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popcornforone · 6 months

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More Than Friends

A Dieter Bravo fan fic

Happy birthday to me. Yes today (Halloween) is my birthday & I wanted to write a fic for me about something super romantic that could happen on your birthday. I had a similar dream to this a while ago so I thought Dieter would be the best person to write this for.

Synopsis: You are in America with your sister celebrating your birthday, your best friend & flat mate Dieter is in England working. But he wants to give you the best birthday present ever, no matter how crazy it is.

Word count:3600

Warnings: this is mainly fluff & romantic, but probably best for DONOT READ IF YOU ARE UNDER 18! Secretly fancying your best friends. Swearing, drinking, a little bit of being over dramatic, thinking of what could be ideas of fantasies, death. It is mainly fluffy tho so

Thanks as always for the read peoples. I hope you enjoy this. All feed back is welcome.

OOOH & HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

“Jen” you shout as you run to your sister at the airport. You may now both live in the same country once again, but finding the time to see her is hard. You’re now finally getting praise for your acting & have 2 weeks off before you’re needed for the next part you will be appearing in on this fabulous HBO reboot. Your sister isn’t exactly quiet. Her 5 month old Dylan keeps her busy, she’s not looking forward to going back to work soon from her maternity leave. Her husband Lance is already taking advantage of her being home more than she usually is. So this next week with your sister is going to be brilliant. Just going back to being you, quirky & weird & normal, not the famous actor the world thinks they know.

The hug the two of you have is special. It’s not been long since you saw her, your grandads funeral 2months ago was the last time you saw her back in England. But it was at this event when you realised you wanted to be more than friends with your most famous best friend. He might have a drinking problem, take a few too many drugs, & be a party boy, but when Dieter Bravo turned up at your Grandads funeral it melted your heart. He’d met him 3 times in the 5 years you’ve known Dieter & your grandad always thought he was a very “eccentric character”. But it was as you saw him just standing around the back, not mingling before the hearse arrived that you cried. His hug & the stroke of the back of your hair, soothed you instantly.

“It okay, I’m here, I couldn’t have you go through this alone” Dieter had whispered as you held onto him.

“Shouldn’t you be…”

“Yes but when it’s a family emergency they said I could go & you are like a sister to me…” straight away put in the friend zone again by your crush. You’re used to it though, it no longer affects you. “& you live with me so…” you had smiled at that comment. When you worked on that Tv show that changed your life, Dieter had a role as a recurring guest character, you’d met him before on another job & he helped you calm your nerves. So when there was damage to your hotel in a fire, he was insistent you moved in with him. He had a girlfriend & a boyfriend at the time & you were in a relationship too, so it just worked. No one suspected a thing & knew you were just colleagues & friends. You then just never moved out. You left him money to pay bill & whenever he worked in the uk he always used your place if he was near. You’d always fancied Dieter, who wouldn’t fall for those eyes & that charisma, there was a reason why when he asked anyone do you want to have sex with me they answered yes. He’s just never asked you & one of you has always been in a relationship until the day after the funeral, when your boyfriend at the time saw how you & Dieter we’re with each other & told you to go & find happiness the next day. unfortunately you didn’t act on your feelings with Dieter, knowing he’s in London & your in New York at the moment, it needed to be the right time to act on this & not just jump straight back in.

As you arrive at your sister place & put your things in her guest room your phone rings, so you answer it.

“Ello”

“Babes” your face lights up straight away. Dieter always mocks your English accent & how you call people babes. Your sister sees your eyes ignite in desire so you pull the door to in your guest room & sit on the bed.

“Diets… you ok?”

“No it’s bloody raining again”

“Thats the London autumn for you”

“I know I know, but you never said it was this unpredictable the weather here”

“I’m English it’s normal” he laughs down the phone at that.

“So what making you call at 7pm, did your date not arrive for dinner?” You mock. If Dieter doesn’t have at least one casual date a week, he gets grumpy.

“Ha no, night shoot tonight… we’re actually nearly done in scheduale for once here”

“Well that’s a first”

“So what are your birthday plans? where’s the party at?” He asks enthusiastically. Your stumped. You have no party planned. You know you’re going to be in England for Christmas this year, & all your friends came over at the end of September to see you in New York so your plan is actually quite mundane. Your birthday is also Halloween.

“I’m in Seattle”

“Seattle?”

“Is there an echo?” You both giggle. “I’m seeing Jen, Lance & little Dylan this week, family bonding, you know, I have no idea what they have planned for my birthday.” It’s true you don’t know what your sisters going to do. Your birthday is a Tuesday this year & it’s currently the Friday before.

“Awww how old is Dylan now”

“Not old enough for you to take out drinking”

“Damn it, I wanted to use him as a girl magnet, the ladies love the caring dad side”

“I think they just would like a night with a movie star Diets” you smile down the phone which he can sense down his end.

“Well I’d best rearrange your gift to your sister address then”

“You didn’t have to get me anything”

“I know but after your year which to say has been crazy is an understatement, you need a treat”

“Well thank you in advanced” you pause & so does Dieter you both sigh down the phone. A million words that you want to tell him about how you feel & that you’d just like to live a normal life with Dieter somewhere away from the rest of the world. No fame, no money, no press, just you & Dieter.

“Hey…” he says

“Yes…”

“I…” & then you hear someone shout in the background & him reply.”sorry I’m Needed back on set, I’ll give you a call on your birthday okay”

“Don’t go being a twat Diets” you say quoting hot fuzz a film you both love to laugh to.

“I wouldn’t give you the satisfaction babes” & he hangs up. You secretly wish Dieter would more than satisfy you.

As Dieter hangs up the phone he automatically texts your sister to plan a birthday you won’t forget in a long time, to make sure she is okay & that this can go with her plans she may already have in place.

You smile to yourself as you get things out of your bag. Just hearing his voice makes you feel so much better, not that you were feeling down at all. As you leave the guest bedroom a few minutes later your sister is standing there judging you. Before you speak she cuts you off.

“I heard enough, I know that tone,” she looks down at her phone & see a message from Dieter.

“I just live with the guy, we’re friends, we…” but you see your sisters face & you do a little smirk. “I don’t just want to be another broken-hearted girl without him, so I will settle for what I have.”

“Are you happy with that?” She asks. You pause unsure if you are, but you are saved by Dylan crying. “I’ll get an answer from you one day sis”

Dieter after texting your sister goes to set. Ever the professions for his work, making sure everyone’s okay, down to the riggers & runners. He has the playboy life style in the press but working Dieter is a consummate professional. He does his last shoot for today & heads back to his trailer to get changed. He shuts the door & puts his phone on the dressing table. The mirror he sighs & stares into has photos of him on the shoot & in make up for reference’s & a few family photos too. But noone knows there’s a hidden one beneath 3 of them. His day has been long but he can stay here another 3 minutes to look at the happiest picture he has of the two of you. The one taken After the premier of the Tv show that made you a global star, the after party which everyone in the world was at. You had a boyfriend at the time, but that didn’t stop the two of you from dancing together that night as friends. The theme tune to the show was a custom song written by Ed Sheeran which was slow. Dieter remember how you trembled as he wrapped his arms around you & you both sang the lyrics outloud as Ed performed for actors, crew, press & vips of the event. This was a photo the in show photographer got. Neither of you are looking at the camera as he holds you. Your eyes are shut as you sing out loud one band in the air waving the other holding onto Dieters & his eyes are dazzling. It’s at this exact moment when Dieter realised he wanted you to be in his life more than a friend but this was 18 months ago & since then you’ve both had plenty of work, drama & heart breaks to stop either of you acting on any of this.

Dieter sighs at the photo & then runs his hands through his thick luscious hair.

“I must be fucking crazy”

He leans & takes his phone & calls his agent.

“Mel, got a second?” She mumbles something back “no it’s not that kind of emergency, I need you to sort something out for me quickly, whatever it costs & whoever this upsets, please explain this needs to be done”…

Tuesday arrives. You face time your parents while you & your sister have breakfast. You’ve decided to go on a lake walk & then lunch for your birthday with Jen, a nice chilled fun day. No worrys, no distractions. Just some nice Seattle air, if you can call it that in any major city just being you. Lance has promised to pick you all up some Chinese food for tonight. You’ve put Prosecco in the fridge already. It’s low-key but it’s what you want for your birthday celebration. No more costume parties taking over your special day.

Jens opened the Prosecco & you’re both sitting at the breakfast bar waiting for Lance to return with so much crispy chilli beef & lemon chicken that you will all go into a food coma.

“Dylan, what’s this?” You say in your child friendly voice. He laughs back as you play with Mr Ducky his favourite teddy bear & do the quack noises. His face is amazed & he keeps trying to clap his hand as he sits on the counter.

“No no” Jen screeches as you quickly move the fizz away.

“You mummy Dylan doesn’t want you to end up like your aunty, & it’s a shame your American, no drinking until your 21”

“Ha” Jen laughs “if he is anything like you & me he’ll have hangovers at 14”

“Ahh those were the days” you both joke. Your parents were always very liberal with letting you drink. They much rather you did it in front of them then sneak out & did it.

“Oooh Dylan” you then get a sniff of him. Jen smells it too.

“Did you do a number two” Dylan cackles & the two of you laugh when the front door goes. “Go let Lance in” Jen asks as she grabs the nappy bag.

“Oooh so demanding” you say sarcastically back. You put your glass of Prosecco down & head for the door. There’s a sign on it that says help yourself to the sweets in the box for trick or treaters. You open the door & then freeze on the spot.

Dieter is here.

Dieter is in Seattle, not London.

Dieter is at your sisters front door, in the drizzle, as the autumnal leaves fall, on your birthday.

Dieter is here.

“D…D…Di…Dieter?” Your pitch is all over the place, you’re sure your heart has stopped beating. Your eyes meet. Those dark seductive caramels stare at your trembling lips. He’s put a comb through his hair. It’s still a mess as he’s clearly taken his hoodie down as he rang the bell, his hand ruffling through it, that’s his little adorable tick that you cherish each time he does it when he’s nervous.

“Hi”

Neither of you can say anything else. You then decide to step outside & leave the door on the latch & stand with him on the porch.

“What are you doing here?” You eventually after a few minutes of silence trying to work out what you’re both going to say to each other. Everything he had prepped on the flight over & practiced in the hotel room before he left to get here, have all gone out of the window. He’s nervous, this all seemed so much easier in his head over the last few days, but he’s now reduced to just being a man. But it’s the only man you will ever need.

“To wish you a happy birthday I guess… erm so happy birthday…” he’s rubbing his beard as he says it & shifts awkwardly.

“Okay you said that now… thanks… bye” you joke & then so see his face drop. “You’ve still not quite understood after all these years, my sarcasm haven’t you Diets?”

“No, almost, you & your family also have your own unique language” he smiles. The smile is warm & friendly.

“I can’t believe you are actually here to wish me a happy birthday” You beam back at him & push your own messy hair away from your face.

“Couldnt not see you babes” he being genuine in his response, even his mockery of your accent seems adorable.

“I just can’t believe you flew thousands of miles to come & wish me a happy birthday, unless your here for a…”

“No just you, no other work” he interrupts. His puppy dog eyes more loyal & huge than ever. “You deserve the world & I wanted to see how happy you were on your special day”

You fling your arms around Dieters neck & hug him. It catches him by surprise to start with, but the way he holds you a few second later & the sigh that escapes his mouth just confirms he did the right thing. His hand goes across you shoulders & you start to feel weak at his touch. A hug that can solve all the worlds problems.

“You must really like me to fly half way around the world babes…” you whisper into his ear.

“Well actually…” Dieter breaks the hug & drops to one knee. “I think I more than like you” he holds your left hand. “Marry Me?”

You’re in shock, you knew you wanted more than just friendship with Dieter but he’s not even kissed you yet.

“Dieter!? I don’t know what to say”

“Yes?” He winks as his hand strokes yours.

“No”

“No?”

“No… well” you don’t want to turn him down but you want to show him how crazy this is. “Dieter we might be close friends who live with each other but you’ve not even kissed me yet, let alone asked me out or…” you’re interrupted. Dieter is on his feet again, his hand trailing around your face. Intense eye contact & then the most loved filled kiss of either of your lives. His lips feel smooth, the way his moustache tickles makes you smile which make him deepen the kiss. His hands move through your hair & waistline, both yours are on his shoulders. It was probably all of 5second the kiss but time stood still & it felt so fabulous & just right.

“Okay”he says breathily as you break this kiss”… now will you…”

“No” you say before going back in for another kiss, allowing his tongue to explore. You know how good his tongue is, you’ve heard men & women leave his bedroom in your New York apartment thanking him for the oral experience of their life.

“Why not, I love you?” Dieter says as he goes in for the next kiss, you take a step back though, this is all too much to process for you.

“Dieter, I like you, a lot, & in a similar way to you, & yes we don’t have to do the whole getting to know each other but, I’d like to go out for dinner, take this part of our relationship slow, so we both understand each others needs & pleasures. Does that make sense, because once I am happy with that, you can ask me again & I’ll say yes” Dieter eyes widen, it’s not an instant yes, but he knew he’d get one, be it in a day, week, month or year, he’d give you all the time in the world.

“So that’s a one day then, it’s not a no?”

“Yes”

You both stand there & giggle & hug each other before you kiss his lips quickly & shortly. A simple peck but you now know these lips will soon be all over each inch of your body.

“I’d like to take you out to dinner tomorrow, if that’s okay, if we are going to do this your way, I’d then at least like one date”

“Dieter you should no I don’t put out on a first…”

“Bollocks you don’t put out on a first date, I’ve heard you get with guys on nights out or…”

“You gonna let me finish” you say a bit forcefully which makes him twitch in his trousers. It’s always aroused him when a woman knows what she wants & is firm about it. “If you’d let me carry on, I’d have said but with you Diets, your more than an exception to my rule, I mean it’s taken us years to get to this point” your blushing as you say this. “If dinner goes well tomorrow, I might just have to come back to your hotel room” Dieter is now also turning red. Often especially for the last year, has he thought about how he would pleasure you, if your cunt is to die for. He wants to experience everything with you & wants to make you feel special & sexy.

“Well if that’s the case, I’ll upgrade my room”He laughs.

“Why baby, all we need is a bed” he raises an eyebrow at you.

“No baby, if you consent tomorrow, you get the full Dieter experience, I want to treat you like the princess you are, such a good girl for waiting for me to get my act together. To have the courage to tell you how I feel” his hands tremble as they hold yours. He really is in love with you. “Anyone else whod have spoken to me like you have in the last 10 minutes or for the last few years if I’m honest I’d not care, but you baby, I never want to lose you. I want us to be forever. I want to organise our work & lives so we’re in the same continent at the same time & I really just want you to be happy, that’s all I’ve ever wanted. Just to see you smile once a day.”

“That’s all I ever aspire to Diets…” you take a deep breath. “I want you to be happy no matter what you do, & if that means I’m just a friend, a room mate, a lover or more, I’ve always been happy to wait because just 5minutes with you feels like a life time of memories” both yours & Dieters eyes fill as you speak. He knows you love him. & so do you. But you just want to wait. Those 3 little words will fall from your lips soon. But your lips are once again preoccupied with Dieters, making out as the moon rises behind the autumnal leaves.

You phone buzzes & causes the two of you to break from the kiss. It’s your sister.

*when you two are done renewing your wedding vows before you even agree to them, the Chinese is getting cold.

“Lying bitch”you say & Dieter smiles.

“Who”

“Jen, she said…”you look at Dieter”you already knew the Chinese was here didn’t you?” You playfully hit Dieter & he scoops you up & carries you inside as you scream in hysterics. “Diets put me down”

“Never” you kick & laugh & Jen & Lance roll their eyes as he brings you back in. He puts you down. “I’m never letting go of you again babes” He kisses you & then apologised to Jen & Lance.

“Well it took you long enough to ask her Dieter” Lance says.

“We can’t all meet the love of our lives at the first day of college can we, sometimes it just takes a little time to realise what you want in life” Dieter says as you realise that enough food was ordered for all four of us.

“I know what I want Diets…” you mumble into another sweet kiss, his lips now feel like they have been yours for years. “I want you” a small sigh happens & then you both say in unison. “& some chilly beef” you both laugh & sit down to eat with your family, with Dieter now a firm addition to to your life as more than just a friend.

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payservewomen · 8 months

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It’s official. I’ve genuinely become addicted to a self destructive gumbo of humiliation, findom, and femdom. But it’s far more than that…..I’ve purchased and watched countless “negative affirmation” videos, all of which are designed to cause real emotional pain.

I’ve come to learn that most of the men who are in similar situations, are far less self aware than I am.

I fully understand how and why I gravitated towards various types of self harm. Most of the men I’ve talked to….they are in denial, unaware of obvious issues they’re facing….or they simply have vastly different reasons that they hate themselves…understandable reasons.

At least they make sense! But me? I lost my virginity at 17yo, and had regular sex w/my girlfriend, who I broke up with several months later…I began dating another woman, only weeks later and we started fucking 2months later….I fell madly in love with her….

Years later, I was engaged to a rich woman…tbh she was far more in love with me, than I was her…Point is, I’ve had a relatively normal sex life, until my then fiancée, Emma, dumped me. I was 30yrs old. I’m turning 41 in less than 2 weeks, and Emma was the last girl I fucked..Successfully anyway

1 week after she dumped me, a sexy friend did sit on my cock…but only 1 pump and I wasn’t hard enough to continue. We continued hanging out, drinking etc…but i never tried anything…neither did she

Years later I fucked an extremely obese woman I wasn’t attracted to at all…I lasted much longer this time, maybe even close to a minute, and I was so exhausted, and went limp once again….

Over the next couple years, I went to massage parlors, mostly getting awful handjobs, from old women.

I tried having sex twice….and you guessed it! Not only did I go limp, but I never even got fully erect in the first place!

Oh wait, and another time….u already know what happened…

Past few years, I’ve paid women to be cruel to me. I’ve been beaten badly, had clothing taken from me, having to walk miles home in a thong and tank top. I’ve served as an ash tray, I’ve licked the bottoms of shoes…I’ve purchased used panties online, as well as garbage. Yes, I have paid $30 for pretty girls literal garbage…..I’ve humiliated myself for sadistic women’s amusement…Used my toothbrush in and on my asshole, then brushed my teeth…I chewed up raw eggs, then spit the egg onto my dirty floor, then slurped it back up, spit it into my hands and rubbed it all over my face, then continued edging myself until it all dried.

Look at what I just wrote! It’s all 100% true and there’s plenty more. How can I possibly think that there’s any real chance that I’ll beat this addiction?!

The chances are that I’ll continue paying the domme I serve. Yesterday she told me how much she hates me….and def won’t let me forget how disgusting my body is, and how ugly I am….I’m so desperate to please her…I def think she’s greatly enjoyed bullying me…especially when extremely violent. It seems to escalate every other time, and she recently posted a vid of a girl kicking a guy hard it the face, and she implied she wanted to do that.

I’m scared in many ways, but excited….There really isn’t anything I can think of that I would flat out refuse to do, if she told me to….Like what if one day she tells me to eat her shit? I do not in any way shape or form have a fetish for scat either…but I know that I would put her shit in my mouth, and at least try to swallow it….I am aroused at the thought of eating her boogers or period blood….As I type this, I feel such extreme shame…My dick is very slightly erect but I won’t stop tugging on it

Figure I should flick my balls, because ofc that’s what a loser as pathetic as me deserves

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koganelovesmcclain · 6 years

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My mom apparently invited her friend Kristal and her litter of children over.

#jess and me went to bed a t likr almost t #it is now 11:11am #and i do NOT have the patience for 3 fucking brats and a 2month old #but oh well #like mother #did you not realize that you could like drive to her house if you wanna see them #u dont have to infest my house with little bitches #lol #i dont hate kids #i really dont #but theyre a fucking circus #every one of them wants to be the cemter of attn #and it uaually means them all hollering over each other #and the oldest never shuts up #shes 13 and ig she gets qbsolutely nooo attn #but omg they just annoy me to death #diary #angery

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mariatsukiko · 3 years

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Tuesday, 02/04/21, marked my 2nd year of living in T X.

Spent my 1st year here keeping my head down & working as much as I could. Was living with my bro, sis-in-law, & my 2yo nephew. I slept in my nephew's room on a bed that was for my 6yo nephew during summer breaks. Was living out of my suitcases. Kept them packed just in case. Would carpool to work with my bro everyday for 2months. Got my apt after 4months. Didn't really go anywhere or do much. I HATED spending money, tbh I still do tho. I just didn't want anything bad to happen & have to move back home. I was just antsy about everything, potentially getting fired bc of anything, new place scares. I'd go to a concert here & there by myself. Go get brunch with a friend like once every 2 months. As the 1st year was ending I was getting more comfortable. Like everyone else was saying, 2020 was going to be my year.

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For the longest time I felt like I was trying to coast through life, especially college, one big autopilot. College was my weird transition zone & after accomplishing that I'd finally get to live MY life fully lol bc I wasn't REALLY doing that. At the end of 2019 I felt things were starting to change & yet now, once again, I'm coasting. I'm just trying to keep myself active & occupied & not so resentful. Just trying wait it out.

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stuff-i-like-to-share · 4 years

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Fanfics i would Love to read but not talented enough to write them myself...

.... fanfics... or even better if that was actual scenes in season 4!

1. Gilbert seating on the train writing a draft of his letter to Anne, getting emotional, passionate not noticing old lad seating next to him with his wife looking at eachother smiling at young love. Telling him a short story of their love and how they have been separated and how they would suprise eachother by visiting every now and then.

2. Anne talking to Diana and deciding not to tell anyone about her and Gilbert before she actually speak with him... which later on will pay of in girls faces when they see them kissing lol

3. Anne receiving her first letter from Gilbert and being over the moon, sending her own letter straight away and meeting young intelligent boy at the post office which turnes out is at queens aswel.

4. Gilbert and Anne meeting new people, having their lessons and studies and writing little notes to add their letters, collecting little flowers, making it very personal.

5. Gilbert being jealous over this new boy which Anne mentioned in 3 letters already. Doing extra work to finish his studies few days earlier to travel to Charlottetown and see Anne.

6. All girls seating outside, learning, talking romance, Anne and Diana giving eachother side looks because nobody knows about Gilbert yet... Anne getting very emotional she havent seen Gilbert in 2months while Ruby talking about daily walks with Moody.. her eyes tear up, girls are like ohh r you ok Anne when one of them look up from their blanket and bw like: oh, Gilbert whatever you doing here...

Anne jumped up straight into his arms, he swings her around in a massive hug, then they about to kiss, tios of their lips about to touch when Diananotice Girls faces and goes like: uhmm

Gilbert and Anne look at all the suprised girls, get a bit shy, Gilbert let's Anne out of his tight hug and they stand there looking at eachother for short while, Gilbert is like: ladies... if you dont mind I would like to steal Anne for a... looks at Anne not knowing what to say, but she finish his sentence for him: tea! There's certain matters we need to discuss with Gil... with Mr. Blythe... she says while looking at Gilbert's dreamy eyes... Girls being so confused and shocked by whole situation just nods while they walk out through back gate.

7. The moment they are away enough from girls and the boarding house Gilbert swing Anne in the air again with the cutest smile, she laughs, then they step to the side of little quiet road and he kiss like theres no tomorrow...

Talk about their studies... then walk past tea house and Gilbert is like, oh we are here and Anne look at him with a cheeky smile... shes like oh we are not really going to have a tea are we.. its dull and full of boring people.. Gilbert laughs at memory of being awkward with Winfred at one of them tea houses.

Anne takes Gilbert to one of her favourite parks, they walk by the water.. theres a small patch of grass surrounded by trees, Sun sneaking through the branches, they are finally alone and kissing and cuddling... they sat on the grass talking, laughing, simply staring into eachothers eyes... they lie down cloud gazing playing with each hands, hair...

8. Gilbert walking Anne back to her house, talking about leaving to Avonlea and telling everyone, both but stressed about their families reaction... they stop by the gate to avoid Anne getting kn trouble, hold eachothers hands. Gilbert's is like: so... we are... courting? Its official! Anne gives him a shy smile: I still cant belive it... Gilbert gives her a soft kiss and tells her he will come and see her at queens next day so the can travel together back to Avonlea.

9. Anne back to her room where she is immediately flooded by questions from all the girls... You kissed him, he kissed you in public, oh that's nothing like Gilbert we knows.. Anne stands there waiting for them to calm down and simply just say: I'm in love with Gilbert Blythe for a while now, and what I recently been informed about, hes been (she srops realising he never actually said he loves her...) ... having feeling for me aswel, for a while... we will be seeing our families tomorrow as we are offering courting.. girls get all hyped, asking questions if hes a good kisser Ruby throws a little comment that she actually always was confused when she thought hes looking at her but it was more like he was staring at Anne and that shes happy for her...

(Sorry... long list... I didint realised km so needy and desperate for fanfics 🙈)

10. All Anne can think if at school is fact that she is going to see Gilbert very soon and they will travel together back home...

She bumped into her friend, Roy which btw also have feeling for her and jokingly often admits he thinks Anne's is the most beautiful girl at queens etc... which Anne is ignoring as all she thinks of Gilbert and studies.

They walk out of school together, Roy lean and whisper somwthkng into Anne's ear, she laughs and notice Gilbert, wave at him, theyvwalk towards eachother. Gilbert's jaw is pulsing, hes jealous. Anne introduces them to each other and Gilbert have a little flashback to when he was introducing Winnie to Anne and disint know how to refer to Winfred, Anne did almost the same thing as it's actually first time she have to introduce Gilbert as her bou. Boys shake their hands bit stronger than they should, Anne says goodbye to Roy and her friends, Gilbert then offers her his arm to hold on to while looking at Roy standing and watching them walk away.

11. Gilbert is bit confused and worried, he isnt talking much on the way back, Anne is so excited shes doing most of the talking.. she noticed Gilbert acting wierd and asks, he then have tiny emotional tantrum and tells her he doesnt like the way this Roy guy is into her... she laughs and tells him theres nothing there, beside the only person she cares about... she ... loves its Gilbert.. he smiles, hold her hand... she then get a bit worried because its been 3 times when she said it out loud she loves him and Gilbert didint say it back.

12. They decided to invite Gilbert's family for dinner to Green Gables and then tell them together so when they get out of the train and see Matthew they being careful not to look to excited. Matthew offer Gilbert a ride back home and noticed little looks between Anne and Gilbert.

13. The dinner ready, Gilbert, Bash and Deli arrives at Green Gables, all the way Bash was giving Gilbert side looks with a cheeky smile and asking what so important they have to go to dinner tonight and not some other day... Gilbert just smiles and says its was Anne's idea on their way back from train station.. Marila opens the door calling for Matthew and Anne..

Anne come downstairs, Gilbert gets up with the most hearty eyes, theyblook at eachother for a while, and everyone e in the room glance at Anne then Gilbert, Marila and Bash look at eachother with a smile, Matthew looks a little bit concerned...

14. Anne stand in the middle of the room, Gilbert walks to her with a smile, turn around and stand by her side, they look at each other with a shy smile, he then pick up Anne's hand and while holding it dearly in his both hands he say something like: Marila, Matthew, Sebastian... Delphine (with a little smile as she giggle at he uncle)

We have some news, I mean... I would like to ask your permission first, ofcourse... uhmm

I would like to ask your permission to court with Anne... uhm... we recently discovered we both... have feelings for eachother... (Anne give him a concerned side look as again he wont say he loves her)

I needs to know if you Marila and Mathew gives us your... blessing..

They look at each other, Marila stands up, walked to them, hold their hands with tears in her eyes saying that shes so happy for them and their happiness and love is what matters... Bash alsongwts up and hug Gilbert with biggest smile saying he knew it and that he is so happy for them.. Anne then looks at Matthew which looks a bit sad.. gilbert then says: Matthew?

And hes like: if Anne's happy I am aswel, gets up and shakes Gilbert's hand, Anne hugs him.

15. They all seating alntalking, laughingnover the dinner table, Anne playing with Deli and Gilbert joining her, Matthew and Marila getting emotional as this is another big step towards losing their precious Anne.

16. Bash joking around, quietly saying to Marila about them behaving like perfect parents. Matthew then walking out but emotional.. Both Anne and Gilbert looking at eachother, Anne wanted Ringo but Gilbert telling her to stay and walking out behind Matthew. Then having a heartwarming conversation, telling Matthew how much he cares for Anne.

17. Anne kissing Gilbert goodbye and Bash seeing it, making comments about it on their way back home.

18. Anne and Gilbert going for walk... Gilbert being cheeky and keep touching Anne's hands, hair, face... talking about feeling when Anne suddenly tear up and tells him she wants to go back home, take a turn thru the woods, Gilbert all confused ran after her asking what's wrong, She then have a little go at him that shes scared he dowsnt really love her because it's been months and he never actually said he loves her... he then loom into her eyes, hold her face in his hands and tells her: I am in love with you Anne, my Anne with an e, I'm in love with you since i remember, it's always been you Anne...

He kiss her then and after the kiss shes all like: but why dont you say it..

He looked at her with sad eyes: I'm afraid of losing you Anne, most of people I ever loved are gone... I cant lose you Anne, I... love you to much, it hurts just thinking about losing you...

He seats on fallen tree, tell her a story of his mothers death while giving him birth, of his brothers dieing one after another to illness... then his father.. and dear Mary... he opens up and cry while she listens and hold his hand.

She then tells him how much sorry she is for being selfish and forcing him to say it, but he wont mind as it's been a while since he could open up like this and it feels so right to talk to his Anne.

They hug and talk about how Mary would be happy for them, Anne recalls his father and fact he said he herd alot about her and Gilbert getting all shy saying he told him alot abt Anne because even then he would not stop caring about her, back then he wasnt sure what it was, it was pulling him towards Anne, only recently he realised it's always been love...

Then they say it together and laugh...

19. As they are walking out of the forest Anne tripped and fall into a ditch, Gilbert laughs recalling the day Marila was talking about Anne in the ditch, asking her if that's how her adventures looks like and as shes a bit upset with him at first she also laughs saying he is her biggest adventure now...

20. Then as he helps her out, they stand and laughs, he gives her a soft kiss, Rachel Lynde watches it from nearby as she was just walking back from ms. Stacy's...

All shocked she rushed to Green Gables to talk to Marila... Markla gives he a little talk about being young and in love and maybe if she would listen to her heart she would be married now... as they talk Anne and Gilbert walks into the kitchen laughing... they both look ar Rachel bit scared of her comments.. but she gaze at Marile for short while thinking, then she gets up, walkes to them and congratulate them with a little cheeky comment about kissing...

21. They are back to their schools, emotional and full of love goodbyes, girls sneakily watching them and giggling...

22. Series of letters, Roy finding one of Anne's letters she left in one of her books he borrowed... then making a declaration.. Anne feeling overwhelmed as she does like Roy alot and woildnt want to ruin their friendship... bit of an argument between Anne and Gilbert, Roy trying to kiss her and she slapping his face...

23. Christmas back in Avonlea, together one big happy family... Anne and Gilbert sneaking out at night to spend time together... kissing and rolling in the barn...

24. Anne having a flashback from orphanage and Gilbert asking what's wrong, atvfitstvshe doesn't want to tell him but one night they talk and she opens up and tells him everything, about being bullied and treated like trash... about her imagination helping her get trough... about how broken she always felt and never couldn't even imagine being loved, and having so many loving people in her life... she would tell him about how worried she was her parents have her away because they disint love her as she was an ugly redheaded baby... Gilbert then kisses her single messy braid and tells her how much he loves her red hair and how much he Hope's their children will have same hair as her.. she then freaks out a little because she never actually thought about children and the way Gilbert talks it sounds so natural for him... she then look at him with a smile: out babies?

And gilbert is like: oh gosh, I I didint meant to scare you... but.. dont you think about... our future Anne? Coz I do.. alot he admits with a bit shy face..

She then say she only imagine their future together but she never actually thought about children... he get a bit stressed but then she adds that now he mentioned it, she also is looking forward to having a child, maybe two... they laugh and joke about it a little ... Bash and Ms. Stacy get married which course outbreak but after several years of secretly meeting and falling more in love they decided to go against the system. She ends up losing her job as a teacher but she writes books and articles to newspapers instead while pregnant with their first child. She also moves in with Bash his mother and Deli as Gilbert told Bash that after school he wont be living with them anymore. Elijah moves out as he met lovely girl himself, got married and lives outside Charlottetown, visiting them often and always helping with the harvest.

25. New years eve, theres a ball, dancing, beautiful scenes of them having fun together... Gilbert taking Anne back to green Gables.. he turn towards the cliffs... they walk together to the cliffs end, stand there looking into stars, he then drop on his knee, holding a ring, a beautiful ring and ask her to marry him, which she obviously say yes to.

26. Time skip with a bit of letters between them and their lives at school etc... suprised visits and going back home..

Matthew having another heart attack, being bed stuck, Jerry rushing to get a doctor but it's to far and they wouldn't make it, Matthew dieing with Anne and Marila by his bed... Gilbert coming to Avonlea back from his practice next day, Bash tells him what happened,bhe rush to Green Gables and Fojnd Anne in awful state.. Jerry explain to him he went to fetch the doctor from other town but it was to late... he apologise to Anne for not being here, she tells him it's not his fault... but he feels responsible for not being close to his family... he decides to come back and be a town doctor after all his school and practice is finished...

28. Anne after getting approval from mrs lacroix (stacy) applied and got the job as a teacher in Avonlea school, helping Marila as shes still very unstable after losing Matthew.

29. Then beautiful wedding in Avonlea... Marila crying.. Anne missing Matthew dearly.. lots of memories, laughs and dancing...

30. When Anne got the job as a teacher she also got the house ms Stacy useto lived in, she decided to stay at green Gables until theh get married but she got the house already for them week before the wedding.

They get back home, to their very own home, Anne is so happy it's in the woods as she always felt special connection to nature...

They have wonderful night and sweet love making, both happy in eachothers arms, enjoying the rest of their life together...

Gilbert suggest to Anne that she could write a book same as ms Stacy which she starts very next day...

31. Another skip in time... Anne giving birth, Gilbert doing his best, baby is breached, hes scared of losing Anne, of losing them both. Marila is there aswel... Baby is finally born but it isnt crying... Gilbert pass the baby to Marila and take care of Anne... she walks out quickly to check on the baby as therws still not a single cry in the house, Anne is bleeding alot, but asking for her baby... he walked in to the kitchen Marila standing there crying, he take baby if her hands and wrap aswel, their very first baby, product of their undying love didint survive the labour... he hugged his child pressing him to his chest, kissed his head... he then walked back to Anne's room... Marilenherd loud moan and deep desperate cry, shes crying herself... Gilbert asked if Anne wants to say her goodbyes. She said yes and hold her baby in her arms crying... they gold a little funeral two days after... Anne is devastated... her and Gilbert having a breakdown together crying...

32. Two years later Gilbert find himself worrying for his wife's life once agin... it was hard for them to decide tontryvfor another baby... Anne wanted it and now Gilbert is scared to death about his Anne and baby to come. Luckily this time everything went smoothly with mo single complication, baby cries and they both hold it together crying of happiness.

Then years later Anne writing another book, while their children are playing together outside of green Gables... Marilas dying wish was for Anne ro have Green Gables, it was her home and she wanted Anne and her family to live happy life in there...

Gilbert is backnfeom work, they seat on the porch, drinking tea, looking at eachother with hearty eyes, talking about their achievements kids keep running up to them, hugging and kissing them. They smile, stand up watching their 6 children being cheeky.

I love you Carrots...

I love you to Gil...

Then they kiss with even more passion than ever...

The end...

Gosh that possibly the longest post I ever wrote... when I started I had only abt 15 ideas... but as I wrote more and more... even more ideas came to my head... sorry for a long bit messy read... just wanted to share some of things that kept me awake since we found out about s4 being cancelled...

Anyway.... hope you enjoyed it... sorry for any mistakes... will proofread tomorrows as today its been a while since I started writing this...

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antukinn · 4 years

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quaranthings??

For this months of being quarantined. I’m started to lowkey feel like I’m being emotionally drained on anything and everything..

This past 2months of quarantine, I’m slowly being consumed by my sadness and the memories and wrong decisions that I always want to forget but I can’t and I don’t even know why. I feel like I’m slowly losing myself and all the progress that I made to make my personality and myself better. My motivation on learning and doing or improving my hobbies is slowly fading away and I just have this feeling of wanting to sleep until this quarantine is over and always wanting to be alone in my room doing nothing or something or just sleep idk. Sometimes I feel like I’m slowly losing my emotions to somethings that I enjoy doing before like playin LoL with my friends and singing while playing the guitar.

This loneliness emptiness or this sadness I feel. Maybe they are just the result of my boredom since I just play videogame nung wala pang online classes. That the things I do is like a cycle consisting of eating sleeping playing. and realizing na there’s nothing more to do there’s no fun in all this things na there’s no more left to do. This feeling of wanting to meet your friends chill with them once again. Or is it me realizing na how much did I change from the past years of my life and regretting that I grow that much that I want the old version of me to be back. Me slightly regretting the changes that I do to myself just for the girl I like. Me recapping some those “what if question” and being sad after for the reason of missing my crush and motivation for the past 2 yrs. Or is it just the weather that makes me feel relaxed and want to sleep and skip this year

Maybe I can’t let go of my past because I think that the old version of me is the best version of me. That I can’t keep up to the rapid changes that are happening to me mentally and emotionally. That I can’t fully conceptualize this new thing and new emotion. Realizing that the skill of me rationalizing the things that are happening around me are slowly fading away. That I’m slowly becoming a new person and still clinging to my old self because I admit that my old self is the most mentally stable phase of my life. That I don’t want to accept this changes that are slowly changing me because I’m afraid that once I change to someone new. That my purpose on my old self will be gone and the people that I met will slowly forget me and lose my identity. That I’m afraid that I will be alone because of how easy I am to be replaced.

Although all this things are bothering my mind. I’m glad for this cozy weather and for this cold days and nights and for this quarantine. Because, it makes me feel comfortable and relaxed and think more about myself. That this quarantine makes me want to be close to my friends and know more about them. That I want to share my thoughts and have fun with them. And for the weather that makes me reflect on this thoughts that it makes me feel tranquil and enjoy the small things that happened to me. And for my friends that I can always rely to when I’m feeling sad. Everyday I want to grow and grow until I can finally accept the new me.

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hello-john-dale-salon-16 · 4 years

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PATTY THE BAD GIRL

oh!why are you not fighting in me,I thought you are a bad girl patty,show it!will,I will not fight at your level....your level I;m levelup to you patty that’s why your boyfriends like in me because you are ugly,boring!!(pulled the hair and the van comes peeep!)and patty push her...oh....no...avie..it’s good for here,I harsh?oh!!don't judge me,find out the all the story first,because #sorrynotsorry avie deserve that!...

ok..so few months back before the van run over that scene..and now I’m beautiful!!queen royalty pak na pak na beauty...i am patty chen,half Chinese and pure maldita and this is my story...this is my house the chen mansion,oh?shut up! i know it’s beautiful.ENVY!i live here alone because both my parents are there in china,including my sister avie half Chinese pure......the main comes ma'am pattywhat are you doing here?you’ve have classes today...and she is our maid mayora meranda,half woman half...just half woman...and one of the villain in my life...when did you had a right to questioning me?ha?!..maybe you forgot that you are only maid in this house!miss patty maybe you forgot that you were left behind to your father with me and he said to me that I will report your all evildoing,just like this you;re insulting me!if you did’nt stop talking I will throw my brand new shoes to your ugly face!..don’t worry miss patty it will come it to your father!patty maldita!...why are you doing come back here,what you’re say?bulshit!...i am not really like this who made me monster it is because of my sister avie...avieeeee,half Chinese pure impostor!

(school)bow down basic people hmmm...it’s nice to have a scene here in school,because I just the c.o.o as in child of owner...they were all afraid of me,expect for this gay teacher...miss patty.why are you cutting my subject yesterday,you would like to have a imfraction?...me? the owner of this school?before I get my imfraction.i will make sure that you will resign first...all right,you will lose the most beautiful professor.would you like the old and bad breath professor?miss patty?,,,you know sir?i like you because you’re maldita like me...so why are you not around yesterday?..sir there was a sale in h&m but don’t worry I buy you something,it’s great for you..professor response` I know that you are a good girl sometimes...stop!!i don't need kiss or hugs anymore,it might be scratch my flawless skin...wow big words!!!what do you mean that my skin is rough?it doesn't come from me..you are truly maldita,what’s there’s something happen in the canteen let’s go...(students are laughing)professor what’s this?,my God,who do this?...can you please calm down patty answer,hey girl stand up,stand up faster!!who made did it to you?hmm...if you will not answer my question i’ll feed you all the spagetty on your head?!..the girl answer that three girls did to me,they want to strip my dress to wipe in the table..there;s point its really like the swab in the table,you know what?all of you three girls the low class trying hard malditas you have no rights to bully every students here,first of all you are not pretty.second all of your dress are from in the market,lastly I the only one.the only one to bully every students here because I’m a c.o.o of this school.remove all the spagetty of her head right now!hand it over,don't give anything sweeper fasterrr!!!ugly ladies!

(C.R)YOU’RE THE SCHOLAR OF THIS SCHOOL,BUT SO SAD TO SAY THAT YOU’RE DECREASING YOUR AVERAGE AND THERE IS THE POSIBILITY THAT IT WILL DISAPPEAR.WHY YOUR GRADES GETTING LOW?...LONG STORY MISS PATTY,ANYWAY IT’S OK. FOR ME TO GO AWAY IN THIS SCHOOL,I’M SO TIRED FOR BULLy in ME...(PATTY DIAL)MR.REYES..YES MISS PATTY IT’S UP TO YOU TO GIVE THE ACCIDENT REPORT TO GIVE THE INFRACTION TO THE THREE GIRLS...ARE YOU HAVE A SICK MISS PATTY?IT’S NEW FOR ME?BYEE....AHH...MISS PATTY WHY ARE DOING THIS FOR ME... BECAUSE I CAN, SO I WILL,YOU DON’T LIKE?....THANKYOU SO MUCH MISS PATTY...BUT THERE IS A CONDITIONS...WHAT?...FIRST OF ALL YOU NEED TO INCREASE YOUR GRADES,NO EXCUSES!!..AND THEN YOU WILL BE MY SLAVE...AS IN SLAVE?...YES,YOU WILL DO MY ASSIGNMENTS,PROJECTS,AND TAKE NOTES.ALL AROUND P.A THEY SAID.YOU WILL COME WITH IF I WILL GO SHOPPING AND EATING. AND IT’S A PREVILEGE TO GET ALONG WITH ME.... WHAT DEAL?...Hmm..DEAL MISS PATTY...BY THE WAY I’M MAY REYES..OPPsss I DONT NEED HUGS FIRST OF ALL YOU’RE DIRTY JUST WASH YOUR HANDS FIRST.AND I THINK YOU NEED A TOTAL MAKE OVER.

(BAR)CHEERS!! OH SHE’S PRETTY IF SHE WILL FIX HER DRESS PROPERLY I SEE MY SELF TO HER WHEN I’M NOT LIKE A GORGEOUS. AND NOW I WILL TEACH HER TRICKS OF BETRAYal... HI?JUST ANSWER MY QUESTION HANDSONE BOY DO YOU FIND ME PRETTY?...YES...SO?WHY ARE YOU WAITING FOR?LET’S DATE?....HOW DEAR YOU TO STEAL BY BOYFRIEND..OBVIOSLY YOUR BOYFRIEND WANT TO COME WITH ME AND THAT IS NOT MY PROBLEM ANYMORE....MISS PATTY WHY ARE YOU DO THAT YOU ARE DESTROYING RELATIONSHIP...I’LL GIVE YOU A REALIZATION THAT ALL OF THE BOYS ARE UNFAITHFUL..BE CAREFUL MAY.

(RESTAURANT)MAY I WILL SHARE YOU SOMETHING,OF MY UNFORGETTABLE STORY...WE OFTEN GO TO OUR FAVORITE PARK, AND THAT IS THE FIRST I KNOW THAT MY SISTER AVIE HAD A SICK... AND BECAUSE OF HER SICK BOTH MY PARENTS VERY PROTECTED WITH HER,THAT’S WHY SHE GROW SPOILED....AND TIME COME I HAD A BOYFRIEND...AND MY FATHER SAID IS TOO YOUNG FOR MY CHILD TO BE ABLE TO HAVE A BOYFRIEND.AND AVIE SAID DONT WORRY MOMMY..DADDY.. I WILL WATCH THEM IF THEY WILL DO BAD THINGS. SISTER AVIE HE IS JAMES PERES...JAMESss CUTE NAME...JAMES ARE COURTING PATTY OR YOU ARE OFFICALLY BOYFRIEND&GIRLFRIEND DON’T WORRY THIS IS OUR SECRET I WILL NOT TELL TO DADDY AND MOMMY....PROMISE SISTER?..SO?..YES SISTER...CONGRATS!!..BUT WE FOLLOW WHAT DADDY’S CONDITIONS...I SEE.,I HAVE A BRIGHT IDEA LET’S PLAY SEVEN MINUTES IN HEAVEN...THIS GAME IS NICE OF BOTH OF YOU,I’LL GIVE YOU SEVEN MINUTES TO INSIDE IN THE ROOM WITHOUT LIGHT,AND YOU CAN DO ANYTHING YOU WANT IN JUST SEVEN MINUTES...JAMES REACT IF THERE IS SOMEBODY SEE WITH US....DONT WORRY JAMES I’LL BE HERE WATCHING,AND YOU CAN HOLDING HANDS,HUGS,MAYBE KISS?...YOU JAMES YOU WANT TO KISS MY SISTER PATTY....OF COURSE!!...GO LET’S GO... HAVING FUN...AVIE LIED TO MY PARENTS,THAT SHE SAID THAT SOMETHING HAPPENED TO US WITH JAMES...BECAUSE OF THE LIER EVIL SISTER,BECAUSE OF ANGRY OF MY FATHER HE CARDIAC ARREST AND BECAUSE OF THAT AVIE BLAME ME FOR WHAT DADDY’S HAPPENED.AND THEN ON THEY ARE GO IN CHINA TO GET TREATED,AND THEY LEFT ME.TO STOP THE MESS I DECIDED TO BROKE UP OF JAMES,IT WAS HURT FOR ME TO BREAK HIM,HE WAS MY FIRST LOVE LIFE,BUT I HAVE NO CHOOSE ITS FAMILY OVER LOVE.....(2MONTHS HAPPEND)JAMES?SISTER?WHAT IS THIS?OHH!! MY SISTER PATTY YOU SEE THAT WE’RE HOLDING HANDS,AND WE’RE SWEET, WHAT YOU THINK HA?WE ARE IN RELATIONSHIP..YOU’RE SO SLOW MY UGLY SISTER....(PATTY)WHY??...BECAUSE I CAN ,SO I DID...SISTER?WHY ARE YOU DO THIS TO ME HA!..BECAUSE I DONT LIKE YOU MAY SISTER,BYE LETS GO JAMES...AND THAT WAS THE DAY PATTY IS CHANGED.AND NOW I AM PATTY VERSION 2.0 THE FABULOUS,FIERCE, AND STRONG...MAY SAID I DON’T BELIEVE YOU ARE THAT WAY,I THINK DEEP INSIDE YOU ARE VULNERABLE...YOU’RE ASKING OPINION,OK.FINE,I WILL TELL YOU I’M STILL AFFECTED BECAUSE OF THE BETRAYAL OF MY SISTER BUT I’M NOT YET DONE TO MY REVENGE,I WILL MAKE SURE, ON MY SISTER’S RETURN,I WILL FEEL IT HURTS MORE THAN I FEEL PAIN WHEN MY HERMES BAG WAS STAIN....HA?HERMES BAG?...YOU CAN’T RELATE BECAUSE YOU HAVE NOTHING, CHEERS!?PATTY!

(HOUSE)WHY ARE YOU ALL BUSY HA!!MISS PATTY I’M SORRY I FORGOT TO SAY THAT MAAM AVIE IS COMING ,THE REAL OWNER OF THIS HOUSE...ALL OF YOU STOP YOU’RE DOING!IF SHE WILL BACK WELL CONGRATULATIONS!...MAAM AVIE OH! BOTH OF YOU ARE SO CUTE,YOU LOOK LIKE MOTHER AND CHILD.MY SISTER MAYBE MERANDA IS YOUR REAL MOTHER AT ALL,MAAM AVIE ITS GOOD THAT YOU ARE HERE YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL,I MISS YOU MADAM....PATTY RESPONSE HAHAHAH BEAUTIFUL LIKE A SNAKE HAHAHAH GROUP OF DEMONS!!INFAIRNESS...YOU LOOKS FUNNY?YEAH,YOU’RE A RICH KID BUT YOUR WORDS FOR SQUATTER SO SAD... BUT YOU KNOW MY SISTER WE ARE NOT YET DONE...JUST TELL ME MY SISTER AVIE I’M ALWAYS READY FOR THAT!...(MAY COMES)MISS PATTY I’M HERE I CARRY OUR ASSIGNMENTS IN ENGLISH,Hmm...MISS AVIE SISTER OF MISS PATTY...YES I’M ONLYSISTER AND 10 THOUSAND MORE PRETTIER...I’M MAY THE FRIEND OF YOUR SISTER AVIE...I HOPE MAY THAT WE WILL BE FRIEND SOMEDAY,IF YOU WANT A WINNER STATUS...PATTY REPLY YES YOU’RE A WINNER OF TAKING OF BOYFRIENDS...AHH,YOU ARE BITTER MY SITER BECAUSE I STOLE YOUR BOYFRIEND?HA?!...WELL ACTUALLY NO LONGER,WELL I ACTUALLY IMAGINING YOU AND JAMES DURING IT RAINS OF NAILS AND KNIFE...HMMmm.. MISS PATTY I WILL GO NOW...NO MAY LET’S ENJOY THE COME BACK CELEBRATIONS OF CHILD OF SATAN!

(SCHOOL)SIR REYES WHY ARE SAD?WHY ARE NERVOUS THIS TIME?...MAAM AVIE COME HERE AND SHE MAKE TROUBLE...PATTY RESPONSE TO CUT THE STORY SHORT SHE EMBARRASED SIR REYES THAT HE DID SOMETHING OF HER MALE STUDENTS...OH!MY GOD WHAT HAPPEN NEXT?..THEY SPELLED ME!,IT GOOD THAT PATTY HELP ME...SO WHY ARE YOU WAITING, COME WITH ME TO REVENGE MY SISTER. AVIE..MAYBE YOU FORGOT THAT I AM ONLY EMPLOYER HERE,JUST ONE WORD OF YOUR SISTER IT’S THE END OF MY JOB.....MISS AVIE THE GAY MAN IS BACK,HOWS YOUR EXPERIENCE IN JAIL?DO YOU ENJOY IT?....PATTY REACT #SORRY NOT SORRY BUT THE CASE IS NOT EXISTING ANYMORE #LOSER,JUST TRY TO HURT MY FRIENDS AND YOU WILL SEE THE DEMONS THAT YOU’VE NEVER BE SEEN ANY BEFORE...IT’S THAT A DARE OR A DOUBLE DARE?...OH?! WHAT SIR REYES YOU COME WITH ME?DEAL I WILL COME WITH YOU TO REVENGE.

(HOUSE)SUPRISED MY SISTER AVIE!!WHAT IS THE MEANING OF THIS?...SUPRISE SISTER AVIE DO YOU SUPRISED IT?THIS IS YOUR WELCOME PARTY CELEBRATION AND I’M INVITED SOME OF YOUR BESTFRIENDS...WHY ARE YOU HERE JAMES?...SISTER COME ON I INVITE HIM,SUPRISE!JUST RELAX MY SISTER THIS IS FOR YOU I’M READY SOMETHING FOR YOU,EVERYONE!OPEN YOUR PHONES AND CHECK YOUR MESSENGER ACCOUNT.(EVERYONE SEE THE VIDEO HOW AVIE BESTRAY PATTY)EVERYONE THINK THAT HOW AVIE DO THIS FOR HER SISTER,HERE IS THE ANSWER WHY...(VIDEO OF FLERTING WITH JAMES)WOW SO NICE SITER!!SO GREAT!FIRST YOU ARE A DIRECTOR AND YOU ARE THE ACTRESS WHAT A PERFECT COMBINATION,AND THAT VIDEO YOU’RE THE SEXY STAR! HAHAHAA...AVIE SAID I WILL MAKE SURE THAT THIS WILL COME TO DADDY...LET’S SEE BEFORE YOU SAY ,THIS VIDEO WILL COME FIRST HAHAHA...TRY IT PATTY,SO THAT DADDY WILL HEART ATTACK AGAIN... ATLEAST BEFORE DADDY’S DIE HE WILL KNOW WHAT IS TRUE (AVIE WALK OUT)

(HOUSE)SIR REYES.PATTY CONGRATS LAST NIGHT YOU’RE GREAT REVENGER.WHERE IS YOUR SISTER RIGHT NOW?IS SHE BACK IN CHINA?...ATER NA ACCIDENT SHE SLEEP OVER ,IN THE HOUSE OF DADDY...(AND THE HANDSOME BOY COME)EXCUSE ME?HEY YOU?YEAH,COME HERE,COME HERE.WHAT ARE LOOKING FOR?... ACTUALLY I’M LOOKING TO MY SISTER,SOMEBODY SAY THAT SHE’S HERE?....NEVERMIND YOUR SISTER,BY THE WAY I’M PATTY THE OWNER OF THIS PARTY...I’M MARK,EXCUSE ME?MISS PATTY...(MAY COMES)HERES A FOODY GUYS,BROTHER?....BROTHER?(PATTY SHOCKS)....LET’S GO MAY LETS GET OUT OF HERE...WHHAT THE HECK MY BROTHER,YOU EMBARASSED ME INFRONT OF MY FRIENDS...ARE YOU SURE MAY THAT SHE IS REALLY YOUR FRIEND HA!?,LOOK AT YOU NOW YOU’RE DIFFERENT ...I’M HER FRIEND SHE HELP ME IN TIMES YOU IGNORE ME....I IGNORE YOU BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO REALIZE THAT YOU NEED TO FOCUS YOUR STUDY,AND WHAT IS THE RETURN YOU WILL BE A SLAVE HA MAY?!...EXCUSE ME MR.ATTITUDE,JUST TO MAKE IT CLEAR SHE IS NOT MY SLAVE,IN FIRST YES BUT RIGHT NOW SHE IS MY FRIEND...YOU CHANGE MY SISTER ANYMORE....MR.ATTITUDE BEFORE I COME FIRST IN LIFE TO YOUR SISTER SHE IS LOSER LOOK AT RIGHT NOW SHE IS BEAUTIFUL,PRESENTABLE,AND DO YOU KNOW THAT HOW’S SHE’S BULLY IN SCHOOL?... BROTHER RESPONSE THAT UNTIL RIGHT NOW SHE IS BULLY LIKE YOU BECAUSE SHE DO YOUR HOMEWORKS,PROJECTS,AND ANYTHING AND WHAT IS THE MEANING OF THAT.THAT IS BULLYING HA!....BROTHER STOP I FELT HAPPY OF THIS FRIENDSHIP YOU JUST LIVE FOR THAT BEACUSE I’M OLD ENOUGH...HEY MY SISTER YOU KNOW MALDITA IS MALDITA... SHE COULD’NT GO HOME BECAUSE MAY IS SPECIAL GUEST TO MY PARTY...I’M HIS BROTHER AND SHE IS MY SISTER I HAVE A RIGHT SO LET’S GO MAY...MAY IS OLD ENOUGH TO DECIDE SO LIVE HER ALONE... STOP EVERYONE I’M NOT STRING,THIS TIME I WANT MY OWN DECISION BROTHER?,JUST TRUST ME....OK.FINE!

(HOUSE)HI.MOM,DAD...IT’S TRUE THAT YOU EMBARRSING YOUR SISTER INFRONT OF MANY PEOPLE!?....WHY DAD IF I’LL GOING TO SAY THAT ITS TRUE WHAT YOU WILL DO FOR ME....PATTY IS THAT THE WAY TO TALK TO YOUR FATHER?...MOM,ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS THAT YOU WILL NEVER BELIEVE IT,JUST ONLY AVIE THAT YOU BELIEVE IT....BEACAUSE I TELLING THE TRUTH MY SITER PATTY....ARE YOU SURE MY SISTER?!....PATTY JUST ANSWER MY QUESTION DO YOU EMBARASSING YOUR SISTER IN FRONT OF MANY PEOPLE HA?....YESS IT’S TRUE,BECAUSE SHE DESTROY MY LIFE FIRST,AND I HAVE RIGHT TO DESTROY HER LIFE... DON’T DO THAT TO OUR FAMILY...WHY ARE BLAMMING ME,WHY?I’M NOT PART OF THIS FAMILY HA!JUST ANSWER ME....WHERE DO YOU GOING...WALK OUT?!....WHY ARE GO THERE?THIS IS THE WAY NOT THERE?....WHY?I’M JUST PICKING UP MY THINGS FIRST EVIL AVIE...HELLO!

HOUSE OF MAY)MAY?MAY?....(BROTHER)YOU AGAIN,WHY ARE HERE?...FIRST LET ME ENTER IN YOUR HOUSE,BEFORE QUESTIONING ME!!MAY?WHERE IS MAY?JUST CALL MAY?!....WHAT KIND OS ATTITUDE YOU HAD MISS!!...OK.FINE. JUST CALL MAY...BECAUSE I’LL STAY HERE...WHAT?!...(MAY COMES)PATTY WHAT A PLEASANT SUPRISE WHY ARE HERE...I’M LIVE TO MY HOUSE BEACUSE MY PARENTS ARE THERE...I WISH THAT IS POSSIBLE I’LL STAY HERE JUST 2 DAYS?...BROTHER,BIG NO,NO,no...MAY SAID OFCOURSE YES....AND YES WIN,YOUR NO NOT COUNTED... BROTHER PLSSS.JUST HELP TO MY BESTFRIEND...YES,IF SHE WILL SAY PLEASE TO ME?...HMM..SORRY MR.ATTITUDE BUT PLEASE IS NONE TO MY VOCABULARY...WHILE,THEN YOU WILL STAY OUTSIDE,(CLOSE THE DOOR)...BROTHER JUST OPEN THE DOOR...OH MY GOD MY FLAWLESS SKIN,MR.ATTITUDE JUST OPEN THE DOOR!?...NIGHT COMES...ALL RIGHT,GO FOR IT,STAY OUTSIDE UNTIL TOMORROW THERE’S ONLY A KEY IF YOU WILL SAY PLEASE TO ME,AND BE MERCIFUL TO MOSQUITOES...ALL RIGHT,MR.ATTITUDE I WILL TRY PLEASE!...WHY ARE YOU ACTING?....PLEASE!!??....WHY ARE ANGRY?....MR.ATTITUDE PLEASEEeess....WELCOME MISS PATTY TO MY HOUSE...(PATTY PUNCHED MR.ATTITUDE)YOU’RE CRAZY...YOU ARE TRULY MALDITA!PATTY!

(SCHOOL)WHAT KIND OF TROUBLE IS THIS MAAM?,WHY DIDN’T ME ALLOW TO TAKE MIDTERM EXAM?...YOU WILL TALK TO YOUR ADVISER ABOUT YOUR ABSENCES WITHOUT EXCUSE LETTER,...I AM THE OWNER OF THIS SCHOOL...BECAUSE THIS IS OUR NEW RULES ACCORDING TO THE NEW MANANGEMENT MISS PATTY...WHAT NEW MANAGEMENT?....(MISS AVIE COMES)YES MY BELOVED SISTER I’M THE NEW MANAGEMENT NEW RULES,NOT JUST BECAUSE OUR FAMILY IS THE OWNER OF THIS SCHOOL AND YOU WILL ACT LIKE THAT....YOU KNOW, FIRST OF ALL MY SISTER AVIE I’M IN CHARGE TO LEAD OF THIS SCHOOL,JUST TELL TO DAD?.....IT WAS DIFFERENT NOW,I’M THE NEW OWNER OF THIS SCHOOL.GETS?AND ALL RULES WILL BE CHANGE INCLUDING YOUR ATTITUDE...WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN?....WHEN YOU WALK OUT FROM HOME....I DIDN’T LEAVE TO OUR HOUSE I NEED BREATH FOR A WHILE...AND BREATH ALL YOU WANT,BECAUSE RIGHT NOW YOU’RE SUSPENDED,AND THEY WILL REPORT YOUR INFRACTIONS?!...SHE WALK OUT WITH ME MAAM RECORD IT>>IMPOSTORA,UGLY,EVIL,EVERYTHING IS UP TO YOU, YOU’RE BULLSHIT AVIE!!WHEN CAN I REPAY YOU AVIE!!(SHOUTING)(SLANDERIOUS)...(MR.ATTITUDE COMES)STOP!!,WHAT HAPPEN TO YOU,WHY ARE YOU ACTING LIKE THAT?...JUST MIND YOUR BUSINESS...WHAT’S YOUR PROBLEM HA?JUST TELL ME....MY SISTER...YOUR SISTER AVIE...WHY YOU KNOW?... MAY TELL ME OUT YOUR PROBLEMS,I FORCED HER SO THAT I KNOW YOU MORE,THE SOURCE OF YOUR BEING MALDITA...SO....YOU’RE BOTH PRETENDING!...WHAT DO YOU MEAN?...ACCORDING TO MY STORY THEY ARE PRETENDING MALDITA BUT THE TRUE IS SHE IS GOOD GIRL...WHAT YOU MEAN,THAT I’M PRETENDING?....YEAH YOU ARE PRETENDING TO YOUR SELF THAT YOU ACTING LIKE THAT,BECAUSE ITS SO ABVIOUS,I SEE THAT HOW YOU HELPING YOUR FRIENDS JUST LIKE MY SISTER MAY,DEEP INSIDE YOU SO GOOD,YES YOU HURT,IT’S NORMAL TO EXPERIENCE THAT,BUT ANYTIME IT WILL BE GONE,LET YOU PAIN TREAT WITH TIME...HOW??I REALLY HATE MY SISTER AVIE!...LOOK JUST SHOUT OUT SAY SOMETHING TO THE STAR,SHOUT YOUR PROBLEMS,LET YOUR PROBLEMS COMES OUT!!

(SCHOOL)MAY>FRIEND?I HAVEN’T NOTICED THAT YOU SO HAPPY,IT IS DONE OF YOUR BEING MALDITA?...OF COURSE NOT,MAYBE YOU FORGOT THAT I’M HALF CHINESS PURE MALDITA...MAY HAHAHHA WAIT MY BROTHER SAID THAT AFTER WE WILL DERECT TO MY HOUSE BECAUSE HE WILL PREPARE OUR DINNER...OF COURSE(EXCITED)...WHY ARE YOU GOOD MOOD RIGHT NOW?.....MAY I’M JUST TAKE A REST,IF I’LL ACT GOOD YOU WILL COMMENT,AND IF I’LL ACT MALDITA YOU DON’T LIKE IT,HOW CAN I ADJUST IT HA?

(STREET)OH!WHY ARE YOU NOT FIGHTING IN ME,I THOUGHT YOU ARE BAD GIRL PATTY,SHOW IT!!WILL, I WILL NOT FIGHT AT YOUR LEVEL.... YOUR LEVEL.I’M LEVEL UP TO YOU PATTY THAT’S WHY YOUR BOYFRIENDS LIKE IN ME BECAUSE YOU ARE UGLY!!(PULLED THE HAIR AND THE VAN COMES peeeppp!)AND PATTY PUSH HER..OH...NO....AVIE..(AND PATTY GIVE HER LIFE TO HER SISTER)

(HOSPITAL)MOM SAI>THS IS NOT THE LAST TIME THAT PATTY SAVE YOU LIFE....WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT’S NOT FIRST TIME?...DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN YOU ARE YOUNG.YOU HAD A DANGEROUS SICK,AND PATTY DONATE HER BONE MARROW FOR YOU,SUCH A YOUNG AGE,AND NOW SHE DO IT AGAIN,YOUR SISTER SAVED YOUR LIFE AVIE...SHE DID THAT FOR ME(CRYING)ALL THIS TIME I HATE HER BECAUSE SHE IS HEALTHY,SHE CAN DO ANYTHING AND EVERYYHING,HOW ABOUT ME I’M ALWAYS IN THE HOUSE BECAUSE OF MY SICK....AVIE IT’S NOT TOO LATE... (PATTY WAKE UP)SISTER?....THANK GOD YOU’RE OK.....THANKYOU SO MUCH PATTY FOR YOU DID FOR ME,I’M REALLY REALLY SORRY PATTY,I REALIZE TO MY SELF THAT EVERYTHING HAPPEN TO US YOU SAVE MY LIFE,AND I REALIZE TO MY SELF THAT YOU LOVE ME I’M SO SORRY PATTY FOR WHAT I DID.....I’M SORRY AVIE FRIENDS?......FRIENDS.....

AND THAT IS MY STORY #CHANGED

#CREATIVEWRITING SHORTSTORY PATTYTHEBADGIRL

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growinwiththeflow · 5 years

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Dear Universe (December 2018),

I feel as If I’m coming back from the dead. Over the last 2months, I’ve gained knowledge and I’ve lost myself. I feel like a phoenix. I feel as if I am understanding and becoming who I am supposed to be as I become this beautiful phoenix. I hear my spirit guides so loud and clear these days and I am extremely thankful. I used to feel so alone and they comfort me. It’s been hard to adjust to the way my family dynamics are changing, but I understand it’s not necessarily the end of the world although it is not what I want. I’m back single again and I am ok this time. I’m not crying or daydreaming about him or what we had I took the time to examine what we had and what I am left with and I understand that this ending was a blessing. I’m coming into really understanding my worth. This came from the end of our relationship as well because I for once had to stop and ask what I could offer someone. I thought since he “had his shit together” and I’m getting mine together, I was almost worthless to him because I usually date people that I’m doing better than. So this time I was left with a little more to unpack and I believe I’m heading on the right path to understand what I truly offer and essentially, my worth. I’m still giving my business my all. I decided that I needed a set weekly schedule so that I would stop spreading myself so thin and with the exception of missing the gym days this week, I did really good. I feel as if the schedule will work out and keep me from being so lost and scatterbrained. Especially when the (I almost wrote my but it’s not MINE I DO NOT OWN THIS ANXIETY!) anxiety kicks in.

I understand what I need to do to be better physically, spiritually, and emotionally. I have a lot of life lessons under my belt and I understand that to be on this path means I will be tested and I am afraid to fail. I try my best to let go of time and stop putting these time frames on my back, but I have to stop playing and move forward. My downfall is always a relationship and not being myself. I forget who I am and what I’m doing. I’ve had this revelation before and I’ve gone back to the old destructive me and given up on my journey just to start again a few months later. I’ve done it over and over. It’s not even like “omg this guy is perfect. I’m myself, I’m opening up, I’m feeling good about what we have, I’m still on track spiritually …”. It’s always “well this is ok; its fun, he’s nice, I love this one tiny part about him …” I settle and fuck myself over. I’m scared to relapse. The biggest thing I’ve been scared of lately is fame. Am I close to fame? I do not believe so lol. But I’ve had several full on panic attacks of what it would feel like to be recognized in public, having tons of notifications coming in … I feel like a crazy person! Part of me feels like maybe that could be an option down the line and I’ve fearfully come to the conclusion that I would be able to handle it if life takes me there. It’s the oddest fear, but that one is 100% real and I haven’t had the balls to talk to anyone and admit this.

I want to be surrounded by love and happiness. I understand that love has to start with me and happiness is a choice and a journey, nit a destination. I want to learn to love the parts of me that I sometimes feel embarrassed about. I want to learn to love me as a whole! I want to be my true authentic self at all times in front of all people on all platforms. I believe that’s what I have truly been missing. How can I love someone and expect them to love me in return if I’m not in love with me? How dare I even ask! I want to learn to love my solitude. I want to be an active reader. I want to always seek truth and knowledge. I want to stick to my budget and thrive financially. I want to see my business thrive. Most of all I want to thrive as a bad ass spiritual warrior for the people. I want to help people conquer their demons. I want people to trust me and to allow me to advise them on their journey. I have so much to learn, but I never want to stop.

Thank you for this journey. Thank you for the strength to carry on when the weight of the world is weighing me down. Thank you for life! Thank you for MY life! Thank you for allowing me to be a vessel and for me to be at a point where I am ready to admit that this is what I want to do. Thank you for those who support me and thank you for those who don’t. Thank you for the people who didn’t make “the cut” this year. Thank you for a positive attitude moving forward into 2019. I’m especially thankful for the journey this time. I feel much more connected and I believe it’s because of my dedication to what I want to do with my life.

** RAW WARNING** this was written as I normally do with pen and paper. Thoughts as they come and as raw as I can be. There may be grammar (more than normal) or spelling errors but this is to get the feelings and concerns off your mind and into the universe. Thanks for reading and being a part of the healing.

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