Just words
I think about that time over a year ago when you had only discounted my coffee. You showed simple kindness.
Now we had become friends and realize just how similar we were. I sit on your couch while we wait for bleach to develop in your hair.
But as I get to know you, those little parts you let escape, I realize I know nothing.
And we just seem like strangers again while I sit on your couch, showing me kindness.
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2 hari ini bikin gue mikir
is it really what i want?
or is it really that need to be done?
gue remuk di dalem
gue ga bs bohong klo gue ga baik2 aja
gue ga tau kenapa begini
mungkin karena tempat kerja yang lagi sepi karna udh libur panjang
or deep down, i know everything about this places broke me a little
piece by piece
Apa ini yg gue mau??
gue jarang impulsif, gue melakukan semuanya dan tau apa akibatnya
apa ini yg gue pengen?
nangis karena ngeliat koridor dan pintu, sadar kalo gue ga bakal ngeliat itu semua dengan cara yg sama lagi
kalo aja takdir kita ga bertemu
kalo aja gue ga pengen tau dan ga denger cerita itu
kalo aja gue ga tau apa rasanya ditinggalin ortu
kalo aja gue ga ngajak ngomong sore itu
kalo aja gue ga tau apa yang lo rasain selama ini
kalo aja gue ga pernah lewatin apa yg lo lewatin
mungkin ga akan begini
gue ga bakal remuk tiap sore nyender d tiang ngeliatin koridor kelas, berharap lo keluar dari pintunya, siap2 buat pulang kerumah
dada gue ga bakal sesak ngeliatin temen2 lo di taman belakang, bawa2 bambu
mungkin lo masih dirumah neraka itu
rumah yang sesak sama memori masa lalu
sarang kesedihan dan kesengsaraan
kotor dengan pikiran2 picik manusia2 yang cuma mikirin dirinya sendiri
mungkin lo masih sma bapak yg ga bertanggung jawab
sama bude yg ga peduli
sama kaka sepupu yang mikir kalo lo adalah beban
gue jadi mikir kalo gue yg salah
misahin lo dari temen2 lo, padahal gue tau mereka salah satu cara lo keluar dari kondisi rumah yg ga nyaman
misahin lo dr orang2 yg sayang sm lo
gue yg salah
nyamperin lo tengah malem itu
gue yg salah
ngelindungin lo dari org2 yg mikir lo adalah masalah
tapi Allah nemuin lo kedepan gue, bukan ga ada alasannya kan??
i had go through hell for you
i already burn, i already broke
i do everything that i can
and I don't have anything more
apakah tindakan gue benar?
balikin lo ke ibu yg selama 14 tahun ini ga nyentuh lo sma sekali
sama kaka kaka yg belom ngerti apa yg lo lewatin selama ini
apa ini yg gue pengen?
nangis tiap malem, berharap besok bisa denger suara lo bergumam lagu yg gue ga tau
sakit tenggorokan karena nahan buat ga tereak2
So help me God,,
karena jujur, gue ga kuat
kaya ditinggal pas lagi sayang2nya
iya, gue ngerasa ditinggalin
gue benci ditinggalin
its trigger something in me
seumur hidup gue,
gue selalu ditinggalin
gue takut berharap lo bakal balik lagi
takut kecewa
karena gue tau lo balik bukan buat gue
dan gue tau bakal sakit
karena seperti yg gue bilang
lo ga punya jawaban yg nenangin
you like a sister i never have
i found you,
now i feel like i lost you
know that you have to go,for good
but can't accept that i have to be alone again
its hurt
its suffocating
i can not breath when i write this
in the middle of the night
no where near home
alone, freezing, crying, broken like i never felt before
and i know you don't care
i hope wherever you are
you will be happy
you have to
keep you promises to me
be good, do good
i'll be alright
i think i'll be alright
~ Orang dengan mata coklat yg selalu bikin lo iri
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I've succumb to
thoughts of you .
My curiosity longing
to be quenched.
I wonder about
Your laughter, smile and touch.
The taste of your lips intoxicating
I imagine.
It would be an untold of
Spell, exploring your curves
An aphrodisiac.
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He asked me out, but little did he know I was scared of the crowd.
He wanted me to explore the things by taking me there, I never heard of those places prior as I was unaware.
It was just on the other end of the town, the thought of such a long journey made me frown.
I reached where he asked me to come, he was standing still as if waiting for the one.
Those chestnut eyes praising his messy hair, an unsophisticated appearance showed, it was something that he never cared.
He was as usual on time, a Punctual guy who never attempted such a crime.
On the contrary, I reached to him manipulating and perfectly lying.
I told the guy about my anticipation and he ensured me by not leaving my side.
That unofficial date got something incredible in it, two mutual strangers were travelling together but unaware of their feelings.
The evening was going on with a cheerful pace, they both were relishing its delightful taste.
I was the one, pretending to be silly all day, but he was irresponsibly taking care of me all the way.
As the thunderclap was gleaming in the dusky sky, he was not hoping for rain, but I was wishing for wings to fly.
As an indication of the otherworldly power, the shower was kind of blessings on us.
The night was getting grimier with my worries, I desperately wanted to be home on time and was somewhere in a hurry.
While jumping down the stairs with the aisle of my thoughts, being a clumsy girl, I stumbled and tripped but his hands made a tight grip.
He was the man of his words, keeping his promises till the verge.
The road was deserted due to the hefty downpour.
I gathered the courage to cover the path on my own, he tightly clenched my hand and not ready to leave me alone.
Don't know what it was, he was a dominating stubborn guy from whom I couldn't win.
We were walking together, wet and shivering- he was from the cold but I was fetching goosebumps from his touch.
We stood under the tree gawking at each other, saying nothing, but I didn’t know that nothing was meant to be everything.
It was the moment when our souls were somewhere escaping reality, dancing in the world of fantasy.
At the end of the day, in a most unexpected way, an innocent lamb fell for the notorious lion.
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