#kinda just want to go cry myself to sleep

[theworstcreature]

That Loki episode got me feeling not ok (tm)

MAJOR MAJOR LOKI SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT

OOOHHHHH MY GOD I MA SHAKINF ACTUALLY GOING TO CRY HOLY SHIT

MY GIRLIE GOT TURNED INTO SPAGETTI OH MY GOD AND WE ARE SO DOOMED I NEED RHE NEXT EPISODE RIGHT FUCKING NOW JOW WILL THE BABYGIRLS SURVICE?!?????? IM ACTUALLY UNWELL OH MY GOD TIMELY WAS SO ADORABLE HE WAS SUCH A LITTLE GIY THEY KILLED HIM THEH KILLED MY FUCKING BABYTHIS IS A NATUOMAL DUCKING TRAGEDY

OH MY GOD JUST EVERUTHINT ABOUT THIS EPISODE IS LEAVING ME IN SHAMBLES

ALSO LOKI PRUNED HIMSELF OH MY LORDY LORD

ALSO MAGIC FINALLY IN THE TVA!1!!1!1!!!1!!1 MY SPECIAL LITTLE GUY CAN USE HIS COOL AS HELL MAGIC OH MY GOD

BUT STILL OH MY FUCKING GOD THE EXPLOSION JN THE END HOLY FUCK I WAS LEGIT SILENT DURING THISE CREDITS WHAT A FUCKING ENDING AIJXJWBEJ

SYLVIE IN THIS EPISODE WAS SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THEY FINALLT MADE HER BETTER IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS SINCE THE DAY I WAS BORNR

#HE JUST WANTED HIS COCOA #WHAT RHE FUCK WRITERS #crying myself to sleep over this show #Loki #Loki tv series #Loki spoilers #OH MY FUCKING GOD #can you guys tell this episode made me cry? #maybe kinda sorta going insane over this <3 #This show shot me then proceeded to beat me to death #IM SORRY BUT I THOUGHT OB AND TIMELY WERE GONNA BE NEW BESTIES #BUT THEN HE TURNS INTO NOODLES???????? #all I have to say is what the FUCK

[justablah56]

damn I miss playing wolves in my friend's back yard .... rb to play wolves with your mutuals in their back yard<3

#just blahs #i dont really think this needs any other tags sbhsjsjs #but i am going to kinda vent in the tags still feel free to rb this tho :] #i miss my friend tbh #she was my best and only real friend for like 3 years and then she moved away and now we only talk 2-3 times a year #and i dont.... know how to change that #i just want my best friend back #but i dont want to seem clingly because what if shes moved on ? #what if shes gone and shes doing just fine where she is now and she doesn't miss me like i miss her #what if shes perfectly content with me just being someone that she talks to a few times a year #meanwhile i have nights that i literally cry myself to sleep because i cant just go see her #she doesnt know that i want so badly to turn 18 just so that i can move to the same state and maybe live near enough that i could see her #and i dont think i can tell her that because what if she doesn't care that much. #what if im being ridiculous and i should be over our friendship that should have ended the moment she moved years ago #that i should have just moved on and it's weird that i haven't #anyways sorry for the vent in the tags of my silly goofy post #mutuals come play wolves with me in my backyard <3

[scattered-winter]

horrifying self recognition through the other aside this has been an actually not terrible start to The Family Gathering tbh

#my cousin who i havent really seen in a while came up to me and asked abt my pronouns because i came out to the fam a while ago #and he didnt really remember what id said (which. fair. its a big family w lots of things to remember) #and so he asked what my pronouns were and i told him and he promised that if he ever messed up i needed to make him #do like 5 or 10 pushups lmao #and ngl. its the sweetest thing anyone in this family has ever said to me abt that #everyone else has kinda just. moved on. and either forgotten that im not a girl or purposefully ignoring it. #and idk maybe i should stand up for myself a little more but ive been practically a doormat all my life #and idk. its hard using my voice and establishing boundaries when ive let ppl bulldoze over me for almost 20 years. #sigh. anyway. #im gonna be thinking about that all day tbh it was genuinely so sweet #and i am also being consumed by The Loneliness again <3 #just. i want someone to just talk to about all this??? someone who isnt in my family because they all have stakes in it too????? #we're all grieving. i aint special. #i just want to talk to someone about it in person so they can hold my hand while i cry myself to sleep because ngl #thats what it looks like we're doing tonight #im just. tired of feeling alone in this enormous family where it seems like im the only odd man out #and also ykw the Not Having Any Irl Friends loneliness too. thats also pretty significant. #not saying my internet friends arent great i love yall so so so much but it has just been . #a really really long time since ive had a good cry n hug session w someone. #sigh. im tired i need to go to bed #winter speaks #personal

[catastrxblues]

good morning it is now 4 am and i have just finished watching atonement good night

#atonement #next tags are just going to be personal rants ignore that #i couldn’t sleep at all so i tried reading s&b and then fanfics and then the bell jar but it just didn’t hit #so then i tried writing but i just kept crying so i thought i’d watch a romance movie because yes #should’ve gone for four weddings and a funeral or pride and prejudice because what the hell is this #i didn’t know anything about this movie i just remember having it on my watchlist and saw ONE clip so i picked that help #and yes i ended up crying and the tears are still here but i’m also starting to think that that’s not entirely because of the movie at all #i stripped my bed off its sheets because the bright color annoyed me and it was already peeling off anyway and i was too lazy to put it rig #and when i pulled back from the screen after the movie finished and just look at how bare my bed is and how i’m in the middle of them #i just started crying again #and my legs are aching and i hate myself and i think i want to take a shower but maybe i’ll wait later on #i don’t think i’ll sleep at all honestly i’m not sleepy anymore #besides i’m thinking of going outside today just at the park i don’t know doing something #i always sleep really really late lately because my parents are out of country right now and no one is keeping me checked and i apparently #still can’t take care of myself. cried about that too it was something. why am the eldest daughter i’m so not fit for it #and then i always wake up at like 9 am and it’s already too late by then that i just never do anything productive #and it’s like i’ve been living in a simulation and i’m kinda going crazy and insane but it’s okay because today is going to be better #i hope because i’m not getting any sleep and i can finally go outside at 7 in the morning instead when it’s already way too hot #damn this is supposed to be one of the best years of my life??????? fuck off #also i can hear the azan subuh from the mosque by the neighborhood and i miss praying honestly #it’s so funny because i was happy to get my period because that meant i wouldn’t have to wake up so very early on in the morning #but i miss it now #hopefully my period will end soon #nadirants

[born-to-lose]

Missing people and regretting shit o'clock

#why did i even let it come this far. 7 fucking months and i didn't realize what was going wrong so i could have saved it #i want him back fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck #was thinking of this notebook i filled for him with memories and poetry and quotes and general mushy things and goddamn #why am i crying i just looked at my desk and i don't have the heart to put everything in a box so i don't see it every day when i wake up #i know i can't change it and it's probably over for good now after i fucked some things up extra hard but fuck do i miss him #i wish i could have done something in time before even the thought of breaking up came up #just when i thought for once things are working out for me and it was really fucking good and happy until a week before it ended #guess i just can't be happy. i never could #i was really really willing to talk things out and fix whatever needs to be fixed while staying together #not go separate ways and maybe not so maybe definitely not possibly maybe see if we can try again in the future #which we (spoiler) apparently won't and i kinda came to terms with that but i still wish there was a possibility #or at least i would have liked to know from the beginning and not spend weeks hoping for a reunion and working towards that specifically #while i seem to be the only one with that goal #idk i just wish it had been more thought through and talked about properly so there wouldn't be the misunderstandings we deal with now #and like boundaries for the first two months or so after that but it takes two i guess #disclaimer i'm not bitter or mad at anyone just sad and nostalgic. if the person in question reads this i love you ok that won't change #deleting later but now i need to go back to sleep before i kill myself on a whim #mel talks #depressed bitch posting #i know i know i know i did some shit too that wasn't great and i'm not saying i'm innocent here i'm just so depressed about the situation #it's been seven goddamn weeks it never took me this long to get over anything before

[pussy-ache]

queen of cancelling birthday plans

#like i'd rather just sleep and cry today ..... thanks though #i hate my birthday. i hate being celebrated i hate being reminded i’m here and that people expect me to keep being here #i tend to kinda snap around this time which explains the past couple days #i never let anyone actually spend time with me on my birthday. i’m usually crying a lot and i’d rather not let people see that #i want to disappear on my birthday and i usually tend to do just that #part of me wonders if theres a connection to BPD #but i’m kinda afraid to google that and find out yet another thing about having a personality disorder that fucking sucks 🤪 #cuz the more i read about it the more i realizs that my depression is probably a symptom of the BPD itself and not actually separate #and because the depression is not its own thing but rather part of my personality disorder it’ll never go away #and that in itself is super depressing 😂 #anyway i think hustle buttering myself up might make me feel better

[doli-nemae]

CONGRATULATIONS WITH A DAY WHEN I HAVE NO CONCENTRATION WHATSOEVER.

AGAIN.

#ramblings #my concentration has died the day I was born I suppose #just literally can`t get back to work I ALWAYS get distracted #and like yeah it used to happen a lot before but I kinda #dealt with it?? #and now my solutions are just not enough I guess even if I`ll turn off everything for except photoshop and skype #I`ll still get distracted by I dunno A WALL #I asked for a vacation month without payment and it will start in may #and I feel guilty because of that because damn #I am ABLE to work and get STABLE GOOD PAYMENT while others in Ukraine ARE NOT #and yet I ask for a fecking vacation month because My MeNTaL StAtE Is ShIt #yeah go on Daryna whine about your mental state in cozy room in Sweden while people in Mariupol are literally starving to death #yeah as you see I love to yell at myself ahahaha #I just want to sleep and cry and sleep whole day with breaks on maybe drawing and looking at news

[heartbreakfeelsogood]

#i do not want to work tomorrow i want to lay in bed and be sad #i’m really realizing how miserable of a person i am i am always fucking Sad and when i do feel happy i cry when it’s over #and i can’t even resemble a human being without medication and i know that’s fine but i’m still always sad. it doesn’t go away #i feel like nobody deserves to have me weighing them down like i’ve cried in front of people three times this week and i know it’s fine #but i feel so fucking guilty about it and i feel guilty about everything i feel like i’m doing nothing right and i’m not dealing with thing #right and i’m not living right and i feel like it must be so fucking difficult to love me and i don’t know how people do it #i don’t even feel capable of asking for. any sort of love ever #i feel like i don’t deserve like anything. i feel like nobody actually wants to do things for me lol #every single dsy i’m like wow i want to be held and every single dsy i feel bad even asking for a hug from someone #when i need reassurance i’m afraid to ask because what if i’m just being annoying and overbearing and too much Bad #i never feel like too much good. only bad. #i know a lot of these shitty thoughts are just because i’ve been unmedicated (meds will be ready tomorrow lol) but it just like #it sucks to know medication just kinda hides these thoughts better and that deep down i feel like this because i don’t want to #i feel like everyone in my life doesn’t deserve someone who doubts everything all the time #i think my mother deserved a stronger daughter and i think my friends deserve someone that’s not always breaking and i just don’t feel Good #i don’t know why anyone keeps me around #sometimes i feel selfish for sticking around and that sounds so awful and i’m not gonna act on it but i just feel like a waste of a person #the last week has been so good and now i’m just a fucking mess and i feel so fucking guilty about that :) #i feel like no matter what i always just default to miserable #i don’t feel like i’m doing enough at all #i’m struggling in school i don’t work enough i can barely take care of myself #like i wouldn’t even properly take care of myself if taylor wasn’t helping me i feel so guilty about that all the time #i feel so guilty for even thinking any of this right now and i’m trying to remind myself that i’m unmedicated and i’ve had a long day #and my best fucking friend just went back home and i’m allowed to be sad about that but i just. feel like i’m making excuses i guess #it’s not immoral to be sad but maybe when i’m wanting to die all the time i’m the problem. idk #anyway i’m gonna go to sleep and i’m gonna try to convince myself tomorrow will be better #sndnsksjkakejdkalwosjhdkwosjdjsk. i will be fine

[lovecrazedpup]

i tried to be discreet with crying lol

#didnt work and its made me cry more #bc i know he thinks im doing it to be manipulative or to get back at him #i dont know how to say im not #im scared like im so scared #i want to cut to feel better but he would get upset if he found out but hes trying to sleep #he says i should talk to him first before i hurt myself but he needs to wake up in like 4 hours #and i dont want him to get even more upset bc i cant handle anything negative #i feel like everything i do is just wrong #if i cut then hes sad . if i wake him up so i dont cut then id still feel bad bc he needs sleep . if i dont cut in general i feel like shit #i dont even want to sleep i honestly just kinda deserve to sit awake and stare at a wall #might just stay awake til 3am and say goodbye to him #not sleeping to torture myself with my brain repeating ‘hes going to leave you’ is good enough self harm for me lol #jamie.txt

[fakeoutbf]

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#i just wanted to go home after work so bad #instead i had to sit in a waiting room for an hour with this weird headache from all the stress of the day #and then i have to shower and still like make myself dinner #and then like i don’t even feel like eating anything i want like something kinda healthy and filling but it’s so late and i’m so tired #and now i’m crying bc i still have a shit ton of things to do and i just #like the appointment was so fucking unnecessary it could’ve happened next week but no we had to wait a whole fucking hour #i just wanna shower and go to sleep but also i can’t bc my hair will get all fucked up #does someone wanna come cook me dinner?? i’m crying at this point #i’m so tired #anxiety tw #idk i’m just babbling

[cupcakesmoothie]

I know it's stupid or whatever because talking about your problems is important and all that but I wonder if my brother has realised I don't talk to him about my problems anymore

#I mean I still talk to him #I still talk to him about my interests and say really emo shit but we don't have long talks in the car anymore #I kinda wonder if he'll ever notice y'know #Cause he's moved out and we just don't talk much anymore and I'm out of school so #There's no need to give me lectures about how I need to get my life together anymore #But well. My life is still as apart as before. I think some small part of me expected things to suddenly get better #Like the moment I get out of school I'll be free. I'll have less to worry about #But all that's happened so far is I am without anything to do. Without a purpose. #I want to say that I put so much into it that now that I'm out I have nothing but I didn't DO anything in school #I didn't DO anything. I barely put in effort. I'm probably just going to fail and I'll have even LESS to do #sweetmountainseeds #I want to talk to him you know. I want to have someone to talk to about my problems again. But I promised myself I wouldn't anymore #Because the reason I stopped is because he just isn't the person I want to talk to. I don't know if he ever was. #It's so stupid and selfish but I just want someone to tell me it's not my fault and it's okay and not just. #Give me advice and tell me what I should be doing and that it's only a problem if I make it one #I just want someone to agree with me I think #I have someone else to talk to but she says things I don't want to hear somethings and she's right but I don't like it because I'm stubborn #I did really appreciate it when she told me I was working very hard for my test though I felt so seen #I mean I wasn't working hard at all I could've done so much more but it felt so nice to be told that I was doing good #Fuck I keep telling myself to sleep but I guess it's cry time tonight #cupcakeycrisis

[lightningfilledsaber]

Tagging it w/ but also forewarning I'm talking abt pet death again. It's midnight so technically not today but whatever. Had to fucking take my mother's puppy to be cremated today. Would rather have crawled into a hole and died myself lol. Useless fucking vets basically forced me to see the body despite super not wanting to do that. Fuck my life!

#mud rambles #pet death #pet death mention #it was a miscommunication on the nurses fault. i had told one i would rather not see the body #and the other nurse talking to me then later brought me into the room they had her in with the box she was in wide fucking open #AND the blanket she was wrapped in pulled aside #LOL THANK YOU SO FUCKING MUCH FOR THAT #already had to be rushing to get the poor fucking thing there in time #specifically did not want to see her body bc i cant handle that shit so when i picked her up for my mom i kept the fucking box closed #did not have a single minute to spare to process this shit because i was on a very tight schedule #and then that happened #on top of that there were several people in the reception area and it was very loud/hectic and only one nurse had a mask on! #so i was already desperately trying to stay calm while im overstimulated by all the fucking noise and then both nurses r talking to me!!! #at the same fucking time!!! #then they brought me back and did that. i at LEAST got a moment to myself but being alone with the body just. there. was also kinda worse #like plus was im no longer crying in front of strangers minus is now im sobbing next to a dead puppy #thanks so much dickheads #and obviously i was alone. bc i was doing this 4 my mom cause she was at work. and my partner had to SLEEP for work later #fuck today. fuck everything #im so fucking exhausted with EVERYTHING ELSE going on in my life rn this was. so fucking not helpful #i want to sleep for three days. i wish my partner wasnt working #just wanna crawl into a ball and stop existing. i need physical contact. i need to be held. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck #i was gonna be okay as long as i didnt have to see the dead fucking puppy myself but lol of course i was essentially fucking forced to #accident or oversight or not idfc i cant. fucking take this shit. #fuck i should probably also tag #suicidal ideation tw #just in case #as always ask to tag

[elphantasmo]

.

#might be quiet #i feel like shit because i was looking forward to this concert and now i can't fucking go #my dad still hasn't remembered #just kinda want to curl up and cry myself to sleep

[v0relino]

why am i so subby today,,, i mean i usually am but MORE THAN USUAL????? subspace makes me so fucking sad lol

#what is Happening to me #i haven't felt this bratty in FOREVER #idk if im complaining or not bc it kinda reminds me how romantically lonely i am lol #but it's also kinda fun lol #no one ever sees these posts so i can basically say whatever i want lmao #i want someone to take care of me #and scold me when i don't take care of myself properly #and tell me how good im being when i actually try :( #really i just wanna be loved lol please even if it's just platonic #or for like five minutes please i just wanna experience it :') #subspace always makes me feel sad like this #now i just wanna cry instead of going to sleep #even though im so exhausted :(

[astrronomemes]

HURT / COMFORT : STARTERS

a collection of quotes, phrases, and sayings for when your muse needs a little TLC. change & alter as needed.

THE HURT:

“Nah, it’s not that bad. I’ve had worse.”

“I don’t think I can walk that far... or at all.”

“I’m fine. I don’t need your help.”

“Will you stay with me? Just until I fall asleep?”

“I’m sorry, I’m just—I’m just really tired.”

“I don’t need a break. I’m okay.”

“It was my fault. It was all my fault.”

“I think I need help.”

“So, I don’t think I’m dying, or anything, and it’s probably not that serious, but... I’m kinda bleeding. A lot.”

“Is the room spinning right now, or is that just me?”

“No, I’m okay, I just... I hit my head. Really hard. I’ll be okay, just give me a second.”

“I’m not sick! I’m fine!”

“No, I don’t think any of my bones are broken, or anything like that. Just bad bruises.”

“Yeah, but you should see the other guy.”

“I’m fine. This just happens sometimes. It’s normal for me.”

“I’ve got a headache.”

“Seriously, though, I’m fine! Stop making such a big deal out of it!”

“I’ve been taking care of myself for a long time. I don’t need your help, and I definitely don’t need your pity. Fuck off.”

“Please tell me I don’t look as bad as I feel.”

“I think I’m running a fever.”

“So, what’s the prognosis, Doc? Am I gonna live?”

“Stop fussing over me! I’m not a baby!”

“Can I stay with you tonight? I just... really don’t want to be alone right now.”

“No, I-I’m okay. It was just a nightmare. Go back to sleep.”

“I... can’t actually remember the last time I had something to eat.”

“You shouldn’t be here. You’ll get sick, too.”

THE COMFORT:

“Honey, have you been crying? What is it? What’s wrong?”

“I think you’d better take a break.”

“It’s not your fault, sweetheart. You did everything you could.”

“You don’t have to go through this alone. I’m right here for you if you’ll just let me in.”

“There’s nothing wrong with you. There is absolutely nothing wrong with you. Don’t ever let yourself believe that there is.”

“You really don’t realize just how many people love you, do you?”

“If you’re not going to take care of yourself, at least let me do it for you!”

“I’m sorry. I know it hurts.”

“You’re not alone, baby. You never have been.”

“Let’s get you some food.”

“You’re dead on your feet, poor thing. Come on, you need some sleep.”

“Stay where you are. I’m coming to get you.”

“Tell me where it hurts.”

“How many times have I told you to be more careful?!”

“It’s okay. It’s okay. I’m right here, okay? I’m not gonna leave you. I’m never gonna leave you.”

“Oh, honey, you’re safe now. I promise. I’m not going to let anything happen to you.”

“Go ahead and take a shower. I’ll fix you something to eat.”

“What happened to you, baby?”

“I’ll kill that bastard. I’ll kill him for what he did to you.”

“You look like shit, man.”

“Whoa, whoa, take it easy! You got pretty banged up back there, and you don’t want to go making yourself worse.”

“I’m not trying to baby you. It’s called taking care of my friends.”

“Sweetheart, you’re burning up! Why didn’t you say anything? Why didn’t you tell anyone you were sick?”

#rp meme #roleplay meme #rp starters #roleplay starters #dialogue prompts #rp memes #roleplay memes #rp prompts #sentence prompts #sentence memes #sentence starters

[formulafics]

★ THE WINNER TAKES ALL 2 | LN4

Scenario: lando norris just wants people to realize that he and his teammate are dating. what better thing to do than kiss her on live television after winning a race?

Pairing: lando norris x fem!reader (mclaren driver)

A/N: she’s kinda hot is my favorite fic…but this one might have just taken the cake. giggled and kicked my feet the whole time i made this one, guys.

PART ONE

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landonorris

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landonorris at last, my maiden win. the best gift for 100 races. thank you to my team, my fans, and especially my girlfriend, @/ynln_mclaren. i truly couldn’t have done it without her 🧡

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ynln_mclaren i love you so very much lando, and i’m so happy for you. you deserve this and so much more, my love.

⤷ landonorris i love you. thank you.

⤷ formulanorris im just gonna cry myself to sleep brb

mclaren YES, LANDO. amazing performance this weekend!

danielricciardo man, congrats on that win…and your first kiss!

⤷ landonorris awe mate how kind of you 🖕🏻

⤷ rizzciardo i keep up with landos posts not because of lando, but because of daniels comments

norrisnation I SOBBED WATCHING THIS. LETS GO LANDO!!!!

formulafernando is no one going to mention the kiss

⤷ landoland I KNOW my jaw dropped to the fucking floor. i was expecting a hug not THAT

maxfewtrell idk i think they’re just friends…

⤷ ynln_mclaren fuck off

⤷ maxfewtrell using lando’s terminology i see

⤷ landonorris fuck off

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lando.jpg celebrating the weekend with MY GIRLFRIEND…and some other pretty cool people.

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ynln_mclaren celebrating with MY BOYFRIEND. *pinned by landonorris*

mclaren fantastic weekend thanks to the both of you. keep up the good work and have fun 🧡👊🏻

formulanorris LMAO lando we know she’s your gf now it’s okay 😭

⤷ rizzciardo he was FED UP LMAO

maxfewtrell keep the coupley posts to a minimum?

⤷ ynln_mclaren no 🤗

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