Okay but is nobody gonna talk about "my father drank gin" and "put a bullet through my head before i drink gin" like is nobody going absolutely insane over that-
Well i am and im gonna talk about it.
The tragedy of children picking up drinking because they saw it in their parents and so it's much easier to fall into it. And their brain justifying being drunk on something else, as a defence mechanism, against feeling just as bad as their parent. They're drinking something else, so they can't be exactly like them right? But in reality it's often just as bad and sometimes even worse.
This is also genius because all you get is two innocent lines and that's all it takes for you to realise Crozier's past with alcoholism.
"my father drank gin" could just be a thing you say during a toast. "aah, my father loved gin, it's nice remembering things about him" but no. Here it's said so bitterly and hatefully, you know for a fact he drank a lot and Crozier HATED that about him. We can also assume he's dead from something alcohol induced.
And then the other line "put a bullet through my head before i drink gin" - despite what the words actually say - is also something you could say as a joke, when your friend offers you gin, you know. "you want me to drink WHAT??" Sort of thing. But here you kind of feel like... He means it. It's said with so much resentment and stubborness, he might as well mean it literally. "Kill me before i become my father." Because Crozier hated him so much he wants to become nothing like him. Even when it's through impressive mental gymnastics.
He's like the stage 4 terminal level of old man fuckers like this man looks like a bulldog and is the most bitter miserable old bastard and yet every time I hear him talk in that Irish accent I get it. God id do anything to be on that boat and have him bark orders at me
i have these pmd OCs ived played through every game as (excluding gates to infinity). the idea being they reincarnate every once in a while and are destined to save the world together as partners, kinda soulmates who find each other in every life core. :)
the human is always a girl turned into a Pikachu named Frannie (Francis). and Mew reincarnates as a Squirtle named Kai (Aukai) their personalities change with each life, sometimes theyre just besties, sometimes its /romantic
my favorite series of games were the Explorers of Time/Darkness/Sky, so it gets my fave incarnation of the two lol. i try to have their personalities match with how the characters act in the game, so Frannie in this life is selectively mute, Kai has a knack for understanding what she's trying to say and usually translates for everyone. Kai's a bit cowardly, bit of a bookworm, yearns for adventure, and discovers his courage alongside his friend. Frannie's brave, dives into danger, and naturally takes to leadership of their rescue team. in my little doodle, i figured Kai took a hit to protect Frannie and she's kinda frustrated at him for doing that, knowing she can take care of herself, but he just wants to keep his friend safe. ;___; <3
I had a dream that I was watching The Terror again and it was… a bit different.
There was a plot where Francis Crozier was pregnant. Not by Fitzjames, no; they weren’t close like that. I think by someone who was 1) a casual hookup and 2) dead. He was confiding in Fitzjames about it, though, and complaining of breast soreness. Fitzjames asked him if he was sure he was pregnant and he said yes, that he recognized the symptoms from when he was younger, and then told a story about how his mother had helped him get an abortion when he was a teenager so he could pursue his then-incipient naval career.
Unfortunately, in the dream, I was watching this version of The Terror with my father and brother and they were confused. “But he’s a man! How is such a thing possible?”
“Transgender,” I explained impatiently, because it was obvious this was the direction the show had gone with the character, even though the actor playing him was still cisgender actor Jared Harris.
“But still, no way this would happen,” I added. “I mean, look at him. He’s GOT to be post-menopausal.”
if you’re friends with the host of a system please PLEASE make an effort to get to know the others in the system. a lot of the time, since the host tends to front the most, the other people in the system aren’t able to socialise as much and end up without much of a support group or many friends. reaching out means the world!!
- enquire about a certain headmate! how are they doing? what have they been up to?
- message alters even when they aren’t in front. make them feel wanted even when they’re not around
- @ them in things that remind you of them!! if they have their own accounts on tumblr send asks!!
being a member of a system comes with unrelenting struggles and worries, and it is in your power to be able to alleviate some of these concerns. make your system friends feel loved!! [:
i love that scene where francis actually decides to be the teensiest bit vulnerable with james by telling him he's there because sophia asked it of him. because james, instead of being understanding or anything, hits him with the "miss cracroft who rejected you, twice as i heard it?" and when francis, clearly bothered, responds with "you discussed this?" there's this little pause where you know james is just fucking sitting there like