#just thinking about. have barely enough spells to keep kala alive in the first battle

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sometimes i remember that camille was level one at the start of crop and i go insane

#she’s SO much more powerful than she ever should have had to become #just thinking about. have barely enough spells to keep kala alive in the first battle #having to stay out of melee in the fight with salic because she was still markedly weaker than the others #when now she throws herself into the middle of a fight whenever she has the chance #(i also think a lot about how. cami doesn’t Know clerics #so the first time she ever saw spiritual weapon on spirit guardians get used was in the salic fight #i can’t Explain my thoughts about that but they’re there!! #bc she doesn’t Like the archstamen on principal and ofc she hates salic but like. that’s what she’s Seen of attack clerics #it’s just!!! just. starting at level one was Such a choice and i’m very glad for but bc the implications are just. So Much. #being a level one cleric for a Lot of your life and not even really thinking there was more to it but suddenly things keep getting worse #and you’re getting more powerful but it’s only in response to terrible circumstances and it never feels like Enough #bc even now. being lvl5 in the world as it is now scales So Different than being lvl1 among commoners and other lvl1 people. #i think leveling up so fast is part of why she’s reckless bc it’s like. not fully knowing and understanding her own power and limitations #bc sparrow for instance Knew what she could do she Knew her spells and her strength so well #cami? most times she casts a spell it’s the first time she’s ever done it and she’s stronger than she ever thought people could Be #so of Course she throws everything into battle and isnt smart about it because she’s still Learning how all this even WORKS #but at the same time!! it’s why she’s So Anxious about using things up Wrong #because two months ago she had two (2) slots and those were the only thing between kala and death #because when she was level three she used all her spells and then sparrow Died because she didn’t manage them better. #but at rhest!! at rhest she managed them Well and ended the combat with two extra spell slots. she’s Learning but also. #she still knows So Little #crop #dnd hours