#just needed to say it

[95enthusiast]

i love u cars fandom

#was overwhelmed with emotion just now #ur all so lovely #and funny and talented #just needed to say it #cars fandom #pixar cars

[nikolaorsinovapologist]

Need that evil ringmaster mannequin carnally

#nikola orsinov #just needed to say it #tmag #tma

[arlathvhenan]

Keep thinking about that quote from Alice and Wonderland about running as fast as you can just to stay in one place.

The past few years I’ve been running as fast as I can just to trip and fall and end up worse than before. Every fall hits harder. Hurts more deeply. Breaks more bones than the last. I’m never upright long enough to catch my breath.

My sister was only two years older than I am now when she killer herself. Every day feels like another step towards the edge of a cliff. I know it’s there. Im terrified if it.

But it gets closer every day. I don’t know how much longer I can take it. I just want it to be over.

#personal #suicidal thoughts #dead dove #I’m not ok #just needed to say it

[pleasantlycrazyworld]

This will be personal so you can ignore it lol

This past week has been so hard. And I honestly had so many thoughts of just giving up on things, on dropping out of school and stop writing. I really just wanted to stay in a ball in bed and I still would love to do that but some people on here along with people irl really helped. Without @sweet-villain @munsonsbaby and @bisexual-byers I really don't think I would be trying to catch up in my classes and I'm sure I would've just deleted this app and hide from my phone. I love you all and I don't know what I would do without you.

Thank you for putting up with my dumb stuff lol but i really really appreciate you ❤️❤️

And if you did read all that thanks :) here's a picture of bo for your troubles

#personal post #just needed to say it

[nostalgic-shamefest]

Every little lacho rat out here is putting their whole lachussy into everything they make

I appreciate you all

#just needed to say it #never have I enjoyed the depravities of a fandom as much #bless yall #lacho #bcs #lalo salamanca #nacho varga

[small-strong-bookish-butch]

If you also have complicated feelings and relationships regarding Mother’s Day? I hope you’re having a good day (or as good of a day as you can) and taking care of yourself ❤️💕❤️💕❤️

#mother's day #personal #okay to reblog #just needed to say it

[stupidlittlenemo]

I fucking love Doctor Who

#doctor who #just needed to say it #that Christmas special healed something in me IVE MISSED NEW WHO AT CHRISTMAS SO MUCH #ncuti gatwa #the man that you are <3

[anawkwardlady]

Mello my love

#just needed to say it #nana is posting #death note

[jovial-gender-jester]

they have something so special

#just needed to say it #clark hayden #cary agos #elegy of court dramas

[badgalazzie]

i love women.

#that’s it #just needed to say it #share it with the world #it’s a powerful statement #women >>>>> #feel like this is the only safe space i can say it out loud #with no irls following me #wlw #sapphic #lesbian #queer #unlabeled #girls like girls #lgbtq

[shutupdevvie]

sorry for complaining and ranting all day i am just so tired of people not giving a shit when they should

#sorry everyone #just needed to say it

[jupitermelichios]

how are we three seasons in the witcher costumes still look this bad?

genuinely, what is going on in the costume department there? it's not even a budget thing, these are fully design decisions, and they're all terrible

#not tagging my hate #just needed to say it #because holy shit some of yen's outfits in the new trailer are physically painful to me #why is she dressed like an extra in a 00s lindsey lohan highschool movie?!

[dystopiandramaqueen]

Endgame

I'm gonna say something that may be unpopular, but I think it's important.

I've sat with it for a couple weeks and I'm pretty certain that June genuinely loves Luke AND Nick.

June is polyamorous.

Her heart can hold love for more than one person at a time.

It's actually very feminist and progressive and modern of the show to depict a polyamorous female- to allow her to have real feelings for two (2) different humans at the same time.

Traditionally- in many cultures- women were property.

Literally bought and sold. Exchanged for dowries. Traded between fathers and husbands.

"Love" wasn't part of any of it.

If women had sexual intercourse with men other than their husbands- they were shamed and punished.

As long as stories have been passed down, "cheating" women have been vilified.

In The Bible, Adultery is listed In the 10 commandments from the same (male) Judeo-Christian God who watched and said nothing as King David seduced the wife of another man, sending him to his death at the Battle front so he could "have" her.

In the Scarlett Letter, she literally had to wear a visible symbol on her chest for the whole town to see. Permenant, public slut shaming for having felt love for a man other than her husband. HOW DARE SHE!

The Trojan War- depicted in The Odyssey- happens because Helen of Troy takes a lover and leaves her husband. All the nations go to war because a woman chose to take a lover outside her marriage.

Isolde's affair with Tristan and Gwenivere's affair with Lancelot? Forbidden! Their love had to be kept secret from King Mark and King Arthur. When it was discovered, the husbands were devastated. The kingdoms were destroyed. Again, literal death and destruction. She had to choose. She couldn't have both. Her happiness? Not acceptable.

Romeo and Juliet Die bc her family didn't approve of her choice of lover.

Traditional folk songs are full of stories about killing an errant woman. "Mama's in the graveyard, papa's in the penitentiary" "I thought I was her daddy, but she had three more." "I shot that bad bitch down."

The list goes on. You get my point.

I use the past tense... but everything Atwood depicts in The Handmaid's Tale exists in the real world. The oppression in this story isn't fiction, it's history. She did that on purpose.

Atwood wrote The Handmaid's Tale so that modern women wouldn't take the hard-won freedoms we enjoy for granted.

I've read headlines about "Honor Killings" in the middle east- where brothers or fathers kill an errant family member for shaming the family. Still. Happening. Today.

These are the stories we grew up on.

June grew up on those stories too. June feels shame when she's attracted to Nick. In the book, June thinks Luke is dead, but she STILL still feels guilt, and begs Luke's forgiveness in her mind for her "weakness" and "faithlessness."

The show writers depicted this beautifully in June's taped confession to Luke in S3. She admits shame and tells Luke he should also find comfort in another, like she has. She releases him from the bonds of monogamy.

Ok. SO.

A TRADITIONAL story would have one of the following ending options:

June confesses her "sin" to Luke, who would have every right to punish her- with shame or a slap to the face, or divorce.

June returns to Luke as his property, downplaying her affair with Nick. Revoking, forsaking it- to return to the safety of Luke's protection.

June revokes her marriage, saying its over, she doesn't love him anymore, "choosing" Nick. Hiding in the safety of HIS arms. This would undoubtedly provoke a man like Luke to violence. Like the trojan war. Like in the fucking bar in Toronto when Luke shoves Nick.

Luke or Nick die, making the decision for her.

But this is a feminist story, written by a woman. At the end of the Testaments, Atwood has both Luke AND Nick present in June's life.

June doesn't have to choose. She can love and be loved by both.

Our hearts can hold love for more than one person at a time.

It's not hurtful if everyone involved knows about each other.

Luke asks her to contact Nick to help with Hannah.

Nick is aware of and Glad for Luke's help from Toronto in sheltering June once she's out.

There are no secrets, no deception. Just love.

Polyamorous people can still feel jealousy, and hurt- it's not EASY to navigate- but when she's with Luke, she's with Luke. When she's with Nick, she's with Nick.

When she says "I love you" to one, she means it.

It isn't false because she also said it to someone else.

We see in Gilead- what it looks like when women are property. Named for their captors. Of-FRED. Of- Luke. Of-Nick. It is BAD and harmful. To be defined by your captor. To be owned by a man like property.

The Handmaid's Tale is healing and beautiful because June reclaims her freedom by reclaiming her sexual agency. By having sex with Nick "because it feels good" June frees herself, even while she is still a captive.

It's the point of the whole story.

So as we watch her tale play out in Season 6, let's remember that June doesn't have to choose between Luke and Nick. Spoiler alert: according to The Testaments, she won't.

This isn't Twilight. She doesn't have to forsake mortal life and become what Edward is, or lose Edward to be with Jacob.

If the writers were going to force a DEFINITIVE endgame with Nick, they could have killed Luke off twice now. Once while he was detained by border agents, and once when he was fighting the man who ran June over.

They didn't kill Luke off.

Luke will remain a part of June's life. He's the father of her child, and holds a special place in her heart. His love survived her absence, and is doing its best to adapt to her new post-trauma reality. He is growing with her now. Doing everything he can to help, just like Nick. Is Luke as savvy as Nick? As graceful and open? No. But he's from a different world. I'm open to Luke's growth as long as it allows for Nick, the same way Nick allows for Luke.

Nick is ok with June loving more than one person. It doesn't diminish his love for her. His love isn't possessive. He will never own June. She is NOT "his". That's cannon. Nick, depicted by Max Minghella, is impressed by Luke's love for June, and glad for it. He looks impressed when Tuello tells him the driver who injured June is in the ICU. Glad June has another protector, who is free to act in ways he can't.

June can have both.

She can love two men. Openly.

And that is pretty fuckin cool.

#polyamory #meta #nick x june #nick blaine #osblaine #when the discomfort rises #sit with it #and know that june's love for nick will never fail #no matter what obstacles they throw at it #love never fails #not looking for discussion #just needed to say it

[proteesiukkonen]

Adding netflix’s the Sandman to my ”now that’s a good Satan” list.

#random musings #just needed to say it

[orbitbyler]

i am 100% team jonathan suspects byler is requited

#just needed to say it #i wonder if we will get an insight into jonathan #im sure we will #screaming

[notbadnotbadatall]

the hardest thing f'd me up

#just needed to say it #amphibia #q #memory