Karan Brar - How I Found Myself
For years, I had nailed the whole "compartmentalizing" thing and I figured I didn't need to stop then. There was public Karan and private Karan. Both were real, but trying to hold them in one body was proving to be too much. Still, I kept pushing myself until cracks started to form. It all came to a head while I was drunkenly hunched over a toilet bowl, watching my tacos from lunch and several White Claws come back out. I decided that was the best time to come out to Cameron and Sophie.
The moment the words left my mouth, I regretted it. I could barely see straight, but I ended up trying to do some damage control anyway. The best thing I could think of came stumbling out of my mouth:
“If you guys want me to move out I can. Just give me two weeks to figure it ou--”
They interrupted me by hugging me from behind. Again, I told them I should move out. They told me I was being stupid. I told them I’d cover for them if people asked why we didn’t live together anymore. They said to shut the fuck up. I told them that they probably hated me. They said my bisexuality changed nothing for them. Eventually, I lost enough steam to finally go to bed. I was too afraid to sleep on my own so Sophie grabbed a bowl, put it by my side of the bed, and made herself comfortable on the other side.
They were both shocked when I came out, not because of my sexual identity, but because I genuinely thought they would want nothing to do with me after I told them. Today I can understand how absurd that was — Soph and Cam had been my best friends for years and loved me every step of the way. Why in the world would they stop then? I think I just convinced myself that this part of me would feel less like an invitation to know me better and more like a burden they had to endure.
The next morning, we reconvened in the living room and even in my sober state, I tried to give them one more opportunity to accept my offer to move out. Living together had been a childhood dream of ours, but a voice inside of me kept shouting that I had just ruined the beginning of a beautiful chapter. To no one's surprise, Cameron interrupted me once again, while Sophie tried to hide her frustrations because I refused to listen to what they had to say.
This was the first time in years that I wasn’t hiding anything from them; instead, they were seeing the most authentic version of me. I finally gave up and accepted that they loved me as I am, as I’ve been, and as I’m going to be. This was a crisp picture of what unconditional love looked like: my two best friends sitting across from me on a discount couch, waiting to hear me describe my type so they could take on their new roles as matchmakers. They weren’t going anywhere.
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Karan Brar on Instagram stories
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[ INDIAN MALE FCS ] - part 1.
Avan Jogia (1992) - Born in Canada | Gujarati Indian, English, German, and Welsh descent
Dev Patel (1990) - Born in England, U.K. | Gujarati Indian descent
Himesh Patel (1990) - Born in England, U.K. | Gujarati Indian descent
Karan Brar (1999) - Born in Washington, U.S. | Punjabi Indian descent
Rahul Kohli (1985) - Born in England, U.K. | Punjabi Indian descent [mother is from Thailand and father is from Kenya]
Shantanu Maheshwari (1991) - Born in India | Marwadi descent
Suraj Sharma (1993) - Born in India | Malayali Indian descent
Tiger Shroff (1990) - Born in India | Turkish, Bengali, Gujarati and Belgian descent
Viveik Kalra (1998) - Born in England, U.K. | Punjabi Indian [British-born Indian father] descent
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Happy birthday to the out and proud bi guy, Karan Brar!
Karan Brar is like a burst of sunshine in the entertainment world. Known for his infectious charisma and versatile acting skills, Karan has captured the hearts of fans worldwide.
From his memorable role as Ravi Ross on Disney Channel's hit series "Jessie" to his captivating performances in films like "Diary of a Wimpy Kid" and "Pacific Rim: Uprising," Karan Brar continues to shine brightly on both the small and big screens.
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https://bi.org/en/famous/karan-brar
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https://www.teenvogue.com/story/karan-brar-how-i-found-myself
Karan Brar wrote this article speaking about being diagnosed with PTSD and depression and coming out as bisexual.
I admire him for being able to come out with something so personal cause I can only imagine how difficult the past few years were for him.
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"KARAN BRAR - Lights, Camera, ACTION | HIT THE BRAKE PODCAST"
Karan is so intelligent, so insightful, so open about mental health and the boys each talking about their own experiences with shitty directors in the industry....
I just love this, I love all of this.
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