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aparecium-muses · 4 years

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Romance Headcanons.

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Name: Gladion Spica Aether

Nickname: Stoneface, Quickdraw, Slimy snake, a badger in snakeskin ( due to his Hufflepuff tendencies )

Gender: Male

Romantic orientation: Bisexual

Preferred pet names: Truthfully if Gladion is going to get a nickname he’d rather get one that means something to the relationship he has with the person and not something random. He’d want it to have a meaning, for example, if Gladion was in a relationship with Neville he’d call him buttercup because of Neville interest in plants

Relationship status: Single in default verses

Favorite canon ship(s): I m e a n there’s really no canon ships over here due to Gladion being a crossover in harry potter soooo ?? // tbh I can see him with a bunch of different people within the story though I adore the ship that I have with @doggedfather in the marauders verse I have for him. Her Sirius was the first-ever person that was with Gladion in a shippy like manner and that ship will always have a special place in my heart. <3

Favorite non-canon ship(s) so far: excuse me as I sit over in my paper ship boat with Neville/Gladion... Also Susan Bones and Gladion idk I like that- RON AND GLADION FROM @broodingswan first-ever Ron I ever interacted with and that was just *chefs kiss* beautiful- @foxturned THEO AND GLADION AAAAA- tho we mostly just talked about the ship in private messages but my ass still write a smut fic for them... now I'm just rambling about all the ships I like whooops

Opinion on true love: Is skeptical and has a hard time accepting that a person could ever love him for himself and not for his connection/ riches. He’s extremely wary of people who vide for his affections and more than not will attempt at pushing them away. Depending on the age that he’s at when this is happening there will be various levels of success.

Opinion on love at first sight: in his own words… “Complete and utter hippogriff shit,” He thinks it’s ridiculous and is more likely to believe it was lust at first sight then love. He believes a relationship has to grow from friendship to something more to be true love as what can a relationship be if you’re not friends with the person?

How ‘Romantic’ are they?: Depends on the day and where they’re at- He’s more likely to be overly romantic in private than in public though. He’s not one to do large gestures of his love as he thinks it’s too flashy and hates having people sticking their noses into his love life. His love life is a private affair, though he will do more public things to prove a point to others if they are trying to flirt with his significant other while he’s standing right there.

Ideal physical traits: Truthfully he’s able to see the beauty in everyone and even in things that others might see as ugly or unsightly. He has a like for scars freckles and stretch marks, he’ll make it a habit to press kisses to them. He adores soft hair and has the tendency to comb his fingers through his lover’s hair. He’s very reverent of it all, of what people call imperfections he adores them. It stems from the fact his mother always tried for perfection and true beauty which is what causes him to be attracted to people who others would call average, ugly, or not the pinnacle of beauty.

Female: He likes brown hair on women for some reason; any shade really he thinks it looks nice. It’s likely that he’ll find himself with a woman who is family-oriented and nurturing. A woman who is equal footing with him in magic (or more powerful than him) as he wants to be safe in the knowledge that his partner can protect herself without him there. He’s more likely to find himself with a woman who is more dominant then he is at times as he grows tired of having to take the lead in things.

Male: he likes Green or Brown eyes along with blond or black hair. He’d go for a man who is loyal to those he sees as family or friends and is protective of them; along with being family-oriented/ nurturing. He’d choose someone who is of equal footing with him in magic (or more powerful than him) as he wants to be safe in the knowledge that his partner can protect himself without him there. He’s more likely to find himself with a male partner with a dominant streak.

Ideal personality traits: Loyalty is the trait he respects the most along with a person who understands who to give that loyalty too. He loves passionate and ambitious people who he can talk with about their ambitions. He’s also attracted to people with dry humor and a boatload of sarcastic remarks in their pockets who he can vocally spar with. Not that these traits are necessarily needed in a relationship but he wants them to have some passion.

Unattractive physical traits: Nothing much except people who are unkempt and don’t bath as much as they should.

Unattractive personality traits: weak of will, overly arrogant ( only time arrogance is acceptable is when they are using it in an ironically joking way or to goat someone ) know it all personalities ( yes, yes little Gladion would have a huge beef with mini Granger let me tell you but I still ship it with @therearemoreimportanthings )

Ideal date: Private places where it’s just him and his date. Be It in the library, in secret rooms within the castle, out in a less populated place in Hogsmeade or even outside in the forest. He wants to have deep conversations with his date, speaking on anything and everything- sometimes likes to do debates or just listen to them speak about their passion

Do they have a type?: Loyal, family-oriented, passionate, and ambitious- that’s all folks!

Average relationship length: Is very likely to try to hold on to a relationship until the end. Will only let go if he’s aware of the emotional decay and wouldn’t want his partner to leave on bitter terms. When breaking up with a partner I feel like more times then not both parties are able to be friendly with each other after some time apart.

Any secrets that have been told Gladion will keep to the grave even if they break up and Gladion expects the same from his partner. If his secrets are revealed or his partner cheated on him then sorry buddy your own secrets will be put on blast so everyone and their mothers in France would hear about it....

Preferred non-sexual intimacy: He’s a pretty handsy guy once his partner gives the okay for it. More likely than not in public he’ll always have a hand on them wherever they go,( Hand holding, hand on their back, an arm around their waist etc. ) In private he’s a bit of a tease with his touches ( they’re feathery light and prone to make a person shiver ) and has a tendency to whisper sweet nothings into their ear as they snuggle.

Commitment level: Ride or die kinda man when he’s with a trustworthy partner. Loyal to a fault with eyes only for them, ( unless they both talked extensively with bringing another person in on their relationship ) He’s willing to do almost anything for them if they only ask him of it. Would kill a man no questions asked for their partner.

Opinion of public affection: If he’s the one doing the affectionate teasing he’ll be smug along with a tad prideful at his partner’s reactions. Now if the tables are turned he will be completely and utterly embarrassed by their actions. He’s the very epitome of unable to take what he dishes out. Will melt into a puddle if his partner starts bragging about him to other people ie “this is my boyfriend Gladion- he’s amazing!” etc someones got a praise kink whoop s

Past relationships?: None in the default verse. Really his default verse is quiet sad, he’s all alone and I feel so bad... Though a lot of my default verses I don’t give my character friends- partly because if I pick a canon character to be their friend I don’t want someone else who plays that character to feel pressured into being friends with my character. The same line of thought to the romantic side of things, which is why more then not they have never dated anyone else before.

Tagged by: stolen ayyyy

Tagging: Uhhhh tagging everyone that I mentioned in this post- YOLO

#Gladion Headcanon; Magic in my veins; sparks at my fingertips; i’ll use all my power to protect them ⛓️#// did I just use yolo serious? yes yes I did #tw long post #q

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rickyievoli · 5 years

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[ LORENZO ZURZOLO, 19, CIS MALE, HE/HIM ] welcome to the du pont institute for the young & gifted, [ RICCARDO ‘RICKY’ IEVOLI ]. you have been accepted as a [ REGULAR ] student from [ ITALY ], going into your [ SOPHOMORE YEAR ] and majoring in [ VISUAL ARTS ]. your peers at the institute say that you are [ EMPATHETIC & SPONTANEOUS ], but being [ MALLEABLE & ENIGMATIC ] may be the reason why the police are asking about you. did you think they wouldn’t find out that you were michael’s [ BEST FRIEND ]?

yo whaddup it me nikki again, bringing in another round of trash your way !! only wait, hold up, it’s all plastic — it’s recycling !! so uhhh he trash but if we all hold hands a pray maybe he’ll be okay you know ?? look i’m tired don’t judge me for any of what i just wrote thanks xoxo gossip girl.

bioish henlo <3

Riccardo Ievoli was born in the Tuscany region of Italy, right outside the city of Florence. The youngest of two boys, in typical fashion Riccardo was rather spoiled — though in a family of a net-worth of millions it wasn’t exactly a daunting task. His parents weren’t always rich, however with both have an eye for art. They created their own art curating business — accumulating art from aspiring artists, ones with immense potential, ones that they knew would make them and some local museums hella money. But of course, with the ups and downs of the economy it simply wasn’t enough, not if they wanted to keep the lifestyle they now so desperately clung to. So along with art, they also sold weapons, drugs, you name it, in disguise as art pieces — dealing to the shady and the high && mighty alike. It wasn’t exactly the safest of all businesses, but oh did it work for them.

For his childhood, this was all unbeknownst to him — enjoying all the money and art that constantly surrounded him. It didn’t take an expert eye to discern that Ricky also had a great talent ; some even dared to say PRODIGY. While his parents agreed, an education was high on their values, a small sense of normalcy in their world being another. They sent both boys off to the best schools, all over the country ; they wanted them to see every corner of the world. Ricky loved && hated it, for he never was the most outgoing so going to school in a new place every few years, sometimes only after a few months, was daunting.

When they were both old enough, his parents told them about their underlying business. His brother — the outspoken, popular, reckless one wanted to be a part of it instantly and dropped out. Riccardo on the other hand chose to continue with his various studies, his favorites of course being art. However, in a deal turned bad, his brother ended up passing away — Riccardo holding back his own grief to help his parents.

In turn, it’s what drew him to Michael, for he reminded him of his late brother. To finally settle in an area, to be part of a bro skwad™, it felt great — a distraction to the shitty world that he most of the time never liked too much to begin with (we love a salty, pessimistic boy bless). So while he may not always have agreed, it was easy to fall in with the crowd — to do stupid shit like agreeing to a bet to ask out some girl that he immediately judged upon first even meeting, shit like that && worse. However in lieu of Michael’s passing, it’s brought on a lot of previous grief he had yet to deal with, along with much more now ; but do we talk about that shit in healthy ways ?? absolutely not *finger guns*.

personality, amazing✌️

can seem rather shy and aloof upon first meeting him. he’s rather blunt and not the most expressive ; so he tends to look like he gives no fucks / is judging your ever choice in life at any given moment ... and he kinda actually is tbh, but there are cares to given in that heart of his bless

like is he joking when he called you a bitch or not ?? like no one knows wow

but once you get to know him he actually cares about some real shit, wants to help the world he claims to hate.

that secret heart of gold archetype, but ofc not many get to see it all too often

v malleable and prone to falling under peer pressure, even when he knows shit is stupid. wants to be liked and accepted but also like yOLO right ?? absolutely.

sad™ a lot, but still tries to make others feel gr9 <3

someone: do u wanna do stupid shit or stupider shit ? ricky: yes

wanted connections ?? bless up

and they were rOOMates, a muse ( catch me crying let him draw/paint you bitch ), exes ( some that ended badly and some that are still super close after ?? heyo ), friends with benefits, frenemies with benefits *fingerguns again*, party friends, unlikely friends, art peeps, lacrosse teammates / sports bros, and more probably that i can’t think of but shit we can think of together xoxo.

me: this intro will be shorter than last time also me: plAYED MYSELF AGAIN

#dupont.intro #( * it's recycling day !! ) — about.#death mention tw #its like 230a so i hope ?? this makes sense ?? bless u.

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thisdiscontentedwinter · 5 years

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Hey Disco, Grindr anon here.

Guess who’s not a virgin anymore? Me! That escalated quickly, right?

I don’t know what to feel about my first time.

So here’s my background: I’m in another country to study. I just started learning the language, basically I can’t speak the language at all.

So a few hours ago someone messaged me on Hornet, and he wanted to come over right now, we traded pics, he’s very good looking & has a good body. He’s only a year older than me. And yay he didn’t mind how I look. Usually, I don’t want to meet irl before we talk for a while. But this time, I was like, fuck it, let’s just get this over with. I told him I’m a virgin so I don’t know what to do, and he said it’s okay.

He arrived, he’s as good looking as he’s in pictures. We used Google translate app to communicate, and it’s kinda awkward.

And about the sex… I really don’t know what to feel about it.

Foreplay: He doesn’t want to kiss, which is such a boner killer because I really like kissing. The foreplay was so short, just some rubbing, he licked my nipples for like 10 seconds. I blew him, he has a really nice dick, bigger than mine. And then he asked whether he can fuck me or not, and I said no, because we both had no condom and I hadn’t shitted today, and luckily he’s totally cool with it.

Main menu: He told me to lie down because he wanted to finger me, and he asked for lube, which I don’t have. I do have aftershave (non-alcohol) so we used that, and I still don’t know whether my ass’s gonna be on fire or not tomorrow. He fingered me, and tbh I felt like I was going to shit, and then he pushed deeper, and kinda hit something inside, but I think it’s not prostate because it didn’t feel good. At all. Inside my mind, I panicked, what should I do/react, so I decided to fake moan, and then he asked me something which I didn’t understand, and I thought he asked “Are you okay?” so I answered in his language “It’s okay”. AND THEN HE LUBED HIS DICK. So I think he was asking “So do you want to try anal?”. I didn’t know how to say stop, and tbh I kinda felt pressured that I didn’t want to ruin the mood so I didn’t want to say no, and I was afraid because we had no condom, and also because shit on dick is not funny. But I was like, YOLO (I know this is bad, and I promise I won’t do it again, I feel really stupid).

He pushed inside, and weirdly, it didn’t feel painful at all, just uncomfortable, because I felt like I was going to shit on his dick. And then his dick hit something, and I swear to god it didn’t feel good at all, and if that’s my prostate, then I’m gonna be really sad because that means I will never be able to enjoy anal.

He was really nice, he kept asking me something every time I reacted (liked moaned, sighed, etc). After he came home I googled what he said and it turned out he asked whether I’m comfortable or not.

And when his dick hit that thing really hard, it started to become painful, and yet, I didn’t want to ruin the mood, so I kept biting my lips, pretending it was good and fake moaned, while I was dying inside, praying for this to be over soon. And I wasn’t hard at all during the penetration, fyi. The whole time I was thinking that this would be a lot better for me if I can kiss.

When he’s about to cum, he pulled out, went into the bathroom to clean his dick (THANK GOD THERE’S NO SHIT, MIRACULOUSLY), and then asked me to jerk him off. I really liked sucking dick so I sucked him instead, but I guess it wasn’t stimulating enough for him, so he grabbed my hand, and pulled it to his dick. And I didn’t mind because I liked doing it, but you know, if you jerk a dick fast for several minutes, your hand will get tired fast too. So I let go of his dick but his dick got flaccid really fast so I panicked and used my left hand, which was clumsy a f. I swear to god, sex was really stressful.

But in the end, he finally blew inside my mouth, and I swallowed. I apologized to him because I wasn’t good, he said I was really good. He was being very considerate, but it’s just unfortunate the language barrier & the fact I’m such a desperate person who can’t think think for the long term & a pushover. We said he wanted to go home, so we said goodbyes and that’s it.

And weirdly, I didn’t limp at all. Seriously my ass didn’t feel any pain. It’s like nothing ever happened. And I kinda felt shitty because I felt really stupid. But I didn’t feel that bad because it didn’t leave any long lasting pain haha.

0/10 will do it again.

And to Disco & Disco’s follower: how long should I wait before I can test for STDs? I think if I test tomorrow, it won’t be detectable, right?

Oh I forgot to say: I guess fanfic ruined me. When I read fanfics, it was like everything was pure bliss when that huge alpha cock enters the ass. It’s either many writers are still a virgin, or they’re also disappointed irl like me, so they turn into fictions to make things better. And for that, I thank you so much, fanfiction writers, you guys are the best

DW: That absolutely escalated quickly!

I will say that I think this guy was an asshole though, and you know it, because you were pressured into agreeing to something because you didn’t want to ruin the mood and I think he took advantage of that.

Never be afraid to ruin the mood! Please, never! Sex is supposed to be about what both of you want, not just about what the other person wants. I hope that your next experience is at your pace, and that it’s enjoyable. Sometimes though, when you’re new at this, it takes a while to not only know your limits but also to feel confident voicing them. Please voice them in the future!

Consent should always be enthusiastic, and ongoing.

As for getting testing, check out this link:

https://www.stdcheck.com/blog/how-soon-get-tested-for-stds-unprotected-sex/

And always have lube and condoms on hand in the future, just in case!

So, in summing up, first time sex is often bad. It’s weird and awkward and disappointing and nothing like the media tells you it’s supposed to be. The good news is, it gets better the more you try! But for your own sake, I hope that next time you try it’s with someone who won’t steamroll right over the limits you’ve set.

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weirdness-on-the-roof · 5 years

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critical role episode 48 campaign 2 notes and funny lines post break edit:this has detailed notes on all the stuff that happened later in the episode including physical descriptions near the end. enjoy ya nerds

don’t steal the books from a high powered mage; don’t kill the dude; beau turning into cad; look at beau planning for the future

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is marisha flirting with matt via matt playing yasha and beau flirting with yasha?

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‘tea the international language’ but no earl grey

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wensworth the goblin

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coming from Cad ‘im a fine tea maker’ is kinda a threat tbh

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elf that isn’t white/European??? yay! also really old elves are cool

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beau and cad tag teaming a political chat with a mage this can’t end poorly

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Nott: :beau ruins every situation shes in and is very abrasive

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send the freaking cat!!! why not?? caleb my dude

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god i miss allura and gilmore currently

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fucking fuck don’t lie to the mage beau plz stop this is painful ‘you’re not wrong’ sure blame the ancient sea god

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‘on the verge of returning’ yea no duh you let him out 2/3 of the way so fjord could get a spell

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‘we found a thing’ so smooth and eloquent beau ‘it was presented to us as the happy fun time ball’

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‘butter fingers with magical items’

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beau getting a geography lesson from a very old powerful elven mage

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‘magical geometric orb that has the ability to bend time and space and fate’ which is kept in a hot pink magic bag that happened to ‘fall into [their] lap’

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‘if youre down im down is what im saying... i have a few slots open in my loyalty bank if you’re willing to pay rent’ says the 20 some human who punches things to the centuries old wizard ‘

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liam stress eating

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cad’s hope in the group is heartwarming

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tower metaphors and a conversation!!!

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caleb reading shitty romance novel and nott eating a fish outside a mage’s tower in the morning sunlight in a major city

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caleb takes the rear

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first name drop and a while

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holy shit 200 years of magic using

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cad explaining materialistic nature of the rest of the party to elf dude is hilarious

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teleportation circles?????? in return for access to the sphere!! oh shit thats good

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or candy

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crap. no one has insight checked this dude and they gave him the happy fun ball and made a deal kinda.

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‘how do we prove our loyalty?’ ‘by not fucking me over’ sounds like a good plan

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is this guy just caleb’s patron now on the low idk this is how my head works and he said learn

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“you have a geometric shape that makes babies?” “yea they talked about that”

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fjord just kills the dude

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‘i got banishment on hold just in case’ *cackling laughter*

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i agree with elf dude, him not knowing anything about the dodecha is more concerning than him knowing about it

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ALL THE CITIES FROM CR1 MENTIONED FOR THE FIRST TIME!!! I STILL MISS ALLURA AND GILMORE

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good to know the pink bag protects from divination on this plane but just this one

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jester and the traveler figurine

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cad included the Traveler in the ‘chaotic forces’ i still think the traveler is some kinda arch fey evil things idk its real late here and this is incoherent

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‘well, thats been my morning tea‘

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caleb getting additional tour

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good aesthetic for the room tbh

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letting weird people in for morning tea is entertainment is a mood and something i strive to be able to do without getting murdered one day

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so yasha and caleb both have gotten the ‘stay with friends’ chat from a powerful being which is nice. but also the ‘use who you need to’ going to caleb is vaguely concerning

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personalized biscuits [bourbon, cinnamon, lobster, fish and three unknowns]

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‘caleb, what happened in there?’

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cad not believing caleb’s bullshit and opening doors for caleb warms my heart

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‘if this isn’t the death of us, and if not hes a good ally. somethings gonna be the death of us so [yolo]’

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‘you can’t bullshit everyone in this world’

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cad talking about beau telling the truth: ‘you’re not very good at it but you tried

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jester looking out for nott and her home town

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caleb and beau being cute while also giving each other shit is the most sibling like thing

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omg going back to allfield that was so long ago for fucks sake BRYCE my person thank god

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jester had a boy band phase its cannon and i think the girls had a sleepover in jester’s old room. also marion never leaves the hotel. THE RUBY NECKLACE MY HEART AND THE HONEY AWWWWW

‘the army of men and women and inbetween that will do as i want them to’ god i adore her being protective of jester

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also the fact matt makes such a good mom why is he like this

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travel time!!!! ‘roll for initiative’-tal

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how does matt keep these notes so organized and remember all the npc names

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the ranger/beast master in Laura is coming out with nugget

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caleb is a devout cat person and jester is the definition of a dog person

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nott refining oil on a magical moving cart, while jester reads a romance novel and trains a dog,

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Dyren- Beau’s roommate at colbot souls; ‘taught beau lots of really cool things’ got sent to a warfront. shaved head, dark clothes, buff b/c ‘been workin out’, ‘do you love her?’ they had ‘good times’, then literal booty call, and dropping locations, Dyren was in Bladegarden. ‘fierce eyebrows, pointed nose’

OH MY GOD THEY WERE ROOMMATES

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Vandren info drop to Fjord ‘he was making amends’

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Dyren responded and was hurt in Bladegarden but is safe. Beau looked immediately worried and happy about jester’s imput [’sounded way into you’]

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empire kids chat and caleb admitting insecurities about powerful people and being scared about the consequences of his actions and the group’s actions. caleb is scared about being forced to leave for safety and being ‘flayed alive’. my thoughts are he would leave if he became a threat to the others by being there or vise versa. trent would extort that b/c hes a dick

“caleb, unfortunately, you don’t get to choose who cares for you” you’re fucking correct Beau

“the problem with friends is that you have to care for them”

walks away “wow cool caleb! see- jester thinks you’re cool because shes your fucking friend!”

me too Tal “everything i like about those two characters in one conversation”

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5 years since Caleb left Trent and crew ie had a nervous breakdown

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gustav left town after being freed and trostenwald now has a WV accent that is too familiar

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100 extra soldiers in allfield. bryce is still up and kicking and wonderful. stuff ‘got this far east [quickly]’. the attacks came from underground apparently so fuck. the fields were burned, building destroyed a bit then they [Xhorhasians] left

“good thing is they’ve already been attacked so lightning doesn’t strike twice” oof thanks bryce

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beau just dead ass asking for illegal writing statements

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fjord having a thank u jesus bryce moment

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jester giving cad a pretty present is ‘so exciting’ and precious

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Cad not knowing cookbooks were a thing!!! and not being utterly literate enough to understand it

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wtf happened to liam’s voice in the ‘main export is oysters’ thing

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FELDERWEN!!!!!

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a dozen squads of 50 ppl each patrolling felderwen area so rippppp

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Nott knows where the halfing’s house is.... interesting... and is heavily drinking

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BLUE FLASH

elven woman in fine clothes of green and black ----lady vest durogna the arch mage of antiquity serboros assembly

a male figure in deep blue robes, older pale elf, fine clothes, the flash came from him----- martinette luden’th de____ arch mage of domestic protection

CALEB KNOWS THEM BOTH FROM THE ACADEMY AHHHHHH

he just lays flat and hides in the cart internally: ‘nopenopenopenope’

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several burned buildings, a warehouse, an inn, apothecary and several houses

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ohhhh shit the halfling was the owner of the apothecary and nott was looking for the shit she had been sending back this whole adventure....... im sad now that was confirmed

havent found a body of yeza

luke is yeza’s son at old edith’s house

halflings only produce halflings according to something i read at some point but forget where sooooooooo

shattered vials and materials and house stuff

CHILDREN'S TOYS

locked basement which nott knows of?? Nott is anxious and impatient when the door doesn’t open. jester fails, yasha rages and at a 19 and doesn’t break the door. ‘it wasn’t [trapped]’ but dispel magic worked to open it.

a 15′x15′ room, tossed ‘not like you remember’ to nott, a 2x3 iron chest. a single chair in the center of the room. definitely a struggle with heavy impacts and blade scratched on wall

nott was the torturer from the goblin tribe

chair was placed in the spot after the struggle

this was where he [yeza] kept chemicals according to nott

poisoned iron locked box (dull black glass) inside a retractable silver tripod to hold something atop it, 3 empty vials 1 full one with a liquid/gas fog like dull colored thing, a pile of destroyed notes [two pieces of still legible paper which have props]

dunamous field, causes ppl slow to be slower or faster, ‘captured crin operatives’ dunaments and dunamacy, origon gliffs, exist outside established schools of magic, theory in deeply rooted in arcana taken for granted, rooted in _____ town, 12-16 months to refine, word has found me that trent’s kiddos have knacks for this things, dreams are thrilling

well shittttt

crin on battle fields, ‘breaking fields of fate, fuck the raven queen

SHIIIIIT

a piece of dunemous

dodecha goes in tripod according to beau

chair facing chest

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cricks did this apparently

a little under 100 crowns guard killed, 4 civilians burned

soldiers just ‘slowed down’

left via tunnels and collapsed them behind them

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nott dont be a bitch and don’t get mad at caleb and call them ‘his people’

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cad picks up caleb and ‘youre not at fault here, youre the solution here. don’t let her anger... its not about you’

my HEART

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the chest is too big for the haver sack but fits in lorenzo’s bag of holding

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people have entered and exited since the attack and left the chair and stuff

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lots ‘o chairs

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nott needs to see ledith and uke (?) and not flip the fuck out

‘humble hobble’

nott looked like halfling plump face, braids, tan skin

edith- human older, grey hair, beady eyes, ever present smile like face

LUKE IS HER SON!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CANNON

*edit- rewatching this and seeing ever one’s faces “wheres my son?!” particularly laura/liam/travis just hurt. liam just looked up after a second and travis did his face he does and laura just stiffened and eyes and hand to face. caleb/liam who knows just hugs himself the rest of the convo. marisha is note taking and fuck the video off now

about 5 yrs old, blue eyes, tan/light brown skin, halfling

gave him the doll of the king

IM GONNA CRY NOW BYE

‘HES PROABLY DEAD NOW TOO LIKE I THOUGHT YOU WER’

yenza locks him away when ‘the mean lady comes by’

mean lady has pointy ears and comes often, luke was kept in room, luke was pushed out of the house and told to go somewhere safe so he ran to edith’s house and ‘everything was on fire’

‘im not strong enough to come back yet but know that [im stll thinking of you and i send things] and i hope dad sends them to you.“ fuck my heart

“in my heart i think he is” “well don’t die”

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the elves are gong to the ruins of yenza’s house

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marisha looked so betrayed

tal ‘i was waiting for the riegel shoe to drop’

WOW

HEY CALEB- WOOOW

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we’ll pick up hiiiere

fuck you sam and matt and everything abou this my heart is just FUCKKK

ummm so enjoy the frantic poorly taken notes <3

#critical role spoilers #spoilers #lore drop #ohh shit #fuck you sam #not okay in the slightest why are you like this #i dont have words at this point

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clarasberry · 6 years

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okay everyone, tis this time of the year again. i have a LOT of muse right now. like, too much. and as much as i like smothering lisa and mel with plots, i think you all deserve your fair share of me spamming you with musings and headcanons so here we go. under the cut, there will be me rambling about what i want / need for future plots / ships and it’s basically me begging you to come and write with me:)) so do it. :)))

disclaimer: i am slow, okay? i am the slowest of slow but i will still make us edits and send you every musings and write you the most heart-shattering and angsty headcanons ever so i feel like that compensates, yknow?

first of all, here are my rules and my banned faces. people i’ll play / play against are here (f) and here (m)

wanted plots: (any of these could be f/f & m/m, the use of pronouns is just generic af)

anything in this tag

secret relationships / affairs of any kind

bonnie and clyde typa shit, we’re both wanted criminals and we go from state to state and rob banks and make love and get tattoos and yolo

drug lords power couple, he kills anyone who looks at her the wrong way and she’ll destroy anyone who gets too close to him and they rule vegas together

soldier/ civilian where they’re stationed romance

still in the army theme: i got shot and you the nurse and patch me up and we start having a secret relationship bc we not supposed to and i sneak out of my tent at night and your heart sinks everytime i have to go to the front

my new bodyguard / maid is really hot and i’m this filthy rich person who’s set to marry this other filthy rich person but damn you is hot

anything that invovles high school sweethearts tbh

we slept together last night and it was really hot and stuff and i’m kinda sad i didn’t get a chance to ask for your name but now i’m showing up to a friend’s wedding and omg is that you at the altar ????

anything angst, really

faces i’d like to play

ana de armas

chris evans

phoebe tonkin

chris hemsworth

charlie hunnam

ryan gosling

aaron taylor-johnsson

margot robbie

emily ratajkowski

emeraude toubia

dacre montgomery

faces i’d like to play against

anyone i mentioned

anyone in my tags

honestly? anyone who’s not in my banned fcs

this is a very rambly and general list of what i want but i have many muses that are just begging to be used and i just love plotting in general so come @ me and we can figure out what to write!

#come and love me pls #flip flop lana

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lonelythoughtsinmybed · 3 years

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diary entry #6 ✂︎--- very needed in-depth update

alright. we need an update. so much has happened since the last time i posted. even tho i posted in may, before then i haven’t posted in a while. in fact, the last time i posted “normally” was march and that was honestly my last normalish month of my life...lmao too dramatic?? maybe

i wasn’t specific on one of my post-hiatus posts. am i scared to post private info publicly? kinda but no one knows me or sees my page anyway so ha yolo.

grieving. april was a sad month. definitely turned the tables for my family. my dad passed away from cancer and health complications that i don’t feel like going into the specifics. we dealt with this months before ofc, like back in november we noticed something wrong. but things started getting worse a month before he passed when he started chemo. besides being affected emotionally, his death affected us financially. he was our main source of income, he paid the bills, he had many finance-related accounts and anything of the sort was in his name. it was and has been a lot of work fixing everything and adjusting to this new lifestyle. it’s still gruling and a new perspective on life i would never thought i would feel. i knew a loss in the family would come of course, but not this early. he didn’t even see me graduate high school.

graduating hs & the summer before college. speaking of, yes i graduated high school mid-june :). didn’t even feel much tbh. whenever i saw my siblings graduate i would of course wonder how that felt and would be in awe of that happiness and their success. well here i am. and now i’m on summer break, ready to enter college in september. Rutgers University to be specifc :). this summer i’ve just been completing requirements and whatnot.

car accident. alright. this is another doosey that will send me into a whirlwind for god knows how long. my dad passing and this one fuck up will...well, fuck me up for sure. i lived my worst fucking nightmare yesterday. i was literally picking my sister up from her job that i’ve driven to before confidentally and was no stranger to the route. everytime i recall the accident, i’m at a loss for words because i don’t know how to feel. it’s one of those things that you fear it’s gonna happen so you inevitably think about it a lot. but you know that the fear is just in your head and that you’re actually in control. you trust that, in my case, a car accident wouldn’t happen. well low and behold. it was literally any ordinary day. all i can describe from yesterday is my head being elsewhere. i changed lanes because two cars were taking a turn elsewhere. i moved to the shoulder to pass them. idk if it was last minute that i saw the car i crashed into, but my reaction time was for sure ass. i don’t even remember if i braked. maybe i did very last second, but for majority of the time after switching lanes, my foot was on the gas. me and my sister’s head jerked forward and a second after it happened it felt like any other dream i would have. bumping into someone from behind is the exact thing i’ve dreamt about multiple times. and i’ve always been so thankful i’ve waken up. at that moment i wish it was a dream. i looked to my at my sister with the most fear in my eyes. i was repeating my words and she tried her best to calm me down and immediately called my mom. bless her, i literally don’t deserve a sister like her. it felt like the last few seconds didn’t exist, or that i wasn’t in my body. my eyes were on the road, but i really don’t know how else to describe it...that’s what is mind boggling. id on’t recognize myself, hell i’m disappointed in myself. funny enough, my mom let me take her van to work tho.

job. yupp, got a job. every in the household needed to get one of course, given our situation. don’t really know how to feel about it tho because i found out online that the pay rate sucks ass. i’m 90% sure it’s accurate, but before that i was lost in the dark about the pay rate. didn’t say it online and they didn't even mention it to me...guess that just means that indeed is right and my employer don’t wanna admit it’s bad.

update: indeed was kinda wrong, but the pay rate is minimum and i honestly thought it would be more...i told my family a higher pay rate. guess that means i have to work more hours to cover the insurance costs from the accident. but i’m not mad cause i like working and getting out of the house. i’m sad about not driving there tho. that being taken from me breaks my heart. i absolutely loved it...

boy. back in may, he dmed me on instagram from finding me on bumble lmaoo. since then we’ve been talking. i wish i can tell you sparks flied but naw. i don’t know what i was thinking lmao with continuing this. i really thought all the tiny problems i found in him were in my head or i was overplaying it and too picky. girl, in a world like this, we all need to be picky and choose what’s best for us. there were times when i really thought i liked him and his kindness was everything, but that’s all that was really has going for him lmaoo. there were some times i wanted him to show a bad enough red flag so it could be easy for me to end it. one time, i called him out for saying a fucked up thing and i thought things would end there but i just couldn’t continue standing up for my poiint of view and pushing it that what he said was fucked up...there were tiny red flags, but i wanted to stick through it cause i thought i was overeacting and overthinking. like i told myself to stay just in case it got better. it just felt bland. i think i liked him cause of the potential he had. like the scenarios i had of him made me feel a lot more than he has...also, after the accident, his real colors showed. his top priority is hanging out. all he cares about is how i feel about him. that’s all and i’m kinda done with everything at this point.

i wanna try to post more. i just wanna spend my time wisely and bury myself into nothingness

#diary #love #couple #relationship #graduation #high school graduation #high school #college #rutgers #rutgers university #grief #loss #death #funeral #car

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codenamesailordarillium · 6 years

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Rules: Answer the questions in a new post and tag 10 blogs you would like to get to know better.

Tagged by @regalpotato lol I haven’t done one of these in ages m8, thanks

A - Age: 22, and constantly frustrated to be living in an alcohol-free home despite having reached the legal drinking age over a year ago

B - Birthplace: Dhaka, Bangladesh (specifically the Red Crescent Hospital ~ Red Crescent is the Muslim country equivalent of Red Cross, so for all intents and purposes I was in fact born in a Red Cross hospital)

C - Current time: 7:24 AM, which it’ll definitely be well past once I’m done filling this out

D - Drink you last had: honey tea that my mom made me because I’ve been coughing up a storm since like 5:00 AM

E - Easiest person to talk to: my best friend who is also more or less my wife, my mind just seems to instantly clear and I’m able to communicate all my thoughts thoroughly to my complete satisfaction with her <3

F - Favorite song: who has just one favorite song anymore lol, but in general probably something Lady Gaga

G - Grossest memory: idk I kinda tend to repress that stuff nowadays, and in general whenever faced with something gross my mind hyper-fixates on the goal of cleaning/washing up whatever’s grossing me out tbh

H - Horror yes or horror no: haha this is where I have to assert the disclaimer of ‘sorry for being a demon’ once again because lol I kinda love that shit, tho tbh I have a hard time finding horror movies that really interest me so I’m more into watching people’s horror game playthroughs on the YouTubez

I - In love?: don’t think I’ve ever been, but hope that I might get to be someday (closest I think I’ve come is aforementioned best friend/wifey)

J - Jealous of people?: yes, like the sad little cunt I am, but it��s because of my own shortcomings and I try never to begrudge people their personal achievements ‘cause that helps exactly no one

L - Love at first sight or should i walk by again?: maybe...I think sometimes it’s possible to sense that you *could* fall in love with someone upon meeting them, tho I don’t think you can literally be in love with someone by just looking at them

M - Middle name: Nahrin, tho it isn’t so much my middle name as it is my original surname which was then supplanted to middle name status when my parents stuck my dad’s surname onto all of our names when we immigrated from Bangladesh to the US so we’d look more like a family unit or smth...OH, ALSO according to my dad it means RIVER (or riverS plural but still!!) which means BITCH MY MIDDLE NAME IS RIVER like what kind of serendipity tho...

N - Number of siblings: one (some of you may know Empress Fuzzy, the sweet adorable baby sister bear of my heart)

O - One wish: that I will someday climb out of the abyss that is my perpetually shite mental health and actually have even the slightest sliver of control over my life (whoops, didn’t mean to get too real, but it’s the truth)

P - Person you called last: my mom, yesterday, when she was coming to pick me up from school

Q - Question you are always asked: "Has she graduated yet?” NO I HAVEN’T PLEASE STOP REMINDING ME *continues to sob, shout, and scream bloody murder into the void*

R - Reason to smile: I must agree with Katie about dogs, last night we went to my aunt and uncle’s house for dinner and I was predictably left cooing over their two little loud stinkers called Benjy and Beulah like the utter dog person I am

S - Song you sang last: idk most likely “Diamond Heart” off of Gaga’s album “Joanne” (even tho I prolly shouldn’t be trying to belt out those lyrics with my throat in the state it’s been but YOLO amirite?)

T - Time you woke up: 5:00 AM after only sleeping like 4-5 hours because my respiratory system decided to see if it could qualify on the Richter scale

U - Underwear colour: striped in two shades of aqua blue with a black waistband

V - Vacation destination: really just wherever as long as I have my wifey by my side *blows kiss*

W - Worst habit: biting the fuck outta my nails when I’m stressed and then getting scarily compulsive about how ugly they look and attempting to trim them with a proper nail clipper to look slightly less ugly only to be in constant stinging pain because I’ve breached the boundary of how far you can trim a nail before it starts to hurt (yeah I might’ve done it a few days ago and hate myself for it why d’you ask)

X - X-rays: haven’t actually had one in literal years now that I think about it...tho who knows, might need one soon to see if I’ve got some kind of infection now that’s the reason why I’VE BEEN SICK LIKE OVER SIX WEEKS OR SOME SHIT SOMEONE PLEASE END MY SUFFERING FUCKING FUCK ME T_T

Y - Your favorite food: generally anything made of the potato

Z - Zodiac sign: Pisces, and boy do I never forget how much of a fish cunt I am according to literally every goddamn horoscope/zodiac post I encounter on the internet *sigh*

Alrighty then, hope that wasn’t too depressing/ranty. I don’t think there’s anyone left that I can tag, but if you’re really dying to do this taggity-tag type business, literally feel free to tell me so and I will come back and retroactively tag you in this so that y’all don’t need to feel left out because I’m all about that inclusion life yo.

#in which i was tagged #about me

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tferins-blog · 6 years

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woah sorry i’m late fam, it’s not my fault tho, i walked here. anyway ! i’m m and i’m straight up dying out here in the cst. i think my brain broke when i applied bc not only did i expose this bish to the nth degree by putting her middle name in the app ( how extra ) but ..... i def didn’t hit send when i first thought i sent it. i’m a disaster. anywayx2 i’ll put a little bit about little miss sunshine under the cut and all you gotta do is smash that little heart button and i’ll come to you for all of the plots

DANIELLE CAMPBELL. — OH, HAVE YOU MET ERIN TAYLOR O’SHEA? SHE IS A TWENTY-TWO YEAR OLD CISFEMALE THAT IS FEELING DUBIOUS ABOUT THE PLANET’S IMMINENT DOOM. A BARTENDER, THIS AQUARIUS IS KNOWN AROUND TOWN AS THE ICARIAN, BECAUSE SHE IS COMPELLING & EFFERVESCENT, AS WELL AS SARDONIC & AUDACIOUS. HOPEFULLY, ERIN WILL SURVIVE.

so this little spitfire is erin. your mildly unfriendly neighborhood bar wench.

she’s kind of a mess but not like….a hot mess. more like when your mom walks in your room and there’s like a sweatshirt on the ground and your sock drawer is open and shes like omg your room looks like it got hit by a tornado.

very headstrong. does not like rules.

she’s adopted bc her mom is dead and her dad is basically incarcerated sort of. it’s not something she like……advertises so i’m not going to go into deets here unless we determine it’s something your character would know about. ( sue me, i’m lazy )

all i’m gonna say is she went into therapy at a young age and as far as she’s concerned she doesn’t have any residual effects from it.

her dad’s best friend and his wife adopted her at seven and as far as everyone in the world is concerned they’re her parents.

she absolutely loves them ( me ? writing a muse who has a happy family ? the apocalypse must really be happening )

dad is former military. runs his own security company now and is lk scary af. def made sure erin knows how to handle herself. she might be like two feet tall but probably knows 12 ways to kill you with a spoon okay. and her mom is a high school guidance counselor.

spent her primitive years moving around a lot because of her dad’s job.

ended up in hawley about 5 years ago when she got into the university of scranton ( pre-med major. what a nerd. )

told herself she was not going to be that cliche girl who goes to school and falls in love and ruins her life but HAH, life is a real bitch like that. it was not the best relationship tbh, pretty dang toxic and her parents were not fans of him. (( oh hey look a connection. peep this for inspo if you wanna fill it ) actually that’s.... a bit extra ..... but it still makes me cry tears of blood every time i read it )

as most young love sob stories go, she ended up pregnant but ( probably ) never told him. took a random gap year in the middle of her college education to take off with her best friend. mostly bc she didn’t want her parents to know about the baby but also partly because she was just having one of those fuck it moments.

gave the baby up for adoption, obviously. you will not catch her doting around a toddler at the bar.

an odd combination of wine mom and vodka aunt.

she’s very tell it like it is, in your face. if you’re telling her your sob story over your seventh whiskey and coke she’s probably going to tell you to switch to well drinks before you go fucking broke.

wasn’t ever perfect but she used to be a pretty good kid. just kind of hit college and got a bit more free spirited and after the bad luck pregnancy she was like lol, ima do what i want. yolo.

part time pot baker. ( harry vc: i used to be a baker ) but seriously try the cupcakes.

if her parents wouldn’t have a stroke and die her life goal would literally be to own a food truck where everything has pot in it.

the paula deen of pot.

full time karaoke junkie.

likes the sad eyes, bad guys, mouth full of white lies.

has a little hedgehog named harvey. ( needs a roommate tho. )

as far as the apocalypse she’s kinda doubtful of it. like she’s heard the world was ending about a million times at this point and she’s pretty much walking around like jesus take the wheel.

relatively nice, just if you’re being a fucking idiot she’s going to tell you you’re being a fucking idiot.

comparatively she’s a lot like max from 2 broke girls, an odd combo of all the girls from friends, and robyn from himym. all my favs mixed into one little hurricane tbh.

i’ll stop rambling now but if you wanna plot just hmu or like this and i’ll come to you. :)

#hawley:intro #ʏᴏᴜ'ᴠᴇ ɢᴏᴛ ᴀ sᴇᴍɪ ᴀᴜᴛᴏᴍᴀᴛɪᴄ ᴍᴏᴜᴛʜ ──「ooc」#i'm so tired forgive me for this mess

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rapturedtoxicity · 7 years

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Me: yo Me: wassup Friend: nm just bout to watch the mayweather fight Me: right Me: mcgregor or mayweather Me: ? Me: disclaimer i dont know shit abt any of that Friend: boxing match Friend: jst watching it since it will be a thing that lots of people talk about Me: fair enough Me: i am Me: extremely drunk rn Me: have been for the last 6 days Friend: lol Friend: welcome to how many people spend their early 20s Me: cheers Me: it helps deal with the pain tbh Me: dude Me: weird question maybe but Me: have you ever self harmed Friend: no but its not something that works with me Me: fair enough Me: i've been trying it Me: it kinda helps Me: for me Friend: ive done it but not directly Friend: just training slamming my fist and knees into a wall Friend: until i just ran out of energy Me: i getcha Friend: but it didnt do anything Friend: but those times i just wanted to feel anything that wasnt what i felt ever yday Friend: even if it was physical pain Friend: it was nice to feel something else Me: yeh Me: kinda where i am atm Me: been making cuts into my arm Me: to distract from the heartache Me: it helps a lot Me: surprisingly much actually Me: dont mean to be depressing, rofl Me: dont intend to make it a permanent habit or anything but Me: fuck Me: it helps Me: god damn Friend: i get you Friend: but people do it for different reasons Friend: i just want to punish myself Friend: i found other ways to do that Me: kind of on that page atm Me: punishing/relief Me: feel like i deserve it in a way Friend: for me those were 2 different things, it was nice to feel something else but essentially it got me nowhere closer to a positive end goal Friend: or so i've rationalised what im doing now to be conducive Me: yeh Friend: im sure im wrong but Me: idk if im aiming for a positive end goal atm? just kinda Friend: im far too proud, i have to do it solo Me: doing it to relieve stress in the moment Me: you get me Me: ? Me: yeh i get you Friend: a little but Friend: when i did that stuff Friend: i couldnt do anything Me: i know it's fucking stupid and all that Friend: my brain just didnt think straight Me: and i know i aint thinkin straight Me: yeh Me: but Me: it does help. Me: for me, at least Me: redirects the fucking Me: immense emotional pain into Me: slight physical pain Me: distracts me in the moment Me: only real downside atm for me is how hard it is to hide it Friend: nah thats effort Friend: showing it is fine Friend: just make sure you have a solid convo ender to observers who question it Me: i agree personally but Me: my coworkers keep telling me to cover up and shit Me: like im not looking for attention Friend: cover up? Me: im just doing my own thing when i roll up my sleeves at work and shit Friend: do your cuts etc show? Me: yeh Friend: yeh thats stupid Friend: obviously Friend: use your leg or something Friend: fuck knows why im helpng you do this Me: hahhhahahhaha Me: i actually cracked up Me: lmfao Friend: but until you realise better Friend: me saying Friend: dont do it Friend: wont achieve shit Me: agreed Friend: but you need to know you're retarded for doing it Me: heard that a bit much lately Me: just makes me feel spite Me: yeh i know it's retarded Friend: you're smart enough to suffer until you have a better answer Me: aye Me: i get it Friend: you might hate me a little for saying it Me: just dont have a better answer atm Friend: but personally i think you shouldn't be shit sad Friend: this* Me: elaborate Friend: i know its all relative obviously Friend: but tons of people would kill to have the kind of breakup you had Friend: yeh things will be a little tough but you still have someone close (at least thats what we know for now) Friend: you need to thing of all the good things Friend: and think like Friend: ok magic lamb Friend: genie magic Friend: go Friend: change your situation Me: i am Me: i've started working on myself and shit Friend: lamp* Me: am meeting ppl pretty much every day and shit Me: going out more, doing new things Me: but when i get home the rest of it takes over Friend: but would you be doing that if you knew you had no chance with her? Me: id probably Me: take a few days to just fucking sulk to be honest Friend: i mean i understand how decisions are influenced to match your S/o Me: and then try and work on it Friend: but a "change" like that needs to be genuine or its all superficial Friend: and fragile Me: no yeah like Me: ive been thinking like Me: last couple days like Me: as much as i hate that this is happening Me: maybe it's a good thing in the big picture Me: because i'd become so fucking like Me: isolated Me: i was only really meeting her Me: and chilling with her Me: never really met or did anything with friends Me: so in a way it was a wake up call Me: made me realize that i had to water the crops so i could keep on reaping them Me: still have my eyes on the prized flower ofc Me: but it kinda made me realize that she isnt the only thing thats important to me Me: shes obviously really fucking important to me but it really kind of woke me up Me: like a splash of water to the face Me: like Me: "shit i fucking. i gotta get off my ass and meet friends and shit" Friend: yeh its true Me: made me understand how important all that shit is to me kind of Friend: as you get older, you need to always make an active effort Friend: to stay on top of friends Me: yeh Me: cause i was very reliant on her in a way Me: and as much as i want that to be a thing still Me: it made me understand that i can also rely on other people Me: i can also look to other people Me: meet other people etc etc Me: i've come to understand that a lot of the things thatMe: meet other people etc etc Me: i've come to understand that a lot of the things that Me: i originally didnt like to do with her Me: or like Me: "didnt like" Me: it made me realize i was just being a shitter in my own world Me: i actually enjoy a lot of those things Friend: thats also a tricky thing tho Friend: like feeling that a bad aspect about you needs fixing Me: just didnt understand it cause i was so stuck in my loop Me: yeh sure maybe im just saying/doing that to make myself feel better unconsciously but at least its something right Me: a different perspective Me: like Me: i find myself Me: actually wanting to go on walks Me: i find myself actually wanting to do all this shit i thought i hated doing Me: i feel more awake in a sense Me: so while i still really want her back i think ive kind of found the light at the end of the tunnel in a way Me: a different light than i was originally searching for, maybe Me: but a light nonetheless Friend: i get you Friend: a little advice is try not to mention any "changes" you have Friend: personally its just better if a person realises your changes from seeing it first hand Friend: dont be that guy who promotes himself Me: yeh cause it'll maybe make her think im trying to change for her or something Friend: yeh Me: instead of actually changing Friend: dont advertise it ever Friend: just know what you're showing and how you're acting is a result of work and mentality Friend: if it shows it shows Friend: if it doesnt then who cares Friend: you do you for you Friend: it would just be good obv if the flower gets it without any assist Me: yeah Me: for sure Me: i think Me: if we end up hanging out again and shit Me: i'm pretty sure i'm still just gonna Me: want to ask her to go out for a walk and do shit and all that Me: because i feel that desire now Me: even if i'm making cuts on my arms and drinking like a maniac Me: like i still feel like im making progress Me: even if my current ways of coping with the pain are fucking retarded Me: and im very aware of that Me: i kinda feel like i can maybe learn from being a fucking moron for a little bit though Me: understand a bit better how that is, how the perspective switches you know Friend: yeh Me: notes to be had Me: dont advertise change Me: it gives the wrong impression Me: might make her think its superficial Me: uhhhHHh Me: stop being retarded at some point obviously Friend: tbh a big thing of being in your head too much Friend: is if you're not actually busy Friend: so try and do mre Friend: in the day Friend: tire yourself out Friend: budget your time bette Friend: r Friend: dont yolo days Me: i feel like being a moron and behaving irresponsibly for a bit is ok because this is the most painful shit ive gone through ever pretty much Friend: cus then you just think about shit you dont need to Friend: cus you've nothing better to do Me: yeh Me: plan shit Me: do things Me: make plans in advance etc etc Friend: that might help Me: i feel like Me: idk if im wrong abt this Me: but Me: i think it's okay to be a moron for a bit Friend: personally Friend: i mean it makes sense Me: obviously you're the fuckin logic sensei and all that Friend: but think of dota shitters who are like Friend: im 2k so i dont need to get dust Friend: cus at that point its ignorance after the fact Me: and, again: i'm actively referring to myself as a fuckin moron so i understand that this shit is just retarded Friend: like choosing the ignorance Friend: thats cool Me: but atm it feels like it's aight Friend: but like how i avoid saying sorry Friend: if you keep calling yourself a moron Friend: that word wont mean shit Me: it'll lose meaning yeh Friend: cus your brain will just go Me: i'll just say sth else lol Friend: ive called myself that for weeks Friend: /months Me: yeh Me: i get you Me: stops meaning anything Me: idk. maybe im just not ready to like Me: take the leap Friend: yeh see thats legit to accept Friend: things like that take some time Friend: some wisdom Me: yeah Friend: so you make the call when you think you're ready Friend: some people never are ready Friend: and need the push Friend: but give yourself a chance Friend: to figure it out yourself Me: i think i will know soon enough Friend: before you get pushed Me: yeah Me: i definitely needed the push Me: the breakup was a big push tbh Me: really shoved me in the deep of it Me: like i said Me: made me understand what i value and all that Friend: yeh thats something that sucks Friend: but its kinda nice to Friend: too* Me: yeh Me: bittersweet Friend: you def feel growth once you realise what you had Friend: after you loseit Friend: yeh Friend: you'll see things a little differently now Me: yeah Me: if things take off again with her Me: i'll understand better what i want and what she wants Me: the growth is a nice feeling despite all the shittiness Me: it's some what relieving i guess Me: to understand myself a little better Me: man my coworkers were constantly telling me to cover up the cuts today Me: felt kinda bad tbh Friend: it should Me: cause im not ashamed of them really Friend: you showing other people makes it their problem Friend: because you would rightfully say Friend: hey if you're a good person Friend: and you see someone in troble Friend: you'd help Friend: so you openly showing something wrong Friend: doesnt make it just a hraug problem Me: i guess that's true Friend: so its fine not to be ashamed Friend: but do it for the others around you Me: yeah Me: that's fair Me: i feel like its kind of important that Me: like Me: im not trying to show anything Me: does that make sense like Me: im not pulling up my sleeves as a cry for help im just trying to not get them dirty while i work Me: but i obviously understnad that people seeing that shit is gonna have some effect on them one way or another Me: im just kinda like Me: obviously its not as simple as saying "it's none of your business" but that's kind of how i feel anyways Me: cuz its not something that im trying to show Me: its not something i think people should worry about Me: because i dont worry about it Me: but maybe im just being ignorant Me: or sth Me: idk Friend: yeh you are Friend: just get some bandages and perma keep em on Friend: but again its just normal sadness that you're feeling its no different to a normal breakup, you should try for a week to not to cut or stuff Friend: cus its not a smart way to deal with sadness in general Friend: especially when its nowhere near as bad as just out right being rejected due to failure or anything else Me: thats true i guess Me: idk though. i feel like that argument just goes back to like Me: children in africa and all that shit Friend: yeh dw about that just think he this is how i feel in this situation Friend: so just try and understand why you're feeling the way you're feeling Friend: that'll help you tackle how you feel Friend: and in the future it will make sense Friend: you;ll see the same signs Friend: etc etc Me: yeah Me: i suppose Me: that is true. Me: dude im so drunk lmfao i was actually considering asking you if you wanted to see my cuts Me: lmfoashdjgk Me: complete retard over here Me: god damn Me: ugh Me: i think i need to sleep maybe Friend: lol well i understand why you'd say it Friend: it wont phase me Friend: but i wont condone it Me: nah Me: i get that Friend: yeh that's smart Me: im the same w that w other people Me: condoning is not good Me: but theres a difference between condoning and like Me: accepting Me: i guess? Friend: yeh Friend: but cutting is a last resort in my head Friend: so im surprised you jumped str8 there Friend: but again we're all diferent Friend: ff* Me: i Me: tried it at first Me: because i was kinda curious Me: wondered it if it'd do anything for me Me: cause i know some people that have done it and said it helped them cope Friend: yeh it def helps nodoubt Me: and i was curious cause i havent really found anything to cope Friend: but again Friend: in my head its a last resort Me: havent had any desire to play any games in the last week Me: which is my usual coping method Me: yeh Friend: i see Me: but we're all different Me: like you said Me: i gotta stop drinking Me: rofl Friend: hah Friend: ive heard that a trillion times Friend: its shameful Me: feels bad Me: feels kinda good Me: but it feels bad Friend: lol Friend: welcome to the drunk life Me: hahahha Me: yeh Me: im learning to drink through this actually Me: learning how to pace myself Friend: absinth was a tricky one for me Friend: hate the taste Me: never had it afaik Me: did my first tequila shot tonight Friend: you'll know when you taste it Friend: you cant taste anythign Me: shit was nasty Friend: but that Friend: you could lick a hobos ass Friend: and not taste anything Friend: but absinth Me: shit Me: is it as agressive as gin? Me: gin is fucking nasty Me: like eating the bark of an orange Friend: its like Friend: gin Friend: super saiyan steroids Friend: +10 Me: ugh Me: nvm then Friend: you gta try it Friend: if you do it Friend: have like a single shot Friend: as a first drink Me: how strong is it? Friend: so you can taste it and shit Me: yeh Friend: its the strongest there is i think Friend: like 60% Friend: something stupid Me: ohhh bitch Me: that is nasty Me: aight well Me: im gonna fucking Me: sleep Me: cheers for the chat dude Me: always a pleasure Friend: likewise Friend: nn dude

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birdysnow · 7 years

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Who is your favorite OC? Pls share their backstory I must know👀

to be honest it’s totally Devon. I’ve had him sinceee about the 6th grade, and he’s been concrete since about 7th grade (I’m almost a junior!). He’s so important to me :’). Whenever I feel sad I just work on him or write about him and it cheers me up real fast.

haha his backstory is a loooong, complicated mess. I literally went on an 1.5-2 hour rant about his backstory at a sleepover once, it was ridiculous how long it took for me to talk about him. I actually wrote a response for this ask yesterday, but it got deleted I hate my life. It was soooo long because I wrote it in the way I speak. You’re probably getting a lot more than you bargained for :’). I’ll put it below the cut so everyone else doesn’t suffer.

im gonna use bullet points bc i like them and theyre shorter

note: universe is like. sci-fi. there’s space stuff you know

full name: Devon Mateo Westmore

born: August 16th

a leo!!! do with that what you will

as far as parents go, they’re kinda dicks basically

Devon was a complete accident and he’s kind of treated as such

they’re pretty neglectful?? they really dont give a crap abt him frankly

they’re more interested in making bank with their jobs and turning up

has a sister who’s like graduating or smthn. she’s old. her name’s Lucía.

she also could give less than a crap about him and had a similar experience with their parents; just wants to be free and have no attachment to this rando baby

is a total Problem Child™ during school because of his messy life, just wants attention and love really but never really gets it

universally hated by teachers all his life

high school is especially rough he is a disaster

he’s basically like party all day every day bitches bc is parents are never home/probably wouldnt reprimand him for going out anyways

he drinks a lot, does drugs

he bangs a lot of people irresponsibly. A LOT of people.

is a player tbh he will flirt with anyone. very pansexual.

makes a lot of (bad) friends 2 fill the Void™ and does a lot of illegal things

anyway fast forward to when he’s like 17-18 and school’s like yep time to graduate!! and hes basically like

but he does graduate in order for the story to move forward

but now he’s like careers????????

all he’s kind of enjoyed is music throughout high school but he’s like thats not what i want to do.

yolo, he probably says to himself one day. I’ll just join the military and become a space pilot because thats what I wanted to do when i was 8

so BASICALLY i haven’t figured out how I want this space military to work but he ends up in like an academy (he’s like around 19ish) or smthn

this is where he starts to like chill tf out tbh

he discovers that he likes this a lot?? and he’s like dedicated to it???

a lot of like. coping happens and he has to figure out what kind of person he wants to be and recover™ himself

but yah he does well and he ends up being valedictorian nice going m8

basically if you’re #1 in your class you get the opportunity to go to this like. school/training thingy. and it’s very exclusive but if you like graduate from their you’re like. set

its like harvard except you could die there

yolo, he thinks in yet another life decision he really shouldn’t be taking lightly. I want $$$$ so i’m about to make that place my bitch

he does not make that place his bitch

he suffers so much

by the end of the year/2 years he’s there, he does pretty well

He makes a bunch of good friends, and he gets a ton of experience. he’s really good because of it, as to be expected

while there the top of the class is this girl and her name is Adella

shes my daughter

Devon likes her but she’s like super stand-offish and he’s a party kid so he’s like

“hard pass.”

but he has like mad respect and he thinks she’s chill

the feelings mutual

anyways like RIGHT before they graduate she gets recruited to this special program because she’s top of the class and like disappears he never sees her again

sike

but not for a while at least……………

so like fast forward he’s like 23 maybe

he’s got a good job, he’s living it up really?? he’s just like pretty happy all around he has a life, an apartment, friends

he gets an email from this girl and she’s like yo

I’m Tamara, my mother passed away recently but I discovered that our parents are apparently siblings?? I never knew I had a cousin, I heard you live in the area and I was just wondering if you wanted to get to know each other

and hes basically like damn if i’m about to pass up this chance!!!!!!!!

Tamara works as a programmer literally one (1) city away

basically they just?? end up getting along really well?? Devon spends a lot of his off days hanging out with her

he’s so ecstatic to finally have someone who’s his family like she treats him like a little brother

probably Tamara also has a younger sibling, their name is Calix. they work as a doctor and dont see Tamara often but the two are close regardless

they’ll be important later but for rn they’re not relevant

anyway, at some point they make plans for Devon to meet Tamara and he ends up at her work

and she’s chilling with this guy who is absolutely

fucking

gorgeous

Devon’s sure he died, right there, behind a goddamn cubicle,,

he’s frantically trying to think up something suave to say (are you the only tennessee no– wait–) when Tamara notices him

she introduces him to her hot friend, his name is Shay

Devon tries to play it cool

“Hey would you mind if Shay came w–”

“NO NOT AT ALL I WOULDNT MIND”

they go out for lunch

he chills out a little bit on the way enough to be his usual self

Shay mistakes flirting for good-natured joking

Devon suffers

They exchange numbers

cue pining

Shay continues to be oblivious

He has to be told point blank by Tamara whos like “Please, for the love of all that is good, fuck him go on a date with my cousin.”

“Has he been asking me on dates every time he takes me out?? every time??”

I love Shay so much u dont even know

Shay is basically a really pure and happy person, literally nothing can get him down ever he’s just trying to live his best life

he’s everything to Devon, he’s so sunshiney and nice and Devon has just been through some stuff and his life is going well and now he has been blessed with this beautiful, perfect boy….,,,

it’s not like Devon has never dated anyone before, most of his relationships have been purely physical but he’s been in romantic relationships w people

but this is like. it he knows it.

they date for about a year, everything’s fantastic

and then

things are heating up politically, and Devon’s in the military so they need him somewhere else

right now everyones living in like?? around india somewhere and they need him in like. canada.

hes understandably upset

he’s gotta move. acROSS THE GLOBE.

he’s not going to break up with bae but they’ve got to talk through this like Adults™

so they talk through it

and Shay’s basically like

“fuck no, i’m moving with you idiot

did you think you were just going to move away from me bench?? sike”

they move in together

I used to have their apartment layout drawn up on homestyler but they reset the system and it’s gone into the void so i’ll have to remake it :’)

so now they’re moved in which is super great everything is popping

remember Calix? they’re relevant again

basically, Calix has been dating this girl for a while now and they’ve gotten serious but their relationship is not working out because she is a mess tbh and they love each other very much but they are not good for each other

Calix isn’t emotionally receiving or helpful he’s very blunt so they end up splitting up because she doesn’t need a relationship

Said girl is Adella

Adella is a mess basically

the program she was recruited for made her very successful, very well known in her field and in a lot of ways, among common people

but downside is there was a lot of government dirty work she was kind of pressured into doing

there’s also a lot of hush hush skirmish’s that have been occurring that she had to stop

she’s been struggling with depression for a lot of her life and she has PTSD so when her contract is up she decides to take a break™

her and Calix’s relationship kind of falls apart but she’s friends with Tamara and she’s like I need to leave somewhere and get out of this messiness, i’m going to move back home (Canada)

Tamara is like

LIGHTBULB DING DING DING

she doesn’t think that Adella shoudnt be on her own, she wants someone to supervise her and make sure she doesnt accidentally starve or smthn

she has the best intentions but she kind of tricks Devon and Shay tbh

“Hey you guys got an apartment with an extra room?? Can you take in my friend for a while, she’ll pay rent, she has a job she’s just trying to find a nice place to live but she needs to move to the area rn”

the two of them are like “yeah sure lol sounds legit tammy we ly

Adella shows up on their doorstep with the intention to live there for like 2 years

cue Shay internally flipping his shit over this lowkey celebrity whos going to LIVE in HIS APARTMENT DEVON DID YOU CLEAN THE KITCHEN

Devon is not phased

he knows Adella from school so he’s just kind of like hey its u whats banging girlie

he basically just treats her like normal and she is so appreciative

basically they become SQUAD i love them and thats the beginning of my story and thus ends background

i’m sorry this was so long i tried so hard but i got carried away. double sorry for taking so long I have like 3 end of school projects due rip me

Thank you so much for asking!! I can’t tell you how much it means to me :’)) If you made it this far through my story I applaud you. thanks for reading!!! Feel free to message me if you have any questions

#ask #mine #im shook this happened im still dazed that anyone cares about my garbage children #i love my son so much #cheater157 #my ocs

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thegeminisage · 7 years

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since i FINALLY finished the comic page im gonna make the poor choice of playing zelda ALL NIGHT get ready for The Longest Post which is full of Big Super Spoilers

since lynel thoroughly kicked my can last night i need defense food and preferably stronger weapons

i technically already had more than enough shock arrows to proceed but i wanna kill him!!!!

LMFAO I JUST COOKED SOMETHING THAT GIVES ME 21 EXTRA HEARTS...HOLY FUCK

okay but in all seriousness i only have like 3 defense things........

i guess i'll try it fuck i dont feel like scouring the world for ironshrooms rn

ok. slept on the bed to get my stamina wheel & 3 hearts, will use my 21 hearts when those run out, got 3 defense things for about 14m of defense, I Can Do This

really i wish i had a one-handed weapon, two-handers are so slow :/

well here we go again :|||

lol why does my heartrate always go up for shit like smh.....

getting better at dodging

ooh he hates my ice arrows

HAHAHA I MOUNTED HIM

maybe i can get a snapchat pic

YES i did i didn't attack him in that perfect moment but hey some thing are more important

NOOO FUCK I DIED

I FORGOT TO REFRESH MY DEFENSE ELIXIR BC I HAD GOTTEN UP AND FORGOT IT WAS ALMOST OUT

JESUS FUCK

im so fucking annoyed lmao i was so close

oh well at least now i can use that whole mount

aaand again

oh. im out of ice arrows.

YIKES i forgot to refresh my thing again just for a sec and almost died

YES i got a perfect dodge purely on accident NICE!!!!

i can see everything from shatterback point, even naydra, but im too scared to jump while the beast is down there

no yk what fuck it. im turning this paraglider around

first tho i really wanna wait to see if i can catch another rainbow...they were so pretty and i lost the other pics i took when i died ):

oh!!! there it is!!!!! and i was just about to give up

ah it last such a short time - but it comes at the same time every day, around 4:05

i'm sure it won;t appear here anymore after the divine beasts knocks it off with the water though, haha

okay.......time to dive

/saves first

AHAHAHA I DID IT

WOW THAT THING IS SO HUGE UP CLOSE BYE

i mean it didnt even move im just Scared. ok

duuude i gave the lynel pic to the lady and got swim pants?! FUCKING SICK where do i get a helm

okay time to go free the divine beast!!

haha wait i came out here without defense stuff. i didn't cook anymore

oh well yolo

or actually this is a game so i live as many times as i want #determination

i do still have some extra hearts left, and stamina, and some healing items, and even some electricity elixirs, sowow!! okay! still huge!!!!!

ah i love sidon so much

he tries so hard and he's so ready and he loves his people so dearly

i bet he's gonna die lol

if it's like, a sage thing, maybe he has to replace mipha if she really is gone

jesus please don't die sidon PLEASE

OH MY GOD I GET TO RIDE ON HIS BACK?

JFC THIS MUSIC IS SO COOL!!!! AAAAKDSHFGKLJ

OH MY GOD HE'S TALKING!!! IN THE FIGHT!!!!! IM CRYING THIS IS SO COOL SKDFHBG

oh my gos he's talking he's talking there's voice acting im literally dying i cant handle!!!!!! this!!!!!! i lvoe him so much

omg omg

dude that was SO cool

and link got to ride on his back and then say goodbye!!! and sidon BELIEVES in him!!!!!!!!!!

god i wish i had gotten the helm before i did this haha i looked up the location but i don't think i can back out now

MIPHA?

MIPHA IS TALKING TO ME??

I CAN HEAR MIPHA'S VOICE

I'M CRYING I KNEW SHE WAS STILL ALIVE

i feel like she's about to die like the old man like Move On but

to see her again!!!!!!! im so emotional

oh my god oh my god

no okay i can leave and i need a second too im gonna go get the helm

apparently theres a quest you can do that doesnt give you the helm but tells you where to find it? but i can do that later rn i just want complete armor

alright nice full set hell yeah

HOLY fuck i was paragliding back and i tried to paraglide over the divine beast and it fucking OBLITERATED ME jesus CHRIST

dude there are these absolutely freaky eyeball things you gotta shoot to get rid of gunk and the music gets all creepy near them lsdksjfgh

oh no i found the cockpit but it's all closed up...is her corpse in there? her ghost? oh my god it says the terminals are unactivated

i'll be honest im a BIT stuck here i hate to have to use a guide, but

NO wait oh my god my runes!!! dumbass

i can lift the bars lol

oh my god the CONTROLS are on???

I CAN MOVE IT?? HOLY SHIT

this map is fucking 3D a 3D map!!!! in the other games they were flat holy shit!!!!

i can even see it moving on the minimap!!! holy FUCK

LMAO i was trying to move this crank with stasis and all along i needed to use magnesis. jesus

uh the music got freaky as fuck after i did the first terminal??? no?? thank you????

LOL YOU GOTTA RIDE THE TRUNK oh my god. oh my god.jesus christ

i am so small. it is so big. oh my god

I FEEL UNSAFE!

who is the boss of this dungeon? there's gotta be a boss

don't tell me i fight it

or the undead mipha

jesus god

i have had to ride this trunk 3 times now and i am not at all comfortable

reminds me of the big windmill in mirror's edge

okay yep i did all the terminals and now the music is downright terrifying!!! nice good Okay

HOLY FUCK WHAT IS THAT BLUE LIGHT

MIPHA?

NOT MIPHA!!!

"my demise 100 years ago" is she Really gone

omg no mipahs talking to me as i fight!!!

im straight up gonna look up what to do im too weak and defense-potionless to do this the hard way

ooh motherfucker doesnt like my shock arrows and lynel bow ahaha

huh that was actually like SUPER easy compared to some of the other stuff i've done

eeeewwwwww

MIPHA? ARE YOU ALIVE OR DEAD IN THERE? oh god oh god

holy fuck

i straight up just cried

she's a spirit and i thought she was gonna like, move on? which is sad enough

but no she's hanging around to pilot the divine beast from the afterlife

she even talked to it i was so sad it's been her only companion for a century of course she fucking talks to it

and i was staying strong!!! i was!!!!!

but she talked about how she wished she could see her dad again and i cried lmao why does this game give me dad feels of all things

i hope she gets to see her dad one more time too i'm so sad she's really dead and not alive like link

jesus fuck

oooh dorephan's talking about the master sword...gimme gimme gimme!!!

aww he was nice to sidon as everyone should be!!!!

holy shit he's really big?? i didn't realize it but he's like twice link's height JESUS

man. i am fucking wrecked lol

time to...explore...the rest of the province...i guess

i got a trident but i can never use it bc it will break. it was mipha's!!!!

on the other hand all three pieces of armor, my shield, weapon, AND bow are all zora themed i took a pic of myself to remember it by lol bc they will all break

i wonder where i should go after this...?

my brother went up to death mountain but i kinda want to do something different so we have something to tell each other about

but i kinda want to do the same so we don't spoil each other

i also REALLY wanna do the southeastmost province for some reason, all that water

tbh tho im getting ahead of myself i still have lots of this left to cover

it's getting harder to tell where i've already been, haha - when the things had borders and there was less visible that was easier

ooooh mipha's ability brings me back from death and she speaks briefly to me ;_; and it's active again in 23 minutes nice!

so i guess each champion gives you a different one and you can chose which to have active but tbh this one seems like it's gonna be the most helpful already

aww i did a little quest in kakariko to root out a theif and i love the way they built up dorian's past that's so cool

i think i was supposed to be able to pick up that yiga dude's sword tho and it glitched on me bc i was too fast :/

ugh i'm doing this oen shrine puzzle where you have to mount a male deer

and i finally mounted one after losing 10000 times and it was past some hills it wouldn't climb down

every time i find one thats close enough they fucking bolt im so fed up :|

and my sheikah sensor isn't picking up any more so i must have literally scared away all of them. fantastic. what a huge waste of time!! guess i will go somewhere else!

also can't solve the puzzle on how to open the shrine at veiled falls so im just batting a thousand today so much for sidequesting tbqh

FOUND A BLUE MANED LYNEL

SO MUCH NOPE

urgh and a blue hinox

exploring might not be worth my time either tbh

yeah no that's two shrines i haven't been able to open and this has stopped being fun, got one more ridge to explore before im done with this province - and some weird islands waaaay out there too but idk if i can get to them yet, and i'd just as soon wait until i unlocked the one next to them

yyyeah looking at them from here it makes much more sense to explore them when i get to that province

at least im all done with this one!! still plenty of sidequests and stuff, but those i can come back t more easily...it's harder to remember which terrain i have and haven't covered when i don't do it like this

i was thinking about how big the divine beast was when i saw it in the distance and

this sounds nuts but i bet im right - what if that flying island thing is a divine beast. WHAT IF

and that is The Day's Liveblog, more tomorrow, except probably not much bc of stream

#personal #loz liveblogging #botw spoilers #SUPER SPOILERS

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ts-indonesia · 5 years

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Episode 2 - “Even though I won my minigame, our tribe still took an asspounding” - Dylan

As Owen & Julian returned to Cahaya, episode two begun, with a flash game wagering challenge. On the Obor beach, the “Charlie” alliance remained dominant over the tribe, while on Cahaya, alliances were more fluid, but with Isaac & Julian emerging as potential targets.

After a somewhat decisive Cahaya win in the challenge, Jess & Olivia were sent over to infiltrate the Obor tribal council (woo feminism?). After kick-starting the tribe’s first tribal call, Jess/Trent begun to fostering a relationship that would continue through to the endgame, and Rob emerged as a consensus for being the person people had spoken to least.

As tribal approached, Rob felt increasingly nervous, sensing his name was out there and targeted Kenny as an alternative vote. While he may have been unsuccessful in saving himself, he did manage to convince Dylan out of pity to throw his vote on Trent, causing a degree of paranoia over an already fractured Obor tribe.

At tribal itself, Rob was sent out 7-1-1, leaving the returnee infiltrators paranoid they were being framed, and the king of card pyramids out of the game.

FOXX

So I did not participate in the challenge at all since the last couple days have been relatively slow. I did maybe two things and was guilty af about it but we won! I love not having to worry about stuff like getting eliminated. I approached Stoner & Jess about making an alliance and we sealed the deal and Stoner dubbed it Snap, Crackle, Pop which is a very lame name but tbh I’m so glad to be in an alliance I’m ok being named after a freakish cereal-peddling breakfast gnome. Jess & Stoner definitely know what’s up in the game and are fucking hilarious but dealing with smart people means you can assume they’re thinking as logically as you and thus it’s easier to appeal to their interests rather than dealing with more histrionic personalities. I also suggested we create a larger alliance roping in Olivia & Michael as they’re the most active. Michael’s a nice dude with similar interests and Olivia is super sweet and funny so I guess I’ll include them for selfish reasons. I’m just worried I’m overplaying at this point. Definitely think the less active people will be the first to go but I wanna keep winning so I don’t have to worry as much. :’)

OLIVIA

FUCKING FLASHGAMES BARRY MANILOW IS MAD AT YOU

ROB

I’m just talking to everyone, setting myself up for the next few tribals. Everything seems to be going according to plan.

MICHAEL

When the hosts arent watching your confessionals *sad face* https://youtu.be/5VtSLMs86Zk

FOXX

Owen & Julian came back and said the other tribe is quiet as fuck and Julian straight-up said we were “messy” and “talk a lot” at their tribal. Not only is this dude not pulling his weight in challenges, being very insistent on how he should infiltrate the other tribe, he’s also talking crap about us in a public forum. Chill out dude, you’re making yourself a target. Regarding the challenge I kinda outsmarted it (outfoxxed it?) by saying we all play each of the games first and then decide based on such information who plays what and seeing how talented some people in are at some games and less so in others it seems to be paying off for us so far. Let’s hope I can continue to be friendly and helpful without making myself out to be too big of a personality. It’s not about how good I think I’m doing; it’s about how others think I’m doing and what they choose to do with that.

LEIGH

Awwwwright come on Casanova let's do this

The scores I have gotten so far in Casanova are 1300, 400, and 20,200. So I think I'm just gonna stop after 3 more attempts and hope 20,200 is good cuz i got homework to do lmao

Well fuck now I just got 47,600 so it looks like my 20k wasn't even that good

OLIVIA

Fuck flashgames and fuck anyone who likes them or anyone who has ever made a flashgame fuck flash games I fucking hate you flashgames DIE DIE DIE FUCK YOU FLASHGAMES. On a different note our tribe has really great communication and great support I really hope we win. But also fuckkkkkkkkk flashgames 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬

FOXX

It worked! We won again and not only did I ace my portion with the highest wager but I also came up with the game plan that led to victory! God I'm so glad I'm not sucking! I kiiiiinda wanna go to Obor to create an impression and MAYBE get and advantage upon arriving but we'll see!

OLIVIA

IM AN INFILTRATOR BABY LEMME SPY ON YO ASS

FOXX

Really was considering putting up a fight for being part of the Infiltration because I really don’t wanna miss out but the last thing one needs at this point is bad publicity. My goal right now is to keep winning and try to form something of a majority alliance so I can avoid tribal council but also remain secure in the event we have to go. I’m glad if someone did go though it’s Olivia & Jess, two people I’ve built solid relationships with and hopefully they fan give us an idea on what’s on the other side. I’m really upset it took me this long to return to the prowl. I really do build up my self-esteem and suffering from anxiety and depression all my life makes me afraid to step out but I’m able to take center stage if I need to! Not having my anxiety meds for months has turned me into a mumbly, absent-minded, socially awkward mess but I think I’m managing surprisingly well. The other tribe might start feeling demoralized soon with losing back to back and the fact they’re already fairly inactive if Julian & Owen are to believed makes me a bit sad for them. But that sadness is quickly overtaken by pure...idk? Satisfaction that we’re winning so much. Let’s hope I don’t get too cocky and fuck it up...again. Foxes are cunning or something.

LEIGH

I got stomped in that challenge. We lost hard though at least it wasnt just me. Rob is gonna be the one to go cuz he talks the least. It makes me sad cuz we talked about music and stuff. I told him that I used to play French horn in middle school and people said it was a nerdy instrument, and he said it was a cool instrument. He seems like a really nice person. I wish he could stay. But everyones gotta go sooner or later, myself included. And I think when we merge or swap, the other tribe is much more intense than this one. It might get zany up in here.

JESS

Alright so I actually made a video confessional for this round but I rambled and mumbled too much so you are all stuck reading a JK Rowling novel length confessional. So... within the first couple of days the words "Guyana" and "2nd place" have come up at least 15 times each. This is my legacy I guess. However, these people are making it something legendary when in reality I was slaughtered and left for dead. Stoner needs to be like Anna and LET IT GO. Honestly though, I don't really mind Stoner but I know he's charming his way across the tribe being buddy buddy with everyone. When you ask ANYONE on the returnee tribe who they like 9/10 will say "Stoner and Foxx". That to me POTENTIALLY translates to "Stoner and Foxx are making chats with everyone and trying to pull in a 3rd, 4th, or 5th". That or I need to punch myself in the face. It's anyones guess? Olivia approached me about forming a group of us two and Stoner and Foxx. I don't want that thumb print in this game. Am I against it? (yes)... I don't trust these three for shit. Am I going to refuse it? HELL NAW. I basically pushed the responsibility of forming this group onto Olivia so I don't have any responsibility for this group if it gets out. LITERALLY a couple hours after... OWEN approaches me with a proposal of a group consisting of myself, Owen, Olivia, Stoner, and Foxx. HMM. LITERALLY EVERYONE WHO I DON'T WANT TO WORK WITH IN THIS GAME... You see.. I really want to work with Michael. He ticks every box in a potential alliance mate in this game. However, if this gets out I'm fucked. I'm going to die. I also really wouldn't mind working with Matt B. He's an intellectual but he could potentially murder me. SPEAKING OF MURDER.... I have to murder someone on this Obor tribe. Why did I want to be an infiltrator? I'm a crackhead and boredom. I also wanted to keep to use this as an opportunity to bond with whoever I buddied up with from my tribe and use this as a way to get sassy details from the newbies. Speaking of these newbies.. Did y'all feel them crack? Talking to them was like talking to 4 kids on coke. They were all over the place! We initiated the first tribe call and I think that was a pretty strategic move on my part. I kind of wanted to see dynamics and see how people meshed on call. Calls are kind of the hardest places to hide in my opinion.. HOWEVER, everyone just randomly left after a while so mission failed? I decided to use this as an opportunity to talk to Trent. Trent is someone who I know of through a friend. I've only heard nice things about him and that he's insanely loyal. HOWEVER...................... WOW................... He basically spilled his whole game in a heartbeat to me and I'm kind of shook. I'm still shooketh to the core currently. It's a LOT. He essentially confessed that he's incredibly social and incredibly good at competitions. He also went on to say that he believes he has a strong hold on these newbies. All of these are red flags for me because I strongly believe that we are TRYING to play the same game. I might have to start a #Trentexposedparty in the future? He also said he's good with Anabel and Kenny. So if this ever turns into a Vets .vs. Noobs situation... yikes. I think I'm good? I HOPE. I think keeping Trent in the loop for now is incredibly beneficial. I just pray he's not as open as he is with everyone else like he is with me. I'm going to try and keep him on a tight leash for now.. SPEAKING OF KILLING PEOPLE (I forgot to address this so #yolo) People want to murder Rob. I'm SO SO SO HAPPY ABOUT THIS BECAUSE........... I KNOW ROB. Rob is 1 of 2 newbies who I know. Rob also likes to MURDER ME in games. He's slimy, he plays both sides, and he is also a player who KNOWS my game. I can't have that going forward. I need a clean slate. I need people to focus on me flopping my first season and not my prior games which I ACTUALLY HAVE WON (surprising I know... I win thing sometimes). SO let's murder Rob? PLEASE. Who knew I actually would be taking out an ACTUAL TARGET THIS ROUND OF MINE? NOT ME. NOT ME.

OLIVIA

IM AN INFILTRATOR BABY LEMME SPY ON YO ASS

OLIVIA

Being an infiltrator has been interesting. Really just miss my tribe tho :/ hope the feeling is mutual. Piss poor night irl and wish I’d not volunteered to go tbh. Whatever tho, we’ll go back to normal tomorrow and I’ll keep forgetting to search for the idol

LORELEI

Today's the day of the tribal. From what I've heard, there's a consensus on rob. But I like rob even tho we haven't talked much. He told me he wouldn't vote me out, I didn't know how to answer that so I said I wouldn't vote him out either. Voting ppl out sucks 😭. Now I cant vote rob because that would make me a liar, I'm thinking of voting myself but I know that would put a target on me and the others would know that it was I who voted myself. I don't know what to do. On a lighter note, there was a tribe call yesterday evening, and it was really fun! It was so nice to talk to everyone and hear their voices.

FOXX

I am almost positive the Idol has been found and that is...um, what’s the word? Bad. Frankly I don’t think having an Idol is a huge benefit besides information and peace of mind but the fact we might have an issue with it where we have to counter with split votes and stuff is going to be a headache. As much as I like my tribe and how similar are interests are winning a lot does sort of create this no-stakes game where you just small talk to the same people every 2-3 days. I’m gonna miss it when the game gets intense but rn I’m on edge. Though I’m always down to sling some dice and I made a half-joke that our tribe should play some D&D and hooooly shit would that be amazing if it happened

LORELEI

a part of me wishes that there was some drama / beef between players because that would make it much easier to vote people out. There's a consensus to vote rob and the reasoning behind that is that he hasn't talked much in the chat, nor has he talked much to players. To me, that's sort of an iffy to vote someone out but then again, if not Rob, then who? Voting Evan was a bit more obvious of a choice, even though it was as hard (for me at least), but I didn't even think of Rob as an option to vote out until someone in my alliance brought his name up. I'm in an alliance with trent, chris, anabel and leigh. Even though we're the majority, I have a feeling I'm in the bottom of my alliance so I don't want to rock the boat for now.

OWEN

round 2. Still bored af with my tribe but still absolutely popped off to help keep us safe :’))))) we snatched the challenge..... loves it. Getting back from the other tribe was scary bc I had literally no info to give. That tribe didn’t give me any dynamics. But I did find out that jess and foxx wanted to pull in chris olivia and someone else (michael maybe?) for a five person alliance. Like wtfffff!?!?!? Why would chris and jess not work to include me in a five with foxx? Fuck that. So I went to jess and acted like I didn’t know and I brought up the idea of a five person alliance to her of her me foxx chris and olivia lmao and told her I’d talk to foxx a lil more. Then I tried to talk to foxx but it didn’t go so well I just have a hard time thinking what to say to him..,, So honestly idk. The good thing is I feel okay socially with isaac and matt, Julian and chris have our group and I like olivia and jess. Foxx and michael are my only real disconnects and I have the feeling the others might go for Julian if we lose..... which would be sad but not the worst thing in the world. I’m not in control yet but just u wait xoxoxo

Watch me get third boot lmao

JULIAN

I kinda fucked up at last tribal and made a few comments about this tribe... I've been doing damage control this round and I think things are ok now???

ROB

I've told Dylan and Jess/Olivia to vote Kenny. I sure hope this works.

I do not wanna leave. I am terrified like no other. We bouta head to tribal. Wish me luck

TRENT

Another night another loss. My fantastic tribe lost another immunity challenge. I feel like this is going to be a trend. Everybody is sooo quiet. Jess and olivia came over to our tribe after we loss and i bonded with them a little bit. Hopefully im making decent friends with the returnees, enough I can use that to keep me in if a swap happens. Hopefully since they haven't lost they are all itching to play the game and i can help spark that and get them to turn on themselves. Tonight's vote SHOULD be 8-1 for rob is everyone is being trust worthy. my alliance of 5 (me, anabel, leigh, chris, and lorelei) is still going strong. Not sure I 100% trust chris because I think he's being friendly with everyone. But luckily I am too. Pretty good relationship with with Dylan and pretty good with Kenny while he's a little quieter. Hopefully I'm in a decent spot after tonight. We will see

DYLAN

After taking an asshole pounding from the last round, it became obvious that I needed to make sure I was good with everyone on my tribe. This means telling 4 different people (Chris, Anabel,Rob and Kenny) I trust them the most. I like trent a lot but I can tell hes going to be a social and physical threat down the road compared to the other people on this rookies tribe. I was stuck on cubefield at 501k for a few hours then got a funny feeling that if I didnt score higher if lose my matchup and my intuitive ass was correct in predicting I would have lost by 1k points. Even though I won my minigame, our tribe still took an asspounding. Robs name was thrown out almost immediately by just about everyone, so I tried to hint that he may be the target but he didn't get it I guess. so the most difficult part of this round was figuring out what to tell rob for a vote. After an astonishing 15 fucking hours, he finally told me hed be down to do Kenny. Cool vote Kenny. I do feel bad though, so im going to throw my vote on trent as I feel he is least likely to be targeted on my tribe at the moment, and it could potentially spice things up!

CHRIS O

https://youtu.be/pZ22TstI7Ro

MICHAEL

https://youtu.be/B2lcYEK-JAs

MATT

following the first round, i feel like i was able to get in a decent spot where i wouldn’t be targeted first. i feel like i’m pretty active, and i’m trying to do my best and conversation with people. i think i wanna tru and solidify SOMETHING with someone because its these early alliances and bonds that tend to run deep into the game with. However one thing i’m never good at is determining when to initiate game talk. like i wanna ask about their thoughts on other people and who they think we could work with, but my fear is starting that talk and then being viewed as paranoid and a gamer. And this early on i really don’t wanna have to deal with that. i think this round i felt a lot more laid back and not as active conversation wise. with classes starting up i need to be on my A-Game from here on out. i think if we lose next challenge, i should be fine. people have talked about how issac just doesn’t seem to be here and julian is often gone/is crazy. so those should be two easy boots, but you can never be certain in this game. the damn torches are confusing as heck and idk what correlation they have on the game. the idol search is fun being an easy grid but not fun bc i can’t find anything or forget to search.

#whenyourfiresout

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