#kinda dont hate myself

[puppyeared]

beep beep im a sheep

speeddraw below the cut (audio warning)

song: "Cult of Dionysis" by The Orion Experience

#before anybody says anything i have never played cotl in my entire life and i dont plan to. but. crow showed me some narilamb art #and i. well.. HMMMMM kinda fruity if i do say so myself.. #also i wanted to play around with the lambs design and had fun basing their outfit a little on crusader armor. mostly the cloth in the fron #i dont think id last 10 minutes playing cotl. partly because i suck at strategy games and not hugely drawn to roguelike games #and partly because i think i would cry real tears if i had to sacrifice someone despite fully knowing theyre nonsentient npc characters #i must admit i think the world and gameplay mechanics are interesting.. havent watched any playthroughs but ive been skimming thru the #wiki pages. kindareminds me of binding of Isaac but i dont have the patience for those kinds of games sadly #also apparently u guys are getting a sex update so i feel like ill be in full blast of whatever comes out of that #i might draw god of death lamb because i kind of have an idea of what their horns would look like. but im gonna hate drawing an outfit ugh #noooo dont usurp god and reap destruction for generations to come youre so sexy haha #cotl #cult of the lamb #cotl lamb #cotl lambert #cotl fanart #my art #myart #videos #speeddraw #progress art

[secretdazedragon]

“No big deal. You can share my ear buds.”

#the quarry #dylan lenivy #ryan erzahler #rylan #the quarry fanart #i hope u like it bc this is so cheesy i hate myself #also be proud of me bc i drew a car (kinda) and it's pretty cool from me considering i dont know how cars look and work #ship art

[swiftfootedachilles]

But maybe I'm just too young to keep good love from going wrong

Lover, You Should've Come Over by Jeff Buckley

#THIS SONG IS SOOOO.....AAAAAARRGGGG BARK BARK WOOF WAAAAHHHHHHH WEEEEHH IM CRYIN #shameless #shameless us #gallavich #ian x mickey #ian gallagher #mickey milkovich #shameless season 4 #dont ask me what i did to make this no i dont have any adobe or knockoff adobe software just myself and my iron will #mine #edits #shameless edits #jeff buckley #uhhhhh idk what else to tag #hmmmmm do i hate this............yeah kinda! #mickey x ian #gallavich edits #this song is soooo very s3/s7 ian and s4/s5 mickey fr....... #hoping anything shitty in the middle 2 is made up by the fact that the first one is okay and the last one is poggers #@mickey STOP FUCKING CRYING BITCH WAHH WAHH WAHH I DONT WANNA FUCKING HEAR IT #nobody look at this for too long or youll hate it like i do #usercam

[pcktknife]

I saw the bath scene. triggerrrrrr I have to watch this with my straight mother trigggggerrrrrrrrr 😭😭😭😭

#i dont like spoiling episodes for myself but i need to gauge how gay things are gonna be #that makes it sound like shes hate gays homophobic i just dont wanna watch a SEX SCENE with my mom #and i DONT want her to ask me questions #kae.txt #dungeon meshi spoilers #kinda

[imsodunwiththis]

Person: why are you acting like that?

Me: oh I’m sorry was I mental illnessing wrong!?

#triggering content #tw self h4rm #tw su1c1d3 #i wanna kms #shblr #tw sucidal ideation #self mutalition #tw self loathing #dont report just block #styrotwt #block don’t report #tw selfhate #hate myself #sad thoughts #depressing post #depressing shit #deppresion #kinda depressing #deppressed #this is depressing #mental hospital #tw mental illness #anxienty

[dailyedgeworth]

today, a work in progress? bc i think it looks funny but also bc my drawing arm is starting to hurt and uh. i never stretch?

#wip #look at the edgeworths #i figured i could start being nicer to myself and not hold me to these weird standards no one's imposing on me #it's my blog after all and i do count sketching and lineart as drawing #to have a finished digital drawing every day - considering im now drawing for other stuff as well (that for some reason im not counting)- i #well it's just getting kinda unlivable #i was in a four day game jam!! and i still posted!!!! #thank god i got into paint #... still i think i'll do a poll anyway to see if people hate it #uh sorry for. this whole bit #ignore me i dont mind haha #ALSO IGNORE THE WINDOWS NOTIF IN THE CORNER IT DOES NOT EXIST

[dilfhos]

i feel a lot of yall that say they hate mahito are pre -tty comfy on that wagon. pretty sure some of yall would deep down let that him worm-wiggle in ur cooch. would probably let them dozen or so wiggling hands feel on you too. imagine the many touches he could leave with his mouth alone. or ur just scared to admit it and its okay. its okay you refuse to look closely at the chisel denting his torso. at the off guard pretty glances or the hair akin to a dead raccoon’s tail. maybe his luscious lashes fr turn you off or the pathetic way he giggles. its okay. his home isn’t much either, but its honest work if you kick away the rat bones to the other side, then its okay. he won’t be able to defend you either, but if you’re strong enough to be near him that’s okay!

see its okay 😌🧘‍♀️ you’re safe now. put down your pitchfork.

#[ just in—☆ ] #mahito #im here if you want to talk #this blog is now a safehaven for the m*hito fuckers🩵 #he can expand my domain anytime idc #after a bath of course!! #cant have the girlies thinkin i fuck dirties 🙄 #ill wear his kids #i mean his merch ill wear his merch everywhere #and put up cute little signs like: have you seen my disfigured rat :(( plz call. dont on weekdays #its okay TOTO I GOTCHU #lmao plz dont take this srs i was pissing myself writing this #if i cant go hard for the hated what kinda fan am i really djdhdhdhdh *a normal one don. a normal one*

[lulu-the-bugaboo]

I haven't reached the chapters with the Roger Pirates' backstory + Buggy talking about his relationship with Shanks yet, but I've gotten little spoilers here and there and I have some thoughts. This could be very obvious but I just connected the two dots lol.

It seems to be implied that Roger favored Shanks at least slightly more than Buggy and it didn't go unnoticed by him. Like, the fact that Shanks was the one holding the hat already says a lot. It seems like Roger had a lot of expectations for Shanks and his future. And this is also why Buggy was so disappointed in Shanks even temporarily abandoning his main ambitions and why he chose to not continue piracy alongside him. Anyway, that's not the main thing that I want to talk about.

There is this panel of someone asking Roger who he thinks is going to find the one piece to which he answers something like: my son, of course! And the other person mentions that he has no son.

I personally took this at face value and thought this was referring to Ace, and Roger's plan to have a son before dying who would follow his legacy and find his treasure and would also be someone who would be carrying the will of D. But maybe the whole thing with Rouge was a coincidence that happened after Roger disbanded his crew and left. Roger seemed to have loved babies, so maybe he just fell in love with Rouge and chose to have a child with for the sake of his own happiness before he died.

And here is something I noticed and it could be nothing or even a translation thing. But the few times that Roger mentions Ace he never refers to him as his son, but his child. He even chose two names and didn't seem to be favoring one outcome.

Basically, what I'm trying to say is, what if this was never referring to Ace and was always about Shanks. Roger basically raised him and Buggy as his sons since they were babies...

If Buggy ends up being the first one who reaches the one piece, this will also end up being ironic.

Am I reaching or was I an idiot for thinking the other way around before asdfghj

#one piece #roger pirates #buggy the clown #red haired shanks #wano spoilers #egghead spoilers #gol d. roger #lulu rambles #portgas d ace #kinda? #the brainrot suddenly got out of hand #I had to get this out even if my information is incomplete and possibly inaccurate #don't hate me ahshshsh #i dont wanna fully spoil myself because I'm not that far from wano #I guess wb did mention that Roger expected a d to find the op tho #but maybe it's not directly related ro blood but to carrying the will? #dunno #Shanks can be a d by association lol #also not saying that I think Shanks will dind the op #but that Roger is the one who thought like that

[protagonist-art]

camp camp in 2022 becuz we never got enough mom!gwen art of her and spacekid, and i am still thinking ab it

#been thinkin ab them lately #space kid is so attached 2 her why did like almost every1 ignore dis #if any freaks reblog this i will get you . hate 2 clarify this but i still dont trust this fandom #LOVE U GUYS THAT ARENT FREAKS <33 #camp camp #mom!gwen #mom gwen #typing mom is normal now this is weird i am english ... wtf #betraying myself #gwen #space kid #neil jr #cc #art #sketchy rendering is my passion now it is so low presh and fast now that i kinda kno what im doing !!!

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[radiopixelctive]

so,

i tried to repeat some artstyles of cool and awesome people

and i think it's not that bad probably

i won't tag owners of these styles because there's no point in doing so anyways.

dont check the tags if you dont like silly minors overreacting and hating themselves publicly and etc

#i suck even at copying bruh #Pierrot mozzarella #pizza tower spice'd #shitpost #yeah i know this is embarrassing but i kinda dont care anymore #if i want a badass fanart in a badass artstyle then i'll draw it myself #It's better than forcing people to do it - right? #sigh #yeah i hate myself and what are you gonna do with this hmhmhm??? #yeah thats right - nothing! #btw if you think i “attempted to steal” these artstyles then go on and tell me to kms #i dont mind #radio youre such a dummy to think someone will read it and care #nobody will #so whats the point of writing all this? #youre so stupid radio #so naive and dumb #useless and pointless #you know everything is a lie #your life #their comfort #its nothing #just like you. #you will never find your happiness #you dont deserve it #you dont deserve to be happy radio #...i probably will delete these tags later idk #sorry for all this mess...

[ilovethebittertaste]

something about the beginning of the month makes me so fucking depressed

#why am i like this #why do i do this to myself #i hate it here #i hate this #mentally unstable #tw self destructive behavior #tw depressing thoughts #tw self destruction #tw depressing stuff #depressing quotes #sorry for being depressing #kinda depressing #depressing shit #self destruction #dont come for me #let me be happy #i hate my brain #i have a problem

[gunstellations]

in dangerous waters

#chiluc #diluc #childe #my art #listen...believe me....i started this the day dilucs skin was revealed....its been weeks.....i was genuinely so discouraged because #i finished blocking this in and #my idea was ok diluc new skin looks kinda fatui-ey so im gonna draw him infiltrating a fatui esque place and childe shows up but #boy i wish i had a more shneznayan outfit for him and a ref for a place like that bur oh well huh #so i finish sketching it and am halfway thru coloring the damn thing when #they release the harbinger pv #and im kicking myself its what i was wanting the whole time but now id have to redo him all over and id given up on the bg already #i knew i hated the bastard for good reason nothing good comes from him #fuck you childe #(slighlty affectionate??) im warming up to him i think #anyways. enjoy #my genshin doesnt seem to do well here on tumblr weirdly #also funny story i dont even go out of my way to ship chluc until i started rendering this and i was like??👀 hol up they mifht be onto sth

[scaredgirlhorny]

I'd be hornyfriends with you! It'd be so fun to come over to your place while you're playing games and crawl under your desk to see if I can take you from Easy to Hard~

Good friends are each other's bitches, you're so right.

-💌

-2 points for the game pun but bad jokes also make you sexier so get under there i need to p rank ultrakill on violent difficulty and ill need some way to vent my frustration

#ask #hfkshdjsjjd hiiii sorry if the response is too much i mainly just thought it was funny >w< #but yippee ^u^ #if the world was a nice place i woukd dox myself but sadly There Is Evil 😔😔 #and having someone under my desk while i game would be 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 #ive mainly thought about being under the desk so this is kinda new but i def dont hate it <w<

[imsodunwiththis]

when it says TW and reading it anyway knowing you’ll get triggered

#triggering content #tw self h4rm #tw su1c1d3 #i wanna kms #shblr #tw sucidal ideation #self mutalition #tw self loathing #dont report just block #styrotwt #block don’t report #tw selfhate #hate myself #sad thoughts #depressing post #depressing shit #deppresion #kinda depressing #deppressed #this is depressing #tw #sh trigger warning #trigger warnings

[northern-passage]

You don't have to respond to this if you don't want to, I know it will start unneeded drama but I just found it soooo interesting that, since the transphobic blog lets you see their likes, most of their likes are TWC related. And it's not like that fandom is notorious for being a toxic hellspace, no sir.

to be frank it's not just twc, the IF space as a whole is pretty notorious for being toxic at this point. whether you're on tumblr or reddit or the forums, you're going to find these kinds of people lurking around.

that was why i did post that person's username because i could see them interacting with various other authors, and it's best to just block them before they send you something stupid, too.

just like any large online community there are going to be a lot of trolls trying to get attention by sending inflammatory messages or leaving cruel comments wherever they can; i've been getting that kind of stuff sent to me or left in reviews or comments for years now. and currently losers online are having a fucking field day with everything that's going on right now - racism, islamophobia, antisemitism, transphobia, even gore, i've gotten it all in my inbox over the last few months and i've seen others get even worse. these people are pathetic and not worth your time. i've gotten better at not responding to stuff like that, but it is hard to resist that instinctive anger, and that's exactly why they do it & exactly why you see it in every single fandom/online space.

all of that to say, just ignore and block them and you'll have a far better time online than if you constantly try to argue or reason with them because they don't care, their only goal is to make you miserable. even if you think you have some epic clapback, it's not worth it, you're still giving them the attention they clearly desperately want and potentially exposing others to harmful rhetoric. just block 'em, babey!

#it's also why i didn't bother actually responding to that person's message cus there was no reason to share it #just for them to get some weirdo satisfaction from it #i really try to only respond if i feel like it's something i can properly address in a meaningful way #but you can tell when asks are just meant to upset you and you should just block and delete those #and i dont care about twc but i dont think its helpful to blame one single group here #when overall the fandom space within IF and elsewhere is always kinda rancid #i cannot stress enough to just block people. i've gotten way more liberal about it over the years #there's no reason for you to have to interact with every single person just cus you're in the same space #even as an author #extracting myself from certain circles has helped me way more than trying to appease an audience that hates me #anyways it's been upsetting this past few months to see the depravity of some people that are just reveling in all of this #that's why i kinda wanted to respond to this. it's bleak out here but you'll always have the block button and the knowledge #that despite it all you aren't someone who wasted their time harassing random strangers on the internet! #ask #anonymous