#just total screaming over this

[willowser]

i just think katsuki is a very pinch their nose, tug on their ear, squish their cheeks, grab their whole face in his hand, hold them upside down by the ankles, put them in a headlock kind of dad.

#and the whole time he's listening to you talk about your day with a straight facr #*face #they're screaming and giggling and having a ball and he's just so casually got his child in a headlock #has their hands in one of his own and is tickling their lil pits #totally straight faced #and he's always doing it to them #even when they're older and in their teens he still tugs on his daughter's ponytail and she gets all DAD STOP #or he walks past your son and flicks him in the ear #wraps and arm around his neck until he can get out LOL #he's a BULLY !!! #he'll always be a BULLY !!!! #and then when he does it to you—they're both climbing all over him to get him off 🥺 #katsuki wrestles you onto the couch and your lil knight in shining arm son charges him and climbs on his back and yells #LET GO OF MY MOMMY !! #and whacks him in the ear LOL #WAAAHHH #cw children #✿ thoughts: bakugou #✿ theme: dad bakugou

[shima-draws]

PMD Sky where everything’s the same except Pip is live tweeting while she and Chimchar are stuck in the future. Somehow these tweets are crossing the boundaries of time and space to end up on the guild members’ feed and it’s just shit like this with no context

#Pokemon #PMD #Pip #Piplup #Grovyle #Dusknoir #Celebi #PMD Sky #Pokemon Mystery Dungeon #PMD Grovyle #Chimchar #I don't use the t word I don't know if this is how hashtags work over there. Whatever #Shima speaks #JUST IMAGINE. The guild is in a total uproar bc their top two apprentices vanished into a portal #The next day. Sunflora screams bc she's still getting updates from Pip on her feed. #Pip is tweeting with barely any context and everyone is SO confused #Also slight hints to Pip catching Honey Nut Feelios for Grovy. #LMAO

[brainlicking]

The nebulous powers of the Mindscape have decided there is no need for two Creativities and attempts to fuse them together again.

Something has gone horribly wrong.

Be sure to zoom in for those juicy details<3

#Sanders Sides #Remus Sanders #Roman Sanders #body horror #Creativity Fusion #gore #blood #heehee<3 I've been working on this for the past couple of weeks and I am just so<3<3<3<3 over how it's turned out #there is a total of 17 hands and 3 feet #the background text is the two of them screaming for help #<3<3<3 #Createrato #Fanart #Creativitwins

[neverevan]

Snippet Sunday 🌟

I was tagged by @thewolvesof1998 @jeeyuns and @disasterbuckdiaz thank youuu mwuah 💛

Hey peeps, guess what? I finished the first draft for the ski fic today and now it only needs to be edited. 🫡 So, I decided to venture into my drafts and see what else could I get into and work on after all these festivities and I ended up tapping back into the screaming universe fic, so here's a snippet from that.

“Hey uh Eddie.” Buck clasped his hands together in front of his chest as he walked after Eddie into the kitchen. “C-can we talk?”

“Sure, what’s up Buck?” Eddie looked at him for a moment as he put the bags on top of the table, then he started pulling their contents out of them one by one.

“I uh… I had an interesting conversation with Chris just before you got back, n-nothing too serious, I just thought you should know.” Buck trailed after Eddie as he put two boxes of cereal into the cabinet and even though it must’ve been ridiculous for him to literally follow him around in such a small space, he couldn’t really help it.

“Oh no.” Eddie barked out a laugh and shook his head as he closed the upper cabinet. “You had the Kevin talk with him, didn’t you?”

“Uh y-yeah, how’d you know?”

Eddie sighed in parental exasperation — Buck could always tell this sigh of Eddie’s from any other ones.

“He ambushed me with it last week, talked my ears off about it, asked a bunch of questions I couldn't really answer…”

“Sorry.” Buck grimaced, though he knew it wasn’t exactly his fault Kevin had two dads — or that it would give Christopher ideas; he was a pretty creative kid after all.

“For what? The kid isn’t entirely wrong.” Eddie shrugged and went back to dig a big tub of butter out of one of the paper bags.

“What?”

“Well, he says that if we got married then you’d be his dad too, legally anyways.” Eddie walked over to the fridge so naturally, as if they were just talking about weekend plans or sports and not… well, not the hypothetical of them being a couple; a married one at that.

✨no pressure tagging: @malewifediaz @spagheddiediaz @daffi-990 @ladydorian05 @jesuisici33 @heartshapedvows @nmcggg @rainbow-nerdss @jamespearce9-1-1 @watchyourbuck @eddiebabygirldiaz @theotherbuckley @fortheloveofbuddie @hippolotamus

#did you know that after posting my christmas stuff I'm only 2 fics away from having 911 as my main fandom on ao3? #and that in less than 4 months I finished 7 fics and wrote over 100k just for buddie? #and that I'm so insane for these boys it's totally ridiculous? #no? now you do! #anyway I love this show and these characters so much it's not even funny anymore #if anything I want this to be my forever fandom 😭 #buddie #911 #wip #the screaming universe fic

[weneedatdcharacterwho]

We need a TD character, who without fail, gets hurt every single episode.

They aren’t sporty or clumsy, they just have really bad luck.

Somehow they make it to the final three.

.

#tyler if the writers loved me #imagining them one ep at the end like. hey I'm ok. [tiki torch at the ceremony falls over on them] #they run around screaming while on fire. everyone just stares #total drama #total drama island #anonymous

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

based on your asks responses & characterization of yuuta this is what i’ve gathered — yuuta is like that one high school senior who looked at the new coming freshman’s & just adopted them on the spot. there’s no out. now his friends sees the kid & adopted them too. it’s a family now. a very young, close in age family. (i was yuuta in this situation 😔 i was use to be megumi in this situation but i carried the tradition out. as i should. high school & middle school was wild.)

YUUJI THOUGH. we will probably never see him in your sea glass garden au but your asks is killing me. like his one sided beef with yuuta? he’s just like me fr. i too would fight over megumi if it comes down to it.

i just know yuuji thought that yuuta & megumi was a thing at first cause of the whole “his boy thing”. i know he screamed into a pillow about it. i know he went to gojo to ask for permission to court megumi & gojo was flabbergasted at such a medieval act so he had yuuji do the dumbest shit to get his blessing (ha).

i just know nanami is sighing at the idea of his son yuuji being a jealous little brat because of his other son yuuta. i just know yuuta was so confused until he witnessed yuuji & megumi awkward ass flirting. i know he acts like a little shit to get on yuuji (& sukuna) nerves.

you know what. this is my jujutsu kaisen. this is my sorcery fight. gege who? i only know you. PLS TAKE THE PEN FROM GEGE.

Yuuta is absolutely that senior who adopted that new student and made a little family. That is His Kohai now okay megumi is their collectively raised flour sack baby and they will kill for him.

Yuuji came back to life finally met the second years had just leveled up with his cursed energy and gained a new dad got his old friends back he was so so ready to go live his best life and then his new self appointed brother opened his mouth and started rhapsodizing about some impossibly beautiful and perfect man named okkotsu yuuta and yuuji is absolutely whacked in the face a la rubber squeaky hammer that there’s some gorgeous son of a bitch out there already living his best life.

His death sentence was overturned. He’s so powerful that he can save everyone if he wants. He is the legally adopted child of Nanami Kento. The curse attached to him 1) actually liked him and 2) moved the fuck on which some people (Sukuna) could take a few notes on.

Fushiguro Megumi is his boy.

This could not have devastated him more thoroughly. Even his newly acquired self appointed brother thinks okkotsu yuuta is the perfect man, which he manages to express at length in between warnings from the second years that Yuuta’s going to fly back from Africa purely for the sake of kicking his fucking ass for touching His Boy, which yuuji simply cannot handle.

Yuuji lowkey had a new lease on life and thought “hey! Fushiguro tried to kill someone with an elephant for me! Maybe I have a shot and he’ll let me hold his hand!” and then there’s god’s perfect man off in Africa who’s enticing megumi away from movie marathons with his fucking FaceTime calls right when yuujis almost hyped himself up enough to try the yawning arm stretch thing.

He spends at least three weeks trying to figure out if Megumi’s His Boy because they’re in a long distance relationship and it only ends because maki starts finding it more annoying than funny and establishes that it is not in fact a romantic arrangement. She thinks. (Okay it’s still kind of funny.)

Yuuji resorted to a terrible wikihow on how to get someone to date you and it insisted “get their parents approval” was his in and gojo could NOT have been more of an asshole about it. Nanami had to intervene to get it to stop. He is very tired and very confused. Why are you so upset about okkotsu he’s a lovely young man why is this making you more upset

Of course if yuuji ever found out that megumi became Yuuta’s boy after Yuuta personally restarted his heart he’d instantly understand why everyone acts like Yuuta’s the best thing since sliced bread. He is that amazing.

Yuuta and Megumi are completely oblivious to all of this.

Gege pls call me I just want to help gege pls

#sea glass gardens #just remember YOU can forcibly displace gege and turn the creative property over to me #I will be making several. SEVERAL. changes. #yuuji absolutely goes back into his room and screams into his pillow over Yuuta #he was going to try to hold Megumi’s hand and Megumi left to go talk to Yuuta just because he was ‘calling all the way from Africa’ and ‘the #movie ended five minutes ago why were you just sitting there looking like you were really stressed are you okay itadori’ #nobara is exhausted just watching this #she’s the most homophobic lesbian alive why do lgbtq things happen to people who don’t deserve it #god she just wants a girlfriend with a sword and these fucking assholes are the ones who get their high school romance they don’t even #APPRECIATE the gay things happening to them #ignoring all canon since we’re never getting there in sea glass gardens #when Yuuta’s coming back from Africa Megumi’s very simply stating that Yuuta’s an important person in his life and he’s glad yuuji wjll #meet him soon which might as well be a DECLARATION OF UNDYING LOVE yuuji has a total crisis #yuuta gets off the plane and fucking hugs megumi yuuji had to get boyfriend privileges to do that who is this son of a bitch #gojo watching this: do you think I can get yuuji to wash my car again if I tell him I’ll distract Yuuta so he can take Megumi on a date #Nanami: why on earth would okkotsu need to be distracted for that to happen #gojo: that’s the beauty of it it is in no way necessary but yuuji doesn’t seem to know that

[abigail]

wanting a new job has lead me to thinking I should try a different career path every other day again.. I feel so insane .. I wish my brain could just figure out what I’m good at and what I enjoy and just decide on SOMETHING.. I’m fully going to scream and yell and cry

#like the other week I thought wow what if I became a therapist (LMAO) but then I’ll think oh maybe I’ll become a tattoo artist #and then it’ll think I should make music and then just get a job in a coffee shop #and then one million other things that are all completely different.. I’m going to SCREAM !!!! #I just don’t think I’m good at anything .. #and then I can’t figure out what I enjoy enough that I’m kind of ok at to maybe turn into a job if I can .. which is so silly… #I just feel sick thinking about it all but I can’t stop thinking about it .. how do people just know I’m genuinely asking #(I’m on my break at work rn and I fully want to cry because I can’t stop thinking about this like #I’m being totally serious I’m on the verge of tears over this shit oh my GODDDD 🗣️🗣️🗣️) #a

[snowthatareblack]

forgot to show the drawing (I'm not an artist, more of a procrastinating writer- pls spare me) I drew in the built-in drawing app..

I swear, it looked better months ago...

#throws this at you and runs #the amount of likes and reposts I'm getting is so overwhelming to the point where I feel like I NEED to post something more #also drew my bff who I was on a call with while playing adwd and all she could hear was flustered screams and banging on my computer table #thank u all sm for 250 likes in total #I did not expect all of this just by posting (and obsessing) over Casper #casper a date with death #a date with death #a date with death casper #a date with death grim #adwd casper #adwd #adwd grim #adwd fanart #a date with death vn

[arowolfwalker]

Man, as much as I wish Wallace had seemed more affected by Scott's death in the anime, actions speak louder than words and Wallace's actions screamed that he was extremely not over it

#Wallace getting drunk and hanging out with 'Other Scott' after Scott's funeral #and then pitching the idea to make the movie about Scotts life a gay romance betw him and Scott #wallace only being shown acting nice to Todd when he's in the Scott costume and then telling him the fling is over once filming wraps #todd is a good looking guy the fact that Wallace saw nothing wrong with cutting their thing off completely once filming was done is so... #he wasn't even just fucking todd either he was like holding his hand and playing footsie with him and chatting with him n stuff #but was set on ending it and got annoyed when todd tried to pursue him like wallace was just projecting scott onto todd #also this fucks with envy and he would totally do something to spite her especially cause he knows she broke up with scott for todd #there are so many layers and all of it points to him being extremely unwell and much more affected by scott's death than he lets on #min screams #scott pilgrim

[arctic-hands]

I have joined the society of bluetooth earphones

#refurbished for the record #i have been dragged kicking and screaming into the future #my phone doesn't have a headphone jack. my mp3 player does but it also has bluetooth capability. my ereader only has bluetooth for audio #so I figure since I'm going on the eclipse trip in a few months I should get some wireless buds for the train #went with some used skullcandy sesh because they were like twenty-two dollars had had a twenty hour battery life #I ALMOST went with some used Hesh headphones that looked really cool and had fifteen hours but were also forty-nine dollars #which combined with the other things I needed to buy would have put me thirteen dollars over my seventy-five dollar walmart giftcard #I was very tempted if just for the aesthetique~ but realized if I bought the cheaper earbuds I could have enough money for some instax film #and the cheaper earbuds and 2 pack of film plus the household objects I needed put me at a tidy seventy-four dollars and fifty-six cents #so I didn't have to spend any actual money on anything woot woot #the earbuds are blue. which is my favorite color. but they're like a pastel blue. which is like my least favorite shade of blue #ah well I'll sacrifice looks for function and affordability any day #*stares in slight dismay at hideously pink refurbished and thirty dollar instax mini 9* #what I REALLY wanted was some of those urbanista solar-powered headphones/earbuds #but even used/refurbished both were out of the total price range of the gift card(s) #I actually had two giftcards which together totaled seventy-five so that was pretty sweet

[makkie-is-screaming]

I should fucking kill myself

#I have this anger and dislike towards my little brother that’s totally unwarranted like he’s 10 it’s just my issues #n whenever I feel his hatred towards him I want to gut myself like #it’s not his fault that my moms a better mom for him n that he’s not scared of her #It’s not his fault that my dads sober and present for him #it’s not his fault that my older brother is a good brother to him n has never hurt him #it’s not his fault he’s not scared of telling someone he’s hurt or of getting food #it’s not his fault he parrots all of my parents insane conservative views #but I still hold so much anger and resentment #When I look at him I see him getting all the things I never got and being free of the traumas I went through #and I know it’s good and I’m happy he’s grown up in a safer environment but I’m so angry that I didn’t have those parents #and I know he’s also missing so many things I got #But it fucking hurts seeing how loved and safe he is and wishing I had been that innocent at that age #like when he’s fighting with my mom it’s over school work n video games n then he thinks he can talk shit ??? #when I was fighting with my mom it was bc she came home from work in a rage #when I was mad at my dad it was because he got drunk n came home n yelled at my mom until she was crying in a corner then left #When I was screaming at my older brother it’s because I was tired of him hurting me not because he called me a name #I’m a horrible sister to him and I hate it because when he was a baby I was so fiercely protective of him and so happy to be his sister #I watched his shows with him and kept him entertained when my parents got bad n I promised myself I’d take care of him the way I never was #but I failed n now I can barely stand being around him #like I’m such a good sister to my sister but that’s it #n it makes me feel worse about my relationship w my brother bc I know I can be better but I’m just a horrible jealous bitch who should die #screaming

[littlegalerion]

Some little tid bits about Dragonborn lore that hit hard for my Dark Urge Dragonborn:

Clan means everything. This is referenced so many times in dialogue options for a dragonborn player. I always have Moon choose it, but in a sarcastic or dreadful way. Her only sense of "clan" is Bhaal's cult, most likely a deeply seeded notion given to her by her mother. Even her own mother would have chosen the cult over her, and Moon is aware of this. Always was. It wouldn't surprise me if Moon eventually killed her, either out of personal pleasure or as an act of offering towards Bhaal- maybe both.

I like to think Moon was raised on a twisted version of this. That she was taught all her "playthings" were to be "respected". Given her druid class, she was always directed at how predators treated their prey- a meaningful hunt. But again, with a cultist twist on it. All of Moon's victims were a boon to her father, so all held meaning. All deserved her utmost attention and time. Though most probably wished she had just ended it quickly...

This has always been my canon for Harvest Moon from the start:

She was always desperate for approval from Bhaal, conditioned to desire it more than anything else in her life. She was born for the sole purpose of pleasing him, a faithful child, and if she fell short in any way, she was a waste of resources and time.

When the events of the betrayl of the Dark Urge took place, and she ended up with a tadpole plus amnesia, for the first time, Moon has that conditioning shoved aside. She was actually allowed to think for herself and what she wanted. Sure, Moon still felt the conditioning affects- hence the "urges"- but she was at last an individual. A very smart individual. One that quickly began to enjoy her newfound freedom.

This is all VERY against how Moon was raised. She was taught to always safeguard her emotions, always prove calm, collected, and precisely emote nothing unless in the act of happily slicing through a victim. Such strong shows of emotion could either be used against her or be undesirable to her father, in which case she would be rightfully punished.

All her life, Moon has been fighting against her own nature. Very ironic, as she'd, as an adult, take on the druid class.

A very small thing, but Moon does have a tail, and she does get a lot of looks from other dragonborn for it. One more thing that separated her from her kin throughout her upbringing, I suppose.

#my oc harvest moon #i love dragonborn lore #tbh i was really worried theyd botch it in bg3 #for the most part they did okay #the tails at first worried me but given the default is no tail it gets a pass #i mean i gave moon a tail TAILS ARE FUN #but my friend and I always joke about how half dragons and dragonborn are always mixed up #total life saver could be seeing the tail and #“oh that is not an honorable red dragnborn THAT IS A RED HALF DRAGON USING DECEPTICON ROLL FOR PERCEPTION* #half dragons need more love theres so much potential in them #i love the idea of their draconic's side's natural allignment is forced onto them and its a major fight to overcome it #or if some just give up and give in #literally the dark urge #alsp the image of gale helping moon to reconnect with her dragonborn nature after the connection #between her and bhaal is forever cut #i wanna scream #him seeing her genuinely laugh in out in public for the first time #and not over something dark humored #bg3 #bg3 spoilers #baldurs gate 3 #dragonborn #dnd #dark urge #bg3 dark urge #bg3 dragonborn

[silverwolf1249]

recently read an incomplete fic with injustice! Superman and arkham city! Batman after the joker venom got to him and that's definitely two people I never even thought of interacting with each other, and now lives in my head rent free. Like, I've read great stories with injustice and earth 1, but holy shit injustice and arkham knight?? jksdkjdsk the many parallels between injustice! Superman and arkham! Batman, and yet how their paths differed, my worm brain is obsessed. Just think about it:

A Superman who got tricked by the Joker by inhaling kryptonite infused fear toxin and ended up killing Lois, whose death then destroyed Metropolis. A Superman who then proceeded to kill off the Joker and began eliminating crime by creating a world of his own vision using force.

A Superman who let the Joker's influence rule his every action even after his death. A Superman who stopped being Clark Kent and became the ruthless tyrant Kal-El of the Regime. A Superman who kills anyone who's against him or gets in his way, in the name of protecting peace on earth.

vs

A Batman who got infected by the Joker and slowly lost his grip on reality as he went through a fear toxin riddled Gotham City. A Batman who despite everything, refused to kill to the very end, trying his best to save everyone, including the Joker.

A Batman who managed to defeat the Joker's influence in the end and locked him up. A Batman who also killed off Bruce Wayne like Superman did Clark Kent, but unlike Kal, Batman receded to the shadows, to once again become a myth, a nightmare. A Batman who now utilizes fear toxin to subdue criminals.

Admittedly the last bit is kind of a conjecture based off the ending of Arkham City, but seeing a fear toxin wielding Batman vs a Superman who knows so intimately what fear toxin can do sounds so so interesting. Especially since apparently injustice! Bruce used it on Zod after he killed Tim, but said he would never use it against Kal after what he had done under its influence.

Of course, they also have some major differences, Bruce never killed his family, even if for a good second he thought bringing Barbara into his crusade was the reason she died (except that was a hallucination thank god). He never destroyed Gotham, he helped make the city better, and continues to do so. Kal-El killed Lois and their unborn child with his bare hands, and right after Metropolis got nuked.

I can only imagine Kal-El's jealousy that despite their similarities, Bruce essentially still had everything, all his loved ones and his city. Also his confusion and rage when he learns that Bruce still tried to save the Joker even after the Joker had caused him so much grief and suffering. He just can't understand how Bruce could keep his no killing rule even after basically spiraling into the Joker's madness. He has so many whys he doesn't even know where to begin.

And if arkham! Batman manages to also interact with injustice! Batman somehow ohohoho that's also so many possibilities with that considering again that arkham! Batman still has all his children alive and thriving while injustice! Bruce very much does not. Among other things of course, but that's definitely a big one. The other big thing being of course the Joker infection thing.

I sadly don't know enough about injustice to see how the rest of the Regime or Insurgency would react to arkham! Batman but man I would love to see their reactions to a Batman who might have a few screws loose, still doesn't kill, and is even scarier than ever with his fear toxin and he himself with an absolute lack of fear.

#hnnnnnn im making myself mentally ill over these two #like screaming crying throwing up i absolutely need to see more of it #all the brain worms #i'll be honest i'm not incredibly familiar with injustice or arkhamverse i spent like 2 hrs just reading and watching material on the two #and that's no where near enough to fully understand what's going on #otherwise i'd write this myself #injustice gods among us #batman arkham games #arkhamverse #arkham city #batman #bruce wayne #superman #clark kent #justice league #fic idea #superbat #kind of anyway though i could totally see this as a platonic thing too

[smallest-moon]

detective gumshoe my beloved ♥ the sweetest and most caring, please go give edgeworth a hug

#ace attorney #detective gumshoe #mine. #i got the collection on steam and was super happy to replay the trilogy and once again also reexperience those wrightworth moments #but instead im just looking at gumworth #ngl detective gumshoe is really always there with edgeworth and i feel like people dont really appreciate it??? #or at least not as much i guess #like yea he may come across as a dummy but hes got a good heart and hes smart #especially when it comes to edgeworth and man aint that love? #remember how he knows edgeworths id card but doesnt remember his own #like pls he could totally remember his if he cared but u know how he is #i 100% love gumshoe and hes my fav #its time someone gave him a hug and u know a decent salary #and i still hate how phoenix and maya come across as really cold and uncaring. like damn so what if Edgeworth's comes across as weird :/ #aren't you worried about how he's acting? :/ #ANYWAY #now excuse me i need to go cry over gumshoe some more because he owes my entire heart #ive screamed enough for now

[mrdrhenwardhykle]

If you told Phone Guy you lost your arm during your shift, he would probably say something like “Welcome to adulthood!” Or “Those kind of things happen, you’ll get used to it” like it’s a completely normal thing.

#going back to my FNAF fixation #but Phone Guy is so interesting hear me out #with how he talks and brushes things off he must have been abused or threatened by his work- #in some way for him to shut up and normalize the crazy things that went on #he didn’t even scream or call for help in his last call he just told them to look in the suits #like it was something he knew would happen #people gloss over him because he’s William’s red hearing #but he’s literally glossing over the fact that there was dead kids in the withered so hard in the second game I bet you he knew #he just made excuses for each death which made him suspicious to most but he was totally forced to act like that #probably why the animatronics hunted him #and stored him away in Freddy to be forgotten #kind of like what he did to them-stayed silent and allowed the killer to get away with it #sort of sad because I think he’s hanging on in the first game but nobody bothers to get him out #tbh he seemed more dedicated and ecstatic about raising the company that William or Henry-he's really the true one for that #I think he's the one who made it Freddy Fazbears-because in the original games Fredbear's Diner and Freddy Fazbear's had different owners- #also according to Phone guy GF is Freddy not Fredbear-but that's retconned

[johndonneswife]

someone really should be talking about how difficult it is to plan a wedding - a gay wedding - when both of your families fucking suck

#who is talking about this!!!! let me know #idk i have 0 expectations for my family but they still somehow always manage to let me down which #i was anticipating #and i didn’t think i would care because i have never cared before #but liiiiiike. #i wasn’t expecting to feel sad rofl but my family is so fucking flaky. again i KNOW THIS i know i cannot rely on any of them #it’s annoying when i have given them a year and a half to make plans and i have had so many people tell me they would be there #just to back out or ghost or come up with some excuse #like do you know how expensive weddings are 😭 JUST fucking be honest with me and rsvp no #anyway i was very intentional with the few family members i did invite #and specifically invited people i have a rapport with / had a good (ish lol) relationship with growing up #people i have bent over backwards trying to please!!! and dropping everything to help them out #and they can’t even be bothered to communicate with me lol it’s fine. like. i do feel like it’s internalized homophobia at this point #or maybe they have hated me this entire time which is totally plausible #but they KNOW how much ayesha means to me and knows that no one from her family is coming to our wedding #at the end of the day it’s going to be like. 5 people from my family 1 from ayesha’s (her brother) and like 30-40 friends #which i am so grateful for obviously #i sound like such a brat but it’s also like - watching your family continuously choose drugs/alcohol over showing up for you - lol #AGAIN i’m used to this and expected as much but i’m still feeling bad #just rsvp so i can move on with my life please. stop telling me you’re trying to make it work when we both know you aren’t #i have so much more to say but i’m going to sound crazy even though i knooooow it is homophobia like i Know it #i think there are certain people i will finally go no contact with for good after this #which is a freeing thought but i only invited v few family members to begin with. there’s abt to be no one left lmao #probably for the best #ugh whatever #again i can’t help but feel a certain way when they have done more/traveled further for relatives they hardly know #meanwhile i was forced to spend so much of my life living for these people and for them alone #AAAAAAAA i just want to scream #text