried for the first time in ages... this is my only blog, so I can say whatever I want into the void I guess. I'm completely alone. I live in the middle of bumfuck nowhere in a town that skews so old it's essentially a retirement community... I have no friends my age. All my remaining friends either chose drugs and alcohol over me or they moved far away. I can't afford to live anywhere else. BG3 has been the only thing to distract me lately from crippling loneliness. I'm used to being lonely even when I had friends, but these last few years it's been next level. I can't even remember the last time anyone touched me besides a doctor. I'm starting to feel like I'm going to die alone here sooner or later. Sooner I hope.

#vent post #just ignore

[bewitching-666]

possible tw & I’m going to rant/just express my feelings so honestly just skip the read I just want of get it off my chest🤷🏻‍♀️ don’t need replies or messages about this, thank you.

I’m not really s******l by any means, but I do think about how if I just like vanished it would be better.

Going through the list of people I actually care deeply about I’m like “they could handle it and move on gradually” which is kinda shitty to think but it’s like:

my mom has recently started dating someone that she is invested in, my closest brother is married and living his own life, my 2 other siblings I barely speak to/see as it is, I don’t really have super close friends or people I speak to super often and I’m not dating anyone. So it’s kinda like I could just peace out and ya know their lives just move on.

my job makes me feel awful, I’m tired of being around these people and I definitely wouldn’t be missed here. I can’t find a new, better paying job to save my life.

I genuinely deal with constantly being misunderstood and put into these boxes because people would rather speculate than communicate or I’m just not the person they care about enough.

I have like an event I’m looking forward to but other than that things really aren’t looking up. It’s exhausting

#just ignore

[raffaelamusiker]

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Rsd making even the tiniest things seem like rejection for weeks now smh I hate it. Everything feels like it’s changed and somehow it feels like my fault and I don’t know how to get it back to what it was. Tired of brain, tired of feeling like people hate me.

#just ignore

[epickiya722]

I think about how some you who are moots with me or follow me, probably don't even know I write, never read my fics, or if you do read my fics you haven't read my original stories.

Which I feel better about writing sometimes because even though I enjoy writing fanfics, I feel just a little more pressured because I just know some people are "I wish this character was written this way" or "could write this ship instead and not this one"... but then for those two seconds of feeling that pressure I forget those thoughts and write whatever I want because I'm forcing anyone to read my fics and if they don't like it the back button is available.

Anyways, past few days, I've been working on original stories and realize why I love writing them just a little bit more.

Free range. With fanfiction, I gotta work with characters that aren't mine.

With original stories, I'm given fresh clay and get to forge that clay into however I please from my own imagination.

#I'm just thinking right now #just ignore #just kiya's thoughts #kiya writes

[polithicc]

therapy talk

but what if i stopped going to therapy?🤔

This is something I’ve been thinking about for the last few months. I had some big goals when I started going to therapy and I’ve accomplished a few of them and in general I am in a much much better place. I mean the fact that I started taking medication again is a big sign of my improvement.

The big breakup last year was definitely a set back but I pushed through and now that I blocked julia i feel at peace and finally over everything that happened.

Work has been hell lately, but I know my reaction to it was only a fraction of what it would’ve been maybe 2 years ago.

I’m not drowning in a glass of water anymore.

The two other things I’m still working on are the coming out to family and the driving anxiety, but those im seeing as ongoing projects.

I just feel generally happier. I have hobbies again, I’ve made new friends, im dedicating time to things I care about, I’ve been putting myself out there when it comes to networking and volunteering.

Maybe I should just move to a monthly thing. It’s biweekly now. Or maybe every 3 weeks. I have therapy tomorrow and I think I’m going to talk about this.

The last time I stopped therapy was when I had just finished college and started at my job and honestly I was thriving then. Those first like 8-10 months post college i was living the life.

This is annoyingly sincere. Im grateful to be in a position where I can afford to see a therapist and when she stopped taking my insurance, that didn’t change. However, I think we’ve gotten too comfortable with each other so she’s not pushing me in the way I need. I love therapy and I think if someone has the chance and the means to, they should go to therapy, but i question if this is still the right thing for me.

#this is just me writing my thoughts about therapy down #just ignore #pers

[themirokai]

Rules: Tag 10 (or fewer) people you want to get to know better.

Tagged by @sans--seraph Thanks!!

Relationship Status: Married for 10+ years.

Favourite colour: My go-to answer since I was a kid has been silver, so we’ll stick with that.

Song stuck in my head: Well you asked so…

Potentially worth noting that I have a 6 year old.

Three favourite foods: Currently suffering from the Tummy Horrors so at the moment it’s plain pasta, salt, and water.

Last song I listened to: Fall in Two by Guster

Dream trip: One of those mind-shatteringly expensive multi month cruises around the world. Why not dream big?

Last thing I googled: God something ridiculously boring and work related like a local county’s vendor registration system. The last semi-interesting thing I googled was whether ravens hunted mice (they do) (I was pretty sure but wanted to check) (yes, it was for a fic 🤫).

Zero pressure tags (seriously please ignore this) for: @tryan-a-bex @pastrypuppy @virgulesmith @10moonymhrivertam @karalynlovescake @mashumaru @historyandqueershenanigans @ibrithir-was-here @sleebyplampts @garnetcapricorn

#miro irl #tag game #I am pretty boring #hello friends #if I tagged you and you don’t want to do it you seriously don’t need to explain why or anything #just ignore

[heckalecki]

when i was unmedicated i suffered a lot with religious delusions - to the point where i ended up falling out hugely with my jewish family and rejecting my upbringing. have been slowly re-embracing judaism and not panicking so much at the mention of religion anymore so i count that as a win!

my recent episode was around a lot of confusion over something my partner and doctor were sure was a delusion and now i’m seeing it was too so i feel a bit stupid rn. but that’s just how it is and i’m trying to not feel set back whenever i get confused. it’s so difficult explaining myself and sharing my perspective but i really have got a lot of myself back with therapy and medication and they help stop these things happening in my life.

idk i probably sound confused but i’m not. i just wanted to share some progress. shout out to my partner for reading through this to check it makes sense lol.

#sorry if you don’t want to read this #just ignore #schizophrenia #progress

[wispaarisen]

*pants heavily from reading notes on a joke post*

#seriously why do i even look at the notes #i get stuck for half an hour and just make myself upset #always some damn american chrisitian conservative terf right winger off to ruin every post ever lol #and i fall for the entire discourse and get so annoyed like stop reading its not good for me #just ignore #txt #about me

[alixismix]

- slight vent/update...

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I'm sorry

I haven't been able to do literally anything in some time because I haven't had a reason to. I don't see a point. I'm pretty much alone with literally nobody but myself, God, and this text post, and I just want someone, anyone, to know that I care. I love you and even if you don't like me or agree with me, I STILL want you to succeed. I want you to draw, to sing, to take that chance and talk to someone. Even if you don't, I'm proud of you for trying and making the effort, and you can always retry for tomorrow.

I can't say the same thing. In fact I am so scared rn, of myself really, Idk what's going to happen. I'm frightened of what's not promised. I'm not asking for help, I'm not even asking for a like.

Just, if you see this, please don't give up. Don't give up like I want to, like I feel like I'm going to. Be stronger than me. Be better.

#vent #nobody is going to see this #least i hope #I'm just posting this here since it's a way to unload without getting yelled at #dead account #I'm so tired #i thought it was better #i thought everything was ok #i thought i was restarting when i did Zelda art #nope #I'm just a fucking fool #i should have left and stayed gone #just ignore #don't worry about me #i love you #i just #i just wish someone would say they love and care for me bruh

[lostintime-liketearsinrain]

So it's my last night at home with the family before moving to my new place tomorrow. It's a weird feeling, a mix of excitement but equally sadness. This place has been home ever since I moved back from London after uni and while it's time to have my own place, I wish it was on better circumstances. Like I never thought I'd be moving into my grandads home and rennovating it to become mine. Even more so with the current circumstances, he’s in hospital (again) with declining health, my mum mentally struggling coming to terms with everything,work chewing my ass off for performance and from this week having to commute to the office 3 days a week etc etc.

I always figured when I got my own place i’d invite all the family and cook a meal and sure I can do that without my grandad there but it's not the same when he's slowly deteriorating. I don't know I just find it hard to be just excited with so much sadness around! I swear everyone I speak too is more excited for me then I am. That'll change I hope once I'm move in but yeah.

So here's to my last night calling my home my home and onto new experiences, challenges and memories💛

#new home project 2023 #personal #ramble #just ignore #thoughts and feelings

[punapioni]

Enough about kids and phones, have you ever tried talking to my mom while she's browsing videos on the Facebook app

#She doesn't hear anything you try to say #Just ignore

[anarchy-flagz]

youre alvvays a star until suddenly youre not

#anarchy-flagz #anarchy-flagz-boo-boo-bunny #just ignore