#killing me inside

[ch3rrywine222]

my thoughts are killing me

#Art #woman #fucked up #overthinking #my year of rest and relaxation #slyvia plath #mad #crazy woman #feeling miserable #killing me inside

[valeteja]

A few months ago I tried killing myself duo an overdose of pills. I still have the urge to take all I can find. Sometimes I stand in front of my pills, knowing that I just need to take more than last time to maybe bring this to an end. Then I remember how much my body suffered, all the pain and the weird hallucinations I got and I'm scared. Scared that it will not work, leaving myself in more pain and suffering. But also scared that it will work, leaving everything and everyone behind. It's just a matter of time and I will not fight against it this time.

#tw self destruction #tw depressing thoughts #tw self destructive behavior #self h@rm #this is killing me #killing me inside #overdoz #take your pills

[cripplewhoiswhole]

Feelings, Emotions, Life

I've had humongous feelings and emotions for the past few months. I feel the same the way as I did when I was in love for the very first time. I feel like writing, I will feel the romance and the drama, I also feel the adventure. It is just driving me crazy because I cannot say it out loud. Boiling inside like a molten lava, burning down like a powerful acid, corroding away like rust, fading away like dry leaf. It's just killing me like slow poison, hurting deep inside. I thought I was done with all the pain a decade before but it's all coming back to haunt me again. Life is short and complicated, it's easy to contemplate and say something philosophical, but it's always hard to live the life the way it is. I've often wondered why I see the world though my eyes as a first person shooter game. Always wondered what would happen when it all ends, but I've been scared of the end at the same time. I wish I could enjoy these small moments, wish I could pull down the strings that is holding me away. Wish I could break all shackles, pull out all the nails that is hurting me as well as pinning me down. It's just like a never ending fiasco with, more hurdles after each one you cross, making you feel tired of the very life you want to live for. At the end makes me wonder, if I really should have these feelings or emotions anymore, or should I be just another dumb/numb with flesh and blood who goes about like a robot until it runs out of juice.

#me #personal #love #life #emotions #killing me inside

[techie-waterwitch]

#musings #lapis lazuli #music 🎵 #scream #playlists #little flirt #flirtatious gem #killing me inside #18+ post

[caosenlila]

Nunca supe como irme así que te empecé a dedicar mis noches.

#caos de pensamientos #escritos #notas de dolor #texto de amor #pain #killing me inside #notas

[krazedlove]

💫💞🤞💓🤞💞💫

Love you forever......

#love you forever #missing you like crazy #how do i go on #without you #killing me inside #my world #3/24/22 #3 months 💔

[cawronwaywardson]

Asking how to do a flip from the people I learned programming from:

The TA at the prestigious university:

"When you think about it, a flip is turning yourself vertically 360 degrees. Do that. :)"

The programmer who's been coding for several decades:

"First, we have to discuss how DNA influences the development of musculoskeletal systems and in the energy, in Newtons, to displace your weight..."

And after an hour he shows you how it's done in 2 seconds.

The internet:

"Here are 2,736 articles and 480 videos on how to do a flip. Some can help you, others make no sense to you. Good luck!"

#im sad and tired #im so confuzzled #programming #cs50 #learning #fucking killing myself #my brain #killing me inside #killing me outside #i just want a job #why are we here #just to suffer

[ecvyy]

it's not fair :/

#killing me inside #pain #worst #not fair

[oornithologistt]

vultures amirite?

og image below the cut

#vultures #vulture #how hungry #but i suppose in this case it's #how dead #birds #bird #meme #funny #god. putting the meme funny tags on my post killed me a little inside #anyway i found the image on pinterest thank you pinterest i love you #i wish i could give credit to the photographer though #so also curse you pinterest #for not having reliable image sources #birdblr #turkey vulture #i think?

[loveistheonlytruth]

whats the psychology of not wanting to see someone u like huh????

#killing me inside #and this place is so small ik i will run into them one day #i dread that day. i like them too much 💔💔💔

[cemeterything]

being a surviving child of antivaxxers is pretty funny because my parents dosed me with enough essential oils and herbal tinctures to pollute a river and i'm still mentally ill enough to set off geiger counters

#🐉 #whats inside me cannot be killed by homeopathy and superfood smoothies

[olasketches]

two sides of the same coin

#itadori yuuji #ryomen sukuna #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #my art #jujutsu kaisen fanart #brainrot incoming (pls don’t mind me) #one thing sukuna and yuuji have in common is that they’re both absolutely miserable #sukuna is utterly selfish and yet it only made him hollow inside and now he’s just killing time waiting for death to come #yuuji is completely selfless and yet it’s only made him suffer and bc of that he’s been constantly trying to check out of life #and I think the funniest but also the most painful thing about these two is that… #despite that they’re vastly opposite they might be the only people that can understand each other the most #imagine them having a heart to heart lol maybe then they would realise some things about themselves

[cripplewhoiswhole]

All In or All Out || Everything or Nothing

When you love someone or something, you gotta do it without expecting anything in return. If you do, there is a high risk of getting hurt and you end up being sad when you don't get what's expected. In fact, being in love, with yourself or with someone or even something is kind of a long term investment with a high ROI.

It doesn't matter if you go all out or not, once you develop feelings you are in it, similarly once you don't feel anything, you shouldn't hesitate to get out. At the very end, it doesn't matter if it's one sided or both ways, you gotta stay true to your heart and never expect in return.

#killing me inside #me #personal #life #love #my thoughts

[simperius]

My favorite thing about John Oliver trending on Twitter for last night's episode is that all of the haters are saying some variation of "He's trying to bribe a member of the Supreme Court he should go to prison for this 😠😒"

You nailed it bud, that's the heart of the bit. They spent thirty whole minutes making that exact point. It SHOULD be illegal, and YET-

#its actually killing me inside a little that the segment has not made it to youtube yet #john oliver #last week tonight #we love unregulated capitalism but wait not like THAT #don't make me LOOK at it

[boonsandwhatever]

have some sad snowmen

#fionna and cake #simon petrikov #simon adventure time #simon petrikov art #the ice king #ice king #the winter king #winter king #ice prince #adventure time #adventure time fionna and cake #fionna and cake episode 6 #my art #this series is killing me from the inside out but in a good way

[bs-fangirl]

Seriously, Netflix, what the hell is your problem?

#Netflix #inside job #dark crystal #age of resistance #julie and the phantoms #Lockwood #lockwood & co #Lockwood and co #uncoupled #teenage bounty hunters #first kill #tuca and bertie #tuca & bertie #1899 #resident evil #stuff from me #i'm not okay with this